friendships...

why is it..
that i never seem to have any relationships with ANYONE..
that isnt based on something more than school
or something common like htat?
like eg. if we're talking school..
once school's over...
then there's like zilch in common?
the only thing to talk about WAS school
and since its nolonger available to talk bout..
then thats it..
sorta the END of the friendship..
not that i dun try to keep it up..
but ppl jus fade outta the picture..

or maybe its jus im not much of a conversationalist..

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ok that was like 5 days ago..
im trying to finish of posts that i start now
like to have it as a good habit
to finish things you start off.
tho i doubt its gonna last long

tho y do i tend to finish the posts 5 days later.

well
jus got back from the rivercruise..
THE main social event of the yr..
well thinkin back i didnt really take it seriously
concluded from my lack of organisation for ANYTHING

*sigh*

well the nite went well
with quite a number of "fun" songs :P
eg. ppl had requested YMCA as per usual
tho there was a request of "rock a by a bear"
from the wiggles by some1
who ever it was at least it was still fun
brings back childhood memories :D

the dress which i collected yesterday
since it had to be ordered
coz teh only size left in the shop
was a LIL too loose at the back..
so ordered 1 size down..
and during the WHOLE of the nite
the back was STILL falling -.-"
at least i didnt take the 1 in the the shop
but still
so annoying..
coz i danced then would have to stop
just to pull the back up

mona and kev were So cute..
tho the didnt seem to intereact much :(
no pdas..
tho im not sure if i would like to have witnessed any
in the first place..
they did slow dance once tho :P
well for bout half a song

and spent the rest of the nite with us..
with occational sitting off and i assume talking..
since it was in full view of loadsa ppl

sweet and all
but it was annoying that he was there
it felt a bit awkward :S
soz mona

like i felt bad or a lil guilty
that like i was dancing like that
in front of a guy..
ok..
i dance like that most of the time without care..
but usually the guys dun matter.
coz im neva gonna see em again
but kevin.. dunno how long he's gonna be round :S

my feet hurt now..
lol prob from all that jumping IN HEELS
i cant believe that we actually made the boat ROCK
like it literally bounced off the water
the front of the boat that is

i did see jono and wee dher..
and bonnie got in a funny incedent..
tho im not sure of exactly what happend
some guys managed a near crowd surfing
until they were pulled down by this sailor dude

in total..
it was fun
tho woulda been nicer to have it LONGER
and also maybe a larger dance floor
tho this boat in comparsion to the 1 we took on the IS
was LARGER with tables of 6 and chairs on each side
and they should have let us go out the front of the boat
but it was blocked off :(

the $1300 dress... was HELL SHORT
-.-"
what is the point in buyin somethin SO expensive
made of SO LITTLE cloth -.-"
i think she was TOTALLY ripped off
it didnt even look that good
but oh well..
her choice in what she spends her money on
i jus find it a WASTE of the money AND dress
and its highly unlikely she'll wear it again

*sigh*
during some of the rc
i sorta wished i actually had a partner
but tehn again
i noe id still hate the awkwardness of it
coz think bout mona and kevin
and they see each other reasonably often
well think so :S
i mean its either dance
OR
sit and talk
and how could you talk for THREE hours straight?
well it is possible
but bleh
if you dunno the person itd still be awkward

ugh..
what about the ball later on?

oh well
can always go without
and not have to entertain some random guy :D

no1 really blogs anymore..
but then again its coz of blockages
and also the whole
dun have time coz i should be studying
but hey
i find it reasonably relaxing at times
well sorta more of mind babble
jus less thinking and trapped-ness
in mind of thoughts

*yawns*

my feet hurt
:(
but then its my fault

i stuffed up my chem test today >.<
and i rememeber earlier today
i was like "yay its the rc tonight"
and now its like
"HUH? its over already?"

well i betta go sleep soon
coz im gettin tired AND a headache
i assume from dehydration

there seems like nothin to talk bout
(btw jus typin
coz im waitin for my comp to finish scanning)

my parents must be SO relieved taht im not goin to afters
and plus i would still be their "innocent lil baby girl"

like during the avo wen we were gettin ready
i could sorta see the worry-ness
and sorta sadness in mum *Sigh*
i sorta started feeling guilty

its scary how time flies
i can still remember teh start of the yr
in term 1 when we were talkin
bout how EVERY1 was talkin bout the rc nonstop
and now its OVER

we also had house farewell as well
and we sung "hear you me"
but edited the words
so that "may angels lead you in"
to "my angels guide your way"
and i was singing it
and i nearly started crying
i mean
its so emotional the fact
that time passes LIKE THAT

ne waiz i cant be stuffed
waitin for the scan to fini
cancel it and sleep
nite nite
*hugz*