Why is it ALWAYS the quiet ones?

atm i dun really feel like typing a total recount story..
of my current life..
but the point if it was to be typed would be that
K n Albie are over.. as Scar has so kindly proclaimed
huge bunch of thanx to scar!!

anyways..
to my current thought post...
god i havent had one for a while
maybe due to the number of random blanks im getting...
ok starting...

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actually never got round to starting..
K and Albie are both home...
well Albie's off Snow-something-ing
meanwhile K's at school...
but "home" emough i guess..


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ok that's in the hols..
and lets see if i can pick up the original point of this post
n drag it thru till i sorta feel like its finished..

WARNING: Long wind-ed and Mood Dampening post...
may be fatalistic to your own happy mood at the current moment..

mmm
like the titles says
"Why is it ALWAYS the quiet ones?"
well obviously not always since its a generalisation
but like if you think about it.
doesnt it just sorta make sense..
well being a generalisation it doesnt apply
to EVERYONE who seems quiet..
but still..

the reason(s) for a particular person being quiet..
hmm make list :D

shy-ness..

non-talkative..

always off with the fairies :P

believe it's not their place to speak

outta their comfort zone

plotting some evil scheme to take over the world ;E
(hmm the E with the eyes sorta looks more like fangs
if you have no idea bout what im talking bout..
check out panda's tagboard that may explain it)

they just wanna be left alone

they believe they have no social skills but wish someone would include them

they've been bullied before and dunno how to act

attention seeking
(since they have the patience to wait till someone comes)
etc..

i guess i was stretching the reasons..
and well some of the reasons i would know from
both experience and 2nd hand knowledge..
but ah well
some maybe viable others may not..

but all in all quietness i guess we conclude
doesnt always lead to being sociable

they ask why it is the quiet ones that may just turn out violent?
but are they even noticed at all before hand?
i mean seriously?
ok on the note of attention seeking,
some may just be successful and get some sorta may not..
but the silent ones that turn violent?
think bout all those ppl out there..
who believe violence is the only way they'll be heard..
im thinkin its a similar thing...
well that is for some.. NOT all..

you wonder why they're violent and get away with it?
coz its not like they're noticed in anyways..
there's always the academics...
the artisically talented..
the physically able..
mentions..
always mentions.. under public eye n scrutiny..
whether its communal or just peer like in school..
if they do anything.. its sorta scandalous..
what they do what they say is in one way or another heard of..

but the participants..?
sometimes just the ones just too quiet..
just to shy..
dont take part..
but when they work up the nerve to actually do or say something?
just overshadowed..
coz there's always the everpresence of others..
or so it may seem..

feeling like you're not heard just brings your self esteem way down.
just think bout it..
no matter what you say..
no matter if you open your mouth to shout.
sometimes it just feels like no one cares..
and thinkin bout it
once you're in that spiral..
all you can do is fall further and further down..
that depression and numbness.
just just doesn't help at all..

but if you see an opening..
just that opportunity..
whether or not you can grab on to it.
n hold it..
that's when you have that lil chance to pull yourself out..
in away redemption in you own eyes..
that light at the end of the tunnel..
that hope..
that someone has finally heard...?

that's all good if you reach that end..
but what if you just happent to F it up?
the only slight bit of hope..
that ray of light
that in your darkest moments you didnt even dare to imagine existed..
came into existance..
but in the same few moments later..
has flickered out
it just seems as all is lost..
there really barely seems to be any other possible comparison
to possibly explain that feeling..
just that endless pitch black inhabited wasteland of your mind..
where your confidence and esteem exists in sub-zero..
and everything seems to have been locked up..
just the total lock up and dead set belief that..
your once and only chance..
where you DARED to even hope..
DARED to dream again..
for those few moments..

GONE..

where you took a chance..
in total fear you reached out..
and yet you failed
and nothing seems to be ahead..
not possible.
never coming back..
never dare to try to reach
never can touch without remembering..
but by forgetting..
all you do is hide n run away..
run back to a yesterday..
a time before you even bothered to try.
bothered to reach out..

until.
until they realise..
a way to both end the pain..
to both leave their mark and at the same time..
end it all..
never have to bear the pain again

For those out there..
who have dragged tehmselves away
from this spiral of low, sad, depression like state
congrats.
for those who havent..
*hugz* i wish you well
and that you may have the courage to reach out..
but in a form other than violence or any self harm or suicide..
-Del

Why Love Me...?

Mmm..
few days since geog camp..
and well i had a mini talk with div...
of which i quoted:

"We love you, not for who you are,
but instead, we love you for who you are NOT"

something i question too sometimes..
the fact that you are actually loved for who you are..
or if its just who you're not..
but if its for who you are...
really i see that as a pretty damn superficial at times..
esp when its the whole you don't actually know them taht well..
its just the fact you only see one side of them
which means that the reason to love them
in the end just shatters..
if that ideal or side of the person you see.
just collapses in itself..
but if its for who they're not..
i see it as just a larger chance..
that the person is still accepted for who they are..
since really the reason for liking/loving them in the first place..
is still there..
its just a new side...
which adds to another dimension of that person..
well unless side you see is the side you see them as not i guess..

and i also thought..
what bout the opposite..
well not entirely..
do we like someone just for the fact of who they're not?
or is it also slightly a personal thing?
like you liek spending time with someone else..
for the side of you that they bring out?
the whole..
a diff person plays on a diff side..
making you react diff..
and just spending time togther just lets you vent off..
and release diff tensions and thoughts..

of which..
i guess going along the whole love theme..
came across this on my comp..
prob pretty old..
i assume i copied it from some forward email..
but i saved it as a word document..
and well time to share..
after all sharing is caring ^^
n some of it is bit repeatitive but ah well..

100個愛妳的理由...你最鐘意邊句?
-->如果仲唔夠畢如大家再提出!!
第001個理由～因為想望著妳告訴全世界我愛妳
第002個理由～因為我只想和妳一生一世一起走
第003個理由～因為我不想讓妳再工作下去了
第004個理由～因為我只想養妳這一個女人
第005個理由～因為除了妳，我的一生，別無所求
第006個理由～因為只有妳，我想帶回去給我的老媽看看
第007個理由～因為有妳，能讓我魂牽夢縈
第008個理由～因為只有妳，能讓我百看不厭
第009個理由～因為只有妳，我想改變一切
第010個理由～因為妳，是我繼續生存下的理由
第011個理由～因為只有妳，可以讓我放棄全世界
第012個理由～因為只有妳，可以改變我的人生觀
第013個理由～因為只想要妳，陪伴著我一生
第014個理由～因為只有妳能讓我有一股衝動（我們結婚吧！）
第015個理由～因為只有妳能讓我有一股衝動（我們生個寶寶吧！）
第016個理由～因為只有妳說的話，讓我不懂得去拒絕
第017個理由～因為我想在妳的心湖裡，充滿我的影子
第018個理由～因為我希望能正大光明的親吻著妳的手
第019個理由～因為我希望能正大光明的摟著妳的腰
第020個理由～因為我希望能正大光明的吻妳的唇
第021個理由～因為我只想和妳，來一次地久天長
第022個理由～因為有妳，昨夜的我又失眠了
第023個理由～因為只有妳，讓我能每天期待著電話鈴聲
第024個理由～因為我想每天聽到妳的聲音
第025個理由～因為我每天早上起床後第一個想到的人就是妳
第026個理由～因為我想每天起床見到的第一個人就是妳
第027個理由～因為只有妳，能讓我放下偽裝已久的面具
第028個理由～因為只有妳，能越過我那高樓般的心防
第029個理由～因為妳能讓我這顆飄泊已久的心，想安定下來
第030個理由～因為只有妳，讓我真的想努力向上
第031個理由～因為沒有人像我那麼笨，一字一字的，想打出數百個愛妳的理由
第032個理由～因為我不想再辜負每一個浪漫的夜晚了
第033個理由～因為我只想要妳，陪我渡過每一個浪漫的夜晚
第034個理由～因為我希望每天都能對著妳說（我愛妳）
第035個理由～因為我想每天都能讓妳開開心心
第036個理由～因為我想讓妳獨佔我的每一個浪漫
第037個理由～因為我想獨佔妳的心房
第038個理由～因為我只想把我的保險受! 益人改成妳的名字
第039個理由～因為我每天都能喝到妳倒給我的飲料
第040個理由～因為我想保護妳一輩子
第041個理由～因為我想照顧妳一輩子
第042個理由～因為我希望我是妳心情不好時的一個好朋友
第043個理由～因為我希望我是妳唯一的好情人
第044個理由～因為我希望我能成為妳的好丈夫
第045個理由～因為我想作妳未來孩子的父親
第046個理由～因為我希望妳是我未來的老婆
第047個理由～因為我希望能成為妳和妳未來孩子的好爸爸
第048個理由～因為有妳的鼓勵，我未來會很有錢哦～～～～
第049個理由～因為我家的肥皂也因為想妳，瘦了好多
第050個理由～因為我想每天都能見到妳那可愛的笑容
第051個理由～因為我只想牽著妳的手，走過每一個人生的旅程
第052個理由～因為我只想牽著妳的手，走過全世界的每一條大街小巷
第053個理由～因為我只想把我所有的心思，用在妳的身上
第054個理由～因為小傑也希望妳能當他的大嫂
第055個理由～因為連我家房裡的枕頭都希望妳能睡它上面
第056個理由～因為我的呼吸，只是為妳
第057個理由～因為我想為了妳，再去買一! 次九十九朵玫瑰花
第058個理由～因為我的老媽一定會喜歡妳
第059個理由～因為我會一輩子的時間去愛妳
第060個理由～因為我相信自己會一輩子喜歡妳
第061個理由～因為我相信自己會一輩子疼妳
第062個理由～因為我相信自己會一輩子照顧妳
第063個理由～因為我相信妳會愈來愈喜歡我
第064個理由～因為我在心中說愛妳，連老天都聽到了，而流下它的眼淚
第065個理由～因為我在心中說愛妳，連老天爺都聽到了
第066個理由～因為我在心中說愛妳，連老天爺都感動了
第067個理由～因為只有妳，讓我想為妳而戒菸
第068個理由～因為我家的棉被想擁抱妳
第069個理由～因為我想要妳，幫我買件衣服
第070個理由～因為我想要妳，幫我買件褲子
第071個理由～因為我已經幫妳準備好住在我家時該用的毛巾了
第072個理由～因為我已經幫妳準備好住在我家時該用的牙刷了
第073個理由～因為我已經告訴我小傑，妳是我的女朋友了
第074個理由～因為我已經答應我家的枕頭，有一天，妳會睡在它上面
第075個理由～因為我已經答應我家的棉被，有一天，妳會陪它睡
第076個理由～因為我已經答應我家的牙刷，它正期待著妳輕? X的吻
第077個理由～因為我也答應了我家的毛巾，它正期待著妳溫柔的親撫
第078個理由～因為我已為妳準備好了在我家的杯子
第079個理由～因為我告訴了我家的杯子，它正期待著妳小巧的唇
第080個理由～因為我已經告訴我的電腦，妳是它未來的女主人
第081個理由～因為我的鍵盤，正期待著妳那輕巧的手指
第082個理由～因為我也告訴我家的門，是妳！得趕快開門
第083個理由～因為為為妳，我家的門每天都顯得很緊張
第084個理由～因為妳，連我家的自來水都緊張
第085個理由～因為妳，我家的任何東西都充滿了感情
第086個理由～因為妳，我家的任何東西都有了生命
第087個理由～因為是妳，我願意告訴妳、我的從前
第088個理由～因為是妳，我願意告訴妳我的現在
第089個理由～因為是妳，我有勇氣大聲的告訴全世界，妳我的將來
第090個理由～因為是妳，我想毫無保留的把我的所有、通通給妳
第091個理由～因為是妳，我的肚量變大了
第092個理由～因為妳是唯一讓我無法生氣的女孩
第093個理由～因為我也長的不差?琚耤耤耤?
第094個理由～因為我想要妳看看我寫過的文章
第095個理由～因為我呆呆的，需要! 有妳這種聰明的來提醒我
第096個理由～因為我知道A其實妳也需要一個人來關心妳
第097個理由～因為我知道，其實妳也需要一個人在妳傷心時陪伴妳
第098個理由～因為我知道，妳是一個好女孩
第099個理由～因為我知道，妳只是想努力賺錢
第100個理由～因為我已經為妳打了一百個理由了哦!!

mmm
thinkin its sorta a shorter than usual..
and well sorta incomplete post...
but since someone's buggin for me to stop
saving as draft..
here's the post..
and i guess ive yet again proven scar's hypothesis..
that i do post straight after she does -.-
despite the fact i was gonna tonite
*sigh*
ntie nite
*hugz*

Take action....NOW!

Tomorrow I am officially going to bring a meat cleaver to school and wave it meaningfully before Adella's face.

C'mon Dell (paddock), it's not that hard...pressing 'publish' instead of 'save as draft' (something along those lines, my whole blogger is in CHINESE because of my computer is all chinese. And don't we all know that Scarlet is a chinese illiterate?)

Affection n Possessive-ness

Damnit..
im on a blogging roll..
yet i cant remember why i wanted to post
-.-

ah rite i remember..
i dunno..
the whole generation gap..
you know the diff between generations
well more of my parents vs. my view point
most of the time i sorta get it
i understand the reasoning behind things..
but being me..
and i LOVE hugs..
i wonder why the warning from my mum
when i hugged a GAY guy..
well for those who know him
i only know one guy who's gay..
but still...
why?
that's something i dont get
its not like there's the whole
strictness on the whole girl n guy thing these days
and hello? its not like i have to keep up a "rep"
of being what? chaste of hugs?

well ok its staff..
but so?
its JUST a hug..
and a friendly one at that..
*sigh* why do we live in the times of such a gen gap?
well i guess PLUS being asian...
but still the diff being before guys n girls cant even touch hands..
but i WASNT holding his hand..
just a bloody friendly hug -.-

and really..
what of the whole guy possessive-ness thing?
quoting from the bottom thing..
off Albie's blog..

If u DON'T LOVE him, he tries to POSSESS u;

why oh WHY does it seem true?
well cmon..
yeah i do like a lil bitta possessiveness in my ideal guy..
but HELLO im not going out
i dont belong to anyone..
why try to possess me??
i like my freedom atm
hell i LOVE my freedom.
well my limited freedom atm since i choose not to test it..
but for me its still there

lol of which reading what i just typed..
i dunno what im talking bout..
parental freedom or having a guyfriend/boyfriend freedom..
:S god..
talk bout multiple issues..
and i dun even know sometimes if i EVEN HAVE these issues
-.-

tho one thing's for sure
i just dislike seeing disapproval in ppl's eyes
or that some ppl voice their disapproval
well ok i have no right in stopping what they may feel
or what they say..
or maybe they're just stating their concern..
but for some..
i see it in my point of view
is taht they have no right as their own person
to repeatedly state and argue with ME..
but what I think or what I do
and just to state the obvious..
whether or not readers care..
no im not referring to my parents
since i willingly listen to their thoughts and opinions..
tho what i do with them is yet for me to decide..

you know..
this is one of the less explored thought posts.
but i guess..
maybe it just gets the point across..
im having a sorta
thought explosion of random thing..
since i dunno..
i actually am reflecting a slight bit more again

but yeah
REALLY g2g
gettin late
nite nite
*hugz*

Total Ramble-y Goodness ^^

Ok..
so looks like the copy post off Albie didnt
get me to finish the whole draft posts lurking on my dashboard..
but oh well..
thought of something new..
well not really..
but thought of something i felt like posting on..
cant say much really..

i guess
before lack of posting could be due to the fact
that as melvin tried to do..
sorta worked for me.
drowning out my thoughts via music
the fact that i listen to my ipod more and more
leaves less room for thinking since the lyrics being sung in my head
would make up for any usual thinking i would do..
and well recently with K n Albie over..
even less thought put in anything
well my head really
since before it was always random thoughts
coz im so alone so i just sit there
and have the only convo i could possibly have when im alone..
just sitting there and thinking..
sorta having a convo with myself..

ok back to the whole point of this post..

Tell me, is it just curiosity?
the fact that there are those who just stop,
join and and take a glance at what is to be seen?
ok really what i said can be taken in many ways i guess..
there's the whole mental stop
and review the whole life.. reflection thing..
but there's also the type of stoppin in the physical sense..
stopping by a shop window,
just coz a few ppl are looking in there..
and it draws your curiosity..
the fact that only a few can gather and a herd, a group, a crowd,
just standing together, they attract more and more
just coz a single which which draws others?

is it but instinct? that as mere animals we still draw others?
for the companionship, the need to be a group
the need to stand as a larger form of the one?
the compulsion to do just one thing a as a group?
the fact that within a group
there is that comfort that we seek?
a comfort zone, a thing of familiarity?

And what of those?
those who wish to be individualistic?
do they not in themselves draw others to them?
A trend-setter for example.
but of them, there are those who would revel in the attention
if it was their intial intent then good for them..
but why are those who assuming-ly wanna be an individual
meanwhilst
to be an individual they draw on teh ideas of others?
and get annoyed at people for copying them??
coz cmon tell me..
how many TRULY original ideas are there out there?
maybe its just a pesmissitic view
but seriously..
what's the chance that an idea is ENTIRELY in itself original?
in my opinion it can only be but a modification

the fact that thoughts are internal
how can there be a claim to originality
when you have no idea whether across this vast world..
another may have thought of it once before?
yet have not had the means of which to do or express
their thought?

how much is it that we are is original anyways?
to be individualistic..
we are but conforming..
tho i guess in the ideal of free will we are
but just conforming through free will instead of through force
but is our will not also in itself affected by peer pressure?
it just seems to go round in circles..
*sigh*
just like the whole free will and free marketing thing..
well i think that's how it goes??

mm i guess really for me..
that was a long time no post ramble..
and damn! it felt good :P

anyways
nite nite
*hugz*
mite just post again..
depends on how i feel

The Problem with Guys... :P

Well since Albie sorta did say this belonged somewhere else..
i decided to give it a home ^^
well that and the fact that hey i sorta agree..
well being a girl i just maybe SLIGHTLY biased..

so yeah a fill-in post in a way..
sorta something so that i could just get my
creative brain juices flowing enough to actually
finish the few draft posts i started but havent finished

so here it is, "The Problem with Guys"

The problems with GUYS:
If u TREAT him nicely, he says u are IN LOVE with him;
If u DON'T, he says u are PROUD.
If u DRESS Nicely, he says u are trying to LURE him;
If u DON'T, he says u are from KAMPUNG.
If u ARGUE with him, he says u are STUBBORN;
If u keep QUIET, he says u have no BRAINS.
If u are SMARTER than him, he'll lose FACE;
If he's SMARTER than u, he is GREAT.
If u DON'T LOVE him, he tries to POSSESS u;
If u LOVE him, he will try to LEAVE u.(very true huh?)
If u DON'T MAKE LOVE with him., he says YOU DON'T LOVE him;
If u DO!! he says u are CHEAP.
If u tell him your PROBLEM, he says u are TROUBLESOME;
If u DON'T, he says that u don't TRUST him.
If u SCOLD him, u are like a NANNY to him;
If he SCOLDS u, it is because he CARES for u.
If u BREAK your PROMISE, u Cannot be TRUSTED;
If he BREAKS his, he is FORCED to do so.
If u SMOKE, u are BAD girl;
If he SMOKES, he is GENTLEMAN.
If u do WELL in your exams, he says it's LUCK;
If he does WELL, it's BRAINS.
If u HURT him, u are CRUEL;
If he HURTS u, u are too SENSITIVE!!

Just a 2 min job. Apologies for the crapness. Oh and Panda, no need to feel so happy that I didn't make a crappy one for you as well. It was just that I am going to play a game now. *lazy* Haha.

CRAP! I spelt 'thee' wrong! *covers face in shame*

Melody of My Life

You know..
these days all the songs i listen to mainly are chinese..
and yeah im behind in all things music and entertainment..
but still..
even if the songs are old
the only songs i listen to happen to only be chinese..

just before..
i put the ipod on shuffle..
and well it changed to a song from when i was in yr 10..
and well ok it was a good song..
but in a total of 2 mins i had changed to the next song..
coz i just couldnt bear listening to it..

you know..
really i realised why there's the songs you LOVE
and then there's the songs you hate...
the fact that ok there's the taste in songs..
but then whatever emotions you're going through at the time..

i guess really with the whole
arts transends up to a higher level of explaination...
well not really but the whole indescribable can sorta be like communciated
through arts.. really to each person's interpretation..
but you attach emotions to things..
and that would be each person's perceptions...

but yet i wonder..
how does this explain the fact i dont listen to much english anymore..?
anyone got any suggestions??
music just brings back so many memories..
i guess really wat i wanna relive?

ah well..
gettin late
nite nite
*hugz*

Fading Posts...

Looking at the number of posts
as i opened up on the dashboard
i noticed i had a total of 341 posts..
of which i thought where are my posts?
until i realised the title i had of another
was # 240..
looking at the posts on view 300..
i realised.. my posts have faded into oblivion :(
well.. maybe they may still be there in archives..
but still..

speaking of which these days..
the posting rate has just declined..
which i guess i really should be picking up on..
but with full on tests tomoz..
and hopefully ill be studying instead of posting..

well its the aths tomoz..
and with the "troy story" theme..
and me being cheerleader..
i dunno what to wear..
ugh stuff it maybe..

i wonder..
why dont i bother with things anymore..

hmm i sorta need an enthusiasim booster..

of which..

Jerry got into yr 11

YAY...!!

or not?

*sigh*

well at least a congrats to him..

nite nite
*hugs*

Nothing But a Blonde Bitch...

this blog post is really dedicated
to a certain blonde of my school community..

------------------------------------------
actually on reconsideration..
ive just decided against a total bitch on this particular blonde..
since i dont think she could even deserve any credit
or a post which is devoted to bitch on her..

basically...
today.. on the bus back to school..
i just managed to overhear a conversation between two people..
of which within this conversation..
i just was so shocked at the degree of shallowness of the talk..
that really my definition of "shallow" really has been redefined..

anyways..
yep.. as scar had posted before..
panda was over for the weekend..
of which scar practically recapped..

had yoga yesterday..
and i hurt all over..

maybe im losing the interest in posting..
or these days.. just dont feel like it..

ah well..
post some time soon
nite
*hugz*

Weetbix? Thumbs down!

Adella's past weekend was quite fruitful. The reason being? Well first of all and most importantly, it was Scarlet's birthday, so Adella was in a happy hippy mood the whole time. (haha) Only joking. Highlight was Panda coming over from Melbourne to Perth. Adella enjoyed catching up with him firstly on Saturday, then on Sunday. =) Yay. Hope you had a good time in Perth Panda!!! Yes, I invited myself, and crashed Adella and her friend's little get together on Saturday because lonely me didn't have anyone else to annoy! =( Because of me, the whole official party had to lead in a procession from the Bell Tower to the Convention Centre, which was a mini trek, and I was constantly reminded of my ill-doings. Eeeeeek! Haih. Sorry crew!! Haha, a happy snap I took! =)

Anyway, I got to go shower now, bye!

Just for Laughs...

Inge sent me an email forward..
and it reminded me of
something that i keep in mind..
was last year i came acoss a quote..
well actually two..
but put em together and they sorta become one

Murphy's law:
If there's a chance that something will go wrong... It will.
Commentary on Murphy's Law
(cant rememember who commented tho):
Murphy was an optimist.

anyways, the email...

Murphy's OTHER Laws

Light travels faster than sound.
This is why some people appear bright until you hear them speak.

He who laughs last, thinks slowest.

A day without sunshine is like, well, night.

Change is inevitable, except from a vending machine.

Those who live by the sword get shot by those who don't.

Nothing is foolproof to a sufficiently talented fool.

The 50-50-90 rule: Anytime you have a 50-50 chance of getting
something right, there's a 90% probability you'll get it wrong.

It is said that if you line up all the cars in the world end to
end, someone would be stupid enough to try to pass them.

If the shoe fits, get another one just like it.

The things that come to those that wait
maybe the things left by those who got there first.

Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day.
Teach a man to fish and he will sit in a boat all day drinking beer.

Flashlight: A case for holding dead batteries.

The shin bone is a device for finding furniture.

A fine is a tax for doing wrong. A tax is a fine for doing well.

When you go into court, you are putting yourself
in the hands of 12 people who weren't smart enough to get out of jury duty.

hopefully that got SOME sorta reaction..
whether the thought of them being lame
OR
actually something of amusement..

anyways
nite nite
*hugz*

Wating... Waiting.. and STILL Waiting...

yep.. ish waiting for the Brazil vs. Aust match...
and now im wondering why the hell did i choose to do that..
usually im still awake at this time..
and funnily
with 18 hours sleep last nite..
im more tired then EVER

there's bout 7 mins till 12..
and someone just accused me of being rude..
hmm sometimes when you dont know the whole story..
dont accuse..

weekend flew by yet again..
of which it also happened that chinese flew by..
which really for a long time was a first..
guess i mita have just enjoyed it just that bit more?
strange..

had family dinner on the sat arvo...
and happy to see everyone
started on a majong game
of which its official of the 2nd divorce that i know of personally..
sad really
that so many rash weddings are made
followed by divorces..
anyways its 12..
off to turn on the tv..
tho dunno if ill fall asleep
:P
nite
*hugz*

Return of the Muse

As some readers may know..
i have a muse..
of which at times goes off on holidays
and since his/her return.. :S
(havent decided whether its male or female :S)
i guess well i thought of something to blog bout
:D

was sitting round in the evening today..
and looked to my right
and there lay a copy of my yr 3 book that
i never ended up returning to my primary school teacher
:(
something i guess i regret
but anyways
the book was
"The Stinky Cheese Man and Other Fairly Stupid Tales"
it really at the time i had it (yr3) one of my favourite books
due to the whole unconventional style/form
whatever you call it
and it was just a total parody of a bunch of well known
fairy tales all jumbled up in a book

anyways..
back to the point
i picked it up and started flipping through
and reading..
and realised..
i CANT remember the story of chicken licken!!!

ok so you're probably thinking..
no biggie? i mean its just a fairy tale
and its not like its needed for some job application rite?
(well other than child care possibly?)
but the point is..
well sorta linking to geog teacher who was claiming that
ppl didnt have their fairytales straight..
chicken licken is a fairy tale
which involves repitition..
well actually like some other fairy tales..
but anyways
doesnt it show forgetful-ness?

(btw to the following if anyone does have answers
feel free to comment and explain all this to me?)
the fact that we totally forgot it..
is it selective memory we have in which
we choose to forget things?
or it just happens that the memory of the neurons
which we dont use much anymore just die off?
or they're just weaker so they're the ones that die
when you like knock your head on something?
or its just random chance for the ones that die?

back to chicken licken
i remember the basics..
but i cant remember who she talks too
she wonders round and gathers up all these animals
and together they must "see the president"
coz the sky is falling down
then get lead by the fox to his home then he eas em all up..
well that should be right
but who the hell are the other animals?
i remember there's a goosey loosey and a ducky lucky
but thats it.. and the fox who is like foxy loxy..
why the hell loxy anyways ?
(other than the reason that it rhymes..)
ah well..

hmmm..
maybe i should rename this place
"complaints of del"
hello how much do i complain?
if not that then question
or type out random thoughts?
"Please Mind Del"
that could be nother.. -.-

hmm of which that last idea..
puts me into another mini annoyance..
ok the main fact is the fact that im short..
yes?
well just coz some ppl are so tall.
could you please be mindful
of the minority?
there are short ppl out there such as me
because of our genetic make-up

being shouldered in the eye hurts
as well having bags knocked across your head
as well as corners of files scraping past
as well as being painfully STEPPED ON
(IM NOT A BLOODY WELCOME MAT)

some of us have bottom lockers
of which i thank god i dont use that often anymore
for which i am thankful..
but is it seriously necessary to BLOCK
the main entry/exit coz ure talking?
during the main student jam with ure bag on ONE shoulder
and having it dangerously over my head?

could you not?
for the sake of EVERYONE just take your lovely conversations
OUTSIDE? i mean you're heading that way
and it wouldnt be taht much of a hassle for you to get
outside that much earlier would it?

ok
time for beddie-byes
and exceited to see panda, albie n K
:D

cya
nite nite
*hugz*

Open Minds... Narrow Views...

dun feel like blogging these days..
cant remember

Quiz I Received in an Email...

Received a quiz email from jess v

1. FIRST NAME?

Adela

2. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?

Yep. A certain town which is apparently somewhere in
either whoop whoop or wagga wagga

3. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?

A few days ago? yep think it was sometime over the weekend..

4. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?

It's legible at times but personally no i dun like it much

5. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCHMEAT?

Lunch meat? O.o
umm... i like seafood?
i know i like salami

6. Kids?

Kids...?
i like lil like toddlers n preprimary aged kids
but getting into primary and up..
some start getting annoying
and well what can i say but i favouritise too?

7. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?

At times?

8.DO YOU HAVE A JOURNAL?

Would this count?
nah i do have one but dun rite that often
actually havent in a long long time..

9.DO USE SARCASM A LOT?

um no?
well coming from one who
sometimes has the inability to detect scarcasm..

10. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?

I think so? prob a yes

11.WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?

dunno.. tho for a dare i might..

12. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?

Creal? um how bout crunchy nut :D

13.DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?

nope.. too lazy

14. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?

reasonably.

15. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?

Ice-cream flavoured icecream ^^
none of that low fat crap
well any icecream in general anyways :D

16. SHOE SIZE?

somewhere between a 6-9

17. RED OR PINK?

Both?
depends what for really

18. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?

i complain too much?
but then again i cant help it..
well i can but i just do it outta habit
and i wouldnt talk much otherwise?

19. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?

Two groups of ppl : family and friends

20. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU?

its on a blog..
not expected :D

21. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?

no shoe-ies n im wearing jeans

22. LAST THING YOU ATE?

dinner = pho tai
what can you say?
but convenience + lazy person = simplest possible solution

23. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?

Ni He Wo - Wang Li Hom

24.IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?

take a guess...
BLUE!

25. FAVORITE SMELL?

Flowers, roses incl. um whatelse?
OMG Passionfruit ^^ and artifical grape (like in those lipglosses?)

26. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?

K

27. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE YOU ARE ATTRACTED TO?

Eyes?

28. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?

yep. Really nice friend ^^

29.WAT IS YOUR FAVORITE DRINK?

Passionfruit anything? :P

30. FAVORITE SPORT?

most sports?

31. EYE COLOR?

Brown.

32. HAT SIZE?

Somewhere between 56-60

33. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?

nope. glasses in class

34. FAVORITE FOOD?

Passionfruit flavoured stuff, Pasta, noodles, congee, soup, ice-cream, CHOCOLATE!!

35. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDING?

Happy ending *sigh*

36. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED AT THE MOVIES?

Ice Age 2

37. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?

it's red, the ciao ciao top that ms gay bought me back in rome

38. SUMMER OR WINTER?

SO summer!!

39. HUGS OR KISSES?

Both.
i know im greedy :P

40. FAVORITE DESSERT?

All desserts but Ice-cream?

41. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?

no idea, not emailing it to ppl

42. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?

ditto above

43.WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING?

none atm.

44. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?

it has an airforce plane on it..
the one we got from guest speaker in yr 10
but on that really the optical mouse?

45. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?

was watching the Korea vs. Togo match (Fifa world cup)

46. FAVORITE SOUNDS?

The sound of a woodfire..
like in a hearth or like a chimnea..
so calming *sigh*
and well music in general

47. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?

havent heard any songs from the rolling stones
well that or i have but dunno its the rolling stones
so most likely the beatles

48. THE FURTHEST YOU'VE BEEN FROM HOME?

Home is where the heart is.
therefore never far from home?
well anyways furthest would be LA

49. WHAT'S YOUR SPECIAL TALENT?

yet to discover it.

50. WHERE AND WHERE WERE YOU BORN?

Where and where?? O.o
in the little city of ----------

Yr 12 Bonding Night...

wondering whether or not 2night was a waste of time..
yeah it was bonding night
a night where the yr 12 cohort get together
and have some activity which they're meant to particpate in

well for us this yr t'was a games n quiz nite
organised by mainly a bunch of yr 12s
congrats to them
and well supervised by the yr 12 tutors

i guess overall it was a time of fun
and well with mixed up groups it meant that ppl were forced to "bond"
good idea
tho for some of those who are more quiet
well nothing much did happen for them
jus sat in the corner
observed and just kept being their quiet-selves
whilst the others continued just having fun

pizza was on the menu for dinner
of which my table devoured 6 whole pizzas
:S

===========================================
that was friday nite
and yeah scar sorta recapped some of it
so ill just leave the above as above
and type other stuff
and just end it here
so i can start another proper post

-del

...and I burst out into the moon sun and stars...

I just felt bored, so yeah, just copied and pasted my post from xanga. Don't blame me if I dont make sense. I almost never reread what I type out.

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I don't know whats wrong with me man. For the last two weeks, I blogged practically everyday, and this week, I have no tests whatsoever and I neglect blogging. (But its good to see that Ada is consistent with her blogging =P)

Anyhow I got home just then, from yr 12 bonding night! Yay, filled full of fun and games and yep. It was so good! I stayed back at school, got changed, dumped everything in Moaner's room, then went bayview with Anji to buy food. She ended up buying a chocolate mudcake while I bought a cheesecake. (Ok, these were slices, not the whole cake that can serve a party of twelve etc). I know these are the pieces of leftover cake which hasn't been sold, but even so, it was pretty good. ^^ Trudged back to boarding house, took over Moaner's computer, msn and room, then went down to the oval at five. Fast forward to the quiz part in the canteen. My cool ninja turtle group decided that we were too cool for some of the games, and just sat there talking. Then came dinner. I ate six slices of pizza, and one can of sunkist. Ok lets face it. I was hungry. If Scarlet is hungry, then she feasts on whatever food is available. I felt like a pig because everyone only ate two slices, whereas I had to hide the fact I was eating so much by walking off to another table, and stealing their pizzas. =P Anyhow fast foward again to second quiz part on Wynhorst table. We had to spell supercalifragilisticexpialidocious and Stacey scrolled through her camera to find the spelling. (She took a pic of Emma earlier). Then came stuff about Scotch's school song and sports and songs etc, and Nat Mat rang one of her scotch friends, and asked them. Haha. So damn funny. ^^ We kind of lost, but yeah. =D At least we didn't come last!
After the bonding session kind of ended, us year 12s all went and attempted to gatecrashed the yr 10 social. Man, am I the only one who didn't ever put much effort to socials, or is it just the yr 10s? I remember my yr 10 social -- I just wore a top and jeans. I didn't even go out and buy a whole outfit just for a social. But no, all the year 10s think that it is important, so they all buy dresses. Just like this yr 10 chick from PLC told me, that everyone was spending approximately $300 on a dress to go to their yr 10 'dance' (trust me, it is actually a social, but she upped it by calling it a dance). Imagine how much they're going to spend on their yr 12 ball outfit.
Well moral of the story here is, that Mr Forma saw us yr 12s feeling excluded, and decided that since we wanted to gatecrash, we could take a part of the photos! So yeah, somewhere in the middle of the set of yr 10 photos, theres all these random yr 12 portraits. Haha. ^^

My eyes hurt. Hmm, anyway I'm going off to play games now!! =D

And the Results are....

just remembered that i need to burn scar that disc
so yeah
typing a quick post whilst it writes
i guess i dont even have the patience to wait
and do nothing whilst 4 mins pass

funny..
with the whole continum of posting throughout exams..
well most of the first week
and then just no posts when i actually had time
:S

so yea
5 day weekend and 4 day weekend
did barely anything
and you know what?
going back to school i was expecting a time off
thinkin i guess teachers wanted some time to actually MARK
the papers... then realised while i had my time off
they slaved away so that they returned em to us just when we got back
really for that both thankful for their work
but also at the same time wondering why they couldnt have marked em slowly

overall i did quite well
considering my lack of effort over the last term n half
and sadly things (study) dont seem to have picked up since back to school
which is a V big negative

havent thought much strongly bout what to write these days
guess its coz most of what mainly concerns me
or what i think about already really has been dicussed alot
and well
possibly the whole consciousness that i dunno who's reading
yeah the password thing didnt do anything much
but it gave a sense of security

had promeathians yesterday
which really slightly opened up to more thought
tho some of it i guess i find whenever i look through past posts
overall interesting but it does seem bit quiet
the whole having guys there does seem to add another view point
but at the same time its way more quiet
in a way sorta like RE n guest speaker i guess

yay
this time the cd's actually burning
hope it works this time
i cant type THIS much in 4 mins

...

OR not -.-
nope didnt work
*sigh*

anyone these days feel a sorta academically competitive air
around these days?
i do
well to some degree.. but what can you say?
its prob exam results

and like mona alluded to the school being an expensive country club?
i really do agree
it just makes so much sense
and thinkin about it we've only got bout 1/4 of a yr left together
time seemed to have flown

anyways
given up on cd buring
cya
nite n *hugz*

Harold can jump off a cliff and DIE

Well it has been quite obvious lately that dearest Adella has been neglecting her little blog. Well being the crappy friend I am, I haven't really talked to her these few days ever since exams! So yep. Can't really tell you how Adella's been these few days, but we can infer that she is currently alive and kicking, and is located in the Milky Way. I don't dare to assume any more or any less, as I may have to suffer some lifelong side effect if I do so. So yes, but I can fully assure you that Scarlet is ALIVE. Hallelujah.

I have often made the mistake of discussing politics with people I know, and I have found out the hard way that it is wise to only discuss with those that are supporting the same side as you. The reason being? Well if you discuss (and then end up arguing) with the person about some issue in the government, well you'll be on opposite sides. Most probably the upbringing and the social circumstances of some people cause them to think a particular way. At this point of my monologue, you may be wondering. Well DUH Scarlet, EVERYONE knows about this. Well frankly, I am no Oxford academic, I am no university graduate, I am merely a failing high school student. Beat that. Anyhow, politics can cause a rift between people. So yep.
I don't know if Adella remembers this, but I certainly do. We were relaxing in the afternoon sun during lunch, underneath the peppermint trees, by the beautiful the beautiful the river, and stupid old me started discussing some topic which greatly concerned me. I commented on how one of the policies which one of parties enforces is wrong. Lets call this party A shall we? Anyhow I was commenting on A's policies, stating my opinion on it, which included the words "stupid", "should be made illegal", "put our country at stake...". So yes, and as I was being the happy little ignorant 'fella I am, someone in our group suddenly opposed my little statement. (Ok, I shan't attempt to hide it away from you...it was a girl) I was taken aback a little, but then I persisted in my argument, and it was obvious she was going for political party A, while I was rooting for party B. So yes, our very heated argument continued -- a few more joined in, taking sides, until I realised how pointless it was and then broke it off. This was much to my dismay. =( Moral of the story? Don't tell other which political party you are going for!

School starts again tomorrow. *sigh* I don't have any mood for school, ever since I failed those exams, I don't want to see my teachers ever again.

Exams.. Four down.. Two Left..

With the on set of consecutive exams once again..
(i seem to always get em...
well at least they're not doubles ^^)
well unlike the fact that i had wasted a 5 day weekend...
with zero study to attribute to my current exam timetable..
im practically screwed..

i F-ed up my lit exam..
of which i should now be studying geog..
i and like i said scar's blog..
i feel like murdering the person
who deemed geogs as an easy subject..
yeah teh content is easy..
but just like h bio..
there's so god damn f-in much of it
><

tho on the upper scale..
lit is over..
its like my major stress out subject..
despite the fact that i dunno what to study and how to study..
-.-
just memorise the text? its so f-in long...
oh and teh quotes i memorised for cloudstreet i didnt even use -.-
GREAT!
why?
coz they didnt support any views of any qs
ugh!

ok
off to get geog notes done..
either that or sleep..
my dear head hurts :(

人生如一夢事...

well went volunteering on fri..
was following a friend of my parents around the wards..
since its sorta because of her i found a place..
it was for the women's auxilary..
which sells stuff to the patients and visitors
of the hospital..
and with the money buys new stuff for the hospital
so yeah..
good cause..

but walking round the ward with some other volunteers
with the "shopping trolley" of goods..
asking the patients if they would like any lollies..
or chips or personal items..
i saw all the sick..
and what i found so intriguing..
was mainly my lack of any response to their state..
what ever their sickness may be...
all i felt was this numbness...
sorta like i was desensitized..
i didnt feel disgusted..
but then again..
i didnt feel utterly happy or sad or interested...
tho on the note of lack of interest..
i found the dialysis room interesting..
to some degree..
had all these dialysis machinery
each person hooked up to one..

after that..
i was offered a job for the downstairs shop..
i think ill do it..
tho i think i'd like more of the paitent contact better..
like looking around in the hospital..
coz the fact that im volunteering lets me have a glance round
the hospital without the need of some one i know being sick..
which means less worry which is a plus ^^

on the note of the title,
my dad just recently aquired a framed piece of calligraphy..
by that title..
like it was buy it and the money goes to charity...
and i really liek the meaning..
so yeah sorta explains the usage of it..

exams are on..
and posting has been going on as usual..
but what happend to the study?
i wonder WHAT THE HELL!?!?!
its yr 12 and im still not even doing minimal study..
looks like im gonna get far -.-

mmm on sat my mum sis and i went to visit a friend of my mum's
well someone she met recently..
and well..
that i thought was jus awkward for me and lina to some degree..
coz she mainly spoke viet..
and well.. in english she kept saying to me
"i cant believe ure in yr 12? you look like a yr 10"
or
"you're so young i thought you look like you're 14/15"
on the first time i heard that i was like
thanx ^^
but after a while..
:S it got a tad bit annoying..
mm and other than that..
it was talk of education system

thinking of dreams..
whether it be chasing after a dream..
living your dream..
nightmare-ing or simply dreaming..
i sometimes really wonder..
are dreams just higgled-y piggledy/random shuffle
like the rev said?
or meaningful?
is it some kind of message that is being sent to you?
or even..
do the people you try to dream of trying to contact you?
like on another plane..
something as a subconscious connection?
if there's always religious/spiritual or just plain psychic explaination?
or plain science being mixture of memories?

like in lit..
when doing gwen harwood..
we were learning of the idea of the arts
bringing us up to a higher level of expression..
that words in any language or scientific explaination cannot explain..
could dreaming be another form of expression
and communication?

*sigh*
anyways time go get some rest..
good luck for everyone else's exams..
and may we all live our dream
*hugz*
nite nite

hmm tho one person's happiness maybe another's misery
would you ever comprimise another's happiness for your own?

anyways
i gotta end it here
*hugz*
- Del

State of Mind: Higgledy - Piggledy / Multi-topic-ed / Confuzzled / Jittery (Call it what you will there just aint a specific topic)

Time to steal a quiz back from Allan
(since someone refuses to spell my name correctly)
*hmph*

How Asian Are You??

[x] You take your shoes off before entering the house (Ever since the Annabel lived outside its now my room.. esp since we found out she has a random habit/love for placing shoes along our drive way at regular intervals but before that it was always outside the house)
[x] You eat rice often.
[x] You use chopsticks.
[x] You can speak an asian language.
[x] Your parents want good grades from you.
[x] Your parents insist you don't date until college/uni.
[x] Your parents want you to go to Berkeley or some other good university like that. Stanford or Harvard, even better.
(Well really.. what they deem as the best possible uni.. of which for me in my case is UWA.. -.- im not even allowed to go interstate.. it MUST be UWA *sigh* but anyways... damn Americanised quiz...)
[x] Your parents believe in Feng Shui.
[x] You listen to those horoscopes/zodiac signs.
[x] Your parents love to gossip with the other parents about you.
[ ] You have relatives other than your immediate family living with you.
[x] Most or all of your friends are asian. (Most is the answer to that)
[ ] You don't even know 10 people who aren't asian.
[x] Your ancestors came from Asia.
[x] You are obsessed with the computer and can't get enough.
[ ] You know how to put a computer together.
[x] You listen to asian music. (To some degree..)
[x] You can actually understand the lyrics.
[x] You have to keep things from your parents, even if they're not bad, because you know they'd THINK it's bad. (Provided im acutally out of the house and would do anything possibly bad.. more of a would be situation than a current thing..)
[x] Your relatives love to bring you clothes that are bright in color with cute cartoons on them. If you're lucky, it might even have english words on them that dont make sense. (Now days.. its bright and pastel with lots of frilly bits -.- *shrudders at one of the most recent pink and extremely frilly top i got*)
[x] You love your ethnic food.
[x] You have taken/still take piano and/or violin.
[ ] Classical music is the best music ever, next to asian music.
[x] You are good at math. (Well i was once.. to some degree.. now its jus down the drain..)
Multiply by 4

I am 80% Asian...

and from an email forward..from Jen Yang


----------FEBRUARY BABY --------------------
*Abstract thoughts.
*Loves reality and abstract worlds.
*Intelligent and clever.
*Changing personality.
*Attractive.
*Sexiest out of everyone
*Tempermental.
*Quiet, shy and humble.
*Honest and loyal.
*Determined to reach goals.
*Loves Freedom.
*Rebellious when restricted.
*Loves aggressiveness.
*Too sensitive and easily hurt.
*Gets angry really easily but does not show it.
*Dislikes unnecessary things.
*Loves making friends but rarely shows it.
*Daring and stubborn.
*Ambitious.
*Realisingn dreams and hopes.
*Sharp.
*Loves entertainment and leisure.
*Romantic on the inside not outside.
*Superstitious and ludicrous.
*Spendthrift.
*Tries to learn to show emotions.

one thing always to question...
how accurate..?

Tell me..
who does not once ever in their life..
wonder or doubt who they are?
even the most confident would most likely have one moment of doubt
if not of what or why they're doing something
then.. who are they?
who doesnt in their life..
hope that they left some sort of a lasting impression
on at least one person..
to have made a difference to some other person's life?
or just even to have just been there to brighten up their day?
on that note..
mona had that email she i think forwarded? :S
But anyways..
i thought it was so sweet..
i just decided to copy and paste it here..

PEOPLE COME INTO YOUR LIFE FOR A REASON

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a God-send and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.!

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

THANK YOU for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

what does everyone want to be known as?
there's that line that says
"people can be identified by the people they spend their time with"
paraphrased obviously..
would this be what you wanted to be remembered as?
as the grouped identity of your particular group?

you know what?
at times i seriously dun wanna god damn care..
i think bout why the hell i have a conscience..
ok fine without it i wouldnt regret things i did
and obviously..
regretting anything is part of being a human..
provided you heed to your conscience..
but...
the thing is why the hell cant i let go of somethings?
i mean seriously..
it would make everyone so much happier..
bloody dwelling on things doesnt help
i know that..
but can i do that?
lol
thinking about it in that way...
how likely am i to go offtrack in my life?
who knows what the future holds..
yet..'
damnit..
i keep jumping thoughts..

ah well mumble jumble multiple topic post it shall be..
i was listening to the radio this morning..
and they were talking bout the new "stage" in kids..
its no longer
Infanthood/Childhood/Adolecence/Adulthood
it seems to be
Infanthood/Childhood/Tweenagers/Adolecents/Adulthood
thing is?
Kids GROWING UP TOO fast
yeah adults talk bout how they remember us younger like it was yesterday
but this is an entirely diff thing..
when you have 7-12 yr olds buying bras..
that i think is worrying..
bras of which go under "lacy lengerie"
that is just too bloody freaky for my mind to even THINK of
its just GOD DAMN WRONG
imagine a lil 7 yr old kid walkin round with a bra
or crop top or those what'd you call ems... Bralettes
*sigh*
what the hell has this world come to?
for christ sakes...
my cousin who's 4/5 even talks like a bloody adult..
normal? maybe...
but a kids round 10 doing dirty dance moves they saw off mtv
ABSOLUTELY F-ING WRONG
yeah they have the tv recommendations
of G or PG or M and stuff
but hello all the media?
oh and what of BB uncut?
well now officially known know as "late nite bb"
i caught my sister watching it a few days/weeks ago..
and the content?
they show both the male and female anatomy..
fine its not really that bad for either of us..
since we've taken health ed..
but hello?
its on tv..!!
public FREE TV
at 10..
when i was 6 i wouldnt be asleep till 11 or 12..
and my god..
with the amount of tv i watched back then...
and curiosity PLUS the adds they have on NORMAL viewing hours..
who aint curious?
i was up at that time and i woulda watched..
poor kids with scarred minds *shakes head*
but then again..
i guess i cant put that context on everyone..
main point/moral of the story: KIDS GROWING UP WAY TOO FAST
hmm
actually..
if they didnt see it on tv they woulda learnt it off their friends anyways -.-

hmmm
somethings really werent finished..
but i really have lost the main point in some of my thoughts..
anyways
nite nite
*hugz*

Harold's Saviour or Harold's Murderer... Which Are You?

was blog flipping thru again today..
and stumbled across a page which had quite a few add on things...
thinkin hmm interesting..
now let's get those brain juices pumping...
and let the creativity flow...

then i stumbled across Harold..
well the dear lil hampster was stuck in the frying pan..
for those who wish to read the story of how he got there..
read the following of either two...
for today's version of the tale read Story One
and if you wanna think of it as last nite/yesterday
read Story Two

STORY ONE
the poor lil silly darling was "trotting" along
one fine sunny day..
and being a hampster as hampsters are..
started fossicking(sp?) around in del's kitchen
(hmm yes.. i have a kitchen as part of my blog :P)
looking for scraps of this or that to nibble on
cos he was OH so hungry...
so scrambling up the shelves..
shifting throught all the containers and boxes of food..
when on the top shelf..
he misplaced a minipaw of his..
and well.. guess what?
he ended entrapped in the frying pan of mine..
which i was going to cook my breaky in -.-
there goes my breaky of bacon and eggs..
now since i was not in the kitchen at that very moment..
you (reader) now have the choice of cooking and frying..
dear Mr. Harold when you misguess the common phrases/idioms
or save him with ure great english knowledge..

STORY TWO
well a dark stormy night when Mr. Harold couldnt see
(since half the power was out in del's house
had gone out... so everything was dim, dark and misty..
hmm how could my house or blog be misty :S)
anyways..
searching for a safe shelter before the rains set in..
Mr. Harold and stumbled into a frying pan..
which del was about to cook her dinner in
(and yes yet again.. you have to take into account..
its a kitchen on my blog)
now you are to decide whether he lives or dies..

yes..
I was bored this morning..
have fun ^^
and for those who absolutely hate him..
and could possibly be pure evil...
*hint hint* you can kill harold once by losing..
then click and watch him die repeatedly..
:P
btw...
highest score gets their name up on the top of the game thing..
kk back to study..
bye
*hugz*

Scar vs Del

Scarlet decided to be a sheep, and follow Adella's stand in taking quizzes to pass time. Unleashed;

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Very High
Schizoid:	High
Schizotypal:	Very High
Antisocial:	High
Borderline:	Very High
Histrionic:	Very High
Narcissistic:	High
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Moderate
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Very High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Very High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very High
Level 7 (Violent)	Extreme
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	High

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Very High
Wrath:	Very High
Sloth:	Very High
Envy:	High
Lust:	Medium
Pride:	High

Discover Your Sins - Click Here

Seems like I may be in need of a trip to the psychologists.

What is an Attention Span...??

i have officially never been so bored in my life..
well actually i may have but thats besides the point.

thank god for study vac..
but it would be so much more useful to me if i actually studied..
ive doen 2 practise exams..
of which i gave up on both at least an hour before i was meant to..
(i was timing myself you see)
-.-
i even gave myself a study break in the middle of one exam paper..
but still
NOTHING
NADA..
NO IMPROVEMENT
*sigh*

anyways..
here's some procrastinator quizzes i did..
mainly hosted by 4degreez.com
what ended up happening..
was that i thoeorised that if i chose a random blog that i know of..
then started clicking links from one to the next..
i would end up eventually on a blog im familiar with..
hence matching the idea of "blogosphere"
or blog ring.. or whatever..
*having expression issues*
so yeah.. testing it out..
i guess you could say it was h bio study
going under the practical knowledge section :P
yep..
is now..
hypothesis: if i click on enough links between blogs,
then i will end up sooner or later on a blog familiar to me..

tho guess waht?
i saw quizzes..
and yea..
quizzes = del sidetracked..
cant say much i LOVE quizzes...
so here are the results :

starting on a perth blog...
then to Malaysia..
Indonesia..
Spain..
Singapore..
Melbourne..
Tasmania..
then really the following..

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Moderate
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Moderate
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to the First Level of Hell - Limbo!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Moderate
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very High
Level 2 (Lustful)	Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very Low

Take the Dante Inferno Hell Test

Greed:	Low
Gluttony:	Low
Wrath:	Very Low
Sloth:	Very High
Envy:	Very Low
Lust:	Very Low
Pride:	Medium

Discover Your Sins - Click Here

as you can see..
the conclusion of this practical experiement..
is that the subject del (i) has no attention span
that lasts long enough to do a single exam paper...
(i started on a 4th quiz but it took too long to do :( )
hmm of which is totally off topic from my hypothesis..
therefore i conclude i did not disprove or prove
nor support or unsupport my hypothesis..

damn..
that was pointless..
-.-

======================================================

anyone have fluctuating moods?

like random highs.. then random lows?
or go from one extreme to another in one day?
bleh...
exams = excess blogging or fluctuating moods..
but i guess you can say pms..
i dun really care the reason why..
i just NEED to talk to SOMETHING ...
or ABOUT something

shit..
wasted another hour and a bit..
kk
back to study..
*hugz*

On the Contrary..

Lol..
on the contrary to Scar's "Crumpled Grumble"
im atm procrastinating some study..
since im trying out the new printer
my dad got to replace the old one..
so.. waiting for printing to get done..
so mite as well post..

*edit: printing never ended up happening... :(
since del managed to stuff up the printer*

was bout yesterday..
after chinese..
i began contemplating..
bout the possiblilty of "needing to be needed"
i mean really..
i get the whole human need of food water shelter
and well..
obviously heard the stressing of the need of human company
which i really heard from mr o nearly all econs in yr 10..
that we as a humans have a compulsion to feel needed or even desired..
personally i think bout it and say yeah..
who wants to feel like a reject?
obiviously there's the want of most kids just to fit in..
its just such a common thing..
just to search for acceptance..
related to their own identity much?
hmm damnit..
just thought of that lit article we got..
bout group identity...
that ppl (the youthful mainly)
want to be identified as a group and less as individualisticly...
remember? for those who're in my lit class...
since there is so much insecurity and all..
and there's that whole lack of certainty..
where one day one thing is the way it is..
the next it all falls apart.
just the idea that there is some support system
by which you identify ureself with which you can fall back on?
bleh...
when i read that article i was like OMG so TRUE...

hmm..
wrote most of that earlier today..
and really wasnt gonna bother publishing it..
but since i just came across this site whilst typing my h bio notes..
i just felt compelled to share with others..
i mean i personally find it quite intriguing..

Revelation13.net

of which from that site somethin which interests me more is
The English King James version Bible code - Part 15 - the Knights Templar, the "DaVinci Code", and the Mary Magdalene Mystery

well what's its based on is this: The Bible Code
The "Bible Code" is a way of looking for hidden prophecies and passages in the Bible, by using a software program to search for messages in the Old Testament Hebrew text. The spaces between words are eliminated, so that the Old Testament is a continuous block of Hebrew letters. Then, by skipping letters at a programmed interval, the program searches for words.

note: i did not write the explaination..
just copied it..

but i find it so much of a conincedence..
if you read the sectioned off bits, well the letters horizontally..
they do make words and seem like part of the bible text..
so the relaibility of this is uncertain..
but still..
conincedental?
i dunno.. its starting to sound freaky on my thoughts..
but im so curious at the same time..
i mean if you decide to go to the main page..
and choose other sections of the site..
theres also one on evolution..
(which would explain how i stumbled across it in the first place)
and there's all this other stuff..
like links to Nostradamus and other stuff.
god damnit.. id really read it if i had the time..
since its like pre exams..
well i have double the day after so i should be studying..
ugh..
stupid.. why NOW?!?!

its just this whole wider picture thing..
all the possibilities of the interconnections which is either
WAY TOO conicidential..
some fake..
or just the idea that there may be some wider picture out there..
that is so big we cant even begin to grasp its like complexity..
tho really intesting since im not christian but still..

hmm..
thinkin bout it maybe i shoulda read revelations from the bible..
but i really havent been bothered..
i really liked reading the first few books of the old testament
when i was younger..
lol hmm..
maybe i'll go and do christian studies in uni..
wonder how my parents would react to that :P
nah..
not THAT interested.. but still..
im so curious bout this whole site..
the connections to the bible and all..

thinkin bout it..
this person must have quite a lotta time AND faith on their hands..
to actually spend time finding links
tho clicking on the one related to the predictions for 2006/2007...
i took a glance.
and really this one is one that im quite critical of..

Year Matrices for 2006 - 2007


teh fact that the number 2007 seems to be in context of the bible text..
so really..
since the bible text itself is read horizontally..
and inputted that way.
and quite a number of them are horizontal words found...

thinkin bout it now..
really is that just a total scaring of ppl..
is it going on extremes when you try to find links ot the current world
encoded in a text of a single particular faith??
each person's choice i guess..
whether or not you choose to believe it..
personally..
ive yet to decide...

anyways..
back to study..
nite nite
*hugz*