You know it may sound self centred but...
Sometimes I just can't help but feel like the world is out to get me. Have you had that before? I'm pretty sure it's bound to have occured in your mind at a time when just everything just isn't going right.
That, no matter what you do or how hard you try, it's not gonna work, or when you stop and think about what's happened in the day it's just been a series of unfortunate events. Mind you there's a huge scale as to what bad things that happen are.
Yesterday whilst I was walking, I nearly got run over... AGAIN! And once again no, I wasn't jay walking, I was walking on the FOOTPATH of a street, not crossing the road T.T just like the other time I got off a bus n nearly got hit by a car who's driver dozed off for a sec whilst I was waiting to cross the Stirling Hwy, yet I was on the footpath just standing and waiting to cross.
And you know what? The list of near road accidents doesn't end there, but I find it largely amusing that they all happen when I'm NOT jay walking :S Yet, the list of occurences goes on... Mind you I'm pretty sure that as you age the cases just rise linearly if not exponentially later in life.
Ok so I admit that shit happens, and it happens to everybody so it's not like I'm extra special or anything. Just that when you think about it, the number of times they've been potential occurences, that you've been lucky to miss it's so easy to believe that there is divine intervention. And if not that, is there something out there helping us? Guiding us?
Do you believe that there's a Creator? a Lord or God of our universe?or would it be spirits or souls of our loved ones always watching?
Or is it an enternal balancing scale? The balance in the circle of life? Is there a reason to life, whether we choose to do one thing or the other? is it that there's someone up there that favours some while not others; why some are blessed some not? (in the words of 'God Help the Outcasts' lol every time u tread this line the song just plays in my head... Ok then moving on...)
Or is it just retribution? That were here to make up for something, someone? Is this all a trial, a test or a second chance? Are we living in purgatory? Or are we repeating our actions, reliving our lives again and again until we've finally perfected it, a life without sin.
But is that even possible? To live a life without sin? Is that not how we're defined? That we are creatures of imperfection? Are we really forgiven for all our sins past, present and future? Does that undermine our free will if it's already known that we will and must be doomed to make mistakes? Does that not sound grim? That we are doomed to do wrong? So what is the motivation to do right if we know that we're gonna do wrong and have already been forgiven, that it was forseen anyways?
And what if we're reliving our lives repeatitively to achieve perfection? What then? Would there really be a meaning to life if we all lead the 'perfect' life? I guess that the assumption that everyone would be at various stages at attaining this, and that it was our duty to assist others to attain the same. But what if you did not help? Then would you not be reliving the exact same life repeatedly due to your own inadequacy, insufficiency of a kind, outreaching heart. What then would be the point of life? You would go through the motions of just repeating and completing the tasks of the previous life... And continue to do so whilst lacking theexact same quality. So how then would any improvement occur? Would this mean that our lives would be largely dependant on the lives around us to trigger responses which would be pivotal to our very existances.
Buy then what is the 'perfect' life? what needs to occur? What needs to be done? What needs to be acquired in order for us to fit the requirements?
I think I'll leave it there, for now.
This has been here for months, until next time.
*hugs* & love
-Del
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