Phil Exam.

Phil exam tomorrow.
and you'd think
i'd be enjoying reading up for revision
but dunno why. dont feel like it.
its really interesting
but dont feel like study
(tho when do i ever feel like studying?)

expression.

it feels so good to express anything
just to let the bottled things up out
but its so hard.
why?
how could something that feels good
and costs you nothing but maybe a bitta energy
to actually say something
or type something
but then you think about it
why burden others with what you think?

'never.'

funny that.
sometimes the things you attach to it
its just you could never imagine it possible
that it would happen
vocalise it. tell someone.
and as much as you believe it'll never happen.
you say it. you forget it.
and later on along the track.
it comes back to slap you across the face.
but i guess.
if you forget it, it creeps that much closer.
you put it out of your mind
coz obviously 'it'd never happent to me'

reasons.

always reasons for something
reasons coming from rationale.
rofl. i remember in yr 8 when most yr 8s
bought their "route nationale" to S+E.
guess some people didnt crack open the book
before they took it to class.
but who would? me.
a FRENCH book to S+E
ah well. mistakes i guess
just by judging by the cover.
or more of by the title.

return.

by how far can you return to what you were?
"how can you turn back after seeing the world?"
opportunities always arise
whether or not we take them
whether or not we're prepared to take them
is a whole nother thing
to risk it?
to walk through a new door?
to climb through another window?
and when you wanna stop
to turn back
is it really the same?
when you're coming back
drawing with you memories of your gamble
is it possible to come back the same?
time puts us through tests
and what we go through can change us
but will it always?
some things never change
whilst others may
will we always learn?
or do we just not realise it?
or maybe we just dont realise a change at all?
getting back to square one
does the game board look the same as it did
when you first started?
does the perception change?
personally.
i dont know.

went to pick up lina the other day.
and was sitting in the car.
n saw the yr 12s and was like.
what the? i dont remember them being that small?
i miss having uniforms.
as much as i complained back then
i rememeber complaining at the end of yr 12
about having to wear free dress everyday.
how would i ever manage!?
but i guess i've lasted a sem
but i do miss the yr 12 uniform.
the rest of it i dont miss.
just the yr 12 one.

ok.
i think i've wasted enough time
on this yet again
*hugs*
-Del