BREAK DOWN

lost it today..
*sigh*
just got too much...

but fine now..

HOLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yay..
hols..

but now sorta feelin bored..
soz ive sorta neglected this whole bloggie business... :(
but then again..
i wonder if ppl are actually reading
since therez sorta been a lack of response at all on taggie
*tear*

what to write about these days?

hmm
you know..
i think im sorta realising..
that sometimes i tend to dislike some ppl..
jus cos they seem to show slight similarities to me :S
its like i see something in them..
maybe some quality that seems like
(or at least it seems so to me..)
me or some part of me now or in the past...

OR

the basic possibility of twinges of jealousy?
as much as i dun like admitting it?
could be..

and i dunno..
there seems to be this really strange feeling these daiz..
i mean this morning i was on SUCH a high..
wonderin? ask kat...
i was SKIPPING!?!?!?
despite the fact i was running on 6 hours sleep
(which isnt enough for me usually)
AND no breaky at all
and now on a total low..
(which isnt surprisin)

but its like im not feelin happy
or sad..
its this numbness..
its back again
>.<

music affecting the mood?
it works if im standing in front of a blaring speaker..
and dancin
but othawise..
:S
have to actually express something..
need somthing which will take my mind off...
well off nothing..
its so weird..
half the time im thinkin my self into numbness
the otha half its jus i jus sit there and get consumed..
it jus encloses me..

y is it that ...
yyyyyyyyyyyy?
i dun even noe what im thinking..
its jus all wierd..
im not even lookin at the screen...
jus an occasional glance just to check spelling..
but its jus like i zone out and every thin jus feels so blanked out..

y dont i care bout my marks?
i dun wanna end up totally stressed ova a simple mark..
but then again..
i dun wanna be as slack as i am..
when did i lose my interest for school?
or didnt i haev a passion for it in the first place..
and if so..
would that mean that i've been living the life that my parents?
have i just been existing..
not caring? or jus some living puppet..
living off the ideals ppl have created for me?
i mean i barely know what i want or need.. or wish for...

what am i?
some sadistic...
i dunno..
*sigh*
blocking out the music..
the melody coming from my comp.
it jus feels as tho i dun want the harmony..
tho if i listen.. there seems to be a slight elation..
fomr the state where im sinking..
sinking lower and lower..

y is it that with some ppl...
they only talk to you when they want something?
or when they want entertainment?
ok..
i prob do that sometimes..
but i mean
i talk to ppl..
either they're really bz but dun tell me
and it jus seems they're totally not interested..
not interested in talkin at all..
you'd think that there'd at least be some reply of sorts..

ne wiaz..
g2g
or else lack of sleep for consecutive nites = grumpy della
nite nite
*hugz*

Misinterpretations...

saturday today..
half way thru the w/e...
but then again
5 days of school left before hols..

today was actually quite a good day..
tho i think its the fact that i actually went OUT somewhere

had chinese this morning
spent the first bit rewritin tah essay..
then bout 2 hours rehresal for that performance tonight

lunch..
then was gonna stay at temple all day due to the performance
but instead..
went to jemmy's house..
stayed for a while
left stuff there..
went out to city
with ronald, raymond, jemmy and kevin
spent like 2 hours in tea fusion
saw so many ppl...
esp to me since im not used to seein so many ppl outside of school
saw
mona, hyemi, fong-yeng, ada, sheila, maxy, eileen
ccgs guys.. andy..
sorta started learning to play CS...
god i'm CRAP :P
but slowly learning.. :)

got back to jemmy's place to get stuff..
walked back to FKS...
it started to rain on the way back
(uh.. so regretted not accepting car lift
but then again i shouldnt be gettin into cars with "randoms")

got back to FKS..
quickly changed..
(i had brought the dress with me when i went to school this mornin)
got dragged off by a teacher to be powdered all over with make up..
(LOL raymond.. BLUSH and LIPSTICK :P so funny)
the teacher did my face twice
since apparently after the first time
"it wasnt bright enough"
i looked like i had a permanent blush afta that
like BRIGHT RED
but hey i blush easily ^^"
performance was ok..
stuffed up a bit..
with the order of tha performance taht was..
thank god my part was only being the english narrator..
easily done ^^

watched lion dancing.. dances..
etc... and games ^^
sold raffle tickets..
but ended up being rejected so many times
cos all the girls in teh school was selling them
so most ppl bought some already..
i won a set of cups in some quiz game :S

tho funnily..
i spent the whole evening in that dress..
the blue trad chinese dress "cheung sam"
ugh wateva.. my pronouciation is absolute SHYTE
so randoms were randomly staring -.-"

aftawards went back to resto..
some ppl thought i had jus come back from a ball..
:P

on the note of misinterpretation..
which is the whole title of this post..
well other day..
i displayed pic of my cous
and some ppl asked me "is that ure bf?"
-.-"
ITS MY COUS
cant i display my cous's pic?

and then..
today..
afta the performance..
came across this lady talkin to these 2 dudes..
the lady prob worked at the temple as volunteer
ne waiz..
was gonna walk past..
then 1 of them said hi to me..
i replied hi back..
then realised who it was ..
andy, my cousin
without the chance to say anything else
the lady was fully "ooo isnt she pretty? blah blah blah"
and we were like "no i think you've got it wrong we're cousins"
lady:*smirks* you cant fool me
him: yah its tru
me: yah
him: she's my younger cousin
lady:*says disbelievingly* still don't you think she's pretty?
-.-"
me:but we're cousins
lady:*STILL suspicious* i know what you mean

COUSINS..
DOESNT that mean ANYTHING???

ppl's lovely mind which love to
make assumptions of ppl's relationship towards others?
a pic was taken of me and raymond together..
wonder what will come up?
another set of random rumours?
a pic of me and jono taken in yr 9 social..
jus cos he happend to ask me some questions
and person comes up with camera..
a whole set of rumours?
or me and mona..
where mona looks liek a guy :P
(sad thing was it happened twice) -.-"

things we say..
so many things we say can be reinterpreted..
play around with the words and so many meanings can be formed..
a simple innocent line..
add a few words..
rearrange the sentence..
and voila !!
a new meaning..
OR
the simple not able to read the tone of voice in a text

i've got heaps more to rite bout..
but then again
its getting late..
so i'll just leave it there
nite nite
*hugz*

IGSSA aths carnvial

well...
igssa aths is ova already..
"penrose" won :P
penhros that is..

instead of staying at home..
which is what my mum had actually let me do..
coz they weren't taking yr 11s this yr..
i went to the igssa aths carnival..
and was..
A CHEERLEADER..

i cant believe it..
it was SO much fun ^^
well..
fun except for the fact that the majority of the spectators
DIDNT CHEER
-.-"
we'd go
"1 2 3"
*begin to cheer..*
they were like jus staring blankly..
but some of the ppl at the back cheered which was good..

and i saw arnina.. ^^
had fun with the spirit thing
between st hilda's and mlc..
but we kept losing it when we did it against plc..
coz plc were actually fully enthused and were cheering..
(we were sitting between st hilda's and plc)
then they would say "we cant hear u"
grrr.
so mean..
but it was so truthful
*sigh*

wat offended me a bit...
well more of just annoyed me..
was i was cheering..
penrhos walked past (the spectators that is)
since they were late
and one of them was sayin to another
"hey! they [mlc] stole our uniform"
-.-"
i wonder who was once part of mlc..??
but they coulda just been like yr 8s..
and since im shorter than most ppl...
even some yr 8s they coulda been yr 8s..

lolly wise..
i supplied again..
but school is reimbersing me..
the spectators went through THREE (3) KG of lollies...
and were still DEAD..
they were fully un-enthused
but what can you say?
i mean who would really go if they had a choice???
which brings me to the thought..
no offense but y did you go mona?
since you didnt really cheer that much..
i know you seemed sick..
but you looked TOTALLY lethargic..
and spent the whole time talking...?

ne waiz pix...


MLC aths cheerleaders 2005 :P

me and arnina

quick update

bloggie...
havent said ne thin to you in ages again.. :(
sorry..
:p

well this week has been ok..
in comparison to last week which was loaded with tests and assignments..
had gnt and ic validations..
not sure how i went with ic but im SO happy bout gnt ^^
i think i might slightly startin to get it..

oh how time flies..
barely rote ne thin b4..
ne waiz got choir 2moro mornin so
nite nite
*hugz*

1. WHAT IS YOUR NAME: *Disclosed* :P

2. WHAT COLOUR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING? Blue.. they're denim jeans..

3. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? We Belong Together - Mariah Carey

4. WHAT'S THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Dinner at resto.. pho tai

5. DO YOU WISH ON STARS? When ever I see them, better to believe than not to eh?

6. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOUR WOULD YOU BE? BLUE!!! Tranquil, calming colour
colour of the sky and water (tho techincally water doesnt have colour but its blue in oceans and paintins :D)

7. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? Night.. COLD

8. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? :S sad person who is unloved.. i cant even remember the last phone call i had.. wait.. it was yesterday.. gar called bout her stuff..

9. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS? Yes.. great friend :D but im not sure bout mentioning her name on bloggie

10. FAVOURITE DRINK? WATER!!! well.. water is ok but i LOVE fizzy drinks who doesnt? and course there's the alcoholic beverages but will not go into that

11. FAVOURITE SPORT? sport in general.. i just love sport but am CRAP at them..

12. HAIR COLOUR? black

13. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? Nope..

14. SIBLINGS? yes lina *rolls eyes*

15. FAVOURITE MONTH? Feb.. it's special since its shortest and obviously my bday is in it :P AND its summer and beginning of autumn

17. FAVOURITE FOOD? food in general?

18. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? First Daughter

19. FAVOURITE DAY OF THE YEAR? How can you just choose 1 day?? Everyday is different and has ups and downs. How can you pinpoint which is your fave? tho summer days are good ^^

20. WHAT DO YOU DO TO GET RID OF ANGER? anger.. um.. silence?

21. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVOURITE TOY AS A CHILD? This lil red "creature" sorta looks like a bear but is red.. i got it for my first bday :D

22. SUMMER OR WINTER? Summer

23. HUGS OR KISSES? um... both..? :P nah just hugs is fine ^^

24. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? SO BOTH!!!

25. DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO E-MAIL BACK? Nope since im bloggin it

26. WHO DO YOU WANT TO REPLY? Bloggin it

27.WHO IS MOST LIKELY NOT TO RESPOND? respond as in reply? well not possible.. and no 1 will read all this junk any ways..

28. ARE YOU HAPPY WITH YOUR LIVING ARRANGEMENTS? I'M LOVIN IT!!.. well it is a mess i must admit but then again there are many ppl in the world who hasnt got wat i have so cherish what you have (as hard as it is)

29. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? eons ago.. actually im not quite sure but it must have happend this year i bet you

30. WHAT IS UNDER YOUR BED? draws...

31. WHO IS THE FRIEND YOU HAVE HAD THE LONGEST? well guess must be every1 in yr 8 since ive sorta lost contact with my primary school friends.. have seen some of them again but then again it does seem awkward..

32. WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT? Spent the time doin my lit essay which was due today and slept at 2 am

33. FAVOURITE SMELL? Flowers

34. WHAT INSPIRES YOU? Music.. thoughts... self motivation (well the little scrap of it that is left that is)

35. WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF? Bein lonely.. and the dark ^^"

36. PLAIN, BUTTERED OR SALTED POPCORN? Buttered and/or salted

37. FAVOURITE CAR? --- dun ever ask me bout cars... but i love my mum's car ^^

38. FAVOURITE FLOWER? roses tho all flowers are beautiful

39. NUMBER OF KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING? 2

40. FAVOURITE DAY OF THE WEEK? Sunday

41. WHAT DID YOU DO ON YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY? sleep ova.

42. HOW MANY SUBURBS HAVE YOU LIVED IN? 2

43. HOW MANY COUNTRIES HAVE YOU LIVED IN? 2

44. BEST FRIENDS? every1 in the world ^^ (well that's wishful thinking.. :P)

45. FRIENDS THAT ARE OLDER THAN YOU? a few.. not that many..

46. ONE PERSON THAT YOU LIKE TALKIN TO THE MOST ON MSN? v few ppl talk to me on msn.. tho sadly im on so often.. question is WHY???

47. ONE PERSON THAT YOU MOST LOOK FORWARD TO RECIEVING A SMS FROM? now that would be givin ideas away now wouldnt it?

48. ONE THING YOU MOST WISH YOU COULD DO? do better in school..? make my parents and lina more happy?

49. ONE THING YOU REALLY WANT TO ACHIEVE THIS YEAR? Gettin an EXCELLENT Exam Mark

blog blog blog..
need to blog.
anyways..

sometimes i feel so lonely..
*sigh*
but hey the feeling brushes over soon enough ^^

this w/e had james, ann, dia, gar n kat ova ^^
YAYYYY
had dinner...
watched movies..
pizza for supper :P
then slept..
next day we had a few rounds of badminton/2 square
(since we only have 2 raquets)
made tacos for lunch
went to dome
and harbour town...

gar your stuff is still at mi house..

had chinese today..
>.<

ne waiz gettin late
say more next time
nite nite
*hugz*

Post # 241

well..
since my muse has left me once again
*tear*
i really havent had any thoughts in the recent days..
or it could have gone on vacation since it has been working on my lit essay
^^

so i guess not really gonna have much of a post..

hmm
didnt get shortlisted for prefect candidate..
i'm a lil disappointed now that i think of it.
but then again i wasnt really expecting anything
and at least my parents dont care
which could be a plus
in not having to have any disappointments from my parents

tho in my next tests..
i WILL study for them
must must must !!!

ne waiz..
nite nite
*hugz*

Post # 240

yes..
its officially my 240th post..
seems like so long ago that i had my first post on THIS blog..
yay!!!
of all blogs this 1 has lasted the longest
hehe..

and also nearing the end of the 2nd year of blogging..
and this bloggie entering its 3rd year of life :D

ok..
i realli am in a random mood...
and for those who've seen my nick 4 msn..
well..
it saiz -

Don't put your heart into anything.. then it won't get hurt

so so true..
a nice quote from a friend of mine..
but then again not surprising as he is a player..
very guarded person i see..

but then if u never put ure heart into anything..
what is the point in doing anything at all?
if its going to be all half hearted what is the point?
might as well not do what eva ure gonna do..

Prefect candidates is coming out tomorrow
and the nerves are practically driving me insane..
i want to get in but then again i dont
aggghhhhh

i'm thinking whether or not to just get rid of the password thingy again..
therez some ppl who i noe i dun want to read it..
but then again in the case of mi sista..
i recently realised she can some how access this blog
on her comp wit out the password pop up thingy come up.. :S


YAA is ok..
but its so busy and everything is so rushed
since we only have one and a half months left to make AND sell
and break even at which our break even point is pretty high up..

my lit essay is getting no where..
i keep wanting to start but i never do..
and physics i dun even wanna think about

I found out today that today that to get into medicine at UWA..
that to actually do the UMAT..
u must at first already have a TER of 96
AGGHHHH
there goes my parents hopeful course for me...
i mean HOW THA HELL since this year my av is like 60 or 70
>.<

I read this article today..
it was on the factors of a good marriage..
and the fact that it said that
one of the main factors that lead to a marriage
that had lasted more than 30 years
was good communication (duh)
the couple's ability to resolve problems
and/or just a sense of comfort and trust in each other's company
the ability to just talk one's most inner most feelings with
would ensure a relationship lasting

which realli means that there is someone
whom u can trust and talk things about openly
and thinking about it..
how sad is it that there may be some people who don't even have this
people who believe that they cannot trust anyone that they know
from either previous experience of losing their trust in someone
through betrayal of trust or maybe just being bullied
*sigh*

or even the simple idea that although you have all these people around..
you just don't seem to have this real connection where you have complete confidence with anyone..

and thinking about me...
how sad is it that i at times
to type out my confidences and thoughts out to an online journal
any waiz..
time to sleep
nite nite
*hugz*

YAA Production Sales

just a quick note to say that YAY we've made some of our first ever sales!!!

ye olde art of poketh...

kk...
talking of blogging..
time to settle back and start the routine again..
and sometimes as little as it seems that goes on..
there are times when i have things to talk bout and when i dont..
[oh my muse just comes and goes oh so often.. *sigh* :P]

my newest thought...
"the poketh"
aka. *poke*
i mean ive just recently realised how much its done..
esp. wen it happens to me..
ok..

i had written a full on report like thing on it before..
but due to the loss of my last post..
oh well
cbb...

of the things i understand..
there seems to be this thing where
*people poke to annoy...
*people poke to get attention..
*people poke to suprise some1...

but then again..
y poke ppl 4 no reason at all..
just walk past them and *poke*
i mean in the last yr..
ive been:
*poked till i fell off a chair..
*poked until i ran outside a room..
*poked while i was working..
*poked until i gave something back (that i had taken from them :P)
*poked until i started getting work done
*poked for no reason at all
*poked for leaning against a wall
*poked coz there wz no conversation happening
and many more pokes >.<

*poke poke poke*

what is with poeople and poking..
i dun get it..

but then again with people there are many things i still dun get..
*rolls eyes*

and since i have choir 2moro morning
i have to sleep
(and ill try to keep regular posts)
to ensure ppl that im alive :P
nite nite
*hugz*

dear neglected bloggie...

my dear neglected bloggie..
havent written to u in ages
(although there have been repeated attempts
which were deleted)

i seem to always have something to say..
something..
anything..
can be on my mind..
so many things
some i wish to discuss and yet somes seem so "if-fy"
and everytime..
i just feel like it would just be easier to get it written down..
as if it would seem much more simple when in written form
but i mean working things out..
there just has to be a release somewhere...

i mean for some its through sport..
or through just being around people...
reading a book
or watching a movie..
or music
just some form of escapism.

yet no matter how far we run
it catches up eventually...

the thing is sometimes instead of needing some where to rite the day's events..
i just need somewhere to put my thoughts.

Through music..
its a wonderful way..
artistically poetry and music seem so together
well obviously through the connection of song lyrics and verses..
but its like an output..

when i listen to music or even sing :P
this whole feeling overcomes me.
not exactly happiness nor sadness..
and its not like some strong emotion..
but something like contentment..
a simple peace like feeling
liek everything is going to be ok..
this flowing sense of security..

And also through this blog..
i dont reread anything i write..
everything..
every thought as soon as it comes up goes straight onto the screen
its like im writing out my mind..

ne waiz..
im glad 2 be bak
g2g
nite nite
*hugz*

holland 1

Ok at last I have tha actual time 2 type up something 4 mi blog..
I attempted in the car ride from the air port to Tilburg
but I ended up jus closin coz there wz so lil that i had ritten..

I havent ritten ne thin 4 mi blog in AGES…
Therez tha whole exams thing and long plane trip thing, tha food n wine festival and on top of all of that is mi usual random comments and thoughts on obvious things in life which i randomly state coz i just seemed 2 just have realised em.. or have opinions on em..

ne waiz wit tha exams..
they were actualli ok and enjoyed em ^^
well i still shoulda studied…
that may have actualli helped in actualli getting a better mark..
but i just hope mi marks went ok.

tha food n wine festival..
well i didnt spend as much time there as i did last yr..
mainly coz of tha whole i need 2 clean mi room and pack..

it wz held in tha perth convention centre..
and it wz HUGE.. well tha fact that I haven’t been in there…
we had stall 349, and turned there wz anotha stall that apparently sold viet foods as well..
it wz some deli 4m some place that like sold bread rolls and some fried spring rolls and fried dim sum… -.-“

i came across a few drunks again tho I dun think it wz as freaky as last yr..
tha fact that I wznt there at tha times that there wz most drunks prob helped..
there were a group of guyz that walked past
and asked “do u want a crumbed cheese sausage?!”
i dunno wat they were on bout..
and then tha otha random who wz at this chocolate stall
i ate some chocolate and he
asked me if i wz alwaiz this pretty..
and i said no and he said “musta been tha chocolate”
I think it wz tha wine..

Tha whole festival wz pretty quiet this yr..
like there wz no ppl there practically..
Either that or like no ppl bought ne thin..
Oh well..

I liked wz tha choc fondue fountain^^
n tha huge block of rocky road that wz taller than me -.-“

then on tue nite it wz full on packin up of tha show
and then tha packing up of tha stall..
went home and then finished packin rest of stuff..
and flew tue arvo..

it seemed so random..
like time flew so quickly…
ne waiz usual time for flight to HK
stayed in tha air port for 3 hours while I felt sick all tha time along..
and felt realli sick..

then afta wz tha flight 4m HK straight to amsterdam..
it wz SO Long >.<
and then tha whole i felt sick..
barely got ne sleep coz i kept wakin then sleepin then wakin again..
tho wen tha sky wz brite again..
looked out tha window and just stared out at tha sky and clouds..
OMG they were SO pretty ^^
Like we could see just like puffy cotton balls squished 2gether
Then later on wen it cleared up a bit..
We could see a cloud here and there and ud jus see it floating which wz sorta random but pretty ^^ like fungus on a petri dish of fungi we grew in bio last yr.
(OMG im comparing stuff 2 bio O.O)

got 2 tha airport at round 6 am in amsterdam..
welcomed by a few uncles..(1st, 3rd, 6th, 7th)
then ended up waitin at tha airport
coz Vanessa (紅姊姊oldest couz) and leslie (姊夫mi now bro in law :P) wz arriving few hours later)

2 hour drive bak 2 tilburg..
All welcomes and hi’s 2 all family ^^
then we went 2 some sea side place…
a few hours drive -.-“
it wz like near Holland casino..
place wz pretty nice but COLD..

thing is summer ova here 2 me seems 2 have a sorta diff meaning..
Still have tha whole sunny..
But therez also WINDY..
And tha tiem that tha sun STARTS setting is like 10pm..
-.-“
So like at 10pm at nite it feels like 5 pm 2 me..
I jus cant get mi head round tha fact that its 10 pm and not 5 or 6 or 7 pm

Next day we went 2 brussels in Belgium..
MORE hours sittin in tha car..
Omg..
Tha car trips were SO annoying..
We had a queen of complaints…
Who either wz screaming out songs such as yankee doodle..
OR wz like screaming her complaints on how many injuries she has..
OR doesn’t wanna go 2 tha dentist who will pull her teeth out
OR how she needed 2 go 2 tha toilet..
OR tha totalli “original” line “are we there yet?”
And many othas -.-“

On top of all that we had tha fact that us kids were sitting
A single bakseat like tha 3 seats in a row…
Well it wz that and a mini ledge that wz facing it
(we were sittin in a van)
And on those 2 surfaces we sat 8 ppl..
talk bout squished..
oh well at least we got 2 sit 2gether..

brussels wz ok..
then long drive bak home afta that..

then yesterday..
we went swimming for the day..
well actualli by the time got there it wz like 2:30pm.
ne waiz, afta tha swimming we went home and had dinner 4 公公
it wz pretty nice since like we had every1 there..
chi dong, alex and julia came 4 dinner
which wz good ^^
huge reunion

and now im typin up this all on mi lap top in tha lounge room in mi uncle’s house..
dunno wat we’re gonna do 2day tho seems like its gonna be nothng..
its bout 1pm I think :S

fear

fear..
an emotion that may have the ability to prevent us from achieving anything..
fear...
we all fear
fear something or the other

many fear spiders
many fear heights
many fear public speaking
and many fear rejection

all occuring...
all comprised of some form of a past experience..
all which were negative

people respond differently
we all are of different contexts..
different culutral identities
different everyday lifestyles
different economical statuses
different religious beliefs
different occupations
different genders
different values
different ages

different alot of things
yet the same in so many ways

living in same society
going to same school
going to same workplace
livin in the side of the world
all having a mother and a father
all have a body, a mind, a soul

we all people..
still have fears..
they may be different or they may be the same
but sooner or later the fear will slow you down from doing anything you want
it drags you down

fears of consequences..
fears of facing the fears...
fears of rejection..
fears of talk and gossip..

consequences can be dealt with the correct decision in the first place..
or the correct handling of the problem
consequences can be resolved..
with support of family and friends..
things can be resolved..
problems fade as time passes

facing the fears..
support is always there..
friends and family..
they will help you through..
as long as you recognise your fear
and talk to them about it..
they'll share the burden

fear of rejection..
fitting in and acceptance within a mass of people is hard..
but family members will always be there..
they love you for who you are..
they love you because they look past your imperfections..
and accept you, you are one of them
for there cannot be perfection...
we are all human..
and in that way we all make mistakes..
but family throught their love will eventually forgive

fear of talk and gossip..
this is hard..
for there will always be your support system of your family and friends..
but if you fear talk between them..
then who is it that you will confide to?
with the fear increasing trust begins to crumble...
less communication
and without the communication...
the support system will collapse...
all for without being open towards the ones you love...
the loneliness surrounds and encompasses..
the sense of loss is overwhelming
and it seems as if all is lost...

if you fear of talk and gossip..
what will you do for fear of being judged?
be who you are...
be happy as who you are..
if they talk then let them talk..

it is not an easy thing..
for all talk and no action is an easy thing..
for avoidence is also easy..
or even ignorance..
or locking it all away..
hopefully never to resurface again..
but under the mask..
under deep inside it hurts..
and if it begins to rise..
then bottled up emotions will change..
it will just burst..
a time where emotions will run free..
what isnt intended to be said..
is said..
emotions of others will hurt and soon..
the support system is gone..
but to accept the fear and take action and talking openly...
over time..

time is a precious thing...
for once past will not return..
there is little..
and it is all limited to every single person..
time not used wisely...
only allows for possibilities..
the creation of an imagenary world of "what if's?"
"if i had done this..
and not that"
"if i had done this.. if i had said that"

all regret..

regret for not doing something
for fear of consequences..
for fear of talk..
for fear of rejection..

fear of anything

and on and on it cycles..
for the only way to break free..
its to stand against the fear..
to fight the fear...
or just to take the step and change your thoughts..
to not fear the actual fear..
confidence may be the thing needed..
courage...
seize the day..

or just spiral down deeper and deeper...
down in to the depths where no one can find you...
nothing but an empty shell...

and wat of fear of talk from others?
talk 4m people within tha community?
you may not care of them
yet you may still care of their talk...
would you just stay at home in fear of their talk?
not do anythink you want just because you fear what they think?

g2g
nite nite
*hugz*

500 Questions

500 Questions

1.What is the most embarrassing item in your record collection? record collection? u mean CDs? dun realli have ne.. tho i think it would prob be.. umm.. aqua aquarium..?

2.Boy's names? no idea... dun realli care.. afta all "a rose by any name would smell just as sweet"

3.Where do you eat? at home...? or resto usualli..

4.Listening to? Almost Here - Delta Goodrem and Brian McFadden

5.Do you like Sublime? Sublime..? wat is Sublime?.. :S

6.What are you talking about? huh..? well talkin 2 some ppl bout exams atm on msn but nothin otha wise...

7.Do you own an *NSync CD? Nope.

8.Have you ever bought a whole CD for one song? nope not yet.. not realli up 4 tha whole spending thing...

9.What are you currently thinking of? bored bored bored.. do survey..? but survey is boring 2.. oh well... seomthin 2 do.. whilst chatting and listenin 2 music AND cleaning mi room

10.At what age do you want to get married? wat age..? um round 20s..? sounds reasonable i think...

11.Look at guys butts? um big N-O not that much of a perve.. tho i think i noe some ppl who are *coughdiacough*

12.Do you like the local music of your town? well have no idea bout local music so *shrugz*

13.Burial or cremation? i think ill think bout that later on in life..

14.Favorite song? well no idea.. i love most songs.. so yah.. i dun think i can be bothad typin em out..

15.Favorite movie? dun have 1

16.What are you currently listening to? well.. simple love sung by jay chou

17.Person you expect to send it back first? well dun think ne 1 would send it bak due 2 tha fact taht its on mi blog... so dun have answer 2 that..

18.Do you like Pink Floyd? Wats pink floyd? ugh i think this survey thing is outta date :(

19.Location? not tellin u... :P

20.Have you broken the law? well not a serious offence.. so not realli.. unless ure liek talkin bout underage drinkin or like riding a bike wit out helmet or like sittin in a car wit out a seat belt..

21.If you could go anywhere in the world on a vacation, where would you go?i guess id tour tha world and visit family ^^..

22.Gold or silver? Gold ^^

23.Favorite day of the week? saturday?

24.Have you ever given money to a bum? well dun see bumz that often so havent had a chance i guess... tho i dunno if i would...

25.Can you raise one eyebrow at a time?yah mi rite 1 but i cant raise mi left 1 :(

26.Braid your hair? cant do it miself.. 2 untalented...

27.Do you like to drive fast? havent had tha chance 2 drive now have i? tho i dun think i would since like i prefer safety...

28.What's in the CD Player? ugh... similar 2 2 of tha q b4.. -.-" im listenin 2 tha moon represents mi heart now on tha comp (its on shuffle ALL music..) sung by david tao

29.Play in a band? no but i play in a symphony orchestra is taht wat u mean by band? like skool band or like rock band?

30.Bike? yes i have a bike...

31.Do you cook? every1 can cook^^ even me.. jus diff ppl on diff levels of cooking ability and have diff abilities 2 measure stuff and follow instructions...

32.Do you collect anything?yah i started this keyring collection thing in yr 6.. got a whole bucket of keyrings now...

33.What is the car of your dreams? a blue beetle? nah dun realli mind wat mi car looks like just as long its drivable

34.What color is your bedroom? its realli realli light pink ^^

35.Favorite thing for lunch? pasta?

36.Coke or Pepsi? COKE ^^

37.What song seems to reflect you the most? dunno.. loads... and depends on mood...

38.Have you cheated on a test? yah loads wen i wz in yr 7

39.On the average, how much money do you carry in your purse/wallet? depends on event.. tho its not like i have mi wallet or purse wit me most of tha time..

40.Shy? yah.. at times.. multiple personalities ^^

41.Do you like Sarah McLachlan? dun mind.. *at last a musical reference i noe*

42.Can you blow spit bubbles? could wen i wz younger.. havent tried since but i may still be able 2...

43.Ride a bike? didnt u ask bike b4? -.-" yes i can ride a bike.. tho ive neva ridden a motor bike b4...

45.What screen saver is on your computer right now? cant remember tho i think its tha flower box 1...

46.If you turned your CD player to 'radio', what kind of radio station would it be on? nova...

47.Say something nice about the person who sent this to you? didnt get sent 2 me.. jus found it online so thought id do it..

48.What kind of bed do you like? single..?

49.Pluck your eyebrows? neva tried.. and dun intend 2 ne time soon.. does it hurt...?

50.When was the last time you read a book? away.. tho not realli a book.. more of play.. 4 lit...

51.Favorite ice cream? vanilla and/or chocolate

52.Place of birth? u dun need 2 noe...

53.Drinks or shots? drinks...? tho assuming its not refering 2 alcohol...

54.Do you have anything monogrammed?watz monogrammed mean..?

55.What is your favorite board game? monopoly? or cluedo? its tha onli board games i have at home -.-"

56.Have you run away? nope neva tried

57.Marital status? single ^^ and reasonably happy that way ^^

58.Makeup? nope... none at all.. pure and natural ^^

59.Can you paint? yah but not well it looks HORRIBIBBLE

60.Who's your favorite female singer? heapza ppl.. dun have faves realli...

61.Hair drying method? air dry?

62.Thunderstorms, cool or scary? bitta both..

63.Do you own a Jay-Z CD? yay anotha reference i noe of.. but no.. dun have a Jay-Z CD

64.Do you type with you're fingers on the right keys think so..

65.Who sent this to you? told u already i found it on tha net..

66.How do you eat an apple? umm.. open mouth.. bite.. chew.. swallow and digest?

67.Why are we insensitive? we are all insensitive beings whom care bout our selves OR we jus choose 2 convince ourselves and othas round us that we care.. afta all.. tis animal instinct 2 care for our own or ourselves.. and usualli ignore tha common good..

68.What is the first thing that you think of when you wake up?well "no i dun wanna go 2 skool 2day" is tha usual thought..

69.What's under you bed?nothing? its like this block of wood..

70.What's the best advice given to you?"nothing's impossible if u put ure mind 2 it" and "happiness is lookin past all tha imperfections of life"

71.Do you own a Blink 182 CD? er.. no.. i dun exactly have a CD collection in tha first place..

72.How would you classify Fiona Apple? no idea...?

73.Are you drinking? atm? yes... water

74.Been on a plane? yah many times..

75.Are your parents married or divorced? married

76.Cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend?well definatley not boyfriend since ive neva had a boyfriend in tha first place.. and girlfriend..? hmm lemme see... *think think* nah lol im straight..

77.Good singer? id like 2 think so ^^ tho not perfect singer -.-"

78.Watch movies? yah but not that often...

79.Do you own any CDs from a band that only had one hit? *shrugz* dunno...

80.Have you ever done drugs? nope.. not tha illegal ones thats if wat ure referin 2.. tho obviously we've had chocolate and caffiene and medicines..

81.Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex? well depends on 2 wat extent.. i could if i realli wanted 2 ^^ tho i dun see that happenin ne time soon...

82.Favorite month? Feb ^^ its summer AND its mi bday

83.Time?hmm.. they usualli have this at tha start of tha survey...
oh well.. um 8:21 pm

84.Favorite color? BLUE ^^

85.Who was the last person you instant messaged? mona...

86.Do you like The Doors? whoz tha doors?

87.Do you own a Lit CD? Lit CD 0.0

88.Can you roll your tongue? yah i can

89.Love at first sight? do u mean have i experienced it or do i believe in it.. i dun realli believe in it and its neva happend 2 me.. tho i think ne thin could happen...

90.Why did your last relationship fail? how bout WAT relationship..?

91.If you could live anywhere where would you live? at home? where could i live?

92.Does it annoy you when they play alternative songs and country songs on pop stations? nope.. i like variety ^^

93.Do you have any enemies? i hope i dun have ne... i HOPE that is..

94.Vegetarian? i love veges ^^ and i dun mind eatin meat...

95.Do you drink alcohol? yah occasionalli and moderately..

96.What kind of watch(es) do you wear? a normal watch..?

97.Do you ever wish you hadn't wasted your money on any certain CD (and what is it)? nope..

98.Cassette or CD? CD

99.What style of clothes do you wear? dunno.. can ne 1 help me wit that?

100.Favorite fast food? *shrugz*

101.Do you like Jay-Z? dun mind...

102.Do you do drugs? u asked me already.. tah answer is NO u cant convince me 2 do them !!!!

103.Are you a morning person or a night owl? nite owl..

104.When did you last take a shower? afta skool

105.Kids? id liek a few tho i dunno..

106.Do you own a Beach Boys CD? how bout i havent 2 knowledge heard a beach boys song?

107.What's your opinion on rap/hip hop? dun mind

108.What is your curfew? dun think i have 1 since i stay at home ne waiz..

109.What's one thing you like to do alone? sing? its a thing i dun think ppl wanna hear.. me singin isnt alwaiz taht good.. more of a private thing and linas 4eva tellin me 2 shut up ne waiz..

110.Have you ever had your heart broken? no.

111.Which musical instrument do you wish you could play? well flute? tho i think im playin enough 4 tha time bein..

112.Good storyteller? no totalli crap

113.Would you ever admit to having done plastic surgery of any kind if confronted? prob yes..

114.What's the last thing you watched on tv? bitta tha opening of BB on sunday nite..

115.Do you prefer Love or Lust? *hmm thats hard*.. -.-" DUH LOVE

116.Favorite sport to watch? dun watch sport..

117.Male or female? female.. took u ages 2 ask -.-"

118.Crushed ice or ice cubes? crushed ice ^^

119.Have you ever pierced your body parts? yah ear lobes 4 earrings.. othawise No..

120.Do you want to get married? yah id liek 2..

121.Rub your stomach? wat tha hell...?

122.Have you ever mooned someone? wat does mooned mean...?

123.Age? 4 me 2 noe and u 2 find out...

124.Do you keep your underwear and socks in the same drawer? yah sometimes..

125.Where were you born? told u b4 not tellin u..

126.Eaten a worm/mud pie? nope

127.Anorexic? nope.. and not obese either.. jus a lil fat..

128.TV or radio? TV

129.Do you glow in the dark? ugh.. would that mean im radioactive? no i dun glow in tha dark..

130.Do you own a Korn CD? no

131.Do you own a Boyz ll Men CD? nope

132.Do you prefer Gold or Silver? gold.. -.-"

133.Do you play guitar? once upon a time... ago..

134.Favorite Sesame Street character? elmo ^^

135.Jump on a trampoline? yah ive jumped on a trampoline b4..

136.Self-conscious? plz tell me who hasnt been self concious some time in their life..? usualli not.. tho am wen i see pix of me OR mirrors..

137.Bite your nails? no

138.Cake or ice cream? icecream

139.Do you smoke? no

140.Who would you hate to be stuck in a room with? some particular ppl whom shall remain nameless..

141.What is your favorite number 6

142.Ever sunbathed nude? nope and dun sunbathe either..

143.Do you own a 2 Pac CD? no

144.One pillow or two? 1

145.What's the worst thing you ever said to someone? "i dun trust u"? cant remember if ive said worse..

146.Like to eat? nearly everythin and ne thin...

147.What kind of first impression do you think you give to people? depends where i am.. who im with and how i feel.. prob usualli give a shy impression..

148.Butter, plain, or salted popcorn?butter and/or salted popcorn

149.Favorite model? completely oblivious

150.Good actor/actress? *shrugz*

151.Beach, city, or country? all of em ^^ each place has its ups and downs ^^

152.Nicknames? della.. dell.. del del.. delia.. hmm jus noticed they all begin wit d.. ne waiz..

153.What are you doing tomorrow? skool.. then study (hopefully)..

154.Tall or short? short

155.What is your ideal marriage location? neva thought bout it..

156.Favorite radio station? nova

157.Where are you going to go to college? well hopefulli goin 2 uwa..

158.Sex? didnt i already tell u im female?

159.Do you play any musical instruments? yah harp and voice are mi major things atm.. i used 2 do bamboo flute.. guitar.. piano.. trombone.. and some otha stuffs...

160.Person who knows the most about you? dunno.. diff ppl noe diff sides of me sometiems..

161.Do you regularly check yourself out in store windows and mirrors? not realli

162.Do you own a Mya CD? no

163.Do you own a Hanson CD? no

164.Club or houseparty? neither? tho prob house party if i had 2 make a choice

165.Played 'Truth or Dare'? yah.. got dare last time.. but ppl 4got 2 dare me so got away wit out doin ne thing.. i prefer watchin and listenin..

166.Person you talk most on the phone with? nobody? dun like fone..
tho of all tha fone convos ive talked 2 scar tha most

167.Who do you want to avoid?some ppl at skool..

168.Have you ever sat through an entire 'Dawson's Creek' episode? nope..

169.Jewel or Sheryl Crow? neither? dunno either

170.Future school? im still in skool..?

171.What is one thing you are obsessed with? *shrugz* cant think of ne thin atm..

172.Blondes or brunettes? neither?

173.Backstreet Boys or *NSync? neither? i jus like songs.. i dun like tha actual boy bands...

174.Clothing? er... u think i walk round nude..? no way.. course i wear clothes..

175.What do you want in a relationship? love.. care.. some1 2 talk 2.. jus simple stuff.. dun need that much..

176.Bra? wth..? wat type of q is that?

177.Were you usually the dumper or the dumpee in your past relationships? neither? havent had a bf b4 ne waiz.. so not possible.. unless ure talkin bout dumping friends.. tho i dun think that sounds rite..

178.What's the last thing you ate and drank?hungry jacks - chips and baguette

179.Favorite communication method? MSN

180.Are you in a band? u asked me already.. -.-"

181.Bath or shower? both depending on day.. winter prefer bath.. summer prefer shower...

182.Can you cross your eyes? yah

183.Can you eat using chopsticks? yah id be worried if i couldnt..

184.Christmas Eve or Christmas Day? either? dun realli matter 2 me..

185.Who do you want to kill?no 1? i dun dislike ne 1 that much

186.Heaven? there may be 1 somewhere.. or could be somethin made up 2 ease tha fear of death... and 2 help loved 1s move on bout tha 1 they loved'ds death...*Shrugz*

187.Do you have problems changing clothes in front of friends? sorta.. yah.. 2 self concious..

188.Favorite restaurant? mine ^^

189.When did you last watch Bambi? neva?

190.Do you prefer diamonds or pearls? both.. they both prettiful in their own way.. ^^

191.Do you make your bed daily? not realli

192.What's sexiest on a guy/girl? i dun realli have thoughts on that tho if i did i still would not express them..

193.Good student? reasonable tho i should study more.. instead of wastin mi time on stuff liek this..

194.Do you talk in your sleep? dunno.. how could u noe if ure asleep?

195.Do you listen to boy bands? yah if they sound good

196.Sports? LOVE sports ^^ but im crap at em -.-"

197.What/who inspires you? mi family and mi peers ^^

198.How many languages do you speak? a reasonable few... um.. canto english and thats bout it fluently.. mandarin and french are sorta soso and viet i can say "i dunno how 2 speak viet" which is totali ironic -.-"

199.When's the last time you cried? a while ago.. tho i cant remember when or y..

200.How do you like your eggs? *shrugz* dun realli liek eggs...

201.Deaf or blind? neither? im happy tha way i am

202.If you died tomorrow, to whom would you leave everything you own? mi family..

203.Vanilla or chocolate? hard choice >.< i wan both

204.Politics? totalli oblivious.. i hate that topic.. did it 4 so many years...

205.Put on women's clothing and hang around in bars? well DUH wit tha put on women's clothes.. but hung round bars..? NO

206.Favorite animal? love all animals.. all unique in their own way ^^

207.Cats or dogs? dogs

208.Outgoing? not realli.. tho i can have outbursts of sorta outgoing-ness once in a while..

209.Do you like to sing on the toilet? er.. not realli..

210.Who are you going to be married to? totalli no idea..

211.Is the glass half empty or have full? me is optimist ^^ half full

212.Food or candy? both? tho food prob not make u as fat..

213.What do you cook the best? nothing?

214.Where would you want to go on your honeymoon? ne where as long as its wit mi honey ^^

215.Favorite actor? none?

216.What is on your mouse pad? tis a pic of plane.. saiz defencejobs.gov.au.. encouragin ppl 2 join defence forces.. tha pic is pretty ^^

217.Do you sleep with stuffed animals? yah

218.What's the last thing you read?away i thought i said it already..

219.Any tattoos or piercings? earring piercings othawise no

220.Favorite thing for dinner? ne thing

221.Who was the last person you touched? mum.. jus hugged her ^^

222.Hair? long black

223.Girl's names? dunno

224.Take a shower every day? HELL yes..

225.Name? wznt this meant 2 be q 1...? ne waiz della

226.What is your sign? aquarius...

227.What are you currently wearing? pj top and bottoms ^^

228.Do you sleep with the light on? no.. save electricity!!! tha world aint gonna last 4eva..

229.Do you possess magical abilities? i hope so ^^

230.What is your shoe size? 7 or 8

231.Who's your second family? mi friends..? :S dunno

232.Favorite ice cream? VANILLA OR CHOC

233.Do you prefer Green or Blue? BLUE ^^

234.Is there a TV in your room? no

235.Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? twirl

236.Most frivolous purchase? cant remember

237.Are you a ditz? at times ^^"

238.What are you doing next weekend? well friday nite got music concert.. then wedding on sat then on sun got buddha bday which means totall embarresment

239.Favorite flower? have many.. tho tha first ones i can think of r lotus and lily

240.Writing hand? right-y

241.Do you like any sort of oldies? wat u mean by that??

242.What's your Favorite Quote? have many soz cbb typin em out..

243.Do you care about how you look? at times..

244.First kiss? not sayin nothing..

245.Been in a fight? dun think so.. no

256.Do you like to sing in the shower? occasionally...

257.Strip? NO WAY

258.Do you wear glasses? yah do now...

259.Have you ever won any special awards? neva.. :'(

260.Have you ever named your breasts? ARE U KIDDING ME?!?!? soz but i dun talk 2 parts of me so i dun think they'd have a name..

261.First crush? not saying a word..

262.Have you broken a bone?nope

263.What's your favorite sexual position? OMG... -.-" totalli no idea... afta all still virgin ^^

264.How are you sitting? on a chair wit mi legz crossed under tha seat..

265.Talk on the phone? not that often.. not realli much of a talk on tha fone person..

266.What's the last CD you bought? it wz evanescence and that wz like mid year last yr..

267.What color is your bathroom? theme colour is blue.. well its mi parents bath room but hey i like it ^^

268.Do you own an Ice Cube CD? nope

269.How many schools have you been to? 2 i think :S 4 includin preprimary and kindy ..

270.Do you like making mix tapes/CDs? dunno how..

271.Eye color? brown

272.What is the first thing you notice when you look at a guy/girl? dunno.. that they're a guy..? and no im not refering 2 tha lower regions.. 2 those sick minded ppl out there...

273.Virgin? yep and proud bout it ^^

274.What kind of soap do you use? dove

275.What do you have for breakfast? ne thing realli

276.Favorite teacher? like most of mi teachas atm

277.What kind of books do you like to read? fantasy and romance ^^

278.Favorite candy? ne thing realli tho prefer chocolate...

279.On your feet? wth..?

280.The best places you have ever been? cant judge since i cant realli remember tho i noe tha best times are wit loved ones ^^

281.How many CD's do you own? no idea.. tho no more than like 20...

282.If you don't like a person, how do you show it? i try 2 ignore them and not let them get 2 me.. or i jus try not 2 show mi annoyance..

283.Matches or a lighter? matches.. they're fun 2 light ^^

284.What's one thing you're a sore loser at? dunno..

285.Ketchup or mustard? ketchup.. tho i call it tomato sauce.. americans -.-"

286.If you could choose your own name, what would you pick? im happy wit mi name atm ^^

287.Do you prefer talking on the phone or in person? in person i dun like tha fone..

288.Ever said 'I love you' and not meant it? no.. not 2 mi memory...

289.Least Favorite Colours? green ironic huh?

290.Where do you dance? wat u mean by "where"..?

291.Single or taken? single altho therez ppl who say that im taken..

292.Who do you want to look like? miself?

293.Why do we paint our nails? its jus an attempt for us 2 make us look like we care bout tha way we look which is tru.. to make it look like we're pretty.. tho choice realli...

294.What's the weather like? cold outside... and nite time..

295.Do you drive stick? wth..?

296.How many drinks before you're tipsy? neva tried goin that far.. wats so good bout gettin tipsy?

297.What makes you cry? alot of things

298.Nationality? Australian chinese

299.Favorite actress? none..

300.Nearest picture?pic of me and mi sista

301.What store do you shop at the most? mine ^^

302.Do you pee in the shower? eww.. tho if i were realli busting i mite..

303.People online now?14.

304.Do you like Korn? no

305.What are you reading now? pplz replies 2 mi convo

306.'Sunset Beach' or 'The Bold and the Beautiful'? neither?

307.Chocolate or Vanilla? asked me already 3 times as well i think it wz
-.-"

308.Is your band famous, if you're in one?not in a band tho orchestra is soso.. we mite be if we win ^^

309.Who's your favorite actor(actress)/musician? -no comment-

310.Morning or night? nite

311.What did you do for your last birthday? sleepova and dinner

312.Do you tell your friends about your sex life? wat sex life..? thats tha point -.-" tho i guess its a GOOD thing need 2 concentrate on studies

313.Do you swear? yah.. but lightly.. tho i dun see watz so astounding wen i say f*k once in a while... -.-" im not completely an angel...

314.Have you ever kissed someone you didn't know? depends on wat degree of "u didnt noe" ure talkin bout.. tho no matter.. no

315.What fabric detergent do you use? dunno.. its jus white stuff..
coz we jus have it in this bucket container thing....

316.What do you think is the biggest mistake that people tend to make in
relationships? *shrugz* dunno... depends which relationships u refer 2..

317.What kind of car do you drive? dun drive

318.Who are you talking to?ppl.. *in otha words dun wanna tell u*

319.Gloves or mittens? gloves need 2 move fingers...

320.Future child's name? dunno..

321.What's one thing you wish you could do but can't? dunno.. happy wit life atm ^^ well otha than stress..

322.Are you friends with whoever sent you this survey? i didnt get it sent 2 me..

323.Banning of guns? i find it reasonable.. but its also a form of self defence -.-"

324.How many kids do you want? dun mind.. tho 2 girls and 2 boiz would be cute but i dun think i could handle that much *shrudderz*

325.Have you loved somebody so much it makes you cry? nope

326.Which shoe goes on first? right

327.Where did you get this survey? some place online...
i wz bored so i searched "email survey" and came up wit this..

328.Have you ever experienced deja vu?heapz of times..

329.Do you like roses? Love EM ^^

330.What goes on first, bra or underwear? ok isnt it boardering on personal invasion..? im non answering

331.Do you use an alarm clock? yah but its pointless since i sleep thru it

332.Favorite writing instrument? pen

333.Favorite hangout? ne where realli.. dun realli have a "hang out"

334.Birthday? 15 feb

335.What's one of the 'funnest' things you've ever done? nothing?

336.How often do you brush your teeth? min 2wice a day

337.Do you have a job? yah waitress.. and onli occasional

338.Curly or straight hair? straight

339.What's one trait you hate in a person? i dunno..

340.Punk rock/swing/ska? *shrugz*

341.Like to listen to music? yah

342.Are you eating? no not atm

343.Favorite thing for breakfast? asked already said dunno

344.What CD is in your CD player right now? not listenin 2 cd playa and i dun have 1..

345.Phone number? not ritin here...

346.Favorite type of music? ne type realli.. tho not realli that in2 classical..

347.Ever been involved with the police? no

358.What colour are you kitchen plates? white

359.What is your favorite TV show? dun mind

360.Looking at the keyboard? no

361.What's one car you will never buy? ute

362.If you could have any job what would it be? multi billionaire..? lol or singer..? nah i like singing but dun like performing..

363.What characteristic do you despise? dunno

364.What's your favorite song at the moment? heapz...

365.Is it right to flirt if you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? depends how much and how possessive he is.. and dun lead tha otha guy on 2 far.. tho all in all i think u should tell em ure taken

366.Favorite drink? *shrugz*

367.Something you love and hate? love music.. hate vomit

368.School? mlc

369.Who sent this to you? no 1

370.Favorite thing to do? sleep?

371.If you like ska, what's your favorite ska band? wat is ska..?

372.Have you ever broken someone's heart? not intentionalli.. i dunno tho..

373.What's your favorite soundtrack? dun have 1 dun think
374.Do you own a Britney Spears CD? used 2 have a britney spears tape but not CD..

375.How many online journals do you read regularly? roudn 4-7.. cbb counting..

376.How often do you shower/bathe? everyday min

377.Do you prefer to stand out or blend in? blend in

378.Alternative rock? dun mind

379.Would you rather be rich or famous? famous

380.What was your first CD? aqua aquarium

381.What band posters are on your wall? none

382.What do you wear to bed? pjs

383.Even in hot weather do you use a blanket? yah

384.Music? yah i like listenin 2 music

385.Hamburger or cheeseburger? neither

386.What's the soonest that you've slept with someone? neva?

387.Have you ever owned a Marilyn Manson CD? no

388.Good dancer? ballrooom? ok.. othawise.. -no comment- i cannot dance.. tho i love 2 dance :S dun make sense.. i love 2 dance wen its choreographed by some 1

389.Best thing you've done this summer?spent time wit family...

390.Swam in the ocean? yah tha beach

391.What's your all-time favorite song? dunno :S

392.Dream house? havent thought that far...

393.Tea or coffee? tea

394.What's the one language you want to learn? mi dadz chinese dialect which i dunno how 2 say in english

395.Pierced belly button? no

396.If you won the lottery, what would you do first? tell mi family...?

397.Eye color of choice? still brown...

398.Oranges or apples? both.. depends on quality

399.What is your middle name? dun have 1

400.Do you own an Eminem CD? no

401.Work out? onli wen i have 2 during pe and hse acts

402.Do you ever listen to pop? yah listen 2 wateva

403.How many rings until you answer your phone? dunno :S jus answer fone..

404.Pools or hot tubs?hot tub? its heated ^^

405.Do you own a Mariah Carey CD? nope

406.Mowing the lawn? tried once wen i tried 2 help mi dad..
but othawise no...

407.What fictional character do you admire the most? *shrugz*

408.Do you own a TLC CD? no

409.Who's your favorite country singer? dun mind

410.What are your future goals? parents want me 2 go in2 medicine..

411.Coke or Pepsi? told u coke

412.Ridden in a fire truck? yah wen i wz lil

413.Do you own an MTV party to go CD? no

414.Have you ever thrown a shoe at anyone? no but ive threatened 2...

415.Can you draw? no way

416.Have you ever (or do you) like Hanson? no

417.Do you bite your nails? no

418.Would you say you have an advanced knowledge of music? nope completely oblivious..

419.Do you like Britney Spears? dun mind

420.Like to write? sorta

421.When was the last time you talked on the phone? ages ago..

422.Favorite fabric? dunno.. silk or satin...

423.Favorite kind of porn? how bout i DUN wanna noe bout that stuff..

424.Rickie lake or Oprah Winfrey? neither

425.Good at sports?1 word.... crap

426.Weight? somewhere between 50 and 60 kg..

427.Have you ever gotten in a car accident? nope

428.Santa? i think he may still be alive.. somewhere far away ^^

429.Had a nightmare/dream that made you wake up? who hasnt?

430.Why do we love Pamela Lee Anderson so much? well i dunno.. i dun like nor dislike her.. tho i think 4 tha guyz would be her large "assets"

431.Gave someone a piggy back/shoulder ride? yah wen i wz lil.. oh and 4 chewy on instrumental camp

432.Tattoos? nope i dun think eva

433.What is your birth name? wat tha..?

434.Favorite sport? ne thin realli tho i disliek aussie rules footy...

435.Do you eat the stems of broccoli? yah

436.Hamburger or Hotdog? hot dog

437.Favorite food? *shrugz*

438.What kind of bedding do you use? normal sheets :S

439.What are you doing this weekend? told u once not tellin u again

440.Parents? LOVE them ^^

441.If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would you choose?dunno :S

442.Hard or mild alcohol? mild.. everythin in balance ^^

443.Pen or pencil? pen

444.Hang out with friends? ne where as logn as we're 2getha ^^

445.Have you dated one of your best friends? no

446.Achiever or slacker? slacker attempting an achiever image..
-.-"

447.Do you prefer Purple or Pink? pink ^^

448.Favorite day of the week? sat..

449.Why are we so obsessed with violence? coz its shown a lot in tha media?

450.Bikini or one-piece? one piece.. dun have tha body shape 4 bikini... prob scare every1 away... lol

451.Do you own a Bone Thugs N Harmony CD? no

452.Favorite cartoon character? *shrugz*

453.Do you own a Limp Bizkit CD?no

454.When was the last time you punched someone? *shrugz*

455.How often do you have sex? how bout trying neva yet?

456.Coke or Pepsi? no ure not convertin me 2 pepsi i still choose coke

457.Do you cry in front of friends? not tha 1s i have now.. havent cried infront of em i dun think..

458.Are you a giver or a taker? bitta both?

459.Who do you want to be like? mi parents

460.Your single biggest fear? dunno :S

461.What's the last thing you bought? food?

462.What are your favorite bands? ne thin realli i listen 2 tha music dun look at band...

463.What time do you get up? 7 usualli

464.Favorite perfume? echo woman and taht blue ralph lauren 1..

465.Would you rather be on time and look OK or 10 minutes late and look great?on time ok..

466.Height? short like 160 i think...

467.Hair color? black

468.Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? yes

469.Do you listen to country?sometimes...

470.Favorite talk shows?dun watch

471.Hamburger or hot dog? hot dog

472.Hot or cold? hot i think :S

473.Pets? annabel.. dalmation

474.Soul mate? dunno.. may be one out there somewhere in tha world

475.What's your sleeping position? on mi side..

476.Have you ever flashed someone? no

477.Do you consider yourself materialistic?a lil

478.Why do we care about our muscles so much? coz we dun wanna be taken ova by fat?

479.Sports or news? news

480.Like to read? yah

481.How much have you grown as a person (spiritualy/menatly/emotionaly... you know, as a person)? i dunno.. i dun mark mi results..

482.What utensils do you use to eat pizza?hands?

483.Favorite Spice Girl?*shrugz*

484.What have you stolen before?no

485.Abortion?no unless its like rape

486.Do you have any pets? Yes annabel

487.Are you thinking?yes

488.Would you ever have plastic surgery? no

489.Where do you cry? in bed

490.Cann you name all four Tellitubbies? Yes tinki winki dipsy lala and poe

491.Hell? a place made up 2 enforce laws? tho there realli could be i

492.Favorite Movies? none

493.Do you snore? u mite i dunno

494.What was the last film you saw at the cinema? house of flying daggers

495.Do you like Lynyrd Skynyrd? dunno who he is

496.If you could have any colour hair what whould it be? black

497.Do you sleepwalk? i mite i dunno

498.Do you own a Jennifer Lopez CD? no

499.Can you blow smoke rings?

500.Deep sleeper? Yes sometimes

ok sorta pointles and repetative..
nit enite
*hugz*

w/e AT LAST

omg w/e at LAST

well not realli taht amazing..
but sorta missed a break 4m skool due 2 tha fact that i had choral camp last w/e
and its motherz day 2moro ^^
hmm..
as usual dun realli celebrate it so dun realli buy ne thin..
like it seems like a materialistic day where u either buy mum somethin she wants or she needs..
a reason 2 go shopping..
and i gues u could try and make somethin..
tho tha stuff i make would prob somehow find its way 2 tha bin sooner or later..

talkin bout instrumental camp..
a few posts ago i said somethin bout choral camp?
i meant instrumental camp..
talkin bout it.. i did i mention "there wz this time at band camp..?"
lol
ne waiz 4 tha finals of tha mini olympics..
tha task wz hilarious
coz it ended up seeming like there wz some girl on girl action *wink* :P
ne waiz..
it wz jus 2 do this orange relay..
but tha catch is u had 2 carry it 2 tha ppl in ure team wit ure neck..
and pass it 2 em wit ure neck..
and if it fell they had 2 start again...
so wen they were passin tha orange it looked so real..
ne waiz.. it got worse wit some ppl slipping and tha otha person goin further down 2 make sure it didnt fall on 2 tha ground..
ne waiz i think thats graphic enough.. if not u could jus imagine it if u realli wanted 2..

also on instrumental camp there wz a BETTA thing!!
talk bout small world..
found a friend that i had in yr 3..
turns out shez in yr 10 now..
coz like she left our skool in yr 3 coz she went ova seas..
and wen she returned she had 2 repeat a yr..
tho thing is she didnt recognise me till i told her who i wz..
oh well
ive changed ^^

had chinese 2day..
did nothin realli..
cept 4 dance thingy rehersal and sat round and talked..
i got mi palms read by a girl in mi class ^^
accordin 2 tha reading :

*i have a split or multiple personalities..
*i think a lot
*i worry a lot
*im creative :S
*i have a talent in either art-sy stuff or riting
*ill have a large inheritance of some kind
*in relationships (love) i fall in and out of love at tha same time :S
*if im in a relationship (love) i tend not 2 make it so that its not obvious that i like/love em :S
*once i get 2 noe ppl.. i get v attached 2 them
*later on in life ill earn most of mi money thru mi leadership skills
*i find it hard 2 let go
*i have relationship (general) probs
*im a social person O.o
*ill gain a lotta money thru mi relationship (love)
*i need 2 be healthier -.-"
*i have potential (in a palmistry sense) ?.?
*im an emotional person

interestin..
tho not sure if im that much of a believer..
oh well
did it mostly of intrest..
i mean if i let mi parents noe i spent ne money on stuff like that they'd go mad..
so i sorta jumped at tha opportunity 2 get a free hand reading :D

>.<
i totalli 4got i gotta go out 2 help sell flowers 2moro morning
so i betta get some sleep since i miss out on mi sleep in AGAIN -.-"
nite nite
*hugz*

YAA

well its quite late but i wanna type somethin 2 distract miself 4m gnt..
well i dun wanna be distracted..
but its somethin that is welcomed dearly..
actualli it would affect mi mark a bit..
so i shouldnt realli be typin -.-"
but hey im bored..

had YAA yesterday..
mona got company secretary..
i got manufacturing mangager/directer person..
but like it wz sorta since some ppl nominated me 4 it..
but ne waiz.. i wz originalli planning on doin tha minimal possible..
but now at least i get higher pay ^^

skools ok..
mainly goin realli fast..
and i cant seem 2 be able 2 adjust 2 tha timetable yet..
like i keep goin liek OMG so long since i walked this way or that way..
like due 2 tha whole holiday thing but it seems like we havent had a holiday yet..
and OMG EXAMS soon !!!

me feelin tired..
and i have spent like 2 hours on this post -.-"
well tha fact that i wz doin mi gnt assignment and chattin doesnt help..
oo ive nearly done mi gnt ^^
like onli 4 q left..
well those 4 i dun get so its reasonable ^^
ne waiz nite nite
*hugz*

instrumental camp and skool

bak 4m choral camp..
and first week of skool is ova ^^
but ugh cant believe i have skool 2moro...
i jus wanna sleep all tha way thru 2moro

well mi week..
it wz quite short..
wit onli 3 daiz..
went by so quickly..

and its like 3 weekz 2 exams O.O

i noe therez somethin that i wanted 2 rite bout 4 mi mini week of skool..
but cant remember it so straight on 2 bout mi camp..

i went there on tha bus wit nellie, chewy and gar..
nellie spent fri there but then left that evening..
and coz she wz leaving we did our song first..
and afta she left..
mr gallo decided 2 do tha otha songs..
so i sorta got kikd out bak 2 mi dorm..
wait i didnt realli get kikd out..
i sorta had a choice but i didnt wanna be in tha same room wit mr gallo shouting..
so wen bak 2 dorm 4 peace and quiet and study..
but behind our dorm wz some activity room...
and choir wz singin there >.< so no quiet..
and then they stopped i wz like YAY
but concert band ppl got let out like an hour earli >.<
SO it wz screaming and LOUD music..
(tha ppl wit tha loud music wz like above our dorm)
ugh...
and ppl actualli knocked on mi dorm opend tha door then realised it wz tha rong room -.-" there are numbers on tha door..
and ova ALL that..
i could still here tah orchestra and mr gallo
from tah hall wit tha door closed in mi dorm -.-"

got study at nite..
like afta lights out..
we got our lil special room in tha hall ^^
i liked that lil room cept i didnt liek tha buzzing sound in there..

tha food wz a lil bit betta this time at tha place..

i got known as "tha harp person" OR "harpie" OR "harp-y"
(how eva u spell)
ugh annoying..
harp had a string break..
i need new felt plectrums

OH quiz nite..
we came 4th ^^
but that wz also partly coz we lost all tha games 4 tha mini olympics thing where like we had 2 do these activities.. some were SO hilarious
oh and we were known as "tha windy strings"
gar thought of tha name ^^
well it wz gonna be that or half-halfs
which woulda been hard 2 musically introduce..

ne waiz..
its late and i havent had like ne sleep ova tha camp..
well it felt that way..
ne wiaz
nite nite
*hugz*

quiz

Quiz Liz sent me in tah email...
1.. What is the time right now: 4:14pm
2..Name: Adela
3..Nickname/s: Della, Delia, Del, Del-del
4.. What are you wearing right now? Blue spag top and layered hankie black skirt thats black
5.. Star sign: aquarius
6..Where do you live: in mi lovely home which i miss due 2 bein on instrumental camp.. atm mi room looks like a garbage tip -.-" need 2 clean later
7.. Sex: female
8.. Single or taken: single
9.. Righty or Lefty: right-y
10.. Hair color: Black
11.. Eye color: Brown
12. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: no
13.. Will you send this to your crush: crush..? wat crush..? doesnt being surrounded by girls at a girl skool bad enough? oh wait.. u didnt noe that.. ne waiz no crush..
so not possible..
14.. Birthday:15 feb

ON GUYS FOR GIRLS TO FILL OUT
1. Boxers or briefs: boxers
2.. Long or short hair: short
3.. Dark or blonde hair: dun mind realli but preferably dark
4.. Tall or short: taller than me but not so tall that i have 2 bend mi neck bak 2 look in their face...
5.. Six pack: dun mind realli
6.. Muscular arms: same as b4.. tho i wouldnt mind it :P
7.. Good or bad guy: depends how they are within.. and wat u classify as bad or good..
8.. Hat or no hat: er..? how differece? cant they jus take it off? or put it on? like its not like therez a speices of guyz who grow a hat on tha top of their heads so its impossble 2 take off..?
9.. Ears pierced or not: no piercing
10.. Dimples: depends on how it looks on em.. tho i dun think id notice em ne waiz..
11.. Studly or cutie: dunno.. either realli
12.. Dark or light eyes: prob dark.. i mean dark hair and light eyes is prob quite a rare thing..
13.. Fat or thin: dun mind.. as long as their not like obese and like unhuggable :P
14.. Jewelry or none: wat type of jewelery? but i think not... no jewelry.. it should be 4 me ^^ nah jk
15. Curly or straight hair: pref straight
17.. Indoor(s) or outdoor(s) : both.. depending on tha weather realli
18.. Shy or outgoing: outgoing :P im tha shy 1...

*~EVERYONE~*
1.. Would you date someone just for their looks? prob not.. its mainly bout how they are as a person.. tha whole personality thing and all... tho then again i dun think id go out wit ne 1 who is like completely and utterly disfigured.. if theyre bit scruffy they can alwaiz change...
2.. Chocolate or white milk: chocolate
3.. Mud or jelly: mud or jelly..? wat kinda q is that? or r u refering 2 mud cake? tho if its refering 2 jus mud or jelly then jelly
4.. Skiing or boarding: neither? how bout staying indoors wit a nice warm drink sittin and spending time infront of a heater or fireplace wit some1?
5.. Summer or winter: summer.. not as restricting in activites.. but can be 2 hot sometimes.. but winterz alwaiz great 4 staying indoors its just tha prob of staying in.. u cant stay indoors all winter :(
6.. Cake or pie: cake
7.. Silver or gold: both
8.. Sunset or sunrise: sunset.. nice time.. and i dun have 2 put ne effort in havin 2 get up early 2 see it ^^ oh best seen on a beach ^^ or like riverside *sigh*
9.. Have you ever fractured/broken/sprained a bone: nope neva.. tho i remember wen i wz lil i alwaiz wanted 2 so that i could go in2 hospital and have a cast done etc.
10.. Do you have any piercings: just earrings last yr
11.. Whats ya fav colour??: BLUE ^^ pink and purple are ok...
12.. Do you hate anyone: i dislike some ppl but i dun think i dislike ne 1 2 an extreme of classing it as HATE... such a negative word...
13.. What do you dream about: tha strangest things.. ive ritten a few examples here b4 but i cant remember ne recent ones so none 2 rite here atm
14.. Do u have a HUGE crush on someone right now: nope.. not realli atm.. maybe i should go meet some ppl :P nah.. need 2 concentrate on studies atm.. got enough distractions already as it is wit all these bz things happening
15.. who's the loudest friend: :S dunno
16.. Who do you tell your dreams to?: well i either tell it 2 ppl or they end up reading it here in mi blog
17.. What shampoo do u use: pantene
18.. How many T.Vs in your house: 2 one in mi parents room and 1 in tha lounge
19.. Who is the last person you called: mi dad 2 pick me up afta instrumental camp
20.. Where do you want to get married: omg... i havent even thought of gettin a bf yet let alone gettin married... -.-"
21.. Favorite boys name: ???? no idea
22...Favourite Girls name: ???? no idea either
23.. Have you ever gone skinny dipping: not 2 mi knowledge tho i mite have wen i wz lil and 4got bout it
24.. Been in love: prob not yet
25.. How many people are you sending this to: depending number of ppl who gonna read..
26.. Who do you hope will send it back : *shrugz* its on a blog
27..last film you saw in the cinema: cant remember.. oh yah it wz hitch earlier this yr
28.. What do you have for breakfast: wat evaz in tha fridge :S or cereal.. or somethin..
29.. Do u like filling these things out: soso...
30..Time Now: 4:41pm
31.. Who sent this to you? Liz.. in an email

anzac day...

anzac 2day...
as usual had parade down 4m st george's tce to langley park..
had 2 get up at 7 4 it =o=
seriously i cant even remember wakin up at such a time..
guess i gotten used 2 sleeping in :P

ne wiaz..
got there on time 8am stood round by miself at st george's tce..
since i didnt noe ne 1 there..
then found rest of ppl..
formed up..
waited till round 9 and parade started..
and once it started i realised how much i missed tha anzac parade...
not that i like tha actual ceremony which is dead boring..
but tha actual parade part...
it felt so good.. wit all tha whole marchin 2 a drum and such..
and then there wz that whole pride thingy..
like ppl watchin whilst u march past..
everythin wz goin well...
cept tha 2 ppl infront of me werent capable of keeping in step..
-.-" so i had 2 stay bak a bit 2 avoid being hit..
otha wise:
tha horse poo wz on tha otha side so i wz thinkin yay...
no horse shit 4m me this yr..
and then i thought 2 soon..
wen we turned tha corner tha horse shit wz on mi side of tha road
UGH ewwwwwwwwwwww
loved and hated it..

-------------------------------------------------------------
April 26th

u noe i realised 2day...
so far every anzac day ive been to has been in tha sun..
like its a definate day tha sun is gonna shine..?

2moro is bak 2 skool...
>.< and we have instrumental camp..
and then tha week afta all tah assignments are due...
well h bio and ic then gnt tha week afta..

yay went out 2 dinner wit mi parents last nite ^^
but mum got bit sick 4m food >.<

ne waiz..
got glasses 2day...
>.< they hurt wen i look at close things..
so onli gonna wear in classroom ^^
and guess wat? tha frames are blue..
but tha interestin thing is that wen i went 4 tha testin wz that tha person said 2 me.. "u if u came 2 us earlier we woulda said u wouldnt realli need them.. but i think that u came jus at tha rite time.. coz ure jus slightly needing them now"
-.-"
ive been like this for about 4 yrs

ne waiz..
bye
*hugz*