Email Forward : How old is Grandma ?

i really should be posting bout ball
it was fun and all
but cbb atm..
maybe next week ill do a summary with pix...
since i can load atm..

but here's an email forward i got..
interesting..
tho not sure bout the accuracy in age...
since it being an email..
and well times change
so not known the number of yrs to add on to the age of the email
and the answer
but ah well

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How old is Grandma?
Stay with this the answer is at the end it will blow you
away.

One evening a grandson was talking to his grandmother about
current events.
The grandson asked his grandmother what she thought about the
shootings at schools, the computer age, and just things in general.

The Grandma replied, "Well, let me think a minute, I was born
before:

*television
*penicillin
*polio shots
*frozen foods
*Xerox
*contact lenses
*Frisbees
*the pill.

There was no:
*radar
*credit cards
*laser beams
*ball-point pens

Man had not invented:
*pantyhose
*air conditioners
*dishwashers
*clothes dryers and the clothes were
hung out to dry in the fresh air
*and man hadn't yet walked on the moon.

*Your Grandfather and I got married first-and then lived
together.
*Every family had a father and a mother.
*Until I was 25, I called every man older than I, 'Sir'- and
after I turned 25, I still called policemen
and every man with a title, 'Sir.'
*We were before gay-rights, computer- dating, dual careers,
daycare centers,and group therapy.
*Our lives were governed by the Ten Commandments,
good judgment, and common sense.
*We were taught to know the difference between right and wrong
and to stand up and take responsibility for our actions.
*Serving your country was a privilege
*living in this country was a bigger privilege.
*We thought fast food was what people ate during Lent.
*Having a meaningful relationship meant
getting along with your cousins.
*Draft dodgers were people who closed their
front doors when the evening breeze started.
*Time-sharing meant time the family spent together in the
evenings and weekends-not purchasing condominiums.
*We never heard of FM radios, tape decks, CDs, electric
typewriters, yoghurt, or guys wearing earrings.
*We listened to the Big Bands, Jack Benny, and the President's
speeches on our radios.
*And I don't ever remember any kid blowing his brains out
listening to Tommy Dorsey.
*If you saw anything with 'Made in Japan ' on it, it was junk.
*The term 'making out' referred to
how you did on your school exam.
*Pizza Hut, McDonald's, and instant coffee were unheard of.
*We had 5 &10-cent stores where you
could actually buy things for 5 and 10 cents.
*Ice-cream cones, phone calls, rides on a streetcar, and a Pepsi
were all a nickel.
*And if you didn't want to splurge, you could spend your nickel
on enough stamps to mail 1 letter and 2 postcards.
*You could buy a new Chevy Coupe for $600
but who could afford one?
*Too bad, because gas was 11 cents a gallon.

In my day:
*"grass" was mowed
*"coke" was a cold drink
*"pot" was something your mother cooked in and
*"rock music" was your grandmother's lullaby.
*"Aids" were helpers in the Principal's office
*"chip" meant a piece of wood,
*"hardware" was found in a hardware store and
*"software" wasn't even a word.

*And we were the last generation to actually believe that a lady
needed a husband to have a baby. No wonder people call us "old and
confused" and say there is a generation gap...
and how old do you think I am?

I bet you have this old lady in mind...you are in for a shock!

pretty scary if you think about it and pretty sad at the
same time.

This Woman would be only 58 years old!

hope you enjoyed
nite
*hugz*

PISS OFF!!!

ok..
this is totally not directed in anyone in general
but i really wanna vent this off..
well actually it is directed at someone..
just an msn contact...
who most likely doesnt read..

FUCKING HELL..
don't you get the fact that i DELETED AND BLOCKED YOU..
i DON'T wanna TALK TO YOU..
i HAVENT spoken to you AT ALL
for like nearing TWO or THREE YEARS..
and yet you add me all over AGAIN
with a DIFF EMAIL
and just say how "offended" you are that i blocked you
and you found out..
whoppiee..
fine i apologised..
and since that conversation..
where i went on a total guilt trip over blocking you...
i havent talked to you in weeks nearing months..
even tho u and i are online all the time...

dont you get the point?
i STILL dont wanna talk to you..
GO AWAY..

dont you get it?
you talk to me
and i choose not to answer the questions
and i truthfully did say that i did not wanna tell you stuff
so seriously stop asking q
i dont want anything to do with you

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ok ok
much much better
i'd like to type a full post
on actual opinions..
but since my parents are home
nite nite
*hugz*

Disgusted . . .

over and over again..
why oh why do i even find shock in it?
i mean HOW MESSED UP CAN SOME PPL GET..

ok there are really sickening ppl in the world..
but some deeds just get WAY to sickening
well ok fine SOME deeds my have a reason behind em
and you have to look at the circumstances
and both sides of the story
but sometimes just the side that is reported
just feels like its enough heard to really convict ppl
or just label them for the monster they could be OR are..

and yes..
from the single sided view of media..
watched the news this evening..
first time ever! well not really...
but first time in a long time..

anyways..
there was this story in the latter part of the news..
so not really one of those major headline things..
but still sickening...
some CARETAKER of a nursing home for the elderly
RAPED yes RAPED (ok being raped is sorta normal is

kk brb...
gotta go watch the odessy
finish later ============

and yes..
i have to get this done..
other wise yet another procrastinated post is added on to the list..
back to the news story..

Caretaker of elderly nursing home + RAPED + ...
several ELDERLY GRANDMAS!! some with a deteriorating mind =

the thought is just sickening..
over a bloody TWO month span this whole thing kept occuring
and guess what?
the elderly ladies were aged 90+
that is just plain FOUL
sexual assault towards these citizens
whom really should be receiving care and respect..
put in a nursing home..
where they're own family would be trustingly believing
their parents were in great hands..
maybe of prof staff?
and this kinda thing happens..

well thats my view...
after the presentation from the media..
but like.. if i saw other reasons..
i may side with the dude..
but really from what i see?
THERE should be ABSOLUTELY NO sympathy for him..
there are no possible reasons i can think of
for these kinds of acts..

being judgemental really..
i dunno whats up..
im actually expressing opinions more often..
or that i just noticed that i DO express my opinion quite a lot..
:S

anyways..
im just guilty over judging some ppl..
and actually either thinking it up..
or actually saying it..
but still
what they CHOOSE to do is their CHOICE..
they will always be bound to judgement FOR their choice
coz if one person doesnt express..
another will surely..

i mean how many ppl observe how many acts?
some go unseen..
some uncommented..
but still
acts will be judged..
and the fact that once observed..
the observer will form a judgement
and views of a person can change so easily
the way that ppl react..

to something new..
to something that may totally
bring down the ideals of a person..
a person's world can just collapse..
but what they choose to do after that..
how they deal can be something admired..
or something that is observed by another in total disgust..

god..
im generalising so much
but this is really my life recently
a whole series of events..
one linked to another in some way
just everything linked
spiralling around...
swirling around in my mind..
whether the action occured near me..
or i heard it second hand..
third hand even..

and what of rumours?
dont we all love them?
god im subject hopping a lot..
no wonder my lit essay had no structure -.-"

ugh well
at least something to talk bout..
or im just rushing
the need to get this done..
i have no idea personally
but somethings just have to be expressed..
sometimes often..
sometimes not at all..
but sooner or later..
what's boiled up inside..
may explode..
and what as seen as calm and collect..
may just be another savage life changing crisis...

and what of our lives?
how some simple single acts..
in a few seconds.. minuets..
hours...
our life takes another sharp turn...
everything which you worked for...
can just totally tumble..
and all those aims..
beautiful dreams and endless skies..
what of them?
nothing but dreams in the end..
when shattered..
the bits of glass..
of which we were looking through.
our lovely vision
gone.. floats away..
out of our grasp
out of our reach..
no longer part..
no longer touchable...

*sigh*
train of thought just derailed..
:(
just went and talked..
and gone now
*sigh*

my dear muse..
where art thou?
and no im not suggesting any particular person..
just a something to say to get me typing again.

and yay it worked :D

...
..
.

or not..
-.-"

*sigh*
or maybe this should be long enough...
for those who've read this far..
congrats:D

wd with the endurance of reading..
or just skimming..

kk
g2g
nite nite
*hugz*

Need to Vent - - -

OK..
long time no postie..
and i really need to talk
well its not like i dont have anyone to talk to
but then again..
im wasting too much time online anyways
mainly on msn..

Oh i LOVE the new access system for the school :D
i mean you can now access ure school drives !!!
i mean HOW COOL?
haha no need to use the comps at school
to get stuff from the S drive and H drive

what's happend last few weeks?
time's drifted by
mainly coz it disappears on msn
but :S
since we've gotten back
we havent done anything together yet
but totally understandable with the whole "study"
but :S

but but buts
its all i ever say -.-"

Ball's coming up
and the places which are manifested with yr 12s
are alive with ball buzz..
ALL ball talk EVERYWHERE
i mean its exciting and all
and even i talk bout it
but when i get home..
everything just dies down
nothing...
jus sudden HUSH...

but then again
go online
and talk to scar bout ball talk if she's on
or just talk to taiwan ppl
:D

a GREAT thanx to all who sent me a bday msg
MUCH appreicated :D

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at least four days later...
yes.. that was day after my bday...
and i felt liek the post was bit incomplete
but i cant remember what i wnated to write anymores
*sigh*

first few assessments for the yr have started..
and once again...
really fallen back into old habits...
not good
><
so im gonna see if i can do a whole time managment thing..
yes ive done so many..
and they never work
and obviously i started one at the start of this term
and well...
it lasted 2 days...
><

so ive got bout half an hour before im gonna go offline
and actually start this thing called "study"

my yr recap and new yrs resolution is still coming
more of on the list of procrastination..
but thats besides the point
ill do it when my pile of hw has diminished
hehe yay im using an extended vocab to my usual talk
or ramble.. whatever it is..

right now im on a total blank of what to say
tho my title is "need to vent"
due to the fact i did need to vent
but my dear bloggies been on a bit of a silence trip
since i havent actually published anything ive ritten

the ball thing is slowly creeping up..
well more of its at the door step
and i just have to make it to the door
and open the door
i just hope its gonna be fun..
after all that non-stressful stress..
if you know what i mean?

what's crappy?
im going white...
my sister keeps going thru my hair when she's bored
and pulls out white hairs..
they're all like half white half black
what's up with me?
either stress..
malnutrition
OR usual.. thinking TOO much

you know how we had those guest speakers..
like on mon..
and some other talks we had to listen into?
i think for something's its just SO true..
but then again that sorta is their job..
or they could just be great entertainers
and feed us a load-a crap..
whatever..

i just went thru the school email today
UMAT is july 26th?
and there's also that GAP thingy..
i think i wanna do it..
but then again..
im not sure..
ah well talk to parents bout it..
but i think they'll be all
"take UMAT and go to uni next yr"
ah well
would be good experience
and the GAP thing is still open to ppl aged 25
but ill still be studying med then if i get into med ><
*sigh*

i guess its just the whole future thing..
its jus so daunting
as well as the fact that all ive always experienced
so far in my life is day in day out of school
everything is school related
i cant see me working day in day out
and not having hw
and not seeing everyone..

on that note
my sister saw some of my primary school friends
at her youth group last fri..
so yea..
interesting..
mite get a lil catch up soon
tho this fri is sorta nite b4 ball
so not sure bout going this fri
maybe sometime later..

*sigh*
i still REALLY miss the ppl i met from taiwan..
for those reading and were in Taiwan..
I MISS YOU ALL!!!

its just not the same
not seeing everyone everyday
as much as there are the fotos..
the surroundings and ppl round are not the same
so even if i do see some other ppl
its not the same..

well..
there goes a whole 26 mins..
*sigh*
no wonder i get no hw done...
time keeps flying away
k im officially going to do my hw..

maybe post some time later
have a good arvo
*hugz*

-Del-

First Week of School... YR 12 !!!

Ok 4 days since school started
not much really that much to comment on
the week just passed by

on the first day it just was a bit weird
with the whole 12 uniform
I LOVE IT!!!
whilst my sister on the first day of yr 8
was like
Lina:they should make the whole school wear that
Del:but it's the yr 12 uniform
Lina:well then make the school wear that one
and the summer dress the yr 12 uniform
-.-"
i so wouldnt have it the other way!

anyways
the reason why it was weird with the 12 uniforms?
not that i was wearing it
but every time i walked into a classroom
seeing all these 12s,
i automatically thought i was still in 11
and was thinking "shit wrong classroom"
walked out
then walked back in a while later
thinking "oops.. i AM a 12"
-.-"

but sorta got used to it now
alotho still a lil abnormal

and so the week past
and it was good to see everyone again
but it seems like theres nearly not enough time to talk
to everyone
or its just me who wants to talk too much
or still used to having ppl to talk to 24/7 thats not my sister

ah well...
um yes to the main point of actually writing this post
was really just to say that i have a bday suggestion :P
for celebration of Dia and my bday..
well actually between me and my mum
and since its just a suggestion PLZ tell me any ideas
or maybe tell me if you wanna change time
coz the real reason for this is just that
i want to just have everyone together
and just spend some time together
it is our last yr and yes we do have heaps of work to do
so tell me if anything clashes with school work

bleh.. whatever..
ok... going weekend wise this is really our times available
Feb 11-12 - Boarder's Closed Weekend
Feb 18-19 - My Cousin's b'day thing and also Chorale Camp and Dia's B'day
Feb 25-26 - Ball and day after ball

Since that's really what's happening for the upcoming w/e
mum and i were thinking
have a sleep over after the ball
and then on the sunday after the ball go watch a movie and eat together
maybe like at sizzler's innaloo and watch memoirs of a geisha?
or any other movie suggestions?
anyways that would prob be the sunday
and getting ure stuff to my house
my mum offered to collect all the bags of clothing
and what other stuff you need
to sleep over after school fri so it'll all be there
at my house when we get there after the ball
and you'd have stuff to change in to etc.

any thoughts?
would like em soon..
esp if you wanna change the date of all this
and suggestions and stuff

well i g2g now
*hugz*

Back...

Yes i am back in Perth..
a whole 2 days ago
and well i was gonna post the day i was back
but i ended up not finishing and deleting the post as usual
yes i will postpone that yr recap/new yrs resolution/ taiwan tour recap
for later
coz im sorta bz atm with the whole organising new yr stuff
since mum isnt at home neither is lina
and my dad's busy working
and since ive been back my room is all a mess all over again
and really im only postin coz of that tagging game
which i have no idea how im gonna answer with.

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The rules/procedures are as follows:
The first player of this game starts with the topic
"five weird habits of yourself,"
and people who get tagged need to write an entry
about their five weird habits as well as state this rule clearly.
In the end, you need to choose the next five people to be tagged
and link to their web journals.
Don't forget to leave a comment in their blog or
journal that says "You are tagged"
(assuming they take comments)
and tell them to read yours.

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1. I have weired-ed mini monologues with myself when im alone

2. I have this mini obssession.. its kinda weird..
can sorta be classeds as obsessive compulsive or whatever
but like when i use cream like body lotion or whatever
if it comes in a tub.. or like those body shop lipglosses
that you get in those mini tub things
when i use it i try to make this like dip thing in the middle
like i try to make a funnel like shape and i HATE it wehn like
you get this random dip coz some one just stuck their finger in it

3. Not really a choice of mine but at times my sister and i are
dressed in clothing either similar in some way... or EXACTLY the SAME

4. Tend to be oblivious about the majority of the stuff
that occurs anywhere int eh vicinity of my life?

5. I tend to randomly want hugs or just hug people coz i feel like it..
(well couldnt be entirely random
or weird-ed but i cbb thinkin up something else)

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Five People:
*Kura
*K
*Bear Bear (Albert/Kevin)
*Dia
*Inge

(Lol. nearly everyone on that list has K in their name
well except dia.. soz.. but ure lil bro is Kevin :P)

well there DONE at LAST
next post..
i promise i'll write :P

RA!

Guys, guess what? (No, its not Christmas again you idiot) ADELLA'S BACK! Now we can i can crash all the parties she goes to!! SCORE!! Yay,

btw HAPPY AUSTRALIA DAY BABES!!!

I'm going to go to sleep now, bye ppls!

hail to delpoleness continued///

yo wassup y'all. ><
I'll start talking normally here. Anyhow I miss Adella like crazy man! (God knows what I'll do to her when I see her, lol =P)

And I await for the 24th......

(btw this was written by scarlet again if you didnt notice)

Last week

Well..
last time on the comps in the uni in taiwan
well unless i can be bothered to walk to the office tomorrow to use the comp
but highly unlikely

i cant believe the tour is over..
well not officially
since we have graduation tomoz
as well as the whole 3 day tour...
tho ronald wont be going since apparently
he's on like NEGATIVE points
lol
tho its sorta not surprising
at least he can go spend time with his relatives
do whatever he likes

god im so gonna miss everyone on this tour
:'(
waaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
well obviously there's the ppl who are from perth
but i see em every w/e practically
except for sam
unless ppl change school or decide not to go anymore

god...
the time given for comp class is like nothing
since like i never seem to be able to finish the posts
before i have to go..
lol it wont be amazing to most ppl
if they see me online everynight wehn i get back :P

i've made friends on this trip
and i know that we've got em on the contact list and all
but i highly doubt we'll keep that much in touch
since as usual ive done the thing
where i stay in a close circle of ppl
so turns out i dont really know that many ppl that well
>.<
*sigh*

Well overall despite the whole schooling
im so gonna miss everyone and all the fun we had
NOOOOOOOOOOOO
not fair
im having a mini graduation thingy
at the start of my last yr in highschool
NOOOOOOOOOO

OMG
its most likely our last yr together
WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
NO WAY

Scar...
HOW COULD YOU ? :P
you were meant to be flooding all you liked...
but oh well
oh btw.. have fun on ure WA science thingy
since i cant go :(
since ive got my 3 day graduation trip for the tour
ah well..
maybe we'll have time after that science thing
to go out..
did we go out before i left?
i dont think so..

hmm... should i get my hair done? :P
nah my parents will kill me
and if it looks bad ill be stuck with it for the ball ><
i still cant get over the fact im in yr 12
aggghhhh

welll g2g
mite write up a full detailed recap
as well as new yrs and last yrs recap when i get back
nite nite
*hugz*

Hail to delpole'ness

Dear Adella,

It pains me very dearly at heart to realise that I have been neglecting my duty of flooding your respectable weblog! Please forgive me, my dearest! Although I shan't flood your weblog, I shall continue to cherish your dear presence when you return from wagga-wagga.

Yours sincerely,


Secretary/Treasurer of the Delpole'ness club
SCARLET NG

week 5

times flown by
test tomorrow >.<
but at least the teacher gave me an easier text
in comparison to doing the test on the whole course
since im in the lower part of A class

im sick >.<
it was an upper respiratory tract infection ><
well according to to the doctor
at this clinic outside the uni
since apparently the doctors in the uni suck
coz apparently all they give you is sleeping pills

g2g
nite nite
*hugz*

week 3 and new yr.. another start

well answering qs first
off the tagboard
since i cbb to tag so many times

gar...
scenery in taiwan
havent really seen that much of it
since i spend most of the time in the uni
and also there is the whole i cbb
to look out the window
in the bus when we go out
since they play movies in the bus
so im just watching them or talking

scar
dun miss speaking canto or eng
since i spend most of my time out of class
speaking canto and eng
since heaps of ppl speak..

yep it was those things which you write your wishes on
so pretty
coz we spent time putting them together
and all..

happy belated xmas everyone
and happy new yr..

i had actually typed up a post before
on tues during computer class
but the post was lost since some1 turned off my comp
so im in the office now typin up

there is never anyone online >.<
well on tues nights that is
and mona.. ure off watching tv :(

so how's everyone?

for xmas..
had an xmas party down here
nothing much..
majority of the ppl were from our tour
and the rest were some random uni students
we had this whole thing where they had ppl teach us to dance
and we got partners by just drawing outta a bag of balloons

the dude i got was some uni student
who was half taiwanese half american
who later on that nite confessed his love for his gf
it was so cute..
like he had this dog with balloons tied on its back

neways

g2g now
since goin to taipei 101 for new yr's eve
nite
*hugz*

lost count of days.. but week 2..

hey..
computer class again
and really nothin much happening cept class
went to some small town on sun
and the rest of the other time i can barely remember
ive been to the small night market nearby...

umm
got bout 4 and half weeks to go..
just cant believe its only been 1 week..
since like ive said its like ive been here for ages

seriously nothing to talk bout..

oh for those who want my number atm
its 0917388954
well thats what it is over here
not sure of its what it really is calling from home..

um..
talkin bout sunday
it was sorta like an excursion
went to a village where we learnt bout its train history
visited a mine/museum thing
looked at some of the scenery
and also launched sky lantern things
like they were mini hot air balloons
but like you write ure wishes on them
and they get sent up...
sorta like wishing on a shooting star

um...
sorta tired these days
well more of the lethargic..
how's everyone doing?
gar.. have fun in nz..
dia in brisbane ? :S
and mona and scar in perth..

ive spent 1 and half hours here
NOTHING to do
you'd think with the reduction
in usage of computers i'd be desparate bout using it
ah well
maybe just not really anyone to talk to

ugh...
so annoying
nothing to talk bout
blah blah
wlkaefwaoe;iawh4tfo;aw4ehweairhgWEA4g

ever bored of my blog?
YESS..
just so repetitive..

hmmm
ne wais
bye
nite nite
*hugz*

Day 3

another day past..
learnt how to play mahjong :P
so far havent really learnt much in the ways useful
ah well..

had the opening ceremony
and also had the intros..
well the official ones
so actually had to stand up and speak
*shrudders*
dun wanna go thru that again
i still really hate public speaking
but then again who doesnt?

Seems like ive been here for ages
but then again
its only the 3rd day
and i dunno
just the whole routine thing
i dunno
maybe i just like routine
everything just takes so long
and like bleh

i dunno i feel like saying something
but it always feels like theres some1
behind me watching..
liek it jus feels so unnatural

i got into the top class btw
Class A :P
go me..

there is like no one online
and i have another hour here
unless i ask for permission to go back to the dorms
but theres nothing to do back there
i wanna play sports
but the gym etc is all taken up by the uni students
some ppl are out playin bball atm
but like id rather not join

me and my room mates were in this class earliest
and since everyone arrived
its just gotten so busy and loud
its just weird
im prob just used to having the whole area to myself

dun really have much to talk bout
the temp round here is ok
cold but not freezing as ppl said it would be
i wonder how my bro is doing in class?
ah well maybe i worry too much

theres such a range in ages of ppl here
i dunno
like theres the youngest as i think is 14
even goes 21+
well i think thats it..

yesterday we had aerobics and yoga
but it was sorta weird since it was in chinese
ah well
same pain tho..
so no difference there
havent really heard from anyone
other than mona who's online every night

ne ways
g2g
nite nite
*hugz*

Hi from taiwan - Day 2

well im in taiwan now obviously
just a quick note to say hi
if you wanna talk..
i'm online every tue night
or at least i should be..

the flight was ok..
nothing really special
but my expectations were
sorta to be like the school boarding house
it's sorta round bout similar
but sorta like below my expectation
i dunno its like..
well main thing is
they dont have irons..
and i dunno
im sorta used to having and iron to use
so it'll just end up being sorta like
either drying the clothes by hang drying
to avoid creases
or spin dry and wear them creased

i dunno
maybe ive just made a
huge deal outta this no iron thing
majority of things is alright
i just had my placement test
and well there will only be 2 classes
which sorta makes it obvious which one ill be in
since ppl either cant speak/understand/read/write/chinese
OR...
they can

umm...
some ppl are just too loud
and the rest are pretty nice
of the food i dun really know since ive only had dinner
i sorta g2g now
nite nite
*hugz*

G'day

G'day folks, I do believe you all recognise who I am. I am the legendary Scarlet wahahahahah. As you all know, Adella is flying to wagga-wagga (aka Taiwan) at precisely 1am; 13 December 05 , and she shall be away from us for a dreary six weeks.

Wahahahahahaha I am the king of delpole's blog!!

fare thee well :D

well goin tomorrow nite..
wishin everyone a happy hols if i dun blog again
and well
maybe scar mite blog..
since she asked to..
and well i sent her an invite..
so might hear from her..

btw scar..
if you do..
plz dont change any of the previous posts..
since i dun get how this add members thing works :S
*hugz*

4 days left...

well 4 days till taiwan
and im not ready
theres so much to do
and such little time
but i really cant be stuffed
i feel all lethargic and stuff..

hmm..
funny eh?
my dad these days is like
"dw as long as you get in UWA"
like trying to lower the pressure and all
but tehn again
he jus gave me this thing a few days ago.
its like a CD for the comp..
and its..
"interactive medical encyclopedia"
hmm..
doesnt matter what course eh?
on the up.
it'll help me for h bio next yr

my sister's graduated yr 7
yr 8 next yr..
scary huh?
i seriously cant imagine seeing her so much
well actually i noe how its like
i mean being in same primary and all
but i think i forgot what its like
and now?
have to adapt all over again
well not that i dun see her at lunch once in a while
but bleh

last few days ive really been on the whole
"emotional rollercoaster"
i mean seriously
ive had HUGE moodswings
esp yesterday
i think i managed to go from happy to crying
and being pissed off
in like 2 mins
and it happened so much

i seriously have NEVER had such huge
difference in emotions
a mean i may be pissed off all day
or jus be happy
but not like huge changes
that happen so frequently
ah well

anyways
thats the update for now
byes..
if i have time
ill try update as much as possible
in taiwan
*hugz*

counsel..

hmm whenever there isnt much to talk bout
and i feel like blogging
its always so hard to start
but there i go
ive started
now i can start going off on my random tangents of nothing-ness

went to ah-gong's house today
for phoebe's full month
well she's now officially 1 month old
doesnt feel like a month ago when i found out
i had another baby cousin
but then again
trying to actualli remember the morning i found out
seems like 2 yrs ago or something
:S

nm much happend
coz we sorta came late as usual...

things were as usual..
all the kids in the living room
whilst the adults were practically shouting at each other
in the kitchen/dining room
and well there was the whole
"you should study *insert uni course* it'll be a good job"
OR
"you should become a *insert some high paying job*"
-.-"
im still worrying bout my subject choices
not bout my future career..
well ok my subject choices should be
directed at some part of my career
but not at a family gathering >.<



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EXAMS has fini
YAY

but now im still stuck with 2 days off..
which im glad of..
and i wanna go out
but i noe its not likely tomorrow
bleh there goes one day

you know..
its realy stressing sometimes
you feel like discussing things
but then again finding the right person
for talkin bout each topic i feel like talkin bout
its jus so annoying
you wanna talk bout something
but then again you want em to understand
some1 who has the similar thing
like if they dont understand
you mite as well be talking to a bloody brick wall
or how bout..
even a bloody pet?

its weird
when your life is divided into all these little worlds
of your own..
little worlds which you are a part of
but then again not every1 you know is in
life would be easy if all of them were a lil connected
but anything stuffs up
and all of htem collapse
but in disconnection
anything happesn to one
you can seek resort in another
hiding may not be the answer
but in the time it takes to heal
somteimes its worth the avoidance

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not in mood for talking..
tho all i can say..
is i duno i just feel so empty
and hollow

nite nite
*hugz*

Wishes...

Well..
as of a few posts ago..
cant remember how long..
but if not
ppl or should of heard me
talkin bout wanting an older brother..

and well in relation to my msn nick atm
[Wishes can come true :P]
well i sorta did get an older brother today :P

its my grandpa's sister's grandson..
so sorta my cous but not exactly
and he's older than me.. by like 1 yr :D
so im happy now :D
it'll sorta be the closest
i can get to havin an older bro i think
and he seems pretty nice
but he dont speak eng
or canto >.<
so the catch is sorta the language barrier
i have to actually use my mando
and he speaks teo chew fluently
and i only understand a few words
of which i can only say
like some swear thing :S

hmm
i love my cousins so much
i guess i am in quite a close knit family thing
but its HUGE
ah well im lucky then :D
VERY lucky that is

you know i was contemplating the other day
like you know how some ppl say
happiness is sorta inversely proportional
to the amount of wealth you have
and i think
its like
ok first thing would be for the hard working ppl
theres the whole no time
coz ure busy trying to get money
and then also
with the next generation
wouldnt that mean
that if spoilt by parents
with all materialistic things they need
its like they always have this wealth to fall back on
therefore they dont really have to worry bout
whether or not they're gonna fail in life
coz it seems like therez always something there
the back up which makes us secure
and would mean that we would put less effort in
in comparison to those who strive to rise out of what they are
to reach something
the goal to attain something that is like hard to attain
means you have to work hard and put heaps of effort in
and if attained it seems more valuable
than if soemthing you gain is simple
like its given
you think it less worthy once you have it

like having a trophy would mean more if
you had worked so hard and competed and actually won it
in comparison to jus buying it from some shop
to be tailor made for you
or like just rigging it so you will win
like through cheating or soemthing
the trophy wouldnt be as valuble in ure own eyes
since it is something that has no memory of hardship behind it

so like
if you have more wealth..
then as a child of parents whom worked hard for the money
and then if the child is love by the parents heaps
and spoilt as much as possible
then if they want something esp materialistic
then they get it..
what would the child learn from that?
they wouldnt do any thing
dont work hard at all
and still get what they want
and then in the end get nowhere
hmm why does this sorta slightly say bout my family?
:P
anyways
like soon the child is gonna be bored
and not interested with material things
there really isnt that much in them
since they prob have something the same
(unless they're totally gullible towards the media and marketing stuff)
and wont need it
what they still turn to
or want would still be simplistic
love, caring, friendship..
just simple things which everyone can enjoy
no matter what context
(yay i used the word "context")
or maybe not.
since there's still some stuff in some countries
that might not be as ideal as everything i see
in the whole slight eurocentric views
:S

which would that be one of the slight downfalls
in each of the dynasties in china?
ok totally offtopic
but like they always fell after some generations
i guess you could say that its just one of the possible factors
like the princes would always have easy
apparently
jus making TOTAL assumptions here
(since im prob out when it comes to asian history)
and then when the duty of actually ruling came
they became so selfcentred and pleasure seeking
since nothing materialistic could seem to satisfy them?
like they would have seen silk all their life
and gold and other what not
so in finding things that would amuse them
they would start to neglect the state
and sooner or later they brought the state down
by the simple neglect and ruling coz ppl
just up-rose and took over..
or won battles and stuff..
:s

you know
i think i would possibly like debating
if i didnt hate public speaking so much
and not the whole possibility of arguing
bout something that is against ure personal belief
like i actually expressed something today
and it felt good

maybe i just love the feeling of feeling smart :P
not that i am is the thing
but who doesnt enjoy feeling superior in comparison to the inferior
but then again with superiority
always comes with some form of responsibility
or expectations of something
UGH

ah well
life aint perfect
but sometimes things do happen

few weeks till taiwan
it just seems so unrealistic
and hopefully ill update as much as possible
tho i doubt it
since i recently realised
we're living in a uni IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE
well not exactly nowhere
but its like rural
>.< which lowers the chances of having net cafe
(apparently)

hmm what else to talk bout?
actually
gonna sleep
have family foto day tomoz.. (my dad's side)
its also pheobe's full month thing :P
that is she's 1 month old now
so nite
*hugz*

Love <3

You know..
ive just realised something else?
i rarely love much..
well ok i LOVE music
and i do LOVE someother things..
or at least i hope i do..

but love is something i dont really express much
like i love my sister and i love my parents
but its seriously something i dont vocalise
fine.
so you dont have to vocalise everything
but then again think of all the tragedies happening today
or at least all the tragedies fed to us by the media
think bout the bombings and stuff
if some1 you loved died..
would you feel bad for not letting them know you loved them
for one last time when you last saw them?
or jus worried the fact that the ppl you love
have suddenly left your lives??

and i noticed
well that is recently
i dont use the word "love" much..
or do i?
(meh something to talk bout in these exam times)

like im fine with saying love
in mando..
i say to my parents
i love them everynite in mando before i go to bed
but i just..
i dont say love in canto.. :S
and i dont say love in english either
like well the fact that the main person
who i can say i love you to in english is my sister
could be a main factor
but it feels weird to say i love somebody
in canto or english
fine i can type out "love"
but then again its something that i dont generally
think about or even discuss..
hmm maybe a few times but hey..
still not a word i use daily
(well if i do..
i dunno maybe i say it unconsciously..
as in without realising it..
not as in i say it whilst im unconsious)

ah well
that was a random ranmble..
for no particluar reason
but i feel like talkin these days
:D
maybe its the fact that the only ppl i talk to
are to ppl i see just like 30 mins before exams each day
followed by 3 hours of silence
then going home
in which the process
im struck quiet since my mum's listening
to her viet news radio in the car
(AND at home)
and drops me off
im home alone
and the only possible source of talk
would be via msn
which btw ppl dont forget my fone fear..
i HATE fones
anyways
besides the point
THERE IS NO ONE TO TALK TO
my sister comes home
and she closes the door to her room
and tells me to get out wen im in there
plus the fact that both my parents and my sister
now have a reason to be asking me why im talking to them
(why aren't you studying at the current moment?
you should be studying not wasting ure time talking to us)

hmm
another example
yesterday:
went out to the bank with mum
met up with dad who was gonna go to ct with mum and maybe me
then dad changes his mind
Dad:NO you should be home studying for exams
Me:but i wanna spend time with you
Dad:we have plenty of time to spend together
you have no time before exams
me: -.-"

ok fine. its jus the ct
and it IS exam time when i should be studying
BUT I WANNA GO OUT
im sick of facing the walls of my room
for christ's sake i have a max attention span
of an hour of fully or half heart-ed-ly studying
before i go read soemthing else

there is no one to talk to
and everytime i turn to talk to someone
either they cant (exam, work, school)
or they tell me to study
UGHHHHHH

*frustrated*

maybe chinese tomorrow will give me some time to talk
WAIT..
its not like i talk to them that much anyways !
-.-"
GRRR

the only ppl i get to talk to
is when i go to the resto
and majority of them speak viet!!!
>.<
i understand but hello
i dun wanna talk viet when i cant talk to anyone else
and most of the time it takes me 10 mins to think up a sentence

*annoyed*

anyways got caught by dad online jus then
so betta go
nite
*hugz*

Post #259

why is it that i love pracs..
but i SUCK at physics pracs?
this doesnt make sense...
or the fact that there are no instructions..
ah well
i think i did pretty well with the h bio
and the lit oral was delayed
since not enough class time today
but that means i have to do it tomorrow
which is still bad coz that sense of forboding
is SO annoying

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miss my bloggie...

ok exams in 3 days approx :S

done minimal study
which is BAD
and not recommended but i cant concentrate
>.<
i mean at sometimes i even start checkin up wats on the NEWS
thats how bored i am

ah well back to my study..

Update on my Life

*sigh*

atm im having a failing attempt at studying..
ive taken out my stuff
in attempts at studying like a billion times
but everytime i get distracted by something or another
i think ive concluded that
the lighting in my room isnt bright enough

on top of all of that my sister has friends over
next door..
and i can hear them TALKING and PLAYING MUSIC LOUDLY

i lost it again on fri nite..
well that is lost my mind
i mean i regret it
but it made me feel so much better on sat mornin
but then again i feel bad
and took it out on my sister
by sorta screaming and shouting at her..
and she jus ran outta the room
and i jus continued screaming and crying..
for like the next 20 mins
until my parents came home
which i think was coz my sista called

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well
days gone past..
and ive had 2 assessments over and done with

tho surfing the net i came across this

Big Brother is about to become monkey business.
Inspired by the television reality show, Czech public radio and television broadcasters have announced that on November 7, they will begin airing a new show that will follow the lives of four gorillas living together at the Prague Zoo.

The show, to be called Odhaleni (Discovery), will see the primates -- one male, two females and one baby -- battle it out for a grand prize of 12 melons, a delicacy for gorillas.

"What the gorillas do is up to them," said Prague Zoo gorilla trainer Marek Zdansky.

Czech Television will set up 15 cameras to monitor the gorillas, and viewers and listeners of the show will be able to vote via phone messages (SMS) for their favorite contestant.

Proceeds from the show will go to helping save the wild gorilla population in Africa, organizers said.

when ppl start turning to gorillas
for forms of reality tv
its really the time they should stop altogether
i mean there is something called the "discovery channel"
ok..
so there are things called circuses which have been running for YONKS
which include animals as forms of entertainment
but like if they're resorting to this..
and ok its for a good cause
but still
if you wanna see apes and monkeys
GO TO THE ZOO

it would do you the good of some exercise
there's FRESH air
and you STILL help the apes
donate money and ADOPT one
instead of sitting infront of the box...

on the up for today
i got 100% for my chem prac ^^

tho on the otherhand i found a fear of mine
which would be confrontation in general
i can be truthful
but then again i can lie
or i jus avoid it totally
and end up in a huge mess
or some misunderstanding or another
WHY cant i keep my mouth shut at times?
or at least choose my words more carefully

oh well
what can you say?

nite nite
*hugz*

Heather Lamont... last one *tear*

Well...
there goes the last Heather Lamont ill ever attend
as a student..

i wish i had entered more stuff
*sigh*
and its not like i got any placings
:(

well i hope i get a house point
for getting second in debating (my team did)
(chair person i dun debate)
out of two -.-"
and also our tute entry got 3rd
and helpin out as section leader in textiles n craft

i mean..
jus need 1 more house point..
and then ill get a FULL house colour ^^
not one of those half colours..
but i havent even gotten a half colour ever before :(
always missed by 1 or 2 points
but then again u only need 3 to get colour or half colour
depending on yr

my poetry and fotos got nothing..
but then again..
there were a HELL of a LOT of PIX and POEMS

the only thing that annoys me
is that some fotography entries
have the entrant who is "supposed" to take the foto
IN the foto... with BOTH their arms showing
so HOW the HELL did they take the pic?
*shakes head*

i wanna vent bit more bout heather lamont
but i really cbb
coz i cnat actually remmeber what i wanted to say
and plus i feel liek readingg
so bye
*hugz*

Annabel steals mobiles O.o

well as the title of the post suggests..
im assuming a connection
between Annabel (our pet dalmation)
and my fone going missing..

well thing is it happend so long ago
it was like back when i was like in yr 6 or 7
we were all gonna go to the beach
and before we left the house
i forgot to get a towel
so i left my fone on the seat of the car
and went to get stuff
whilst every1 else was still in the house gettin ready
and left the car door open

after the session at the beach
i noticed my mobile was missing
so i assumed i lost it at the beach :(

then this sun...
whilst my dad was cutting down this tree
(bird's paradise)
well more of giving it a HUGE hair cut
(looks like this stump with 2 leaves sticking out)
and he came across the fone that i had lost so LONG ago..
the only conclusion?
a) my sister was on a rampage of hers
and decided to get me back by getting rid of my fone
b)Annabel stole it..
and hid it there

the second though unlikely under normal circumstances
seem highly likely
there are bite or more of HUGE scratch marks on it
which could have been damage caused by her teeth
when biting it
or she found it under that tree later on..
but still evidence points to annabel
since no 1 was outside at that time
and the car door was open...
ah well
another thing to add onto the
list of unexpected things bout belle

*she LOVES mandarins
*and most other fruits
*she FARTS
*she eats the roll fillings
and leaves the bread
*she eats the spring roll fillings
and leaves the rice paper
*she allegedly "took" my mobile

:S

belle is SO CUTE THO ^^

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(cont)
the yr 12s have left already
well yesterday
they didnt have "muck up day"
instead they had "fun" day
but the satirical and video
and formal assembly were teh same
i think :S
(since i had to leave early due to music lesson)
the satirical really wasnt that funny
and in p 1 and 2 the prank announcements over the PA
was pretty saddening..
i mean there wasnt an inch of humour in them

watching the yr 12 video really hit me
like i felt this whole realisation that its
NEXT YR
any1 in the film could be me next yr
i just didnt want to admit
that so fast that 4 yrs have past
and once again
im thrown out into uncertainty
the whole insecurity of new things
the breaking up and moving on

i mean
how likely will any of us will stay together?
ok
so we can stay on the optimistic side and say
yes we'll keep in touch
but how likely is that?
we dun even call each other?

we rarely go out together
and even if we do
there is taht whole organising thing to go thru

ok we could TRY
but sooner or later
thrown into a new lifestyle
we'll get "TOO BUSY"
we forget this and that
and with all the new burdens of work
or uni
or tafe..
or whatever we end up going to
its jus not going to be the same
we wont be seeing each other at least once a day
or even once a week

i noe its a pessimistic view
but how realistic would it be to say
that we will be as close as we are now

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ok
4th continuation of this post..
although its the 3rd official part..
i lost the last bit due to comp stuffin up
and recover post didnt actually save it -.-"

weekends gone past..
and i had my vocal recital..
it went ok..

and had my voice lesson today
and she said i did "exceptionally well"
im jus wondering if she's tellin the truth
or jus givin the whole confidence boost
with heaps of reassurance that im doing well
like she seems to do
but hey
voice lessons are really an up for me
i actually enjoy em
:D

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like my 5th continuation of posts..
mite as well turn it into a mini series..

i dunno whats up with me today..
either im sick
or like im OVER stressed bout prob nothing
or i feel lonely
or ...
i dunno

and i mean even during h bio said my face was red
and its been liek this the whole avo i think:S
not sure but it feels like it
am i overheating? O.o
but that doesnt make sense

i could have a temperature
i dunno

its HEATHER LAMONT tomorrow
my last one *crys*

well, scarlet, steph cullinford, shree and i
are section leaders for textiles n craft
nithya, gar and chewy are section leaders for photography

ive entered quite a few things this yr
mainly photos and "attempts" at poetry
as well as debating..
where im jus reserve/timekeeper for the trojan team
which i hope i will remain as timekeeper

stayed an hour after school today
to help display the stuff in my section
there were SO many BLOODY ENTERIES for CARDS
which usually is empty
coz most ppl dont realise such a section exists
has suddenly got a BOOM in entries
ONE HUNDRED AND SIXTY SOMETHING ENTRIES
that is 160 something
UGH
and the majority of them were like MINIMAL effort
eg. one had a smiley face and thank you on it
THATS IT

marking the names off CARD after CARD after CARD
i dun wanna see another card in my life

and SO many ppl
jus randomly entered stuff they made years ago
-.-"
HOW POINTLESS???
i mean there was even one of those PASTA necklaces
like those pasta things you make when ure in preprimary?
there was one of those

GRRR

anyways
gonna go to sleep now
nite nite
*hugz*
(and actually publishin it AT LAST)

friendships...

why is it..
that i never seem to have any relationships with ANYONE..
that isnt based on something more than school
or something common like htat?
like eg. if we're talking school..
once school's over...
then there's like zilch in common?
the only thing to talk about WAS school
and since its nolonger available to talk bout..
then thats it..
sorta the END of the friendship..
not that i dun try to keep it up..
but ppl jus fade outta the picture..

or maybe its jus im not much of a conversationalist..

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ok that was like 5 days ago..
im trying to finish of posts that i start now
like to have it as a good habit
to finish things you start off.
tho i doubt its gonna last long

tho y do i tend to finish the posts 5 days later.

well
jus got back from the rivercruise..
THE main social event of the yr..
well thinkin back i didnt really take it seriously
concluded from my lack of organisation for ANYTHING

*sigh*

well the nite went well
with quite a number of "fun" songs :P
eg. ppl had requested YMCA as per usual
tho there was a request of "rock a by a bear"
from the wiggles by some1
who ever it was at least it was still fun
brings back childhood memories :D

the dress which i collected yesterday
since it had to be ordered
coz teh only size left in the shop
was a LIL too loose at the back..
so ordered 1 size down..
and during the WHOLE of the nite
the back was STILL falling -.-"
at least i didnt take the 1 in the the shop
but still
so annoying..
coz i danced then would have to stop
just to pull the back up

mona and kev were So cute..
tho the didnt seem to intereact much :(
no pdas..
tho im not sure if i would like to have witnessed any
in the first place..
they did slow dance once tho :P
well for bout half a song

and spent the rest of the nite with us..
with occational sitting off and i assume talking..
since it was in full view of loadsa ppl

sweet and all
but it was annoying that he was there
it felt a bit awkward :S
soz mona

like i felt bad or a lil guilty
that like i was dancing like that
in front of a guy..
ok..
i dance like that most of the time without care..
but usually the guys dun matter.
coz im neva gonna see em again
but kevin.. dunno how long he's gonna be round :S

my feet hurt now..
lol prob from all that jumping IN HEELS
i cant believe that we actually made the boat ROCK
like it literally bounced off the water
the front of the boat that is

i did see jono and wee dher..
and bonnie got in a funny incedent..
tho im not sure of exactly what happend
some guys managed a near crowd surfing
until they were pulled down by this sailor dude

in total..
it was fun
tho woulda been nicer to have it LONGER
and also maybe a larger dance floor
tho this boat in comparsion to the 1 we took on the IS
was LARGER with tables of 6 and chairs on each side
and they should have let us go out the front of the boat
but it was blocked off :(

the $1300 dress... was HELL SHORT
-.-"
what is the point in buyin somethin SO expensive
made of SO LITTLE cloth -.-"
i think she was TOTALLY ripped off
it didnt even look that good
but oh well..
her choice in what she spends her money on
i jus find it a WASTE of the money AND dress
and its highly unlikely she'll wear it again

*sigh*
during some of the rc
i sorta wished i actually had a partner
but tehn again
i noe id still hate the awkwardness of it
coz think bout mona and kevin
and they see each other reasonably often
well think so :S
i mean its either dance
OR
sit and talk
and how could you talk for THREE hours straight?
well it is possible
but bleh
if you dunno the person itd still be awkward

ugh..
what about the ball later on?

oh well
can always go without
and not have to entertain some random guy :D

no1 really blogs anymore..
but then again its coz of blockages
and also the whole
dun have time coz i should be studying
but hey
i find it reasonably relaxing at times
well sorta more of mind babble
jus less thinking and trapped-ness
in mind of thoughts

*yawns*

my feet hurt
:(
but then its my fault

i stuffed up my chem test today >.<
and i rememeber earlier today
i was like "yay its the rc tonight"
and now its like
"HUH? its over already?"

well i betta go sleep soon
coz im gettin tired AND a headache
i assume from dehydration

there seems like nothin to talk bout
(btw jus typin
coz im waitin for my comp to finish scanning)

my parents must be SO relieved taht im not goin to afters
and plus i would still be their "innocent lil baby girl"

like during the avo wen we were gettin ready
i could sorta see the worry-ness
and sorta sadness in mum *Sigh*
i sorta started feeling guilty

its scary how time flies
i can still remember teh start of the yr
in term 1 when we were talkin
bout how EVERY1 was talkin bout the rc nonstop
and now its OVER

we also had house farewell as well
and we sung "hear you me"
but edited the words
so that "may angels lead you in"
to "my angels guide your way"
and i was singing it
and i nearly started crying
i mean
its so emotional the fact
that time passes LIKE THAT

ne waiz i cant be stuffed
waitin for the scan to fini
cancel it and sleep
nite nite
*hugz*

Small, Small World - update on who's been spotted..

ugh you know how bad i am at seeing ppl in the st?
but then again sometims im not..
hmm whatever..

jus writing up an update on how small this world is a usual..
i saw cvitanovic at the show dia..
lol
well as well as other ppl from school who worked at the show..
isnt it saddening that it seems to be the highlight of the yr in perth?
or at least it seems to be?
oh i also saw ben in tha hols..
he went to my primary school..
ugh so annoying wen ppl used to be around your height..
in a few yrs shoots up to be SO much taller than u..
but then again in my case it occurs most of the time..
since most ppl ARE taller than me anyways..

hmm come to think of it..
wonder if david ching is still in ccgs :S
coz thats where i heard he went to
oh well. whatever..

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ok .. its been 5 days since the beginning of that

and you know WHAT is SCARY!?!?!?
ok..
the earlier bit of the post i wrote 5 days ago..
that person..
david ching?
i had this post open..
and was procrastinating the finishing of this post..
when a convo popped up from sukey..
she had said "this is david"
im like O.O
TALK about coincedence..
its scary even..
and the thing is i havent even talked to anybody bout him
or anythin..

and tru he did end up goin to ccgs..
and is STILL there..
and takes nearly the exact same subjects as me..
its scary..
too much of coincedences..

ah well..
"Small World"
:D

nite nite
*hugz*

Bombing and Natural Disasters = DEATH + Survival Stories

I guess today im really havin a "bloggin spree"
i seem to have or more likely..
WANTING to say stuff..
and really these are the only things i feel liek talkin bout atm..
saddening things like death.. and MY PROBS..
hey.. wat can u say? its my blog and i write what i feel :D

Nice how the whole earthquake thing happend so recently..
which has happend in north eastern pakistan
when teh whole thing jus got ova with the tsunami in SA asia
earlier this yr..
well more of last yr since it was boxing day..
but still
it was a HUGE thing..
and tehn teh bali bombing..
interesting how all i seemed to mainly hear bout on the news
is jus single digit number of AUSTRALIAN ppl dead..
well i jus found out the total dead was around about 20..

saddening?

*sigh*

and what of the london bombings earlier this yr?
i missed them by 3 days...
if our tour had stayed..
we might have been travelling on those busses on the way to shop..
and then BOOM

and the bomb threat on eiffel tower..
what is the point of these ppl?
WHAT is it they want?
protest?
like many questions..
WHERE do you draw the line?
are all these bombings their form of protest?
or are they jus undermining some thing else?

WHAT do they want?
an ulitmate chaos?
scariest thought is jus like what i read in this article
in the paper on the plane to vienna..
EVERYTHING is so accessible..
everything is on the net..
and even if you access it you could access under some random username
people are learning things.
is our great technology also our undoing?

is our technology that great?
so great that we destroy all we have with what we create?
what is the whole meaning of this?

but i guess.
one good point..
well obivously since death and injuries isnt one..
is that there are always those great inspiring survival stories.
as well as medical trimphs eg. fiona wood
(i think? :S) that did that burns thing
and the emergency services also become of use.
but really..
how depressing is the thoughts
of losing a loved one in an instant?
and what if you had a fight with them earlier that day?
ure last memory of them was in an argument..
and you dont even get to say goodbye.

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you know the possibility of not being able to sleep
could be the fact ive been turning too much of this stuff
over in my mind..
=========================================================

*sigh*
maybe i should jus go..
nite nite
*hugz*

Quizzes Galore...

Have you ever..
1.Been kicked?Yes but not hard or painful.. tho i feel sorry for some receivers of mine
2.Been punched? No not really
3.Been asked if you were brother's/sister's? yes.. well obviously i HAVE a sister..and obviously her friends ask if im her sista.. -.-" AND ive been asked if im some1 else's lil sister.. as in "IS (insert name) your brother?"
4.Had a boyfriend/girlfriend? No
5.Removed your clothing? well.. if i havent then HOW tha HELL would i change?
6.Been offered a cigarette? No
7.Been offered drugs/alcohol? Not Drugs.. but alcohol yes :D
8.Gone skinny-dipping? No.. well at least not to my memory
9.Walked in on someone while they were changing? Think i have.. cant remember who..
10.Walked in the rain without an umbrella or raincoat? most recent time.. mainly majority of time on music tour.. tho main memory was in Montreux wen the rain was worst with no shelter
11.Been outside between 3 am and 4 am with at least 6 other people? No
12.Lablled someone? huh ?
13.Been called a goth? No.
14.Bitch? Yes
15.Punk? No.
16.Prep? Prep?
17.Slut? Yes. Quite a few times.
18.Whore? No.
19.Hoe? No.
20.Sleazebag? No.
21.Douche? No.
21.Brat? Maybe behind my back when i was younger :P
22.Nerd? Not to my memory. Which these days is fading
23.Dork? No.
24.Wannabe? No.
24.Kissed someone from the same sex? No.
25.Played truth or dare? Yes
if so- taken a dare and successfully accomplished it? Strangely they tend to forget to give me dares since by the time its my turn ppl cant think of anything anymore :P
- taken a truth and actually told the truth? Yes.
26.Played spin the bottle? No.
27.Performed in some way in front of an audience of 100 or more? Yes
28.Pretended to someone on msn that you forgot an away message When you really just ignored them? No.
29.Talked behind a bestfriend's back? No.
30.Cursed while a teacher was standing right beside or behind you? Try not to curse.. well actually.. i try not to at times.. tho sometimes it jus comes out :P but hey teachers dont seem to be around :)
31.Seen a member of the opposite sex naked? Yes. Don't ask.
32.Lied to someone of the opposite sex to get closer to them? Well.. white lies or part truth ? :p but i dun think it was really to get closer to them..
33.Pretended to be scared during a movie so you could cuddle closer to someone? No.
34.Pretended to be bad at pool so someone you liked could "help" you? Well. i Was bad at pool.. still sorta bad.. but learning and No havent had "help"
35.Tanned completely naked? No.
36.Been to a nudist resort/beach/community? No, tho we nearly got to one during a p.e. walking along the beach lesson, we were told to stop before we reached the nudist beach. (thank god)
37.Gone through someone's stuff that you shouldn't have been going through? No.
38.Shoplifted? No.
39..Seen someone shoplift? Yes.
40.Punched someone? Hmm.. not really.. not punch punch.
41.Kicked someone? Yes, too many times.
42.Stolen from a teacher? Well. No.
43.Stolen from your school? Well sorta. didnt intend to but left it at home so literally "permanently" borrowed since i was in yr 7 and i cant go back to return it.
44.Cut class? Not really.
45.had an eating disorder?No.
46.Worn sunglasses on a shady day? Yes, in yr 9 when i had that random eye infection >.<
47.Been on a soccer team? Jus for p.e. in yr 9 WE WON ^^
48.Dived off a diving board? Yesss!
49.fallen off your bike? Yes. But too long ago.
50.Failed a subject? Yes. IC n GnT and maybe physics :(

One or the other?
1. Music/TV: TV
2. Guys/Girls: Both ? :P
3. Green/Blue: Blue
4. Pink/Purple: Pink
5. Sleep/Stay Up: Stay up
6. Summer/Winter: Summer
7. Spring/Fall: SPRING !!
8. Night/Day: Night
9. Hanging Out/Chilling: What's the diff? :S
10. Friends/Lovers: Both.
11. Cold/Warm: Warm.
12. Fast/Slow: Depends on what but prob fast.
13. New/Old: New
14. Dark/Light: Light
15. Sparkle/Shine: Shine.
16. Peach/Plum: Peach.
17. Apple/Orange: Both?
18. Laundry/Dishes: Laundry. I HATE DISHES
19. Hugs/Kisses: Both ^^ *sigh* tho you can have hugs from everyone ^^ so leaning more to hugs
20. Ketchup/Mustard: Ketchup
21. Glass Half full or Half empty: Half Full.

My Favourite?
1. Colour: BLUE.
2. Number: 12
3. Food: just food in general ^^
4. Non-alcoholic drink: Water
5. Alcoholic drink: Baileys.. well dun really have much of a choice at home now do i?
6. Snack: ANYTHING
7. Movie: dunno :S
8. Actor: None
9. Actress: None
10. TV Show: None
11. TV Channel: 10
12. Cartoon: None.
13. Disney characters: Mulan, Pluto ^^ Mickey n Mini
14. Song: Too Many
15. Singer: Dun have 1
16. Band: neither
17. Group: ditto
18. Sport: Most sports ^^
19. Book: Books are good.
20. Board Game: -
21. Card Game: Cheat, Big 2(cant even play that properly -.-"), Spoons. and that other random one oh yah peanut butter and jelly.
22. Smell: Babydoll, some fragrances from fragonard and Echo Woman as well as many more :P
23. Flower: Lotus :)
24. Magazine: -
25. Item of clothing: Jeans
26. Item of jewellery: Earrings, anklets and Necklaces
27. Time of the day: 8 pm
28. Day of the week: Fri
29. Week of the month: Does it really matter?
30. Month of the year: Feb :P
31. Place to be: "Home is where the heart is" Home would be the place to be :)
32. Thing to do in your spare time: MSN ?
33. Thing to do on the weekend: -

Do you..?
1.Cut yourself: No. Not purposely.
2.Kill people: WHY would i? No.
3.Plan on killing any one: Never did.
4.Hate a lot of people: Maybe some.
5.Like a lot of people: Yes.
6.Get grounded often: Never grounded
7.Yell a lot: Ask my family :P
8.Cry a lot: Read post below
9.Cry if your parents died: I'd be worried if i said No. Of Course I'd cry
10.Want to die: No.
11.Steal: No. Why would i?
12.Smoke: I'm not the 1 ruining/shortening my own life tho plz. dun smoke around me.
13.Go to church a lot: Well.. compulosory?
14.Love school: Once. a long time ago.
15.Wear dark colours: If it suits my mood.
16.Dye your hair: No. Not at all.

Randomness
1.Unwrap a starbust with your tongue? Never tried.
2.Lick your elbow? Physically Impossible.
3.Manipulate people easily? Never tried intentionally.
4.Sing well? I wish. Ask lina She HATES it :P
5.Open your eyes underwater? Yes.
6.Eat whatever you want and not have to worry? At times :P
7.Iceskate? Yep. Not sure bout the number of times ill fall tho :P
8.Sing in front of a crowd? Yes
9.Whistle? Yes. Stuffed round today.. wolf whistled at a staff member as a joke. and a customer looked at me strangely. i think he thinks im less :(
10.Be a bitch sometimes? Can be.
11.Walk in really high heels? YES.
12.Eat super spicy foods? Definately No.
13.Play an instrument? Yes. A few. Tho Jack of all trades :P
14.Block out what someone is saying if you don’t want to hear it? At times.
15.Act like you like somebody you hate? Yes.
16.Attract a lot of boys? I wouldnt know. Nor would I.
17.Skateboard? Dun have 1.
18.Sleep with lights on? Hallway light always on. But i dun mind pitch darkness.
19.Multitask? I wish sometimes.
20.Touch your nose with your tongue? Definate no.
21.Fall asleep easily in a car? Depends on tiredness level.
22.Catwalk? Dun think so. BUT would be fun to try :P
23.Do the 1,2 step? Huh?
24.Blow your nose? Yes.
25.Do the cottoneyed joe? What's this?
26.Tell when a guy is gay? Prob some fit in stereotype, some dont >.<
27.Play DDR and not fail? Definately Not.
28.Surf? Tried long time ago. cant remember result. tho most likely fell off :P
29.Make yourself cry? No.
30.Fit in your locker? Def no.
31.Taste the difference between coke and pepsi? Sometimes.

Bitching and Stealing

========================================
finishing this off..
but it was started a few days ago
========================================
something which i dun understand here..
y do ppl bitch?
and
Y do ppl steal?

ok in like those first world countries and stuff..
where ppl dun have anything to eat..
so they resolve to stealing i understand..
sorta..
but Y in our society?
mainly..
well in the suburbs around us?

ok..
now bitchin?
ugh..
hate it but then again so easy to do?
i jus hope i dun bitch that much
tho some ppl *shakes head*
but y would they do that?
hate? or jealousy? or...
i dunno..

=====================================
sorta lost the drift of things..
but ill try
=====================================

hmm realised i could slightly be bitchin bout ppl..
but im making a comment..

maybe thats what they as themselves are thinking?
and the thing of "bitching" labelled as a girl thing right?
-.-"
they still talk..
question: do i know enough guys to draw that conclusion
prob no..
*sigh*
but hey..
there are still words that go round..
Eg. "slut"
tho then again guys are most likely to be using em :P

but why is it that females more likely to bitch?
here's some of my thoughts?
a) we have need something to talk bout
b) we have a longer extent of want of talking in comparison to guys who tend to grunt alot.. (esp wen it comes to my relatives -.-")
c) we can talk whilst working.. its part of multitaskin :P
d) for some.. the thought of down troddening some1 else makes them feel empowered?
e) i said it before.. jealousy..

what is the point of this post?
i personally do not know..
oh well at least its finished :P
ne waiz
*hugz*

WARNING: LONG EMOTIONAL POST (#250)

ok..
lost my last post..
have to type it up again..

last thurs..
spent the day doing paperwork..
driving around getting this done that done..
and we stopped by the ct..
and we bought a pedometer for dad..

this morning i woke up early..
and found that he had left it so i thought..
hmm let me try it..
(as slightly inaccurate as it will be since its set for my dad)
stayin at home wouldnt really work..
so i decided to help out at the shop..

nothing really to do cept act as a messenger between the shop and resto..
good i guess walking increase pedometer :D

but there seemed so be something i noticed..
i always walked the front way..
that is along the st where there's lots of shops and restos..
and i realised..
many shops = many windows.
many windows = many reflections
AND I COULDNT STOP LOOKIN AT MYSELF IN THE REFLECTIONS

therefore today's question:
am i EXTREMELY self-conscious or jus SELF obssessed in they way i dress?

funny thing tho..
in the morning..
i neva care bout teh way i dress..
well not entirely true..
coz i dun always wanna look like a total hag
but i walk out the house with MINIMUM care of my image

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THANK god for recover post...
nearly had to restart a third time..
i jus realised that it was there -.-"
===============================================

ok back to waht i was talking bout..

-.-" lost the drift of things..

umm..
oh yah and whilst i was waiting for mum..
wen we were bout to go home..
it was a while before
i realised was staring at the reflection of myself on the car window
-.-"

worrying...

anyways..
since i dun feel like talkin taht anymore..
i just thought bout something

what is up with some ppl and their one tracked minds?
ok ok
there is the female multitasking thing
but hey..
u dun go and NEVER talk to some1..
then out of the blue talk to them
then ignore em after you get the info you want..

maybe i jus cant get over this topic.
but i seriously find it annoying
you dont not talk to some1 then go talk to them jus coz u need help.
ok a person should be helpful and all
but still
isnt it rude?!?!
get what u want..
then after that say bye and start ignoring them all over again?

*sigh*

im going round in circles..
and the blog post that i still havent published taht i spent days on..
since i had to keep starting it ova and ova
coz of the windows closing due to some error or the other..
i dunno what to do with it..
i dun feel like finishing it either..
and its jus gonna sit there..

oo this is my 250th post!!!

happy 250th post..
hmmm saddening my life is isnt it?

what else is there to talk bout..
its 4:21 in tha arvo..
and i bored to death..
my organic chem booklet is only half finished
and its the only subject ive started on..

ooo
heres something to talk of..

I CANT SLEEP

i dunno HUGE problems sleeping these days..
not the whole i cant sleep coz im thinking of some1 prob..
but more of i cant get to sleep
it thinketh that it could partly be stress..
stress of gettin things handed in etc..

not sure if everyone noes..

IM GOING TO TAIWAN!!!!

tho not a perfectly good thing...
since its 6 weeks of study in my SUMMER HOLIDAYS >.<

back to the sleep thing..
its weird coz like i wanna sleep...
and wen i try to sleep i think ...
i think of parents
i think of school
i think of life.
i think of my sister.. :S
i think of music
i think of annabel
i think of resto
i think of jane mann and the whole brain tumour ting
i think of the tragic things on the news
i think of EMBARESSING memories
i think of memories in general
i think of TOO many things..
and then somewhere along the way..
i drift into this random state where im still thinking..
but im also asleep.. but not asleep asleep if u noe wat i mean?
like im still conscious and thinking and all
but rested..
i dunno how to better say it..
then later on
i think of im gonna wake up
i think of no back to sleep
i think of no wake up
i think of back to sleep
i start aguing with myself whether or not to wake up !??!!?!

what tha?

and then if i continue sleeping..
i wake up later on..
still realising i havent really slept slept..
look at the clock and its O.o
FOUR AM
-.-"

and sometimes wen im in tah half thinkin sleeping thing..
my sister kiks the door
(her bed is now blocking the door..
therefore her leg can reach it)
and its this HUGE BOOM
and it wakes me up >.<
at like TWO AM

I CANT SLEEP
AGH!?!?!

and also..
ive noticed..
i sorta tear..
like i dun fully cry and bawl out and everything..
and its not the whole shruddering watery nose thing..
its jus tears that keep falling..
drip drip dripping..
falling
down down down
but i dunno y i cry?
*sigh*
there really isnt anything to cry about really..
nothing i feel emotionally saddened about...
jus this whole numbness when ever i think of things sad..
yet i "cry" wen im trying to sleep
a silent weep if you can call it that..

its a numbing weep..?

im really confused i guess.
and sometiems it feels like theres no1 one
round to talk bout anything to..

could be overall stress..
but i dunno

and i mean thinking too much...
really can literally drive you insane..
like you get all these mixed emotions..
going from one thought to another..
sorta goes from a dull lack of thinking on the computer..
to a numbing flood of thoughts and emotions..
plus the fact taht my sight is gettin worse due to spending my time
in front of the comp this whole hols..

i need a hug :'(

ah well..
like ive told so many
life goes on..

i can do fine by myself..
and jus go on as if nothing happens..
but what does all this end in but drifting??
and where is the drifting me ?
lack of study..
and the belief that ill get good marks even if i dun study..
which nowadays dun work that way..

well ive reached a conclusion i guess..
the source of my not studying..
but how DO you study?

you know?
sometimes thinking of somethings..
jus runs shivers up my back..
there's this cold feeling..
a lacking of something..
this coldness..
this strange alien feeling..
maybe its jus the loneliness.
its not like my sister cares
and dont you just love that quote..?
"you can be in a room full of people and still feel as lonely as ever"
i dunno if i really love it..
but it seems so true..

time passes..
time may change things..
but somethings never change..
some too fast
too fast to grasp..
but what caused the change?
what is the catalyst..
or the peservative?
time keeps turning
but us people caught within the spokes..
may be tossed around
swinging from one personality to another
or stuck at the bottom remaining unchanged at all

and dejavu?
i dream up these things..
and some of them come true.
question is..
if we were reincarnated..
maybe this life has happend before
and we were sent to correct something
is it that our dreams are meant to remind us that something WILL reoccur
or tha something should be prevented from happening?
are things we dream things that should happen or not?
as real as they feel in the dream?

*sigh*

like i said before.
thinking can drive you insane..
and i still..
need a hug...

have a good avo..
*hugz*

hols..

u'd think in tha hols
id blog more often..
guess NOT..

nothing seems to have been happening..
well other than tha random outbreak of emotion a while ago..

i havent done an inch of hw..

i spent the first three days of hols with family..
well more of spent the evenings doing so...
cant remember them exactly..
tho i noe i went to sizzlers
and also the dragon resto for seafood steamboat buffet..

went to the ct and nb on wed..
saw ron on the train to ct..
went with mona, scar, sheila, gar (tho left a while later)
oh and steven(mona's bro) was tehre a while..
till we got to nb..
had korean for lunch..
cant remember the rest of it..

thurs..
went to royal show..
late again >.<
sheila, maxy, scar and me..
walked around a while..
had some of that "twisty" chips..
watched fireworks..
went out to nb afta
and ate some congee..
god its been ages since i ate out..
got home late..
well it was the latest i eva got home from goin out..
not sure wat my parents think of it..

fri..
cant really remember it..
i think i stayed at home

sat..
went out wit mum to show..
spent most of the arvo out there...
all we did was spend the whole time in the pavilions
lookin at stuff we could buy..
since we had 2 free passes in..
so mite as well use em
i bought 1 of those halos..
was walkin across the street from train station
and had ppl call out
"look an angel.. look (name of person) therez an angel over there"
-.-"
wonderin if i shoulda bought it and worn it at all..

sun..
stayed at home

mon..
woke up early :S
which is unusal for me
and at 6:30..
which is like unbelievable for me in tha hols..
went out to shop..
stood at cashier till bout 11:30
picked up lina from home..
went out to ct and nb
with penny, ron, raymond
and jemmy later on afta his exam
i learnt how to play pool is one thing..
otha than that didnt get anything outta tha day..
went home..
and spent most of last nite reordering stock with mum

and today.
went out with parents in the morning
back to the resto..
got told by my grandma heaps to help out wit the resto
but each time i was outside there was nothing to do..
then spent the evening jus wondering between shop and resto
helped out a bit with the checking of ordered stock

thats bout all that's been happening
nite nite
*hugz*

BREAK DOWN

lost it today..
*sigh*
just got too much...

but fine now..

HOLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yay..
hols..

but now sorta feelin bored..
soz ive sorta neglected this whole bloggie business... :(
but then again..
i wonder if ppl are actually reading
since therez sorta been a lack of response at all on taggie
*tear*

what to write about these days?

hmm
you know..
i think im sorta realising..
that sometimes i tend to dislike some ppl..
jus cos they seem to show slight similarities to me :S
its like i see something in them..
maybe some quality that seems like
(or at least it seems so to me..)
me or some part of me now or in the past...

OR

the basic possibility of twinges of jealousy?
as much as i dun like admitting it?
could be..

and i dunno..
there seems to be this really strange feeling these daiz..
i mean this morning i was on SUCH a high..
wonderin? ask kat...
i was SKIPPING!?!?!?
despite the fact i was running on 6 hours sleep
(which isnt enough for me usually)
AND no breaky at all
and now on a total low..
(which isnt surprisin)

but its like im not feelin happy
or sad..
its this numbness..
its back again
>.<

music affecting the mood?
it works if im standing in front of a blaring speaker..
and dancin
but othawise..
:S
have to actually express something..
need somthing which will take my mind off...
well off nothing..
its so weird..
half the time im thinkin my self into numbness
the otha half its jus i jus sit there and get consumed..
it jus encloses me..

y is it that ...
yyyyyyyyyyyy?
i dun even noe what im thinking..
its jus all wierd..
im not even lookin at the screen...
jus an occasional glance just to check spelling..
but its jus like i zone out and every thin jus feels so blanked out..

y dont i care bout my marks?
i dun wanna end up totally stressed ova a simple mark..
but then again..
i dun wanna be as slack as i am..
when did i lose my interest for school?
or didnt i haev a passion for it in the first place..
and if so..
would that mean that i've been living the life that my parents?
have i just been existing..
not caring? or jus some living puppet..
living off the ideals ppl have created for me?
i mean i barely know what i want or need.. or wish for...

what am i?
some sadistic...
i dunno..
*sigh*
blocking out the music..
the melody coming from my comp.
it jus feels as tho i dun want the harmony..
tho if i listen.. there seems to be a slight elation..
fomr the state where im sinking..
sinking lower and lower..

y is it that with some ppl...
they only talk to you when they want something?
or when they want entertainment?
ok..
i prob do that sometimes..
but i mean
i talk to ppl..
either they're really bz but dun tell me
and it jus seems they're totally not interested..
not interested in talkin at all..
you'd think that there'd at least be some reply of sorts..

ne wiaz..
g2g
or else lack of sleep for consecutive nites = grumpy della
nite nite
*hugz*

Misinterpretations...

saturday today..
half way thru the w/e...
but then again
5 days of school left before hols..

today was actually quite a good day..
tho i think its the fact that i actually went OUT somewhere

had chinese this morning
spent the first bit rewritin tah essay..
then bout 2 hours rehresal for that performance tonight

lunch..
then was gonna stay at temple all day due to the performance
but instead..
went to jemmy's house..
stayed for a while
left stuff there..
went out to city
with ronald, raymond, jemmy and kevin
spent like 2 hours in tea fusion
saw so many ppl...
esp to me since im not used to seein so many ppl outside of school
saw
mona, hyemi, fong-yeng, ada, sheila, maxy, eileen
ccgs guys.. andy..
sorta started learning to play CS...
god i'm CRAP :P
but slowly learning.. :)

got back to jemmy's place to get stuff..
walked back to FKS...
it started to rain on the way back
(uh.. so regretted not accepting car lift
but then again i shouldnt be gettin into cars with "randoms")

got back to FKS..
quickly changed..
(i had brought the dress with me when i went to school this mornin)
got dragged off by a teacher to be powdered all over with make up..
(LOL raymond.. BLUSH and LIPSTICK :P so funny)
the teacher did my face twice
since apparently after the first time
"it wasnt bright enough"
i looked like i had a permanent blush afta that
like BRIGHT RED
but hey i blush easily ^^"
performance was ok..
stuffed up a bit..
with the order of tha performance taht was..
thank god my part was only being the english narrator..
easily done ^^

watched lion dancing.. dances..
etc... and games ^^
sold raffle tickets..
but ended up being rejected so many times
cos all the girls in teh school was selling them
so most ppl bought some already..
i won a set of cups in some quiz game :S

tho funnily..
i spent the whole evening in that dress..
the blue trad chinese dress "cheung sam"
ugh wateva.. my pronouciation is absolute SHYTE
so randoms were randomly staring -.-"

aftawards went back to resto..
some ppl thought i had jus come back from a ball..
:P

on the note of misinterpretation..
which is the whole title of this post..
well other day..
i displayed pic of my cous
and some ppl asked me "is that ure bf?"
-.-"
ITS MY COUS
cant i display my cous's pic?

and then..
today..
afta the performance..
came across this lady talkin to these 2 dudes..
the lady prob worked at the temple as volunteer
ne waiz..
was gonna walk past..
then 1 of them said hi to me..
i replied hi back..
then realised who it was ..
andy, my cousin
without the chance to say anything else
the lady was fully "ooo isnt she pretty? blah blah blah"
and we were like "no i think you've got it wrong we're cousins"
lady:*smirks* you cant fool me
him: yah its tru
me: yah
him: she's my younger cousin
lady:*says disbelievingly* still don't you think she's pretty?
-.-"
me:but we're cousins
lady:*STILL suspicious* i know what you mean

COUSINS..
DOESNT that mean ANYTHING???

ppl's lovely mind which love to
make assumptions of ppl's relationship towards others?
a pic was taken of me and raymond together..
wonder what will come up?
another set of random rumours?
a pic of me and jono taken in yr 9 social..
jus cos he happend to ask me some questions
and person comes up with camera..
a whole set of rumours?
or me and mona..
where mona looks liek a guy :P
(sad thing was it happened twice) -.-"

things we say..
so many things we say can be reinterpreted..
play around with the words and so many meanings can be formed..
a simple innocent line..
add a few words..
rearrange the sentence..
and voila !!
a new meaning..
OR
the simple not able to read the tone of voice in a text

i've got heaps more to rite bout..
but then again
its getting late..
so i'll just leave it there
nite nite
*hugz*