Altruism...?

so.. yep
altruism is sorta i guess a warm-ish topic? :P
mm well listened to about it in phil
as of late
well sometime earlier this week
i think it was mon..
i just cant figure anymore
but yeah

thoughts that came to me?
i guess come to me when im in a huff..
annoyed at something or the other
and well for once..
you know today?
strange.. it was triggered by rain..
mm yeah well getting caught in the rain
can be an agitative thing

anyways
after a double phil session
(yep lecture n tute)
followed by trekking through the rain
in an attempt to meet up AH
since he called TWICE during my phil tute
after my phone battery died
i decided to walk through one of the walkways
in search of cover from the drizzle
and in my grizzly mood
(hmm grizzle n drizzle?
looks like im just replacing consanants
for my vocab these days -.-)

in the midst of my walking
i sorta realised strangely
i was sorta walking against the general walking direction
like what the?
its 5pm and people are walking TOWARDS the uni?
OR.. i just cant remember properly
anyways

i still yet to manage to notice the 3 people standing there
and as one was wearing theose graduation robes
sorta staring at the crowd as they trekked past
then looking at them
the assumption that came to my mind
was that they'd need a photo taken
walking over i meekly asked if they needed a picture taken
took it and returned their camera
tho they asked if i wanted to take a picture with their daughter
:S
anyways
was off on my merry way
when i started wondering...
i had a sore arm..
sore leg
entirely tired
weighed down by the load of books
phone dead
slightly rained on
and in a hurry to meet someone up

WHY THE HECK DID I STOP TO TAKE A PIC FOR SOMEONE?!

hmm probs not in an angered insane tone of voice
but thinking about it..
what made me in my annoyed state
bother to even care enough to take it for em?

so walking through an underpass
i began to think about the existence of altruism
gees.. you'd think after 2 hours worth of listening
i'd be sick of phil?
well truly not..
mainly coz i didnt contribute at all
coz i had no interest in darwinianism
i still have little interest in darwinianism
we are what we are.. next topic

tho the altruism on the other hand
it interests me
well possibly coz it conincides
with the whole charity recognition deal
but other than the fact you feel good
after doing something that helps people?
why would you do something nice?
and would anyone just do anything for the sake of feeling good
isnt that in itself a benefit?
why do we then not really like doing chores?
i for one HATE the dishes
im thinking we do it coz we'd like it
if someone did the same for us when we need help
but not everyone may tick that way

i like it..
the feeling of helping someone
but then i just realised that
how do you know you actually in the end helped?
or was it just an impulse pang of guilt or pity
that in the sight of someone in need
that you feel obligated to do somethign
so in the end its just the self-interest
of removing the pang
YOU feel better for doing something
but just that it may not help at all

or is it for the fact that
it raises your own self confidence
that you in yourself have the power and ability
to DO something
it raises you up.
makes gives you a notch of superiority
a confidence boost even
that you helped a "weaker" person
or a person in need of a hand
if its confidence boost then yeah
i'd say it'd explain why i enjoy it so much
its something for those who lack the confidence
the reassurance
that yep they did something supposedly right for once
they didnt stuff up
they didnt trip up
they didnt embarress themselves
it was right
or to the degree of their belief they did something right

anyways
i shall leave it at that thought
im actually sleepy
like near falling asleep at the keyboard
nite nite
*hugs*