*sigh*

*sigh*hmmm.... happi bday 4 kat 2moro... tho i doubt she readz mi blog... but oh well... itz tha mid term break... so i had fri off and mon also... i spent fri at garden ct... went wit jade and dia.. and met up wit scar dere... had lunch (and breakfast 4 me)... we were gonna go see tha girl next door... but we ended up watchin white chicks coz dia 4got 2 bring her library card 2 verify her age... tha movie wz quite good i guezz... but i dunno y... i'm not sure if i wz sick or ne thin.. but i felt realli sick.. i ended up vomitin a bit in tha bathroom half way thru tha movie... and then.. walked round 4 anotha while... then went home... but then b4 that both scar and dia decided 2 call AND sms andy on mi fone wit out me noein... -.-" and he called bak... lolz so funny... ne waiz... went home 2 get ready 4 cadetz... andy called up again 2 wonderin wat wz up and if it wz urgent... and me sorta in a towel and doin mi hair... so i promised i'd call him bak some otha time... had cadetz... froze 2 death... and got called mrs braidy.. -.-" i mean first house wife.. now somethin specific.. -.-" okz... 2day... had chinese skool... mi teacha decided to invite her friend along 2 class... apparently her friend iz like some famous advertisin actress person... ne waiz... i hated it... then skipped lunch... and wz picked up by mum and dad... went 2 ct wit em 2 get tha plane tickets... went home... then spent bout an hour at home... went out 2 tha resto 2 help coz 1 of tha employees called in sick... worked till round 9... called andy bak 2 clear up everythin... (4 once i could talk on tha phone wit out mi sista interferin..) coz shez at her friendz house... ne waiz... yah... tahtz mi w/e so far... 2moro goin 2 tha temple on money st... prob have lunch there... and then find somethin 2 do.. damn... mum wont lemme go out until afta tha trip... -.-" *sigh* oh well.. gettin late... nite nite *hugz* [14 daiz 2 go....]

Bored Bored.... doin some quizzez... resultz below.. Color Quiz Your Existing situation: Easily affected by her environment and readily moved by the emotions of others. Seeks congenial relationships and an occupation which will promote them. Your Stress Sources Resilience and tenacity have become weakened. Feels overtaxed, worn out, and getting nowhere, but continues to stand her ground. She feels this adverse situation as an actual tangible pressure which is intolerable to her and from which she wants to escape, but she feels unable to make the necessary decision. Your Restrained Characteristics Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity. Circumstances are such that she feels forced to compromise for the time being if she is to avoid being cut off from affection or from full participation. Your Desired Objective Preoccupied with things of an intensely exciting nature, whether erotically stimulating or otherwise. Wants to be regarded as an exciting and interesting personality with an altogether charming and impressive influence on others. Uses tactics skillfully so as to avoid endangering her chances of success or undermining others' confidence in herself Your Actual Problem The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond her capabilities, or her reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal (but unadmitted) inadequacy. She attempts to remedy this by intense activity and by insistence on getting her own way. Faulty self-control can lead to ungovernable displays of anger. Your Actual Problem #2 The fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her to play her part with an urgent and hectic intensity. click on a shape Introspective Sensitive Reflective You come to grips more frequently and thoroughly with yourself and your environment than do most people. You detest superficiality; you'd rather be alone than have to suffer through small talk. But your relationships with your friends are very strong, which gives you the inner tranquility and harmony that you require. You do not mind being alone for extended periods of time; you rarely become bored.

colorgenics
You have always longed for tenderness, love and a sensitivity of feeling into which you would like to blend. You are a very gentle warm person and responsive to 'All things bright and beautiful'. This personifies a caring person, a person who 'needs' and indeed 'needs to be needed'.

Of late, everything seems to be going so slowly - far slower than you anticipated - and this is causing you much anxiety and frustration. It would appear that there is little you can do about the series of events that now seem to be taking place. In spite of the fact that you feel like 'giving up' - don't. Take a deep breath and start over again and you will find that eventually the expression 'All's well that ends well' will have an extra special meaning for you.

The way things are, you feel that you are stuck in a rut and there is not much you can do about it. You feel frustrated and inhibited but if you can find a way to let yourself go, you may find that things aren't quite so bad as perhaps you thought they were. One consolation is that since you are an extremely emotional individual, with the right person you may be able to release some of that frustration and tension with some mutual tender loving care.

It is said that we are all influenced by our environment and indeed you are no exception. It would seem at this time that even though you may be surrounded by people, you are experiencing an inner loneliness. Fortunately you are sufficiently strong minded to realise that life has a great deal to offer you and that you may miss your share of experiences if you fail to make the best use of every opportunity. You therefore pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity and are prepared to commit yourself deeply and readily. You believe that whatever you would like to do or think 'you can do' - you do! It is because of this attitude that you may be considered by others as arrogant and even conceited, but its fair to say that whatever it is that you really want out of life you will put your heart and soul into it and will not take 'NO' for an answer.

You have so many ideas that you would like to revitalize but you need to realize a stable and peaceful condition to do so. Once you can free yourself from all the aggravation and tension around you, you will make strides that may amaze you. You will not be prevented from achieving all the things you so desire.

The Map
The Map personality is often deeply and intimately involved in the world. This world however is usually inside his/her own mind. Thoughtful to the extreme, this type is often obsessed with perfection and the rules governing their own personal interests. They are generally good-natured people, and are often in areas not important to them very easy-going. Step across the line in regard to something the Map deems important however and you will recognize the wrath of the true believer. Principles to the Map are generally black and white. Their understanding of these principles however are always in question. Because the Map personality believes strongly in justice, it will often question its own perceptions, in fear that a mistake could have disastrous consequences. This prevents the Map personality from becoming too dictatorial or didactic.

ABC
You seem to have a Type B personality. Your personality draws characteristics from each of the other personality types, that is, Type A and Type C. Either you adjust your behavior depending on the situation, or you tend to be moderated in your attitudes. In any case, you are the most balanced of the three personality types.

oh well...
enoughz enoughz..
nite nite
*hugz

stupid math... i realli dislike prob solving.... oh well... i dont realli see tha point of thiz week... i mean they say itz meant 2 be stress less and all... but EVERYTHING is due NEXT WEEK!!!! i mean realli... 4m 1 extreme 2 anotha... and then all followed by work ex... bz bz term.... okz... oh well... sometimez some pplz realli get on mi nervez and annoy me... thinkin bout it... i could say i realli hate them but then tha word hate iz quite strong... but then some pplz i noe... *shakez head* i mean they are hypocritez.. and they dont seem 2 realise... if they do still.... or i could say they jus r 2 harsh wen they make their commentz... (and thiz aint directed at u scar...) i mean even if they aint gonna hear it realli iznt rite of u 2 judge em...

i mean itz practicalli human nature 2 judge everythin in sight...
but still.. even if ure gonna voice it... u realli shouldnt unless u understand their circumstances or situation...


i mean by judgin so quickly.. judgin by name... appearance... and maybe how they act... u dont realli get 2 noe em.. it jus leadz 2 racism and discrimination by judgin 2 quickly... every1 doez it... but then if pplz keep it 2 a minimum.. then everythin'd be fine... if not... at least betta...


but then there are some cases where ure first judgement of tha person realli how they are by appearance...
*sigh*
i talkin round in circlez...
maybe i just talkin in circlez coz therez no1 2 talk 2 atm...
i mean pplz jus not replyin for some reason or otha...
*sigh*
every1 has their own reason...



oh well...
betta sleep now...
nite nite
*hugz
[still 17 daiz 2 go...]

stupid math... i realli dislike prob solving.... oh well... i dont realli see tha point of thiz week... i mean they say itz meant 2 be stress less and all... but EVERYTHING is due NEXT WEEK!!!! i mean realli... 4m 1 extreme 2 anotha... and then all followed by work ex... bz bz term.... okz... oh well... sometimez some pplz realli get on mi nervez and annoy me... thinkin bout it... i could say i realli hate them but then tha word hate iz quite strong... but then some pplz i noe... *shakez head* i mean they are hypocritez.. and they dont seem 2 realise... if they do still.... or i could say they jus r 2 harsh wen they make their commentz... (and thiz aint directed at u scar...) i mean even if they aint gonna hear it realli iznt rite of u 2 judge em...

i mean itz practicalli human nature 2 judge everythin in sight...
but still.. even if ure gonna voice it... u realli shouldnt unless u understand their circumstances or situation...


i mean by judgin so quickly.. judgin by name... appearance... and maybe how they act... u dont realli get 2 noe em.. it jus leadz 2 racism and discrimination by judgin 2 quickly... every1 doez it... but then if pplz keep it 2 a minimum.. then everythin'd be fine... if not... at least betta...


but then there are some cases where ure first judgement of tha person realli how they are by appearance...
*sigh*
i talkin round in circlez...
maybe i just talkin in circlez coz therez no1 2 talk 2 atm...
i mean pplz jus not replyin for some reason or otha...
*sigh*
every1 has their own reason...



oh well...
betta sleep now...
nite nite
*hugz
[still 17 daiz 2 go...]

commerce

commerce atm...

meant 2 be doin prof and loss statement..

but then i dont understand wat 2 do...

so now i got somethin 2 do...

or it seemz like i'm doin somethin...

lianz actualli gettin tha work done as usual....

joanne iz at a music lesson..

melissaz jus on friendster (again..)



nothin 2 do...

tha net connectionz stuffed up...

and melissaz askin me y it not workin..

-.-"

i mean i cant help it...

so ye...

i jus half type and half make a pom pom...



hmm... got house act next.. then stupid french and english...

oh well.. at least i'll get 2 jus lie down and read 4 english..

but tha english jounal due soon... >.<



hmm...

wat 2 do now???

so bored....



tha teacha doeznt noe wat shez teachin... i mean she keepz correctin herself...
watz tha point in that????
i prefer ms stein so much more...
pluz commerce iz so borin 4 me...
i guezz i wont be an accountant so bloody borin...
and tha funni thing iz that atm...
everytime i see a relative itz all bout askin wat i subjectz i choosin and wat i wanna be...
i mean i've still got time...
stop buggin me...


in mathz b4...
ms bayly yet again turned on hymnz 2 listen 2...
-.-"
cept thiz time they were those lil kiddee happi 1z that can get so annoyin....
she event tried 2 get us 2 learn 1 of em...
tara got tha 1st verse...
thatz prob y she noez tha namez of tha bookz of tha first testament off by heart....


got bout 5 minz left of class...
bye
*hugz
[17 daiz 2 go...]

*sigh*

s+e... got tha s+e excursion later on 2day... hmm... got commerce next... and then science afta... i guezz tha daiz gonna be okz... theze daiz i dunno y... i keep typin posts but i neva actualli end up publishin em... i mean i may even jus feel like typin 1 up... then by tah time tah screen actualli loadz... i jus sitt and stare at tha screen find somethin else 2 do and then i wont end up postin ne thing.. *sigh* hmm... i noticed... mondayz i also usualli jus go 2 tha shop..... grab heapza junkfood... and then spend monday evenin bingin on food.. me jus gett fatter and fatter.... oh well.. i wonder sometimez... i mean i think of mi life as full of responsibilitiez.. but i wonder if they realli r there... i mean... i noe i've got mi lil sister 2 worry bout.... but do i jus mother her and try 2 do 2 much??? do i jus choose 2 have thiz responsibility??? i mean like gar said i could alwaiz refuse it... so do i choose 2 actualli take on tha reponisibilitiez... or r they actualli there... do i realli hav a choice in it all??? *sigh* and then... therez mi skool work... i noe that i do hav 2 do it... but y dont i??? do i hav mi prioritiez ordered in tha rong way??? wat do i value??? wat do i actualli think iz important??? *think think think* ugh... itz rainin again... see??? so easily distracted... oh well... must concentrate more... but then i'm distracted 4m mi class work by typin thiz post... oh well... time iz tickin away... time time time... how i hate it sometimez... "time iz a precious resource" sayz mr o... -.-" i guezz every1z runnin outta it... i handed in mi science subject form in thiz mornin... i doubt i'd get mi choicez tho... hmmm.. i wonder... y dont pplz think.... some pplz i guezz jus get along in life.. jus havin fun... dont stop 2 think or read tha fine linez... i mean i'm not directin thiz at ne 1 in particular... but still... there are pplz who jus waste time.... and get good resultz... and there r those who work so hard... and still dont achieve their goal... and those who work very hard and finalli do... i mean... eg. there are some pplz in mi science class... they r in tha top class.. yet they jus dont do ne thing... they fool round... and therez like lian.. who workz so hard... i wonder... am i 1 of those pplz who realli waste time??? i prob am.. but itz not like mi markz are that good... maybe i realli should get mi act 2 getha and get bak on trak.. come 2 think of it... i spent most of last yr slackin off in s+e and english... maybe thatz y i got pretty bad class... i mean i have practicalli no consistancy in ne of mi work... i dont even remember a time of workin hard... lalalalalala... nearly end of class... i need somethin 2 do... gar.. i'll put up tha metaphorz 2nite prob 4 u kz??? um... wat else 2 say in tha last 2 minz??? oh well... betta publish tha post... thiz time i aint gonna jus close it.. bye *hugz [18 daiz 2 go...]

i realli give up... tha middle of thiz blog iz realli stuffed up... i spent most of last nite tryin 2 fix it 2 later realise it wz tha layoutz of each individual post... so i deleted some of tha stuffed up onez...
so ye... therez some posts missin...

okz...
yesterday wz pretty borin... and so wz tha day b4... tha drill comp iz comin up next w/e... i'll prob have 2 go... coz i dont have a reason not 2 go... pluz i'm stuck on tha cheer sqd... i mean it wz that or i'd have 2 do tha air rec thingy... i mean i'm REALLI crap at air rec...so ye..

therez tha fieldcraft camp at bindoon comin up as well...
*sigh* jus lookin at mi diary... therez so much comin up!!!
ugh... i mean therez all thiz stuff...so bz!!!

hmm... jus realised... next week'll be 1 yr since i first rote in thiz current blog... i cant believe itz been onli 1 yr...
seemz like agez ago...

oh well...
betta get mi hw done...
maybe post again 2 nite...