人生如一夢事...

well went volunteering on fri..
was following a friend of my parents around the wards..
since its sorta because of her i found a place..
it was for the women's auxilary..
which sells stuff to the patients and visitors
of the hospital..
and with the money buys new stuff for the hospital
so yeah..
good cause..

but walking round the ward with some other volunteers
with the "shopping trolley" of goods..
asking the patients if they would like any lollies..
or chips or personal items..
i saw all the sick..
and what i found so intriguing..
was mainly my lack of any response to their state..
what ever their sickness may be...
all i felt was this numbness...
sorta like i was desensitized..
i didnt feel disgusted..
but then again..
i didnt feel utterly happy or sad or interested...
tho on the note of lack of interest..
i found the dialysis room interesting..
to some degree..
had all these dialysis machinery
each person hooked up to one..

after that..
i was offered a job for the downstairs shop..
i think ill do it..
tho i think i'd like more of the paitent contact better..
like looking around in the hospital..
coz the fact that im volunteering lets me have a glance round
the hospital without the need of some one i know being sick..
which means less worry which is a plus ^^

on the note of the title,
my dad just recently aquired a framed piece of calligraphy..
by that title..
like it was buy it and the money goes to charity...
and i really liek the meaning..
so yeah sorta explains the usage of it..

exams are on..
and posting has been going on as usual..
but what happend to the study?
i wonder WHAT THE HELL!?!?!
its yr 12 and im still not even doing minimal study..
looks like im gonna get far -.-

mmm on sat my mum sis and i went to visit a friend of my mum's
well someone she met recently..
and well..
that i thought was jus awkward for me and lina to some degree..
coz she mainly spoke viet..
and well.. in english she kept saying to me
"i cant believe ure in yr 12? you look like a yr 10"
or
"you're so young i thought you look like you're 14/15"
on the first time i heard that i was like
thanx ^^
but after a while..
:S it got a tad bit annoying..
mm and other than that..
it was talk of education system

thinking of dreams..
whether it be chasing after a dream..
living your dream..
nightmare-ing or simply dreaming..
i sometimes really wonder..
are dreams just higgled-y piggledy/random shuffle
like the rev said?
or meaningful?
is it some kind of message that is being sent to you?
or even..
do the people you try to dream of trying to contact you?
like on another plane..
something as a subconscious connection?
if there's always religious/spiritual or just plain psychic explaination?
or plain science being mixture of memories?

like in lit..
when doing gwen harwood..
we were learning of the idea of the arts
bringing us up to a higher level of expression..
that words in any language or scientific explaination cannot explain..
could dreaming be another form of expression
and communication?

*sigh*
anyways time go get some rest..
good luck for everyone else's exams..
and may we all live our dream
*hugz*
nite nite

hmm tho one person's happiness maybe another's misery
would you ever comprimise another's happiness for your own?

anyways
i gotta end it here
*hugz*
- Del