you know what that reminds me of?
that quiz thing..
bout being enviro friendly.
but.
no that's not what i was thinking about.
i was thinking about the impact one has on others
on the people around you
and their effect on you.
in a matter of words
or the lack thereof.
may either person's world as they know it
may disappear
or lay beneath their feet as they're on top of the world
and what more?
the fact that alot of what may be said now
can be through just the words
the message conveyed is only transmitted through technology
these shaped symbols that create represent something
these letters which form words which form texts.
simple as that
sent in some way or the other.
in a moment of emotion the sender clicks send
and the receipient receives
what is sent is rarely revised and reread
yet for the reader.
the same few lines are read over and over again
trying to apprehend the overall intended meaning
was that what they literally meant?
was it just figuratively speaking?
was that just drenched and dripping with sarcastic venom?
believe what you want to believe
but in the writing. all can be read vertabim
over and over and over again.
exactly as they may have
carelessly strung together the sentence.
so just a word.
despite the many precautions given
despite the repetition
despite the fact that we know it is so
we still commit the crime
at least i know i do.
ive never been a wordsmith
never been one to craft my speech
or carefully chosen my vocab
but being the receipent
im reminded again..
time and time again.
it hurts.
mm that's it for now
nite nite
*hugs*
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
A Rose By Any Other Name Would Smell Just As Sweet.
BUT..
money n cigarrettes just stink.
mm yes its at work
tho then again.
everytime a customer buys mangoes
im reminded once again of the smell of mangoes
as a thought is thrown in that direction
mm mangoes ^^
anyways.
that's it for now.
nite nite.
money n cigarrettes just stink.
mm yes its at work
tho then again.
everytime a customer buys mangoes
im reminded once again of the smell of mangoes
as a thought is thrown in that direction
mm mangoes ^^
anyways.
that's it for now.
nite nite.
Friday, November 16, 2007
Wanderlust... Wandering Lust? Or Lust for Wandering..?
Free At LAST!!
As usual.
post exam brings great relief :)
im so happy! not another thought about uni.
well till the week before exam results are released..
gotta worry bout re-enrolement and results ><
till then I HAVE TIME!
of which. Wanderlust - the love of travel ^^
hmm more correctly the 'lust' for travel.
i like to travel
fun!! but at the same time..
the people that are left back home
hmmm coulda spent that time with them instead?
opportunity cost!!
somehow that's the only thing i remember from econs
:S
dum di dum.
why blank now?
:(
hmm people say that don't write down
what you dont want the world to know..
lol oh well somehow i've a feeling
this is gonna turn around and bite me
in the butt sooner or later.
but still i like to blog :)
yay i found another blogskin i wouldnt mind using
too bad. like the first one
when i place it in the text positioning is screwed up -.-
ah well. i think ive managed work out why
now i just gotta edit it till it fits.
work in progress...
out i go
c ya later
*hugs*
As usual.
post exam brings great relief :)
im so happy! not another thought about uni.
well till the week before exam results are released..
gotta worry bout re-enrolement and results ><
till then I HAVE TIME!
of which. Wanderlust - the love of travel ^^
hmm more correctly the 'lust' for travel.
i like to travel
fun!! but at the same time..
the people that are left back home
hmmm coulda spent that time with them instead?
opportunity cost!!
somehow that's the only thing i remember from econs
:S
dum di dum.
why blank now?
:(
hmm people say that don't write down
what you dont want the world to know..
lol oh well somehow i've a feeling
this is gonna turn around and bite me
in the butt sooner or later.
but still i like to blog :)
yay i found another blogskin i wouldnt mind using
too bad. like the first one
when i place it in the text positioning is screwed up -.-
ah well. i think ive managed work out why
now i just gotta edit it till it fits.
work in progress...
out i go
c ya later
*hugs*
Monday, November 12, 2007
Exam...?!?
ONE MORE FREAKING EXAM LEFT! :)
hmm
that means that:
a) i survived consecutive days of attempted early morning crams
b) random sleep times when i wanted to study
and wanting to study when i should be sleeping
c) walking around in sunshine again !!
well actually started
when i had to get to uni to TAKE the exams
d) still have to cram for tomorrow's -.-
e) am utterly gonna fail tomorrow's
coz unlike the previous three..
i actually had background so study sorta made sense
and if it wasnt enough i spent more time on it
-.- MBC...
where as this is total memorisation of shapes
n lines. and then an arrow. then more lines O.o
and some how work out the short answers..
which means.. either i know it or.. FAIL *sigh*
f) im waiting for songs
but in amongst lecture slide downloading
of the freaking chem site.. coz of anti-webCT-ing lecturer
is taking forever. as it seems to be
even if IM THE ONLY ONE AT HOME
the fastest possible rate of loading is like 10kb/s
*sigh*
ive read half a book today waiting for lecture slides to load
but now i cant put the book down ><
g) ive started dreaming again.
since i havent had to stress about waking up early
and just spending the precious time in Non-REM sleep.
anyways. yes dreams plaguing me atm >< not good
mayhap i'll talk bout them later??
h) my eating patterns are finally
starting to resemble one of a normal person
unlike at least the last week or more where i sorta became
some bottomless-pit-where-food-disappears-into
and all that
for just a 3 day break from the last exams
hmmm
bleh its late and i need sleep to
wake up early tomorrow morning for another round
of early morning cram ><
nite nite
*hugs*
hmm
that means that:
a) i survived consecutive days of attempted early morning crams
b) random sleep times when i wanted to study
and wanting to study when i should be sleeping
c) walking around in sunshine again !!
well actually started
when i had to get to uni to TAKE the exams
d) still have to cram for tomorrow's -.-
e) am utterly gonna fail tomorrow's
coz unlike the previous three..
i actually had background so study sorta made sense
and if it wasnt enough i spent more time on it
-.- MBC...
where as this is total memorisation of shapes
n lines. and then an arrow. then more lines O.o
and some how work out the short answers..
which means.. either i know it or.. FAIL *sigh*
f) im waiting for songs
but in amongst lecture slide downloading
of the freaking chem site.. coz of anti-webCT-ing lecturer
is taking forever. as it seems to be
even if IM THE ONLY ONE AT HOME
the fastest possible rate of loading is like 10kb/s
*sigh*
ive read half a book today waiting for lecture slides to load
but now i cant put the book down ><
g) ive started dreaming again.
since i havent had to stress about waking up early
and just spending the precious time in Non-REM sleep.
anyways. yes dreams plaguing me atm >< not good
mayhap i'll talk bout them later??
h) my eating patterns are finally
starting to resemble one of a normal person
unlike at least the last week or more where i sorta became
some bottomless-pit-where-food-disappears-into
and all that
for just a 3 day break from the last exams
hmmm
bleh its late and i need sleep to
wake up early tomorrow morning for another round
of early morning cram ><
nite nite
*hugs*
Sunday, November 11, 2007
A Walk Down Old Drafts' Lane...
Warning: EXTREMELY LONG POST
ok.
was considering blogging
but then thinking about it..
i was like
and it was at that moment.
that i thought about all the draft posts i ever had
and thought..
bout time to fix it up huh?
why not 'write' that wrong? :P
(yes sad n lame. but i need reasons to be happy ok?)
so here it is..
ALL the draft posts that have been sitting away
in my 'dashboard' awaiting some TLC.
well more of ive only chosen the ones
that were in at least some substantial length..
2 lines woulda been just too pointless...
so yep. here it is..
cant really say 'enjoy' but more of..
hmmm -.- is someone avoiding chem study or what?
meanwhilst do mind that some of these were written
AGES ago. so some opinions expressed
MAY or MAY NOT reflect what i think now :)
mmhmm yep.
that's the load of it.
tho some of them sorta ended really abruptly
hmm 'abruptly' i dont like that word..
i have like pronounciation difficulties with it
i guess it sorta feels better now that they're published
or least going to be published
but still cant erase the whole 'drafts' words from my list
coz i just copied n pasted
n not actually pressed publish for each one
hmm maybe i should go back n delete them?
then it'll look all pretty again
coz then the list of posts shall not have this bright
ORANGE standing out word that reminds me of business left undone.
tho really why does that bother me..
i do have a lotta unfinished business in general..
hmm a lot of it to do with studies too :S
ah well.
it suggests that i enjoy blogging more than study maybe?
i think so *nods*
you know.
i got up this morning..
and realised something.
the further along i get with my exam cram
the more books that start appearing on my bed
so far for every exam finished..
another textbook appears on my bed..
lol i think it was more of
'get outta my sight now that i'm done with you' :P
but yeah.. that meant that there was SO much space
on my desk this morning
i was like whoa!!
then looked at my bed and sorta.. yeah
sorta explained to me why my desk is near empty.
somehow.
im still amazed at how
a few hours before each exam i've had
i just sit there eager for the exam to start
its not like i know the stuff.
ive just crammed it..
so the likelihood of getting a satisfying mark for it
is like super low
but i actually couldnt wait for exams TO start.
and funny that.
im dreading the end of exams coz it means work...
huh.. how am i gonna deal with work after study?
if i am already dreading working now
and looking forwards to exams?
i think my brain has been scrambled..
dont you??
dum di dum.
im waiting for my chem lecture slides to load.
coz there's no such thing as ilecture for chem unit
damnit.
but on the plus at least i have the textbook to read outta
lol last time i was studying chem (mid sems)
my mum came in and looked at what i was studying
and goes 'how bout i test you on your unit k?'
surprised that my mum said that im like 'oh ok sure'
she closed my book
picked it up..
pointed at the picture of the flower on the cover of my textbook
and asked me...
'what type of flower is that?'
-.-"
i seriously stood there dumbfounded.
flower yes prettiful
flower name.. no idea?
studying chem. dont care bout flower
yes?
flower name not going to be tested..
somehow after that i decided
i think she was meaning to cheer me up
not actually help me with study...
ah well..
Black, Black Heart.
that's the song that's stuck in my head atm.
oh thinking about blackness.
i found a layout im happy with already..
actually two
BUT. the annoying thing..
is one is the clicky 4 box type
where you have to click them to go to different things
liek tagbox n the actual posts
n i dont like em so that one's out
and the other one..
which should actually be no problem with
im having troubles applying
coz everytime i do
the text just covers each other
and that's just from copying
and pasting the template over..
so i gotta work that out first
*sigh* troublesome.
but its pretty ^^
so until i find an alternative
ill just have to solve the prob
which is most likely to take forever..
damnit..
but then again
im also considering just why not use an old layout?
something from before?
but hmmm.. :S
not happy with anything just yet
thinking about it
after this chem exam.
its *poof* end of first yr uni.
its like whoa.
mm i still wanna get one of those uni hoodies tho..
i didnt actually end up getting round to buying one
lol i remember back in highschool seeing them
and wanting one..
and now i have the chance to.. i guess
just yet to take it.
hmm
why is it and how is it..
that people can bitch bout others so easily sometimes
i'd say i hate it like most people
and in the same breath i guess i do have to admit it that
yes i do commit the very same sin
and sometimes
i wonder how i end up coming across to others
like how i appear.. in what i do
coz for all i know
it could be aloof, friendly, closed in or just plain bitchy
n i wouldnt know.
but sometimes
when you sit down n chat in places busy with people
rushing or walking casually past
you can see.. in their air n posture
the goal oriented
the confidence
the relaxed
the happy
the sad
the sloth-like
just making their way along
just coz they have to. or coz they want to
and it just seems to roll off them in waves
sometimes its just the confidence in someone's stride
that makes you think that they're having the best of their time
enjoying what they're doing and getting along with their life
but in the same thought. i think about..
is that really what's happening? is that their entire life
encapsulated and summarised in a single walking style?
what's on their mind atm?
is it coz of their thoughts that they walk that way?
or is it another thing? is there a particular reason behind it?
and in the sight of meeting someone
from the past all over again
is it time that changes the person?
or the actual perception that's changed?
did their opinion change?
was it just the memory that's rough around the edges
or the fixedness of the memory of the person
being projected onto the person as an ideal
of what they're meant to do n say..
what's the predicted response and such
so have i really changed? or was it just you?
did you ever even know me for who i am?
that this me that's still here's the same
yet the different setting gives you the different perception?
or dont you remember me at all?
the fact that what you supposed to think i was
wasnt that at all and the memory created
is just another ideal that's fused with memory?
or the assumption that with the passing of time
ive just been stereotyped into a whole new category..
or..
could it just be the reaction to the person in general
for sometimes what you think you know
just may not be as major as you thought i was
nothing but a miniscule detail
just as you scratch the surface of something
its then that you realise
that maybe. you dont know a damned thing at all
or the fact that in the end
the conclusion came to oh so long ago
really was right
that the reason for association
was just one of convenience?
hmm
listening to music these days
i realised that along with the onset of exams
i miss my voice lessons
the day in which i looked foward to the hour arvo session
where i actually worked on a piece of music
actually take it seriously
ensuring i sang each note correctly
working on getting the expression right
not like higgledy piggledy nowadays
a random one off shot
but repeating and refining
oh guess what?
its rememberance day too.
hmm i totally forgot bout any
special days anymores
since i dont keep track with a diary
i look at reasonably constantly or what not
so yeah..
a min's silence *looks down in silence*
tho it sorta was a bit late
since its no longer the 11th hour.
ah well the thought that counts *nods*
i think that's it for now.
enjoy the day..
*hugs*
ok.
was considering blogging
but then thinking about it..
i was like
'since i dont have a point
i wont actually get an actual post done
and then in that case..
it'll probs save as a draft..
and like a number of drafts of mine.
it'll just rot away to eternity
coz by the time too much time passes
i wont even remember the reasoning behind
what i was writing about..'
and it was at that moment.
that i thought about all the draft posts i ever had
and thought..
bout time to fix it up huh?
why not 'write' that wrong? :P
(yes sad n lame. but i need reasons to be happy ok?)
so here it is..
ALL the draft posts that have been sitting away
in my 'dashboard' awaiting some TLC.
well more of ive only chosen the ones
that were in at least some substantial length..
2 lines woulda been just too pointless...
so yep. here it is..
cant really say 'enjoy' but more of..
'for your procratty behaviour..
now i present to you....
A Walk Down Old Draft's Lane'
hmmm -.- is someone avoiding chem study or what?
meanwhilst do mind that some of these were written
AGES ago. so some opinions expressed
MAY or MAY NOT reflect what i think now :)
Long W/E
19 May 2005 @ 23:27
long w/e and exams are coming up so quick..
and thanx 2 gar who reminded me practicalli..
tho u do sorta understand there are things that i choose 2 do in an attempt 2 get mi mind OFF exams..
tho good point both waiz..
i cant remember bout last week..
but i wanna rite bout it >.<
oh well..
i can bearly remember tha w/e...
there wz that pipe thingy that burst near tha freeway..
so liek tha drive 4m tha ct 2 freo wz like 3 hours...
poor ppl stuck in traffic...
and it also meant 4 me that same fri nite wen i had tha music concert..
and afta an hour in tha traffic onli got like 1/4 of tha way 2 skool..
and like our performance wz like 3rd..
so didnt make it on time...
so turned tha car round and drove 2 ct...
went shopping 4 mi mum..
found her a nice suit thingy ^^
next day wz tha wedding thing..
seriously in mi whole life..
i conclude i havent been 2 a wedding thats been LESS organised -.-"
it seemed like there wz no expense or thought put in...
tho that coulda been jus a lil ceremony thing that they didnt care bout..
but i guess i grew up learning that wedding is a whole BIG day..
and like its a day that should be remembered 4 tha couple..
tha expense side i couldnt realli comment on since like ppl have different financial statuses.. but i mean they were SO disorganised.. -.-"
and one of tha funniest thingz in tha morning wz like coz they were so disorganised they didnt have liek those red pin on tags on them that like say in chinese "bride" or "groom" or like "mother in law" etc.. wen mi dad came..
(he wz MC btw) and since hez realli serious wen it comes 2 customs and stuff..
so he goes 2 them go buy them coz like it would help 2 identify who is who...
so they send some1 off 2 buy em..
wen they come bak afta a huge rush and give it 2 tha ppl..
mi dad looks at em and is like stunned and i go ova 2 look at watz so weird
and i cracked up..
they had bought 2 "groom" name things lol..
i mean u get a "bride" and "groom" not 2 "grooms"
unless they were gay..
but not tha case at this wedding
=====================================
continuation Sat 25 June..
k.. i cant remember tha fine details of that wedding ne more...
let alone most of tha stuff in that w/e..
but.. ill jus do it off tha top of mi head..
umm..
the groom wz then late...
we all went 2 bride's house..
had a lil talk thingy..
then went bak 2 tha groom's house..
where they had invited a priest 2 do tah ceremony at tha house..
afta there were some char siu buns passed round..
and i think a realli rude thing wz...
like coz tha bride's side wz christian..
and tha groom's side wz...
umm dunno but they had tah whole kitchen god.. and land god etc..
dunno wat 2 call religion..
ne waiz...
tha bride's maids.. since they were bz all morning..
so once they saw tha plate of buns..
they like started 2 grab em..
then jus b4 ne of them ate 1..
one of tha bride's maids said:
"wait.. i think they mite have been offered [as in 2 tha kitchen god etc]"
and straight away..
they jus like dropped tha buns bak on tha plate...
-.-"
i mean it wz offered 4 u 2 eat..
and its jus a suspicion..
ok i understand that yeah itz your religionz n what not
but cmon ure hungry and itz food.
you BIT it ALREADY too late huh?!
haiz food gone to waste
The Visiting of My Muse...
7 September 2005 @ 21:35
well my muse visited me..
and i now have somethin 2 vent bout..
tho personally its NOT such a good thing..
i mean..
i have found..
well not exactly found since i didnt discover it..
but more of i have concluded that...
my parent's alternative to the tv..
and internet (well not that they use it)
would be...
THE...
RADIO
not really surprisin i noe...
since tvs and radios and the net are VV new...
but im really not talkin bout the normal radio..
and the radio stations at that..
but of the lil black 1 my mum recently got..
its like an A5 sized black box with an extended antenna
and it is portble as well..
pretty old you think..?
well the main thing..
is that it broadcasts vietnamese TWENTY-FOUR/SEVEN
...
which means its on at home..
its on when my mum's at work..
its ALSO on in the car...
well my mum is enjoyin it heaps..
since she keeps listenin to it...
and lately theres sorta been less scoldings..
less comments on stuff...
good eh...?
uh uh..
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoo
NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO
couldnt ever be more wrong..
now its like "later on adela"
-.-"
eg..
after school today..
*mum picks me up..
radio is on in the car..*
me: afternoon mum
mum: good afternoon della
me:how was your day?
mum:shh della im listening..
ask me later
*later on*
me:mum, can i..?
mum: SHHH! the radio! its important
me: -.- *thinks: again still?*
[Untitled]
27 April 2006 @ 22:54
hmm
waht to say?
wanted to post so yeah..
here it is..
well not really since theres nothing actually posted..
mm what're the thoughts on those mobile/child GPS ?!
well the deal is..
designed by some mobile company i think it was..
its a combination of a GPS and a mobile..
the parent gets a fone and the child gets a fone..pro: child gets fone living in the materialistic world we are in..
and then..
whenever the parent choses..
they can look up where their child is by assuming that's where their fone is..
you know what's crappy?!?
having any form of conscience....
it can really screw your mind up..
esp when you think too much..
OR.
you live in a world where you cannot sleep..
coz all you can bloody do is lie round thinking..
what if this...? what if that...?
its this god damn bloody .... cloud of doubt..
just this thing..
taht bloody keeps me up..
and if its not one thing its another..
*sigh*
====================================
yet again a leftover post..
from like 4 days ago..
school starts tomoz..
and yeah i wanna see my friends..
no i havent gotten any work done yet -.-
and exams in 3 weeks ><
of whichi i dont even know what i have due in tomoz
since i lost my diary -.-
mm and the fact that my ipod's frozen
and my sister just left this morning :(
no not lina, Julia
on that note..
its a wonder why my parents wont let me learn to drive yet..
well not really
since i know a major factor is the fact that
they believe if you let kids learn to drive to early..
they'll have more freedom to go off anytime they like..
TROY Story...
2 July 2006 @ 17:16
With a spark of creativity..
prob an absence of del's personal voice..
and just a hint of prcrasintation..
(well lets just say my last lil fun bit
before i get into a week of endless stress)
i present to you..
a recount of Friday in...
*drum rolls*
Troy Story!!
Once upon a time...
in a land far away..
the female kingdom of MLC
all migrated to a great stadium for a day of "fun and games"
Divided into 6 different teams according to each one's characteristics..
the population including its supervisors
and one strange particular individual..
who will remain un-named.. :P
(shown below)
barracked for all of the teams in a bid to feel happy
no matter who won..
she belonged to the tribe of Troy
and it is today that we unravel the story of the Troy Tribe..
*starting from here on is an official continuation..
of a masterpiece.. minus the master that was started bout 2 or 3 weeks ago*
on this particular year,
there were a number of particular themes
Shades of Grey...
19 September 2006 @ 17:13
You know..
really on the ending weeks of term 3 classes..
i found it strange that i was feeling skeptical
n sentimental over things during H BIO...
well its just so strange being h bio that i even felt that way..
disillusioned...
ever think back n reflect..
where the memories of the past..
what seemed so happy back then seems
all suddenly like a bunch of falseness?
I Sound Like.. WHO!?!
9 March 2007 @ 07:20
with the supposed belief
that girls like guys who are like their dads
and guys like girls who are like their mums
some complex or the other..
i was thinking about it and realised
is it really suprising we sooner or later
end up taking up things from either of our parents?
if you think about it
what you choose to do is reflective
of either similar to what your parents believed
and taught to you
the complete opposite
or a mixture of both
coz like what are the other possible choices?
me for one
i never realised there are those characteristics
until i stopped.. and actually thought
why the heck did i do that?!
or
why the heck did i say that?!
=============================
the above being written about 14 days ago..
OMG about what? only two weeks ago?
jeez time flies > <
i cant even remember 2 weeks ago
seems sorta too normalised
guess im really enjoying uni then
not really any other explaination to it otherwise
=============================
and on to the above add yet another 3 days
mmhmm yep.
that's the load of it.
tho some of them sorta ended really abruptly
hmm 'abruptly' i dont like that word..
i have like pronounciation difficulties with it
i guess it sorta feels better now that they're published
or least going to be published
but still cant erase the whole 'drafts' words from my list
coz i just copied n pasted
n not actually pressed publish for each one
hmm maybe i should go back n delete them?
then it'll look all pretty again
coz then the list of posts shall not have this bright
ORANGE standing out word that reminds me of business left undone.
tho really why does that bother me..
i do have a lotta unfinished business in general..
hmm a lot of it to do with studies too :S
ah well.
it suggests that i enjoy blogging more than study maybe?
i think so *nods*
you know.
i got up this morning..
and realised something.
the further along i get with my exam cram
the more books that start appearing on my bed
so far for every exam finished..
another textbook appears on my bed..
lol i think it was more of
'get outta my sight now that i'm done with you' :P
but yeah.. that meant that there was SO much space
on my desk this morning
i was like whoa!!
then looked at my bed and sorta.. yeah
sorta explained to me why my desk is near empty.
somehow.
im still amazed at how
a few hours before each exam i've had
i just sit there eager for the exam to start
its not like i know the stuff.
ive just crammed it..
so the likelihood of getting a satisfying mark for it
is like super low
but i actually couldnt wait for exams TO start.
and funny that.
im dreading the end of exams coz it means work...
huh.. how am i gonna deal with work after study?
if i am already dreading working now
and looking forwards to exams?
i think my brain has been scrambled..
dont you??
dum di dum.
im waiting for my chem lecture slides to load.
coz there's no such thing as ilecture for chem unit
damnit.
but on the plus at least i have the textbook to read outta
lol last time i was studying chem (mid sems)
my mum came in and looked at what i was studying
and goes 'how bout i test you on your unit k?'
surprised that my mum said that im like 'oh ok sure'
she closed my book
picked it up..
pointed at the picture of the flower on the cover of my textbook
and asked me...
'what type of flower is that?'
-.-"
i seriously stood there dumbfounded.
flower yes prettiful
flower name.. no idea?
studying chem. dont care bout flower
yes?
flower name not going to be tested..
somehow after that i decided
i think she was meaning to cheer me up
not actually help me with study...
ah well..
Black, Black Heart.
that's the song that's stuck in my head atm.
oh thinking about blackness.
i found a layout im happy with already..
actually two
BUT. the annoying thing..
is one is the clicky 4 box type
where you have to click them to go to different things
liek tagbox n the actual posts
n i dont like em so that one's out
and the other one..
which should actually be no problem with
im having troubles applying
coz everytime i do
the text just covers each other
and that's just from copying
and pasting the template over..
so i gotta work that out first
*sigh* troublesome.
but its pretty ^^
so until i find an alternative
ill just have to solve the prob
which is most likely to take forever..
damnit..
but then again
im also considering just why not use an old layout?
something from before?
but hmmm.. :S
not happy with anything just yet
thinking about it
after this chem exam.
its *poof* end of first yr uni.
its like whoa.
mm i still wanna get one of those uni hoodies tho..
i didnt actually end up getting round to buying one
lol i remember back in highschool seeing them
and wanting one..
and now i have the chance to.. i guess
just yet to take it.
hmm
why is it and how is it..
that people can bitch bout others so easily sometimes
i'd say i hate it like most people
and in the same breath i guess i do have to admit it that
yes i do commit the very same sin
and sometimes
i wonder how i end up coming across to others
like how i appear.. in what i do
coz for all i know
it could be aloof, friendly, closed in or just plain bitchy
n i wouldnt know.
but sometimes
when you sit down n chat in places busy with people
rushing or walking casually past
you can see.. in their air n posture
the goal oriented
the confidence
the relaxed
the happy
the sad
the sloth-like
just making their way along
just coz they have to. or coz they want to
and it just seems to roll off them in waves
sometimes its just the confidence in someone's stride
that makes you think that they're having the best of their time
enjoying what they're doing and getting along with their life
but in the same thought. i think about..
is that really what's happening? is that their entire life
encapsulated and summarised in a single walking style?
what's on their mind atm?
is it coz of their thoughts that they walk that way?
or is it another thing? is there a particular reason behind it?
and in the sight of meeting someone
from the past all over again
is it time that changes the person?
or the actual perception that's changed?
did their opinion change?
was it just the memory that's rough around the edges
or the fixedness of the memory of the person
being projected onto the person as an ideal
of what they're meant to do n say..
what's the predicted response and such
so have i really changed? or was it just you?
did you ever even know me for who i am?
that this me that's still here's the same
yet the different setting gives you the different perception?
or dont you remember me at all?
the fact that what you supposed to think i was
wasnt that at all and the memory created
is just another ideal that's fused with memory?
or the assumption that with the passing of time
ive just been stereotyped into a whole new category..
or..
could it just be the reaction to the person in general
for sometimes what you think you know
just may not be as major as you thought i was
nothing but a miniscule detail
just as you scratch the surface of something
its then that you realise
that maybe. you dont know a damned thing at all
or the fact that in the end
the conclusion came to oh so long ago
really was right
that the reason for association
was just one of convenience?
hmm
listening to music these days
i realised that along with the onset of exams
i miss my voice lessons
the day in which i looked foward to the hour arvo session
where i actually worked on a piece of music
actually take it seriously
ensuring i sang each note correctly
working on getting the expression right
not like higgledy piggledy nowadays
a random one off shot
but repeating and refining
oh guess what?
its rememberance day too.
hmm i totally forgot bout any
special days anymores
since i dont keep track with a diary
i look at reasonably constantly or what not
so yeah..
a min's silence *looks down in silence*
tho it sorta was a bit late
since its no longer the 11th hour.
ah well the thought that counts *nods*
i think that's it for now.
enjoy the day..
*hugs*
Saturday, November 10, 2007
Just One Last Time...?
unless you think about particular occurences
it seems just too easy it seems
to float along in life
not realising what happens
or thinking about the effects or repecussions
of what you do, say, n well even think
(attitude affecting behaviour?)
tho sometimes things happen to make you wonder
if there really is a god above
at least you think about it
and hope for least someone who has the power
to be overwatching you and possibly guiding you
someone who cares...?
its just like this occurence
reported on the ninemsn videos..
hmm well it caught my eye.
but since i cant actually load the video
coz the net is slow and will take forever to load.
im basing this on the single sentence recap
like.. awww
god? karma? or like random spontaneous luck??
atm. i just wanna believe.
no. i hope that things dont happen jus coz of random coincidence.
anyways.
something better left for another day's thinking
headachey and after 3 days of exams and morning crams
im just so not up to thinking..
at all..
i have now even lost my ability to count..
sadly. i was having troubles counting to 20
to make sure the 20 pages of exam was actually there
oh god..
and bout my previous posts
its not uni.. its ME
*hugs*
nite nite
it seems just too easy it seems
to float along in life
not realising what happens
or thinking about the effects or repecussions
of what you do, say, n well even think
(attitude affecting behaviour?)
tho sometimes things happen to make you wonder
if there really is a god above
at least you think about it
and hope for least someone who has the power
to be overwatching you and possibly guiding you
someone who cares...?
its just like this occurence
reported on the ninemsn videos..
hmm well it caught my eye.
but since i cant actually load the video
coz the net is slow and will take forever to load.
im basing this on the single sentence recap
an american couple who
tragically lost their three children
in a car accident
have been blessed with the news
that they are expecting triplets
like.. awww
god? karma? or like random spontaneous luck??
atm. i just wanna believe.
no. i hope that things dont happen jus coz of random coincidence.
anyways.
something better left for another day's thinking
headachey and after 3 days of exams and morning crams
im just so not up to thinking..
at all..
i have now even lost my ability to count..
sadly. i was having troubles counting to 20
to make sure the 20 pages of exam was actually there
oh god..
and bout my previous posts
its not uni.. its ME
*hugs*
nite nite
Friday, November 09, 2007
*Pop*
ok so now it is truly
'three to go'
but with the 'two down'
in front of it
mhmm exam finished
==========================
make that 'three down and two to go'
i never thought it was possible
but this morning
i found myself actually not being able to
WAIT till my exam started
I WANTED TO HAVE START MY EXAM at 9am
hmm...
BUT. you cant always have what you want
so was waiting away at 2 for it
and FINALLY over n done with ^^
but sadly my nightmare isnt over yet
not that its really a nightmare.
just a troublesome, bothersome assessment
meanwhilst despite the amount of time ive spent on MBC study..
which is not really alot
but in comparsion to my other units
which means WAY MORE
i still know nothing...
somehow i forsee at least one fail this sem *sigh*
well one fail for MBC
and just stating another to give myself some leeway
meh means no disappointment later if it comes true..
just hope that its not a self fullfilling one tho ><
meanwhilst during my h bio exam...
i learnt:
a) like i've said before my attention span's reduced
b) to be grateful for calculators..
despite the fact it took me a HALF HOUR
for to remember bout their existence whilst i sat there
n fumbled through trying to work out simple maths..
no wonder i dont take maths..
adding on to my shame.. what i needed to calculate was this:
1-(1/30)=...?
*sigh* half hour of my 2 hour exam WASTED.
c) i can no longer write essays.
what little i ability i used to have in writing essays
whilst lit teachers deemed as being badly expressed n what not
no longer just springs outta my mind
h bio essay...?
q chosen verily easily
but the actual words?
think as hard as i may..
not a single sentence came to mind
think think think thank thank thunk!
NOTHING. not a single string of words that could
be put together accordingly to good syntax
which could possibly pass for as 'language'
i guess in the end the psych textbook was right...
use it or lose it..
i havent written an essay in...
i have no idea. meanwhilst in the last 2 days
ive had to gather what little white and grey matter i had
that had yet to degenerate to drivel away 3 essays -.-
meh
off to sleep
nite nite
*hugs*
'three to go'
but with the 'two down'
in front of it
mhmm exam finished
==========================
make that 'three down and two to go'
i never thought it was possible
but this morning
i found myself actually not being able to
WAIT till my exam started
I WANTED TO HAVE START MY EXAM at 9am
hmm...
BUT. you cant always have what you want
so was waiting away at 2 for it
and FINALLY over n done with ^^
but sadly my nightmare isnt over yet
not that its really a nightmare.
just a troublesome, bothersome assessment
meanwhilst despite the amount of time ive spent on MBC study..
which is not really alot
but in comparsion to my other units
which means WAY MORE
i still know nothing...
somehow i forsee at least one fail this sem *sigh*
well one fail for MBC
and just stating another to give myself some leeway
meh means no disappointment later if it comes true..
just hope that its not a self fullfilling one tho ><
meanwhilst during my h bio exam...
i learnt:
a) like i've said before my attention span's reduced
b) to be grateful for calculators..
despite the fact it took me a HALF HOUR
for to remember bout their existence whilst i sat there
n fumbled through trying to work out simple maths..
no wonder i dont take maths..
adding on to my shame.. what i needed to calculate was this:
1-(1/30)=...?
*sigh* half hour of my 2 hour exam WASTED.
c) i can no longer write essays.
what little i ability i used to have in writing essays
whilst lit teachers deemed as being badly expressed n what not
no longer just springs outta my mind
h bio essay...?
q chosen verily easily
but the actual words?
think as hard as i may..
not a single sentence came to mind
think think think thank thank thunk!
NOTHING. not a single string of words that could
be put together accordingly to good syntax
which could possibly pass for as 'language'
i guess in the end the psych textbook was right...
use it or lose it..
i havent written an essay in...
i have no idea. meanwhilst in the last 2 days
ive had to gather what little white and grey matter i had
that had yet to degenerate to drivel away 3 essays -.-
meh
off to sleep
nite nite
*hugs*
Thursday, November 08, 2007
One Down.. ONE ON THE WAY.. and Three to go.
'Hi Everybody!
Hi Dr...' actually.. lets not go there..
eee i miss the simpsons
i remember in yr 10 when we had the mining camp
on that bright overly early morning
on our great journey to kirkalocka
that someone managed to discover another's
ability to laugh just like crusty the clown..
ok. why am i talking about that now?
its 6:42am.. i have an exam at 9:00am
i should be cramming
but at the current moment my head is buzzing
with either the sound of flies in my skull
coz the brain has shrivelled and shrunk to the size of a walnut
and the remaining space has given rise to a colony of flies
gees.. with summer round the corner i wouldnt be surprised :P
i hate flies ><
as does many people...
OOOOORRRR
hmm i cant think of an alternative reason to a humming in my head...
not that flies hum..
oh but humming birds doo!
no.. i dont think one would fit inside my head..
you know..
waking up this early..
well earlier since ive now given up on study
and with the great boost of human overconfidence.
probs due to the lack of knowledge
the mental processsing of a concrete operational child
since ive found that not all heuristics apply
and...
all i wanna do is listen to music
meanwhilst hearing my mum ask my sister whilst
she is in a half asleep state in the room across
if 'that's a sprinter?'
meaning that thing that's sitting in her room
that's attached to a computer
that has the ability to 'run' a lotta paper through it
ehehehe the amusement.
hmm of which why is my blog called angelic tears..??
oh.. coz the template says so.
so template change = blog name change?
i think so too *nods*
but gotta be sometime soon
i dont think i could handle the next few days worth of exams
whilst still layout searching
anyways.
back to my hopefully helpful
if only existant
cram
good luck to me..
and anyone else..
who should be studying :P
*hugs*
Hi Dr...' actually.. lets not go there..
eee i miss the simpsons
i remember in yr 10 when we had the mining camp
on that bright overly early morning
on our great journey to kirkalocka
that someone managed to discover another's
ability to laugh just like crusty the clown..
ok. why am i talking about that now?
its 6:42am.. i have an exam at 9:00am
i should be cramming
but at the current moment my head is buzzing
with either the sound of flies in my skull
coz the brain has shrivelled and shrunk to the size of a walnut
and the remaining space has given rise to a colony of flies
gees.. with summer round the corner i wouldnt be surprised :P
i hate flies ><
as does many people...
OOOOORRRR
hmm i cant think of an alternative reason to a humming in my head...
not that flies hum..
oh but humming birds doo!
no.. i dont think one would fit inside my head..
you know..
waking up this early..
well earlier since ive now given up on study
and with the great boost of human overconfidence.
probs due to the lack of knowledge
the mental processsing of a concrete operational child
since ive found that not all heuristics apply
and...
all i wanna do is listen to music
meanwhilst hearing my mum ask my sister whilst
she is in a half asleep state in the room across
if 'that's a sprinter?'
meaning that thing that's sitting in her room
that's attached to a computer
that has the ability to 'run' a lotta paper through it
ehehehe the amusement.
hmm of which why is my blog called angelic tears..??
oh.. coz the template says so.
so template change = blog name change?
i think so too *nods*
but gotta be sometime soon
i dont think i could handle the next few days worth of exams
whilst still layout searching
anyways.
back to my hopefully helpful
if only existant
cram
good luck to me..
and anyone else..
who should be studying :P
*hugs*
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
It's Written in The Cards.. and thus it shall be so.
things are the way they are
need there be a reason for their existence?
yet somehow for us who seek a rationale
a reason for being
a confirmation of our existance
we yet to realise that despite our own selves
its not likely that with the number of us
our impact will be large
our greatest significance will be to those who know us
careful what you do n say
for a coincedence is coincidence
but to be grateful for all around
there is not changing what has past
but for what is to come.
there is always time
but in the cessation of of your own existence
does that not dash away all dwindling hope?
hmm what am i talking about??
bleh back on track :P
nope guess not.
i got distracted..
what with you may just possibly ask?
if you're actually reading this?
well.. cardomancy.
and after much googling on the subject..
yes quite a many things can catch my attention
right about now.. im sick of looking at text book
i learnt to much of my amusement the existance of myomancy
ehehee... let the mice run free!
and then the decision is made~!
hmm no i dont mean to be mocking it
but like wow. talk about not having much decision making
but on the plus if any thing happens.. it wasnt me!!
it was the RAT the RAT declared so.. IT WASNT ME!!!
hmm tho then again.
wiki says something bout mice being symbols of destruction.
mm maybe not wiki.. but someone said it THROUGH wiki..
hmm
late
nite nite
*hugs*
need there be a reason for their existence?
yet somehow for us who seek a rationale
a reason for being
a confirmation of our existance
we yet to realise that despite our own selves
its not likely that with the number of us
our impact will be large
our greatest significance will be to those who know us
careful what you do n say
for a coincedence is coincidence
but to be grateful for all around
there is not changing what has past
but for what is to come.
there is always time
but in the cessation of of your own existence
does that not dash away all dwindling hope?
hmm what am i talking about??
bleh back on track :P
nope guess not.
i got distracted..
what with you may just possibly ask?
if you're actually reading this?
well.. cardomancy.
and after much googling on the subject..
yes quite a many things can catch my attention
right about now.. im sick of looking at text book
i learnt to much of my amusement the existance of myomancy
ehehee... let the mice run free!
and then the decision is made~!
hmm no i dont mean to be mocking it
but like wow. talk about not having much decision making
but on the plus if any thing happens.. it wasnt me!!
it was the RAT the RAT declared so.. IT WASNT ME!!!
hmm tho then again.
wiki says something bout mice being symbols of destruction.
mm maybe not wiki.. but someone said it THROUGH wiki..
hmm
late
nite nite
*hugs*
Monday, November 05, 2007
Tickity Tock.
"tick tock tick tock
listen to the busy clock.."
"hickory dickory dock..
the mouse ran up the clock."
tick tick tick
time flies by like that
back to childhood...
n somewhere mixed amongst
all those memories lies the confusion
in the sense of ridicule
i turned out lucky in the end i guess..
(i dont wanna ramble about exams atm)
but here confusion comes again
i am normal arent i??
tho when i should be studying what am i doing?
downloading ebooks. thanks to albie.
who sent the 'how to use the mind'
ive just followed the links in that document
and now i can find ebooks...
mm more procrat...?
why is it that ebooks download faster than ilectures?
-.-
still waiting on ilectures.
anyways.
maybe back to my emo rant?
maybe.. maybe not..
see where my typing takes me.
well more of my mind maybe??
interesting tho..
plato's texts are like available on the web.
so what are they?
but copies.
and as far as copies go..
that means there's bound to be discrepancies
to what extent would they exist huh?
and to the text we got in phil last sem
were they off the net too?
or that they were from books?
mm i just found my phil course reader just then
which reminds me this time last sem
when exams were on.
i remember really not looking forward
to this particular exam
despite its content. which was pretty interesting
to read. NOT STUDY.
grrr..
i just realised the similarity of some lecture outcomes...
happens to be all by the same lecturer
-.-
damnit. and its THAT lecturer's lectures that i didnt go to too
*sigh*
there's study.. then there's effective study
then there's reading everything..
and realising it just disappears
after it travels through the conjuctiva,
through the aqueous humorous, through the pupil
defracts whilst pasting through the lens..
its the fovea stimulating the cones which are highly concentrated
in that particular region,
forming (most likely? not sure any more) an action potential
which then inititates a nervous impulse
and travesl along the optical nerve,
crosses at the optical chiasm and then hitting the occipital lobe
where it sorta is processed through association neurons
and then with a *poof* and:
yees.
i love my MBC notes.
i love the content of MBC.
prob explains why im still studying it
despite the multiple complaints
on how could they expect us to study
i love it all the same..
too bad my notes dont really extend that far..
tho somehow.. strangely
studying it now and realising
how little time i have to study it.
why am i thinking about writing and finishing the rest of it
AFTER EXAMS when i have time!?
O.o
hmmmm
gah. frozen notes..
icky.
tho on the plus im getting some work done
tho hopefully i wont lose it..
i spent the last hour on them.. damnit shoulda saved.
phew. no big drama.. just retype a few sentences.
but then again not as if you care right at the moment right?
you're s'posed to be studying.. why are you reading huh?
then again so am i. and im typing this -.-
but i like typing. :D
yep that's my excuse.
it's a destressor that is why im typing *nods*
not that im stressed atm
which sorta revokes my reason
but its not like you knew that right?
ok now i feel slightly blonde.
talking to a reader who i dont even know exists or not.
see? its all dependant on
whether people willingly come to read
so nope. its not my fault if
you do worse than you should yeah?
is this slight example of projection?
maybes :P in a weirdly applied way...?
i dunno.
hmm should be bout time i sleep now
i actually need my brain
for the weekend upcoming to actually function
hmm function through secretion and absorption?!
eugh. but still a synapse is what i mean
nitenite
*hugs*
(wow. this post was started at 10:30 today
and now its 11:56 pm hmm did i procrat much today?
*thinks*
ah well. tick tock.)
listen to the busy clock.."
"hickory dickory dock..
the mouse ran up the clock."
tick tick tick
time flies by like that
back to childhood...
n somewhere mixed amongst
all those memories lies the confusion
in the sense of ridicule
i turned out lucky in the end i guess..
(i dont wanna ramble about exams atm)
but here confusion comes again
i am normal arent i??
tho when i should be studying what am i doing?
downloading ebooks. thanks to albie.
who sent the 'how to use the mind'
ive just followed the links in that document
and now i can find ebooks...
mm more procrat...?
why is it that ebooks download faster than ilectures?
-.-
still waiting on ilectures.
anyways.
maybe back to my emo rant?
maybe.. maybe not..
see where my typing takes me.
well more of my mind maybe??
interesting tho..
plato's texts are like available on the web.
so what are they?
but copies.
and as far as copies go..
that means there's bound to be discrepancies
to what extent would they exist huh?
and to the text we got in phil last sem
were they off the net too?
or that they were from books?
mm i just found my phil course reader just then
which reminds me this time last sem
when exams were on.
i remember really not looking forward
to this particular exam
despite its content. which was pretty interesting
to read. NOT STUDY.
grrr..
i just realised the similarity of some lecture outcomes...
happens to be all by the same lecturer
-.-
damnit. and its THAT lecturer's lectures that i didnt go to too
*sigh*
there's study.. then there's effective study
then there's reading everything..
and realising it just disappears
after it travels through the conjuctiva,
through the aqueous humorous, through the pupil
defracts whilst pasting through the lens..
its the fovea stimulating the cones which are highly concentrated
in that particular region,
forming (most likely? not sure any more) an action potential
which then inititates a nervous impulse
and travesl along the optical nerve,
crosses at the optical chiasm and then hitting the occipital lobe
where it sorta is processed through association neurons
and then with a *poof* and:
'what did i just read....?
damnit. must clarify
*sigh*
have to read it again'
yees.
i love my MBC notes.
i love the content of MBC.
prob explains why im still studying it
despite the multiple complaints
on how could they expect us to study
i love it all the same..
too bad my notes dont really extend that far..
tho somehow.. strangely
studying it now and realising
how little time i have to study it.
why am i thinking about writing and finishing the rest of it
AFTER EXAMS when i have time!?
O.o
hmmmm
gah. frozen notes..
icky.
tho on the plus im getting some work done
tho hopefully i wont lose it..
i spent the last hour on them.. damnit shoulda saved.
phew. no big drama.. just retype a few sentences.
but then again not as if you care right at the moment right?
you're s'posed to be studying.. why are you reading huh?
then again so am i. and im typing this -.-
but i like typing. :D
yep that's my excuse.
it's a destressor that is why im typing *nods*
not that im stressed atm
which sorta revokes my reason
but its not like you knew that right?
ok now i feel slightly blonde.
talking to a reader who i dont even know exists or not.
see? its all dependant on
whether people willingly come to read
so nope. its not my fault if
you do worse than you should yeah?
is this slight example of projection?
maybes :P in a weirdly applied way...?
i dunno.
hmm should be bout time i sleep now
i actually need my brain
for the weekend upcoming to actually function
hmm function through secretion and absorption?!
eugh. but still a synapse is what i mean
nitenite
*hugs*
(wow. this post was started at 10:30 today
and now its 11:56 pm hmm did i procrat much today?
*thinks*
ah well. tick tock.)
Sunday, November 04, 2007
Waiting on the World to Change...
mm...
waiting lectopia.
so what am i doing??
i be-eth reading... my blog.
:)
how sad.
and procratty
but interesting.
and procratty.
what am i thinking?
YEAR'S NEARLY OVER!
is it a good thing...
maybe.
bye bye first yr of uni...
(well after exams that is)
but still
wow. i survived it
what does it say many posts before?
"half the yr's gone by
my first sem's over already"
or something of the like..
i like paraphrased it - despite quotation marks
anyways
wow it really has
and supposedly.
so many things have happened
day to day. i go around n meh
it feels like. 'just another day'
but really unless i bother to stop n reflect
it just seems like there's nothing there
really. you cant appreciate anything
unless you actually think about what it means to you
and that i think is why i like reading my bloggie
its when i actually think about things
or least process things through secretions
(neurotransmitters mind you.. im studying h bio)
'life is sad really..
its basically always about secretion and absorption'
and in a way true.. that is taking the physiological perspective
hmm dunno if im even using 'physiological' right or not.
bleh
i liked that last-ish molec bio lecturer..
he somewhat reminded me of forma
tho thing is we got so much less freedom..
i like the freedom bit bout being in forma's class ^^
mm that and pracs readily available to be doing :P
anyways back to lecturer
he was good. but he spent forever on somethings
meaning he fell behind in lectures
but he gave random facts.. :p
hmm i still cant belive forma wrote textbooks.
but anyways.
what has uni done to me..?
reduced my attention span..
what used to be 'omg the lecture's over already'
at the start of the yr due to class time/lecture time differences
has become
'OMG...
i cant believe
there's another half hour of this to go..
its only been 15 mins!?'
hmm back in time class was 65 mins.
now lectures only 45 mins.
or.. its just the plain fact
that i stopped trying to write notes in lectures anymore
not that i wrote notes in class in the first place..
mm i give up waiting.
and since my memory is proving to get rusty
i think i really should catch up on the needed sleep
nite
*hugs*
waiting lectopia.
so what am i doing??
i be-eth reading... my blog.
:)
how sad.
and procratty
but interesting.
and procratty.
what am i thinking?
YEAR'S NEARLY OVER!
is it a good thing...
maybe.
bye bye first yr of uni...
(well after exams that is)
but still
wow. i survived it
what does it say many posts before?
"half the yr's gone by
my first sem's over already"
or something of the like..
i like paraphrased it - despite quotation marks
anyways
wow it really has
and supposedly.
so many things have happened
day to day. i go around n meh
it feels like. 'just another day'
but really unless i bother to stop n reflect
it just seems like there's nothing there
really. you cant appreciate anything
unless you actually think about what it means to you
and that i think is why i like reading my bloggie
its when i actually think about things
or least process things through secretions
(neurotransmitters mind you.. im studying h bio)
'life is sad really..
its basically always about secretion and absorption'
and in a way true.. that is taking the physiological perspective
hmm dunno if im even using 'physiological' right or not.
bleh
i liked that last-ish molec bio lecturer..
he somewhat reminded me of forma
tho thing is we got so much less freedom..
i like the freedom bit bout being in forma's class ^^
mm that and pracs readily available to be doing :P
anyways back to lecturer
he was good. but he spent forever on somethings
meaning he fell behind in lectures
but he gave random facts.. :p
hmm i still cant belive forma wrote textbooks.
but anyways.
what has uni done to me..?
reduced my attention span..
what used to be 'omg the lecture's over already'
at the start of the yr due to class time/lecture time differences
has become
'OMG...
i cant believe
there's another half hour of this to go..
its only been 15 mins!?'
hmm back in time class was 65 mins.
now lectures only 45 mins.
or.. its just the plain fact
that i stopped trying to write notes in lectures anymore
not that i wrote notes in class in the first place..
mm i give up waiting.
and since my memory is proving to get rusty
i think i really should catch up on the needed sleep
nite
*hugs*
Saturday, November 03, 2007
One Down... Four To Go - This Road Takes Me Where...?
YAY!
no longer a burden draft..
gees. all finished n gone
im happy :)
now can talk bout what i wanna
...
not that i have anything
i wanna talk bout in particular.
-.-
why is it always like this?
coz if i had a point it'd be out already...
bleh.
EXAMS
officially started today.
tho. no exam for me today.
had a prac before you see... so yeah
havent really started but when do i'll be in deep...
the shit will hit the fan...?
:P
meanwhilst
im finding out that some online lecture notes
despite the fact that they exist.
cannot be opened by ppt after its downloaded..
ah crap. i dun wanna ilecture
i really dislike it.
grr.
looks like i really gotta turn to lectopia then
damn its gonna take EVEN longer.
sometimes you wonder what's the point of webCT
if its just gonna take forever. and on top of that..
not fully kept up to date.
HOW THE HELL ARE WE SUPPOSED TO KNOW
WHAT WE NEED TO KNOW IF THE OUTCOMES ARE INCOMPLETE!?
:)
thank you. i feel much better.
coz there's no past paper.
only 100 MCQ for the exam
and the content spans so FREAKINGLY large.
and the very last lecturer we had
always ran outta time
so went over time
so when you lectopia.. what he says gets chopped off
-.-
tho i cant complain..
it is exams after all.
and i did wag the lectures in the end.
so my fault
meanwhilst what have i done?
revive my drying out dry-ing out nail polish...
wwiiitttthhhh
nail polish remover O.o
im amazed it worked.
theory?
nail polish remover thins nail polish n eventually
with some elbow grease.. it disappears.
and well.. thinning..? dried up makes it lumpy
so un-lumpi-fy!!
yes..-.-
i am annoyed coz i cant find an alternative
to accessing lectopia without going through webct.
coz webct has decided to morph continuously
changing proportions in frame size
EVERY SINGLE TIME I CLICK A DIFFERENT LINK
which means. i cant always see all parts of the page.
hmmm...
if only they offered a 'download ALL lectures' button
maybe i shoulda started downloading all that earlier..
ah well.
better to start now than not to have started at all
just that it takes forever.
why is it...
that what seems such a big thing..
can become insignificant?
(ugh. i thought i was over this)
maybe a point to start on actually
since ive sorta run outta exam venting stuffs
but i do have a uni related one..
you know.
i actually considered since i overloaded this yr.
and it turned out not bad.. why not just transfer
n do a double degree?
bbbbbuuuuuttttttttttttt
no.. -.- my degree is antisocial
*sigh*
grrr WHY!?
hmph. not happy
the only things you can pair up with my degree?
-music
-law
-econs
-comm
the only ones you can transfer into...
-law
-econs
-commm
grrr.. no that im talented enough
to possibly transfer to music in the first place.
but ugh!
why not. like arts or like sci?
hmm.. besides the fact that
sci is already part of my degree..
but still i like sci ^^
maybe do a double sci major and my public health one..?
but no. they wont let me hmph!
they have eng/sci dont they?
that's science n science..
n i wouldnt mind doubling mine with arts either
its interesting.
maybe continue on with my phil again?
but no. -.- grr.
on the plus...
MAYBE i can go on field trip for my degree next yr ^^
yay! but its limited :( but hopefully i get to go
*sigh*
i like my degree in itself
im annoyed it cant double with anything interesting
least anything i find interesting..
mm in the end i guess its coz i can already do those units
just that i have to do them as electives.
*sigh*
ah wells.
in the end.. all i see me talking about
is ME. is that really such a bad or good thing?
meh. MY blog ^^
n thats why i love my bloggie
well probs not the actual reason.
but yes.
i dunno what im on about anymores
so i think
i shall leave it here
nite nite
*hugs*
no longer a burden draft..
gees. all finished n gone
im happy :)
now can talk bout what i wanna
...
not that i have anything
i wanna talk bout in particular.
-.-
why is it always like this?
coz if i had a point it'd be out already...
bleh.
EXAMS
officially started today.
tho. no exam for me today.
had a prac before you see... so yeah
havent really started but when do i'll be in deep...
the shit will hit the fan...?
:P
meanwhilst
im finding out that some online lecture notes
despite the fact that they exist.
cannot be opened by ppt after its downloaded..
ah crap. i dun wanna ilecture
i really dislike it.
grr.
looks like i really gotta turn to lectopia then
damn its gonna take EVEN longer.
sometimes you wonder what's the point of webCT
if its just gonna take forever. and on top of that..
not fully kept up to date.
HOW THE HELL ARE WE SUPPOSED TO KNOW
WHAT WE NEED TO KNOW IF THE OUTCOMES ARE INCOMPLETE!?
:)
thank you. i feel much better.
coz there's no past paper.
only 100 MCQ for the exam
and the content spans so FREAKINGLY large.
and the very last lecturer we had
always ran outta time
so went over time
so when you lectopia.. what he says gets chopped off
-.-
tho i cant complain..
it is exams after all.
and i did wag the lectures in the end.
so my fault
meanwhilst what have i done?
revive my drying out dry-ing out nail polish...
wwiiitttthhhh
nail polish remover O.o
im amazed it worked.
theory?
nail polish remover thins nail polish n eventually
with some elbow grease.. it disappears.
and well.. thinning..? dried up makes it lumpy
so un-lumpi-fy!!
yes..-.-
i am annoyed coz i cant find an alternative
to accessing lectopia without going through webct.
coz webct has decided to morph continuously
changing proportions in frame size
EVERY SINGLE TIME I CLICK A DIFFERENT LINK
which means. i cant always see all parts of the page.
hmmm...
if only they offered a 'download ALL lectures' button
maybe i shoulda started downloading all that earlier..
ah well.
better to start now than not to have started at all
just that it takes forever.
why is it...
that what seems such a big thing..
can become insignificant?
(ugh. i thought i was over this)
maybe a point to start on actually
since ive sorta run outta exam venting stuffs
but i do have a uni related one..
you know.
i actually considered since i overloaded this yr.
and it turned out not bad.. why not just transfer
n do a double degree?
bbbbbuuuuuttttttttttttt
no.. -.- my degree is antisocial
*sigh*
grrr WHY!?
hmph. not happy
the only things you can pair up with my degree?
-music
-law
-econs
-comm
the only ones you can transfer into...
-law
-econs
-commm
grrr.. no that im talented enough
to possibly transfer to music in the first place.
but ugh!
why not. like arts or like sci?
hmm.. besides the fact that
sci is already part of my degree..
but still i like sci ^^
maybe do a double sci major and my public health one..?
but no. they wont let me hmph!
they have eng/sci dont they?
that's science n science..
n i wouldnt mind doubling mine with arts either
its interesting.
maybe continue on with my phil again?
but no. -.- grr.
on the plus...
MAYBE i can go on field trip for my degree next yr ^^
yay! but its limited :( but hopefully i get to go
*sigh*
i like my degree in itself
im annoyed it cant double with anything interesting
least anything i find interesting..
mm in the end i guess its coz i can already do those units
just that i have to do them as electives.
*sigh*
ah wells.
in the end.. all i see me talking about
is ME. is that really such a bad or good thing?
meh. MY blog ^^
n thats why i love my bloggie
well probs not the actual reason.
but yes.
i dunno what im on about anymores
so i think
i shall leave it here
nite nite
*hugs*
Why Would I Run...? Why Do I Run...?
another weekend gone...
or at least at this rate going..
its sun night
*sigh*
what should i be doing ?
my molec bio lab report due on tues.
how much have i done?
...
anyways.
sitting around on a weekday evening..
i found myself watching today tonight.
not quite sure why.. i cant remember why
but i was.
what was it on about this time?
1) the great dangers of hair dying (mainly allergies mind you)
2) the use of aromatics in retail stores
3) the 'big guy' of tv advertising
talk about what made tv easy to advertise for..
there was the suggestion that people nowadays
were more willing to find an escape.
Escapism.
================================================
mm.. that was 4ish days ago...
what'd've i gotten up to as of late?
work the last few nights
and well.. on tues.. it was lab report rushing..
buttttt..
not like you care :)
our internet connection's been really crappy
and i dun even know why im talking about this..
ok.. now trying to continue on with before..
Escapism..
================================================
or.. not.
things happen i guess
hmm actually more of.. time passes...
mostly coz of procrat... sadly.
but but its my escape from study.
=================================================
hmmm -.-
i want this one over n done with
but i never get around to it..
am i even escaping the bother of having to type this?
anyways.
i dun wanna be on track with it anymore
ill just write something and post this.
ive been blog-flicking again...
tho cant really 'flick' since i dont have a remote
but 'blog-hopping'?
anyways.
over and over a number of blogs.
even mona's latest post i came across a slightly common theme..
the sort of boredom or the growing acustom to things.
things we love and enjoy
slightly begin to dull over time
just like the whole topic i did in micro last sem
about the indifference curves..
(cant believe i dug up
my micro lecture notes to find that term)
but at least its the theory i get.
the fact that the more we consume of a good
the less utility we gain from the consumption of that good
============================================================
hmm this post is being procratted alot..
and what am i doing now?
procratting study.. coz webCT is taking FOREVER to load.
yep..
waited HALF an HOUR already..
and with the email from the IT staff last week
saying that since its pre-exam week this week
its less likely to be built up.. as if...
seems more like everyone's cramming..
well cant say much.. i am too :P
============================================================
but yes.
'blog hopping' has resulted in a number of posts
relating to growing weary of things
and the fact that since the object of interest
seems to lack its once shiny appeal
the care once given to it becomes complacent
seeing things everyday.
you begin to take it for granted.
and where does your attention then turn?
to something new
some thing that has a higher value placed upon it
but will this next thing retain the same interest
or will it like the rest reach its plateau
then meet its inevitible downfall?
and like mona said..
where has the magic all gone?
the great excitement of upcoming festivities?
the eager waiting for.. counting down
just for the magic.. the happiness
but what happens to it all?
could it just be some mind thing?
the fact that our concept of time has changed?
or that things that once were trivia to us
suddenly took on a whole new dimension within our lives?
coz.. back in the day.. a prezzie was a prezzie
no economic thought behind that for example
and yet. now xmas for me at least.
goes all commercial
its a time when stores are stocked up to the brim
with shiny colourful things.. times for sales
masses of people shopping and on top of that
longer opening hours for shopping.
ho hum.
but
turn that around.
i had the best day ever today
just back to the basics
a day out then early dinner.
as a whole family together
and truthfully. just the time spent
fun ^^
things like that which used to be 'just another day'
is a day cherished
-love n cherish it while you have the chance
bleh.
dont feel like writing on this anymore.
publish!
or at least at this rate going..
its sun night
*sigh*
what should i be doing ?
my molec bio lab report due on tues.
how much have i done?
...
anyways.
sitting around on a weekday evening..
i found myself watching today tonight.
not quite sure why.. i cant remember why
but i was.
what was it on about this time?
1) the great dangers of hair dying (mainly allergies mind you)
2) the use of aromatics in retail stores
3) the 'big guy' of tv advertising
talk about what made tv easy to advertise for..
there was the suggestion that people nowadays
were more willing to find an escape.
Escapism.
================================================
mm.. that was 4ish days ago...
what'd've i gotten up to as of late?
work the last few nights
and well.. on tues.. it was lab report rushing..
buttttt..
not like you care :)
our internet connection's been really crappy
and i dun even know why im talking about this..
ok.. now trying to continue on with before..
Escapism..
================================================
or.. not.
things happen i guess
hmm actually more of.. time passes...
mostly coz of procrat... sadly.
but but its my escape from study.
=================================================
hmmm -.-
i want this one over n done with
but i never get around to it..
am i even escaping the bother of having to type this?
anyways.
i dun wanna be on track with it anymore
ill just write something and post this.
ive been blog-flicking again...
tho cant really 'flick' since i dont have a remote
but 'blog-hopping'?
anyways.
over and over a number of blogs.
even mona's latest post i came across a slightly common theme..
the sort of boredom or the growing acustom to things.
things we love and enjoy
slightly begin to dull over time
just like the whole topic i did in micro last sem
about the indifference curves..
(cant believe i dug up
my micro lecture notes to find that term)
but at least its the theory i get.
the fact that the more we consume of a good
the less utility we gain from the consumption of that good
============================================================
hmm this post is being procratted alot..
and what am i doing now?
procratting study.. coz webCT is taking FOREVER to load.
yep..
waited HALF an HOUR already..
and with the email from the IT staff last week
saying that since its pre-exam week this week
its less likely to be built up.. as if...
seems more like everyone's cramming..
well cant say much.. i am too :P
============================================================
but yes.
'blog hopping' has resulted in a number of posts
relating to growing weary of things
and the fact that since the object of interest
seems to lack its once shiny appeal
the care once given to it becomes complacent
seeing things everyday.
you begin to take it for granted.
and where does your attention then turn?
to something new
some thing that has a higher value placed upon it
but will this next thing retain the same interest
or will it like the rest reach its plateau
then meet its inevitible downfall?
and like mona said..
where has the magic all gone?
the great excitement of upcoming festivities?
the eager waiting for.. counting down
just for the magic.. the happiness
but what happens to it all?
could it just be some mind thing?
the fact that our concept of time has changed?
or that things that once were trivia to us
suddenly took on a whole new dimension within our lives?
coz.. back in the day.. a prezzie was a prezzie
no economic thought behind that for example
and yet. now xmas for me at least.
goes all commercial
its a time when stores are stocked up to the brim
with shiny colourful things.. times for sales
masses of people shopping and on top of that
longer opening hours for shopping.
ho hum.
but
turn that around.
i had the best day ever today
just back to the basics
a day out then early dinner.
as a whole family together
and truthfully. just the time spent
fun ^^
things like that which used to be 'just another day'
is a day cherished
-love n cherish it while you have the chance
bleh.
dont feel like writing on this anymore.
publish!
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
The Human Body is a Beautiful Thing... Whilst It's Alive
Hello.
Long time no see.
(apparently that phrase is of American Indian origin
according to some program on SBS
bout the origins of english that i flicked across
a few weeks ago :S)
mm make it about two weeks.
so what's up?
exams.
any more to say?
not quite atm
h bio prac exam tomorrow..
and am once again considering doing early morning cram
havent done that in a while
tho in a way
that is a good thing..
means that things arent due first thing in the morning
what's new since last time?
well last h bio prac exam
is the fact that they've opened up the
disecting rooms
YAY. study with the cadavers!
...
thats about it.
i cant think of anything else to say.
actually i do
but it touches on this forever long point-lacking post
that is segmented by the number of times ive attempted at
finishing it.. but doesnt end up getting finished
so i shall leave it till then.
oh the title?
i like the pictures in my text book more..
more than the actual cadavers.
i love my text book ^^
anyways
gonna sleep
nite
*hugs*
Long time no see.
(apparently that phrase is of American Indian origin
according to some program on SBS
bout the origins of english that i flicked across
a few weeks ago :S)
mm make it about two weeks.
so what's up?
exams.
any more to say?
not quite atm
h bio prac exam tomorrow..
and am once again considering doing early morning cram
havent done that in a while
tho in a way
that is a good thing..
means that things arent due first thing in the morning
what's new since last time?
well last h bio prac exam
is the fact that they've opened up the
disecting rooms
YAY. study with the cadavers!
...
thats about it.
i cant think of anything else to say.
actually i do
but it touches on this forever long point-lacking post
that is segmented by the number of times ive attempted at
finishing it.. but doesnt end up getting finished
so i shall leave it till then.
oh the title?
i like the pictures in my text book more..
more than the actual cadavers.
i love my text book ^^
anyways
gonna sleep
nite
*hugs*
Saturday, October 13, 2007
"I See Your Tic Tacs" :P Ahh.. I Miss Taiwan :P
the previous post?
it was something i thought of..
just before i fell asleep
some time a few nights ago
so.
its down to the last few labs of the sem
mon being either last or second last..
tues being last molec bio lab this year
and wed being last wet lab for h bio this year
===============================================
you know.
going around the city once again
it seems to be that everything we want
is just a general upsize.
surplus. surplus. surplus.
always extra. more.
all for convenience maybe?
just so that it lasts longer before it finishes
n you have to go out n by the same thing all over again
(im mainly referring to food btw)
hmm.. somehow this is getting close to deja vu.
and if impulisively talk to mona later about this
then ya. pretty much confirms it.
ive a feeling ive talked this topic before
then went n discussed it with her on msn :S
anyways.
the thing that triggered my thought?
tic tacs.
at our place..
i was stopping by
then remembered..
sometime midway last yr i think it was
i was on the passionfruit mint tic tac craze
LOVED it. n i missed it. so decided to grab a pack.
n there it was.
packets in their lil section.
looking relatively the same size as ever.
just the way i remembered em
but then. taking a closer look
i realised the scribble on the top left corner?
TWENTY PERCENT MORE PRODUCT!
...
is that meant to make me wanna buy it now?
the fact that there's a bonus extra
ooo value for money!
yeah true. but why do we fall for it?
mm anyways. i took my lil packet n was happy.
BUT
walking through target lately.
i stopped by to take a look
at the lil stands near the cashier
you know those shelves with candy n magazines
where when the line gets long enough
you decided to browse just to relieve boredom?
and lo n behold.
to my utter amazement.
BIG TIC TACs
O.o
ok. so we are in such dire need of
tic-tac-pill popping
that we need them in larger sizes
and when it meant big.
it meant like 3 times the size of the normal ones
the packaging looked the same.
cept someone put it though a reverse-wonka-vision
and BANG a bigger one.
truthfully yeah.
im one of those people who go on
endless-mint-eat-a-thons
least until the packet finishes too.
BUT
i dont purposely go to buy LARGER packs of mints
just so that they run out slower
i mean seriously
looking at that i was like supershocked
is there really such a necessity for something
in such large quantities?
and even at that..
to carry such a monstrosity around?
it was like HUGE
like you might as well not carry a mobile
n replace the space with a giant pack of tic tacs
but truthfully
would any one bother with that?
i mean my fone is worth so much more than that
what amazed me more?
the space next them on the shelf
was occupied
by an empty box.
with the advertising for the exact same thing.
er. its actually SOLD OUT?
least. a carton's worth is sold out!?
and just at the same time
i turn around. and should i really surprised?
im surrounded by more n more of em.
giant packs of gum
more 'value for money'
but is it really?
what is the meaning of all this upsizing?
mm i'd go on
cept too sleepy now
nite nite
*hugs
it was something i thought of..
just before i fell asleep
some time a few nights ago
so.
its down to the last few labs of the sem
mon being either last or second last..
tues being last molec bio lab this year
and wed being last wet lab for h bio this year
===============================================
you know.
going around the city once again
it seems to be that everything we want
is just a general upsize.
surplus. surplus. surplus.
always extra. more.
all for convenience maybe?
just so that it lasts longer before it finishes
n you have to go out n by the same thing all over again
(im mainly referring to food btw)
hmm.. somehow this is getting close to deja vu.
and if impulisively talk to mona later about this
then ya. pretty much confirms it.
ive a feeling ive talked this topic before
then went n discussed it with her on msn :S
anyways.
the thing that triggered my thought?
tic tacs.
at our place..
i was stopping by
then remembered..
sometime midway last yr i think it was
i was on the passionfruit mint tic tac craze
LOVED it. n i missed it. so decided to grab a pack.
n there it was.
packets in their lil section.
looking relatively the same size as ever.
just the way i remembered em
but then. taking a closer look
i realised the scribble on the top left corner?
TWENTY PERCENT MORE PRODUCT!
...
is that meant to make me wanna buy it now?
the fact that there's a bonus extra
ooo value for money!
yeah true. but why do we fall for it?
mm anyways. i took my lil packet n was happy.
BUT
walking through target lately.
i stopped by to take a look
at the lil stands near the cashier
you know those shelves with candy n magazines
where when the line gets long enough
you decided to browse just to relieve boredom?
and lo n behold.
to my utter amazement.
BIG TIC TACs
O.o
ok. so we are in such dire need of
tic-tac-pill popping
that we need them in larger sizes
and when it meant big.
it meant like 3 times the size of the normal ones
the packaging looked the same.
cept someone put it though a reverse-wonka-vision
and BANG a bigger one.
truthfully yeah.
im one of those people who go on
endless-mint-eat-a-thons
least until the packet finishes too.
BUT
i dont purposely go to buy LARGER packs of mints
just so that they run out slower
i mean seriously
looking at that i was like supershocked
is there really such a necessity for something
in such large quantities?
and even at that..
to carry such a monstrosity around?
it was like HUGE
like you might as well not carry a mobile
n replace the space with a giant pack of tic tacs
but truthfully
would any one bother with that?
i mean my fone is worth so much more than that
what amazed me more?
the space next them on the shelf
was occupied
by an empty box.
with the advertising for the exact same thing.
er. its actually SOLD OUT?
least. a carton's worth is sold out!?
and just at the same time
i turn around. and should i really surprised?
im surrounded by more n more of em.
giant packs of gum
more 'value for money'
but is it really?
what is the meaning of all this upsizing?
mm i'd go on
cept too sleepy now
nite nite
*hugs
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
People are like... Ogres.
Title?
Ogres are..
Ogres are..
Ogres are like onions.
they have layers.
People have layers.
People are like onions.
Ogres are like onions
AND
People are like onions
Onion = Onion
Therefore.
People are like Ogres.
Ogres are..
Ogres are..
Ogres are like onions.
they have layers.
People have layers.
People are like onions.
Ogres are like onions
AND
People are like onions
Onion = Onion
Therefore.
People are like Ogres.
Sunday, October 07, 2007
You Gotta.. You Gotta.. You Gotta EXCEL!
uh huh.
never mind the title..
i just never realised..
how much i could possibly love microsoft excel.
atm..
ALOT
thank god for it ^^
tho..
ive yet to finish all my results processing
meanwhilst..
im enjoying the great annoyances of supersearch..
...
i Finally found an article..
and the only reason why i cant access the PDF
is that the uni subscribes to the database..
but has no rights to that ONE journal...!?
-.-
defeat the purpose of subscribing to online database much?
never mind the title..
i just never realised..
how much i could possibly love microsoft excel.
atm..
ALOT
thank god for it ^^
tho..
ive yet to finish all my results processing
meanwhilst..
im enjoying the great annoyances of supersearch..
...
i Finally found an article..
and the only reason why i cant access the PDF
is that the uni subscribes to the database..
but has no rights to that ONE journal...!?
-.-
defeat the purpose of subscribing to online database much?
Saturday, October 06, 2007
Wait.. Just a Question... Do You Know ME...?
you know.
maybe it's just me
but somethings continue to amaze me
========================================
work rant?
yes i just got back from work.
not that it was planned..
Number One:
but yeah. one of the staff lost their voice
so i was called up..
surpising thing..?
i got there n she was at work... :S
ok that aside from the fact she was up for work
despite being unable to properly communicate verbally
and on top of that...?
she did her usual..
running around taking the majority of the orders..
so question.. what was i meant to be there for?
not saying that i didnt want her working
coz that woulda been worse.. but it puzzles me
if you cant talk to the customers
AND you're sick..
stay at home n rest
so that you're fit for the next time
why run the risk of infecting others..
and on top of that..
if you really wanted to work..
couldnt she have found jobs like bringing out dishes
or taking finished plates in?
nope.. guess not..
it always seems like
its against her nature to do such things
i always end up doing all that..
despite the fact today..
i was the one able to talk
Number Two:
it was getting later into the night
so not as busy..
so there were a number of tables free
and a table of four near the fridge
that had a 'reserved' label thing on it
and this table.. is like the worst table you can get
most people refuse to sit there
but only will sit there if there's no other tables
as it's right next to the fridge..
what does that mean?
it means that sitting there
you get a blast of cold air at you
everytime someone wants something from the fidge
a couple come in asking for a table for two
and im like sure..
you can have any table that's available now
preferablly tables of two tho.
they see the reserved one..
and they want that one.
so im like. um k.
unsure if it was reserved still
asked the reservation lady
and she says no. make them sit on tables of 2
so im like.. ok..
could you choose some other table?
they're like no. we want THAT table
:S
n i was like sorry. but its like taken
n that was it.
they left..
see it really really really confuzzles me.
why want the table no on else wants
and on top of that.
the fact that its reserved
and refuse to sit anywhere else
there was like a choice of like 5 other tables
but no. they left
they'd rather sit THERE or not eat at all
O.o
unless they wanted a table with a 'resereved' sign on it???
==================================================
mm so.
that was last night.
im still confuzzled
but ah well
leave it
the title...?
i guess a few weekends ago
and well has happened a few times on top of that too
but it seems like its refering to those awkward convos
where you cant remember who the person is??
no i wasnt meaning that in particular
but more of refering to details
and sometimes to people's curiosities
maybe it's just me.
liking to keep some details of my life to myself
but some details i like to keep disclosed
eg.?
where i live..
yeah its ok if they're just curious..
like just comes up in a convo
'where do you live?'
if its a uni person?
usual answer? oh near here..
maybe note that it's a walkable distance..?
or more of bus-sable since i bus it all the time to uni
yeah that's easy to answer
i dont mind it at all..
otherwise.. i'd just say i live near uni..
pretty much the same
and then they leave it that and conversation continues..
but what annoys me?
'oh really?'
then continues on to
'which suburb?'
mm that's still alright
i'll willingly answer that if they REALLY wanna know
and if i sorta feel like i wouldnt mind them knowing.
but then it continues..
'which street?'
this is where i stumble
when it comes to this..
i start thinking.
should i lie or not?
i dont want people knowing so closely..
it irritates me.. truly it does.
problem?
choosing a street nearby.
but..
there was a particular incident..
which happened recently..
which drove me to the point of
wanting to be antisocial at that moment.
just close up and ignore them..
what did they ask after the street?
WHICH FREAKING HOUSE NUMBER?
>:D
mind you.. she didnt shout n use 'freaking'
but yeah...
so what does that do?
memorise my entire house address?!?
sorry..
but it irks me..
WHY do you want to know where i live?!
of which funnily..
what's even more trivial?
she went to the same highschool as me for 5 years.
so why this question now?
my freaking address has been printed
on 5 yrs worth of contact detail pages
you dont just bring this up randomly in convo...?
:S
so yeah.
tho what i do prefer..
is 'where do you live?'
then 'where?'
'somewhere around uni'
then 'where?'
'a walkable distance from here'
then 'where?;
'about 15 mins walk to be exact'
and they give up ^^
i think by that time you really realise
that i dun wanna divulge the details
much easier ^^
but then again.. sorta much less friendly
another one?
we were catching the bus together
and they asked me where i was going
'home' was the answer
'oh really?'
'yeah im getting off the bus now'
'oh ok so which street do you live on?'
T.T
you know.. most likely its NEAR the bus stop
i dont wanna answer
you already know which stop i get off from the bus
and which bus i catch
isnt that enough detail?
esp when i dont even really know the person
least i guess in my mind.
or im just a very.. not so social person...
but somehow.
ive a feeling it sorta seems like a family thing..
tho skip a few people...
'not very social'?
yeah i do like to keep close friends :)
n socialising's not really that bad.
but...
i'll leave that for next time to talk bout
got stuff to do
exam timetable's FINALLY out!! ^^
yay so happy
kk
g2g
*hugs*
maybe it's just me
but somethings continue to amaze me
========================================
work rant?
yes i just got back from work.
not that it was planned..
Number One:
but yeah. one of the staff lost their voice
so i was called up..
surpising thing..?
i got there n she was at work... :S
ok that aside from the fact she was up for work
despite being unable to properly communicate verbally
and on top of that...?
she did her usual..
running around taking the majority of the orders..
so question.. what was i meant to be there for?
not saying that i didnt want her working
coz that woulda been worse.. but it puzzles me
if you cant talk to the customers
AND you're sick..
stay at home n rest
so that you're fit for the next time
why run the risk of infecting others..
and on top of that..
if you really wanted to work..
couldnt she have found jobs like bringing out dishes
or taking finished plates in?
nope.. guess not..
it always seems like
its against her nature to do such things
i always end up doing all that..
despite the fact today..
i was the one able to talk
Number Two:
it was getting later into the night
so not as busy..
so there were a number of tables free
and a table of four near the fridge
that had a 'reserved' label thing on it
and this table.. is like the worst table you can get
most people refuse to sit there
but only will sit there if there's no other tables
as it's right next to the fridge..
what does that mean?
it means that sitting there
you get a blast of cold air at you
everytime someone wants something from the fidge
a couple come in asking for a table for two
and im like sure..
you can have any table that's available now
preferablly tables of two tho.
they see the reserved one..
and they want that one.
so im like. um k.
unsure if it was reserved still
asked the reservation lady
and she says no. make them sit on tables of 2
so im like.. ok..
could you choose some other table?
they're like no. we want THAT table
:S
n i was like sorry. but its like taken
n that was it.
they left..
see it really really really confuzzles me.
why want the table no on else wants
and on top of that.
the fact that its reserved
and refuse to sit anywhere else
there was like a choice of like 5 other tables
but no. they left
they'd rather sit THERE or not eat at all
O.o
unless they wanted a table with a 'resereved' sign on it???
==================================================
mm so.
that was last night.
im still confuzzled
but ah well
leave it
the title...?
i guess a few weekends ago
and well has happened a few times on top of that too
but it seems like its refering to those awkward convos
where you cant remember who the person is??
no i wasnt meaning that in particular
but more of refering to details
and sometimes to people's curiosities
maybe it's just me.
liking to keep some details of my life to myself
but some details i like to keep disclosed
eg.?
where i live..
yeah its ok if they're just curious..
like just comes up in a convo
'where do you live?'
if its a uni person?
usual answer? oh near here..
maybe note that it's a walkable distance..?
or more of bus-sable since i bus it all the time to uni
yeah that's easy to answer
i dont mind it at all..
otherwise.. i'd just say i live near uni..
pretty much the same
and then they leave it that and conversation continues..
but what annoys me?
'oh really?'
then continues on to
'which suburb?'
mm that's still alright
i'll willingly answer that if they REALLY wanna know
and if i sorta feel like i wouldnt mind them knowing.
but then it continues..
'which street?'
this is where i stumble
when it comes to this..
i start thinking.
should i lie or not?
i dont want people knowing so closely..
it irritates me.. truly it does.
problem?
choosing a street nearby.
but..
there was a particular incident..
which happened recently..
which drove me to the point of
wanting to be antisocial at that moment.
just close up and ignore them..
what did they ask after the street?
WHICH FREAKING HOUSE NUMBER?
>:D
mind you.. she didnt shout n use 'freaking'
but yeah...
so what does that do?
memorise my entire house address?!?
sorry..
but it irks me..
WHY do you want to know where i live?!
of which funnily..
what's even more trivial?
she went to the same highschool as me for 5 years.
so why this question now?
my freaking address has been printed
on 5 yrs worth of contact detail pages
you dont just bring this up randomly in convo...?
:S
so yeah.
tho what i do prefer..
is 'where do you live?'
then 'where?'
'somewhere around uni'
then 'where?'
'a walkable distance from here'
then 'where?;
'about 15 mins walk to be exact'
and they give up ^^
i think by that time you really realise
that i dun wanna divulge the details
much easier ^^
but then again.. sorta much less friendly
another one?
we were catching the bus together
and they asked me where i was going
'home' was the answer
'oh really?'
'yeah im getting off the bus now'
'oh ok so which street do you live on?'
T.T
you know.. most likely its NEAR the bus stop
i dont wanna answer
you already know which stop i get off from the bus
and which bus i catch
isnt that enough detail?
esp when i dont even really know the person
least i guess in my mind.
or im just a very.. not so social person...
but somehow.
ive a feeling it sorta seems like a family thing..
tho skip a few people...
'not very social'?
yeah i do like to keep close friends :)
n socialising's not really that bad.
but...
i'll leave that for next time to talk bout
got stuff to do
exam timetable's FINALLY out!! ^^
yay so happy
kk
g2g
*hugs*
Saturday, September 29, 2007
Rain Smiles on my 'High School Reunion'
nother day went by today
and i found my self yet again
as with countless occasions since uni started
walking through the rain
just letting it pour down on me..
whilst i willingly continued on
without any attempt at sheltering myself against it
mmm.. i HATED it when i used to get caught in the rain..
tho.
nowadays.. some how i just dont mind
and just continue to bear it and walk right through
walking at the same pace..
as if it weren't there
==========================================================
you know.
talking about blogs to people
about how before it was nearly always about
what had happened through the day
giving every single detail
onto the internet..
thinking that someone out there
would actually care to waste their time reading away
at what you had just done at school that day
from going from one class to the next
about how much one teacher may have annoyed you
or in some cases like mine
about how boring school life was
i'd never actually thought that maybe
no one does actually bother to care about
the EVERY SINGLE DETAIL OF YOUR LIFE
the universe revolved around me back then
or at least it seems to have seemed so..
(cant remember what it was like back then as well anymore)
but anyways like the fact that
i never gave a thought to such a thing
it would never have occured to me..
this time last yr
that in the timeframe of two days
i could have so much exposure to highschool times
all over again
back then..
thinking that yeah being the last year of school
and the pessimistic but close to realistic thoughts
that our friendships weren't strong enough to last
that we wouldnt keep in contact at all
and with the new friends made..
we'd quickly drift apart and become faces in the crowd
and so.
with that mentality.. i was amazed.
yep in two days...
it was
helen, tegan, kali, louise, katie,
ada, fong-yeng, melissa,
scarlet, jade, div, liz, mona, kevin, sarah ng,
and on top of that?
MLC centenary fete..
what does that mean?
my sister invited to me to go..
and yep. an early arvo spent back at high school again
chatting to forma and ann
and well hanging around with my sister n her friends
since i was bussing with her home.
highlight of the day?
seeing MR LEE dressed up as a clown
but.. seeing some teachers
it just reminded me that once again
with our belief that the world revolves around us
how much you refuse to believe
that you didnt leave an impression on some people
its sorta sad i guess.
but at the same time.
what can you really expect for an old teacher to remember
a student who was near invisible in class?
with the large number of students going through every year
it sorta ok i guess.. that people's memories get fuzzy
and well they dont have to recognise you..
but with the selfimportance one may feel
i guess knowing that you're remembered by someone
is a good feeling. and to have been forgotten..
what can i say but the fact that its understandable
and its nothing if its not really that much of a loss
less you knew them well.. which i didnt.
with teachers i guess its happened enough times
it shouldnt be a surprise anymore
but anyways.
with the number of people ive seen in the last two days
getting home to facebooking..
its not really surprising that
i started flicking through people's fotos
people who i used to know..
or least thought i did..
and one thing that struck me
was this trivial thing...
this one particular individual who was so beautiful
had such a strange thing when she smiled
i dont know. but there's something in the face
that gave me the feeling she wasnt happy
least that or
it was a signature grimace she made for every pic
and i guess in the end.
the thing that puzzles me is
how someone could make a smile look non-smile-y
its like.. a smile with a hint of sorrow
or insincerity...? :S
i dunno.. it just seemed really weird
i guess for me.. its hard to grasp
that a smile which is a warming bright friendly emotion
something that represents happiness n sincerity
and yet.. it just seems that this person
went n completely took it and threw it in a blender
and well what came out was...
just not the same effect..
not to say it looks bad..
its just sort of looks awkward or strange
least to me that is.
mm think its time to publish
and to sleep
nite nite
*hugs*
and i found my self yet again
as with countless occasions since uni started
walking through the rain
just letting it pour down on me..
whilst i willingly continued on
without any attempt at sheltering myself against it
mmm.. i HATED it when i used to get caught in the rain..
tho.
nowadays.. some how i just dont mind
and just continue to bear it and walk right through
walking at the same pace..
as if it weren't there
==========================================================
you know.
talking about blogs to people
about how before it was nearly always about
what had happened through the day
giving every single detail
onto the internet..
thinking that someone out there
would actually care to waste their time reading away
at what you had just done at school that day
from going from one class to the next
about how much one teacher may have annoyed you
or in some cases like mine
about how boring school life was
i'd never actually thought that maybe
no one does actually bother to care about
the EVERY SINGLE DETAIL OF YOUR LIFE
the universe revolved around me back then
or at least it seems to have seemed so..
(cant remember what it was like back then as well anymore)
but anyways like the fact that
i never gave a thought to such a thing
it would never have occured to me..
this time last yr
that in the timeframe of two days
i could have so much exposure to highschool times
all over again
back then..
thinking that yeah being the last year of school
and the pessimistic but close to realistic thoughts
that our friendships weren't strong enough to last
that we wouldnt keep in contact at all
and with the new friends made..
we'd quickly drift apart and become faces in the crowd
and so.
with that mentality.. i was amazed.
yep in two days...
it was
helen, tegan, kali, louise, katie,
ada, fong-yeng, melissa,
scarlet, jade, div, liz, mona, kevin, sarah ng,
and on top of that?
MLC centenary fete..
what does that mean?
my sister invited to me to go..
and yep. an early arvo spent back at high school again
chatting to forma and ann
and well hanging around with my sister n her friends
since i was bussing with her home.
highlight of the day?
seeing MR LEE dressed up as a clown
but.. seeing some teachers
it just reminded me that once again
with our belief that the world revolves around us
how much you refuse to believe
that you didnt leave an impression on some people
its sorta sad i guess.
but at the same time.
what can you really expect for an old teacher to remember
a student who was near invisible in class?
with the large number of students going through every year
it sorta ok i guess.. that people's memories get fuzzy
and well they dont have to recognise you..
but with the selfimportance one may feel
i guess knowing that you're remembered by someone
is a good feeling. and to have been forgotten..
what can i say but the fact that its understandable
and its nothing if its not really that much of a loss
less you knew them well.. which i didnt.
with teachers i guess its happened enough times
it shouldnt be a surprise anymore
but anyways.
with the number of people ive seen in the last two days
getting home to facebooking..
its not really surprising that
i started flicking through people's fotos
people who i used to know..
or least thought i did..
and one thing that struck me
was this trivial thing...
this one particular individual who was so beautiful
had such a strange thing when she smiled
i dont know. but there's something in the face
that gave me the feeling she wasnt happy
least that or
it was a signature grimace she made for every pic
and i guess in the end.
the thing that puzzles me is
how someone could make a smile look non-smile-y
its like.. a smile with a hint of sorrow
or insincerity...? :S
i dunno.. it just seemed really weird
i guess for me.. its hard to grasp
that a smile which is a warming bright friendly emotion
something that represents happiness n sincerity
and yet.. it just seems that this person
went n completely took it and threw it in a blender
and well what came out was...
just not the same effect..
not to say it looks bad..
its just sort of looks awkward or strange
least to me that is.
mm think its time to publish
and to sleep
nite nite
*hugs*
Saturday, September 22, 2007
Motivation
So.
i've been told to do this
n i've also been told to do that
and in the family i live in.
there seems to be a thing with longwindedness
or carry on convos where explanation
over arches over many topics
hmm and somehow ive a sneaking suspicion
that i do that too
but that's beside the point.
with the last two weekends filled
with religious happenings once again
and well means more work yeah?
and then that means different people around..
and getting to know people
and well having the point of uniqueness of poeople
reinforced over and over again
and yet. beneath all that is still those similiarities
and with the want for labelling and classifying
sometimes looking between the people
you can sometimes can sorta see how people fall into their place
each taking up their position
working together and well there you have it
everything just 'clicking'
but at the same time.. there's still all that
there's the happy n normally willing people to work
but sometimes you watch them and you wonder
if its that's who they really are..
or is it just yet another layer?
i was thinking of using the word 'facade'..
but then thought about it and reconsidered..
unless there was some prior initiation..
an original source before hand..
why else would they be here..
meaning that they would have had a caring intention
or at least goodwill..
but to continuously come back...
i wonder..
coz is the world out there really that bad?
and why i wanted to use 'facade'?
it reminded me of those venetian masks
that are like made outta plaster like stuff
clay maybe?
anyways..
time wears things away..
and all this continual exposure
sooner or later. you'll get cracks n chips
and a slight slip leaves a mark of you..
in another's opinion or impression of you..
================================================
ok that was left to rot..
but sitting through basically
an arvo worth of 'meeting'/'religious reunion'
weeks after the religious get togethers
where the aim this time was to collect money
for the next job which is indonesia (i think?)
which just got hit by some tsunami rated 8.2
followed by one last night
at bout 5.1 on the richter scale
yep. so raising money..
on the plus there's money being raised
sadly.. always from the same people
on the plus.. these people continue to keep giving
truthfully speaking..
unless this gathering actually took place..
i'd still be oblivious to it all..
for all i know..
last night i was spending my time
facebook-ing, chatting and blogging away
so really would have completely no idea
tho is it really surprising?
what seems to be a peaceful place here
its just not something you'd think about
the possibility of tragedy elsewhere
lest you stop n contemplate
to wonder.. and actually look up the news..
and yet
the reason why im picking up from
the bottom of this previous post
is the fact that today's happenings
in a way reminded me of the ongoings
of what i was writing before back before i dropped it..
is the fact that i couldnt help noticing today
the fact that a particular individual
made a comparison
to everything said.. in relation to another
and i just sat there
n wondered.. why was she even there?
she didnt have to come if she didnt want to...
as nice as it is to contribute and share experiences n all
it sort of hits excess when you say that everything noted
has happened before.. or been done before
by someone that she knew.
burst the bubble repeatedly why dont you?
coz really..
would it not be more fair for you to be out advertising?
instead of shooting down every detail?
it would be ok if it were different places or people..
but every comparison was the same...
you might as well sat there
and been like advertising for an opposing team
except..
there was no official opposing team..
this was nothing but a gathering
reminiscing what's been done..
what was acheived
and what is to be done in the near future
this is a "free" world.
and yeh there is "free" speech
and you can do whatever you choose to "freely"
so really there is nothing that could have been done
but in the same case..
you wonder..
in the place of that individual..
selectively being quiet
in some places woulda been nice for others.
tho coming from me..
i've still yet to completely learn
how to keep my mouth shut sometimes..
mm tho still i've time yet to learn
anyways.
nite nite
*hugs*
i've been told to do this
n i've also been told to do that
and in the family i live in.
there seems to be a thing with longwindedness
or carry on convos where explanation
over arches over many topics
hmm and somehow ive a sneaking suspicion
that i do that too
but that's beside the point.
with the last two weekends filled
with religious happenings once again
and well means more work yeah?
and then that means different people around..
and getting to know people
and well having the point of uniqueness of poeople
reinforced over and over again
and yet. beneath all that is still those similiarities
and with the want for labelling and classifying
sometimes looking between the people
you can sometimes can sorta see how people fall into their place
each taking up their position
working together and well there you have it
everything just 'clicking'
but at the same time.. there's still all that
there's the happy n normally willing people to work
but sometimes you watch them and you wonder
if its that's who they really are..
or is it just yet another layer?
i was thinking of using the word 'facade'..
but then thought about it and reconsidered..
unless there was some prior initiation..
an original source before hand..
why else would they be here..
meaning that they would have had a caring intention
or at least goodwill..
but to continuously come back...
i wonder..
coz is the world out there really that bad?
and why i wanted to use 'facade'?
it reminded me of those venetian masks
that are like made outta plaster like stuff
clay maybe?
anyways..
time wears things away..
and all this continual exposure
sooner or later. you'll get cracks n chips
and a slight slip leaves a mark of you..
in another's opinion or impression of you..
================================================
ok that was left to rot..
but sitting through basically
an arvo worth of 'meeting'/'religious reunion'
weeks after the religious get togethers
where the aim this time was to collect money
for the next job which is indonesia (i think?)
which just got hit by some tsunami rated 8.2
followed by one last night
at bout 5.1 on the richter scale
yep. so raising money..
on the plus there's money being raised
sadly.. always from the same people
on the plus.. these people continue to keep giving
truthfully speaking..
unless this gathering actually took place..
i'd still be oblivious to it all..
for all i know..
last night i was spending my time
facebook-ing, chatting and blogging away
so really would have completely no idea
tho is it really surprising?
what seems to be a peaceful place here
its just not something you'd think about
the possibility of tragedy elsewhere
lest you stop n contemplate
to wonder.. and actually look up the news..
and yet
the reason why im picking up from
the bottom of this previous post
is the fact that today's happenings
in a way reminded me of the ongoings
of what i was writing before back before i dropped it..
is the fact that i couldnt help noticing today
the fact that a particular individual
made a comparison
to everything said.. in relation to another
and i just sat there
n wondered.. why was she even there?
she didnt have to come if she didnt want to...
as nice as it is to contribute and share experiences n all
it sort of hits excess when you say that everything noted
has happened before.. or been done before
by someone that she knew.
burst the bubble repeatedly why dont you?
coz really..
would it not be more fair for you to be out advertising?
instead of shooting down every detail?
it would be ok if it were different places or people..
but every comparison was the same...
you might as well sat there
and been like advertising for an opposing team
except..
there was no official opposing team..
this was nothing but a gathering
reminiscing what's been done..
what was acheived
and what is to be done in the near future
this is a "free" world.
and yeh there is "free" speech
and you can do whatever you choose to "freely"
so really there is nothing that could have been done
but in the same case..
you wonder..
in the place of that individual..
selectively being quiet
in some places woulda been nice for others.
tho coming from me..
i've still yet to completely learn
how to keep my mouth shut sometimes..
mm tho still i've time yet to learn
anyways.
nite nite
*hugs*