Wednesday, March 16, 2005

TALK

GOD i serioulsy need some1 2 talk 2...
i mean ive nearly done everythin..
talked 2 scar..
but she went off coz shez either goin home or doin hw..
every1 else is offline doin hw..
maybe i should be 2 but i cant stand it...

tried studyin but sick of it..

wz gonna talk bout some stuff but since ive finished studyin and its quite late..
next time..
-.-" delayed 3rd time already..
ne waiz
nite nite
*hugz*

Monday, March 14, 2005

suicide...

well as every1 noes...
councilors and some teachaz noe bout blogs now...
and im sorta annoyed at how i took it off
then havin tha skool find some blogs a few daiz afta i took it off...
hope they havent seen mine....

ne waiz...
somethin i didnt mention on mi last post..
on sun...
well i dun think i mentioned it..
wz tha sad news taht trent martins committed suicide...
(AAFC person taht quit last yr)
dunno y he did it tho i noe he hung himself...
it wz such a shock 2 me...

i mean these things u hear of in tha community..
but u dun think it would happen 2 ne 1 u noe of...
its jus so sad..
i mean y would ppl do taht?
they've got their whole lives ahead of em...

and i mean i jus recently found out of anotha person i noe...
(she shall remain unnamed tho dia noes who)
she wz slashing her wrists...
and now apparently shez on 2 drugs...
its jus so scary..
it neva dawned on me that such things happend so close round me..
like tha whole reality of it..
and u think y do ppl do it?
what do they gain..?
wen theyve got their whole lives ahead..
as bad as tha start may seem...

and then 2day i wz at tha petrol station wit mi mum...
and i saw this lady..
and 4m wat i saw she wz disadvantaged...
(she had arms that were onli 1/3 of tha length of an arm of an average person)
not that she had a disability...
jus disadvanataged..
and she wz jus goin about jus like ne normal person...
fillin petrol in2 tank and everyhtin..
and it made me thought...
if this lady could get thru life..
and she looked pretty well off..
like nice car.. nice clothes and everythin...
(tho i shouldnt be judgin ppl by tha way they look)
but she looked like she wz managin thru life fine...
but Y would ppl wanna commit suicide or hurt themselves?
y would they want to cause such damage..?

i mean wouldnt committin tha suicide be takin tah easy way out of pain?
nothin but pure cowardice?
but if u dared 2 face it thru and jus tackled each thing...
and even TALKED 2 ppl more..
but then hey im makin a judgment again on ppl since i dunno wat that pain would be like... but im jus sayin...
like u jus leave ure family there grievin 4 u?

ne waiz..
gettin late
nite nite
*hugz*

quizzez...

4m email..

---------HaVe U eVeR---------
1. Been so drunk you blacked? Nope
2. Missed school coz it was raining? Not yet... tho good idea...
3. Put a body part on fire for amusement: O.O im not that much of a pyromaniac..
4. Been hurt emotionally: yes.. number of times..
5. Kept a secret from everyone: -.-" wat u think?
6. Had an imaginary friend: Lol... i did once.. but onli made her up coz every1 else had 1 and i sorta felt left out coz ppl were all playin wit their imaginary friends..
7.Cried during a Movie: So many ive lost count...
8. Had a crush on a teacher: UM... EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
9. Ever thought an animated character was hot? nope
10.had homosexual fantasies? ? ER how bout NO?
11. Been on stage: YES.. but onli forced in2 it and HATED it
12. Cut your own hair? neva tried... afta all if u stuff up ull have 2 live wit it a while.. betta not risk it..

-------------FaVoUrItEs-------------
13. colour[s]: Blu!!!! tho pink is ok...
16. Day/Night: Both :S like day 4 seein ppl.. but more awake at nite...
17. Summer/Winter: SUMMER!! :D but not wen itz 2 hot...
18. Lace or satin: SATIN!! hate lace...
19. Fave cartoon Character: dun have 1...
20. Fave Food: chocolate... pastas... lollies...
21. Fave Advert: I dont realli watch TV
22. Fave Movie: well mainly 4m tha genre of comedy and/or romance
23. Fave Ice Cream: Vanilla or choc
24. Fave Subject: atm its re and h bio
25. Fave 'normal' Drink(s): Water ^^
26. Fave Person to talk to: I like 2 listen... and i love 2 talk 2 ppl.. but i mean i enjoy discussin diff subjects wit diff ppl... so dun exactly have a "FAVE"

------------Right now--------------
27. Wearing: Pink Spag top & Jeans
28. Hair is: Long and straight and part in tha middle
29. I'm feeling: tired... but wanna talk 2 some1... how come wen therez no1 round i feel like talkin sometimes?
30. Eating: air? no not eatin ne thin..
31. Drinking: Water
32. Thinking about: Skool.. hw... mi sad existance
33. listening to: Naughty Girl - Beyonce :P

----------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------
34. Cried: nope
35. Worn a skirt: skool uniform? more of a dress actualli
36. Met someone new: nope... wait that ladies who did tha soup patrol talk... tho not exactly meet them.. more of they talk i listen...
37. Cleaned your room: Yes.. tho attempt bout as unsuccessful as usual...
38. Done laundry : Yah....
39. Drove a car: Not licensed yet...

--------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN------------------
40. Yourself: sometimes...
41. Your friends: ...? wat u mean by that?
42. Santa Claus: *cries* santa 4got me last yr.. no prezzie... well i dun exactly care so... yah...
43. Tooth Fairy: i got 10 bux wen i wz lil 4m mi parents.... and got mi teeth bak :S so it sorta defeated tha idea of tha tooth fairy story...
44. Destiny/Fate: yah... tho i think it can be affected by what we choose 2 do
45. Angels: Bound 2 be some... i mean on earth i guess u can call em ure friends ^^
46. Ghosts: well we all like 2 believe that our deceased loved ones are alwaiz wit us.. and that they noe wat we're doin... as well as tha ppl we noe... that they go on 2 a next life or realm...
47. UFO : somethin that flies that we dunno wat it is ? :S

friendster bulletin...

1) brand of ur hand phone?
nokia
2) wat'l u do if u see ur gf/bf hugging a girl?
(presumin i have a bf...)ask em watz up and whether or not they value tha relationship we're in coz if not im goin...
3) do you live alone?
no wit parents..
4) hav ur own room?
yah
5) fav pet ?
Annabel ^^
6) 1 thing u cant live w/o?
well THING... um... food...?
7) where do u live?
perth..
8) wat wud u do if sumone tells u he/she likes u?
dunno... neva thought bout it...
9) how are you feelin n0w?
tired... betta sleep soon...
10) where do you hangout?
at home? i guess that is sorta sad... but thatz where i spend most of mi time...
11)what are you good at?
nothing?
12) what is it bout a person you cant stand?
cant think of a person i cant stand atm...
13) what do you want?
a simple happy modest life...?
14) a word that describes you?
me in 1 word? thatz hard... um... apathetic like gar suggested last time??
15) what is ur dream?
2 jus have a good life? nothin that i would regret... tho then again therez things i already regret... *sigh*
16) day/nite?
i liek em both
17) sunset/sunrise?
sunset
18) like a romantic bf/gf?
yes *sigh*
19) what is it about the opposite gender that attracts you?
umm.. next q...?
20) are you an independent person?
not realli...
21)do you like school?
otha than tha studyin bit yes
22) are you stubborn?
i think im passive.. not realli sure
23) believe in God?
sorta...
24)ur favourite sport?
i LOVE most sports ^^ but im REALLI bad at em... -.-"
25) believe in fate?
yes... tho i think that fate can be altered by our actions...
26) get pissed off easily?
on some topics yes....
27) love ur parents?
YES
28) r u a materialistic person?
id like 2 believe taht im not but i prob am...
29) believe in love?
yes but tehn not meant 2 be thinkin bout that now... need 2 study...
even tho im distracted by this...
30) will u get a tattoo?
no dun think ne time soon or eva...
31)smoke?
DEFINATELY NOT
32) club / pub?
neither... i still value mi time at home..
33) wil u forgive ur bf if he cheats on u?
well dun have a bf so dunno if i would... i guess sorta depends on tha person and how i feel at that time...
34)will u expect ur bf to forgive u?
depends on tha matter and type of person...
35) were u on a trip recently?
well america wz quite recent.. tho not THAT recent... but id still call a trip ^^
36)fave country?
Australia... but im bein bit biased...
37) r u impatient?
can be..
39) do u organise parties often
nope not at all... AND im crap at organisin stuff in tha first place...
40)do u hav good friends?
yup ^^ no doubt
41) do u think u r good-looking?
ok.. ne waiz conclusion im not TOTALLI FUGLY or repulsive... tho i wz bak wen i wz younger *shrudderz*
42) do u care about looks?
sometimes... tho i try not 2 judge ppl and i dun realli care bout how ppl look... but i do care if i look like a pain 2 tah eye...
43) do you think that you're a good gf?
um.. neva tried bein 1... so dunno.. and if i did have 1... ask mi bf they'd noe.. not me...
45) do you quarrel with people easily?
depends on tha topic...
46) are you forgiving?
depends on the reason y im annoyed at em... tho ive noticed i get ova somethins surprisinly quickly...
47) do you get hurt easily?
again depends on y... and wat u mean by hurt... as in emotionalli or physicalli.. i do get a lot of injuries and hurt emotionalli..? well depends on how seriously u took somethin and if in a relationship circumstance how much heart u put in..
48) do you prefer gurl wit long/short hair?
umm... wat happened 2 not judgin looks?
49) do u prefer guys wid long/short hair?
ditto bout above... tho sadly i do prefer a guy wit shorter hair than long hair...
50) is ur hair colored?
no jus plain black... tho have some sunstreaks but they're not intentional...
51) are you a romantic partner?
no idea...
52) do you wear a watch??
sometimes.. wen i remember 2 put it on...
53) what kind of clothes do you wear?
...?
54) will you chose love or money?
love ;)
55) do you prefer sleep or eat?
sleep !!!!
56) white or black?
Both.. tho not grey ewwwwww
57) pink or red
pink
58) hate anyone?
try not 2 but some ppl jus plain annoy me...
59) HurT any one?
dun think i have intentionalli... tho i prob have somewhere along tha way of mi life...
60) haTe mosT in Class?
i like most classes.. all cept gnt and ic... hmmm maybe thatz y im failin em...?
61) wHat do yoU think about this?
i wz bored... wat else is there 2 do?

Sunday, March 13, 2005

IGSSA

notha week past..
notha w/e worth of sleep ins lost =.=
SO tired..
and apparently mr g want me 2 play in tha orchestra 2moro..
SO doomed
cant play tha piece yet >.<
and dun realli wanna carry a harp round on a mon mornin..
PLUS got physics test 2moro mornin first period..

last week..
had harmony day..
tha assembly wz quite good ^^
i liked watchin it tho tha essays were quite borin..
but good 2 have free dress..
tho i like uniforms coz that way therez less pressure 2 wear somethin nice..
or in fashion...
and there wouldnt be horrible barings of flesh...
but then i still hate our uniforms...
GREEN! ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

IGSSA swimming carnival..
well we all noe we came 2nd...
2 penrhos ...
found out that a girl at mi chinese skool goes 2 st marys...
scar came ova afta skool coz then she wouldnt have 2 stay at skool by her self...
went out 2 vn 4 dinner...
started eatin like 5:15 which wz wen we were meant 2 be at skool..
so called up late..
and said we'd meet up at beatty park
wen we got there it wz jus me scar and bec suinerine (how eva spell)
and teachers came...
teacha student ratio ws 2:1 -.-"
wit mr lee and some otha teachas..
then tah ppl on tha bus came...

sat at tha bak of tha stands..
saw arnina...
lol bak row of azns... funny..
ne waiz i found it unfair how mrs gibson made some of tha yr 11s sit at tha front..
and tha yr8s at tha bak...
i mean WAT THA?
and then we were told that we werent allowed stand up coz ppl cant see...
well then y not put tha yr 8 at tha front...?
then they could see and we could stand up and cheer ^^
well scream in mi case...
and high voice by end of nite...
oh and it went bak 2 normal at 12 that nite...

sat..
early mornin chinese skool...
barely past written test 70%...
then spent tha arvo teachin some ppl how 2 dance "IT"
(its tha name of tha dance btw)
gay dance that i wz forced performed last yr...
and 1 that im forced 2 teach this yr..
and doin a diff dance next week..
but im not gonna be there..
i wonder wat its gonna be like..
hopefully better...
coz have 2 choose 1 of tha 2 for performance...

sat evenin..
dia came ova..
tehn went 2 nellie owen and katies bday party..
spent tha whole nite in tah pool..
played 2 games of table tennis..
and truth or dare...
and truthfully there were some interestin dares...
*wink*
and no i didnt do ne of hta dares..
i prefer truth ^^

and 2day..
woke up early..
went wit mi mum swapmeet marketin AGAIN..
and wit mrs tan again...
this time not much buyin of stuff..
then went 2 lunch at some viet resto in mirrabooka
that 1 of tha ladies that works in tha shop recommended...
i guess tha food wz ok..
tho i got sick of it b4 i wz finished..
like u jus had so much that u dun feel like eatin it ne more..
even tho ure still hungry?
heapza either viet or azn ppl in there...
but majority viet obviously...
and like 1 oz guy wit 2 azn ppl...
and went home afta...

and that wz mi w/e..
nothin interestin..
tbo lots 2 rite bout...
hmmm..

ne waiz late...
and im REALLI SLEEPY
nite nite
*hugz*