So.
i've been told to do this
n i've also been told to do that
and in the family i live in.
there seems to be a thing with longwindedness
or carry on convos where explanation
over arches over many topics
hmm and somehow ive a sneaking suspicion
that i do that too
but that's beside the point.
with the last two weekends filled
with religious happenings once again
and well means more work yeah?
and then that means different people around..
and getting to know people
and well having the point of uniqueness of poeople
reinforced over and over again
and yet. beneath all that is still those similiarities
and with the want for labelling and classifying
sometimes looking between the people
you can sometimes can sorta see how people fall into their place
each taking up their position
working together and well there you have it
everything just 'clicking'
but at the same time.. there's still all that
there's the happy n normally willing people to work
but sometimes you watch them and you wonder
if its that's who they really are..
or is it just yet another layer?
i was thinking of using the word 'facade'..
but then thought about it and reconsidered..
unless there was some prior initiation..
an original source before hand..
why else would they be here..
meaning that they would have had a caring intention
or at least goodwill..
but to continuously come back...
i wonder..
coz is the world out there really that bad?
and why i wanted to use 'facade'?
it reminded me of those venetian masks
that are like made outta plaster like stuff
clay maybe?
anyways..
time wears things away..
and all this continual exposure
sooner or later. you'll get cracks n chips
and a slight slip leaves a mark of you..
in another's opinion or impression of you..
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ok that was left to rot..
but sitting through basically
an arvo worth of 'meeting'/'religious reunion'
weeks after the religious get togethers
where the aim this time was to collect money
for the next job which is indonesia (i think?)
which just got hit by some tsunami rated 8.2
followed by one last night
at bout 5.1 on the richter scale
yep. so raising money..
on the plus there's money being raised
sadly.. always from the same people
on the plus.. these people continue to keep giving
truthfully speaking..
unless this gathering actually took place..
i'd still be oblivious to it all..
for all i know..
last night i was spending my time
facebook-ing, chatting and blogging away
so really would have completely no idea
tho is it really surprising?
what seems to be a peaceful place here
its just not something you'd think about
the possibility of tragedy elsewhere
lest you stop n contemplate
to wonder.. and actually look up the news..
and yet
the reason why im picking up from
the bottom of this previous post
is the fact that today's happenings
in a way reminded me of the ongoings
of what i was writing before back before i dropped it..
is the fact that i couldnt help noticing today
the fact that a particular individual
made a comparison
to everything said.. in relation to another
and i just sat there
n wondered.. why was she even there?
she didnt have to come if she didnt want to...
as nice as it is to contribute and share experiences n all
it sort of hits excess when you say that everything noted
has happened before.. or been done before
by someone that she knew.
burst the bubble repeatedly why dont you?
coz really..
would it not be more fair for you to be out advertising?
instead of shooting down every detail?
it would be ok if it were different places or people..
but every comparison was the same...
you might as well sat there
and been like advertising for an opposing team
except..
there was no official opposing team..
this was nothing but a gathering
reminiscing what's been done..
what was acheived
and what is to be done in the near future
this is a "free" world.
and yeh there is "free" speech
and you can do whatever you choose to "freely"
so really there is nothing that could have been done
but in the same case..
you wonder..
in the place of that individual..
selectively being quiet
in some places woulda been nice for others.
tho coming from me..
i've still yet to completely learn
how to keep my mouth shut sometimes..
mm tho still i've time yet to learn
anyways.
nite nite
*hugs*
Saturday, September 22, 2007
back.. for the moment.
mm.. seems like ages since i PROPERLY blogged..
probs coz it is.
and since my grammar abilities
are following my spelling abilities
down the drain.. i thought
should maybe blog a bit again.
maybe i could return to my previous states of talk..
hopefully at least string some
cohesive sentences together once again
not that i cant usually when talking
just seems like sometimes it sound weird
and then cant remember if i said it right the first time
or not.. then i sorta go round in circles.
then yeah. lost.
so what've i been up to as of late?
nothing really.
mm the study break's been and gone..
which i guess
marks the midway of sem.. and wow..
its bout 6 weeks till exams..
n thinking back to high school days..
it would be around this time..
that i'd set myself
the impossible goal..
of "must start study now"
meanwhilst running around
reminding people how many weeks it is till exams
cept.. looking at the equiv right now..
with such a seemingly relaxed life
its just something that i cant be bothered with.
could it also be coz there's no teachers around
harpering on us about how important our exams are to us?
cept the fact that
well all we gotta do is pass.
n not have to try our best
so we can get into the best possible uni?
coz for now.. its unless you want honours..
just pass :)
mm well that and
and not repeat. by failing
tho with study related topic on mind..
with luck. my application form's done and handed in tomorrow
i will have officially applied to go to taiwan
for study tour... AGAIN!
tho somehow i've a feeling i may potentially be disappointed..
if not.. just not surprised..
what with the sorta previous experience n all..
BUT i guess i shall try to enjoy it as much as possible..
:D
so...
study break..
barely anything done..
supposedly studying n talking
seafood dinner..
msu ball.
bleh.
went by too fast.
SHOPPING... well today that is..
and well my minor post a few hours before?
well before starting to write this?
i thought i'd leave it as it is..
but seeing as how mona decided to extend on it..
i thought once again..
why not?
she did elaborate on much of what i wanted to say..
tho speaking in my defense
i was not meaning to turn the spotlight
on the brand new intimate apparel available
to the other gender now-a-days.
bleh.
better to click 'publish now'
before it ends up as a draft for eternity..
since im gonna go sleep
nite nite
*hugs*
probs coz it is.
and since my grammar abilities
are following my spelling abilities
down the drain.. i thought
should maybe blog a bit again.
maybe i could return to my previous states of talk..
hopefully at least string some
cohesive sentences together once again
not that i cant usually when talking
just seems like sometimes it sound weird
and then cant remember if i said it right the first time
or not.. then i sorta go round in circles.
then yeah. lost.
so what've i been up to as of late?
nothing really.
mm the study break's been and gone..
which i guess
marks the midway of sem.. and wow..
its bout 6 weeks till exams..
n thinking back to high school days..
it would be around this time..
that i'd set myself
the impossible goal..
of "must start study now"
meanwhilst running around
reminding people how many weeks it is till exams
cept.. looking at the equiv right now..
with such a seemingly relaxed life
its just something that i cant be bothered with.
could it also be coz there's no teachers around
harpering on us about how important our exams are to us?
cept the fact that
well all we gotta do is pass.
n not have to try our best
so we can get into the best possible uni?
coz for now.. its unless you want honours..
just pass :)
mm well that and
and not repeat. by failing
tho with study related topic on mind..
with luck. my application form's done and handed in tomorrow
i will have officially applied to go to taiwan
for study tour... AGAIN!
tho somehow i've a feeling i may potentially be disappointed..
if not.. just not surprised..
what with the sorta previous experience n all..
BUT i guess i shall try to enjoy it as much as possible..
:D
so...
study break..
barely anything done..
supposedly studying n talking
seafood dinner..
msu ball.
bleh.
went by too fast.
SHOPPING... well today that is..
and well my minor post a few hours before?
well before starting to write this?
i thought i'd leave it as it is..
but seeing as how mona decided to extend on it..
i thought once again..
why not?
she did elaborate on much of what i wanted to say..
tho speaking in my defense
i was not meaning to turn the spotlight
on the brand new intimate apparel available
to the other gender now-a-days.
bleh.
better to click 'publish now'
before it ends up as a draft for eternity..
since im gonna go sleep
nite nite
*hugs*
Friday, September 21, 2007
Catering for the Masses...
Went on a shopping spree for neccessaries today...
and well also means inevitable - bra shopping...
question...
if the majority of what's available
is push up bras...
what has this world come to..?
and well also means inevitable - bra shopping...
question...
if the majority of what's available
is push up bras...
what has this world come to..?
Saturday, September 15, 2007
Do you believe in... Tarot?
hmm wonder.. let alone net ones from facebook..
but... anyways
- Your Power Cards -
Represent strengths you were born with.
Strength
Strength denotes an inner power, mastery of will and development of inner might. Through mastering one’s emotions and learning from both success and failure, the person Strength represents has reached a place where they are influential without applying physical force. They are able to weather the roughest of storms and not likely to abandon the less fortunate. Strength also denotes a large capacity for forgiveness and compassion. Strength is not as much about winning as it is about overcoming hardship and using well crafted persuasion to ease others to your side.
When The Hanged Man is among your personal cards, the influence of Strength may be increased. Having The Chariot in your personal cards may diminish the influence of Strength.
The Fool
This card represents the dreamer in you, the idealist, the mystic. The Fool desires to do great things, but is often unaware of just how difficult great things are to do. He must always be very careful of the choices he makes, and remember that knowledge is his ally. The Fool often symbolizes a new beginning, unrestrained optimism and curiosity that hasn’t been dulled by time. While The Fool may well indicate a lack of experience or grasp of the pitfalls along the path he is taking, it is equally true that his lack of experience leads him to believe all things are possible, which brings nearly impossible goals within his grasp.
When The Hanged Man or The Star are among your personal cards, the influence of The Fool may be increased. Having The Devil in your personal cards may diminish the influence of The Fool.
- Your Desire Cards -
Focus on your ambitions and dreams.
Death
First and foremost, Death does not specifically pertain to our physical death. The Death card marks ends and beginnings. Although most illustrations of the Death card tend to be morbid, the forces behind the Death card are actually quite exciting. Yes, Death does mark the end of something, but ends are often brought about by completion and not loss. Most endings are actually good, and make room for us to begin new adventures.
When The Tower is among your personal cards, the influence of Death may be increased. Having The Fool or The Empress in your personal cards may diminish the influence of Death.
The Emperor
The Emperor is gifted with the skills to successfully lead others. He can turn chaos into order, provide structure to that which is unbound. He is quick of mind and confident in his power and right to rule, and does so in a just manner. Although stern by nature, he truly is the ultimate father figure. He will provide as needed, teach those with unanswered questions, protect the vulnerable and set and maintain boundaries. His perfect world runs on schedule and is free of any disturbances. What the Emperor must be wary of is setting boundaries and rules where none are needed. If he isn’t, he may well become a tyrant.
When The Hierophant or Justice are among your personal cards, the influence of The Emperor may be increased. Having The Empress in your personal cards may diminish the influence of The Emperor.
- Your Lucky Cards -
Represent elements that favor you.
Temperance
Temperance denotes balance and harmony. The forces behind Temperance are those that keep us from succumbing to temptation or over-indulgence. They steer us away from developing unhealthy addictions or behaviors. The Temperate Spirit avoids extremes, spreads harmony and brings opposing sides together. They find a happy, healthy median between what they want and what they need. Temperance provides an environment in which most will thrive, and a haven where the injured may heal.
When The World or The Lovers is among your personal cards, the influence of Temperance may be increased. Having The Tower or The Chariot in your personal cards may diminish the influence of Temperance.
The Hierophant
The Hierophant represents the protector of a culture’s heritage and traditions. His purpose is to defend and teach the established ways and beliefs a group embraces. He is inherently conventional and a true believer in the power of the group. He loves the structure of the group and its values. It is the task of The Hierophant to bring new members into the group; to prepare the uninitiated to take their rightful place in his culture. In this sense he is very much like a teacher or a priest. He also acts as the repository of his group’s history. The Hierophant is certainly not one to buck proper authority. However, he is staunch and worthy defender of the tried and true. He represents the positive aspects of conformity.
When The Emperor is among your personal cards, the influence of The Hierophant may be increased. Having The Fool or The Lovers in your personal cards may diminish the influence of The Hierophant.
- Your Growth Cards -
Represent influences you will need to take advantage of over the next year.
The Lovers
The Lovers indicates both the most powerful of unions and the most challenging of conflicts. On one side, The Lover’s embodies love and union on a cosmic scale. A love so strong, so inherently good that it actually makes the lovers better. All of the elements are there for the perfect union. The Lovers represent all powerful unions in general and the elements that sustain them. The problem The Lovers face is temptation and the decision to act immorally to take advantage of other opportunities that would be defined as transgressions.
The Lovers influence is increased when The Empress is among your personal cards. Having The Hierophant or The Hermit in your personal cards may diminish the influence of the Lovers.
The Fool
This card represents the dreamer in you, the idealist, the mystic. The Fool desires to do great things, but is often unaware of just how difficult great things are to do. He must always be very careful of the choices he makes, and remember that knowledge is his ally. The Fool often symbolizes a new beginning, unrestrained optimism and curiosity that hasn’t been dulled by time. While The Fool may well indicate a lack of experience or grasp of the pitfalls along the path he is taking, it is equally true that his lack of experience leads him to believe all things are possible, which brings nearly impossible goals within his grasp.
When The Hanged Man or The Star are among your personal cards, the influence of The Fool may be increased. Having The Devil in your personal cards may diminish the influence of The Fool.
- Your Core Cards -
Represent your most basic traits. All that you are begins with the influences associated with these cards.
The World
Like The Sun, The World brings good blessings to your set of personal cards. The World appears where all is in balance. It allows you to act effectively, not only as an individual, but as a member of a group as well. The World promises contentment, fulfillment and completeness to those under its influence. It doesn’t guarantee there will not be moments of strife or discord in your life, but it does indicate that your trials and tribulations will be overcome; that ultimately you will know inner-peace and contentment. The World suggests you have found or will find your place in our Universe. That place where all is as it should be.
When Temperance or The Sun are among your personal cards, the influence of The World may be increased. Having The Hermit in your personal cards may diminish the influence of The World.
The Empress
She embodies all that is nurturing, clean and wholesome. Her powers resonate from her drive to create and care for life on a grand scale. She is in tune with Nature’s rhythm and realizes that life’s most pleasurable moments often stem from the simplest things. She is not afraid to enjoy herself and let loose, even to the point of being lavish. Abundance and luxury are important to her. The Empress is completely comfortable with her femininity and her sexuality. She is sensual, earthy, generous and likes the good life. Still, her driving force is a need to create and nurture, and fulfilling this need overrides everything else.
When The Lover or The Star are among your personal cards, the influence of The Empress may be increased. Having the Emperor or Death in your personal cards may diminish the influence of The Empress.
now.. what does that all mean?
beats me..
and there are quite a few contradictory cards..
i havent blogged in ages.
and well dont think its gonna happen anytime soon..
interesting tho. i got 'the fool' twice..
wonder if it's suggesting something :p
bleh.
tired.
bye.
but... anyways
- Your Power Cards -
Represent strengths you were born with.
Strength
Strength denotes an inner power, mastery of will and development of inner might. Through mastering one’s emotions and learning from both success and failure, the person Strength represents has reached a place where they are influential without applying physical force. They are able to weather the roughest of storms and not likely to abandon the less fortunate. Strength also denotes a large capacity for forgiveness and compassion. Strength is not as much about winning as it is about overcoming hardship and using well crafted persuasion to ease others to your side.
When The Hanged Man is among your personal cards, the influence of Strength may be increased. Having The Chariot in your personal cards may diminish the influence of Strength.
The Fool
This card represents the dreamer in you, the idealist, the mystic. The Fool desires to do great things, but is often unaware of just how difficult great things are to do. He must always be very careful of the choices he makes, and remember that knowledge is his ally. The Fool often symbolizes a new beginning, unrestrained optimism and curiosity that hasn’t been dulled by time. While The Fool may well indicate a lack of experience or grasp of the pitfalls along the path he is taking, it is equally true that his lack of experience leads him to believe all things are possible, which brings nearly impossible goals within his grasp.
When The Hanged Man or The Star are among your personal cards, the influence of The Fool may be increased. Having The Devil in your personal cards may diminish the influence of The Fool.
- Your Desire Cards -
Focus on your ambitions and dreams.
Death
First and foremost, Death does not specifically pertain to our physical death. The Death card marks ends and beginnings. Although most illustrations of the Death card tend to be morbid, the forces behind the Death card are actually quite exciting. Yes, Death does mark the end of something, but ends are often brought about by completion and not loss. Most endings are actually good, and make room for us to begin new adventures.
When The Tower is among your personal cards, the influence of Death may be increased. Having The Fool or The Empress in your personal cards may diminish the influence of Death.
The Emperor
The Emperor is gifted with the skills to successfully lead others. He can turn chaos into order, provide structure to that which is unbound. He is quick of mind and confident in his power and right to rule, and does so in a just manner. Although stern by nature, he truly is the ultimate father figure. He will provide as needed, teach those with unanswered questions, protect the vulnerable and set and maintain boundaries. His perfect world runs on schedule and is free of any disturbances. What the Emperor must be wary of is setting boundaries and rules where none are needed. If he isn’t, he may well become a tyrant.
When The Hierophant or Justice are among your personal cards, the influence of The Emperor may be increased. Having The Empress in your personal cards may diminish the influence of The Emperor.
- Your Lucky Cards -
Represent elements that favor you.
Temperance
Temperance denotes balance and harmony. The forces behind Temperance are those that keep us from succumbing to temptation or over-indulgence. They steer us away from developing unhealthy addictions or behaviors. The Temperate Spirit avoids extremes, spreads harmony and brings opposing sides together. They find a happy, healthy median between what they want and what they need. Temperance provides an environment in which most will thrive, and a haven where the injured may heal.
When The World or The Lovers is among your personal cards, the influence of Temperance may be increased. Having The Tower or The Chariot in your personal cards may diminish the influence of Temperance.
The Hierophant
The Hierophant represents the protector of a culture’s heritage and traditions. His purpose is to defend and teach the established ways and beliefs a group embraces. He is inherently conventional and a true believer in the power of the group. He loves the structure of the group and its values. It is the task of The Hierophant to bring new members into the group; to prepare the uninitiated to take their rightful place in his culture. In this sense he is very much like a teacher or a priest. He also acts as the repository of his group’s history. The Hierophant is certainly not one to buck proper authority. However, he is staunch and worthy defender of the tried and true. He represents the positive aspects of conformity.
When The Emperor is among your personal cards, the influence of The Hierophant may be increased. Having The Fool or The Lovers in your personal cards may diminish the influence of The Hierophant.
- Your Growth Cards -
Represent influences you will need to take advantage of over the next year.
The Lovers
The Lovers indicates both the most powerful of unions and the most challenging of conflicts. On one side, The Lover’s embodies love and union on a cosmic scale. A love so strong, so inherently good that it actually makes the lovers better. All of the elements are there for the perfect union. The Lovers represent all powerful unions in general and the elements that sustain them. The problem The Lovers face is temptation and the decision to act immorally to take advantage of other opportunities that would be defined as transgressions.
The Lovers influence is increased when The Empress is among your personal cards. Having The Hierophant or The Hermit in your personal cards may diminish the influence of the Lovers.
The Fool
This card represents the dreamer in you, the idealist, the mystic. The Fool desires to do great things, but is often unaware of just how difficult great things are to do. He must always be very careful of the choices he makes, and remember that knowledge is his ally. The Fool often symbolizes a new beginning, unrestrained optimism and curiosity that hasn’t been dulled by time. While The Fool may well indicate a lack of experience or grasp of the pitfalls along the path he is taking, it is equally true that his lack of experience leads him to believe all things are possible, which brings nearly impossible goals within his grasp.
When The Hanged Man or The Star are among your personal cards, the influence of The Fool may be increased. Having The Devil in your personal cards may diminish the influence of The Fool.
- Your Core Cards -
Represent your most basic traits. All that you are begins with the influences associated with these cards.
The World
Like The Sun, The World brings good blessings to your set of personal cards. The World appears where all is in balance. It allows you to act effectively, not only as an individual, but as a member of a group as well. The World promises contentment, fulfillment and completeness to those under its influence. It doesn’t guarantee there will not be moments of strife or discord in your life, but it does indicate that your trials and tribulations will be overcome; that ultimately you will know inner-peace and contentment. The World suggests you have found or will find your place in our Universe. That place where all is as it should be.
When Temperance or The Sun are among your personal cards, the influence of The World may be increased. Having The Hermit in your personal cards may diminish the influence of The World.
The Empress
She embodies all that is nurturing, clean and wholesome. Her powers resonate from her drive to create and care for life on a grand scale. She is in tune with Nature’s rhythm and realizes that life’s most pleasurable moments often stem from the simplest things. She is not afraid to enjoy herself and let loose, even to the point of being lavish. Abundance and luxury are important to her. The Empress is completely comfortable with her femininity and her sexuality. She is sensual, earthy, generous and likes the good life. Still, her driving force is a need to create and nurture, and fulfilling this need overrides everything else.
When The Lover or The Star are among your personal cards, the influence of The Empress may be increased. Having the Emperor or Death in your personal cards may diminish the influence of The Empress.
now.. what does that all mean?
beats me..
and there are quite a few contradictory cards..
i havent blogged in ages.
and well dont think its gonna happen anytime soon..
interesting tho. i got 'the fool' twice..
wonder if it's suggesting something :p
bleh.
tired.
bye.
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
OoOoOoOoO Cherie...it's slepe time *yawn*
ok so div n nith visited yesterday.
and do i have more to write on that?
not really..
wish i did. but it passed by
and thats about it it seems
and i guess i agree with mona
nothing to write about these days
do i think?
so to think about thinking?
or think of anything constructive?
are there such things as constructive thoughts?
thoughts of construction?
the construction of thoughts?
how? and to perceive?
is perceiving the same as interpreting?
what's involved?
and the reflective hearing?
do i get what i mean across?
or does it some how just end up floating
somewhere in between the potential poles
of what it possibly mean..
meaning it gets no where in the end?
magic.
how much do you believe in it?
from magic, miracles to mirages
each has their own connotation
but in the end is it not to the individual
to class an event as any of the three
for any phenomena that they wish?
or to place it under title
of an unexplored region of science?
for any show of magic
is it not a skill of distraction?
to be able to veil the true intention
beneath the public mask?
a miracle
an occurrence of the impossible
in times when hope is lost.
for without the feeling of desperation
where would the value of the event be?
is it not that in the greatest times of hunger
that we find even the most basic foods
as the delicacies of heaven??
and the mirage.
for what else is there?
but simple illusion
where the sheep follow in blind faith
to reach out for some star in the sky
despite the slipping of the feet
over the side of the cliff
as you fall.
am i sure about what im on about anymore?
and the usual answer?
nope.
is today any different.
nope
and so.
off to bed i go.
its late yet again
nite nite
*hugs*
and do i have more to write on that?
not really..
wish i did. but it passed by
and thats about it it seems
and i guess i agree with mona
nothing to write about these days
do i think?
so to think about thinking?
or think of anything constructive?
are there such things as constructive thoughts?
thoughts of construction?
the construction of thoughts?
how? and to perceive?
is perceiving the same as interpreting?
what's involved?
and the reflective hearing?
do i get what i mean across?
or does it some how just end up floating
somewhere in between the potential poles
of what it possibly mean..
meaning it gets no where in the end?
magic.
how much do you believe in it?
from magic, miracles to mirages
each has their own connotation
but in the end is it not to the individual
to class an event as any of the three
for any phenomena that they wish?
or to place it under title
of an unexplored region of science?
for any show of magic
is it not a skill of distraction?
to be able to veil the true intention
beneath the public mask?
a miracle
an occurrence of the impossible
in times when hope is lost.
for without the feeling of desperation
where would the value of the event be?
is it not that in the greatest times of hunger
that we find even the most basic foods
as the delicacies of heaven??
and the mirage.
for what else is there?
but simple illusion
where the sheep follow in blind faith
to reach out for some star in the sky
despite the slipping of the feet
over the side of the cliff
as you fall.
am i sure about what im on about anymore?
and the usual answer?
nope.
is today any different.
nope
and so.
off to bed i go.
its late yet again
nite nite
*hugs*
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Blankly. Belated. Bloggie. B'day.
Looking at past yrs around this time
would be the onset of "bloggie's b'day soon"
well. least for some yrs. not all
but anyways
thing to say?
its now bloggie is 4 yrs old :)
as of 3 days ago..
but buried down in business
i failed to notice.. till.. well.. today
and with this post as #443
supposedly according to the dashboard.
that means a solid round about 110 post per year :)
am i or should i even be proud? i have no idea...
tho to keep it going there woulda been repetition along the way
bleh. im tired
but somehow i forsee this to be one of those
i dunno why i still do it but i do sorta things
not sure tho bout the post frequency...
now its getting late
and im really sleep deprived..
of the reason i have no idea
but with long day tomoz
shall write later
nite
*hugs*
would be the onset of "bloggie's b'day soon"
well. least for some yrs. not all
but anyways
thing to say?
its now bloggie is 4 yrs old :)
as of 3 days ago..
but buried down in business
i failed to notice.. till.. well.. today
and with this post as #443
supposedly according to the dashboard.
that means a solid round about 110 post per year :)
am i or should i even be proud? i have no idea...
tho to keep it going there woulda been repetition along the way
bleh. im tired
but somehow i forsee this to be one of those
i dunno why i still do it but i do sorta things
not sure tho bout the post frequency...
now its getting late
and im really sleep deprived..
of the reason i have no idea
but with long day tomoz
shall write later
nite
*hugs*
Shadows of the Past.
Delete.
Delete.
Delete.
that's what's happened to a few posts lately..
why?
coz they're drivel.
but seems like they're all about 3 or 4 liners
which get nowhere.
and by the time i wanna continue em
i cant even remember the point in the first place -.-
well we're into the 4th week into 2nd semester...
whilst im sinking underneath my sea of notes-to-be-written
and meanwhilst
week after week im set back further and further
as quiz after quiz is after me for answers
short answers n MCQ.. they're after me.. gahhhhhhh
and dont get me started on Lab reports *shakes head*
and now..
its about 9pm
and i have no clue as to where my h bio lab manual is
so i could study.. or maybe do tomorrow's prelab
*sigh* labs everyday -.-
tho then again i guess better than
having to to class presentation ^^
anth *shrudders*
the other day..
i was thinking about some aspect of truth
and you know just like many things in life
which could be distorted by our perspectives
is it that truth can be relative too?
for the possible single syllable that you omit
or the tone that you could say it in
or for the person receiving
the interpretation could change anything
from one meaning to the next.
i once said to someone..
that "i try to live in the present"
but you know.. even for that.
seven words. the different circumstances
which surround and bind
twist n turn
each experience either
collapsing or creating
a whole new barrier
to whether or not things may be achieved
and even at that would words we say
forever be etched in our minds?
for the things we remember
may just not be the same as any other?
each moment has its own significance to another
just as each person's priorities change
and yet to stop n dwell on an occurence
that's something thats worth doing in the end
for all the things you realise you do
or dont do
that you could have done, or said or undone
or at the very least apologised or accounted for..
or even just to stop and ask WHY??
what happened?
you let time pass.
and every moment the single thing that you CHOOSE to do
angles your course yet again shaping and sulpturing
the fine tendrils of the river of your life.
===============================================
ok so i havent touched this in ages. YET AGAIN
but. it was too long n wasteful to delete it..
save the letters!
:S
maybe.. thoughts more than letters...
despite the fact that its the letters strung together
that put a medium for communication..
bleh. so its nearing a month since i last published
why?
coz im either procratting for some reason or the other
and well other alternatives look so much brighter than blogging
well at that particular moment... series!! ^^
that plus lack of thoughts that i can actually remember
by the end of the day.. its all disappeared...
anyways better end this here
or i'll never start a new slate
nite nite
*hugs*
Delete.
Delete.
that's what's happened to a few posts lately..
why?
coz they're drivel.
but seems like they're all about 3 or 4 liners
which get nowhere.
and by the time i wanna continue em
i cant even remember the point in the first place -.-
well we're into the 4th week into 2nd semester...
whilst im sinking underneath my sea of notes-to-be-written
and meanwhilst
week after week im set back further and further
as quiz after quiz is after me for answers
short answers n MCQ.. they're after me.. gahhhhhhh
and dont get me started on Lab reports *shakes head*
and now..
its about 9pm
and i have no clue as to where my h bio lab manual is
so i could study.. or maybe do tomorrow's prelab
*sigh* labs everyday -.-
tho then again i guess better than
having to to class presentation ^^
anth *shrudders*
the other day..
i was thinking about some aspect of truth
and you know just like many things in life
which could be distorted by our perspectives
is it that truth can be relative too?
for the possible single syllable that you omit
or the tone that you could say it in
or for the person receiving
the interpretation could change anything
from one meaning to the next.
i once said to someone..
that "i try to live in the present"
but you know.. even for that.
seven words. the different circumstances
which surround and bind
twist n turn
each experience either
collapsing or creating
a whole new barrier
to whether or not things may be achieved
and even at that would words we say
forever be etched in our minds?
for the things we remember
may just not be the same as any other?
each moment has its own significance to another
just as each person's priorities change
and yet to stop n dwell on an occurence
that's something thats worth doing in the end
for all the things you realise you do
or dont do
that you could have done, or said or undone
or at the very least apologised or accounted for..
or even just to stop and ask WHY??
what happened?
you let time pass.
and every moment the single thing that you CHOOSE to do
angles your course yet again shaping and sulpturing
the fine tendrils of the river of your life.
===============================================
ok so i havent touched this in ages. YET AGAIN
but. it was too long n wasteful to delete it..
save the letters!
:S
maybe.. thoughts more than letters...
despite the fact that its the letters strung together
that put a medium for communication..
bleh. so its nearing a month since i last published
why?
coz im either procratting for some reason or the other
and well other alternatives look so much brighter than blogging
well at that particular moment... series!! ^^
that plus lack of thoughts that i can actually remember
by the end of the day.. its all disappeared...
anyways better end this here
or i'll never start a new slate
nite nite
*hugs*
Monday, August 06, 2007
That's... That's.. That's Absolutely SCANDALOUS!
standards.
that's what i wanna talk about
and with that sorta start
i wonder if i'll be able to keep on track?
hmm a test on standards for my own blog?
is it lack of assessments as of yet?
or am i just bored?
i think i'll stick with bored....
i dunno why i would willingly take
academic assessments in the first place
(least not for any pointless reason)
==========================================
rain rain rain..
its been raining quite a bit lately
and well within the time frame of a week
2 brella's gone *tear*
now i gotta go find a new one
tho using my sister's for the moment i guess
tho with the rain
and combine that with 2 hour breaks
to walk around a bit
i guess sometimes i can afford a thought or two
tho about thoughts..
a q came mind..
like when you think..
you sorta have your own voice in your head
and it speaks yeah? like mentally
you hear a voice which most would deem
as the conscious or like the state of being conscious
then like...
what would it be like.
if you're deaf or mute?
like we hear ourselves
coz we comprehend what we say as we grew up
learning by associating things and concepts with sounds
like you name and label things..
so what would it be like to be in the mind
of someone who grew up deaf or mute
there are no sounds to associate
you've never heard them
would everything then...
be in the labelling of visuals?
like the thoughts we have
just come up as a series of sentences
inside our minds? sorta like some person
typing way in your line of vision?
and what of those like helen keller?
that are deaf AND blind?
tho for her the case was that it was after fever
but there wouldnt be much recollection
before the damage anyways
so what would it be like?
since the thinking process as we know it
well to be more precise.. as i know it
is basically what you're reading..
==================================================
ok...
so the morning i after i wrote the above..
we were on to thought of children
which is sorta similar
but only slightly..
bleh. time to publish or i'll never start new
or write anything at all.
nite
*hugs*
that's what i wanna talk about
and with that sorta start
i wonder if i'll be able to keep on track?
hmm a test on standards for my own blog?
is it lack of assessments as of yet?
or am i just bored?
i think i'll stick with bored....
i dunno why i would willingly take
academic assessments in the first place
(least not for any pointless reason)
==========================================
rain rain rain..
its been raining quite a bit lately
and well within the time frame of a week
2 brella's gone *tear*
now i gotta go find a new one
tho using my sister's for the moment i guess
tho with the rain
and combine that with 2 hour breaks
to walk around a bit
i guess sometimes i can afford a thought or two
tho about thoughts..
a q came mind..
like when you think..
you sorta have your own voice in your head
and it speaks yeah? like mentally
you hear a voice which most would deem
as the conscious or like the state of being conscious
then like...
what would it be like.
if you're deaf or mute?
like we hear ourselves
coz we comprehend what we say as we grew up
learning by associating things and concepts with sounds
like you name and label things..
so what would it be like to be in the mind
of someone who grew up deaf or mute
there are no sounds to associate
you've never heard them
would everything then...
be in the labelling of visuals?
like the thoughts we have
just come up as a series of sentences
inside our minds? sorta like some person
typing way in your line of vision?
and what of those like helen keller?
that are deaf AND blind?
tho for her the case was that it was after fever
but there wouldnt be much recollection
before the damage anyways
so what would it be like?
since the thinking process as we know it
well to be more precise.. as i know it
is basically what you're reading..
==================================================
ok...
so the morning i after i wrote the above..
we were on to thought of children
which is sorta similar
but only slightly..
bleh. time to publish or i'll never start new
or write anything at all.
nite
*hugs*
Saturday, July 28, 2007
Every Second, A Step Closer to the Edge.
the whole week's gone by
sometimes you dont realise
how the minor details just flutter away
and you're in a whole new day the very next moment
i was thinking about beliefs
what do you believe in?
in my utter boredom
i decided to crack open my chem lab manual
to take a sneak peek at what's to come on mon's lab
and to my great astonishment (not really)
there lay my answers.
i knew i could always count on chem :P
it could be like my bible equiv to the world..
wow.
well as people know.
resto's up and running again
for the last month nearly
and with the new opening came a review from the post
everything was pretty much rated excellently
cept for the fact that "service" and "ambience"
scored pretty lowly
around 2 or 3 outta 5
esp with being understaffed
im back to help out 2 hours every night
i think? :S not sure yet..
first evening back to work tonight.
nothing speccy i guess..
would have nothing to blog about
all until i got snapped at.
tho i guess its probs mostly me being annoyed
at being snapped at that im writing this
as well as sorta the principle behind it.
maybe she was having a crappy day too..
i dunno. multiple variables
served up a dish.
and well for most people who eat a diff cuisine
they come for something different
yeah makes sense?
its sorta like part of different culture learning yeah?
its like eat chinese with chopsticks
and well western cuisine with knife and fork?
and other ones with just your hands
its just like another element
to eating a different cuisine yeah?
sorta learning and enjoying the experience
so yeah dish served and i was bored
so was scanning around to see if anyone needs help
noticed the dish i served up before
and well they were eating it
separately instead of together
so i walked over
and just excused myself
and suggested the alternative way of consuming it
which is something i've always done back in yr 10
like you learn some new way of eating
its sorta like enhances the experience yeah?
like there's people who learnt back then
and loved it
but i guess its more of feedback
from regular customers
so back to the story
gave my lil suggestion
and all i got in return was an
"i already understand thanks" snap
you know the cold tone to people's voices?
*sigh*
i dunno maybe its just my view
but if you go to another cuisine
you go for the experience of different foods
and you learn a new way of eating
so why just go eat a different food
and carry across your enthocentric views
otherwise how else will you learn new things?
new style of eating.
im just frustrated at that tho.
but in the end i guess its me
not liking to be snapped at.
but back to my point.
its like the neo-travelling nowadays
where people actually learn the culture
they go into places and learn the lifestyle of places
not to travel just to stay in hotels
where everything is up to international standards
tho then again some people travel just for that...
hmm nothing on beliefs in the end..
well nothing i wanted to write
it was more of a thought of mine after work
so yep getting late
nite nite
*hugs*
-Del
sometimes you dont realise
how the minor details just flutter away
and you're in a whole new day the very next moment
i was thinking about beliefs
what do you believe in?
in my utter boredom
i decided to crack open my chem lab manual
to take a sneak peek at what's to come on mon's lab
and to my great astonishment (not really)
there lay my answers.
i knew i could always count on chem :P
Believe nothing,
No matter where you readit,
Or who said it,
No matter if I have said it,
Unless it agrees with your own reason
and your own common sense
-Buddha
it could be like my bible equiv to the world..
wow.
well as people know.
resto's up and running again
for the last month nearly
and with the new opening came a review from the post
everything was pretty much rated excellently
cept for the fact that "service" and "ambience"
scored pretty lowly
around 2 or 3 outta 5
esp with being understaffed
im back to help out 2 hours every night
i think? :S not sure yet..
first evening back to work tonight.
nothing speccy i guess..
would have nothing to blog about
all until i got snapped at.
tho i guess its probs mostly me being annoyed
at being snapped at that im writing this
as well as sorta the principle behind it.
maybe she was having a crappy day too..
i dunno. multiple variables
served up a dish.
and well for most people who eat a diff cuisine
they come for something different
yeah makes sense?
its sorta like part of different culture learning yeah?
its like eat chinese with chopsticks
and well western cuisine with knife and fork?
and other ones with just your hands
its just like another element
to eating a different cuisine yeah?
sorta learning and enjoying the experience
so yeah dish served and i was bored
so was scanning around to see if anyone needs help
noticed the dish i served up before
and well they were eating it
separately instead of together
so i walked over
and just excused myself
and suggested the alternative way of consuming it
which is something i've always done back in yr 10
like you learn some new way of eating
its sorta like enhances the experience yeah?
like there's people who learnt back then
and loved it
but i guess its more of feedback
from regular customers
so back to the story
gave my lil suggestion
and all i got in return was an
"i already understand thanks" snap
you know the cold tone to people's voices?
*sigh*
i dunno maybe its just my view
but if you go to another cuisine
you go for the experience of different foods
and you learn a new way of eating
so why just go eat a different food
and carry across your enthocentric views
otherwise how else will you learn new things?
new style of eating.
im just frustrated at that tho.
but in the end i guess its me
not liking to be snapped at.
but back to my point.
its like the neo-travelling nowadays
where people actually learn the culture
they go into places and learn the lifestyle of places
not to travel just to stay in hotels
where everything is up to international standards
tho then again some people travel just for that...
hmm nothing on beliefs in the end..
well nothing i wanted to write
it was more of a thought of mine after work
so yep getting late
nite nite
*hugs*
-Del
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
The Little World of Voices in My Head.
do i really have a world of voices in my head?
no i highly doubt it..
unless that's really what they want me to believe!?
what am i on about?
i have no idea
the voices are making me do it.
maybe its just my multiple consciousness-es
and you wonder.
of all the voices
which ones are the way
and the others just noise?
finding the pathway through the haze
*sigh*
i guess in the end its usually when emotions run high
or at least rise and fall
that i have the greatest amount to write about
least when i have time to reflect
and to have those lil conversations in my mind
that those thoughts bubble together
but in your own mind
how much do you trust those voices?
even tho you know them as your own
for some you as enticing as they are you just wanna believe
and yet there's the pull at the other end
the other voices
and there's those that just sit there and commune
isnt it so easy to believe what you're willing to?
and yet in the end
after it all.. all you're left with
is a sense of empty believe that you were once deluded
that or disillusioned.
wasnt it just easier to turn away from the start?
and what of that, that you still wish to deny?
you turn and walk away and yet it pulls you again.
and again. always there
nagging and grabbing for your attention
and yet there's little way to refuse?
what is the self?
the actual individual within you
that makes the decisions?
what if its wrong?
what is there to fall back on afterward?
who's there to console but the silence?
as the noise fades? and you're left with what?
nothing but the reverberations of the past
of what the bright future had bought
the resonance of the days past
was it really what you wanted?
what you wished for?
the hope for the days to come,
all which came to nil? nada? zilch?
all this while, the around the outside
everything else turns, you stand still
and yet the world revolves
you want it to stop to notice you long enough
for you to get back on to your feet
to be the way you were before your path branched
and you made your choice of the split
amongst all the noise, all the distractions
you dont need the world to revolve around you
but could it not just stop for a few seconds?
reading this.
all you could think would be pathetic?
well what are emotions for you?
if you numb it all off...
is it not the same end?
all minus the knowledge of the moments of delusion
is the fall worth the moments of disillusion?
for those who've known the sweetness
how can they return?
and yet for those who have not known
live as they were previously not knowing
the product, the cost nor its worth
so tell me dear.
which path is it you follow?
can you really hear the melody amongst the noise?
you know?
its has yet to be a full week of uni yet.
and its been pretty good
day after day a new surprise
something that i guess i never thought possible
for mid-year since its sem 2
but day after day has yet to disappoint me
ranging from people who've helped me
to those who are just are are around to spend time with
and of course to those people of the past who've appeared
like OMG Praggie :D
small world after all
getting late now
nite nite
*hugs*
-Del
no i highly doubt it..
unless that's really what they want me to believe!?
what am i on about?
i have no idea
the voices are making me do it.
maybe its just my multiple consciousness-es
and you wonder.
of all the voices
which ones are the way
and the others just noise?
finding the pathway through the haze
*sigh*
i guess in the end its usually when emotions run high
or at least rise and fall
that i have the greatest amount to write about
least when i have time to reflect
and to have those lil conversations in my mind
that those thoughts bubble together
but in your own mind
how much do you trust those voices?
even tho you know them as your own
for some you as enticing as they are you just wanna believe
and yet there's the pull at the other end
the other voices
and there's those that just sit there and commune
isnt it so easy to believe what you're willing to?
and yet in the end
after it all.. all you're left with
is a sense of empty believe that you were once deluded
that or disillusioned.
wasnt it just easier to turn away from the start?
and what of that, that you still wish to deny?
you turn and walk away and yet it pulls you again.
and again. always there
nagging and grabbing for your attention
and yet there's little way to refuse?
what is the self?
the actual individual within you
that makes the decisions?
what if its wrong?
what is there to fall back on afterward?
who's there to console but the silence?
as the noise fades? and you're left with what?
nothing but the reverberations of the past
of what the bright future had bought
the resonance of the days past
was it really what you wanted?
what you wished for?
the hope for the days to come,
all which came to nil? nada? zilch?
all this while, the around the outside
everything else turns, you stand still
and yet the world revolves
you want it to stop to notice you long enough
for you to get back on to your feet
to be the way you were before your path branched
and you made your choice of the split
amongst all the noise, all the distractions
you dont need the world to revolve around you
but could it not just stop for a few seconds?
reading this.
all you could think would be pathetic?
well what are emotions for you?
if you numb it all off...
is it not the same end?
all minus the knowledge of the moments of delusion
is the fall worth the moments of disillusion?
for those who've known the sweetness
how can they return?
and yet for those who have not known
live as they were previously not knowing
the product, the cost nor its worth
so tell me dear.
which path is it you follow?
can you really hear the melody amongst the noise?
you know?
its has yet to be a full week of uni yet.
and its been pretty good
day after day a new surprise
something that i guess i never thought possible
for mid-year since its sem 2
but day after day has yet to disappoint me
ranging from people who've helped me
to those who are just are are around to spend time with
and of course to those people of the past who've appeared
like OMG Praggie :D
small world after all
getting late now
nite nite
*hugs*
-Del
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
*Think Think Think*
You know..
someone told me today..
that the more you try to remember something
the less likely you're able to remember it..
is it true?
hmm maybe for things forgotten i guess
what i dont understand tho
is the need for people to put their feet up
in the middle of lectures
on the seats in front of them
i swear i was in h bio sitting there
intently listening then
*THUNK*
i look to my right and there's this foot
right where the seat next to me is
the leg is basically in line with my face
-.-
look back to the front trying not to be distracted
by the thoughts of annoyance bubbling up
but its in the corner of my line of view
so turn around to look at the person
but nope not a glare
look back to the front
ah well let it go
after a while...
thank goodness..
they take their foot away
coz there's a new slide
with lotsa words
so busily scribble away
then
*THUNK*
the leg again
-.-
new slide
*legs removed*
then hoping that finally they finished
*THUNK THUNK*
great.. double thunk..
no not one leg bouncing up n down
BOTH OF THEM
Grrrr...
on the whole least they were wearing shoes
i guess that's something ill never get
public places and putting your feet up.
anyways
ive yet to remember what i wanted to write about
nite nite
*hugs*
-Del
someone told me today..
that the more you try to remember something
the less likely you're able to remember it..
is it true?
hmm maybe for things forgotten i guess
what i dont understand tho
is the need for people to put their feet up
in the middle of lectures
on the seats in front of them
i swear i was in h bio sitting there
intently listening then
*THUNK*
i look to my right and there's this foot
right where the seat next to me is
the leg is basically in line with my face
-.-
look back to the front trying not to be distracted
by the thoughts of annoyance bubbling up
but its in the corner of my line of view
so turn around to look at the person
but nope not a glare
look back to the front
ah well let it go
after a while...
thank goodness..
they take their foot away
coz there's a new slide
with lotsa words
so busily scribble away
then
*THUNK*
the leg again
-.-
new slide
*legs removed*
then hoping that finally they finished
*THUNK THUNK*
great.. double thunk..
no not one leg bouncing up n down
BOTH OF THEM
Grrrr...
on the whole least they were wearing shoes
i guess that's something ill never get
public places and putting your feet up.
anyways
ive yet to remember what i wanted to write about
nite nite
*hugs*
-Del
Monday, July 23, 2007
Like No Other... Do You Believe?
Home Sweet Home.
Gone for two-ish weeks and back once again.
But ive nothing to say..
hmm.
maybe i still need more sleep?
==========================================
mm first day back
what happened?
not much really..
class class n more class
i like writing about my thoughts more
more meaningful for me..
but more boringful for whoever chooses to read
bleh MY blog :D
damn i actually had thoughts today too
cant remember them..
bleh lets talk about my two weeks away
i guess one of the more shocking stories
of what i saw..
more of what lina saw
and i sorta just glanced coz i was busy
and lina went to stop it
was that in one of the flooded regions
coz they were living in temp built disaster tents
was that there was this kid who had gotten so hungry
saw that there was a loose nail from a wooden chair
so (s)he pulled the rusty nail
and started sucking and chewing on it
and then there's those other people
who's zippers on teh pants are so broke
and they have no money to buy new clothes
so they use a thin rope
to zig zag sew across the zipper line
and then when the rope reaches the top of the pants
doesnt sew it in
but leaves it open so that they can go to teh bathroom
then pull the top end to close up their pants instead of using zippers
the other was this gentleman
who instead completely sewed up the zipper bit
which i guess assumes the zipper was broken
since they were so big and used a rope to tie around the waist
*sigh*
other than that i dont really remember anything
i remember long bumpy car rides
in cars which smelled like petrol
had leaked into the aircon system
with people who smoked any and everywhere
and not to mention the lovely squat pans
or at times rows of sectioned of tiled trenches
for toilet usage and within them their lovely poo piles
after all i say
i still havent thought of what i thought of this morning
ah wells.
next time maybe
*hugs*
-Del
Gone for two-ish weeks and back once again.
But ive nothing to say..
hmm.
maybe i still need more sleep?
==========================================
mm first day back
what happened?
not much really..
class class n more class
i like writing about my thoughts more
more meaningful for me..
but more boringful for whoever chooses to read
bleh MY blog :D
damn i actually had thoughts today too
cant remember them..
bleh lets talk about my two weeks away
i guess one of the more shocking stories
of what i saw..
more of what lina saw
and i sorta just glanced coz i was busy
and lina went to stop it
was that in one of the flooded regions
coz they were living in temp built disaster tents
was that there was this kid who had gotten so hungry
saw that there was a loose nail from a wooden chair
so (s)he pulled the rusty nail
and started sucking and chewing on it
and then there's those other people
who's zippers on teh pants are so broke
and they have no money to buy new clothes
so they use a thin rope
to zig zag sew across the zipper line
and then when the rope reaches the top of the pants
doesnt sew it in
but leaves it open so that they can go to teh bathroom
then pull the top end to close up their pants instead of using zippers
the other was this gentleman
who instead completely sewed up the zipper bit
which i guess assumes the zipper was broken
since they were so big and used a rope to tie around the waist
*sigh*
other than that i dont really remember anything
i remember long bumpy car rides
in cars which smelled like petrol
had leaked into the aircon system
with people who smoked any and everywhere
and not to mention the lovely squat pans
or at times rows of sectioned of tiled trenches
for toilet usage and within them their lovely poo piles
after all i say
i still havent thought of what i thought of this morning
ah wells.
next time maybe
*hugs*
-Del
Saturday, June 30, 2007
Migratory Rainfall
its true!!
well not in that way
but well i only just realised today
that rain moves.
*sigh*
and i studied geogs last yr too
i guess with the relativity
i assumed coz it was raining
in this part of the city
the other part of the city would be raining too
so shocked was i
to realise.
that there was rain in the backyard
and none in the front yard.
i ran between the yards to check it out
(within the house that is
dun wanna get caught in the rain)
then in like 3 mins time
the rain in the back yard stopped
and it started raining in the front yard
like WOW!
does this really show you that im bored atm?
hmm either that or simple minded
never thought about rain that much
*hugs*
-Del
well not in that way
but well i only just realised today
that rain moves.
*sigh*
and i studied geogs last yr too
i guess with the relativity
i assumed coz it was raining
in this part of the city
the other part of the city would be raining too
so shocked was i
to realise.
that there was rain in the backyard
and none in the front yard.
i ran between the yards to check it out
(within the house that is
dun wanna get caught in the rain)
then in like 3 mins time
the rain in the back yard stopped
and it started raining in the front yard
like WOW!
does this really show you that im bored atm?
hmm either that or simple minded
never thought about rain that much
*hugs*
-Del
Smile.
couldnt help it.
had to log in again to post.
Smile.
something so simple.
but it just could brighten up someone's day
and the fact that its such a basic and simple thing
just a simple face expression
which involves the contraction
of a series of facial muscles
and voila.
an expression of friendliness
a guess a memory i had of when i was younger
was this guy in my class
i was forced to sit next to
guess he coulda been stereotyped the class clown
one thing tho would be that
he could make any body smile
or its just my fuzzy memory.
but lets put let it be that way shall we?
=================================================
anyways
i remember sometimes when i was in a crappy mood
he'd turn around he'd just tease
and say how he could see me smiling over and over again
as much i as i looked away and was feeling crappy
but it would always work
and i'd always be smiling in the end
the point of the memory
ah the good(?) times
i guess is how much i love the fact that
smiles can be so contagious
the word 'smile' or a 'haha'
can sometimes lead straight
to a smile
or a giggle
or a laugh
its like how yawns appear to be so contagious
you see it
and just the stimulus of that yawn
or the thought of a yawn
you cant help but to yawn as well
===============================================
just reminds us that we're such social animals
despite the fact that some such as myself
claim to be antisocial.
we're still social coz you dont see me
living away in my cave
in the darkness growing mushrooms :P
tho a thing i guess i love bout memories
is the further away they are from the present
the less likely you end up remembering the bad times
(or its just me :S
but im pretty sure its most people yeah?)
less you hold major grudges
and with hols starting early this week
well for me since i didnt finish till phil was over
not much to report bout
but a convo reminded me bout the topic of trust
it really amazes me i guess
how easy you are to trust people
the younger you are
guess it goes with the naivety
more eager to believe n such
but talking to someone
i hadnt in years, some person over the internet
i cant believe the details of my own life
that i had told them
somethings these days
im pretty reluctant to say
to just some person i met
want to start new page
tho not sure if it'll get done
-Del
had to log in again to post.
Smile.
something so simple.
but it just could brighten up someone's day
and the fact that its such a basic and simple thing
just a simple face expression
which involves the contraction
of a series of facial muscles
and voila.
an expression of friendliness
a guess a memory i had of when i was younger
was this guy in my class
i was forced to sit next to
guess he coulda been stereotyped the class clown
one thing tho would be that
he could make any body smile
or its just my fuzzy memory.
but lets put let it be that way shall we?
=================================================
anyways
i remember sometimes when i was in a crappy mood
he'd turn around he'd just tease
and say how he could see me smiling over and over again
as much i as i looked away and was feeling crappy
but it would always work
and i'd always be smiling in the end
the point of the memory
ah the good(?) times
i guess is how much i love the fact that
smiles can be so contagious
the word 'smile' or a 'haha'
can sometimes lead straight
to a smile
or a giggle
or a laugh
its like how yawns appear to be so contagious
you see it
and just the stimulus of that yawn
or the thought of a yawn
you cant help but to yawn as well
===============================================
just reminds us that we're such social animals
despite the fact that some such as myself
claim to be antisocial.
we're still social coz you dont see me
living away in my cave
in the darkness growing mushrooms :P
tho a thing i guess i love bout memories
is the further away they are from the present
the less likely you end up remembering the bad times
(or its just me :S
but im pretty sure its most people yeah?)
less you hold major grudges
and with hols starting early this week
well for me since i didnt finish till phil was over
not much to report bout
but a convo reminded me bout the topic of trust
it really amazes me i guess
how easy you are to trust people
the younger you are
guess it goes with the naivety
more eager to believe n such
but talking to someone
i hadnt in years, some person over the internet
i cant believe the details of my own life
that i had told them
somethings these days
im pretty reluctant to say
to just some person i met
want to start new page
tho not sure if it'll get done
-Del
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Phil Exam.
Phil exam tomorrow.
and you'd think
i'd be enjoying reading up for revision
but dunno why. dont feel like it.
its really interesting
but dont feel like study
(tho when do i ever feel like studying?)
expression.
it feels so good to express anything
just to let the bottled things up out
but its so hard.
why?
how could something that feels good
and costs you nothing but maybe a bitta energy
to actually say something
or type something
but then you think about it
why burden others with what you think?
'never.'
funny that.
sometimes the things you attach to it
its just you could never imagine it possible
that it would happen
vocalise it. tell someone.
and as much as you believe it'll never happen.
you say it. you forget it.
and later on along the track.
it comes back to slap you across the face.
but i guess.
if you forget it, it creeps that much closer.
you put it out of your mind
coz obviously 'it'd never happent to me'
reasons.
always reasons for something
reasons coming from rationale.
rofl. i remember in yr 8 when most yr 8s
bought their "route nationale" to S+E.
guess some people didnt crack open the book
before they took it to class.
but who would? me.
a FRENCH book to S+E
ah well. mistakes i guess
just by judging by the cover.
or more of by the title.
return.
by how far can you return to what you were?
"how can you turn back after seeing the world?"
opportunities always arise
whether or not we take them
whether or not we're prepared to take them
is a whole nother thing
to risk it?
to walk through a new door?
to climb through another window?
and when you wanna stop
to turn back
is it really the same?
when you're coming back
drawing with you memories of your gamble
is it possible to come back the same?
time puts us through tests
and what we go through can change us
but will it always?
some things never change
whilst others may
will we always learn?
or do we just not realise it?
or maybe we just dont realise a change at all?
getting back to square one
does the game board look the same as it did
when you first started?
does the perception change?
personally.
i dont know.
went to pick up lina the other day.
and was sitting in the car.
n saw the yr 12s and was like.
what the? i dont remember them being that small?
i miss having uniforms.
as much as i complained back then
i rememeber complaining at the end of yr 12
about having to wear free dress everyday.
how would i ever manage!?
but i guess i've lasted a sem
but i do miss the yr 12 uniform.
the rest of it i dont miss.
just the yr 12 one.
ok.
i think i've wasted enough time
on this yet again
*hugs*
-Del
and you'd think
i'd be enjoying reading up for revision
but dunno why. dont feel like it.
its really interesting
but dont feel like study
(tho when do i ever feel like studying?)
expression.
it feels so good to express anything
just to let the bottled things up out
but its so hard.
why?
how could something that feels good
and costs you nothing but maybe a bitta energy
to actually say something
or type something
but then you think about it
why burden others with what you think?
'never.'
funny that.
sometimes the things you attach to it
its just you could never imagine it possible
that it would happen
vocalise it. tell someone.
and as much as you believe it'll never happen.
you say it. you forget it.
and later on along the track.
it comes back to slap you across the face.
but i guess.
if you forget it, it creeps that much closer.
you put it out of your mind
coz obviously 'it'd never happent to me'
reasons.
always reasons for something
reasons coming from rationale.
rofl. i remember in yr 8 when most yr 8s
bought their "route nationale" to S+E.
guess some people didnt crack open the book
before they took it to class.
but who would? me.
a FRENCH book to S+E
ah well. mistakes i guess
just by judging by the cover.
or more of by the title.
return.
by how far can you return to what you were?
"how can you turn back after seeing the world?"
opportunities always arise
whether or not we take them
whether or not we're prepared to take them
is a whole nother thing
to risk it?
to walk through a new door?
to climb through another window?
and when you wanna stop
to turn back
is it really the same?
when you're coming back
drawing with you memories of your gamble
is it possible to come back the same?
time puts us through tests
and what we go through can change us
but will it always?
some things never change
whilst others may
will we always learn?
or do we just not realise it?
or maybe we just dont realise a change at all?
getting back to square one
does the game board look the same as it did
when you first started?
does the perception change?
personally.
i dont know.
went to pick up lina the other day.
and was sitting in the car.
n saw the yr 12s and was like.
what the? i dont remember them being that small?
i miss having uniforms.
as much as i complained back then
i rememeber complaining at the end of yr 12
about having to wear free dress everyday.
how would i ever manage!?
but i guess i've lasted a sem
but i do miss the yr 12 uniform.
the rest of it i dont miss.
just the yr 12 one.
ok.
i think i've wasted enough time
on this yet again
*hugs*
-Del
Sinking back into emo life
Since I feel the need to spam Adella's lovely blog with my useless blogposts, I shall. :P
Anyhow. NO I HAVE NOT FINISHED EXAMS. Why not?
Anyhow. NO I HAVE NOT FINISHED EXAMS. Why not?
Dear studentResit the GENG1001 exam? Oh great.. So technically when Adella has her last exam tomorrow. I STILL HAVE ONE MORE EXAM. *sigh* UWA is so dodge.
I am writing to inform you of circumstances relating to the examination of GENG1001 Introduction to Engineering Mechanics, conducted on the morning of June 14th 2007. It is essential that you read the information below.
Unfortunately, due to a series of unfortunate incidents that took place during the exam, the exam script that you submitted on June 14th cannot be used for assessment within GENG1001. These incidents included the exam solutions being handed out during the exam itself, the exam solutions being handed to students as they left the venue while other students were still sitting the exam, and the very large number of queries that arose during the exam which I understand caused some disruption. We have a responsibility to all students to ensure that no student/s experience an unfair advantage or disadvantage during an examination, and unfortunately the examination held on June 14th did not meet this standard.
You will therefore be required to re-sit the GENG1001 exam during the first week of second semester, on Wednesday July 25th at 2pm, in Winthrop Hall. The exam will have the same format and duration (3 hr 10 min) as the June 14 exam.
I acknowledge that re-sitting the exam is highly undesirable for all of you, and I have not taken this action lightly. This is the first time in our Faculty''s history that such action has been taken.
In order to minimise disruption to your other studies, we will cancel any lectures and laboratories in Engineering and Maths units, that would be scheduled for the afternoon of July 25th. We will also ensure that no Engineering and Mathematics assignments will be due in that first week of Semester. We will also be happy to provide letters requesting special consideration to coordinators of units taught outside our Faculty where there are lectures/laboratories scheduled for that afternoon or assignments due around that time.
Please note that any student who has been granted a deferred exam for GENG1001, will be required to sit the exam on July 25th at 2pm in Winthrop Hall, with the rest of the GENG1001 cohort.
I sincerely apologize for this situation, and hope that you understand that we are working towards an equitable outcome for all of you.
Prof. Mark Bush
Dean
Faculty of Engineering, Computing andMathematics
University of Western Australia, M017
35 Stirling Hwy, Crawley
Western Australia 6009
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Just stopping by.
Tradition is something
that shouldnt be broken if possible no?
so here's the usual follow up post from me :P
not that really i have any particular
reason for blogging atm
dont have any pressing thoughts at hand.
tho dear scar is now officially on hols
like many other people
so congrats for that!!
no need to spare another thought
on exams for another few months..
well other than checking up results.
sleep calls.
*hugs*
-del
that shouldnt be broken if possible no?
so here's the usual follow up post from me :P
not that really i have any particular
reason for blogging atm
dont have any pressing thoughts at hand.
tho dear scar is now officially on hols
like many other people
so congrats for that!!
no need to spare another thought
on exams for another few months..
well other than checking up results.
sleep calls.
*hugs*
-del
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Guest appearance
Since I'm the crappest friend there is, I have no idea whatsoever whether Adella has one or two more exams to go. :P Despite that, I intend to send forth a blessing to dearest Deli, and wish her all the best.
bellow sing belt out sing the whole chorus out to myself to remember the lyrics. I'm sure the neighbours never want to hear me sing ever again. :(
Lately Adella has fallen under the stroke of exams, and found countless things such as the sun wondrously beautiful, and made it a duty to be on MSN during exam period more than during study period. I am impressed Deli, and I'ld say it takes effort and motivation to do that.
Best of luck to anyone else who still has exams! (Frankly, I think it's just Deli and I left)
All things bright and beautiful, all creature great and smallLol, personally I have no idea why I'm quoting a hymn on a Buddhist's blog, but nevertheless, don't you agree that this's a nice hymn? *guilty look* I had to
All things wise and wonderful, the Lord God made them all.
Lately Adella has fallen under the stroke of exams, and found countless things such as the sun wondrously beautiful, and made it a duty to be on MSN during exam period more than during study period. I am impressed Deli, and I'ld say it takes effort and motivation to do that.
Best of luck to anyone else who still has exams! (Frankly, I think it's just Deli and I left)
Monday, June 18, 2007
Wish upon a star.
do you still wish on stars?
apparently lina saw a falling star today.
(8) catch a falling star
and put it in your pocket
save it for a rainy day...(8)
remembering back to the days :P
tho i think about my life atm
and im like wow! so lucky.
how many people have been
to the places ive been to?
well probs a lot of people
but of the people who've ever existed..
not really that many people
(despite population boom n such
point: i AM lucky
*trying not to be contradictory*)
like seriously
who's had so many holidays?
(probs really rich people who travel all the time)
but there's a lotta people
who've never even been overseas.
tho i do admit i've yet to go to rotto.
(or so i choose to believe.
not sure if its true)
suddenly i feel like this is pointless post
cant even remember my main point anymore.
the luckiness was meant to lead up to some point
but forgot that
ah well
leave it here. next time maybe.
-Del
apparently lina saw a falling star today.
(8) catch a falling star
and put it in your pocket
save it for a rainy day...(8)
remembering back to the days :P
tho i think about my life atm
and im like wow! so lucky.
how many people have been
to the places ive been to?
well probs a lot of people
but of the people who've ever existed..
not really that many people
(despite population boom n such
point: i AM lucky
*trying not to be contradictory*)
like seriously
who's had so many holidays?
(probs really rich people who travel all the time)
but there's a lotta people
who've never even been overseas.
tho i do admit i've yet to go to rotto.
(or so i choose to believe.
not sure if its true)
suddenly i feel like this is pointless post
cant even remember my main point anymore.
the luckiness was meant to lead up to some point
but forgot that
ah well
leave it here. next time maybe.
-Del
Saturday, June 16, 2007
Del-ology
Courtesy of Vina off friendster.
well friendster once again basically.
- FOODOLOGY -
Q. What is your salad dressing?
French.
Q. What is your favorite fast food restaurant?
Nandos. Cept not really sure if its fast :P
Q. What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
Dear resto. miss it so much. :(
Q. What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of?
if i state more than one then i can interchange?
bound to get sick of something sooner or later
but if i had to choose.
chocolate.
Q. What are your pizza toppings of choice?
Bacon n pineapple. or pepperoni
Q. What do you like to put on your toast?
jam?
Q. What is your favorite type of gum?
typical mint?
- TECHNOLOGY -
Q. Number of contacts in your cellphone?
97
Q. Number of contacts in your email address book?
160
Q. What is your wallpaper on your computer?
a negative of two puppies.
they're BLUE puppies ^^
- BIOLOGY -
Q. Are you right-handed or left-handed?
Right-y
Q. Do you like your smile?
don't hate it. so why not?
Q. What is the heaviest item you lifted last?
doesnt 'heaviest' suggest most heavy ever?
and yet you add 'last' suggest last time?
so multiple most?
confused.
Q. Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
no.
- MISCOLOGY -
Q. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
if its soon then yeah.
if not DEFINATELY not.
Q. Is love for real?
yep it can be.
not that it always will be.
Q. If you could change your first name, what would you change it to?
no idea.
Q. What color do you think you look best in?
blue...?
Q. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item by mistake?
yeah. fly.
ewwwwwwwwww!
Q. Have you ever saved someone's life?
not that i know of.
at least not directly.
Q. Has someone ever saved yours?
yes.
- DAREOLOGY -
Q. Would you walk naked down a public street for $100,000?
nope.
Q. Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100?
not for $100 i wouldnt ;P
Q. Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000?
A definate N-O
Q. Would you never go on myspace again for $50,000?
easily done.
Q. Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000?
nope.
Q. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1,500?
my tastebuds arent worth that little.
i'd rather keep my ability to enjoy food thanks
Q. Would you, without fear of punishment, take a human life for $1,000,000?
no.
Q. Would you give up watching television for a year for $25,000?
yep fine with me.
Q. What is in your left pocket?
nothing. its fake pocket.
Q. How much alcohol did you have this week?
nil.
Q. Do you have hardwood or carpet in your house?
wood
Q. Do you sit or stand in the shower?
stand.
Q. Could you live with roommates?
yep.
Q. Where were you born?
hospital
Q. Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
none as of yet.
- RANDOMOLOGY -
Q. First place you went this morning?
chinese?
Q. What's the last movie you saw?
cant remember sadly :(
Q. Do you smile often?
hope so.
Q. Are you a friendly person?
i think?
Q. What color shirt are you wearing?
black n blue
hmm.
nother random quiz
least there was question variety a bit ^^
...
yes i said i would stop wasting my time?
damn -.-
-Del
well friendster once again basically.
- FOODOLOGY -
Q. What is your salad dressing?
French.
Q. What is your favorite fast food restaurant?
Nandos. Cept not really sure if its fast :P
Q. What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
Dear resto. miss it so much. :(
Q. What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of?
if i state more than one then i can interchange?
bound to get sick of something sooner or later
but if i had to choose.
chocolate.
Q. What are your pizza toppings of choice?
Bacon n pineapple. or pepperoni
Q. What do you like to put on your toast?
jam?
Q. What is your favorite type of gum?
typical mint?
- TECHNOLOGY -
Q. Number of contacts in your cellphone?
97
Q. Number of contacts in your email address book?
160
Q. What is your wallpaper on your computer?
a negative of two puppies.
they're BLUE puppies ^^
- BIOLOGY -
Q. Are you right-handed or left-handed?
Right-y
Q. Do you like your smile?
don't hate it. so why not?
Q. What is the heaviest item you lifted last?
doesnt 'heaviest' suggest most heavy ever?
and yet you add 'last' suggest last time?
so multiple most?
confused.
Q. Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
no.
- MISCOLOGY -
Q. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
if its soon then yeah.
if not DEFINATELY not.
Q. Is love for real?
yep it can be.
not that it always will be.
Q. If you could change your first name, what would you change it to?
no idea.
Q. What color do you think you look best in?
blue...?
Q. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item by mistake?
yeah. fly.
ewwwwwwwwww!
Q. Have you ever saved someone's life?
not that i know of.
at least not directly.
Q. Has someone ever saved yours?
yes.
- DAREOLOGY -
Q. Would you walk naked down a public street for $100,000?
nope.
Q. Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100?
not for $100 i wouldnt ;P
Q. Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000?
A definate N-O
Q. Would you never go on myspace again for $50,000?
easily done.
Q. Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000?
nope.
Q. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1,500?
my tastebuds arent worth that little.
i'd rather keep my ability to enjoy food thanks
Q. Would you, without fear of punishment, take a human life for $1,000,000?
no.
Q. Would you give up watching television for a year for $25,000?
yep fine with me.
Q. What is in your left pocket?
nothing. its fake pocket.
Q. How much alcohol did you have this week?
nil.
Q. Do you have hardwood or carpet in your house?
wood
Q. Do you sit or stand in the shower?
stand.
Q. Could you live with roommates?
yep.
Q. Where were you born?
hospital
Q. Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
none as of yet.
- RANDOMOLOGY -
Q. First place you went this morning?
chinese?
Q. What's the last movie you saw?
cant remember sadly :(
Q. Do you smile often?
hope so.
Q. Are you a friendly person?
i think?
Q. What color shirt are you wearing?
black n blue
hmm.
nother random quiz
least there was question variety a bit ^^
...
yes i said i would stop wasting my time?
damn -.-
-Del