Opening up to the world...? oh and quiz.. :P

hmm..
you know those [x]quizzes..
strangely enough im liking em more and more...
tho could partly be because it starts off a post..
and i dont have to say much but put in an "x"
^^
so here's another one..
this time from an email i received..
tho it seems a bit familiar... :S

Put an x by all the things you've done in your life and send it to
[ ] smoked a cigarette
[ ] crashed a friend's car
[ ] stolen a car
[ ] been in love (hmm.. not sure bout this one.. i think i'll leave blank)
[ ] been dumped
[ ] shoplifted
[ ] been fired
[ ] been in a fist fight,cat fight or swearing fight
[ ] snuck out of your parent's house
[x] had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
[ ] been arrested
[ ] gone on a blind date
[x] lied to a friend
[x] skipped school
[x] seen someone die (on t.v)
[ ] had a crush on one of your internet friends
[x] been to Canada
[x] been to Mexico.
[x] been on a plane
[x] purposely set a part of yourself on fire
[x] eaten Sushi
[ ] been skiing/snowboarding
[x] met someone in person from the internet
[ ] been moshing at a concert
[x] taken painkillers
[x] love someone or miss someone right now
[x] laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
[x] made a snow angel
[x] had a tea party (lol with toys when i was lil.. and with my sister)
[x] flown a kite
[x] built a sand castle
[x] gone puddle jumping (funny i hate the rain now)
[x] played dress up
[x] jumped into a pile of leaves
[x] gone sledding
[x] cheated while playing a game (in cheat? ^^)
[x] been lonely
[ ] fallen asleep at work
[x] fallen asleep at school
[ ] used a fake id
[x] watched the sun set
[ ] felt an earthquake
[x] touched a snake
[x] slept beneath the stars (well either a tent or hoochie)
[x] been tickled
[x] been robbed
[x] been misunderstood
[ ] petted a reindeer
[x] petted a goat
[x] won a contest (yep.. those chinese school ones ^^")
[ ] run a red light (still cant drive -.-)
[ ] been suspended from school
[x] been in a car accident
[x] had braces
[x] eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night (well dunno if it was a pint but it was a helluva lot ! damn american different standard measurement system -.-)
[x] had deja-vu. (too many times)
[x] danced in the moonlight
[x] liked the way youlook
[ ] witnessed a crime
[x] questioned your heart
[ ] been obsessed with post-it notes
[ ] squished barefoot through the mud
[x] been lost (both in the physical and mental sense)
[ ] been to the opposite side of the country (no but the opposite side of the world)
[x] swam in the ocean (its called the beach -.-)
[ ] felt like dying (cherish life too much..)
[x] cried yourself to sleep
[x] played cops and robbers (yep when i was lil ^^)
[ ] recently colored with crayons
[x] sang karaoke
[x] paid for a meal with only coins
[x] done something you told yourself you wouldn't
[ ] made prank phone calls
[ ] laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
[x] caught a snowflake on your tongue
[ ] danced in the rain
[ ] written a letter to Santa Claus
[ ] been kissed under the mistletoe by your significant other (can i say i wish? :P)
[x] watched the sun rise with someone you care about
[x] blown bubbles
[ ] made a bonfire on the beach (bonfire yes:P.. beach no :( )
[ ] crashed a party
[x] gone rollerskating
[x] had a wish come true
[x] worn pearls
[ ] jumped off a bridge
[ ] ate dog food.
[ ] ate cat food.
[ ] told a complete stranger you loved them.
[ ] kissed a mirror
[x] sang in the shower (lol.. notice PAST TENSE :P)
[x] had a dream that you married someone (a dream i really wanna forget >< )
[x] glued your hand to something (yep..glued my hand to my hand.. as in itself >< when i was lil)
[x] got your tongue stuck to anything
[ ] kissed a fish or a frog
[ ] sat on a roof top
[x] screamed at the top of your lungs
[x] have done a one-handed cartwheel
[ ] talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
[x] stayed up all night
[x] didnt take a shower for a week (the word "camp" mean much ? :P)
[ ] pick and ate an apple right off the tree
[ ] climbed a tree
[ ] had a tree house
[x] afraid to watch scary movies alone
[ ] worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others would say
[ ] gone streaking
[ ] gone doorbell ditching
[ ] played chicken (what the hell is chicken? its the second time ive seen it asked)
[ ] been pushed into a pool/hot tub with all your clothes on (no but the swannie river incident was quite recent ><)
[ ] been told you're hot by a complete stranger
[ ] broken a bone
[x] been easily amused
[x] caught a fish (net wise not fishing with rod n string n bait)
[x] ate a fish (well not a WHOLE fish.. but ive eaten fish before)
[ ] caught a butterfly (:( they always fly away from me)
[ ] laughed so hard you cried
[ ] cried so hard you laughed
[x] cheated on a test
[x] have/had a Britney Spears CD (well it was a tape)
[x] forgotten someones name (happens too often :( )
[x] Braided someones hair... (well plait..at least if not braid)
[x] gone skinny dipping in a pool/lake
[ ] been threatened to be kicked out of your house (no im a good girl ^^)
[ ] been kicked out of your house
[ ] been pushed into the snow w/ shorts on
[x] wondered if the person you like still likes you

anyways..
after that..
you know what im wondering?
im just wondering if i should just take off the password thingy..
yeah the age-ish old question :P
ok...
first of all the main reason of its presence was once a go..
i wanted privacy from my sister..
but i realised now on her computer it just doesnt show up..
so there goes that reason..

but its really the vents that really affect ppl..
the fact that some maybe offended..
but i just dunno..

in a way its the "thing"..
the whole what ppl think i guess..
the fact that you guys get to read this..
its that yes i trust you guys enough
and invite you to read my thoughts..
an open invitation to my mind..

and really today..
ive just been thinking if i open up and take it off..
well really there's the potential that more ppl could read..
but then again..
for me it can get more restricting on what i could say
in trying to avoid offending people..

any opinions on whether or not to remove the password thing?
just feel free to tag away...
honesty is all i really want..

nite nite
*hugz*

Quiz n Talk

Scar you've prob seen this before..
got it off arnina's xanga

[x] I am shorter than 5'4. (probably?)
[ ] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance. (at times when ure a fish outta water)
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger(well yes if "pretty" counts?)
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life

[ ] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work

[x] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[x] I've stolen something from my school/job
[ ] I've been fired.
[x] I've skipped school.

Embarrassment

[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[ ] I've snorted while laughing.
[ ] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something
[ ] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public

Health

[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I've gotten stitches.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctor's office with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Travelling

[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences

[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've been an abuse victim.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping. (when i was little)
[ ] I've played spin the bottle
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[ ] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten Sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.
[ ] I've been bungee jumping.

Relationships

[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've had someone cheat on me.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[/] I have a fear of commitment. (unsure at the current moment)
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality

[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] I love to flirt.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime

[x] I am a terrible liar.
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my/someone's house.
[ ] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[ ] I've shoplifted.

Drugs/Alcohol

[x] I've consumed alcohol
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed.
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I'm a stoner.
[ ] I've snorted cocaine.
[ ] Eaten shrooms
[ ] Popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I've been anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it
[ ] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I'm addicted to self harm.
[ ] I've woken up crying.
[x] I've cried myself to sleep.
[ ] I see/have seen a therapist/counselor

Death and Suicide

[x] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism

[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I own something from Hollister Co.

Political/Social Attitudes

[ ] In general, I don't like people.
[ ] I'm a feminist.
[ ] I'm outgoing.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I'm Democratic.
[ ] I'm Republican.
[ ] I'm liberal.
[ ] I'm Independant
[ ] I don't like Bush because he is dumb.
[ ] I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
[ ] I am for Bush.
[ ] I'm religious.
[x] I dress fairly modestly.
[ ] my attitude is "If you've got it, flaunt it."

Random

[x] I can sing well.(in my head :P )
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily.(at times)
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly (well at least i did.. and now its more of i curse esp when under stress)
[ ] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar.(if i can be bothered to be)
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have/had "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[ ] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
[ ] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[ ] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I believe in aliens.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate
[ ] I bite my nails.
[ ] I play video games.
[ ] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.(if i fail at what my parents want)
[x] My answers are totally honest.

you know what?
these days the most thought provokign thoughts i get
are from reading either times magazine
or from reader's digest
in the waiting rooms of medical clinics
or the hospital

namely coz i had to go to one again
coz of my sister

and dated 2004
you know how diamonds are made outta carbon atoms
strongly bonded together in a covalent network?
and we living organisms
at death have a carbon ratio of
1:10^12 C-14:C-12 ratio?
there was this thing that was talking bout
a service who with cremated remains of your loved ones
will turn it into a diamond..
therefore you literally are wearing ure own well loved one..
in a freaky sense its sorta comforting
but really..
the body of someone real close as a form of jewellery?!?!
in a spiritual sense
ok if ure a woman.. and you love diamonds..
and well think that will be a way to remember ure loved ones..
and have a twisted sense that ure loved one is always with you then fine..
but hello?
materialistic world?
what if it were stolen?
hmmm great thing to have resting on ure conscience..
"my loved one was stolen and is now probably on some black market
being sold for real cheap price"
or really gods know what has happened to it?

OR

after you die.. how much would the next possessor cherish it?
like would they just sell off ure "loved one" in a desparate need for money?
after all to them it may just be a "thing"

ah well..
and on to another thing i read...
there's a virus that makes ppl fat?!? O.o
its like adonene-36, AD-36
well either 36 or 30 cant remember any more
where it multiplies fat cells..
therefore with the virus you would just be getting fatter and fatter
its just such a scary idea..
in a world where stick thin to females = beauty..
well that is the majority im speaking of..

and there was another thing..
hmm..
think it was like yeah..
male and female perception of beauty...
that female its stick thin..
the thinner the better..
where as it tends towards teh voluptuous for male view of beauty..
ah well..
beauty is beauty..
and really confidence ups beauty..
i think that really you need both figure and the whole radiant like aura..
and all you can say is each person to their own form of beauty..

hmmm some of that was useless..
since i didnt care bout some of what i was writing..
ah well..,

after all i wrote before..
doesnt really hit much as anything that i feel like..
much about..,
well maybe the loved ones and diamonds a bit..
but really its just i dunno..
bit closed off today?
:S
not sure..

ah well
nite nite
*hugz*