*sigh*
i've resorted to going to the library for the net..
and well its the first official day of study break..
damnit..
its been ages since i've bloggged..
well it feels like it and its driven me insane..
well that is at nite...
just lie there and think of everything i could possibly
be talking bout and for once not being interrupted at all..
but then again that means that no one will listen..
unless they choose to read..
anyways..
well sadly its officially end of school..
as of tonight..
not really part of the college community anymore..
well unless you count being part of collegians
ugh.. using the net at the library is so annoying...
keep freaking out bout being caught since i dunno if
blogging goes under e-mail or chat..
ah well hope not..
mm...
you know i never thought it..
but i actually cried on the last half day..
after the whole official assembly infront
of the high school population
like it didnt seem like such a big deal..
but the fact that everyone else was crying sorta did add to it..
tho im glad for the school's sake they've got what seems to be
a really good head girl elect atm
hmmm..
using the net now doesnt seem so important anymore..
and for how long was it that i've been on?
25 mins -.-
guess yet again it seems like nothing now...
awww.. cute the person beside me's playing neopets...
seems like ages since ive used that site..
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well that was yesterday..
until i was forced to close it n get off the comp
since the librarian was convinced that blogging
was a form of email.. whether it is or isnt
or the librarian's judgement that blogging is considered
email.. i just cbb arguing and got off the comp..
still bit annoyed over it but ah well
just shows me how much i stand up for myself sometimes -.-
just avoid the confrontation
and with 12 mins left on this thing..
i dunno what to write..
its more of the whole it just feels like im racing against a clock
yet again... i mean with exams looming on the horizon..
anything to do with time just raises my stress levels..
the valedictory was last nite.
and really in the end the only thing i truly feel disappointed in..
was myself for standing behind someone in the hat foto so all you see is an arm..
but then again half the yr's faces you can't see anyways..
i just cant help it tho...
i guess i'll get over it sooner or later..
its just that the hat foto is on so many things -.-
atm what i feel that's biting me so much..
is that in the last two yrs..
for me it seems like so many things have changed..
and yet
when i reduce everything..
to just the school and everything
it seems as if nothing really has changed at all
those who arent with us are still with us in our hearts
even if you dont see them or dont have the chance to
i mean not to totally recap
but ive been so many places..
from parts of europe to america to asia etc
and ive met so many new people
but on just one given day
in the normal life of things
its as if nothing has changed
i still walk out to the resto
and well everything i see is exactly the same
everything keeps going
keeps turning moving and churning
and yet as a person well you dont feel older when your birthday passes
but collectively everyone changes
whether from the smallest seemingly insignificant detail
to the greater of losing a loved one
and really ive gone thru alot in the last 2 yrs
from extreme highs to lows.. an emotional roller coaster
and i wonder why i just sometimes feel liek something's missing
or that there's something ive yet to do or have forgotten
ah damn times up
cya for the next while
till i get the net up
*hugs*
