Oke...
wat happened 2 day?
umm....
nuffin realli...
i want 2 go shopping!!!!
oh well...
betta not spend money on clothez....
but then mi sista keepz stealin mi new clothez....
wen eva i get new clothez...
she stealz em...
agghhh...

2 daiz till skool....
*sigh*
-shit-
i totalli 4got bout tha hw i wz meant 2 do durin tha holz...
-.-"

hmm...
i got most of mi room cleaned up 2day..
but still got heapz 2 do... -.-"

ugh...
i have nothin 2 talk bout...
y???

hmm...
i spent last nite cryin...
mi dad practicalli screamed at me 4 mi room...
but then mi room is messy i do admit miself...
but ye...
and then tha next mornin mi dad came home early...
and we jus had a nice heart 2 heart...
coz he felt guilty wen he heard 4m mi sista that i had cried...
and now hez bak 2 tha attempt of bribin me 2 clean mi room..
and tha house...
but ye....
i havent talked 2 him in agez...
so i guezz it wz quite good...

aghh... i betta go b4 mi mum scoldz again..

nite nite
*hugz

few daiz 2 end of holz...

llalallalallala...

i wonder wen dia will be bak???

welcome bak 2 susan hmm...

i've had quite a good day despite a few downz....

i went rollerbladin thiz arvo...

and i fell 5 timez...

-.-"

i realli wonder where mi sense of balance iz....

i mean it...

tha first time i tried i fell 3 timez and it wz wet...

but 2 day wz perfectly fine and i fell 5 timez...

-.-"

and on top of tha 5 timez...

i hit smak in2 tha pillar which holdz tha gate up at mi house...

so i got a nice white streak down mi jumper before i left tha house...

-_-"

bad bad...

i realli need 2 learn how 2 break...

everytime i try to even break it doeznt work...

i jus lose wat lil balance i got all 2 getha...

oh well...

need practise...

practise away 4m public view...

i mean realli...

so embarressing...

 

wat else???

agghh...

these daiz have nothin 2 say...

*think think think*

 

hmmm...

i got notha 2 blank smsz...

on top of tha 3 random 1z i got durin tha last week of skool...

i wonder whoz sendin em 2 me..

dey're all 4m tha same number...

oh well...

prob some random who keepz makin mistakez wit tha fone number...

oh well...

 

agghh...

mi fone outta credit already???

 -_-"

 

bout 4 daiz till skool...

:( i dont wanna go bak 2 all that hard work...

but then therez pplz i can see!!!

4daiz 2 catch up wit hw...

and clean mi room...

wat else???

catch up wit music practise... (if i can be bothad)

 

so repeatative....

thatz life i guezz....

i betta go..

nite nite  

hmmm....
i wz cookin lunch 4 lina 2 day...
and i wz jus thinkin...
bout some of tha convoz i've had wit pplz...
in tha last few weekz...
and i thought of how in one particular convo...
i had said 'itz not mi place'
thinkin bout that particular one...
i realised wen i think bout pplz and how i and otha pplz relate 2 each otha....
i sorta think of social rankz and classes...
but i dont mean of it as in how rich they are or how they look...
but how they relate 2 othaz....
sorta like social groupz....
eg. one person is in tha middle of a circle...
and then their closest friend or friendz would be in a ring around them...
and then the next closest few and so and so on...

and one of the more interesting facts is that i seem to put miself on the outer....
i wonder....
could it jus be me being antisocial and deliberately putting miself on the outer?
or would it be me perceiving that i'm less wanted as a friend????
or am i afraid of reaching out and trying to make friends...
and bein afraid of rejection???
or am i jus alwaiz down lookin mi self and jus thinkin that i'm a loser...
and no 1 wanna be mi friend...
hmmm....  *think think think*
oh well...

and then durin tha course..
i realised that pplz do have many sidez...
i mean mi room mate had tha side which she wz wit me...
and then a side wen she wz in a group..
and then a side wen she wz round guyz...

and it realli got me thinkin....
i finalli realised pplz react diff in diff situationz...
diff pplz..
diff placez..
diff moodz...

i mean wen ure round diff pplz of diff agez...
and wen ure round pplz of diff racez....
i mean i dont wanna be racist...
but i realised i do react diff wit auzziez...
to wen i wit aznz...
not sayin that i treat em diff but i seem 2 act diff...
they're all mi friendz but i act diff round each of em...
and then wit tha agez...
i act more immature wen i'm wit tha girlz at tha guidez...
and diff at cadetz and skool...
and then at home...
diff environmentz....

and wen pplz say

'be ureself''

i dont see how it could be....
2 me it seemz there is no single me...
therez liek a combination of me...
me is a collective word for all tha pplz i am...

and then there iz tha side i sometimez want pplz 2 see...
i put on an act and they think wat they see iz me....
but i may be completely opposite....
i guezz itz impossible 2 tell bout pplz....
they may react diff 2 u if u were a diff age..
or maybe diff race...
even if u are tha same person on tha inside...
but then they may not....

*sigh*
i realli think i've got relationship probz....
oh well...
i'll try and change...

but some pplz dont eva change...
but heapza pplz change heapz...
in a time frame of an hour a person may change....
i mean i changed quite a bit ova 10 daiz on JNCO...
i found i got so stressed...
i had increased mi amont of swearin by at least 400%
i mean i wz sayin fuk at least 15 timez a day....
oh well....

and then...
time goez past so quickly....
chancez a lost so quickly...
opportunitiez gone...
some which may neva be available again...
*sigh*

but then again...
some chances come and go....
again and again...
and then one day they no longer r available...

and then..
i started thinkin bout goalz....
i think 4 cadetz....
i'll jus aim 4 cwoff...
i doubt cuo would suit me would it???
then maybe if i had time i could try out for cuo...
but i think shoutin at pplz on tha drill square would be fun!!!
:D
hehe

i guezz...
study medicine first...
if i get a high tee score that iz...
oh well...
MUST STUDY!!!!

aggghh...
so much stuff due in afta holz....
and so much happenin...

but then there r family thingz on as well....

hmmm....
wat happened b4 jnco???
oh ye....
i 4got  2 say....
we had buffer nite on fri...
we watched shrek and shrek 2....
and ate pizza....
tha cuo's bought like 60 pizzaz...
there wz HEAPZ!!!!
i couldnt believe it...
wat else???
o i went rollerbladin...
coz mi dad brought em 4 me on tha last day of term...
wat else????
o...
wen i went 2 go buy em...
i saw laurence watz...
lolz
so much taller!!!
oh well...
pplz i cant believe i'm seein these pplz...
last time i saw em wz in yr 7...
time fliez...
been 3 yrz....

oh well...
betta stop sittin at tha comp...
g2g and unpak mi stuffz...
*hugz
bye

holz...

lalala... holz... nothin 2 do now.... mona said she mite be free this fri... maybe go harbour town and help her find clothes 4 social??? and jus go round lookin at stuffz? maybe i mite find some more clothez as well....   dia wen u comin bak????   wat i did 2 day???? i went rollerbladin 4 tha first time!!!!! i fell on mi arse at least 3 timez tho.... -_-" oh well... but then it started rainin whilst i wz outside... and we were goin down hill... bad bad bad time 2 be outside rollerbladin 4 tha first time.... so slippery...   wat else???? thatz mainly it...   oh i remember.... lolz i wz workin out at tha shop and i saw this guy 4m mi primary skool... i think hiz name wz simon jonkiz or somethink like that... lolz... but i did remember his face... and then wen i asked if that wz all... and he replied... i wz so shocked!!! lolz his voice wz so bloody high....   i mean thiz is gettin weird... bak a few monthz i remember seein a guy 4m mi primary skool... his voice wz so bloody LOW and now thiz guyz voice is bloody HIGH lolz...   i guezz thatz all that happened 2 day.. cant remember ne thin else... oh well.... nite nite *hugz

JNCO recap

JNCO IZ OVA!!!!!!! an i PASSED wit a CREDIT!!!!! YAY!!!! ne waiz... i realli cant believe itz ova... it wz like tha best and worst daiz of mi life... it wz SO much fun!!! i cant believe itz ova.... ::tear:: now i wish it were a bit longer... aggghhhhh yet durin tha course i wanted it 2 finish ASAP but now i want 2 still be there.... *sigh* oh well...   at least i'm happi wit mi credit!!!!! i mean i thought tha higest i'd get wz pass... oh well... and then there is tha fact... that i'm kinda pissed at miself 4 not tryin that hard... i mean if i'd tried i may have gotten a distinction... -_-" i got mi report 2 day and i saw tha score ... and mi CO said... i missed out on distrinction by a bit... -_-"   oh well... nuff bout mi score... bout tha daiz.. hmmm.. i cant believe they passed so quickly... i cant believe i lasted so long wit out tha net... oh well...   tha first day... i went up 2 tha east perth station like mosta tha metro cadetz... then formed up and got on tha bus 2 leave... saw LCDT scott 4m GST... and LCDT Naarstig 4m tha wing parade...   got 2 pearce... got allocated in2 our flightz... i wz in A Flight... pplz in A Flight - LCDT Amis (jazz!!! i miss her!!) LCDT Coccaro LCDT Cook (same flight as dia in gst i think?) LCDT Cvianovic (in mi sqn and on same flight as me in gst...) LCDT Falconer-West LCDT Hewit LCDT Hotz (703 sqn) LCDT Kaps (miss her a lil...) LCDT Naarstig (703 sqn)(miss her)  LCDT Pratten LCDT Ruck (aka dobby) LCDT Scherini LCDT Scott (wz in mi flight 4 gst) (miss her) LCDT Shearman (left for personal reasons) LCDT Skinner LCDT Southhall LCDT Steenstra LCDT Urquhart   ye... and there wz one more... but she wz moved 2 anotha flight coz we had most pplz... at tha start of tha course we had 75 pplz on tha course at tha end we had 69.... oh well... so many pplz left..   ne waiz... we spent tha first day stuffin round wit team building exercises...   then 4 tha next few daiz we spent workin... herez our timetable...   0600 - Get up 0645 - Form up 2 go 2 brekky 0700 - brekky 0815 - 0840 - Daily Parade 0845 - 0925 - Period 1 0930 - 1010 - Period 2 1015 - 1055 - Period 3 1100 - 1145 - Period 4 1245 - Lunch 1330 - 1420 - Period 5 1415 - 1455 - Period 6 1500 - 1540 - Period 7 1545 - 1625 - Period 8 1630 - 1700 - Period 9 1800 - Dinner 1900 - 1940 - Period 10 1945 - 2025 - Period 11 2100 - Block Curfew 2200 - Lights out   but ye.. that wz tha timetable.. 4 our flight we had 2 DIs... CWOFF Walters and CWOFF Collins.... so luckki us.... wat else....   LCDT Scott and one of tha DI fell in love... wat else happend? i got distinction 4 instructional technique ( IT ) !!! LCDT Amis claimed she had no diaphragm.... lolz.... tha highest i kept gettin 4 mi room tidyness wz 5.75 outta 10 >.< oh well...   went shootin on tues... we got 30 roundz.. i mean i wz luckki went first coz tha next detail only got 28 roundz... but ye... mi first time i went shootin.... we shot wit 0.22 calibre riflez... i got a score of 117!!! i'm so proud!!! it wz SO much fun!!!   wat else??? oh... we also had fieldcraft... i jus bearly passed 4 tha fieldcraft prac... i'm so crap at it...   wit mi IT pracz.... mi first lesson wz supposed 2 last 5 minz... i ended up talkin for bout 2 minz 30 secondz... -_-" and then... for mi 8 min lesson... i wz forced 2 stop coz i went up to 10 minz.... and i wznt even finished... so ye.... i didnt get 2 ask questionz 4 taht 1... -_-"   wat else??? oh... we had leadership / team building exercises... in total we did 5 exercises... for 2 of those exercises i wz carried ova ropez and stuffz... y? coz in mi group there 5 pplz... me and 4 guyz... so dia.. that ratio wz accurate.... it iz tru... even on tha course... for every gal there were at least 4 guyz... so ye... cadets iz male dominant... yet a female duxed... go galz!!!! it wz LCDT Radford i think....   OMG... i had grad parade this morning... and everythin wz fine... i wz standin in tha front rank between naarstig and pratten... until i heard this sound.... and i turned mi head 2wardz tha source of tha sound... and saw Hotz freeze up rigid and faint bakwardz... OMG it wz tha worst sight eva.. i got so bloody scared... Naarstig who wz next 2 me broke in2 tearz... and pratten started sorta swayin... naarstig wz walked away 2 calm her down... and pratten wz dragged off tha drill square in case he fainted... and i wz left standin there... i stood in time 2 hear that bannister got 3rd (congratz 2 her!!!) wetton got 2nd.. and then i sorta felt dizzy so i went down on mi knee... and wz taken 2 admin area...   i saw naarstig.. we sat round 4 a while... and went 2 visit hotz... he wz actualli fine... all he had wz some minor injuriez on his thumbz...   wat else? i still cant believe i survived tha course... oh kaps... she got so annoyin.. and not onli her but steenstra i also found a lil annoyin.. both of em 2 me seemed like couldnt stop wingein... i had tha worst time wit kaps... i mean i wanted 2 be nice but sometimes she jus realli got on mi nerves... she was always on about how unpopular she was... and how she couldn't call her mum and step dad... -_-" and once she had called em she wouldnt stop goin on bout her pets... -_-" and how she kept jumping down pplz throatz... and wen pplz did tha same 2 her she'd get all pissed... and say there wz no need 2 jump down her throat... and then she wouldnt stop askin pplz 2 do thingz 4 her... i mean she'd go and ask pplz 2 do her bed... and hold stuff 4 her... and help her wit her jumper.. i mean realli.. i can put on tha jumper by miself... she on tha otha hand needz at least 4 otha femalez 2 help... and she wouldnt stop talkin bout... how this guy onli asked her out 2 get her in2 bed... i mean who carez ne more??? thatz part of her past...   and then some pplz did this head bobbing thing... after she saw it... she spent tha whole course doin it... i mean itz ok 2 do it but it jus got annoyin coz it started makin me dizzy... and then there were that timez wen i wz realli stressed... and she'd come 2 me and ask me 2 do somethin... i mean she even came in wen i wz tryin 2 change 2 ask if i could do her hair.... -_-" i mean cant she do ne thin herself? i understand that some pplz are dependent on their parentz.. so on thiz course ure meant 2 learn 2 adapt to independance... i mean even amis learnt how 2 do her hair.... amis alwaiz had her mum 2 do her hair.. so she asked me 2 do her hair.. then afta that she learnt and worked it out herself... oh well... itz jus some pplz i gues...   i cant remember ne more major eventz... oh well... thatz tha gist of mi last 10 daiz... i gonna go rest now... *hugz bye