bout 2 weekz since mi last post...
mi apologiez...
coz i sorta wz sick and then afta that...
i kept gettin distracted by msn...
so by tha end of tha post bein ritten there wz like onli 3 linez ritten...
so no point in publishin...
and then afta that i sorta had a time of loss of internet connection due to some random reason...
which seemed totalli horrible 4 me...
since i jus realised how much i depend on tah net and how much time i spend on it...
hmm...
watz happend since mi last post...?
semester 2 music concert - our choir sounded as if there wz no sound produced...
voice recital - it went ok i guezz i stuffed up a few timez... mi teacha said i did well tho ^^
muck up day - got drenched >.< and covered in shaving cream or shampoo wat eva it wz... but not as bad as some pplz i guezz...
heather lamont - well they cancelled tha house dance >.< so didnt get 2 watch that...
umm... i entered 3 catergories... french play... textiles and craft (tha tute skirt)... and tha cake which i guess wz falling apart but i guezz it tasted good and we had fun ^^ tho i think now im prob double size of wat i wz b4 i shared tha cake wit scar ^^"
and thatz bout it...
how borin is mi life...?
oh wellz...
i got friendz and family 2 talk 2
so all iz good ^^
tha otha day durin re...
we were talkin bout if there wz an existance of god...
and ms raston wz like givin this hand out bout some evidence 2 support tha existance of A god...
or at least some creator...
and tha otha day i wz standin ..
and again i noticed all tah beauty round us...
tha trees whose leaves of so many shades of green dancing in tha wind...
and tha clear blue sky dotted with scatterings of clouds...
and lil buds bout 2 open...
*sigh*
i mean seriously all this beauty must have been created...
how could it have all been accidental...?
but then some of tha stuff could be evolution...
but how could such a "perfect" world be an accident?
i meant therez tha whole balance of tha seasons...
and tha food chain...
and tha whole reproduction thing
which all leads to possible global sustainability...
tho if us humans continue wreckin tha world there may ne world left...
but then im jus sittin here bein hypocritical bout tha destroyin tha world...
coz i am still contributin 2 it -.-"
i wonder...
could it all jus be human nature...?
to both create and destroy all tha things each other owns or loves and cherishes..?
all beginnings have ends...
but y is it that we seem 2 end everything around some1 else...?
with all those wars that happend...?
a struggle for power and resources...
and jus endin lives of pplz and then leave their love ones in pain...
all that grief..?
was it realli worth it?
as a whole...? all that happend?
*sigh*
but tehn i think how mi life'd be if all that didnt happen...
i prob wouldnt be livin here...
wit this access 2 tha net..
and havin such good education...
oh wellz...
shouldnt wonder bout wat could have been now that itz already happend...
sometimez i wonder...
am i realli nice and polite....? or do i act nice and polite?
do i act nice round pplz coz im afraid that pplz wont accept me 4 me...?
but then strangely i can open up and talk 2 some of tha most strange pplz...
and i dunno y i seem 2 trust...
but so far wen eva i have trusted pplz and told em tha ENTIRE truth...
soon rumors start goin round...
and im sick and tired of wat pplz say..
seemz like i usualli end up trustin tha rong pplz...
i dun wanna hear wat pplz tell othas...
im sick of bein tha topic of rumors sometimez...
and then afta pplz start sendin those weird glances...
and quiet giggles...
and talkin bout stuff behind ure bak...
and then therez jus tha pplz who judge by appearance...
whom seem 2 peeve me coz they dont seem 2 understand...
i mean i may sound cliched bout findin tha inner beauty...
and gettin 2 noe tha person and how they've lived their life so far...
how much they've suffered or enjoyed jus by tha way they dress...
or appear...
*sigh*
who am i...?
i wonder that also...
pplz say ure shaped by wat u like and dislike and tha way u act and appear...
yet if i find miself like drifting along in life...
nothin i REALLI like or love or am passionate bout...
nothin im REALLI against... or hate...
tha way i act is jus a result of mi reaction 2 tha pplz around me...
and tha way i appear iz wat mi mum deems as acceptable 2 wear..
since she practicalli buyz mi clothes 4 me wit out me knowin...
maybe i jus want independance...?
i wanna know who i am..
but doesnt everybody..?
2 find a place where they believe they belong...
wen they actualli realise they do..?
i guess itz realli tha nicest feelin wen u lose track of time..
and jus enjoy wat u have and accept ure self 4 who u are...
and jus know ure loved and believed u belong...
i guezz thatz how felt at athletics carnival...
totalli carefree..
but wen i start thinkin...
and tha mind wonders..
and remembers...
everythin that wz covered...
jus seemz 2 reappear..
and i jus get in2 tha most saddening depressions...
as if tha world doesnt care...
and there is no point in your own existance..
as if it wz all a mistake...
tho i hope thatz not tru...
coz every1 wants 2 believe that they're important 2 at least 1 otha person in tha world...
*sigh*
betta go sleep now...
nite nite
*hugz*
Saturday, November 06, 2004
Monday, October 25, 2004
realisationz...
>.<
sick atm and mi throat killz like hell so i cant realli speak...
and tha music concert iz 2moro nite...
and tah voice recital iz on sun...
not good since mi voice iznt workin atm...
but then it mite turn out that i wont have 2 sing ^.^
i had mi first harp lesson 2day wit tha new harp teacha...
i dun realli like her already...
and onli in 1 lesson...
oh wellz...
at least its gonna be a short term...
u noe these last few daiz ive made a few realisationz....
i jus realised that mi mum actualli iz a lil jealous of tha opportunitez mi sista and i have !!!
thatz actualli quite interestin...
i mean she keepz goin on bout "wen i wz ure age..."
i neva actualli thought taht she would be a lil jealous...
coz she wz talkin bout her childhood again durin tha w/e
then for tha first time i actualli notices a twinge of jealousy...
and a bit of bitterness...
or it could be that she wz jus pmsin...
i dunno... but it sounded like jealousy 2 me...
and i made a few otha realisationz... but i cant remember wat they were...
hmm...
itz 4 hourz afta i opendd thiz window and ive bearly ritten all tha stuff i wz gonna rite...
and now i cant remember -.-"
cbb
nite nite
*hugz*
sick atm and mi throat killz like hell so i cant realli speak...
and tha music concert iz 2moro nite...
and tah voice recital iz on sun...
not good since mi voice iznt workin atm...
but then it mite turn out that i wont have 2 sing ^.^
i had mi first harp lesson 2day wit tha new harp teacha...
i dun realli like her already...
and onli in 1 lesson...
oh wellz...
at least its gonna be a short term...
u noe these last few daiz ive made a few realisationz....
i jus realised that mi mum actualli iz a lil jealous of tha opportunitez mi sista and i have !!!
thatz actualli quite interestin...
i mean she keepz goin on bout "wen i wz ure age..."
i neva actualli thought taht she would be a lil jealous...
coz she wz talkin bout her childhood again durin tha w/e
then for tha first time i actualli notices a twinge of jealousy...
and a bit of bitterness...
or it could be that she wz jus pmsin...
i dunno... but it sounded like jealousy 2 me...
and i made a few otha realisationz... but i cant remember wat they were...
hmm...
itz 4 hourz afta i opendd thiz window and ive bearly ritten all tha stuff i wz gonna rite...
and now i cant remember -.-"
cbb
nite nite
*hugz*
Saturday, October 23, 2004
lazy
hmmm...
these daiz startin 2 get 2 lazy 2 blog...
i mean i do open up tha window and start typin..
but then by tha end of tha nite ive onli ritten a few linez so cbb publishin....
(either 2 distracted by msn or playin gamez...)
afta an extremely long week of 4 daiz...
itz tha weekend at last !!!
seemz like agez ago since skool started...
i got mi french and math resultz bak....
mi french wz round 72%
and mi math wz 63% and ms bayley took tha liberty 2 rank our scores between her 2 classes...
i got ranked 42/51 >.<
and s+e i got 72.5% ( accordin 2 mr o every1 in tha class did betta than their usual except 4 me who got below mi standard -.-")
realli nothin 2 talk bout this week...
had chinese skool 2day 4 first day of term 4...
changed classroomz...
saw andy....
then went 2 airport 2 pick up mi grandparents...
they had jus come bak 4m a 3 week trip 2 India...
then went home and net....
okz
nite nite...
*hugz*
these daiz startin 2 get 2 lazy 2 blog...
i mean i do open up tha window and start typin..
but then by tha end of tha nite ive onli ritten a few linez so cbb publishin....
(either 2 distracted by msn or playin gamez...)
afta an extremely long week of 4 daiz...
itz tha weekend at last !!!
seemz like agez ago since skool started...
i got mi french and math resultz bak....
mi french wz round 72%
and mi math wz 63% and ms bayley took tha liberty 2 rank our scores between her 2 classes...
i got ranked 42/51 >.<
and s+e i got 72.5% ( accordin 2 mr o every1 in tha class did betta than their usual except 4 me who got below mi standard -.-")
realli nothin 2 talk bout this week...
had chinese skool 2day 4 first day of term 4...
changed classroomz...
saw andy....
then went 2 airport 2 pick up mi grandparents...
they had jus come bak 4m a 3 week trip 2 India...
then went home and net....
okz
nite nite...
*hugz*
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
first few daiz bak at skool...
well skoolz started...
and bout 2 daiz till tha weekend ^^
im startin 2 get bak tha resultz 4 mi exams...
their alrite i guezz.. im not totalli devastated...
but then im not that happi bout them...
Chem - 85% (mi mumz askin y i didnt get 100% -.-" but ovall im happi wit it... coz i didnt realli finish tha paper)
Phys - 77% (soso... )
Bio - 72% (not realli carin bout it...)
English - 5b (they didnt give us a mark >.<>.<
wat would happen then? would it be survival of tha richest?
or would we try 2 find a planet 2 live on?
they talk bout how if tha rich pplz gave money 2 tha pplz who are poverty stricken...
maybe there'd be a balance...
but then pplz are greedy...
pplz will do wat eva they can 2 get easi cash $.$
and therez gonna be tha queue jumpin...
and maybe deathz jus 2 get richez...
and who would give money out in tha first place...?
i mean even i admit im materialistic...
and i keep wantin 2 buy new stuffz...
tha old stuff getz given 2 mi sista but who'd want our stuff ne waiz...?
plus i do realise that i dont wanna give it 2 ne1 coz itz MINE
jus so hard i guezz...
hmm...
wen i opend thiz it wz 4:25...
thatz 6 hourz ago...
oh wellz
thatz wat msn doez 2 me i guezz...
cant type post and talk
hmm.. choir 2moro mornin
nite nite
*hugz*
bye
and bout 2 daiz till tha weekend ^^
im startin 2 get bak tha resultz 4 mi exams...
their alrite i guezz.. im not totalli devastated...
but then im not that happi bout them...
Chem - 85% (mi mumz askin y i didnt get 100% -.-" but ovall im happi wit it... coz i didnt realli finish tha paper)
Phys - 77% (soso... )
Bio - 72% (not realli carin bout it...)
English - 5b (they didnt give us a mark >.<>.<
wat would happen then? would it be survival of tha richest?
or would we try 2 find a planet 2 live on?
they talk bout how if tha rich pplz gave money 2 tha pplz who are poverty stricken...
maybe there'd be a balance...
but then pplz are greedy...
pplz will do wat eva they can 2 get easi cash $.$
and therez gonna be tha queue jumpin...
and maybe deathz jus 2 get richez...
and who would give money out in tha first place...?
i mean even i admit im materialistic...
and i keep wantin 2 buy new stuffz...
tha old stuff getz given 2 mi sista but who'd want our stuff ne waiz...?
plus i do realise that i dont wanna give it 2 ne1 coz itz MINE
jus so hard i guezz...
hmm...
wen i opend thiz it wz 4:25...
thatz 6 hourz ago...
oh wellz
thatz wat msn doez 2 me i guezz...
cant type post and talk
hmm.. choir 2moro mornin
nite nite
*hugz*
bye
Sunday, October 17, 2004
2nd last day of freedom...
*sigh*
2 nite itz like tha most pplz online 4 me in agez...
yet...
no1 2 talk 2 on msn...
and so soon tha holz are ova...
oh wellz...
well tha rest of tha day..
nothin that special....
went out 2 nb wit mi mum 2 buy beansprout coz ran out at resto..
then went 2 help out in tha shop...
well mainly jus sit at tha bak..
but i helped close up since tha person whoez sick didnt turn up 2day...
which caused tha cancellation of mi day wit mi parents...
well i mopped up tha shop 4 tha first time since i wz 7...
so yah i could bearly remember how...
but i rememberd afta a while wat i needed 2 do...
then went ova 2 tha resto..
waitressed 4 bout 5 minz...
then went home...
and yah...
tatz tha rest of mi day...
hmmm..
sudden attack of msg..
me gonna go chat
nite nite
*hugz*
2 nite itz like tha most pplz online 4 me in agez...
yet...
no1 2 talk 2 on msn...
and so soon tha holz are ova...
oh wellz...
well tha rest of tha day..
nothin that special....
went out 2 nb wit mi mum 2 buy beansprout coz ran out at resto..
then went 2 help out in tha shop...
well mainly jus sit at tha bak..
but i helped close up since tha person whoez sick didnt turn up 2day...
which caused tha cancellation of mi day wit mi parents...
well i mopped up tha shop 4 tha first time since i wz 7...
so yah i could bearly remember how...
but i rememberd afta a while wat i needed 2 do...
then went ova 2 tha resto..
waitressed 4 bout 5 minz...
then went home...
and yah...
tatz tha rest of mi day...
hmmm..
sudden attack of msg..
me gonna go chat
nite nite
*hugz*
>.<
yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?????????????????
ne waiz....
me so bored...
2day wz meant 2 be a day where i spent some more time wit mi family...
which 4 once mi dad wz gonna spend some tiem wit us...
but turnz out tha whole day wz cancelled...
y?
coz julian sick so cant come 2 work >.<
tha onli day in tha holz that i can spend a WHOLE day wit BOTH mi parents AND mi sista
cancelled....
-.-"
so instead mi mum decided 2 drag me and mi sista along 2 some swap meet/flea market place...
and me wz in pissed off mood all tha way...
plus i had thiz swollen eyelid thing so i could bearly see ne thin...
and mi mum started lecturin me on how i should speak more kindly so pplz dont mistaken me 4 bein pissed off...
but tha thing wz i realli wz in a bad mood
and yah thatz been mi day so far 2day...
umm...
wat happend yesterday...?
well mi mum decided 2 go 2 tha ct...
but this time she wanted 2noe wat it would be like 2 take tha train...
-.-"
so we parked in claremont...
took tah train 2 ct...
walked 2 nb...
yum cha...
then saw andy walk 2 tfusion...
ignored him and went 2 ct...
walked round wit mi mum...
saw bonnie and her friend in crazy clark's...
i couldnt recognise her and got scolded by mi mum...
coz she assumed i wznt greetin a realli good friend..
but in fact that i could bearly recognise bonnie...
since i dont realli see her outta uniform
then took train home...
and that wz it realli...
nearly tha end 2 mi holz...
oh wellz...
gonna go find somethin 2 do
*hugz*
yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?????????????????
ne waiz....
me so bored...
2day wz meant 2 be a day where i spent some more time wit mi family...
which 4 once mi dad wz gonna spend some tiem wit us...
but turnz out tha whole day wz cancelled...
y?
coz julian sick so cant come 2 work >.<
tha onli day in tha holz that i can spend a WHOLE day wit BOTH mi parents AND mi sista
cancelled....
-.-"
so instead mi mum decided 2 drag me and mi sista along 2 some swap meet/flea market place...
and me wz in pissed off mood all tha way...
plus i had thiz swollen eyelid thing so i could bearly see ne thin...
and mi mum started lecturin me on how i should speak more kindly so pplz dont mistaken me 4 bein pissed off...
but tha thing wz i realli wz in a bad mood
and yah thatz been mi day so far 2day...
umm...
wat happend yesterday...?
well mi mum decided 2 go 2 tha ct...
but this time she wanted 2noe wat it would be like 2 take tha train...
-.-"
so we parked in claremont...
took tah train 2 ct...
walked 2 nb...
yum cha...
then saw andy walk 2 tfusion...
ignored him and went 2 ct...
walked round wit mi mum...
saw bonnie and her friend in crazy clark's...
i couldnt recognise her and got scolded by mi mum...
coz she assumed i wznt greetin a realli good friend..
but in fact that i could bearly recognise bonnie...
since i dont realli see her outta uniform
then took train home...
and that wz it realli...
nearly tha end 2 mi holz...
oh wellz...
gonna go find somethin 2 do
*hugz*
Friday, October 15, 2004
holz nearly ova
afta thiz weekend and mon...
it'll be bak 2 skool...
i cant believe how fast tha last 2 weekz have gone past....
i cnat even remember tah examz....
well..
watz happend...
mi sista had her friend ova...
had pizza 4 dinner last nite...
then this mornin took em out 2 tha shop 4 a walk...
came bak...
most of it wz jus mi sista and her friend attached 2 tha computer...
and ann on tha otha comp..
and me on mine...
so nm goin on realli
mi mumz planned 2 spend time wit me and mi sista 4 tha weekend
so everythinz lookin briter ^^
good family time...
but then sadly mi dad wont have ne time 2 spend wit us :(
oh wellz...
im happi that mi mum can spend time wit us still
oh wellz
betta go 2 sleep
nite nite
*hugz*
it'll be bak 2 skool...
i cant believe how fast tha last 2 weekz have gone past....
i cnat even remember tah examz....
well..
watz happend...
mi sista had her friend ova...
had pizza 4 dinner last nite...
then this mornin took em out 2 tha shop 4 a walk...
came bak...
most of it wz jus mi sista and her friend attached 2 tha computer...
and ann on tha otha comp..
and me on mine...
so nm goin on realli
mi mumz planned 2 spend time wit me and mi sista 4 tha weekend
so everythinz lookin briter ^^
good family time...
but then sadly mi dad wont have ne time 2 spend wit us :(
oh wellz...
im happi that mi mum can spend time wit us still
oh wellz
betta go 2 sleep
nite nite
*hugz*
Thursday, October 14, 2004
worried...
well got mi comp bak ^^ !!!
watz happend tha last few daiz???
well on mon didnt do that much as usual...
jus wondered round tha house...
and i cnat rmemeber doin ne thin else....
tue - well scar organised 2 go 2 tha ct...
got there round 930....
sat and waited 4 scar....
walked round lookin at stuff in tha ct...
didnt buy a thing...
then ate sushi 4 lunch...
walked 2 nb...
went 2 timezone...
then went 2 gelare...
lina and scar ate waffles whilst i watched...
sat in tfusion for an hour...
saw andy and jono...
lina and scar ran round wantin 2 take pix of andy and jono...
they managed 2 get a pic of andy...
whom soon got hold of tha cam and worked out how 2 delete it and deleted it..
then walked scar bak 2 tha ct so she could catch her bus...
lina and i took tha train home...
yesterday...
well... um...
i cant remember much but i dont think i did much in tha mornin...
then took lina rollerbladin 2 tha shop...
then went 2 annz house....
picked her up....
and now shez ova on a sleep ova
and we rented some movies out...
and watched lookin 4 alibrandi and a walk 2 remember...
ended up sleepin round 2 in tha mornin >.<
and since ann has a habit of wakin up at 7...
she woke me up >.<
but luckkily i can fall asleep again easily
but poor thing she jus sat round till i woke up 2 find her somethin 2 do...
oh betta go get somethin done...
bye
*hugz*
watz happend tha last few daiz???
well on mon didnt do that much as usual...
jus wondered round tha house...
and i cnat rmemeber doin ne thin else....
tue - well scar organised 2 go 2 tha ct...
got there round 930....
sat and waited 4 scar....
walked round lookin at stuff in tha ct...
didnt buy a thing...
then ate sushi 4 lunch...
walked 2 nb...
went 2 timezone...
then went 2 gelare...
lina and scar ate waffles whilst i watched...
sat in tfusion for an hour...
saw andy and jono...
lina and scar ran round wantin 2 take pix of andy and jono...
they managed 2 get a pic of andy...
whom soon got hold of tha cam and worked out how 2 delete it and deleted it..
then walked scar bak 2 tha ct so she could catch her bus...
lina and i took tha train home...
yesterday...
well... um...
i cant remember much but i dont think i did much in tha mornin...
then took lina rollerbladin 2 tha shop...
then went 2 annz house....
picked her up....
and now shez ova on a sleep ova
and we rented some movies out...
and watched lookin 4 alibrandi and a walk 2 remember...
ended up sleepin round 2 in tha mornin >.<
and since ann has a habit of wakin up at 7...
she woke me up >.<
but luckkily i can fall asleep again easily
but poor thing she jus sat round till i woke up 2 find her somethin 2 do...
oh betta go get somethin done...
bye
*hugz*
Sunday, October 10, 2004
thoughts...
half tha holz are ova... >.<
ne waiz...
i spent yesterday cleanin tha house...
and i sorta realised how materialistic i am...
and how much i cling 2 tha past...
tho some of it i wanna forget..
and how much i hate throwin stuff out..
i jus cant let go of stuff...
no wonder mi room is such a mess...
itz mainly cluttered up wit random stuff i don wanna throw out...
so i have no where 2 put em...
and i dunno y i wont put it in tha garage...
oh well...
me jus strange...
then afta that i sorta started thinkin...
and sorta realised most pplz confuse me...
like itz either that pplz are complicated...
or i have 2 much of a simple mind 2 understand...
i mean 4 mi grandparents (both sides)
2 them pplz hearts and intentions are complicated...
and that pplz are out 2 plot against em...
but i dunno...
i think itz jus pplz in general confuse me...
oh wellz...
*sigh*
mona came 2 mi resto last nite... ^^
well 4 dia hope u have a safe trip if i dont see u 2moro ^^
wat happend 2day..?
well went 2 tha ct wit mona, dia, sheila and monaz bro
monaz dad drove us 2 harbour town...
let mona eat breakky..
spent bout 20 minz in harbour town...
walked and took tha train 2 ct...
walked round...
met up wit dia...
watched cinderella story whilst steven wz in nb wit his friend...
then went home afta that..
and that wz mi day...
not that interestin...
hmm...
im wonderin now y tha reasons y i like goin on tha net htat much...
i think itz coz it makez me think of wat 2 type..
instead of lettin mi mind wonder bout random stuffs....
like rite now wen im jus typin out mi thoughts...
but therez a difference coz im actually focused on thinkin up wat 2 type...
and also choosin wat 2 reveal bout miself and mi life...
whereas wen im doin wateva i do durin tha day..
mi mind jus wonders freely..
and i jus think up random thoughts bout things in life...
lallala...
dunno wat 2 rite now..
but yet again im usin blogger as a means of stayin online longer...
so if u wanna u can give up readin now coz im jus gonna ramble on bout crap...
wateva comez in2 mi mind....
-.-"
i jus lost mi train of thought...
ugh...
jus wen i decided 2 rite tha first thing that comez in2 mi mind i get a mind blank...
i realli cant think of ne thin 2 rite...
or maybe mi mind is preoccupied wit msn 2 much...
thinkin wat 2 say...
oh stuff it...
cbb tryin 2 stay online ne longer..
mite as well get some sleep
nite nite
*hugz*
bye
ne waiz...
i spent yesterday cleanin tha house...
and i sorta realised how materialistic i am...
and how much i cling 2 tha past...
tho some of it i wanna forget..
and how much i hate throwin stuff out..
i jus cant let go of stuff...
no wonder mi room is such a mess...
itz mainly cluttered up wit random stuff i don wanna throw out...
so i have no where 2 put em...
and i dunno y i wont put it in tha garage...
oh well...
me jus strange...
then afta that i sorta started thinkin...
and sorta realised most pplz confuse me...
like itz either that pplz are complicated...
or i have 2 much of a simple mind 2 understand...
i mean 4 mi grandparents (both sides)
2 them pplz hearts and intentions are complicated...
and that pplz are out 2 plot against em...
but i dunno...
i think itz jus pplz in general confuse me...
oh wellz...
*sigh*
mona came 2 mi resto last nite... ^^
well 4 dia hope u have a safe trip if i dont see u 2moro ^^
wat happend 2day..?
well went 2 tha ct wit mona, dia, sheila and monaz bro
monaz dad drove us 2 harbour town...
let mona eat breakky..
spent bout 20 minz in harbour town...
walked and took tha train 2 ct...
walked round...
met up wit dia...
watched cinderella story whilst steven wz in nb wit his friend...
then went home afta that..
and that wz mi day...
not that interestin...
hmm...
im wonderin now y tha reasons y i like goin on tha net htat much...
i think itz coz it makez me think of wat 2 type..
instead of lettin mi mind wonder bout random stuffs....
like rite now wen im jus typin out mi thoughts...
but therez a difference coz im actually focused on thinkin up wat 2 type...
and also choosin wat 2 reveal bout miself and mi life...
whereas wen im doin wateva i do durin tha day..
mi mind jus wonders freely..
and i jus think up random thoughts bout things in life...
lallala...
dunno wat 2 rite now..
but yet again im usin blogger as a means of stayin online longer...
so if u wanna u can give up readin now coz im jus gonna ramble on bout crap...
wateva comez in2 mi mind....
-.-"
i jus lost mi train of thought...
ugh...
jus wen i decided 2 rite tha first thing that comez in2 mi mind i get a mind blank...
i realli cant think of ne thin 2 rite...
or maybe mi mind is preoccupied wit msn 2 much...
thinkin wat 2 say...
oh stuff it...
cbb tryin 2 stay online ne longer..
mite as well get some sleep
nite nite
*hugz*
bye
Friday, October 08, 2004
7th day of holz
nearly a whole week gone...
thiz week seemz 2 have flown by coz i can barely remember wat happend on mon...
and tha exams seem as if they were done last yr...
ne waiz...
on wed we went 2 tha show..
thur i stayed at home.. then went 2 mirrabooka... then worked in tha resto
and 2day ive mainly spend tha time wonderin round tha house...
okz now talk bout each day in detail... well as much as i can remember...
wed - well wat can i say royal show... it wz a rainy-ish windy day... not a good idea 4 tha show...
but we went ne waiz...
i went wit mi sista...maxy... sheila... and scar...
got there at 9 am...
waited 4 sheila maxy and scar 2 arrive...
then we went 2 look at tha show bags.. went walkin round lookin at tha exhibitions...
like tha dogs.. tha products 4 sale in tha pavilions...
tehn went 2 sideshow alley...
walked round... then went bak 2 tha otha side of tha show 2 buy show bags... bought some caps which u can personalise.. u choose wat u want on it and they rite 4 u... maxy had 'panda', sheila bought 1 4 her friend and lina and i bought 1 sayin 'angel'
and then sheila lina and i got an air brush tattoo... mine on mi bak jus below mi neck.. it wz of a heart wit black and blue wingz... then took a ride on tha chairlifts 2 sideshow alley again..
this time we sat on tha chair lifts... maxy and sheila chose 2 walk...
then met up again at tha ferris wheel...
sheila spent $40 on gamez tryin 2 win tha dice.. 2 later discover it onli cost $25 to buy...
then we sorta wondered round tha show grounds...
in total i think we walked round tha entire show grounds at least 4 timez..
we went on tha rage and splash down... strangely i keep promising miself every yr that ill neva go on tha rage EVA again yet i keep breaking tha promise...
and i think i lost mi hair clip thingy there... *sobs*
then round 6 we stopped down 2 watch tha evening show stuff...
maxy sheila and mi sista jus sat round at tha place...
and scar and i went walking...
coz scar decided 2 buy a morish nuts showbag 4 her mum...
and then we bought some cotton candy/fairy floss... wateva u like 2 call it
on a stick..
scar and i shared 1 then walked bak 2 tha place tha otherz were sittin then gave em anotha stick..
then scar and i went walkin again...
i think tha sugar wz a bit 2 much coz then scar and i got hyper on it..
we sat on a rode side randomly singin 2 wat eva song wz on..
i think it wz a medley consistin of 'watlzing matilda'... 'home among tha gum trees'.... 'i am australian'... ' tie me kangaroo down'.... 'still call australia home' and some otha songs...
then we bought some corn cobs on a stick and ate that and got bak jus in time 2 see tha fireworks at 8:30 especialli on early 4 scar ^^ since she wanted 2 see it that bad...
at tha end of tha fireworks mi sista claimed that she could hear us singing b4 >.<
so i sorta got worried bout how loud i wz singin and off tune...
and maxy and scar went 2 tha train station 2 catch tha train bak..
and sheila went wit me and mi sista since mi mum wz gonna drop her home...
i think i wz bit 2 hyper coz i practically couldnt sleep that nite...
very bad...
on thurs i woke up at 11:30 i think...
2 find mi sista on tha net... eatin ice cream 4 breaky... >.<
i spent tha day doin more cleanin up of tha house...
it wz practicalli spent jus like sat and sun...
me doin tha house work whilst she wz playin on tha net...
and beggin me 2 take her rollerbladin again...
and wen i said no she jus turned bak 2 tha net and kept playin...
not a single bit of help...
and then in tha arvo mi mum took us 2 mirrabooka...
spent an hour there then mi dad called up sayin that pplz called in sick so there'd be no1 workin
so we had 2 go bak 2 tha resto...
i helped out at tha resto whilst mi sista looked afta tha shop..
round 8 it wz close up time 4 tha shop...
and lina still hadnt come 2 tha resto so i had 2 go 2 tha shop 2 chek out y she hadnt come...
2 find that minh and wah wz jus standin at tha front of tha shop...
they saw me and asked if they could close up and i wz like ?.?
wznt lina meant 2 give u tha key and ask u 2 close up?
i went 2 tha bak 2 discover that mi sista had spent her time watchin tv...
i nearly lost it there and then...
i helped close up and went bak 2 tha resto...
closed up tha resto that nite...
and i wz given a lecture on how much mi parents worked wen they were 8 (again)...
i couldnt help it i wz bout 2 scream...
i mean i try 2 get some stuff done..
but wat bout mi sista...???
shez round tha age wen they claimed that they helped their parents...
y wont she get that lecture...???
it jus drives me crazy...
tha fact that ive heard that lecture since i wz in yr 3
and ive tried 2 help where eva i can...
and mi sista has alwaiz been tha exception...
itz like they want me 2 jus drown in guilt...
i guezz they jus see mi sista as still a baby..
i mean i did all this work..
and wen mi paretns come home they jus go...
wat did u do 2day..
i say wat ive done and they say...
well u could've done more...
agghhhhh
itz like a total put down...
and then i hear a lecture...
and mi sistaz still attached 2 her comp..
and then i get told 2 do some chores...
wat bout mi sista!?!?!?!?!
and mi mum repliez
shez still 2 young...
wat tha!?!?!?!?!?
i get tha lectures bout how mi parents helped mi grandparents wen they were 8...
and mi sistaz 2 young!?!?!?!?
shez bloody 11...
and i have 2 still look afta her...
and i cant leave her alone at home....
>.<
y not???
i wz left at home alone at that age...
itz jus realli unfair...
i mean seriously..
everywhere i go i have 2 take her...
i have 2 make sure she eats...
i have 2 cook 4 her 2 eat..
i have 2 keep askin her 2 get off tha net or off tha fone...
i have 2 listen 2 wat she wants...
the neva endin nagging of 'i want this... i want that...'
and i dont see it as mi TOTAL responsibility 2 look afta her...
i had 2 teach her stuff b4 like manners and stuff wen she wz lil..
but now u'd think she'd have learnt...
and that she would have some slight bit of common sense...
but no...
she has none of it...
AND 2 top it all off...
she wont bloody listen 2 me tha first time wen i ask her..
so i end up repeatin mi self so many times it seems as if itz become a bloody habit....
and wen i do lose it and raise mi voice at her...
seh jus runs 2 her room and pulls her covers ova her head...
OR
calls mum...
and hten i get in bloody trouble again...
*sigh*
im gettin sick and tired of mi life...
im alwaiz on tha receivin end of lectures...
and wen i actualli talk bak...
tha time length of tha lecture increases...
and mi end result is an increase of feelin of guilt
and mi sista gets off free..
not a prob... not a care in tha world... not even a stab of guilt...
no consequence...
*sigh*
sometimez tha stresses is drive me crazy...
and i want time 2 miself...
or jus some time where i dont see ne of mi family...
jus take tha stresses away...
i mean itz eitha tha stress of skool or tha stress of family life >.<
cant seem 2 get away 4m both
i dunno wat 2 do....
oh well...
*sigh*
*hugz*
bye
thiz week seemz 2 have flown by coz i can barely remember wat happend on mon...
and tha exams seem as if they were done last yr...
ne waiz...
on wed we went 2 tha show..
thur i stayed at home.. then went 2 mirrabooka... then worked in tha resto
and 2day ive mainly spend tha time wonderin round tha house...
okz now talk bout each day in detail... well as much as i can remember...
wed - well wat can i say royal show... it wz a rainy-ish windy day... not a good idea 4 tha show...
but we went ne waiz...
i went wit mi sista...maxy... sheila... and scar...
got there at 9 am...
waited 4 sheila maxy and scar 2 arrive...
then we went 2 look at tha show bags.. went walkin round lookin at tha exhibitions...
like tha dogs.. tha products 4 sale in tha pavilions...
tehn went 2 sideshow alley...
walked round... then went bak 2 tha otha side of tha show 2 buy show bags... bought some caps which u can personalise.. u choose wat u want on it and they rite 4 u... maxy had 'panda', sheila bought 1 4 her friend and lina and i bought 1 sayin 'angel'
and then sheila lina and i got an air brush tattoo... mine on mi bak jus below mi neck.. it wz of a heart wit black and blue wingz... then took a ride on tha chairlifts 2 sideshow alley again..
this time we sat on tha chair lifts... maxy and sheila chose 2 walk...
then met up again at tha ferris wheel...
sheila spent $40 on gamez tryin 2 win tha dice.. 2 later discover it onli cost $25 to buy...
then we sorta wondered round tha show grounds...
in total i think we walked round tha entire show grounds at least 4 timez..
we went on tha rage and splash down... strangely i keep promising miself every yr that ill neva go on tha rage EVA again yet i keep breaking tha promise...
and i think i lost mi hair clip thingy there... *sobs*
then round 6 we stopped down 2 watch tha evening show stuff...
maxy sheila and mi sista jus sat round at tha place...
and scar and i went walking...
coz scar decided 2 buy a morish nuts showbag 4 her mum...
and then we bought some cotton candy/fairy floss... wateva u like 2 call it
on a stick..
scar and i shared 1 then walked bak 2 tha place tha otherz were sittin then gave em anotha stick..
then scar and i went walkin again...
i think tha sugar wz a bit 2 much coz then scar and i got hyper on it..
we sat on a rode side randomly singin 2 wat eva song wz on..
i think it wz a medley consistin of 'watlzing matilda'... 'home among tha gum trees'.... 'i am australian'... ' tie me kangaroo down'.... 'still call australia home' and some otha songs...
then we bought some corn cobs on a stick and ate that and got bak jus in time 2 see tha fireworks at 8:30 especialli on early 4 scar ^^ since she wanted 2 see it that bad...
at tha end of tha fireworks mi sista claimed that she could hear us singing b4 >.<
so i sorta got worried bout how loud i wz singin and off tune...
and maxy and scar went 2 tha train station 2 catch tha train bak..
and sheila went wit me and mi sista since mi mum wz gonna drop her home...
i think i wz bit 2 hyper coz i practically couldnt sleep that nite...
very bad...
on thurs i woke up at 11:30 i think...
2 find mi sista on tha net... eatin ice cream 4 breaky... >.<
i spent tha day doin more cleanin up of tha house...
it wz practicalli spent jus like sat and sun...
me doin tha house work whilst she wz playin on tha net...
and beggin me 2 take her rollerbladin again...
and wen i said no she jus turned bak 2 tha net and kept playin...
not a single bit of help...
and then in tha arvo mi mum took us 2 mirrabooka...
spent an hour there then mi dad called up sayin that pplz called in sick so there'd be no1 workin
so we had 2 go bak 2 tha resto...
i helped out at tha resto whilst mi sista looked afta tha shop..
round 8 it wz close up time 4 tha shop...
and lina still hadnt come 2 tha resto so i had 2 go 2 tha shop 2 chek out y she hadnt come...
2 find that minh and wah wz jus standin at tha front of tha shop...
they saw me and asked if they could close up and i wz like ?.?
wznt lina meant 2 give u tha key and ask u 2 close up?
i went 2 tha bak 2 discover that mi sista had spent her time watchin tv...
i nearly lost it there and then...
i helped close up and went bak 2 tha resto...
closed up tha resto that nite...
and i wz given a lecture on how much mi parents worked wen they were 8 (again)...
i couldnt help it i wz bout 2 scream...
i mean i try 2 get some stuff done..
but wat bout mi sista...???
shez round tha age wen they claimed that they helped their parents...
y wont she get that lecture...???
it jus drives me crazy...
tha fact that ive heard that lecture since i wz in yr 3
and ive tried 2 help where eva i can...
and mi sista has alwaiz been tha exception...
itz like they want me 2 jus drown in guilt...
i guezz they jus see mi sista as still a baby..
i mean i did all this work..
and wen mi paretns come home they jus go...
wat did u do 2day..
i say wat ive done and they say...
well u could've done more...
agghhhhh
itz like a total put down...
and then i hear a lecture...
and mi sistaz still attached 2 her comp..
and then i get told 2 do some chores...
wat bout mi sista!?!?!?!?!
and mi mum repliez
shez still 2 young...
wat tha!?!?!?!?!?
i get tha lectures bout how mi parents helped mi grandparents wen they were 8...
and mi sistaz 2 young!?!?!?!?
shez bloody 11...
and i have 2 still look afta her...
and i cant leave her alone at home....
>.<
y not???
i wz left at home alone at that age...
itz jus realli unfair...
i mean seriously..
everywhere i go i have 2 take her...
i have 2 make sure she eats...
i have 2 cook 4 her 2 eat..
i have 2 keep askin her 2 get off tha net or off tha fone...
i have 2 listen 2 wat she wants...
the neva endin nagging of 'i want this... i want that...'
sometimez it seemz as tho ive become her mother...
and i dont see it as mi TOTAL responsibility 2 look afta her...
i had 2 teach her stuff b4 like manners and stuff wen she wz lil..
but now u'd think she'd have learnt...
and that she would have some slight bit of common sense...
but no...
she has none of it...
AND 2 top it all off...
she wont bloody listen 2 me tha first time wen i ask her..
so i end up repeatin mi self so many times it seems as if itz become a bloody habit....
and wen i do lose it and raise mi voice at her...
seh jus runs 2 her room and pulls her covers ova her head...
OR
calls mum...
and hten i get in bloody trouble again...
*sigh*
im gettin sick and tired of mi life...
im alwaiz on tha receivin end of lectures...
and wen i actualli talk bak...
tha time length of tha lecture increases...
and mi end result is an increase of feelin of guilt
and mi sista gets off free..
not a prob... not a care in tha world... not even a stab of guilt...
no consequence...
*sigh*
sometimez tha stresses is drive me crazy...
and i want time 2 miself...
or jus some time where i dont see ne of mi family...
jus take tha stresses away...
i mean itz eitha tha stress of skool or tha stress of family life >.<
cant seem 2 get away 4m both
i dunno wat 2 do....
oh well...
*sigh*
*hugz*
bye
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
day 4 of tha holz...
hmm... onli tha 4th day in2 tha holz and i feel so...
i dunno how 2 describe...
oh well....
nothin much has realli happend so far...
sat - sleep... wake up then clean house... got sick of it and went online...
sun - sleep... wake up... clean mi room a bit... took mi sista rollerbladin....
mon - sleep... wake up... went 2 tha showwit mi parents... walked round lookin at tha pavilionz...
mainly looked at wat things those indoor stalls had 2 sell... nothin new... but i saw steph...
im not sure if she recognised me tho... funny she still lookz liek she used2 unliek her pix...
and she wz actualli sellin stuff at tha show... then went on a delivery 2 applecross wit mi
dad... then went 2 send mi grandparents 2 tha airport... sat there 4 bout 3 hours since
they were earli...
2day - sleep and jus recently woke up... wz orginalli goin 2 tha movies but cant coz have no
transport.. so prob a day spent cleanin tha house or watchin movies afta i send this post...
hmmm... thinkin bak ive realli done nothin... but then again ive done more than i have in some ohta holz...
last nite i again found out i have a few more cousins...
im not sure if i should be happi bout it or sad...
or i guess im jus 2 ignorant
or coz i dont talk 2 mi grandparents enough 2 noe bout it....
this thur iz jackson's bday...
tha 1st bday of mi lil nephew ^^
i wz talkin 2 mi grandparents bout it and bout how im so happi i actualli rememberd a bday 4 once...
but then i found out that tha bday party wz already ova...
>.<
it wz liek a week ago...
y dont ppl tell me these thingz...???
and then as we were drivin in tha car 2 tha airport...
i wz yet again shown how therez so much competition in mi family 2 be tha 'good' son or daughter... and i see tha signs of favoritism...
its jus so strange 2 see it between mi dad and mi uncles and aunts instead of between me and mi sista where there iz tha usual rivalry and jealousy 2 be tha betta...
wat happend wz at mi grandparents house...
wen they left they got on2 mi auntz car...
and we started drivin...
dem in front wit tha grandparents and us behind wit tha luggage in tha bak...
and then half way along...
mi uncle calls up says sorri that he's late...
and then tells us 2 pull up and wait 4 him...
so we endup stoppin at a petrol station...
wen he gets there...
mi uncle gets mi grandparents 2 go sit in his car instead of mi aunt's...
i mean wat tha...?
both cars are vehicles... watz tha diff...?
but no since he wz tha youngest uncle and therez favouritism 2 tha son and everythin...
coz they typical chinese pplz... they change car...
i mean how bad would mi aunt hav felt...?
itz jus so mean...
and 2 me it seems like mi uncle wz jus wantin 2 show off...
drove off at like 150 k per hour... leavin both mi auntz car and ourz behind...
*sigh*
y iz there so much competition ova who sendz mi grandparentz 2 tha airport even..?
itz jus a lil trip.. u go there.. wiat till they board tha plane and leave..
watz tha big fuss..?
ne waiz...
got 2 tha airport and mi uncle brings along a baby...
i thought it mite be baby billy...
and guezz wat..?
it wznt... i jus discovered i have anotha cousin whose 4 months old..
and i missed out on her full month celebration thingy...
y...?
coz no 1 told me did they...?
i mean i deserve 2 at least noe i have anotha cousin...
and then afta that i find out mi otha aunt had anotha baby as well!!!
at tha end of last yr...
-.-"
y do i get told last...?
*sigh*
maybe i should go get some work done now...
instead of jus sittin infront of tha comp...
*hugz*
bye
i dunno how 2 describe...
oh well....
nothin much has realli happend so far...
sat - sleep... wake up then clean house... got sick of it and went online...
sun - sleep... wake up... clean mi room a bit... took mi sista rollerbladin....
mon - sleep... wake up... went 2 tha showwit mi parents... walked round lookin at tha pavilionz...
mainly looked at wat things those indoor stalls had 2 sell... nothin new... but i saw steph...
im not sure if she recognised me tho... funny she still lookz liek she used2 unliek her pix...
and she wz actualli sellin stuff at tha show... then went on a delivery 2 applecross wit mi
dad... then went 2 send mi grandparents 2 tha airport... sat there 4 bout 3 hours since
they were earli...
2day - sleep and jus recently woke up... wz orginalli goin 2 tha movies but cant coz have no
transport.. so prob a day spent cleanin tha house or watchin movies afta i send this post...
hmmm... thinkin bak ive realli done nothin... but then again ive done more than i have in some ohta holz...
last nite i again found out i have a few more cousins...
im not sure if i should be happi bout it or sad...
or i guess im jus 2 ignorant
or coz i dont talk 2 mi grandparents enough 2 noe bout it....
this thur iz jackson's bday...
tha 1st bday of mi lil nephew ^^
i wz talkin 2 mi grandparents bout it and bout how im so happi i actualli rememberd a bday 4 once...
but then i found out that tha bday party wz already ova...
>.<
it wz liek a week ago...
y dont ppl tell me these thingz...???
and then as we were drivin in tha car 2 tha airport...
i wz yet again shown how therez so much competition in mi family 2 be tha 'good' son or daughter... and i see tha signs of favoritism...
its jus so strange 2 see it between mi dad and mi uncles and aunts instead of between me and mi sista where there iz tha usual rivalry and jealousy 2 be tha betta...
wat happend wz at mi grandparents house...
wen they left they got on2 mi auntz car...
and we started drivin...
dem in front wit tha grandparents and us behind wit tha luggage in tha bak...
and then half way along...
mi uncle calls up says sorri that he's late...
and then tells us 2 pull up and wait 4 him...
so we endup stoppin at a petrol station...
wen he gets there...
mi uncle gets mi grandparents 2 go sit in his car instead of mi aunt's...
i mean wat tha...?
both cars are vehicles... watz tha diff...?
but no since he wz tha youngest uncle and therez favouritism 2 tha son and everythin...
coz they typical chinese pplz... they change car...
i mean how bad would mi aunt hav felt...?
itz jus so mean...
and 2 me it seems like mi uncle wz jus wantin 2 show off...
drove off at like 150 k per hour... leavin both mi auntz car and ourz behind...
*sigh*
y iz there so much competition ova who sendz mi grandparentz 2 tha airport even..?
itz jus a lil trip.. u go there.. wiat till they board tha plane and leave..
watz tha big fuss..?
ne waiz...
got 2 tha airport and mi uncle brings along a baby...
i thought it mite be baby billy...
and guezz wat..?
it wznt... i jus discovered i have anotha cousin whose 4 months old..
and i missed out on her full month celebration thingy...
y...?
coz no 1 told me did they...?
i mean i deserve 2 at least noe i have anotha cousin...
and then afta that i find out mi otha aunt had anotha baby as well!!!
at tha end of last yr...
-.-"
y do i get told last...?
*sigh*
maybe i should go get some work done now...
instead of jus sittin infront of tha comp...
*hugz*
bye
Thursday, September 30, 2004
nearly finished wit exams !!!!
exams, exams and more exams...
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Sunday, September 26, 2004
1 week till end of skool
i havent posted in agez it seemz but it wz onli a few daiz ago....
exams start 2moro...
and time is goin by so sluggishly...
i should be studyin but i realli cant be stuffed...
plus i'm not takin s+e next yr ne waiz...
nothin realli happen this week...
im not jetlagged ne more..
but mi sleep pattern is still bit stuffed up....
its like i get home at 5pm..
and instead of gettin changed and studyin...
or doin wateva i have 2 do that day...
i jus fall asleep...
and end up gettin up at 7am tha next mornin...
so barely ne study is gettin done...
and none of mi hw is done either...
so that wz most of mi week...
jus skool... and then tha majority of tha afternoon and evenin sleepin...
and yesterday i managed 2 get up 2 go 2 chinese skool...
nothin much happend...
usual classes...
chinese skool teacha and her family fell ill...
so she wznt in tha class all tha time so it wz bit more slack...
on thur nite tha chinese skool principal specificalli called me..
to inform mi mum, lina and i 2 stay at skool
coz she invited pplz 4m taiwan 2 come and teach us cultural arts stuffz...
it wz gonna start at 1:30 and it wz gonna last till 4:30pm...
thatz round 3 hours long... plus lunch which meant
i would have 2 stay 4 hours and 30 minz longer than usual at tha temple...
so there went mi day of sat studyin...
but wen it wz time 2 start i decided not 2 do tha activities(dancin and arts and craft)...
so instead i hid 4m tha principal and mi mum and mi sista wit andy in tha courtyard area of tha temple...
then later...
went 2 andy's grandparents' house wit raymond and andy...
got 2 see tha shed in tha bak wit all tha lion dancin stuffs, swords and otha stuff...
and den we jus sat round and talked in his room...
watched both of em sleep... lolz
then round 4:20 went bak 2 tha temple...
met up wit mum and lina...
and went home...
got home and fell asleep...
and that wz mi yesterday...
and 2day i've mainly spent doin nothin in particular...
jus sorta wonderin round tha house...
nothin in particular...
so ye dats mi day..
*hugz
bye
exams start 2moro...
and time is goin by so sluggishly...
i should be studyin but i realli cant be stuffed...
plus i'm not takin s+e next yr ne waiz...
nothin realli happen this week...
im not jetlagged ne more..
but mi sleep pattern is still bit stuffed up....
its like i get home at 5pm..
and instead of gettin changed and studyin...
or doin wateva i have 2 do that day...
i jus fall asleep...
and end up gettin up at 7am tha next mornin...
so barely ne study is gettin done...
and none of mi hw is done either...
so that wz most of mi week...
jus skool... and then tha majority of tha afternoon and evenin sleepin...
and yesterday i managed 2 get up 2 go 2 chinese skool...
nothin much happend...
usual classes...
chinese skool teacha and her family fell ill...
so she wznt in tha class all tha time so it wz bit more slack...
on thur nite tha chinese skool principal specificalli called me..
to inform mi mum, lina and i 2 stay at skool
coz she invited pplz 4m taiwan 2 come and teach us cultural arts stuffz...
it wz gonna start at 1:30 and it wz gonna last till 4:30pm...
thatz round 3 hours long... plus lunch which meant
i would have 2 stay 4 hours and 30 minz longer than usual at tha temple...
so there went mi day of sat studyin...
but wen it wz time 2 start i decided not 2 do tha activities(dancin and arts and craft)...
so instead i hid 4m tha principal and mi mum and mi sista wit andy in tha courtyard area of tha temple...
then later...
went 2 andy's grandparents' house wit raymond and andy...
got 2 see tha shed in tha bak wit all tha lion dancin stuffs, swords and otha stuff...
and den we jus sat round and talked in his room...
watched both of em sleep... lolz
then round 4:20 went bak 2 tha temple...
met up wit mum and lina...
and went home...
got home and fell asleep...
and that wz mi yesterday...
and 2day i've mainly spent doin nothin in particular...
jus sorta wonderin round tha house...
nothin in particular...
so ye dats mi day..
*hugz
bye
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
first day bak at skool...
and yet again everythin felt like a blur...
next week is exams >.<
and i dunno y but itz like i have moments wen i get realli stressed..
then tha next few moments everythin is fine again...
it feelz so weird...
mi comp in mi room is stuffed up >.<
everytime i log on it logs me off straight away :(
so now i cant access it and itz realli annoyin me...
its like i wanna talk 2 pplz on msn usin mi comp coz itz all nice in there..
but no... now if i wanna use tha comp i have 2 use tha 1 in mi dad's room...
i jus finished reading sixational (aka six appeal) by meg cabot...
coz i wz 2 lazy 2 do study and i couldnt go online due 2 mi comp stuffed up...
itz okz i guezz...
otha than exams not realli ne thin happenin comin up...
there iz tha hols and tha show....
and then afta that is bak 2 skool...
i dunno but ive got a feelin that im gonna fail tha exams...
but as per usual ive found that im not worried that much bout it...
well tha majority of tha time..
ugh... i feel like talkin 2 pplz...
but then pplz i wanna talk 2 not online...
maybe i should jus fone dem..
but then take up fone bill...
plus that fact that as usual i have nothin 2 talk bout...
i keep repeatin mi self... -.-"
oh well... jus me i guess...
itz gettin cold in this room...
and since no1z online im goin...
nite nite
bye
*hugz
and yet again everythin felt like a blur...
next week is exams >.<
and i dunno y but itz like i have moments wen i get realli stressed..
then tha next few moments everythin is fine again...
it feelz so weird...
mi comp in mi room is stuffed up >.<
everytime i log on it logs me off straight away :(
so now i cant access it and itz realli annoyin me...
its like i wanna talk 2 pplz on msn usin mi comp coz itz all nice in there..
but no... now if i wanna use tha comp i have 2 use tha 1 in mi dad's room...
i jus finished reading sixational (aka six appeal) by meg cabot...
coz i wz 2 lazy 2 do study and i couldnt go online due 2 mi comp stuffed up...
itz okz i guezz...
otha than exams not realli ne thin happenin comin up...
there iz tha hols and tha show....
and then afta that is bak 2 skool...
i dunno but ive got a feelin that im gonna fail tha exams...
but as per usual ive found that im not worried that much bout it...
well tha majority of tha time..
ugh... i feel like talkin 2 pplz...
but then pplz i wanna talk 2 not online...
maybe i should jus fone dem..
but then take up fone bill...
plus that fact that as usual i have nothin 2 talk bout...
i keep repeatin mi self... -.-"
oh well... jus me i guess...
itz gettin cold in this room...
and since no1z online im goin...
nite nite
bye
*hugz
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
bak in aust ^^
| hmmm...
i'm not sure if i should be celebratin that i'm bak... there are all tha good and bad thingz bout comin bak... and leavin... well... finalli bak in mi house and 2nite i get 2 sleep in mi bed 4 tha first time in like 2 and a half weekz... well i can barely remember a thin 4m minin camp... it feelz like that wz last yr... and mi trip in america feelz like it wz 2 monthz long.... i took all mi filez ova... and didnt do a single bitta study.. every nite i wz either 2 tired or i cbb... *sigh* and tha temperature wz humid and all stuffy... and then there wz tha actual wedding... it wz pretty good i guezz... there wz 450 guests 4 tah dinner... and i had 2 sing again... >.< this time i think i realli sounded crap... plus tha dress i wz wearin seemed a lil short and tha straps bit short... but all in all it wz all good... :) we stayed in los angeles.... first 3 nitez wz spent at disneyland hotel... went 2 disneyland... then tha family hired a 15 person van and went 2 las vegas... stayed in tha stratosphere.... travelled 5 hours by van 2 go c tha grand canyon coz tha adultz wanted 2... all adultz and cousins in their 20s went gamblin and drinkin at nite... which left me in charge of tha kidz... >.< then went bak 2 los angeles... stayed in tha ramada inn... i went swimmin there... and fell ill i ended up vomitin 3 timez thruout tha nite... then tha next day we helped set up 4 tha wedding... mum went shoe shopping... and then wz tha wedding... then afta tha wedding slept 4 tha nite at tha crappy ramada hotel... and flew this mornin... tha plane flights wasted so much time... i mean seriously... it took 24 hours each flight 4m los angeles to perth... with a stop ova at singapore for 3 hours... so that tha main gist of mi hol in america... i guezz it wz realli good 2 meet up wit family again... and cousins... but then mi cousins were either 20+ or 11 or less... so ya... me stuck in tha middle.. >.< but then wit tha meetin up... also came tha family competition... nice 2 find out that mi cousin on 2 her 3rd masters... *sigh* well... ne waiz... i met mi bro-in-law... hez azn... round 30... wearz glasses... doin economics i think... but didnt get 2 talk properly coz he and cousin bz wit wedding preparations... and me and family doin typical tourist thing goin everywhere and takin pix... exams next week... and atm... me feelin jet lagged... zzzzzzzzzZzzzZzzzzzzzZzzzzz so tired... i dunno y i keep noticing that tha 2 main q i keep gettin asked these last 2 weekz wz : 1) "where are u 4m?" OR 2) "do u have a boyfriend?" -.-" wat iz wit pplz... tha second 1 wz mainly asked by relativez... but then as u prob have heard tha trukkie i got 4 tha minin camp asked me that... and some otha pplz but i cant remember who... and then that first 1... mainly asked by friendz of mi cousins... and some pplz i think at tha social... and hank tha trukkie... and some randomz at tha airport... it wz so weird... i mean y do random weird thingz alwaiz happen 2 me!??!!?!?!?!?!? so scary sometimez... worse if u dunno wat they talkin bout... and then therez tha age mistake... i mean some1 asked if i wz in college... which iz like tha equivalent of tafe but then college iz 4 tha pplz who less smart i think... i dunno if college offerz trade appreinteships tho... (how eva u spell) ugh... i so tired... but if i sleep now i may stuff up mi sleepin pattern more... i mean i've spent mi last 2 weekz lacking of sleep... i mean on mining camp it wz waking up early for tha breaky... and 2 get 2 tha shower... got at round 4/5 >.< and in america it wz sleepin late coz wz alwaiz out lookin at stuff coz tha adults felt like it or coz wedding preparations or tha wedding itself... thinkin bak.. interestinly... tha fri nite of tha social wz tha same nite as tha yr 9 social... tha 6/7 social and tha 1 at ccgs thatz y there were that many carz wen i left... i wonder how tha college choir went 4 tha trophy winnerz concert... oh well hope they did well.... hmmm... cant think of ne thin more 2 say so maybe i'll jus publish... bye *hugz |
Saturday, September 04, 2004
*sigh*
| timez passin away...
time slowly tickin... as we ourselvez dont notice... friendshipz driftin apart... new 1z beginnin all tha time... hmmm... wat happend 2 day..? well... i guezz we had chinese skool...and i saw andy...and then i went home... and slept.. and i've been online since i woke up... thatz mainly it... these daiz... i dunno y... mi mind and thoughtz seem 2 start wonderin... i mean itz bit strange.. coz usualli.. all that happenz is i stare out.. and mi mind jus focuses on a subject and mi mind goez blank.. but these daiz... itz liek all these thoughtz come in2 mind... itz different.... and sorta strange... oh wellz... wat else 2 talk bout...? umm... i g2g nite nite *hugz [6 daiz 2 go... ] |
*sigh*
| timez passin away...
time slowly tickin... as we ourselvez dont notice... friendshipz driftin apart... new 1z beginnin all tha time... hmmm... wat happend 2 day..? well... i guezz we had chinese skool...and i saw andy...and then i went home... and slept.. and i've been online since i woke up... thatz mainly it... these daiz... i dunno y... mi mind and thoughtz seem 2 start wonderin... i mean itz bit strange.. coz usualli.. all that happenz is i stare out.. and mi mind jus focuses on a subject and mi mind goez blank.. but these daiz... itz liek all these thoughtz come in2 mind... itz different.... and sorta strange... oh wellz... wat else 2 talk bout...? umm... i g2g nite nite *hugz [6 daiz 2 go... ] |
Friday, September 03, 2004
s+e...(again)
ne waiz...
jus finish small bzness day...
it went alrite i guezz...
but then we didnt sell everythin...
oh well...
had choir dis mornin...
and then had p1 and 2....
and then recess...
then p 3 i missed most of coz i had small bzness day...
but then it stuffed up coz i ended up bein 1 outta 4 that did tha set up...
coz 2 pplz had inclass essay so thatz okz..
i still meant 2 have melissa toh come down and help me...
but then apparently she 4got...
so i wz standin there by mi self tryin 2 work out how 2 actualli set up wen tha place wz so windy...
and then all tha paper in mi diary flew away across tha great court coz of tha huge wind.... -.-"
oh well...
wat else..?
hmmm... no 1 online... but then u can expect that..
work exp next week... agghh...
i still gotta pack...
and sorri if i snapped at ne1 dis mornin... i realli stressed out atm...
but itz all good that i have small bzness ova so no need 2 worry bout that *phew*
but still gotta make a decision on whether or not 2 perform on tha harp 4 tha music tour 4 vienna...
u realli hate makin decisions....
hmmm... got voice lesson now..
g2g
bye
*hugz*
[8 daiz 2 go....]
ne waiz...
jus finish small bzness day...
it went alrite i guezz...
but then we didnt sell everythin...
oh well...
had choir dis mornin...
and then had p1 and 2....
and then recess...
then p 3 i missed most of coz i had small bzness day...
but then it stuffed up coz i ended up bein 1 outta 4 that did tha set up...
coz 2 pplz had inclass essay so thatz okz..
i still meant 2 have melissa toh come down and help me...
but then apparently she 4got...
so i wz standin there by mi self tryin 2 work out how 2 actualli set up wen tha place wz so windy...
and then all tha paper in mi diary flew away across tha great court coz of tha huge wind.... -.-"
oh well...
wat else..?
hmmm... no 1 online... but then u can expect that..
work exp next week... agghh...
i still gotta pack...
and sorri if i snapped at ne1 dis mornin... i realli stressed out atm...
but itz all good that i have small bzness ova so no need 2 worry bout that *phew*
but still gotta make a decision on whether or not 2 perform on tha harp 4 tha music tour 4 vienna...
u realli hate makin decisions....
hmmm... got voice lesson now..
g2g
bye
*hugz*
[8 daiz 2 go....]
Thursday, September 02, 2004
s+e
s+e...
nothin 2 do..
small business day 2moro...
itz so quiet.... oh well time 2 relax and reflect i guezz...
come 2 think of it...
these daiz tha onli time i get 2 jus sit and sorta relax at skool iz durin s+e...
not realli taht much work involved since i have mr o...
minin camp next week...
i gonna be so bored on tha bus trip there...
i mean sittin on tha bus for 7 hours!!!
i aint gonna liek it... but oh well..
i'll have dia and scar 2 entertain me :P
now daiz i realli startin 2 reconsider mi choicez 4 subjects next yr...
i dunno if i should change outta human bio in2 some humanitiez subject...
i realli worry bout if i stuff up then it'll go bad...
oh well....
itz artz week...
so every day this week is day x... me so happi!!
but then we've alwaiz got some random thing 2 go 2...
there wz tha talent quest 2 day as well as tha dance fest performance...
thiz year tha talent quest wz so much betta than last yrz...
so funni
half tha lesson 2 go...
and i've gotten a realli big headache...
hmm... i wonder if itz dehydration... or if i'm jus sick....
ugh...
2 much stress this week...
2 much due 2moro....
i've still got mi maths invest 2 work out... all mi pom pom hair ties 2 sew up... mi english journal thatz due... mi bio test...
i dunno if itz me...
or if itz pms... or jus otha pplz....
but these daiz itz as if i cant tolerate ne thin ne morez...
esp it seemz like in tha mornin... i jus am so pissed off...
and then also durin commerce... and some otha classes...
i dont wanna be pissed off but then pplz jus seem 2 get on mi nervez so easily...
oh well...
class is ova...
*hugz
bye
[9 daiz 2 go...]
nothin 2 do..
small business day 2moro...
itz so quiet.... oh well time 2 relax and reflect i guezz...
come 2 think of it...
these daiz tha onli time i get 2 jus sit and sorta relax at skool iz durin s+e...
not realli taht much work involved since i have mr o...
minin camp next week...
i gonna be so bored on tha bus trip there...
i mean sittin on tha bus for 7 hours!!!
i aint gonna liek it... but oh well..
i'll have dia and scar 2 entertain me :P
now daiz i realli startin 2 reconsider mi choicez 4 subjects next yr...
i dunno if i should change outta human bio in2 some humanitiez subject...
i realli worry bout if i stuff up then it'll go bad...
oh well....
itz artz week...
so every day this week is day x... me so happi!!
but then we've alwaiz got some random thing 2 go 2...
there wz tha talent quest 2 day as well as tha dance fest performance...
thiz year tha talent quest wz so much betta than last yrz...
so funni
half tha lesson 2 go...
and i've gotten a realli big headache...
hmm... i wonder if itz dehydration... or if i'm jus sick....
ugh...
2 much stress this week...
2 much due 2moro....
i've still got mi maths invest 2 work out... all mi pom pom hair ties 2 sew up... mi english journal thatz due... mi bio test...
i dunno if itz me...
or if itz pms... or jus otha pplz....
but these daiz itz as if i cant tolerate ne thin ne morez...
esp it seemz like in tha mornin... i jus am so pissed off...
and then also durin commerce... and some otha classes...
i dont wanna be pissed off but then pplz jus seem 2 get on mi nervez so easily...
oh well...
class is ova...
*hugz
bye
[9 daiz 2 go...]
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
s+e...
mr o iz jus sittin across tha room and talkin 2 pplz... typical...
nothin 2 do... and no 1 iz on msn...
so ye...
tha mid term break iz ova so quickly...
oh well..
and now i got heapza stuff 2 do coz i didnt do ne hw....
oh well...
well tha second half of tha w/e wz okz...
i went 2 tha temple on sun and had a lovely vegetarian lunch...
and then stayed at home 4 tha rest of tha day...
but now i'm sorta gettin worried bout miself...
i mean i'm not sure if i've developed an eatin disorder or somethin...
i hope not... but then i dont think i've been eatin properly..
wen i feel like eatin... i sorta lose mi appetite no matter
oh well end of class finish later...
========== continued ==========
ne waiz... i think i wz on tha topic of mi eatin habitz...
oh well... i hope it getz betta soon..
well atm... i'm a quarter tryin 2 study 4 2moroz mathz test....
a quarter makin a pom pom 1 quarter typin dis... and 1 quater chattin...
very bad habbit..
oh wellz... it keepz me 4m stressin...
or maybe i should get mi prioritiez straight...
i dunno y... sometimez... life feelz like itz full of deceit..
and liez... and as if therez heapza pplz out there 2 jus trick u and fool u and then laugh...oh well...
and then.. yesterday..
went 2 tha ct... walked round... now i hurt all ova... >.< 2 much walkin i guezz.... mi arms and mi shoulders hurt and mi nose ?.? oh well...
well walked round... met scar and then met andy later on at joy garden.. then lina went off wit her friendz...(4 once!!! but i got told off later on 4 it... -.-") and so scar and i had 2 walk 2 and from tha ct repeatedly... and then scar left and it wz jus me and andy..
we walked round tha ct 4 a while... still havent found a prezzie 4 dad 4 father's day... and then got home round 6 or 7 some time den... and then thatz bout wat happedn 4 mi day yesterday...
mi life seemz so borin...
oh well... betta go finish studyin and then get some harp practise done or mi teachaz gonna kill me...
nite nite
*hugz
[11 daiz 2 go...]
mr o iz jus sittin across tha room and talkin 2 pplz... typical...
nothin 2 do... and no 1 iz on msn...
so ye...
tha mid term break iz ova so quickly...
oh well..
and now i got heapza stuff 2 do coz i didnt do ne hw....
oh well...
well tha second half of tha w/e wz okz...
i went 2 tha temple on sun and had a lovely vegetarian lunch...
and then stayed at home 4 tha rest of tha day...
but now i'm sorta gettin worried bout miself...
i mean i'm not sure if i've developed an eatin disorder or somethin...
i hope not... but then i dont think i've been eatin properly..
wen i feel like eatin... i sorta lose mi appetite no matter
oh well end of class finish later...
========== continued ==========
ne waiz... i think i wz on tha topic of mi eatin habitz...
oh well... i hope it getz betta soon..
well atm... i'm a quarter tryin 2 study 4 2moroz mathz test....
a quarter makin a pom pom 1 quarter typin dis... and 1 quater chattin...
very bad habbit..
oh wellz... it keepz me 4m stressin...
or maybe i should get mi prioritiez straight...
i dunno y... sometimez... life feelz like itz full of deceit..
and liez... and as if therez heapza pplz out there 2 jus trick u and fool u and then laugh...oh well...
and then.. yesterday..
went 2 tha ct... walked round... now i hurt all ova... >.< 2 much walkin i guezz.... mi arms and mi shoulders hurt and mi nose ?.? oh well...
well walked round... met scar and then met andy later on at joy garden.. then lina went off wit her friendz...(4 once!!! but i got told off later on 4 it... -.-") and so scar and i had 2 walk 2 and from tha ct repeatedly... and then scar left and it wz jus me and andy..
we walked round tha ct 4 a while... still havent found a prezzie 4 dad 4 father's day... and then got home round 6 or 7 some time den... and then thatz bout wat happedn 4 mi day yesterday...
mi life seemz so borin...
oh well... betta go finish studyin and then get some harp practise done or mi teachaz gonna kill me...
nite nite
*hugz
[11 daiz 2 go...]