Belated 2006 recap

Post-typing Note:
for some of the things
they are actually shorter
than i intended them to be
its basically cos of the fact
i just want this over with
not that reflecting is such a bad thing
but its always stuck as a draft
so yep.
not done in as much detail
as i'd like it to have been.

2006
Yr 12
The Year:


- of the Dog -
Woof!!


- of Balls -
Yep something that i never got round to recap
but now thinking back
i wonder what the supposed hype was really all about?
just something new?
i guess that it's nearing a year since
the actual ball
lol this time last year it was what?
20 DAYS till BALL
and looking for limos and thinking bout afters
as well as the whole big deal
seems like nothing now..

from the deal that "no foreigners"
were going to the year afters
to the questions of parters to bring
to the question of what to eat.
held at the hyatt
from photography
to the dvd recording
you just think and you didnt realise
how much supposed effort went into the organisation

with event after event in our lives
milestone after milestone (Lee, Stephen 2006)
hehe.. couldnt help it..
and well not entirely done properly
but you get the point..
since well cbb with a bibliography at the end :P
you just realise that the time passes
and there's nothing you cna do about it
but enjoy the moment
work hard for what's coming

from the night
i guess despite the differences
from the stereotpyes of a ball
and whatever may have happened
the basic idea was still present
looking at the pictures the memories
of the smiles and happiness is caught
in the flash of a smile to the sound triggers of music
every little bit that created
the string of emotions of such an enchanted night
(hmm what i seem to be saying seems
like an over romanticised view but oh well :P
it makes it sound so much prettier)
everything's what you make of it
and for the first ball
well all you can say is its special
its another passing of a rite
and well all got through it

and love you guys..
everyone was just as beautiful
if not more
both on the inside and the out :D

- The Odessy -
the first play i guess i saw in this home town of mine
i'd probs have a pic off this from gar
BUT.. well due to the whole
"no pix allowed at all and delete the one you just took"
we sorta have no pix
really just watched this for lit
part of the international arts festival
yep..
interesting..


- Interhouse Swimming Carival -
once again..
not exactly a troy victory
but we were well along on our way..




- IGGSA Swimming Carnival -
Sometimes you question
why the heck would i give up my fri night
that i coulda spent doing something
other than attending a swimming carnival
that i didnt have to go to.. cheerleading?
school spirit?
mm well
thinking back
i think it was worth it
sorta miss the school spirit..


- Interhouse Singing, Drama and Mime Day -
the last interhouse singin drama n mime..
too bad we didnt get into the finals
but for me..
the actual day was one that was pretty enjoyable
memorable.. im not quite sure
i can barely remember it
but with a victory this year (as my sister told me)
im pretty proud of it
go troy!


- Buddha's B'day Festival -
this year
was luckily excempt from
the annual buddha's bday performance
this would be because there were two people
willing to perform alternatively to me doing anything
so in a way i was happy
didnt have to perform
or get people to perform
i dont mind performing
i still love to sing
and well dance..
as long as there's a choreographer
thats not me
but..
like altho they asked em to sing the song
i guess in the end i chose against it
coz no offence to their performance
the actual content i personally felt
was just inappropriate for the actual event
for them..
congrats on their dance
im just pretty glad
i wasnt part of it for this one

- Exams -
Exams were exams
stressful.. or lack there of

- Promeathians -
promeathians.
a special year 12 thing
that's available for students of scotch and mlc
where each fornight
a guest speaker is invited to talk
and issues are dicussed
overall i went to a number of these
they were somethign i really enjoyed
until well
i realised h bio tests
had a tendency to be on thurs
and promeathians were on wed nites -.-
ah well
an enjoyable experience all the same

- Bonding Night -
yr 12 bonding night
a night of fun n games just to enhance the bonds
a reminder of what everyone's been through
a last chance to get to know new people from the year
a night i cant remember much from...


- Charity Dinner -
well last year woulda been the year
i got the most volunteer work done EVER
starting with this first one.
or the earliest memory i have of volunteer work
that was fully official..
a fully vegetarian dinner
and auctioning of items
where the money was all donated
to performing eye surgery in nepal
in the end 10,000 was raised..
for the sale of the auction items alone
i was so proud ^^
tho all that me n my sister did was do the whole
parade around the resto with the auction items


- Panda's Visit -
PANDA, PANDA, PANDA!!!
miss panda soooo much ^.^
and so panda came to visit
well for like a weekend
but a visit none the less
yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay
too bad couldnt stay longer :(
but im happy that he came
and was able to look at the supposed hole of our town
wasnt that bad now was it?
ok..
aside from the lack of things to do
but SUSHI!! :P
food food n more food
and you gotta come eat at our place too
so that's a plus
come again some time soon yeah?

- Getting a Job -
yep
this would go under volunteer
but not the whole useful type
not that it wasnt useful
just not directly helpful
sorta was working in sir charlies gift shop
once a month
so not much work
tho the profits went back to the hospital
so its a good thing
they didnt have to pay for the staff-ing


- Lit Conference -
nothing speccy
conference at uni
supposedly helpful to lit
but in the end not really
i dont remember actually learning much
ah well too bad..


- K & Albie come to Visit -
Another major event of the year..
well panda coming over was one ..
this was another
highly anticipated as was the previous one^^
but K was staying at my place
so all the more reason to be happy
both staying for a week
it was one intense week of outings
and well for me..
a new movement out of my at the time current boundaries
so what was this that was coming?
a new parential leniencey developing
which was a new and a great plus :D

Going from bowling, bumming around to iceskating
AND MASSES of singing K :P
it was seriously a series of last min.. lets go there!

Basically recapped under the video below
created by lina in her spare time..



- City to Surf -
A whole 12km of jogging/running
i basically put back under
"things i did in my last year of highschool"
an acheivement i guess..
well for someone who doesnt do
sport outside of house acts n PE




- Geog Camp -
Ah..
good ol' geog camp
the last camp i'll be going to anytime soon
and well
living in lil chalets
i guess it wasnt exactly camping.
but it was still just as DAMNED COLD
housed up by groups of 8 (i thinketh?)
we basically lived bout a weekend
up in wellington mills
where we travelled from hamlets to cities
learning demographic details
as well as morphologies and functions of the places
and well
im proud to say i was one of the few
who assisted in the population boom
of a small hamlet from 2 to 45 in the time frame of a few mins
tho then the bus left
and the population returned once again to 2.

pictures above?
we managed to visit GNOMESVILLE!!
yay!!
i swear i've never seen so many gnomes
all at once


- Multifaith Fest -
Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarmonise!
mm.. well yet another chinese class oriented activity
mind you i travelled so far
- Last Stocking Day -

- Exams -
Exams Exams and more Exams..
what can i say?


- The Show -
The continuance of the tradition
yep..
5 years of going to the show with scar
and guess what?
FIRST time we've won something :P
all by our ownselves


- Moon Cake Fest -
FKS activity...
performance once again
thank god i had an english part..
minimal rehersing needed..
problem?
i only found out about it ON THAT NIGHT
-.-
major stress..
esp after a whole day worth of TEE total

- Grandma -
R.I.P. Grandma.
A big thing i learnt
cherish the moments you have with everyone
for all you know it could be
the last memories you make with them
someone i hadnt seen in two years
of the chances that i could have
i didnt.
from one reason to another
two years...


- Beach Day -
Yep.
the day that MLC made it
onto BBC online world pictures :P
well fun and traditional event
the beginning of the series of leavers activities
all in leavers week...


- Class PARTIES -
I swear we had the highest possible number
of consecutive class parties in one day..


*Geog - Note: Twas the day before the last day*


*Tute Breaky*

*Physics*

*H Bio*

*Lit*

*House Farewell*

*Chem*

*Applic/Calc*






- "Fun Day" -
As it was no longer viable to have a muck up day
as it was claimed that it mentally affected some
our day of terrorising the school
got deminished to our dear "fun morning" of "fun day"
ranging from the dunking thingy
where mr lee got dunked
to the slide thing
and the mad cow
i swear.. mr lee on the mad cow is an image
that is permanently stained into my mind..
not a good thing might i add.

the satirical was something that was much enjoyed
and our dear head of year, dear lawson
left the school with us
*tear*

and finally
the much awaited formal assembly
where..
we despite the prior instructions
to leave gracefully
continued the tradition
SCREAMING AND RUNNING OUT OF HADLEY!
woot!




- Valedictory -
Not even sure if that's how its spelt
but anyways
the end of highshool.
A Delightful evening..
from a formal assembly for graduation
tho there were a number of laughs over photography
(they decided to hire a photographer)
and well troubles was with coordination
of picture taking and receiving stuffs
and then dinner
held on ccgs oval with a tent and as you see
in the pic above.. the school emblem
projected onto the top of the dinner tent.

- TEE -
Oh.. the.. stress...












- Singapore -
our leavers
held in singapore
many thanks to nat
who provided the lovely host
as well as her friends tab, kenneth n elson

a weeks worth of time spending and bonding
and well attempts at forgetting about the week before

- Albie's Second Visit -
Yep.
Albie's second trip over
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY
tho this time i think he stayed for a shorter time..
i think?
my memory's going but check earlier posts
would be more accurate
see day distinctions begin to blend together
esp in the times when you have fun
the separations between the days sorta disappear
and time just FLIES!

tho if memory serves correct
Albie came over on business trip
so yep less time for fun
but got to see Albie was the main point!


- Last Ever Speech Nite -
Back from leavers and a lil rest after
it was speech night
the last ever
tho truthfully i never went to my first one till yr9
and that was coz i was in the choir
so i guess
first and last yrs of highschool?
not in choir
and despite what we thought when we left
we stood corrected..
THIS was the very last time we wore uniform
ah.. the dear uniform
truthfully i actually miss it
the yr 12 uniform that is
i actually liked that uniform


*Connor me n Kim*

*James n Ben*

*ED!*

*Kim Loves Josh*

*Ants and Tash*

*Connor n BUBBLES~!*

*Liss Angel n Tash*

- Hale Sony -
Four days worth..
well five including the meet up the day before
of volunteer work as a form of respite to the parents

- Down South -
A whole 24+ hours in the car..
over a total of 2 days
*sigh* A LOT of car sitting if you ask me..
Perth
Mandurah
Bunbury
Busselton
Nannup
Bridgetown
Manjimup
Mt Barker
Albany
Albany
Denmark
Walpole
Pemberton
Manjimup
Bridgetown
Bunbury
Mandurah
Perth


Yep.
2006.
The last yr of highschool.
Pictures speak louder than words
so i hope.. with those included
it may say something
tho from the pictures its nothing but interpretation
so i hope it is the correct message being sent across.
For a lovely and memorable year
thank you.
Missing everyone
and with the new year
that we are currently
livign away second by second
being cast into our memories
i hope for the best
and well keep in touch

love y'all
*hugs*
-Del

Smile for me please?

a forward from my dear cousin
and couldnt help it but share..
so smile... please?

Think about them one at a time
BEFORE going on to the next one...
IT DOES MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD,
especially the thought at the end.

1. Falling in love.


2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.


3. A hot shower.


4. No lines at the supermarket


5. A special glance.


6. Getting mail


7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.


8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.


9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.


10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.


11. Chocolate milkshake.. (or vanilla or strawberry!)


12. A bubble bath.


13. Giggling.


14. A good conversation.


15. The beach


16. Finding a 20 dollar bill in your coat from last winter.


17. Laughing at yourself.


19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.


20. Running through sprinklers.


21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.


22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.


23. Laughing at an inside joke.


24. Friends.


25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you


26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to

sleep.


27. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).


28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.


29. Playing with a new puppy.


30. Having someone play with your hair.


31. Sweet dreams.


32. Hot chocolate.


33. Road trips with friends.


34. Swinging on swings.


35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.


36 . Making chocolate chip cookies.


37. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.


38. Holding hands with someone you care about.


39. Running into an old friend and realizing
that some things (good or bad) never change.


40. Watching the _____expression on someone's face
as they open a much desired present from you.


41. Watching the sunrise.


42. Getting out of bed every morning and
being grateful

for another beautiful day.


43. Knowing that somebody misses you.


44. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.


45. Knowing you've done the right thing,
no matter what other people think.

*hugs*
-del

MASS...Psychotic-it-i-ness..? [Religion]

why is it..
that when i actually have a thought to blog
i realise that oh i have something due soon
or just get side tracked.
tried blogging
then get barely anything done
so in the end
the point is forgone??

ah well..
tho today
after that mini intro bit
i managed to remember my thought of well.. thought
with a full on weekend of religion-ful-ness

ranging from the bright summery weather on sat
to the entire DOWNPOUR on sun

with the beginning of the weekend being fri night
i sat in for a 'religious gathering'
an example of a religious universal
among the Nailartsua people
anth.. :P
in hours..
we had sat learning to chant in...
wait for it...
TIBETIAN!!
yep.. so i learnt a new language..
of which i dont get a word of what it means
but still.. :D

and well the sat n sun..
buddha's festival was being held in the city
gees.. usual large spending

sat morning?
boat trip..
relating to a ritual to pray for no natural disasters
well at least no water related natural disasters..
so yep
on boat..
sitting there.. listening to chanting
and everyone chanting together
then reach a far out enough place
the boat stopped
and basically it was drifting..
and more chanting
then praying to the dragon lord of the sea
we threw these vase things
filled with herbs n gems n what not filled inside
into the water..
ritualistically
with the flowers
mind plastic was kept on board
[pollution was kept to a ritualistic minimum
well as low as possible to still allow for the
ritual to actually occur]
then turned back
i spent most of that time sleeping
early morning ><

vegetarian lunch..
then off to city for the buddha festival
sunny summery day
off ta kareoke
but then.. had to leave early :(

sunday?
day of stress n rain
tho i guess i jokingly noted
that well..
the offerings polluted the river
so the dragon king got angry
and decided to make it a down pour :P
ah well..
sat was meant to be described as rainy..
but turned out not..
so maybe what? accumulation of pent up repressed rain?

so yep
sang
off stage
off to place where
we were gonna get the 'fo gong' done
basically it was a mini bonfire
where herbs, samples of hair, nails, clothes
and a bunch of chanting happened
then everyone took pix of it
as many as possible
and supposedly with the pictures on the camera
we were meant to see beams of light from above
supernatural beings and/or a dragon come down
or out of the fire or the smoke
not quite sure of which

so everyone was frantically shutterbug-ing
hoping to get a pic then to look at the pic
to look for the possibilities that its true
and then this lady screams out

OMG I GOT IT..! look its rays of light
and there! there's guan yin
i see guan yin in the fire in my picture
EVERYONE get down n pray

and that was it..
everyone was down on their knees
either taking pix
or just there praying
with the continual chanting
the heat of the flames
the smell of the smoke rising up
the atmosphere was such an amazing thing
there was this lovely sense of belonging
that there was this sense of belonging
everyone placed down equally low
on the same level in servitude to this higher being

[tho mind i may be using incorrect language
blogging for me after all is the first word i think of
like a mind stream so it can be incorrectly
interpreted unintentionally
coz i actually take no possible thought
to other readings to the one i mean
in the first place]

basically
it just reminds me about how much
a sense of community and communal wellbeing
can sort of in a simple ritual
brings together a group of people
its just this sense that transcends description

tho you stop.
and you think about it
and for the seconds that you believed
they after sometime
are potentially tinted with skepticism
as you try to rationalise
to understand
to put into your own terms in relation to your experiences
the belief that once again you may have possibly been deceived
that this it was all an illusion
but at the time was so real

for the seconds you believed
that for once you let go to feel
and yet in an instant can be dashed away
but that's where trust and faith come in
it is but through your own trust and faith
that you fully believe
it leaves you vunerable
to trust, to believe, to have faith in
you have to leave your judgements
if you believe
you're left there defenceless
against possible deception
to open completely once again
just as dependant as any infant would be

and you wonder
like is it just that single lady
who claimed what she saw
could just be coincidential?
that the shower of rain left a droplet of water
and the reflection of a flash could just leave
the illusion.. an illusion that lead a-many

from this single claim,
so many people just were on their knees
they were praying and chanting
all lead by one

and you think about it
and then on religion
the thought that hit me on my way along uni today
was a poster that said "Why doesn't God Prove Himself?"
or something of the like..
my memory is fuzzy by now

but i was looking at it
and i was thinking..
why should God have to prove himself?
and what about religion?
is it but a social construct
just to satisfy the wants of the believers
that it just exists to give life a meaning
because in reality there is nothing
do we believe to give ourselves a reason..
to give ourselves a purpose

like the thoughts of plato..
is what we perceive really what is present?
is it really what it seems?
despite what i read on the impressions of people on others
where what is perceived is given as reality
you wander
what about those who are mentally different
those we label as "mad" "insane"
is it that they perceive the world differently from us?
well quite likely
and what of those who seem to
live in a whole world of their own?
is that what is really there?
just like suggested in Buffy..
[oh god im referencing Buffy]
how it was the mentally "deficient"
were those who could see Dawn
for what she really was..
they saw the reality

so why doesnt God prove himself?
what i question is..
why is there a need for God to prove himself?
if he really exists..
does he really in his self need to be revered?
coz if you think about it
is it not he reason he would choose to prove himself
was the fact he wishes to be acknowledged
but in the assumption that he wishes to be acknowledged
does that not place him on the same level as us?
basically a creator but at the same time personified
in human form?
then what actually places him above us?
afterall it is stated that
God wants to have a relationship with us
but in that fact it is not one of equality
he is still higher and it is more like that of
that of the Lord as a Shepherd
guiding us sheep along in our masses
so we're not equal..

is it not a social construct then?
that we wish for him to prove himself?
that to satisfy and consolidate our beliefs
we in our ownselves seek out proof
to justify to ourselves that our own
social structure and personal beliefs and values
are ones that are correct
that the lives we are living are "good"?

"good" that is..
on our own terms
whether it be for the one of satisfaction of desire
or "good" for the general population
for the greater "good"
but who is it to deem what is to be for the "greater good"?

so in our own seeking of the truth
do we not just grasp onto the first possible
sign that shows the possibility
and treat it as the most likely answer?

for what else is denial?
but the rejection of that which does not please us?
denial allows you to hide
to run away
and yet it makes it so much easier to deal with
then there is no actual need for the supposed acceptance
you can just try to run for as long as possible
just not to take what you wish not to happen
and that which you want

as they say..
say it often enough and it may come true
you sort of in a way trance yourself into belief
to make yourself believe what you want
and in the end what comes of it?
sooner or later you'll still gotta deal
even if you wish you could stay
in that particular dream for so long

so..
what do i do?
turn escapism
to sleep i go :P
nite nite
*hugs*
-del

Gradual Death

you know..
was talking with my grandpa the other day
and well the topic of memory loss came up
and he was asking me for the "learn-ed" response
and i was gonna explain how the brain cells cant rejuvinate
or what not
and was trying to figure how to explain cells
when it hit me..
non literally
but like isnt it one of the reasons you dont remember things
is just the fact that as time goes by
the things you forget is due to damage
and the death of cells in your brain?
coz after all i think its that they cant be reproduced
as in they dont undergo mitosis...

hehe.. my h bio online
anyways

so they are gone
and they disappear
and then i thought back and remembered mr forma
ahh dear mr forma
think it was one of the facts that
in the time frame of about 12-14 years
(cant remember the exact value anymore)
that all the cells in your body has been replaced
from when you were like first "created"
so basically you're a whole new person

what's the point of that?
i have no idea
:S

ah well

[had a point
cant remember it anymore
shall leave it here]

-Del

Early Morning...

It's 5:40 am..
and i just spent the last hour away..
procrat
damn anth ><
tho at least im not asleep yet
(i got up at 3:40)
so well..
if i slept again..
next time i'll wake up'll probs be 9
and then i'll be late n what not
(hmm i've picked up the usage of 'what not'?)
anyways
i cant believe
yet again
how it is so easy to be sucked into myspace
-.-
stupid thing?
went n clicked on the topics forum for school
well ex-school now
and all i saw was the basic bitching
i just cant believe i read 3 pages worth of it..
esp since it was either repetitive or counteracting
but basically the same gist..
haih...
and all of this just coz i clicked to view a comment
and i only found this out coz i got sent an email
-.-
i wanna talk about the actual content of the whinging
but i dunno
in a sense it sorta stoops me as low as them..
actually could just be on equal levels
i bitch on the net too :P
cept on a different site n what not
i still basically bitch
tho it'd be funny if ms whats-her-name
made herself a myspace account
to add to her already present friendster account
that she made.. nth years ago
in response to realising the students had blogs n friendster
ah well back to assign..
damnit its so boring..
why the hell did i take freaking anth?!
*sigh*

Shall we gather at the river... where bright angel-feet have trod...

well you know..
as much as i dislike to admit it
i was setting up the dinner for tonight
for mum's bday
i suddenly thought of cloudstreet

"because, look, even the
missing are there, the gone and the taken
are with them in the shade pools of the peppermints
by the beautiful, the beautiful the river."

"the river of faces from before,
the dark and the light, the forgotten,
the silent, the missing who watch"

as much as i said i may have hated it then
i guess its sorta grown on me
well not that i like the entire book
or the fact that the whole book sorta seems very plotless
(the reconciliation of two families over 20 years in one house)
but some of the lines in there are so pretty

no point to this but yep
nite
-del

Must. Do. Econs. Essay...

Hmm...
equiv of "pre-exam bitch"
but.. for an essay
make this one worse than the last
its about what? 9 hours till my essay deadline
i have 1,155 words for my essay..
of the word limit that is 1,250
2 diagrams
and no opinion whatsoever
kidneys?
right now i dont give a damn
why did the essay have to be about kidneys?

kidneys kidneys kidneys

hmph
readings?
i feel like they were utterly pointless
hm well one or two were ok
but still
and in the end?
i finished reading them all
and i still think
kaplut
i dont care

you dont care cos you dont encounter
and you dont have to deal
haha.. people are out proshing atm
guess in the end i wouldn'ta had time anyways
by the looks of what's happening
im awkae at 4 am typign away at an essay

ok back to essay again
damned essay -.-
-del

Wonders of the World...

was just looking at the msn contact list before
and well what i found rather intruiging
was the fact that under the ninemsn videos bits
was this lil one where it says

"two otters holding hands whilst taking a nap
at [insert name of city] zoo"

i dunno
looking at it and all i thought of straight away was
why is this so amazing that it was recorded
and put up?
seriously.. is it really such an amazing thing?

the fact that whatever comes up in daily life
we usually in our own minds put a predicted judgement to
whether or not we'll cast our interest in that direction
we have our expectations
and from what we've experiences we change our expectations
so that our lil view through the window to our world
makse sense to us
we generalise to classify.. a human universal
things we generally internalise so we dont spend like what?
6 hours on deciding whether or not we need to brush out teeth?

hmm eg. of expectation?
phil will be dead boring AGAIN
if i have the exact same freud lecturer for phil
solution:
bring the text book in and write notes from textbook
therefore using time wisely

though why is it then..?
that we choose to put ourselves above animals
other than our desired belief to be superior to them?
we ARE one of them
i dont see big news flashes just cos a couple are holding hands
why should there be for otters?
cos... i dont care
i dont find it amazing
but at the same time i didnt belittle my expectations of them
to such that the possible chance of them doing such a thing
is like zilch..
so that in the case of the event occuring im not standing there
making a video of them actually in the act
and broadcasting it across the net

why am i actually blogging this?
coz im highly irratable atm
despite the bright outlook for the week
i cant believe im actually grim and annoyed
well with a sprinkling of happys here and there
namely being at uni..
tho im not quite sure why..
maybe coz there's people around ^^

hmm strangely i feel a need to go buy earrings :S
and you'd think i have enough
guess with accessories.. there can never be enough :P
mm worse is still to continually lose them
i cant believe i lost another earring
damnit.. now have another weird loner earring

with having to be up early over the weekend
supposedly up early this morning
( i gave up and went back to sleep.. stuff chem)
i have to be up early again tomoz
bright an early for another round of lectures
at least there's no phil for the current moment
i cant believe the number of people attending the lectures
like fell 50% nearly after the lecturer change
mm i need to work on my attention span
and staying awake to listen to lecture techniques
whist he my just need to brush up on keeping audience attention

and at that my attention is going
since i really think i need the sleep
nite nite
*hugs*
-del

Blogging Urge...

Potential blog roll again?
yeah..
couldnt help it
tho i cant remember any more
just as i opened up the typing bit
damnit..

phil tho today?
mm i like talking about phil
could just be coz i dont TALK in phil
its a random comment here and there
you'd think
with the whole like feel free to say whatever you want
well within limits of the whole tutor guidance
that it'd be easy to say what you think
but it just aint always that way i guess
esp with the when you say a single word..
EVERYONE just suddenly turns their head towards you
its like sudden spot light
thrown into limelight
tho since one of the main contributors to the tute
changed to another tute
you'd think that this tute'd be like hella quiet
but predictions can be wrong

it turned out ok
what with a few random silences speckled here and there
tho thinking about the content of the actual tute
based on both morals and alturism
i wondered whether or not it was just general talk
or the fact that i havent read enough of the course content
but from my own understandings of it
it seemed sorta in a way completely contradictory
basically?
i dont say anything cos i may be wrong?
despite the fact that what they're saying
doesnt in its own ways match the line up
hmm that's a not good on my behalf
but tho then again
dont think after hours worth
i could really be bothered arguing against
a particular individual just cos
they tend to be highly opinionated

point of this?
zero again
just cos i felt like typing
sleep time
chem tomoz
*hugs*
-Del

Songs, Reception and Connection...

This post could yet again fit undre the category
of like the title of the previous post..
this is written the time of pure procrastination

but since i just finished a phil tute a while back
little more than a few hours ago
i guess its a plausable reason why im typing away
i have a POINT to make
not htat it matters..
its just my random supposed rationalisations
of like what is widely accepted
or not widely accepted..
well whatever
its sometimes common sense and sometimes not

anyways
reception and connection?
basically its for the love of phones
as much as i may dislike casual phonecalls
one thing i surely cant deny
is bascially that well the phone
mobile or landline is something that
well nowadays you cant imagine living without

what with like the nth time ive walked outta my house today
AGAIN without my phone
i was caught in between the decision
of forgoing having a phone for the day
or to turn back and risk missing the bus
YET AGAIN

and well
as per usual the result turned out i'd rather
miss the bus than to forget my phone
i have to have my phone on me

and reception?
oh gees dont even get me started on
how frustrating it is when there
is no reception for phones at all?

so basically..
fone conversation dislike
lack of reception dislike
why do i always have to have my fone on me??

basically
isnt it essentially a comfort thing?
to know its always there
that you're connected to the rest of the world?
that basically
through these pieces of metal plastic and what other not
you're part of the circle of what's around you?
that at any time you can be reached
(providing you answer the phone)
but with sms as well
is it not increasing the connectivity between people?

but at the same time
you wonder about the whole sms dumping
is the increased connectivity decreasing the human interaction?

meanwhilst
im sitting here with only a single song
playing on repeat
is it not that there are those songs that reach out to you?
yep..
ive talked bout songs before too
tho you know. those were memory recalls
where as..
well this is on repeat
just cos i wanna hear it
i want it playing
i want it on
i want to hear what its saying to me
not that its directed at me
but you kno
you like to assume

bleh.
feels incomplete and complete at teh same tiem
probs not as indepth as i'd like it to be
but my brain is starting to hurt..
probs cos im really tired
nite nite
*hugs*
-del

Pure Procrastination

Why is it during the stressful times
that the allure of blogging is so welcoming?
hmm other than having to do the actual work
i guess blogging is always the available alternative
with an essay due in exactly 24 hours
of which i've only just started
this is really not a good start to the uni yr

hmm
now ive actually gone over the word limit..
damnit..
now must some how finish then condense -.-
damn essays and damned limits

nite nite
*hugs*
Del

Altruism...?

so.. yep
altruism is sorta i guess a warm-ish topic? :P
mm well listened to about it in phil
as of late
well sometime earlier this week
i think it was mon..
i just cant figure anymore
but yeah

thoughts that came to me?
i guess come to me when im in a huff..
annoyed at something or the other
and well for once..
you know today?
strange.. it was triggered by rain..
mm yeah well getting caught in the rain
can be an agitative thing

anyways
after a double phil session
(yep lecture n tute)
followed by trekking through the rain
in an attempt to meet up AH
since he called TWICE during my phil tute
after my phone battery died
i decided to walk through one of the walkways
in search of cover from the drizzle
and in my grizzly mood
(hmm grizzle n drizzle?
looks like im just replacing consanants
for my vocab these days -.-)

in the midst of my walking
i sorta realised strangely
i was sorta walking against the general walking direction
like what the?
its 5pm and people are walking TOWARDS the uni?
OR.. i just cant remember properly
anyways

i still yet to manage to notice the 3 people standing there
and as one was wearing theose graduation robes
sorta staring at the crowd as they trekked past
then looking at them
the assumption that came to my mind
was that they'd need a photo taken
walking over i meekly asked if they needed a picture taken
took it and returned their camera
tho they asked if i wanted to take a picture with their daughter
:S
anyways
was off on my merry way
when i started wondering...
i had a sore arm..
sore leg
entirely tired
weighed down by the load of books
phone dead
slightly rained on
and in a hurry to meet someone up

WHY THE HECK DID I STOP TO TAKE A PIC FOR SOMEONE?!

hmm probs not in an angered insane tone of voice
but thinking about it..
what made me in my annoyed state
bother to even care enough to take it for em?

so walking through an underpass
i began to think about the existence of altruism
gees.. you'd think after 2 hours worth of listening
i'd be sick of phil?
well truly not..
mainly coz i didnt contribute at all
coz i had no interest in darwinianism
i still have little interest in darwinianism
we are what we are.. next topic

tho the altruism on the other hand
it interests me
well possibly coz it conincides
with the whole charity recognition deal
but other than the fact you feel good
after doing something that helps people?
why would you do something nice?
and would anyone just do anything for the sake of feeling good
isnt that in itself a benefit?
why do we then not really like doing chores?
i for one HATE the dishes
im thinking we do it coz we'd like it
if someone did the same for us when we need help
but not everyone may tick that way

i like it..
the feeling of helping someone
but then i just realised that
how do you know you actually in the end helped?
or was it just an impulse pang of guilt or pity
that in the sight of someone in need
that you feel obligated to do somethign
so in the end its just the self-interest
of removing the pang
YOU feel better for doing something
but just that it may not help at all

or is it for the fact that
it raises your own self confidence
that you in yourself have the power and ability
to DO something
it raises you up.
makes gives you a notch of superiority
a confidence boost even
that you helped a "weaker" person
or a person in need of a hand
if its confidence boost then yeah
i'd say it'd explain why i enjoy it so much
its something for those who lack the confidence
the reassurance
that yep they did something supposedly right for once
they didnt stuff up
they didnt trip up
they didnt embarress themselves
it was right
or to the degree of their belief they did something right

anyways
i shall leave it at that thought
im actually sleepy
like near falling asleep at the keyboard
nite nite
*hugs*

Let Me Go... Lost To Me...True Blue..

you know
i blogging is just so therapudic
(spelling? dunno sorta looks funny)
yep now that's been restated..

memories..
(sound familiar?
dw reason behind this one SHOULD be different
actually the reason for this post is completely different
so its ok.. but a lotta the content will/may possibly
be similar to previous material
so if you've lotsa study to do. its ok :D
and im not intending for this stuff
to be entirely understood so yep if its fuzzy strange?
its ok its just my thoughts atm)

the current..
the present
everyday flicks and flitters away from us
the second moments ago already gone
hmm just like a fast trackked clock
or those movies where the days of a desk top calendar
just tear of and float away
disassociate!!
-.-

what's new.. whatever seems to stay
day after day turns towards a predictability
predictability you know what's gonna happen
and in terms of time.. it soon becomes always there
a constant..
somethign that you begin to internalise
no longer new but then again always there
somethign you know you turn away from
and turn back and you assume to still be there
it neutralises
and you internalise it as a norm
its normal
its everyday
you feel as if it'll be everpresent
changing but still in its basic self
it should still be there
changing but at the same time constant
somethign that you know that will be stable
you suppose.. no matter what
you can think even
of the future with this constant still present
everpresent that it'll keep going on
you just cant think of an alternative
that there's possibilities
that there are alternative endings
from the forever ongoing days shall work out the same

and then
the inevitable
tho you choose not to think about it
your norm is no longer there
that for some reason
or the other
its not going to be possible
either sacrificed
or something else

for anything lost
its either by sacrifice for another thing
as a choice as we cant commit any longer
or you just realise..
its no longer there..
for some other external reason
nothing seems to be able to remain forever
otherwise we just wouldnt be able to appreciate it
but then again
of the things we already have
what do we take for granted?
too many god damned things
and you just dont realise it
not until its lost
lost to you
out of your reach
and the only way you can find it again?
seek comfort in familiarity?
or just plain pulling out of memories
the memories with their faded edges
where details have become hazy

and even as you seek
the familiarity
the memories
the most vivid
will still be tarnished
and of the vivid
you pull em out and you realise
that they would be the closest to the most recent
or the most cherished memories you have
for the most cherished you revisit more often
the memory is well maintained
you bring it up and you dust off the haze
the dust on the memories and once again
its closer to new than the older ones
and the most recent?
you just made it..
the time has yet to lay its hands on it..

and so..?
changing a 5 year constant
something that's been there
for so long?
its too much to actually have to think about
an absence of somethign that you thought you would always
think that would be there
or something more?
what of the last 13 years?
that's basically most of my existence
taking that way
thats just well
something thats inconceivable
and you think
that for something that you had no choice in
for so long
that you felt a lil dislike for
just because of its presence
it was the root of your problems
the root of restrictions..
taken away
what does it leave you with?

what is there left?
what you base everything aruond
or at least
somethign that you identify yourself with
gone..
poof..
vamoosh...
GONE

oh the choices
the chances
the changes
opportunity lost
can rarely be regained
so is this what you want?
is this what i want?
do i even have a choice at all?
of course!!!
NOT..
i have no hand in this
and so i just sit
sit and watch
as the world goes by
as my constant is taken away
but at the same time
in its absence
what is there to do?
but search for new?
to take the other matter into your own hands?
just take it
change what you can
leave what you cant
and deal with what is within your own limits
for thats as much as you can really do

pointless?
yes
helpful?
yes
del shall do it again some other time?
mm as usual.. blogging is good
so YES

nite nite
*hugs*

Must...Study...

Looking at the date
and actually trying to date-ise my notes
i realised.. OMG
the time really has past so quickly
with one test done and two coming up
i just cant believe that well
omg.. everything seems to have been fast tracked
something such as evolution
which took like a term to cover in h bio last yr
has just been over and discarded in like 2 n half weeks
that's less than 9 lectures..
less than 9 HOURS!?
well more work on our behalf if we dont get it at all
could be why i didnt do that well in the online test thingy.
not enough self-initiated study..

and social wise
for some people its like i see them everyday
and others
its so strange not seeing them daily anymore
and sadly it feels as if i may just slightly
leaving them behind in the dusttracks of my life
thats something that really dont want
and something im not willingly intentionally doing
but its seems as if that's what's really happening
tho with uni being this large
you can just sit back. look around
and sooner or later see someone you know
unless you're me and the number of people you know
is so limited that you have to call people up
to find out where they are to find someone to spend time with

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atm.
trying to get study done
or more of the actual pre-tute/labs
then after that study for tests..
tho i really gotta get these
done so i dont end up sitting there in a lab/tute
going what the hell are they on about
meantime i wonder how the heck i got through yr 12
without getting ANY hw done at all?

its surprising really
im actually trying to get work done
well until just now where i just started typing this

tho one thing's for strangely sure..
i love my h bio text book O.o
its all in COLOUR!! :D
well the non-anth related one that is
i seriously never came across so much reading i had to do
hmm... maybe coz i didnt read enough in lit..

getting some organising done
and i also realised.. seems like near no assessments?
but they're worth so god damn MORE -.-
*sigh*

yay!! finished my 7 pages worth of pre-lab
and yet to have done my anth
or study for chem or h bio
gees.. dont i love the work load?!
tho then again.. partly is my fault
leaving to so late..
and lately sleeping so much too
wel that is.. the supposed study time
i was meant to have but spent sleeping
since i was dead tired

ok
nite nite
*hugs*
(i personally am thinking unfinished post
BUT.. no post in ages.. so shall leave it here)

First Days.. All Over Again

yep..
first few days are done and over
well nearly. got today then im done for the week
just like everyone else. who doesnt have pupil free
despite the new campus which is something i've
still got to entirely learn where everything is
uni life, surprisingly just feels like going to school
maybe coz i really dont mind having lectures
and well cadets involved sitting in lectures and writing notes
so guess its not a concept entirely new

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Yep..
the week's over
and well
dont really notice much change from yr 12
cept for the fact that well the LINES to buy books are HUGE
the books (new note) cost a HELLUVA lot..
tho second hand still costs bout as much..
i cant believe i actually have time BETWEEN classes
what with the lack of free periods last yr
well not lack of.. just my choice not to drop any subbies

its into the second week
and its so BLARDY hot..
i swear
last week was last week of summer
and was fully autumnish
but this week is officially autumn..
and its Summer-y
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
the only really airconned place is the octagon i swear
so cold that i nearly caught a cold even

my uni/school life?
im amazed that after a 1 nearing 2 weeks of this
that ive been scolded over the fact that
apparently im not at home enough
so..
being good..
i came home early today
and guess what?
NO ONE IS AT HOME!?!?!
whats the point then may i ask?
of me being at home
i cant guard the house

strangely..
ive a queer tendency for bumps and bruises
ever since schools started all over again
tho i dunno why i keep refereing to it as "school"
just the fact that ive spent the last 12 yrs of my life
going to "school"

so basically
busy life is back to the way it is all over again
despite the minor or major changes
its still something relatively familiar in the end

pointless post?
yes..
shall end it here
-Del
*hugs*

Early Morning...

its about 5:30 am right now..
and what am i doing?
blogging coz there's these few words
that keep bugging me
not that they're annoying
just they keep going around and around and..
you get the idea

without blogging for a while YET again
i keep thinking that how the heck?
is it im just plain not thinking anymore?
or that im on overfilled brain and
that this is slight indication i wanna
blog something out

i dunno..
it feels good when i blog
just straight picking of the words
i think of going straight from my mind to the sceen
the words? (sorry for going off track)
blogging lets my mind roam..

"sweet abandon"
i dont know why?
i just wake up..
feel like total crap
yet the words sound so good to me..
i keep thinking about the two words
and then..
the next thing..
the next word "demise"

so "sweet abandon and demise"
"sweet abandon IN moral demise"?
i dunno.. too early in the morning
to be actually thinking about the meanings of the words
coz atm i dunno what they mean
well.. i know what "moral demise" means
(its from my lit essay on cloudstreet last yr)

but "sweet abandon"? still swimming in my head
maybe its from a song..
or some movie? or a book?
cant think of it anywhere atm
just the sound of it sounds good to me

"sweet demise" ?
nope dont sound the same
i still like "sweet abandon"
but i DONT UNDERSTAND WHY

gosh this feels like a diary..
a dairy where im just rambling on
as the usual happens
it feels good :)

so yep
this is a snippet of del's brain
her thoughts that she's rarely had
since like.. school started

think i should go get some reading done
not like i can sleep anyways now
-.-

enjoy the day
*hugs*

Monkey Business

This shall be a work rant..
wait.. correct that and put in vent..

Note: I am a cheapskate.
Lesson 1 of life? READ the FINE PRINT

known widely (well.. widely in the neighbourhood)
for selling bananas at the price of 99c a kg
in the past..
the rise in banana prices were not good..

BUT

with the fall of the cost of bananas..
i DON'T understand WHY people
are STILL so whiny about buying bananas
this is how we sell:

- $4.99 a kg loosely
- $1.99 a kg in bags of 1-2 kg

there's those who are willing to pay $4.99 a kg for bananas
coz they only want one for lunch
makes sense yeah?
want a lil. jus buy the stuff that's there
ends up costing them max of $1 a banana..
depending how big a banana they want

BUT there's those particular individuals..
who walk past the signs..

think OMG $1.99 a kg
what a bargain!!

yeah true it is a bargain
(hmm there's some farmers whole sale place selling
em for like $1.49 a kg near mirrabooka square)
esp after the huge price peak when it was what?
12, 13 14+ dollars a kg..

then take a look at the bags..
then think "oh wait.. i dont want the WHOLE bag"
go in and ask..
"oh could you open a bag
so i can get 1 or 2 bananas outta the bag"

OR

"why cant you sell em in smaller bags..
no one wants so many"

there is a reason why we put them in bags..
we need a profit from it.. if you want it cheap
go by whole sale where you have to bulk buy a box
and have it the same price we get it

you see.. if EVERYONE only bought 1 banana
from the $1.99 a kg.. it'd take forever to sell
and we'd have overripe bananas on excess
THAT is why we sell em by the bag..
(but then again..
whoever IS reading this i doubt really cares)

next type a person?
after seeing the sign..
doesnt mind the sizing of the bags..
take the biggest possible bag they can find of bananas
take the bag of bananas
and bananas only.. so therefore arent buying ANYTHING
BUT BANANAS
i put em on scale
type it in.. and ask em for a certain amount
and with their selective hearing
decide not to hear what i say and hand me a $2 coin

meanwhilst i stare at em blankly and say..
no its actually [insert price]

hearing this.. they realise
and go off on a tangent..
on about HOW the sign is misleading..

NO the FREAKING sign is NOT misleading
YOU are the freaking person who chooses to SELECTIVELY read
it's not misleading because :

* ALL the words on the sign are written in the same font
therefore not fine print
(that is these signs are printed out ones)

* the sign specifically says "A KG"
not "A BAG" like the other signs
which show the pricing of bags of fruit n veges

and sooner or later..
they give up and reluctantly hand over the money

but there are those particulars
who just get miffed over it
and just decide to put it back
and not want any at all
hoping for prices to fall further

and you know..?
its not like you cant eat em all
the bags are a mix of ripe and unripe
so you can leave em at home to like ripen
whilst you eat the ripe ones first
and in the end its about $3 or 4 a bag anyways

i dont understand the workings of those people's minds
maybe bananas are just to some people luxuries
that with their budget they cant afford..
except for the fact that they live in my neighbourhood :S
stingy maybe...?
that's the only explaination i can think of..

its just sorta like weird..
they see the bag pricings and try to pick out
the biggest possible bag
but weight wise it just increases the price of the bag
and its not like there are such bargains out there..
shops sell things at prices so they make a slight profit
or the lowest possible loss..
they dont price things for your benefit..
they need the money to stay at their location
to keep running insteada closing down

as small as the point behind that vent was
the reason why its been getting to me??
its occured for the last TWO months
please people.. those bananas are there in bags
the sign says "A KG"
"KG" is a key word you look for when shopping for veges
you see em on a LOT of the signs..
it suggets by weight therefore variable cost
thank you for your co-operation
or.. for this.. more of you reading if you bothered to :)

WORK VENT 2

This isnt aimed at a particular number of occurences
this is aimed a SINGLE gentlement..
tho the likelihood of him reading i hope is 0%

ANYWAYS...
its a vent based on the idea.. that HELLO
unlike you.. (and probs unlike me till uni starts)
there are people who have basically have NO time in their lives
to get EVERYTHING done
there are staff shortages
and only a certain amount of jobs
can be done over certain amounts of time
THEREFORE.. those with HIGHER priority
are done FIRST and those that are of LOWER priority
is put LOWER..

and the SIGNIFICANCE of the prioties
is to be deemed by the staff who HAVE the list
and KNOW what needs to be done.

pricing is a MAJOR thing in shops yeah..?
having the prices up-to-date is an even higher priority..
and therefore the highest priority..
its to keep the scanny system uptodate on prices
which means the prices are first corrected there
followed by the prices on the shelving.

when new stock comes in..
the process invovles the CHECKING of all the stock
the opening of stock
the shelving of the stock
the checking of the RRP of stock
the CHANGING of the RRP of the stock if incorrect
on the scanning system
the DAILY chaning prices of fruit and vege
the written labels for the new stock pricing on the shelves

that in the end means that..
for new stock..
there may not always be a visible price
and the point of this vent is that the particular individual
EVERY time he visits decides to seek out an unlabelled shelf
and point it out..
demanding for a reason to why
there is no price for the particular item
(damn tall people.. their tallness
make them seem so much more imposing when they're angry>.<)

*sigh* picky and demanding people
guess that's all ive complained about

anyways
nite
(unless i bother with another)
*hugs*
-Del

Chain of Friendship

Chain mail i got..

A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest.
A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps themselves
and doesn't feel even the least bit weird
shutting your 'beer/Pepsi drawer' with their foot!)

A simple friend has never seen you cry.
A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.

A simple friend doesn't know your parents' first names.
A real friend has their phone numbers in his address book.

A simple friend brings a bottle of wine to your party.
A real friend comes early to help you cook
and stays late to help you clean.

A simple friend hates it when you call after they've gone to bed.
A real friend asks you why you took so long to call.

A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems.
A real friend seeks to help you with your problems.

A simple friend wonders about your romantic history.
A real friend could blackmail you with it.

A simple friend thinks the friendship is over
when you have an argument.
A real friend calls you after you had a fight.

A simple friend expects you to always be there for them.
A real friend expects to always be there for you!

yep that's it for the moment
-Del

Paranoia...

Following spending so long on my recaps
i sit here and im like..
oh wait..
what about all those net stalkers
that like we were warned against..
in like when?
back in yr 10?
back when the school discovered
that there was a mass usage of blogger
and friendster and that we should not as students
expose ourselves by writing about our everday lives
recounting every detail of what we did and where we're like
on accessible places on the net such as friendster..
thinking back.. the usage of words then
was a total laugh.. as friendster at the time
had still lacked the function of blogging..

yep..
pictures and details of my life
and the fact that there are people out there
who read and then spend their time piecing together
bits of other people's lives.
mm reminds me of that article in the paper a few weeks back
bout paedophiles talking to kids online
and there was this side section bit
which was like "how to decypher chatspeak"
i was reading and was like O.o
i've never heard of let alone used 95% of these
tho then again some of the stuff there
i was pretty sure i DIDN'T need to ever use
so all's good :)

that's bout all i feel like talking bout now..
so...
nite nitey
*hugs*
-Del

EXTREMELY Belated 2005 Recap..

Well since im not really doing much online
mite as well start something im gonna procrastinate over

(Note: this post was started Feb of this yr..
therefore details may be sketchy..
or i may have different views to what i may have had then..
and also parts of this may get choppy as well..
2005 was 2 yrs ago and im finishing it off
so that i can sorta get a double recap in
and obviously to recap 2005 in detail closer to the end..
would be too much effort for me alone..
so on the very last note..
if you wish to pry on what major-ish events occured for me
over the last 2 yrs.. ENJOY!!!)

Post-Typing Note:
As this has taken forever to complete..
it has been cut in half.. the second portion.
which was meant to be a 2006 recap? has been moved
so that this could be published and the 2006 will come later..

2005..
Yr 11..
The Year:

- of the Rooster -
Yes year of the rooster, well yes..
i really dunno what else to comment on that so yeah..

- I first got sunburnt -
SUNBURNT..
I got SUNBURNT, well sorta..
just mainly tanned skin that was red-ish..
then turned peel-y :S
after i spent a whole day at adventure world..
THE FIRST TIME I WENT TO ADVENTURE WORLD... ah well
and it was with my sister's friends.. how sad..
but at least i got to go!! :D


- of Grandpa over in Perth -
Yes he did, and i'm happy
and thankful he care enough to come visit us..
travel SO far.. and endured so much..
well not really.. 2 plane flights aint much
but for the elderly.. i think it was quite a feat..
GO GRANDPA!! :D

- of absolutely NO S+E -
YAY!!!
but which i was recommended for -.-"
and i might have had a better average if i had taken
and would understand more of geog if i did

- of Birthday on Interhouse Swimming Carnival -
somethin diff...
well it was good enough..
that is to my memory :S
but i do remember heaps hot n humid >.< - of Choral Camp -
well um.. hot..
lots of yr 8s n 9s screaming..
and a hilarious quiz night


- of SAVE STEVE CAMPAIGN -
When Eurest came in..
well what had happened from my views was..
we were sitting on a table/bench on great court..
then out of the canteen ran a purple-ish looking man..
then a while later..
the front of the canteen was surrounded by students
it seemed everyone...
just slowly gathered round and soon the whole court was outside the "cafe"
the "purple-ish" man turned out to be steve
whom had just found out he was made reduntant
and that the catering from then on
would be done by an international catering company...
this really struck a nerve with the students..
obviously the shock on some lunch time
when he [Steve] burst out loud..
in the protest against his redundance..
the "save steve" campaign was formed..
and well
it even got into the post..
yeah.. front page ^^ Go MLC :P
with the whole senior school..
esp the senior yrs questioning our principal..
we even had year group on principal talk..
but really the yr of spreading of those lovely lil flyers..
and the posting of one of em on the principal's car..
the final decision was to boycott Eurest when it came in..
but really i think till today..
didnt have much affect..
the canteen's busy all over again anyways..


- of Ki-ya (YAA) -
mm the lovely cases of ours :P
made of lovely satin material..
that we spent HOURS on..
both on discussions in meetings...
and the creation of em..
as well as so many evenings..
trying to desparately sell them..
to advertise em..
to get rid of em in exchange for money..
to break even and get ours and our shareholders money back
as well as gaining something for buying so many shares


- of Orchestra -
got to know how its like to play in one..
thinkin back..
it was an interesting experience..
despite the fact that there were early mornings
and some late arvos
and i had no concept of timing anyways..
its something to have taken in..
playin in a whole orchestra
tho i missed out on the actual farewell tour performance..


- of my Last ANZAC Parade -
sad thing i guess..
the anzac parade is something that ive always enjoyed..
well not really the whole being screamed at..
but i loved drill..
esp much when i actually get everything right..
but then again.. who doesnt??
I miss drill...

- I quit Cadets -
The last few years were filled with fieldcraft
and also flying camps..
something that was always enjoyable..
well other than the actual signing of forms
which always required a witness signiature

And to that.. ive got to add.
the leadership camps were something to have remembered
despite my complaints of never joining the army
after my first fieldcraft camp back in yr 9..
its something that i'll remember
from the 10km walk to the actual obsticle course
i hated the freaking wall tho.. couldnt climb that :(

Quitting Cadets really wasnt a big thing.
it was really coz it was due to excess consecutive AWOL.
but i was away
and couldnt be stuffed going back to actually report them

There were many times enjoyed thru cadets
from the whole training camps in the hols..
which meant i actually lost out on at least half a hol at a time

- of Instrumental Camp -
Something of which was sorta pointless
but important i was there for..
i was going to the music tour coz i played the harp..
there was a harp part in only one
of the songs the orchestra were gonna play
so i wasnt needed most of the time..
but it sorta was important i had more time
to work with the actual orchestra
im a play by ear person..
and well..
its sorta hard to practise with only me
coz there aint no orchestra as well
so its hard to work out where i actually fit in..
in the song and when to play and not to..
i had such large issues actually understanding the conductor
i just didnt get gallo's gestures unless he actually pointed at me..
-.-

- Buddha's B'day -
This year..
i remember having to teach the dance i did the year before
to more ppl so they'd have to dance too
cept in the end it rained..
the stage was too slippery
so no one had to do it..
yet we all got vouchers to go round for stuff :P


- of the family reunion!! -
It was Grandpa's B'day
Family really is an important thing..
even if you have to miss school
and really i dont think the school likes me that much either..
what with the 3 family occasions i had as my reason for
missing out on in the last 3 years..
but this time it reallly was special...
on ONE particular night..
we had the majority of the family
in ONE place at the same time..
Something really hard to actually attain
what with busy lifestyles of many these days
to me i guess a truly memorable occasion
that i'll never forget


- Interhouse Athletics -
The athletics that i think most yr 11s wagged..
i think i twas since it was joined 11/12 events
this year i guess it was really enthused 12s
since so many participated
but what can you say?
its they're last yr after all..



[Yr 11s on Tour]

[My Dear Cell Group]
- of the Music Tour -
A whole 3 weeks with Chewy, Gar, Sarah, Alison and Nellie
and well nearing 93 other students and a number of teachers
off to Europe!!
Switzerland
England
Wales
Austria
Italy
I love Europe i guess..
driving around and in a few hours you're somewhere new..
tho with the 17kg luggage limit to begin with
and then on return 16kg.. that was just a bit too stressful
what with me leaving perth with 17kg in the first place -.-

the limits to the baggage for us was also due
to the fact we were bringing our intsruments with us
which meant that all those kgs in total were distributed..
of which the harp.. in its casing was already 44KG
and it was only celtic too..

hmm imagine a concert one..
tho the beijing and singaporean orchestras had bought their concert harps..
yes we're only a small city school
competing against national youth orchestras
so i guess we did pretty well in the end..
what with both singapore and beijing getting equal first
and us getting "participation"
mite as well slap on a label of "unsatisfactory"

starting off staying at a youth hostel in switzerland..
where i realised on the bus trip to the hostel..
i wondered why the heck the petrol station would not accept
the currency that my dad had exchanged for me
that was intended to be used in switzerland
of which
later on i realised i had my money in SWEDISH Karonas..
he had miss heard and confused switzerland with sweden
oh well.
it was pretty money tho


- Pericision -
Icky job..
but well.. over and done with
dont wanna think about it
was under local anes..
but missed like a day off school coz of it i think it was

- ABODA Performance -
We got an OUTSANDING!!
that's like FIRST
but it was a shared one..
so EQUAL FIRST!!
WOOT!


- 3rd Aunty Visited -
Nothing speccy i guess..
over for like a week or two
and went over to eastern states


- Interschool Athletics -
Del a CHEERLEADER!?
yep it happened..
and.. well it happened twice..
this year as in 2005
and at the swimming 2006
amazing huh?
not really..
next topic

- Moon Cake Fest -
Performance nite
chinese school related? you bet..
this for 2005 they decided to
reenact the story of chang er ben yue
(my chinese/eng pin yin is crap i know)
lucky me..
only had to speak in eng :P
crap bit?
i had to translate it all out myself..
ok in the end i guess. :)
spoke in eng. end of story.

- Vocal Recital -
EVERGREEN!!
yep the song i sung..
not westlife.. but barbra streisand..
and well it was my last vocal recital ever..
im so gonna miss ms auty.
i took voice in yr 12 as well..
but not likely anymore..
she was really nice tho
bought me a pair of earrings as my farewell gift ^^

- Last ever Heather Lamont -
my first "last" of mlc i guess..
my first last heather lamont..

heather lamont is a festival
held by the school to celebrate the arts..
dedicated to a collegian called "Heather Lamont"
who excelled in the arts..
but died tradgically so parents donated money
and well festival named after her
tho don't quote me on that..
the summary's sorta vague...

on the day...
there was a choice of either
trying out for the badminton tournament
or heather lamont..
so i guess the fact i COULDN'T play badminton
meant i wasnt going to enter
and well it WAS the last heather lamont

was a section leader i was..
of arts and craft..
with liz and scar
and i swear
on the night before, the day and the next few weeks
after heather lamont i NEVER wanted to see a card again
i guess im over it now..
but what had happened was since yr 11s were all
revved up to winning their last heather lamont
they said to enter in as many entries as possible
and to try for the less common ones..
such as the arts n crafts devision where few people entered
and one of the easier competitions was "card making"
so nearly EVERYONE in Troy just decided to "make a card"
even i spare tute time..
i swear.. there were the most random cards ever entered.
just for the sake of a single point..
I'M in Troy and i was overwhelmed by the lack of effort
seemed a bit on the despo side for points...
and well judging em??
sorta seemed pretty easy..
what with MANY of them below a viable quality..

- of the rivercruise!! -
Mmm.. not really any piccies from then..
tho an interesting night all the same..
tho i was pretty amazed they played
"rock a by a bear" by the wiggles
due to a reqest O.O
might have been some group thing :S

- of Exams -
First set of actual exams really
and i guess it was something new-ish
althought there were exams in yr 10
it just wasnt the same
like in yr 10 it was clumped up together
cept with two weeks of spread out exams

- Speech Night -
It was the first time that our speech nite
was at the convention centre..
usually held at the concert hall
turned out our booking for it got overrided
so therefore we were kicked out
and left to fend for ourselves
until they found that the convention centre was available
to only suck up all the money needed for the parking of all the parents
anyways..
mass choir again this year
tho lee decided to give it a change
as he's done with quite a number of school things
so instead of the usual latin dark theme songs
it was "Halleluia" and well..
guess what the main word of the song was?
HALLE-F-in-LUIA
basically repeat the word 50 times in different pitches
and there you go you have the song
no not that easy.. and yeah its traditional and all
but BORING
BORING BORING BORING


Taiwan Tour


["Forever A Class"]

- of the Taiwan Tour!! -
Thinking about taiwan..
and to the dear poor souls
who've had to hear me rant about it
ON and ON and ON and ON and ON.
(well you get the point.)
i apologise
but to me i guess it was such a major thing to me
like the experience of 6 weeks away from home
guess you could say it was a "life changing experiences"
and you'd prob hear my endless rants and referrals to it
from the crappiest of the very low emotional
hate directed at some individuals
and some pretty happy times
despite the fact that there were the lows
it really meant something to me
and also living with such great people for 6 weeks
and im amazed there are the few i've still be able to
keep in contact with for the year already
so that's pretty much a BIG thing for me ^^
a major event in my life :)
No words can really express how important you guys are to me
seriously they are really valuable friendships to me
and hearing from anyone one of you just makes me so estatic!
Hopefully can see you guys again soon :)

From the Words of A "Ban" teacher:
Opportunities are for those prepared to take em

Back to event tracking side...
pre plane flight..
we were supposedly meant to meet up with a Samantha
who was meant to accompany us on the flight
somewhere along the way somethign came up as her being 18+
which meant that she was sorta in charge of us
meeting up later on.. found out i was the oldest..
great -.-
i love responsibility :P
with the parents going "look after my kid" -.-
im round their age..
as if i can actually restrict what they do
i aint THAT buff..
sorry cant really manage to restrain a guy

i remember on the plane flight
spending my time insteada actually watching movies..
i spent my time playing either cards..
from stacking them to a varation of 52 pick up :P
to that of learning to play the computerised version of mahjong
which at that time i just clicked randomly to see what happened
then arriving where we spent about half an hour standing around
sorta feeling frantic and
wondering where the people who were meant to pick us up were
because they were no where in sight..
but thank god we managed to meet up ron's cousins
who called em up to find out that they were late coz of some reason :S

with the belief that we were gonna be living in whoop whoop
coz they moved to a different venue due to the fact that the old one
people kept sneaking out at night to go shopping and what not..
(well in the hindsight it sorta was pointless.
didnt stop people from anything)
so we thought we were gonna be sent off somewhere in the country
what with looking out the windows we were pretty surprised..
that hey apparently we were nearing the uni
and WOW there were still buildings
so we werent in whoop whoop in the end
finding out we were ending up in separate dorms
us girls got dropped off first
we wandered up to our room
where finding out even our BEDS were allocated O.o
tho at least we were in the same room
4 bunks per room
with 3 of us girls from the same place
looked like we were gonna have to meet someone new
and get to know how they were

with nothing to do and finding out there was an 18+ girl
who had been there a week earlier than us
we decided to spend some time with her
she showed us around from around the "boarding house"
more of boarding building.. but you know lotsa people
and then sitting there in the food court for dinner..
actually visually fading in and out of what was happening around me
that was pretty scary but moments at that time was pretty surreal
actually time away from sister and the rest of the family.

with the belief that the routine given to us would be really strict
i was amazed that after a few days and weeks
as routine fell in..
and things being cancelled continously
i found that no... this was no boot camp
but a time just enjoy what was happening
i guess with my experiences of cadet promotion camps
i probably likened what my expectations to my past experiences

going back to the dorm we met later that evening
or last room mate
dear K, who i seriously cant believe ive shared so much with
gods girl you are seriously a crazy one..

on the first few days going
i remember particularly one morning
walking into vary cafe as a group..
us room mates
i was pretty surprised to see that there was this guy
strangely running around frantic
asking everyone if they knew how to read the phonetics
whether they used the roman/english letter type
or the taiwanese "b p m f" stuff for the test

what apparently was the supposed 3 hour testing
which had everyone on their nerves
turned out to be a one on one chat with the teachers
to show your level of chinese knowledge
so that it was possible to split the classes

with the large range in chinese ability
they were forced to divide the tour to 3 groups
insteada the intended 2 groups

antoher memorable memory
would be the downfall of the singing teacher
not that i had anything particularly against her
she was trying to teach us to sing jay chou..
alright i guess.
cept the trouble?
her voice was damn annoying
i swear i have never disliked a voice so much
tho i guess i sympathise..
what with 40 people in a class
and of which majority of the people spent their time
either playing cards or talking
all the way for a 3 hour class
but cmon.. 3 hours worth of singing?
as if someone would bother paying attention..
unless you're like me and like singing..
but even i tuned out a bit..
sad to say.. but 3 hours
annoying voice and on top of that
no breaks is sorta a bit much to expect
so in the end she got so hurt
she just quit
to the strange joy of the class :P

participating in the tour
we also had a series of other classes
from that of :
- paper folding/cutting
- taiwanese
(that teacher was SO nice!!)
- hakka
- calligraphy
- kung-fu
- aerobics/yoga
- movie night
(lasted about 1 night coz
everyone fell asleep during the movie)
- field trip outta school grounds
and possibly some others but i cant remember anymore

memory-wise..
i just thought of the ALLEGED B-class teacher rivalry
where apparently the teacher of B-Class was so proud of her class
that the students of A-class swore that she was taking measures
to put our class down..
see, the tour was based on a points system
where later on.. awards were given
and also after a certain number of minus points
you'd appparently not graduate
and the conspiracy going around
was that she was learning
the names to the members of our class
so that she could put demerit points on us

tho the second rumour that went around
was that she wanted to change the ending to our play
that we had made for the end of tour concert
you see their class had theirs together
way before our class
and it was some time after the dress rehersal
on the day of the concert
that apparently she suggested that the ending to our play
was too sad and needed to be changed
and well changing a play script and rehersing it
one hour before the actual performance
which was all in chinese in the first place
sorta seemed impossible
ah well... rumors..

there were many other occurences
but i dont actually wanna voice any of those
related to the darker tone of the tour

some of the more memorable places for shopping tho:P
i swear the uni bookshop had EVERYTHING
funny.. i kept putting it back
and saying i'd shop for supplies before i left
didnt end up happening
but i swear it was stationary heaven
as quite a lotta places are in asian countries

a surprising thing as well
was that i managed to keep in contact with faye
faye was one of the uni students who helped us along
and im surprised we talk actually once in a while
so yeah im happy about that

atm i swear i miss the "family mart"
there still aint an equiv ive found in perth yet
tho if there were..
there's none near my place.. :(
not as convenient as
just racing someone *cough*K*cough* down stairs
lol a whole 8 levels worth of stairs
to get at the last onigiri in the fridge
or the last pocky
or even just to raid the new stock worth of onigiri
i swear.. the poor family mart dude went through a lot
whilst we were there..

speaking of the family mart
great memories are sorta implanted there
from the dares which related to him
just coz he was on the grave yard shift
to the LOVELY msn magnets you could collect!!
omg i swear.. kept going down hoping to spend enough
so i could do a lucky dip for those msn emoticon magnets
*drools* damnit i miss my daily/nightly onigiri and pocky fix

mm and atm im all thought out.. memory wise.
there were so many elements to making it the way it was
tho going on it again would possibly be a whole
nother different experience what with different people
and well would be harder to compare to this one
as ive seen the possibilities in this one
the expectations would be higher
but you guys are the best (yes you too scar) !! :)
probs coz im starting to get distracted by msn..
the stream before was longer coz no one was online
shall leave it at that..

*first time i got tipsy :P
of which i shall not divulge any details at all right here..

Seriously,
2005 was an amazing year of new travels
and oppotunities TAKEN actually taken
and well.. sorta slightly followed through
but you know..
its amazing
*screams*

thanx for the FANTABULOUS year..
that was 2 years ago..
well luv y'all always
*hugs*

-Del

Post # 400

YAY!!
funny.. i keep celebrating "nth" number of posts
or my dear bloggie's bday
but true its a big deal to me ok?!

it means that im slightly committed something enough
that its lasted so long and at the same time
wonder why the heck anyone reads :P

makes me feel loved i guess ^^

Work Antics

you know..
i thought i did this post.
but its no where in sight..
or i deleted it cos it was pointless
or that i couldnt see it

ah well
just strange occurences at work
and well for the past few weeks
i have really no memory of them
when it comes to work
it just happens..
goes by
and that was it
tho since ive decided im gonna get this post done tonight
might as well
despite the fact i didnt have work today

just gotta relive and sift through
the last few days/weeks of my life
to see if there was anything of particular
strangeness or rant-worthy

Story One: Del a Mother!?
Out at the resto
sitting around since i had finished work
but was too lazy to get home
so decided to sit around at the resto.
one of the staff who works nearly every day
brought her kid down coz there was noone to care for him
so he was running amock
so i decided to just like watch over him and such

the resto started to get more and more busy
and having him runn around the dining area
wasnt exacrty that good
what with him actually running around half naked..
yep he was not wearing his shirt coz he refused to wear it :S

got wilder and wilder
and then he took one of the teatowels
ran outside with it and started spinning it around
having enough i went outside to fetch him
and everyone was giving me these really weird looks and glares..
i was thinking "what the hell..?"

anyways..
night goes on
and then one of the guys at the tables decides to pay
i walked past whilst he was paying and he said:
"excuse me, just wondering was that your son?"
O.o
the guy who asked was somewhere in what?
his middle ages to elderly
-.-
MY FREAKING SON?
im not THAT old gosh.. -.-

worst on worst?
yeah possibility.. cept for the fact
that the kid wasnt what? 1or 2 or 3 or 4 years old
the kid was EIGHT years old..
that woulda been me being bout what? TEN when i had him
gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ><

and oh by now probs lots of people have heard this story
so yep.. that was the full complaint over and done with
outta my system at last :)

Story Two: Del on the radio!?!?
End of work.. had to run some last min errands
(hmm why is it at the end of the day things happen?)
probs coz i start waking up at the end of the shift..

anyways
walk to the resto to get a drink
just bout to leave then some customer waves me over

customer: hey you're _____________'s daughter right?
me: um. yeah
customer: Congrats on getting into med!!
customer: I heard you got a pretty good TER
me: :S um sorry but no, i didn't get into med
customer: but you're ____________'s daughter yes?
me: yes. I am.
customer: but then you're TEE would have been really good then?
me: no, it was just average
customer: oh sorry then, so what did you get in?
me: health science
customer: oh really? what does that go to?
me: health realated job?
customer: i'm sure you did really well, after all we heard you did well on the radio
me: Radio?! O.o
customer: yes
me: um. I think you've got some sort of mistake
customer: no that's we heard you really are ____________'s daughter right?
if yes then that's you, and you did well
we heard [insert name of some radio broadcaster ive never heard of]say it on the radio
me: ... ok i gotta go finish of a job.. enjoy dinnner :)

strange i tell you..
tho later on found out from mum
that dad knows some radio broadcaster...
-.-
that would explain alot now that i found out but ok...

Story Three: Um.. no longer existant
cant think of any more stories to add
sorta forgotten a lotta events by now
so yeah
end and publish of post :)
*hugs*
-Del

I Don't Care....

You know?
at the moment? the things i've been thinking about?
i just wonder if i really do care with what's going on?
people say this or that
and then i end up thinking about em later on
i wonder if yeah it actually got to me?
or just the fact that well there's nothing better to do
but sit/stand there and think
about the day/week's worth of conversations and happenings
yep. sometimes i dont have enough conversations to surfice
so end up thinking about the week

in doing that i sorta sort through the rest of my mind
and yet sometimes it just feels as if im going over the same thing
all over again
thinking about well maybe has this come up before?
or just a passing comment someone else had made
but at the same time that the similar comment come up
could it be true?

should i publish this anyways?
dunno..
thinking thinking
more of mind just blanked over msn and forgot bout this huh?

but thinking about whether or not i care bout things
i think back to the days
when i just say i dont care bout things
just the things that go around
would i just be running away from something?
or just the fact that well i basically DIDN'T care
and that was the end of the story
i guess with the changes taht go around for everyone
its just that your thoughts just change
what you didn't care for before
may become something so much more later on

or...
it was just a case of laziness
that i couldnt be bothered
with caring enough to do anything about some things
lol talk about me being vague??

bleh
topic atm = pointless
i lost my point
and i dont have a view anymores at the current moment
so end it here
nite nite
*hugs*

Worlds of Existence

Note: this post is a result of a number
of scattered different writing times
therefore the reference of "world of existence"
or sphere or whatever it is
manages to vary on what it represents
or means and such
so if you dont understand its ok..
coz i havent read this thing from top to bottom before
so i dont even know if it makes sense :)
and also that its something i've thought quite alot bout lately
so really makes it into a multilevel thing possibly?
ah well read however you like if you dare to read
or waste your time :)

Hmm..
and yet again i think i've gained
ANOTHER few multitudes
of draft posts
no i dont write em for just noting.
just that what happens is i never fully get over
finishing what i wanted to say in the first place
it just gets stuck under "drafts"
so yep

and well what with work
you suddenly realise.. why the heck
does there seem to be so much time during work?
and none at home?
ah well i did wanna get outta the house
im not getting paid and that really leads to
me just standing around and doing minimal crap
from reading newspapers to mags
to spending my time cutting up cigarette cartons
so that we recycle the cardboard for pricing of fruit n veges.

you know
thinking over and over
there's this same topic i keep wanting to talk bout
but it spans over so many things
but i think i've finally sorta found a title
to encompass it all..
so that's pretty good
just gotta get it down in words and finished too..

its just that there was once a quote i got
before year 8 from the lady at ALW

Whether you think you can,
whether you think you can't,
You're RIGHT!

the idea of believing in yourself
that if you think that its possible for yourself
anything is within reach
but live the life of a pessimist
nothing may happen
even if its in your wildest dreams
its not attainable

but in the idea of belief and your own thoughts
it turned my thoughts to different people
the fact that whether you believe you ARE right
you think you're right
what you WANT to believe is presented before you
you're most likely to believe it
that you believe it because that's what you want to believe

the supporting evidence whatever it maybe
whether or not is true or not
you'll take it as solid evidence
because it gives you a reason to believe
and what person likes to be wrong?
that what they want to think
could be possibly outside of their own ideals
of their "sphere of existence"

guess that's how misunderstandings
and well arguments arise really
the fact that both people's
lil sphere's of belief clash
the supposed supremecy over the other
that each believe they in their own right
are well..
yeah can say im also a victim of that too :P

what exists around you
you believe right?
you're more aware of what happens to you
you care bout what happens to you
you're blinded by what you know
coz you believe that the world that revolves around you
is the only one that exists?
after all that's what's the most important
in everyone's own interest
your own survival, or the survival of your own
you care for what's around you
its what's the main thing that happens in your life
your world, your small scale existence..
the greatest things that change even if to others
that its on such a small scale
the change in itself can rock your world

and when you just feel as if you wanna let it out
or just wanna share your thoughts
but no matter how you express it
the exact same occrences within one world
just wont equate to the same thing in the next
they say that the whole transcention of expression
through music and such but the degree of
the emotions actually felt through
the actual experience
its seomthing taht everyone knows
from the single slight of
"my parents dont understand what its like"
to the emo ideal of
"you dont know what its like to be me"
you can try to explain
you can bitch
you can write it down
do wahtever you like
but its not the same
what ever happened in the last second of your world
is irretrievable
what you choose to do with the time lost is up to you

but no matter what you do to try to understand
from the hearing point of view
you'll never actually get the exact same sensation
you can sympathise
and have had a similar occurence
but for every single person it'll be different
the different series of events in your lil lifeline
means that you'd be more prepared for somethings
than other things
what you've been exposed to in your own world
shapes your thoughts on things
and from a slight bump of worlds
i just spend my time wondering how the heck
that some people mindlessly doing what they do
and spend my time wondering..
where the hell has the concern for others gone?
or more of the world that we live in
and the fact we face a water shortage
(the lady had it on highest the tap would go
and just stood there whilst the water ran down the sink
whilst she spent her time ripping up bits of paper towel
the reason to later be that she wanted to dry her hands
with ripped up bits of paper towel and to turn it off
using those bits of paper towel..
but she coulda ripped it up and put it on the dry bits of the sink
BEFORE HAND of which yes there WERE dry bits of sink)

funny this
my very very very main point of this
was the very point that wasnt included so far
i guess for me
what it was was a recount of an occurence
which for me was something that i found pretty much
an ignorant comment on the commentator
but still soemthign that i found pretty damn offending
i guess when you dont realise what you're saying
and dont take into the fact that there are situations
surrounding everyone
the baggage of their lil bubble world which they carry
everywhere they go with them
the mental baggage that affects what they do and think
and when the extra stress of the passing of a loved one
that's something that well
its soemthing that you cant really in a passing comment
joke about the reactions of someone to the loss
its something you cant compare
what with different relations between different people
i understood the reasoning behind the comment
for the usual sakes of comfort
in the dealing of grief
but when you first meet someone
should that really be the thing really said from the start?
and something to joke about?
the reactions of any single person to pain??
so really these days
i wonder where the compassion has gone in some

nite..
*hugs*