life is so dull these daiz....
well i do have heaps of hw to do yet i waste mi time stuffin round on the net...

i should realli be stressing and working hard to gettin higher marks since i'm in yr 10
but i jus dunno y i cant realli be stuffed... i guess its jus mi motivation realli... its nil...

and as usual there is tha whole thing where teachers somehow organise 4 everything 2 be due in tha
same week... all assessments and assignments due... and i've got choral camp just tha weekend before...
gr8!
oh well...

gar i sorta noe wat u mean no one can realli be stuffed bloggin ne more....
but then i didnt realli like it in the start... i just blogged once in a while coz scarlet made me an account...

life goes by so quickly... days pass by then weeks then days... we're nearly through term 1
and before we noe it we'll be in yr 11 startin TEE subjects and slowly we'll drift apart following our own
career choices... for me it'll be medicine... i just hope we can keep in close contact but sometimes we just
become forgotten people in the back of each other's memory of the great skool days...
i mean i dont even talk 2 ne of the friends i had in primary skool ne morez even tho we promised 2 keep in contact...
we jus carried on with our lives as though it wz jus a dream, only a long lifelike dream...

we're just living in a small small world which we ourselves are destroying quickly, moment by moment when ever we abuse availability of the resources available to us as if it were infinite... life is realli 2 short 2 waste yet i'm spending my time here typing and wasting mi time... and yet again i bring up the subject that i myself have no social life... no time off...
just stuk at home, going 2 skool, coming home, going 2 piano/guitar, go and help out at the local girl guides or jus cadets... nothing other than that... jus a revolving cycle... seems like it will never end yet very soon it will....

i spend then the rest of mi weekends staying at home... i want 2 go out yet i have 2 point of going... i end up staying at home... and yet very soon i realli will have no time 2 go ne where... jus alwaiz busy... alwaiz having 2 face up 2 deadlines
where ever i go deadlines from handing in work to returning books to the library or even time up when things will stop...
sooner or later every single person will have 2 face up to at least 1 deadline... whether u enjoyed wat u were doing or not...

sometimes i feel so isolated... so confused... there seems to be no one to turn to... i dont realli noe... it jus feels like there is no one 2 talk to although i'm surrounded by a whole college of ppl... i could even go 2 the councellors if i realli got desparate yet i feel like there is nobody there... i'm all alone... oh well... they're just deep dark thoughts... thoughts within me... thoughts i dont dare think of... yet once in a while they come 2 surface whenever i'm alone jus sitting there with nothing to think about...

oh well... i should stop thinking bout this sort of stuff 4 a while
g2g do mi hw (it gotta happen sooner or later)
bye

yay i got a webcam now!!!!!!!
the thing is its connected 2 mi sista's computer coz mind dont work properly :(
oh well...

i had chinese yesterday and we actually got some work done!
but if u ask me it seemed a bit usless... learn how 2 rite bout our starsigns...
we had singing afta that where we sang remember by S.H.E.

we then bought the webcam and i went bak 2 tha shop
i helped Minh out wit some of tha work...

nothing much happened... except 4 a container lady attack and seeing some ppl

she sorta walked in and complained that while she wz eating food 4m mi resto she spilt it as she wz eating it on the car on tha way of coming 2 tha shop...
and i heard her voice and hid under the counter with mi sista
and i dont noe but there is something wrong with her... she jus decided 2 go round 2 the back of tha counter and found me and mi sista and we were like 'umm... hi we didnt c u coming! soz we were jus getting somethin 4m under the counter' and surprisingly she believed us!
quickly we walked off saying that we needed 2 get something and take it 2 tha resto and began walking out tha front door but then annoyingly her van wz parked outside the shop so she began pulling me 2wards her van and saying 'u gotta go meet mi son' and i'm like "NNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO"
well i said hi and she asked me mi age and i said 15 and her son wz 17 and she's like quite a good match coz he's still single... and i wanted 2 vomit.... there is no way this would work out!
and then she left thank goodness!

Truly the sooner chi chi's son gets a social life and finds himself a girlfriend tha happier i'll be! then i'm being a bit hypocritical since i dont have a social life of mi own....

and then other then them i saw Callum, Sam and Ben Jones....

first it wz sam, i saw him afta chi chi left, (he used 2 go 2 tha same primary skool as me) and said hi and he said hi... nothing much but the onli surprise wz wen he said hi it wz such a deep voice i nearly jumped in surprise it wz SO LOW!!!! very freaky.... i guess thats an example of ppl changing...

then it wz Ben Jones... well i dont noe him that well... he wz in mi sista's class wen she wz still in hps (Hollywood primary skool) and lina and i saw him and his dad and his dad points out 'hey ben isn't that ure good friend alina? " and they both look away... quickly lina runs 2 hide... and he goes off looking at stuff...
then i shout out 'bye lina' in some random direction coz she wz crouching next 2 mi feet in tha lunch bar and he saw me and went lookin in that direction i called 2... lol
thing is alina used 2 have this huge crush over him and has nearly gotten ova it and now she wz like OMG... lol

dia - seems like kevin has a little competition... lol

and afta that i saw callum...

that wz all i think that happened yesterday....

oh well...