Disgusted . . .

over and over again..
why oh why do i even find shock in it?
i mean HOW MESSED UP CAN SOME PPL GET..

ok there are really sickening ppl in the world..
but some deeds just get WAY to sickening
well ok fine SOME deeds my have a reason behind em
and you have to look at the circumstances
and both sides of the story
but sometimes just the side that is reported
just feels like its enough heard to really convict ppl
or just label them for the monster they could be OR are..

and yes..
from the single sided view of media..
watched the news this evening..
first time ever! well not really...
but first time in a long time..

anyways..
there was this story in the latter part of the news..
so not really one of those major headline things..
but still sickening...
some CARETAKER of a nursing home for the elderly
RAPED yes RAPED (ok being raped is sorta normal is

kk brb...
gotta go watch the odessy
finish later ============

and yes..
i have to get this done..
other wise yet another procrastinated post is added on to the list..
back to the news story..

Caretaker of elderly nursing home + RAPED + ...
several ELDERLY GRANDMAS!! some with a deteriorating mind =

the thought is just sickening..
over a bloody TWO month span this whole thing kept occuring
and guess what?
the elderly ladies were aged 90+
that is just plain FOUL
sexual assault towards these citizens
whom really should be receiving care and respect..
put in a nursing home..
where they're own family would be trustingly believing
their parents were in great hands..
maybe of prof staff?
and this kinda thing happens..

well thats my view...
after the presentation from the media..
but like.. if i saw other reasons..
i may side with the dude..
but really from what i see?
THERE should be ABSOLUTELY NO sympathy for him..
there are no possible reasons i can think of
for these kinds of acts..

being judgemental really..
i dunno whats up..
im actually expressing opinions more often..
or that i just noticed that i DO express my opinion quite a lot..
:S

anyways..
im just guilty over judging some ppl..
and actually either thinking it up..
or actually saying it..
but still
what they CHOOSE to do is their CHOICE..
they will always be bound to judgement FOR their choice
coz if one person doesnt express..
another will surely..

i mean how many ppl observe how many acts?
some go unseen..
some uncommented..
but still
acts will be judged..
and the fact that once observed..
the observer will form a judgement
and views of a person can change so easily
the way that ppl react..

to something new..
to something that may totally
bring down the ideals of a person..
a person's world can just collapse..
but what they choose to do after that..
how they deal can be something admired..
or something that is observed by another in total disgust..

god..
im generalising so much
but this is really my life recently
a whole series of events..
one linked to another in some way
just everything linked
spiralling around...
swirling around in my mind..
whether the action occured near me..
or i heard it second hand..
third hand even..

and what of rumours?
dont we all love them?
god im subject hopping a lot..
no wonder my lit essay had no structure -.-"

ugh well
at least something to talk bout..
or im just rushing
the need to get this done..
i have no idea personally
but somethings just have to be expressed..
sometimes often..
sometimes not at all..
but sooner or later..
what's boiled up inside..
may explode..
and what as seen as calm and collect..
may just be another savage life changing crisis...

and what of our lives?
how some simple single acts..
in a few seconds.. minuets..
hours...
our life takes another sharp turn...
everything which you worked for...
can just totally tumble..
and all those aims..
beautiful dreams and endless skies..
what of them?
nothing but dreams in the end..
when shattered..
the bits of glass..
of which we were looking through.
our lovely vision
gone.. floats away..
out of our grasp
out of our reach..
no longer part..
no longer touchable...

*sigh*
train of thought just derailed..
:(
just went and talked..
and gone now
*sigh*

my dear muse..
where art thou?
and no im not suggesting any particular person..
just a something to say to get me typing again.

and yay it worked :D

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or not..
-.-"

*sigh*
or maybe this should be long enough...
for those who've read this far..
congrats:D

wd with the endurance of reading..
or just skimming..

kk
g2g
nite nite
*hugz*