jus got bak 4m shop... so COLD!!! i'm FREEZING!!! agghh... ne waiz... wat did i do 2 day? i guezz i spent most of tha day at tha shop... i got up round 12 noon... went out 2 tha shop... 2 help mi dad wit tha spellin and grammar in tha menu 4 resto... but then mi spellin aint that good ne waiz.. came home round 2pm... helped work out how 2 bind tha menu... continued tha borin process of cleanin mi room a bit... went online round 5pm... and went out 2 help out at tha shop at 6pm... coz mi mum had 2 work at tha resto... coz some employee couldnt come 2 work... -.-" bored 2 death at tha shop.... surrounded by complete silence... coz apparently now daiz 2 play radio in shop u have 2 pay tha broadcaster... -.-" so no radio... no music... jus total silence... and tha occasional customer... -.-" then jus came bak.. and bak online again... how borin iz mi life?? but then i guezz itz betta than a skool day... but then a skool day is varied.... but there iz tha hw due.... -.-" i keep contradicting mi self.... hmm.... so bored i mite as well list tha pplz i noe that saw 2 day... *minh *julian *michael *simon j *some random that i can recognise that went 2 hps once... *pplz in mi family *otha pplz who work at shop and resto who i dont noe that namez of... *customer pplz... hmm.. who else?? ugh.. cant be stuffed ne morez... garz... like scar said.... pplz choose wat 2 say... coz they dont wanna hurt pplz feelinz coz u neva noe whoz gonna read ure blog... itz a realli small world.. word of mouth travelz pretty quickly... and u neva noe who iz readin it... i mean even i choose 2 leave bitz of mi thoughtz out... i try 2 be open bout wat i rite... but some thingz are jus 2 personal 2 have ritten down... and pplz have diff levelz of privacy... some pplz want more.. othaz care less bout it... hmmm.... watty else i feel like sayin??? wat am i doin 2moro? hmm... heapza hw... goin 2 visit hps... gonna hav 2 face mr sayce again... >.< not good.... BUT mi sista say HAVE 2 go so ... *sigh* have 2 go... wat 2 say??? tha more i say tha longer i can stay online... hmmm... i need stuff 2 say... but then some pplz alwaiz have stuff 2 talk bout... i dunno why... and some pplz dont... so strange... but then i wonder if thatz connected 2 tha whole privacy thing... hmm... i jus realised.. tha more pplz ask questionz bout me.. and tha more they persist on askin tha more likely answer.. i wonder why... *think think think* but then wen pplz jus ask... and then they say i dont have 2 answer i'm least likely 2 answer... ne 1 else like that ??? or iz it jus me??? oh well... hmmm... realli hard 2 blog whilst chattin 2 ppl but then if i dont type here mi parentz noe that i've been chattin... ugh... wat 2 say??? i keep sayin ova and ova again tha same thingz... aghh... i guezz thatz prob y mi blog so boring... nothin new realli... i found tha panoramic (bad spelling) foto 4m last yr... pplz look so different... i betta go... nite nite *hugz

Oke...
wat happened 2 day?
umm....
nuffin realli...
i want 2 go shopping!!!!
oh well...
betta not spend money on clothez....
but then mi sista keepz stealin mi new clothez....
wen eva i get new clothez...
she stealz em...
agghhh...

2 daiz till skool....
*sigh*
-shit-
i totalli 4got bout tha hw i wz meant 2 do durin tha holz...
-.-"

hmm...
i got most of mi room cleaned up 2day..
but still got heapz 2 do... -.-"

ugh...
i have nothin 2 talk bout...
y???

hmm...
i spent last nite cryin...
mi dad practicalli screamed at me 4 mi room...
but then mi room is messy i do admit miself...
but ye...
and then tha next mornin mi dad came home early...
and we jus had a nice heart 2 heart...
coz he felt guilty wen he heard 4m mi sista that i had cried...
and now hez bak 2 tha attempt of bribin me 2 clean mi room..
and tha house...
but ye....
i havent talked 2 him in agez...
so i guezz it wz quite good...

aghh... i betta go b4 mi mum scoldz again..

nite nite
*hugz

few daiz 2 end of holz...

llalallalallala...

i wonder wen dia will be bak???

welcome bak 2 susan hmm...

i've had quite a good day despite a few downz....

i went rollerbladin thiz arvo...

and i fell 5 timez...

-.-"

i realli wonder where mi sense of balance iz....

i mean it...

tha first time i tried i fell 3 timez and it wz wet...

but 2 day wz perfectly fine and i fell 5 timez...

-.-"

and on top of tha 5 timez...

i hit smak in2 tha pillar which holdz tha gate up at mi house...

so i got a nice white streak down mi jumper before i left tha house...

-_-"

bad bad...

i realli need 2 learn how 2 break...

everytime i try to even break it doeznt work...

i jus lose wat lil balance i got all 2 getha...

oh well...

need practise...

practise away 4m public view...

i mean realli...

so embarressing...

 

wat else???

agghh...

these daiz have nothin 2 say...

*think think think*

 

hmmm...

i got notha 2 blank smsz...

on top of tha 3 random 1z i got durin tha last week of skool...

i wonder whoz sendin em 2 me..

dey're all 4m tha same number...

oh well...

prob some random who keepz makin mistakez wit tha fone number...

oh well...

 

agghh...

mi fone outta credit already???

 -_-"

 

bout 4 daiz till skool...

:( i dont wanna go bak 2 all that hard work...

but then therez pplz i can see!!!

4daiz 2 catch up wit hw...

and clean mi room...

wat else???

catch up wit music practise... (if i can be bothad)

 

so repeatative....

thatz life i guezz....

i betta go..

nite nite  

hmmm....
i wz cookin lunch 4 lina 2 day...
and i wz jus thinkin...
bout some of tha convoz i've had wit pplz...
in tha last few weekz...
and i thought of how in one particular convo...
i had said 'itz not mi place'
thinkin bout that particular one...
i realised wen i think bout pplz and how i and otha pplz relate 2 each otha....
i sorta think of social rankz and classes...
but i dont mean of it as in how rich they are or how they look...
but how they relate 2 othaz....
sorta like social groupz....
eg. one person is in tha middle of a circle...
and then their closest friend or friendz would be in a ring around them...
and then the next closest few and so and so on...

and one of the more interesting facts is that i seem to put miself on the outer....
i wonder....
could it jus be me being antisocial and deliberately putting miself on the outer?
or would it be me perceiving that i'm less wanted as a friend????
or am i afraid of reaching out and trying to make friends...
and bein afraid of rejection???
or am i jus alwaiz down lookin mi self and jus thinkin that i'm a loser...
and no 1 wanna be mi friend...
hmmm....  *think think think*
oh well...

and then durin tha course..
i realised that pplz do have many sidez...
i mean mi room mate had tha side which she wz wit me...
and then a side wen she wz in a group..
and then a side wen she wz round guyz...

and it realli got me thinkin....
i finalli realised pplz react diff in diff situationz...
diff pplz..
diff placez..
diff moodz...

i mean wen ure round diff pplz of diff agez...
and wen ure round pplz of diff racez....
i mean i dont wanna be racist...
but i realised i do react diff wit auzziez...
to wen i wit aznz...
not sayin that i treat em diff but i seem 2 act diff...
they're all mi friendz but i act diff round each of em...
and then wit tha agez...
i act more immature wen i'm wit tha girlz at tha guidez...
and diff at cadetz and skool...
and then at home...
diff environmentz....

and wen pplz say

'be ureself''

i dont see how it could be....
2 me it seemz there is no single me...
therez liek a combination of me...
me is a collective word for all tha pplz i am...

and then there iz tha side i sometimez want pplz 2 see...
i put on an act and they think wat they see iz me....
but i may be completely opposite....
i guezz itz impossible 2 tell bout pplz....
they may react diff 2 u if u were a diff age..
or maybe diff race...
even if u are tha same person on tha inside...
but then they may not....

*sigh*
i realli think i've got relationship probz....
oh well...
i'll try and change...

but some pplz dont eva change...
but heapza pplz change heapz...
in a time frame of an hour a person may change....
i mean i changed quite a bit ova 10 daiz on JNCO...
i found i got so stressed...
i had increased mi amont of swearin by at least 400%
i mean i wz sayin fuk at least 15 timez a day....
oh well....

and then...
time goez past so quickly....
chancez a lost so quickly...
opportunitiez gone...
some which may neva be available again...
*sigh*

but then again...
some chances come and go....
again and again...
and then one day they no longer r available...

and then..
i started thinkin bout goalz....
i think 4 cadetz....
i'll jus aim 4 cwoff...
i doubt cuo would suit me would it???
then maybe if i had time i could try out for cuo...
but i think shoutin at pplz on tha drill square would be fun!!!
:D
hehe

i guezz...
study medicine first...
if i get a high tee score that iz...
oh well...
MUST STUDY!!!!

aggghh...
so much stuff due in afta holz....
and so much happenin...

but then there r family thingz on as well....

hmmm....
wat happened b4 jnco???
oh ye....
i 4got  2 say....
we had buffer nite on fri...
we watched shrek and shrek 2....
and ate pizza....
tha cuo's bought like 60 pizzaz...
there wz HEAPZ!!!!
i couldnt believe it...
wat else???
o i went rollerbladin...
coz mi dad brought em 4 me on tha last day of term...
wat else????
o...
wen i went 2 go buy em...
i saw laurence watz...
lolz
so much taller!!!
oh well...
pplz i cant believe i'm seein these pplz...
last time i saw em wz in yr 7...
time fliez...
been 3 yrz....

oh well...
betta stop sittin at tha comp...
g2g and unpak mi stuffz...
*hugz
bye

holz...

lalala... holz... nothin 2 do now.... mona said she mite be free this fri... maybe go harbour town and help her find clothes 4 social??? and jus go round lookin at stuffz? maybe i mite find some more clothez as well....   dia wen u comin bak????   wat i did 2 day???? i went rollerbladin 4 tha first time!!!!! i fell on mi arse at least 3 timez tho.... -_-" oh well... but then it started rainin whilst i wz outside... and we were goin down hill... bad bad bad time 2 be outside rollerbladin 4 tha first time.... so slippery...   wat else???? thatz mainly it...   oh i remember.... lolz i wz workin out at tha shop and i saw this guy 4m mi primary skool... i think hiz name wz simon jonkiz or somethink like that... lolz... but i did remember his face... and then wen i asked if that wz all... and he replied... i wz so shocked!!! lolz his voice wz so bloody high....   i mean thiz is gettin weird... bak a few monthz i remember seein a guy 4m mi primary skool... his voice wz so bloody LOW and now thiz guyz voice is bloody HIGH lolz...   i guezz thatz all that happened 2 day.. cant remember ne thin else... oh well.... nite nite *hugz

JNCO recap

JNCO IZ OVA!!!!!!! an i PASSED wit a CREDIT!!!!! YAY!!!! ne waiz... i realli cant believe itz ova... it wz like tha best and worst daiz of mi life... it wz SO much fun!!! i cant believe itz ova.... ::tear:: now i wish it were a bit longer... aggghhhhh yet durin tha course i wanted it 2 finish ASAP but now i want 2 still be there.... *sigh* oh well...   at least i'm happi wit mi credit!!!!! i mean i thought tha higest i'd get wz pass... oh well... and then there is tha fact... that i'm kinda pissed at miself 4 not tryin that hard... i mean if i'd tried i may have gotten a distinction... -_-" i got mi report 2 day and i saw tha score ... and mi CO said... i missed out on distrinction by a bit... -_-"   oh well... nuff bout mi score... bout tha daiz.. hmmm.. i cant believe they passed so quickly... i cant believe i lasted so long wit out tha net... oh well...   tha first day... i went up 2 tha east perth station like mosta tha metro cadetz... then formed up and got on tha bus 2 leave... saw LCDT scott 4m GST... and LCDT Naarstig 4m tha wing parade...   got 2 pearce... got allocated in2 our flightz... i wz in A Flight... pplz in A Flight - LCDT Amis (jazz!!! i miss her!!) LCDT Coccaro LCDT Cook (same flight as dia in gst i think?) LCDT Cvianovic (in mi sqn and on same flight as me in gst...) LCDT Falconer-West LCDT Hewit LCDT Hotz (703 sqn) LCDT Kaps (miss her a lil...) LCDT Naarstig (703 sqn)(miss her)  LCDT Pratten LCDT Ruck (aka dobby) LCDT Scherini LCDT Scott (wz in mi flight 4 gst) (miss her) LCDT Shearman (left for personal reasons) LCDT Skinner LCDT Southhall LCDT Steenstra LCDT Urquhart   ye... and there wz one more... but she wz moved 2 anotha flight coz we had most pplz... at tha start of tha course we had 75 pplz on tha course at tha end we had 69.... oh well... so many pplz left..   ne waiz... we spent tha first day stuffin round wit team building exercises...   then 4 tha next few daiz we spent workin... herez our timetable...   0600 - Get up 0645 - Form up 2 go 2 brekky 0700 - brekky 0815 - 0840 - Daily Parade 0845 - 0925 - Period 1 0930 - 1010 - Period 2 1015 - 1055 - Period 3 1100 - 1145 - Period 4 1245 - Lunch 1330 - 1420 - Period 5 1415 - 1455 - Period 6 1500 - 1540 - Period 7 1545 - 1625 - Period 8 1630 - 1700 - Period 9 1800 - Dinner 1900 - 1940 - Period 10 1945 - 2025 - Period 11 2100 - Block Curfew 2200 - Lights out   but ye.. that wz tha timetable.. 4 our flight we had 2 DIs... CWOFF Walters and CWOFF Collins.... so luckki us.... wat else....   LCDT Scott and one of tha DI fell in love... wat else happend? i got distinction 4 instructional technique ( IT ) !!! LCDT Amis claimed she had no diaphragm.... lolz.... tha highest i kept gettin 4 mi room tidyness wz 5.75 outta 10 >.< oh well...   went shootin on tues... we got 30 roundz.. i mean i wz luckki went first coz tha next detail only got 28 roundz... but ye... mi first time i went shootin.... we shot wit 0.22 calibre riflez... i got a score of 117!!! i'm so proud!!! it wz SO much fun!!!   wat else??? oh... we also had fieldcraft... i jus bearly passed 4 tha fieldcraft prac... i'm so crap at it...   wit mi IT pracz.... mi first lesson wz supposed 2 last 5 minz... i ended up talkin for bout 2 minz 30 secondz... -_-" and then... for mi 8 min lesson... i wz forced 2 stop coz i went up to 10 minz.... and i wznt even finished... so ye.... i didnt get 2 ask questionz 4 taht 1... -_-"   wat else??? oh... we had leadership / team building exercises... in total we did 5 exercises... for 2 of those exercises i wz carried ova ropez and stuffz... y? coz in mi group there 5 pplz... me and 4 guyz... so dia.. that ratio wz accurate.... it iz tru... even on tha course... for every gal there were at least 4 guyz... so ye... cadets iz male dominant... yet a female duxed... go galz!!!! it wz LCDT Radford i think....   OMG... i had grad parade this morning... and everythin wz fine... i wz standin in tha front rank between naarstig and pratten... until i heard this sound.... and i turned mi head 2wardz tha source of tha sound... and saw Hotz freeze up rigid and faint bakwardz... OMG it wz tha worst sight eva.. i got so bloody scared... Naarstig who wz next 2 me broke in2 tearz... and pratten started sorta swayin... naarstig wz walked away 2 calm her down... and pratten wz dragged off tha drill square in case he fainted... and i wz left standin there... i stood in time 2 hear that bannister got 3rd (congratz 2 her!!!) wetton got 2nd.. and then i sorta felt dizzy so i went down on mi knee... and wz taken 2 admin area...   i saw naarstig.. we sat round 4 a while... and went 2 visit hotz... he wz actualli fine... all he had wz some minor injuriez on his thumbz...   wat else? i still cant believe i survived tha course... oh kaps... she got so annoyin.. and not onli her but steenstra i also found a lil annoyin.. both of em 2 me seemed like couldnt stop wingein... i had tha worst time wit kaps... i mean i wanted 2 be nice but sometimes she jus realli got on mi nerves... she was always on about how unpopular she was... and how she couldn't call her mum and step dad... -_-" and once she had called em she wouldnt stop goin on bout her pets... -_-" and how she kept jumping down pplz throatz... and wen pplz did tha same 2 her she'd get all pissed... and say there wz no need 2 jump down her throat... and then she wouldnt stop askin pplz 2 do thingz 4 her... i mean she'd go and ask pplz 2 do her bed... and hold stuff 4 her... and help her wit her jumper.. i mean realli.. i can put on tha jumper by miself... she on tha otha hand needz at least 4 otha femalez 2 help... and she wouldnt stop talkin bout... how this guy onli asked her out 2 get her in2 bed... i mean who carez ne more??? thatz part of her past...   and then some pplz did this head bobbing thing... after she saw it... she spent tha whole course doin it... i mean itz ok 2 do it but it jus got annoyin coz it started makin me dizzy... and then there were that timez wen i wz realli stressed... and she'd come 2 me and ask me 2 do somethin... i mean she even came in wen i wz tryin 2 change 2 ask if i could do her hair.... -_-" i mean cant she do ne thin herself? i understand that some pplz are dependent on their parentz.. so on thiz course ure meant 2 learn 2 adapt to independance... i mean even amis learnt how 2 do her hair.... amis alwaiz had her mum 2 do her hair.. so she asked me 2 do her hair.. then afta that she learnt and worked it out herself... oh well... itz jus some pplz i gues...   i cant remember ne more major eventz... oh well... thatz tha gist of mi last 10 daiz... i gonna go rest now... *hugz bye

IT again...
LAST DAY OF SKOOL!!!
agggghhh!!!!
JNCO...
-_-"
and i'm so sleepy...
we jus had tha author of lookin 4 alabrandi come in and speak 2 us...
i mean it wz interestin but i'm SO tired...
AND SO hungry...
i missed out on breakfast.... -_-"
and i had no dinner last nite..

should i go 2 buffer nite???
i wz meant 2 spend last nite pakkin..
-_-"
2 bad...
didnt even start...
oh well...
that'd mean i have bout 2 hourz 2 pakk wen i get home...
and then go 2 buffer nite if i wanna....
OR stay at home and pak all nite...
and then sleep bit earlier...

hmmm...

end of class..
bye

aghh...
lost mi last post..
and i cant remember wat i rote last time..

hmmm...
distracted 4m pakkin 4 JNCO..
ugh...

oh well...
wat happened 2 day???
hmmm..
had s+e, mathz, health, science and IT

s+e...
well did nothin realli...
wat could i expect???
i got mr oxnam...
mainly spent that time...
teachin jayne how 2 do chem coz she had a chem test comin up...

then had mathz...
-no comment-
and ms bayley made us each answer a q each b4 we were allowed 2 leave class at tha end... -_-"
ended up leavin class late...
lost a bitta mi recess time...

then i had health...
we talked bout sexual and non sexual relationshipz...
-_-"
wit ms hughz...*shrudderz*
and then...
we had 2 make listz...
of tha qualitiez which we'd like our 'perfect partner' 2 have....
and i sorta realised i havent thought bout that much..
i mean wat sorta guy would i end up bein wit???
well..
hmmm..
he'd at least have 2 luv me...
that iz quite obvious...
oh well...
till then...

science wz ok...
and then IT i spent stuffin round...

hmm...
wat else???
oh ye..
next term...
on tha thurz that we come bak..
we have tha mathz comp and tha chem quiz thingy...
which meanz period 1 and 2 are taken up 4 tha mathz comp...
and then period 5 is taken up by tha chem quiz...
which leavez tha 3rd and 4th period...
hmm...
i have voice at 11:30...
which meanz half of english...
DAMN
i hav 2 change tha harp lesson...
that would mean i'd have 2 change 2 either durin english...
and miss tha whole period and a bitta recess...
or miss out on most of s+e...

hmm... hard choice...
lolz

so much stress these daiz...
i mean at least we spent this lunch laughin...
i havent laughed like that in agez...

i mizz year 8 now...
so good bak then...

*sigh*
time realli fliez...

hmm...
every1z offline now...
i betta go sleep 2...
betta go...
nite nite
*hugz

IT

In IT now...
anotha lesson spent sittin round...
i mean i hate this work...
i dunno y but i find it hard and annoyin sometimez 2 try and be creative...
i mean i dunno y i jus realli dislike creativity...
itz as if itz a total competition...
2 competative 4 me...

hmmm... now i'm sorta wonderin y i took IT in tha first place...
i jus sit and waste time..
and i still got half a year of it 2 go..

plz dont rain 2 moro!!!
i realli don wanna have career ed... or french...

damn end of lesson
g2g
bye

had skool 2 day...
all feelin betta..

we had tha learning styles seminar 2day...
it wz so funny...
i guess audience interaction wz tha main key...
tha fact that pplz could participate and sorta understand...

hmmm....
i don wanna remind mi self...
but i have 2 face tha fact that JNCO...
is comin up in a few daiz...
>,<
i dont wanna go...
all alone...
agghh...
no dia wit me....

*sigh*
oh well...
one thing i'll noe..
if i do stuff up tha lecture pplz wont remember it...
coz we'd probly be divided up...
in2 diff flights so i doubt there'd be ne 1 i noe...

i'll prob fail...
oh well...
i could alwaiz repeat...

oh shit...
i still havent packed...
bad bad...
but i realli cant be stuffed...

yesterday i had p.e....
we played soccer and basketball..
and then wen i wz tryin 2 catch tha rebound....
of tha ball 4m tha bakboard..
mi earring got caught on some1z clothes and it killed like hell...

and then 2 day...
wen we had house act...
we played olympia...
there were like 8 olympian playerz 4 basketball...
for our 4 pplz coz stupid troy pplz 4got their uniform...
we had depleted number in our teamz...
whilst we played... olympians switched playerz on and off...
and sometimez they had 5 playerz some timez 4...
but didnt make a differance at all...
we got thrashed...
tha score wz like triple of ourz...
and then mi earring got caught on janez sleeve...
and practically wz ripped outta mi ear...
luckily tha bak gave way and it fell 2 tha ground...
but still i wz in pain...

oh well..
at least i found tha earring again...

wat else happend?
or is gonna happen???

hmm...
house athletics comin up!!!
tho there is like nothing 2 be enthused bout...
coz troy is gonna lose ne waiz...
but realli i cant believe mr lee is makin us march up...
agghhh...
i mean realli...
itz not liek some formal thing...
house athletics is meant 2 be fun!!!
not so formal...
a day off!!!
and plz dont let it rain...
othawise we'll have skool...

SHIT..
still gotta polish mi GP boots...
uh oh...

oh well...
i'll see if i can get out of paradin in em...

wat elsey...
damn..
have hw in tha holz... -_-"

hmm...
tha socialz comin up...
yet i dunno y i bother mentioning it...
itz on tha side thingy ne waiz...

oh well..
i betta go...
or else i'll be stayin up 2 late..
nite nite
*hugz

role reversal

i wonder sometimez...
who iz older me or mi sista...

i mean shez tha 1 that suitz tha whole stereotype of a teenager...
itz like a total role reversal...
i mean linaz alwaiz on tha phone and on tha net..
yet i still get tha lecturez bout all tha usual teenage topix..
weird..

i ended up in tearz again last nite...
:'(
y?
i dunno realli..
it could jus anger and jealousy i guess...
i dunno y...
itz not like i disliek mi parentz..
but i find it so bad these daiz...
restrictionz on everyhin..
and yet mi sistaz tha 1 on tha phone all tha time..
and then therz tha net restrictionz...
i mean apparently i'm not allowed 2 chat on msn ne more...
not that i've stopped..
but still...
i dont talk on tha phone..
i dont sms..
i dont spend that much time out of tha house..
y restrict tha net?!?!?!?!
and wen i talk bout otha pplz...
mi mumz like: y u alwaiz comparin ure self 2 tha otha pplz in ure skool??? y not compare ure self 2 tha less fortunate????
like wen i wz 13 i wz lookin afta tha family coz mi mum had died...
and ure dad wz helpin out at tha age of 7...(blah blah blah)
i mean itz not like i dont respect mi parentz..
itz jus that i want some time 2 talk 2 pplz..
even if itz on tha net...

i mean wen they were that young did they have most of their aftanoonz off??? yez... wat bout me??? me i've got all these thingz on...
they had a choice... they were so bored hey decided 2 help..
me i'm so bz i feel like collapzin and jus sleep on tha floor...

*sigh* and then jus wen mi parentz came home..
they went straight 2 mi sistaz room and all praise her..
and then walkz ova 2 tha connectin door...
and then give me thiz huge lecture bout tha stuff blockin tha way..

tha thing is that tha door in between doenzt have onli mi stuffz...
itz also mi sistaz...
i mean i did try quite hard 2 clean mi room...
whilst mi sista on tha hand half heartedly...
goin online and jus playin whilst cleanin...
yet i get bloody lectured 4 mi effort...
i mean realli sometimez i wonder...
and mi sista jus lovez rubbin it in mi face...
wat iz it???
life at home jus feelz like thiz huge competition 4 mi parentz attention and love....
i wonder....
iz that y i seek so much attention sometimez at skool...
but still..
itz jus not fair...
and mi parentz are so bloody leniant 2wardz her... -_-"

and i've been taught 2 alwaiz be nice 2 her... -_-"
i mean i ALWAIZ have 2 let her have her way...
y wont she grow up????
y cant she stay at home and look afta herself???
y does seh have 2 follow me round?!?!?!?
i mean there are such thingz as babysitterz...
but mi paretnz prob prefer tha cheaper alternative...
plus they have practicalli a spy watchin me...
one who bloody spreadz exaggerated rumorz... -_-"

aggghhh
and i cant do ne thing bout it...
i'm expected 2 be old enough 2 look afta mi self...
and not complain...
and have 2 look afta her...
but if it doeznt go 4 her she callz up mi parentz and compainz...
mi life so hard...
stuk between prob between mi sista and mi mum..
and wen i try 2 be a good sista...
i jus have a hard time....
and wen mi sista doez somthin well itz all praize...
cept wen i get stuffz done itz like who carez?
itz her job...
-_-"
mi sista getz one of those merit certificatez...
and itz a cause 4 celebration.....
me get high d itz like meh....
oh well...
life goez on...

spent mi day cleanin again..
i sorted out all tha clothez...
in total mi mum went thru bout 4 loadz of washin...
so much!!!!

these daiz itz so weird...
itz not like i'm havin immediate mood swingz...
but i sorta go 4m extreme happy as if i'm on a sugar high...
to sad down in tha dumpz...
but itz like on an extended time..
and itz thiz continual cycle...
itz realli gettin 2 me..
i've found that itz mainly wen mi parentz come home...
i go sad 4 all tha lecturez...
but i noe i'm rong...
and yet i dont change coz i wanna talk 2 ppl....
and then i answer bak bout how i wanna talk 2 pplz bout stuffz..
and i get told off...
itz getttin worse and worse...
itz like tha familyz got all thiz tension between us...
and i go on and on...
as if itz not gonna stop...
as if there is no such thing as rest...
all except sleep...
but i dont wanna sleep...
at nite i dont wanna sleep...
i wanna talk 2 pplz..
and in tha mornin i regret it all..
regret stayin up that late...
wishin i could have some more hours of sleep...

oh well...
betta get 2 bed..
nite nite
*hugz

harp recital

ugh...
had tha harp recital 2day...
i guess i did alright...
but then...
i heard tha othaz...
-_-"

i mean they were round tha same level as me...
then..
this asian dude came in..
he wz late...
and he set up hiz harp..
then started playin coz he had 2 leave early..
and then he started playin and i wz like 0.o...
he played so well!!!!
prob he either practise heapz or he learnt 4 agez..
thing is he wz like between tha age of 6-8....
*sigh*
y pplz so talented?!?!?!?!?!
tha onli factor i can think of...
iz that i dont practise that much...
i guess thatz prob y..
but then he played so well!!!!

and then..
next person who played...
i think wz some ccgz guy...
i dunno...
he played..
and i wz..
damn...
how long is that song???
it wz so long and complicated...
and then he played...
beauty and tha beast..
damn it...
y cant i learn fun songz like that...
that have an actual tune i noe (that isnt danny boi)
-_-"

btw...
all tha ppl that played had tha same teacha..
oh well..

hmm...
jus noticed..
i didnt rite bout tha otha container lady incedent...
we were eatin in tha bak of tha resto eatin..
then she bursts in... *shock horror*
and sitz down...
and startz talkin...
how rude is that???
and then..
stopz mi grandma 4m eatin...
turnz her chair aroudn so she can talk 2 her...
mi grandma getz bit pissed coz she cant eat now..
and keepz talkin..
me tryin 2 avoid her saiz i g2g...
and u noe wat she saiz????
she: goin so quickly??? where u goin??
me: home...
she: y not come home wit me??? u'll love it!!!
me: (thinkin in head) WAT THA F***?!?!?!?! AS IF!!!!

i mean realli... -_-"
and guess wat??
it happend tha same day...
that scar and i were talkin bout her in mathz...
i wonder...
did u curse me scar??!??!?!?!?

even if she meanz it as a joke itz gettin realli old now...
and so bloody annoyin....
pluz...
that remindz me..
thiz time last yr...
i dunno if i said thiz..
there wz that china sale thingy..
and mi dad invited her along..
and i had -_-" 2 walk round wit her...
(she wz draggin me along by tha arm)
and one of tha stall ownerz go..
stall owner:is that ure daughter?
she:no.. but soon 2 be...
me:(thinkin) AGGGHHHH let go of me!!! stop makin these thingz up!!!

god...
tha less i see her tha betta

wat elsey i can talk bout????
(oh btw tryin 2 make thiz long as posible...
coz atm bloggin is tha...
onli valid reason i have 2 go on tha net)

i mean realli...
she'z totalli against chattin
oh well..

wat i need 2 do 2moro???
*buy dark purple wool...
*find collared shirtz... make sure enough 4 jnco...
*pak 4 jnco
*study 4 jnco
*fini mi attempt at cleanin room

cant think of ne else...
oh well...
gettin late...
g2g
nite nite

hmm..

bak 4m cadetz

bak 4m cadetz...
seriously...
tha total number of pplz at cadetz is decreasin rapidly...
i mean they even went 2 tha extreme of askin us wat would appeal 2 our age...
so ye...
they realli desperate now...

i mean they need stuffz 2 say 2 appeal 2 pplz...
-_-"

hmmm..
if mrs porter wznt bz...
i would be at tha aquinus college gym atm...
oh well...
2 bad...

wat else???
gl 2 dia for tha rowing!!!

umm...
oh well..
nite nite

hmm...
i RELLI SICK of studyin now..
i gonna quickly type thiz coz i feel like talkin...
mi mum at home...

2 day we had tha mock electionz 2day....
we lost...
i mean it wz practicalli a popularity contest...
every1 practcalli knew that...
itz alwaiz been that way wen teacherz do electionz and stuffz...

i dunno y...
these daiz i feel like talkin ...
yet there is no subject 2 talk bout..
so strange..

nothin comez 2 mind..
there are no topix..
so sometimez tha same convo repeatz again and agian..
*sigh*

well
i g2g
nite nite
*hugz

recess

hmmm...
agez since i posted...

i wz gonna post last nite but i couldnt be stuffed....
itz so BLOODY cold outside...
wat wz up wit tha weather...
it wz forcasted 2 rain...
oh well....
at least i'm not gettin wet...

wat else???
i cant remember watz happend this week..
these daiz i'm jus totalli out of it..
i cant remember a thing...
i totalli 4got 2 day wz thurzday even...
(i thought it wz mon)
-_-"

monaz sittin bside me lookin at those hk actorz and actresses again...
-_-"

JNCO (junior non commition officer course thingy)
[specificalli ritten 4 mona] commin up..
y doez aaron have 2 keep remindin me???
*sigh*
i think i've sorta decided on wat 2 lecture on 4 tha free topic...
i think i'll jus lecture on memory skillz...
i'll jus teach em tha way pplz learn and how 2 do word trainz..
that'll do..
by tha time they've started tha word train 10 minz would be up...
hehehe..
but then...
should i teach em???
if i do then...
hmm...
i mean mi parentz did pay alot 2 send me 2 that memory skillz course...
but then...
itz not like i use it 2 studdy...
but tehn....
itz somethin that i can do... or noe bit of...
or quite well..
otha than that i dunno wat i could teach...
god..
so annoyin..
wehere gonna get a topic????
if i do teach em memory skillz...

(con't at home)
i'll have 2 make up all these word listz and stuffz...
and give em stuff 2 memorise..
damn...
oh well..
it'll do until i think of somethin else..

SHIT
dia...
we got fieldcraft exam 2moro...
since we not goin 2 sleep ova..
shit..
i didnt study..
and now i have 2 study 4 mi mathz...
finish mi notez 4 bio..
and jus check thru mi fieldcraft notez 4 tha exam...
-_-"
and ontop of htat i have choir 2moro..
and i havent learnt mi part yet...
aggghhhh!!!!
oh well..

i think me and scar are gonna be 2 of tha 4pplz
that are gonna move down a class...
damn it...
mi dad gonna be so pissed...
and mi mumz prob gonna find me anotha tutor...
-_-"

oh well..
gotta stop wastin mi onli time left...
i'll try and study..
(i still dunno how 2)
-_-"
oh well..
bye
*hugz

fini chinese skoolz 4 tha term 2day...
and got reportz bak...
*sigh*

mi sistaz gigglin and typin at tha same time
at her comp again...
i wonder wat she rote thiz time...
betta not be like last time...
-_-"

i got mi chinese resultz bak...
all a's execpt for 2 b's...
*sigh*
i'm gettin worse...
time wz i used 2 get some a+'s...
oh well..
i did skip some classes...
but then...
i doubt they'd of done that much durin that itme...
oh well..
y do i care?

we had class 1st period...
then spent 2nd period singin...
3rd period we had a mini party...
thanx 2 tha teacher who paid...
and raymond who went and bought tha stuffz...
but then no point ritin it here is it???
oh well..

so ye..
we sat outside..
listenin 2 music and jus eatin junk food...

then aftawardz...
bout 1pm...
mum picked us up.... (1 hour late)
oh well... she bz...
and we went 2 harbour town...
walked round bit...
then went home at 5pm...

interestin tho that we didnt have 2 pay tha parkin fee...
tha parkin pplz gave us these otha ticketz...
and we didnt have 2 pay...
do they usualli do that?
oh well...
life goez on...

i bought anotha bag...
and guess wat colour??
bluuuuuu!!!!

hmm...
wat else happendz?

damn..
g2g sleepz..
nite nite
*hugz

these daiz i think i think bout life 2 much..
some timez life is so bad...

so many thingz happenz...
i mean soon time upz...
and fini high skool...
i mean itz already end of semester 1 ...
so FAST!!!!

and then on top of that...
coz mi parentz so bz..
i have 2 look afta mi sista as well...
i ask her 2 do thingz..
and she jus ignorez..
for me it jus getz realli hard..
i mean mi mum tellz me 2 make sure i look afta her...
and stuffz...
and then i ask her mi self and she ignorez it completely..
and then i ask her again...
and again...
and again..
and by then i'm realli pissed off..
so i end up shoutin...
and she thinks i'm bein mean 2 her on purpose...
-_-"
and then on top of that...
mi mum comez home...
ask me y not ready or wateva...
and then i cant say ne thing...
MI resposibility...
bla bla bla...
and so mi mum start 2 lecture...
and then wen lecture...
i start gettin annoyed...
on tha fact that i have 2 keep tellin mi sista off...
and then i end up shoutin sometimez at mi mum...
or most of tha time...
i end up sighin repeatedly...
and then mi mum startz believin i'm pissed at her..
and startz off on a lecture how i cant be pissed at her..
and mi sista totalli getz forgotten...
no trouble 4 her...
jus me...
y alwaiz me??!?!??!??!?!
and then tha whole family practicalli getz pissed..
so much tension at home...
-_-"

and then somtimez wen i'm out at tha resto...
and this sorta thing happenz..
i get an extra set of lecturez...
-_-"
mi grandma hearz tha lecturez and joinz in...
and wat can i say?
i jus have 2 listen...
listen and say ok...
so much...
i jus cant take it ne morez...
gettin 2 much...

damn..
run outta time 2 fini wat i wanna rite wat i say again...
i gotta stop chattin whist ritin mi posts...
-_-"
nite nite

ugh...
feel so bad...
i jus got bak 4m swimmin at beatty park....
*sigh*
now mi eyez have gone fuzzie..
i can bearly see...
i think there wz 2 much chlorine in tha water....
and plus on top of that mi sinuses are blocked
and i'm developin a headache...
god i feel sick...

omg i've had such a bad day...
i mean i wz practicalli fine until english...
i wz sittin there...
and then got so bored...
i started thinkin bout watz comin up and everythin as well as mi life atm...
then i thought bout how much time i've got...
and then slowly it jus got 2 much 4 me...
i dunno...
i started gettin so stressed...
and then i started hyperventalatin... ?.?
and then there wz like this full on panik attack...
at least i got betta...
but ye..

and then afta skool i practicalli burst in2 tearz...
2 much pressure i guess...
i mean i'm practicalli bz every aftanoon...
and i jus cant be stuffed wit hw ne morez...
coz it jus pile upz...
and i jus want some free time 2 mi self...
jus 2 maybe go outside for a walk or somethin..
itz jus 2 much stuffz goin on at tha same time
and i find that i end up jus practicalli fallin apart..

or it coulda jus been pms...
but i dunno...
itz jus 2 much pressure and expectationz..
no fun at all realli...
but i guess that for once i spoke openly 2 mi mum
since agez...
she 2 bz...
and ye...
afta her many suggestionz of me not eatin properly
or not sleepin rite..
but then...
how could that relate 2 me feelin like there are 2 much expectationz???
oh well..
ne waiz
afta heapza talkin...
finally made a conclusion of quittin tutorin...
YAY!!!!
i mean itz not like i need it that much...
so ye..
have 1 afternoon off now that aint weekend!!!
so happi!!

i wz gonna say happi b'day 2 scar...
but she wz complainin how i wz turnin in2 kat
so... no happi b'day 4 her..

watz happened tha last few daiz..?
doin role play election in class 4 s+e...
and tha votes are gonna be counted by tha electoral commision...
4 mi class i'm in tha national party...

well...
i g2g
mi dad brought pizza home
(damn gettin fatter and fatter every day...)
nite nite
*hugz

hmm...
i typed this realli long post but it accedentalli got deleted..
-_-"
oh well..

damn...
mum..
g2g
nite nite
*hugz

*sigh*
there are so many unanswered questions in tha world...

and yet so few answers....

y is mi sista so different 4m me? and yet so similar?
(damn i talkin bout mi sista again..)
i mean she's SO literate...
she takes thingz so literaly..
do i do that???
hmmm...
but on tha outside we're so similar...
i mean she's catchin up on me...
she's nearly tha same height...
and now there is only 1 SIZE DIFFERENCE between our shoe sizes...
(hmm did i say that last time????)
oh well...

y are pplz either so paranoid, obssessed and/or scared?!?!?!?
i mean mi uncle is obssessed bout cleanliness as well as bein paranoid bout bein robbed and stuff bein stolen... (well.. guess since he is a tour guide he prob had 2 many experience of bein robbed)
scar obssessed bout constipation atm... or so it seemz...
pplz have a word obssessions....
there is fear everywhere...
and there is stress..
and embarressment...
*sigh*
there are all these emotionz round...
everywhere different experiences...
but y?
pplz react differently in each situationz i noe that but y?
would it be part of their personality or would it be affected but past experiencez???
y do certain pplz make certain decisionz?

and wen parentz say itz 4 ure own good sometimez i wonder...
wat good???
are they bein ova protective?
or do they already noe tha possible resultz coz they've experienced it???

but then...
mi parentz jus have recently become paranoid bout tha net...
but then itz not like they use it that much...
could it be they forbid thingz coz they fear it or becoz they judge accordin 2 wat they noe or hear? or experiencez?

?.?

oh well...
some parentz explain...
othaz dont...
different pplz learn and teach in different waiz...
still i wonder...
y is there fear??
are we taught to fear or do we develop it???
y are we against some moralz???
are we taught 2 or do we decide such thingz???
are we different coz we have wat we think as an education which teachez wats 'rite'????
are we that gullible? do we take info that is given 2 us and jus believe it???

i mean in some countriez itz normal 4 violence and 2 kill anmialz etc..
but pplz ova here in our western society are different...
we are against cruety 2 animalz...
do we decide that ourselvez?...
or we are told that...??
there is violence against women also....
yet again...
if tha pplz who commit violence against women were educated against violence against women would they do wat they do now??? would it depend...
but then there is also hypocritz....
preach and dont act...
covered up truth...
nothin is known....

is ne thing permanent?
to us personally i guess there are memoriez...
memoriez of happiness...
but then that eventualli maybe forgotten...
or we may die...
but then wat of structures?
concrete thingz...
do they last?
or do they break down slowly???

wat of love?
would that last?
hmm... i dunno...
but then there are alwaiz obstaclez...
probz...
but would it last?
even if 1 of tha parnerz were dead?
would it continue?
is that perminant??
wat does last forever?
there is a balance i do believe...
would that mean that nothing lasts?
there is the construction and the equal distruction...
beginnin and end...
happiness and sadness...
all opposites...
are there oppositez 4 everythin in tha world? if there are are they equal???

there are upz and downz in life...
but are there timez wen there seemz to only be upz?
wen everything is good???
would that be followed by an equalli long time of bad thingz???
*sigh*

wat would happen wen tha world endz???
would it eva end???
how would it end???
by destruction... caused by humankind???
becoz of our stupidity????
our ignorance???
or a natural disaster????
how would i end???
of old age????
of sickness???
all by miself???
or die wit some1 like in a car crash????

deep thoughtz...
some questionz could be answered some wouldnt...
wz our world created by some super bein???
for in this world wen i dare to look around i see...
delicate patterns of work...
a rose for example...
so pretty..
yet...
has thorns...
smells so sweet...
but still there are the thorns...
painful...

and each other plant and animal...
so unique...
so special and different in their own way...
did some1 plan and design it all???
or was it all a product of evolution???
or maybe both???
were there realli iceagez???
were there actualli dinosaurz???
can science actualli support these theoriez?
wat about chem???
about atomic and valence structures?
all theoriez...
is there a truth out there???
how about another place where there is life???
wat will happen afta our time????

damn...
mi mum callin...
i g2g...
nite nite..
*hugz
(i guess this is the end of this post....)

hmm.. jus got bak 4m cadets...
i'm sorta considerin changin templates again..
but then tha 1 i decided 2 had 2 much blak
in mi opinion so i jus loaded tha pic jus like scar told me 2....
hmmm... got chinese 2moro...
i havent gone in like 3 weeks...
hope they aint angry...
but then i dont realli care...
i'm in tha 'adults' class and there's like 4 pplz...
and we had this class room but since tha numbers have grown in tha otha classes we've been kikd in2 tha meditation room...
-_-"
i mean realli.... there are not tables in there and all we get 2 sitt on is this hard coushion thingy...
no point realli...
mite as well sit and meditate...
but wit those seats there is no bakin so mi bak starts 2 ache...
-_-"
so bad...
oh well....
maybe i'll quit...
but not ne use coz mi mum and dad are gonna find some otha
skool which'll prob be twice as hard.. -_-"
...
hmm..
gettin late..
betta go...
nite nite
*hugz

today...
wat happen???
hmm... had skool...
then paul dillion came in as a guest speaker...
had voice lesson half way thru tha speech..

had guides 2 look afta...
they had international nite so i wz in trad chinese clothes...
2 piece this time... i wz in tah cheng sam last time...

oh well...
mum scoldin..
i g2g
nite nite
*hugz

IT

hmmm...
in IT now...
i should be workin on tha task of makin a website..
but i realli cant be stuffed..
its not like i'm that good...
and then i dont have ne interests in tha topics that wz given...
so i jus decided 2 do it on tha products we're makin 4 commerce...
but then i dont have picz of tha products...
so i'm jus spendin time sittin round in class...
oh well....

hopefulli i'll get picz of them soon...
if i can be stuffed... -_-"
and plus...
every1z doing webpages wit flash and me..
i'm jus sittin here wonderin how tha hell do i work flash...
i mean tha onli thing i noe how 2 do is jus make picz move...
so ye...
i mean tha teacha lookz at tha screen i've got...
and gives suggestions and i jus sit there goin 'wat tha???'
hmm...
enough of mi depressing life in IT...

yesterday...
had S+e and maths in tha morning...
then had recess... and then health... -_-" year... lunch and science and IT...
mi Major Chem Test is 2day...
i'm still wonderin whether or not i wanna do it...
i mean i can do it 2moro..
but then taht would have more time 2 study but then if i got a low mark 4 that that'd mean i'd have 2 spend a late nite up 2 do that assignment 2 hand in...
if i do it 2 day i'd have less time 2 prepare...
but then i'd have more time 2 do tha assignment if i did bad in tha test...
thing is if i do well in tha test i dont have 2 hand in tha assignment at all!!!!
oh well...
i'll prob do it 2day..

*sigh* i mean i look round tha class again and every1z (well mainly every1z)workin on their task and i'm jus sittin here stuffin round...
i worry that i mite not be able 2 hand it in coz i dont have photoshop or flash at home...
oh well..

20 mins till end of class...
-_-"

OMG...
ms samson wz jus standin behind me lookin at tha screenn....
and jus standing there staring...
-_-"
starin at wat i'd done...
a CRAP lil pic of this lil pom pom caterpilla on a pic of a garden... -_-"
and she's like wat does that do???
-_-"

oh well..
betta get some work done....
(if that is possible) or jus pretend again...
bye

s+e

so happi...
jus got mi geography comp bak!!!

in s+e now...
nothin 2 do...
i realli cant believe that i loved skool so much wen i wz lil...
strange thought...
now daiz its jus 2 much work...
oh well...
i may have been a strange child wen i wz lil..
but at least not as strange as mi lil sista..

i have maths next...
oh well...
ccgs vs mlc netball 2 day at lunch...
should i go watch???
i'm not realli sure...

damn... class finish
g2g
bye

skool

hmm...
garz i'm updatin now... happi??
hmm...
sortin thru quotes...
damn...
lost tha quotes on tha old comp.. -_-"
oh well...
now i gotta start collectin otha 1s again...

oh well...
i dunno wat 2 say realli...
nothin realli 2 talk bout...

i had skool 2 day... -_-"
had maths,
then commerce,
harp,
house acts,
french
and english...

practicalli died playin basketball... corinth players were SO competitive!!!
i mean there wz steppin on feet,
elbowing,
scratchin,
kikin,
even 1 trippin (poor bonnie)
but i hope they were accedental...
not intended...
oh well...
i g2g
(mums gettin pissed)
nite nite

youth group las nite and day out

hmm... didnt rite ne thin bout yesterday...
i'll rite bout it now...
i had choir in tha mornin
and then skool
then INSTEAD of cadets...
i stayed wit mi cousins 4 their music lesson
and then walked em 2 tha youth group...
i joined in since i not goin 2 cadets...
ate nachos there as well as icecream 4 dessert
(hmm i realli gwettin fat)

and then wen home...
slept

2day-
got up round 8:30
wen 2 tha shoppin centre place near tha ct...
dunno wat its called..
ne waiz went shoppin 4 bout 2 hours ....
bought a pair of boots (yay yay yay!!!!!!!)
amazingly lina's feet size have shot up!!!!
i mean atm mi shoe size is round between 7-8
and lina fit a size 7 shoe!!!
i mean there is a 4 yr difference..
and she's catchin up...
and then went home 2 let lina get changed...
sent lina 2 her friend's house so they could go watch hp3 at tha ace cinema...

then wen 2 tha movies wit gar, dia and mona...
i arrived earliest (for once)
and then dia...
then we bought tha tickets ( i bought 5)..
then mona arrived...

ate at han's cafe...
garz came...
told me that kat wznt comin...
so we had 1 extra ticket...
so we wondered round findin som1 2 sell it 2...
found this lil asian guy (i think he wz viet)
sold it 2 him...

and whist waitin 4 his dad 2 come and pay
we saw scott and a friend of his...
went in 2 tha cinema...
tried 2 find seats but tha onli ones left were at tha side at tha front..
so sorta an angled view...
scott and friend found where we were and sat next 2 dia...
we watched tha movie...
it wz alrite realli but then at least i read tha book..
it wz bit hard 2 understand...
coz i could jus barely rememeber it...
strangely i started 2 laugh during tha part where tha dementor enters tha carriage harry's sittin in on tha way 2 hogwarts... i wonder how that is funny???
but yes..
i started laughing and garz wz sittin next 2 me wonderin if i wz ok whist on her otha side mona wz bit freaked out... lolz

aftawards wen movie finished...
dia discovered that she'd lost her wallet...
she went bak 2 look but couldnt find it...
so we went 2 timezone 2 play a bit...
came across scott and friend again.. -_-"
played a few games (i played so bad maybe i shouldnt even try next time... that way i'd avoid embarressment)...
mona left first coz her mum wz goin
then garz went then dia and i went 2 tha ticket desk 2 say that she lost her wallet...
and some1 had found it!!!!
so ye..
she got it bak!! how lucky wz that???

ne waiz..
diaz mum sent me home (say thanx again 2 ure mum dia)
walked round vietnosh and spices..
walked between them.. 2 and 4m...
then went home..

and i jus ate pizza...
i realli gotta stop eatin so much junk food...
i mean 2 day i've eaten(outta junk food that is):
1 packet of chips
round bout (in total) 1/2pak of starburst lollies
1/4 of a pizza
1 chocky bar...
i gotta start eatin healthy and exercise!!!
i mean i gained 5kg!!!
oh well...
untill then i'll jus hope..
(but then that'll do nothing...)

well i g2g its gettin late...
nite nite
*hugz

french dinna

hmm...
jus bak 4m tha french dinna....
it wz quite good...
but then i did get a lil hyper...

wen i got bak 4m skool i had girl guides 2 help out wit...
they were havin patrol nite so they were doin stuff in their groups...
tha group i wz lookin afta played tha chocolate game and poison lolly... both including heapsa sugar... and i played as well so i realli gonna regret it.... -_-"

straight afta tha lollies and chocolate i had tha dinna 4 french..
we had 2 choose entre main and dessert...

i had grilled mussles for entre...
snapper wit white sauce 4 main...
and had parfait 4 dessert...
as well as 1 chocolate mousse (that contained alcohol)...

i also ate 1 snail....
it sorta tasted like cow's tongue....

tha parfait wz frozen yoghurt wit strawberry sauce and on tha side there wz like this sugar cube dipped in alcohol that wz set on fire... so cool!!!

but then mi uncle serves soup wit a fire ring round tha bowl so it wznt realli unusual....

and then i ate carmen's chocolate mousse (she didnt want it coz it had alcohol in it)...
and a bit of dia's lemon sorbet...
hmm... now i'm feelin a lil guilty bout eatin all that dessert...

oh well...
alreadi in mi stomach...
but then i did gain 5kgz ova tha 3 daiz i worked at burswood dome 4m all tha free/discounted food...
*shakes head*
i realli need 2 stop eatin so much sugary and fatty food...
oh well...

so ye...
accordin 2 dia i had gone a lil hyper...
musta been tha lollies AND chocolate AND soft drink...
oh well...

apparently i heard that hp3 has been all booked out till tuesday...
oh well...
we could see some otha movie...

hmm...
dunno wat 2 rite now...
b4 i logged on i had heaps of stuff i wz gonna rite down...
now i jus cant remember...
oh well...

again times fly by...
hours spent wit u...
so precious...
so dear...

ure here 4 me wen i need u...
but then ure gone again...
i noe that ure bz...
and u have no time 4 me...

but its all 4 mi good u say...
all 4 mi good...
alwaiz jus tha same...
i dont want tha money i want time wit u...

hmm.. i have no poetic skills... unlike mona..
but then i jus rote some random crap...
lemme guess scar's gonna be talkin bout it SO much wen she reads it...
oh well...

did u noe that tha word 'i' is tha most widely used word in tha world???
hmmm... so dull (since i cant use boring)...
nothin interesting...

i'm sorta half knittin half typin this....
its like tha 3rd time i'm knittin this scarf....
realli i gotta stop unrolling it...
hopefulli i aint gonna unravel it wen i finish...
i'm gonna knit a featha scarf next...
but till then i can onli hope i finish mi current 1...

and aaron how do me and mi friend seem vunerable and defenseless??? jus coz u percieve us this way doesnt mean that we are THAT vunerable...

well its gettin late...
i g2g
nite nite

last day of food and wine festival..

hmm...
last day 2 day...
got 2 burswood dome at bout 10:30..
sold tha food...
left at round 1:30 pm...

this time at least i ate a total of 1 pie... that wz it...
which wz good... less fat and less money used...

well... ye...
nothin much
g2g
nite nite

day 2 of food and wine festival...

started off at 11am this mornin...
nothin much happened realli...

added some new foods 4 sale...
we had tha spring rolls (fresh and fried) jus like yesterday and no scarlet they weren't left ovas they were new...
and we had those pork stikz...

round bout lunch time mi dad brought in a bbq... -_-"
he got it past all tha crowd...
and so we started selling bbq/grilled chicken...
but then we didnt have ne plastic sporks or ne thing... -_-"
so mi dad went bak 2 get em...

ugh... ate so much 2 day...
in total:
2 icecreams
3 pies
1 slice of pizza
1/4 glass of wine
1 fried vege spring roll

i cant remember if i ate ne thing else...
been such a long day...
but ne waiz...
wit all that food i realli will get REALLI FAT
and tha thing is i keep gettin tha icecream free!!

well ne waiz...
saw kat and her mum...
she wz all quiet and her mum did most of tha talkin...
we gave her a spring roll...
she ate it and on her way bak her mum gave us a tasting voucher..

we (mi sista and i) got bored so decided 2 go for a walk round tha expo...
came across this drunk dude... this is how convo went:

him: hi ladies...
me: er.. hi
him: had a drink yet lady?
me: no thanx
him: think ure 2 young eh?
me: ye...
him: ure neva 2 young
me and mi sista: no thanx *walk away as quick as possible*

gwad...
i mean how drunk do ppl get there??? at tha end of tha nite wen u walk round in tha car park u can hear glass smashin on tha ground coz ppl so drunk they dropp em...

hmm... wat else???

lina believes that she got hyper on an 1/8 th of a glass of wine... i highly doubt it coz aint alcohol a depressant????
and she keeps goin on about it... even at this instant...

hmm...
betta log off...gettin late...
nite nite

day 1 of food and wine expo

hmmm...
thanx 2 mi parents i have lost mi long weekend 2 workin...
oh well...
at least i'll see em a lil more often than usual...

well ne waiz... mi dad got told that there wz a stand area that wz free 4 tha food and wine expo on thurs nite and so he excepted it... that meant 0 time of preparation...
ne waiz... we got told yesterday that we'd be workin coz there'd be a lack of staff... so i had 2 give up mi long weekend 2 work there...

ne waiz...
got up bout 8:50...
got 2 burswood dome bout 10:30...
set up and stuff...
ppl started coming in2 tha expo round bout 2pm...
and and we jus stood there and let ppl taste sample spring rolls which were cut in2 portions of 3...
not much happened...
but then we sorta found ourselves each a job...
mi sista cuttin tha rolls up...
me jus standing there tellin ppl wat each roll wz and wat sauce each sauce wz...
and mai jus served ppl who wanted 2 buy stuff...

time passed...
i didnt eat ne thing 4 breaky so i went round 2 tha otha stalls 4 food...
did u noe tha entrance fee 4 tha place is like $18 per person??? ne waiz...
there were all these stalls wit delicious food...
i mean coz i got this name tag/badge 2 say that i wz part of tha staff of 1 of tha stalls ppl gave me some food 4 free...
and that worst thing wz that tha stands nearby had
pizza... ice cream and pies...
in tha space of 1 arvo i ate
2 icecreams...
1/2 a pizza...
1 pie...
and bout 50g of candied peanuts...
not good 4 mi weight... i mean by tha end of this i'll prob gain like 5 kgs...
oh well...

ne waiz... everything wz goin fine and then like this BITCH who had bought fresh spring rolls came bak and wz screamin at us saying that we didnt tell her tha food wz cold and that it tasted HORRIBLE...
i mean realli...
we had samples there 4 a reason...
-_-"
that BITCH... and she like stormed off....

nothing happened much afta that...
then wat i wz sayin started 2 get 2 me... i had repeated tha same words 2 many times i started 2 sorta hear em in mi head and i sorta got confused...

"this 1 is prawn (points at rolls wit prawn), chicken (points at rolls wit chicken) and this 1 vegetarian (points at vegetarian rolls)... and these 2 sauces are sweet and sour chilli and hoi sin sauce... tha red/orange 1 is sweet and sour chilli and tha brown 1 is hoi sin..."

ne waiz...
repeated miself tha whole arvo...
then bout 8pm ppl started gettin a lil 2 drunk...
i mean i got a lil freaked out...
there wz this drunk guy and when i wz standin infront of stall he asked me 2 walk closer... so cautiously i stepped ova... then he puts his hand on mi bak and tried 2 look down mi top -_-" whilst askin me questions...

him: hi
me: er... hi
him: how are u?
me: er... ok
him: how old are u?
me: 15
him: u look pretty hot for 15
me (thinkin): -_-" get away 4m me u freak!!!
and i walked as fast as i could bak 2 mi stall...

ne waiz...
that wznt tha onli example of ppl bein drunk...
i mean tha second main 1 wz round 9pm wen tha expo had finished...
me and mi grandpa were walkin bak 2 mi mum's car 2 take stuff home...
as we were loading tha stuff in2 tha boot...
this random jumps in2 tha boot and sits in there an calls for 1 of his friends 2 close tha boot 4 him coz he wz apparently gonna catch a ride wit us...

his friend comes a long (wit a glass of wine in hand btw) and asks me if i were married 2 mi grandpa... and i wz like: ?.? wat tha F***?!?!?!?!?!?!? and then he asked me if i wz korean and i wz like: what tha????? ne waiz... at least afta a while they left and i wz walkin bak 2 find mi mum and mi sista...

weird stuff alcohol can do 2 pplz minds eh???
i mean there wz even this breathaliser test near tha enterance i think... oh well... i jus hope tha next few daiz go ok unlike tha one 2 day...

on tha total amount of sales 2 day i'm SO disappointed... i mean ppl kept goin up and down tha aisle jus eatin tha samples instead of BLOODY buyin em 2 eat... i mean of tha 300 boxes we had bout 50 of them were actualli sold... tha majority of em were eaten by ppl walkin past repeatedly... i mean i even recognised this lady who ate at least 10 of em... oh well....

g2g if i gonna get up in time 4 work 2morro
-_-"
nite nite

hmm... jus got bak 4m cadets..
rainy nite... got all wet and tha hat started stinkin...
oh well...
at least i've changed so i dont stink...

well its late...
nite nite

y do ppl judge and compare so much???? i mean i noe that its like a human thing.... u do it sometimes witout noeing but y????

i mean 4 example i wz at tha resto this evening and mi dad came 2 tha bak 4 a rest and then we sat there and talked a lil and then here's a bitta our convo:

dad: r u doin exams atm?
me: no.... y?
dad: rn't u meant be in exams??? every1 is doing exams...
me:no its 4 yr 11s and 12s
dad:well rn't u in yr 11???
me: -_-" no i'm in yr 10
dad: oh.... but then apparently Callum is doing exams and he's in yr 10
me: well i go 2 mlc NOT ccgs.... -_-"
dad: u got ne awards yet?
me: no... :(
dad: well maybe u need more tutoring... because ....'s (i left this blank coz i dunno wat name in english) son jus got this scholarship / award thing.... y arnt u gettin ne??
me: -_-"


i mean realli....
how much do parents compare and judge so much??????
i mean i'm not saying that
i dont compare or judge ppl but still!!!!
but then is it coz they wanna show off and be proud?
or jus wanna noe that their child is excelling???

oh well... think 2 much and it gonna give me a head ache...

hmmm.... long weekend now....
wat gonna do???
dia, garz, kat and i are thinkin bout goin 4 a ride in kings park but then we havent been able 2 organise it yet -_-"
maybe it'll prob end up as one of those things that'll neva happen....

got cadets 2moro... should i go or not???
hmm... make up mi mind 2moro...
then i got chinese...
hmm... did i go last week???
i think i didnt... oh yes...
i remember i had tha parade....
i wonder if there wz ne hw...

do i go on tha net 2 often now daiz???
hmm... i mean i jus sit round chattin 2 ppl...
and distracted...
i wonder if i didnt have tha net if mi skool work would be betta???
but then that would meant that i wouldnt be able 2 reasearch off tha net cept at skool...

hmm... maybe i'll spend weekend knittin scarf... somethin 2 do at least...

well i g2g
nite nite

day out (at last...)

well got up at bout 10am this mornin
mum took us 2 tha temple out in nb 4 buddha's b'day
ate lunch... saw penny -_-"
went 2 anotha temple... wen i got there i wz shocked... there wz like no order... i mean there were ppl eatin everywhere!!! i mean on tha ground... standin up... even in cars i mean realli...
ne waiz yet AGAIN i saw PENNY!!! i mean realli... or it coulda jus been a coincedence...

and afta we went 2 tha ct... and then i sorta then realised 1 of tha reasons y i dont realli go shoppin much... (otha than tha reason of no time) usualli i dont realli have disagreements wit mi mum.... but then tha whole thing changes wen we go shopping... i mean in tha time span of 30mins mi mum gave me tha same lecture at least twice... and then we had an argument ova buyin a book which cost bout 10 bucks... i mean she wz sayin she wouldnt by fiction books 4 me coz they jus a waste of money... i mean realli... and when i wanna by a book that has some 'use' accordin 2 her ie maths books she would make me swear that i would use it b4 she would let me buy it... i mean realli... and then she jus goes on walkin leavin me there....ugh... betta stop ramblin on ure all gonna get bored...

oh well... i cnat think of ne thing else 2 say...
nite nite
bye

Wing parade

jus got bak 4m wing parade... i mean realli heads r gonna roll wen we get bak 2 cadets next fri..

i mean bout 10 turned up outta like 50 cadets... i mean there wz 1 ccpl, 2 lcdts (me and dia) and 7 cadets... i mean thats excluding tha cfsgt and higher... and then there were like all these country cadets... not that i'm sayin ne thing bad bout them....

i saw quite alot of ppl 4m mi GST camp... i mean wen i saw em i could jus recognise them but i doubt they could recognise me... either that or they couldnt remember mi name.... but then bak then most of mi flight wz country cadets so they're all like higher rank than me :( oh well... or maybe i wz jus 2 antisocial on that GST that no 1 remembered... oh well...

the actual parade wz quite ok... we had 2 rehersals then tha final thing... everything wz quite good except 4 that bloody asshole that had that stupid attitude prob... i mean wat wz rong wit him??? i mean by tha way his drill wz and tha way he acted he doesnt even deserve his bloody rank!!! and then on top of that i doubt he noe a there is a thing called deoderant that exists... he stunk like hell.... if i were his DI i would so kik his ass 4 how he acted!!! but then i aint.... stupid f****** ass hole!!!! i mean even 1 of our induction cadets at the moment noe how 2 keep in step, how 2 pay attention and obey commands and they noe that wen ure at tha attention position or tha at ease u cant move, ure meant 2 keep ure mouth shut and ure eyes should be facing tha front.... he wz a bloody LCDT and he wz talkin, he couldnt keep in step, he wz bloody movin in tha attention AND at ease, his eyes kept wondering everywhere, and on top of all that he had an attidute prob which all lead 2 him bein totally unaware of his suroundings... and because of his bloody ignorance he stuffed up tha dressing of our whole entire flight... well mainly mi file that is -_-"

ne waiz.... we finished an hour early so waited 4 our parents 2 come.... mrs punselie and mi mum came at tha same time... and then wen we drove off our cars were like parallel 4 a while... it seemed so funny... i mean i shoulda asked dia 2 car pool wit me... that way we woundnt have 2 cars heading in tha same direction....

oh well...

had cadets last nite as well... wen i went home i had pain runnin straight down mi left side... i had a painfull knee since fieldcraft camp wen i smashed it on a rock... i mean it doesnt hurt usualli unless i do 2 much drill and mi left shoulder wz hurtin coz of tha weight of tha file in mi bag... 2 heavy...
and so afta tha wing parade most of this morning i now have a bloody knee which kills weneva i walk... hmm... maybe i shouldnta gone 2 tha wing parade... oh well... i feel so proud coz i survived a major event... since i didnt last nite coz i had tha rong uniform on coz i wz uninformed.... both of them included tha group captain...

hmmm.... come 2 think of it mi blog posts have sorta gotten longer ova time... i mean wen i started bloggin at first i didnt realli say much or noe wat 2 say realli so ye i think i've improved...
oh well...
g2g
bye

hmmm... so bored... this is mi last lesson 2 do mi english thing... *sigh*
i realli cant be stuffed....
we're doin this thing where we have 2 chose a line 4m tha Shakespearian play Much Ado About Nothing and visualli interpret it in with another meanin...
i jus realli cant be stuffed....

its jus 2 sickenin 2 go and look 4 tha pictures coz like some realli disgusting 1s come up... i mean not sick but jus realli sad coz of those poor children who were hurt by war and every thing and i jus look at that picture i jus wanna look away... jus pretend that it doesnt happen but then i have 2 face that fact that it is happening and even if they r jus pictures i have 2 be able 2 get mi work done... *sigh* i mean how poor and sad???
*sigh* i wish i could like help them or something but jus lookin at tha pictures makes me wanna close tha window...oh well... facts of life... for when there is wealthy there are alwaiz tha poor 2 balance it out... i mean if the world wz equal financially i doubt i'd be at this skool... but then mi parents do do alot of donations.... and its so scary that tha fact that there are many countries out there which have suffering... i mean i look around me at the moment... mi life and every thing i see is every1 has at least some form of wealth, and are happy in some way even if they do have problems on their minds and have at least enough 2 eat at least 3 meals a day... and there are ppl out there who are starving... and the fact that we ourselves who have a computer which access to the internet at our age is a minority compared 2 tha ppl in tha world realli scares me... well i guess i'll jus have 2 become more and more aware... but then i did noe bout it wen i wz lil but i guess u noe it but u dont realli think bout it...

oh well...

i'm in tha comp room in sumner... it so strange 2 be using the old comps again... i mean its so different...time changes so quick!!! i mean i can still remember life bak in primary skool!!

ugh... i need 2 learn how 2 keep mi mouth shut sometimes... ppl have like conversations and wen they talk 2 loud it jus seems like their talkin 2 me... i have 2 try 2 stop miself 4m replyin wen they ask otha ppl not me...

hmm... have wing parade 2moro mornin... damn... have 2 get up early again... and got exam 4 cadets 2 nite... -_-"

class fini now... betta go 2 pe
bye

kz... jus got bak 4m tha amnesty meetin down at aquinas...
garz u didnt miss out on much... but then it wz so funny... and sad... -_-"

i mean mi mum picked us up 4m skool and sent us 2 aquinas... nm happened... had a nice chat in tha car... lolz... and then arrived at aquinas... guided by guys 2 tha formation centre... sat down and watched video bout 3 refugee's experiences... then we actualli talked 2 one of tha gals that were on tha tape... it wz filmed last yr and we met tha gal now... so different... but she so shy... i feel so sorry for her i mean she went thru so much and for me so easy... oh how ppl take things 4 granted...but then i sometimes am 1 of those ppl...
then 5 min break... then amnesty lady talk 2 us...

then some guy... then we have break 2 'socialise' jus b4 we went home... but funnily dia,mona, sarah, bec and i jus took some fruit, a can of coke and jus walked off 2 talk between ourselves... then sadly went hyper on only 1 can of coke... lolz... wat is rong wit me??? i laughed so much that coke ended up comin outta mi nose...
ewwww!! so gross...

but then ye... ppl jus looked at us whilst we talked at us and laughed and seemed so weird... i mean we were talkin bout tha slogan 4 Harvey Fresh orange juice... Lolz... i realli cant get ova that or tha slogan 4 Schwepps Sarsparrila... how sad... thing is we were so loud!!!!

then wz sent home by dia'z mum... dia say thanx 2 her 4m me again!!!

well i betta go do mi hw
bye

hmmm... had chinese skool 2day...
life is so dull...

dia u missed out on alot wen u didnt come last nite... u betta come next week or they not gonna be happi... coz tha high rank ppl 4m eastern states are comin ova 2 our sqn... eg. air commodore... air vice marshal... commander of aafc... eh..
cant remember ne more... ne waiz wat time ure rowing regatta finish?? coz u might jus be able 2 go but then i doubt u come... ne waiz tha main changes are

*that there are now onli 2 lectures a fri... we have an exam 4 air rec next week (i think)...

*4m now on if we wanna move durin drill have 2 breakstep 1st... umm...

*we have survival camp on tha 11-13 of june (i think *again*)... er...

*cfsgt crossi (i think thats how u spell it) taped ppls arms down coz they were swingin em wen they were doin bout turns... so funni but then how sad would it be if it were me???... wait... that aint a change... well main point need 2 improve drill...

*ure emailz thingy 4 tha cadetnet thingy is stuffed up... u noe how ure service number goes cf***** well ures on tha login thing wz set rong so its like cm***** lol... ures wz set as a male's...

well i g2g
tell u rest later... if i remember them...

scinece

hmmm... in science now...
i'm meant 2 be workin on mi task 4 tha properties on different types of substances but tha comp i'm on cant read tha pendrive i have so i thought i might as well find somethin 2 rite bout... ugh... guess i'll have 2 have alot of hw 2 nite...

hmm... jus had mi voice lesson b4 and apparentli i've like hurt tha vocal chords or something like that (according 2 mi voice teacha) so i'm not allowed 2 talk 4 bout 4days or until it recovers... this is gonna be quite hard... not being allowed 2 talk... but then... do i talk heaps??? at least i've got tha weekend... but i've got a college choir rehersal 2 moro morining... -_-" oh and tha choral list thingys are gonna be up 2morro morinin... i doubt i got in...

well i g2g
bye

nu cousin

dia - tha thing 4 tha wing trophy is on tha 29th of may!!! plz check ure diary 2 see if u can come??? plz come!!! damn... its eitha ure rowing regatta or this... plz come along... but then no pressure ure choice on wat ure priority committments are... oh well... ure choice i have no comment...


:)
so happi... well kinda...
last nite anotha baby wz born... anotha cousin of mine!!!
hmmm... but then realli... i'm gettin 2 many cousins... so far at least 25 on both sides... wait lemme check...

1.. 2.. 3... ugh... 27 cousins and 1 'so called' nephew or second cousin... and then cousins of cousins i have bout... umm...i onli noe of like 5... but then thats onli tha cousins of one of mi cousins... -_-"
i mean how far could mi family extend 2 if i counted all mi second cousins???

well ne waiz... yesteday spent period 4 and 5 down at tha electoral commission for an S+E excursion... been there done that so it wz a bit of a bore... jus sat down in this 'theatrette' and watched this screen where there wz this wax/plastic figure had a projector on it talk bout election time... i mean it actualli looked real... and ye... there were emotions and everything but then it wz no suprise 2 me coz i went there in yr 5 -_-" five years ago and i still remembered wat wz gonna happen... and then afta that there wz some otha room we went 2 where we had 2 vote 4 our favourite fast food...sorta an election thingy and they had like all tha voting screens and stuff... it wz outta pizza, hungry jacks, KFC and Maccas... and hungry jacks won by 1 vote... to pizza...

had a dental appointment 2day... mi teeth hurt now... :( in gr8 pain... its as if i jus had mi braces tightened cept its jus tha retainer been taken in a bit... :(

hmm... wat i got 2 morro??? damn maths ingvestagation...
well i gonna go now... (teeth hurt 2 much...)
nite nitez

survey fiingo

Found this on a forward e-mailz... hmm... mite as well do it since i barely eva do em...

[x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x]

What's your name? = Adela
Birthplace = perth
DOB = 15 Feb
Age = 15
Age you act = hmm... ne 1 care 2 answer this 4 me???
Current location = mi room... mi house...
Eye color = dark brown
Hair color = black
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? = Ritey
Zodiac sign? = Aquarius
Height? = bout 1.6 metre something???

[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]

Your hair = Straight black... quite long...
Your fears = hmm... heights... but strangely low heights... eg tha bridge ova stirling hwy
ur perfect room = hmmm... i think i'm happi wit mi room atm but if it were cleaner... iguess i'll have 2 work on that...
What you practically do in a day = Wake up, (choir on fri), skool, some avo thing (either piano, guitar, helping out at that guides thing or cadets) go home, net, sleep

[x] Part 3 --What is/are... [x]

Words you overuse = umm i dunn realli noe...
Phrases you overuse = cant think of ne... i noe i cant be stuffed....
Your first thought when you wake up = 'plz not skool again?!?!?!'
Your greatest accomplishment =nothing... -_-"
Something you want to do = finish skool asap... but then i got uni.... -_-"

[x] Part 4 --This or that [x]

Pepsi or Coke = coke!!!!!!!
McDonald's or Burger Kings = neither...
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera = prob Christina if i had 2 make a choice...but then again... neither...
Chocolate or vanilla = Chocolate!!!!
adidas or Nike = dunno....
Black or white = umm... black???
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) = Bills... iguess they are lighter 2 carry round...
Burgers or hot dogs = Hot dogs... wait... no... y do i have 2 remmeber things??? agghh jus remembered *angel incedent...* agghh wat is rong wit me???
Egypt or France = France... neva been 2 Egypt...
Rock or rap = prob rock...

[x] Part 5 --Do you...[x]

Smoke = nope... i h8 it
Cuss = wat this???
Sing well = ask mr gallo maybe??? or some music teacher???
sing in the shower = once in a while...
Talk to yourself --a lot-- = hmm.... some times depends on how i feel...
Believe in yourself = wat u mean by htat???
Like taking these longass surveys? = i usualli cant be stuffed fillin em in... jus delete em most of tha time...
Play an instrument = er... do i have 2 answer this??? oh well... might as well... piano, guitar(relearning now...) harp at skool, voice at skool... well those r tha current ones i guess... i used 2 play trombone, recorder, tha flute thing i have... well thats all i remember atm...
Want to go to college? = do u mean uni??? answer is prob yes ne waiz...
Want to get married? = guess so...
Want to have children? = maybe but then there is tha responsiblities and time needed... dunno yet...
Think you're a health freak? = definately not in mi opinion...
Get along with your parents = hmm... how would i put this... i do wat they say... and i have no voice in this topic...
Get along with your siblings? = practically... but then mi sista is a brat...
Think you're popular = highly doubt it...

[x] Part 6 --In the past month have you..[x]

Gone out of state = nope
Eaten an entire box of oreos = nope but prob an equivalent of a box in some otha type of junk food...
Been on stage = hmmm... jus yesterday...
Gone skinny dipping = lol nope
Been dumped = neva had tha chance of this... havent gone out wit ne1 yet..
Dyed your hair = nope... parents wont let me... but then not that interested...
Stolen anything = nope... y would i????

[x] Part 7 --The Last... [x]

Last dream = i cant remember... :(
Last nightmare = wen i wz lil...
Car ride = this evening 4m Mrs Tan's...
Last time you cried = yet again cant remember... but a few months ago i think...
Last movie seen = finding nemo... hehe
Last book read = Earthsea Quartet....
Last word said = Lina...
Last phone call = last nite wen i wz talkiin 2 mi cousin???
Last song you listened to = black betty... it on tha radio...
Last annoyance = ppl at mi chinese skool and performance??
IM = umm... cant remmeber... i thiink it wz bonnie...
Last person you hugged = Jade this arvo
Last person you yelled at = Mi sista...
Last time you wore a skirt = 2day
Last time you've been evil = I'm evil?!?!Sarcastic? = wat u think???
Last time you fought with your parents = not many fights between mi parents and i....
Last time you wished upon a star = i havent been outside 4 a while... :(
Played Truth or Dare = few months ago wen aaron dared me... but i didnt accept...

bout tha last post... thing is that minh saw me... he had a camera and he works 4 mi dad... mi dad'll probly want a copy and then i'll neva hear the end of mi performance... it wz jus meant 2 be dance... ova...4get bout it...

and ontop of that that vice-principal guy who alwaiz gives those long talks wz there wz wit a camera 2... next thing is he'll prob either put it on tha chinese skool site or play it next sat...

oh i'm gonna die of embarresment...

-_-"

total embarressment

ugh.... wat is rong wit me???
i mean i practicalli have no life... and then on top of that its not like i have heaps of friends... i do wateva i'm told 2 do... which isnt actualli that bad but then sometimes it jus gets 2 bad but i still do it... i mean i h8 performing yet i do it coz i'm forced i mean i coulda skipped it... but no i did it ne waiz....

so far i've had a gr8 weekend...
first it wz tha camp...
it wz pretty good actualli...
but then there some realli crap things...
first wz tha fact that tha tent i brought onli had 1 door...
i mean i thought it had 2 but then it onli had 1 and so dia and i had 2 share enterances... got realli annoyin...

then they started a fire and we sorta sat round it
but then coz we had a fire they had 2 set up a pickering rotations... we were then scheduled 4 our pickering time straight afta they told us tha dropbear legend... -_-"
which meant that every pair of buddies had 2 get up at sometime of the nite 2 watch tha fire and make sure that it dont go out...

i went bak 2 mi tent and tried 2 sleep 2 find that i forgot 2 bring a sleeping mat so i had nuts and sticks and stuff pokin mi bak... i tried 2 sleep but it got colder and colder... it wz like 1 degree celcius there... so bloody cold... and then when tha 1am shift of ppl went out 2 picker they started like this congregation and started talking and screaming... and since our tent wz nearby tha officers' tent i could hear tha officers' talking all nite... then shift afta shift they had huge groups talking and shouting so 4m 1pm onwards i wz kept awake...

and then wen it wz 4:30 it wz dia and mi shift so i didnt realli sleep well and then coz of tha cold we had a bit of trouble gettin outta tent... i put on mi thermals, a jumper, mi top and then otha coat on top.... so we were sorta late 4 our shift... so by tha time we started it wz bout 4:45... half our shift had gone by...

15 mins later we woke segeant foote and townshend up 4 their shift and stayed up eating melted marshmellows.. and stayed up tha rest of tha morning...

so yesterday we had breaky... but found that i had 4gotten 2 bring eating utensils so had 2 use tha box of cereal 2 drink milk and eat cereal... and for tha hot part of tha breakfast we got a plate, fork and knife but tha thing wz that we had 2 eat wit tha same plastic stuff all through camp so we couldnt throw it out coz apparently there wznt enough 2 go round... and straight afta breaky we were forced 2 put vegemite behind our ears coz of the
dropbear legend... yuk...

each section wz given a flag and a bunny 2 hold and we were meant 2 get otha pplz flags and bunnies... dia wz given tha bunny and i wz given tha flag... we then walked off 2 have lectures on fieldcraft... got campaint smeared all ova our faces... we then played a game where we had 2 hide in tha bush whilst othas tried 2 find me...

we then had lunch which wz sandwichs... yuk... i kept holding tha flag and dia held tha bunny... and ppl started trying 2 pull it off me whist i wz eating... even whilst i wz makin mi sandwich some1 tried 2 pull it and away flew mi lunch -_-" but at least they didnt steal it... but then i lost it to townshend coz i trusted her coz she said she wouldnt steal it... i guess it wz bit hard 2 trust her afta that 4 flight thingies....

we then had a field ex where we had 2get otha pplz flags (capture tha flag) and we were split up in2 the attack and defence groups...

dia and i were defence... we were using radios 2 keep in contact wit ppl... and so we jus sat in tha middle of no where and jus sat and looked afta our flag... we got so bored we started whistling 2 tha birds... not that it wznt fun sitting by ourselves but ova time it got boring... and then afta a while our radio's batteries ran out... so we were sorta stuck...
and wit tha little bitta electricity we had left in tha batteries
we sent a msg 2 tha FSGT and continued whistling 2 tha birds....
and in order 4 them 2 find us wen our batteries were nil we had 2 shout... and we were like "hello??? ne body out there???"
and then they finalli came... both tha FSGT and CSGT... and our base camp wz moved...

at the end of tha game 2 ppl ended up lost.... wat had happened was they split up with the group with the radio coz each group wz meant 2 have a radio... plus they were heading bak 2 where we were but we had moved....so they lost... but they ended up bak at tha camp site later on but they got so told off...

we played spotlight and i didnt get ne where near tha spotlight but then it rained so bak 2 tha tent... afta tha rained slowed down a bit we went 2 CSGT foote and townshend's tent and played bullshit/cheat and spit... then went bak 2 tent and had tha best sleep... straight 2 tha mornin.... and then wz pack up and get ready 2 leave... and the last activities were tha blind fold 1 of trust where i followed a string... thing wz it wz smeared wit vegemite, honey and all these otha stuffs... ew!!!!!!!!

and i left early coz of tha performance... i wz so proud of mi mum and mi sista!!!!! they found their way thru tha bush 2 pick me up!!!!!!!!!

so had tha performance... OMG SO BAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i stuffed up!!!!!!!!!! and like there were all these ppl i knew there... and some i didnt see on stage but bumped in2 later... OMG!! well ye... did a dance wit lina called 'IT' and then as a group sang 'not me, not i' by delta goodrem and 'remember' by S.H.E.

but tha thing is afta tha performance there were like all these ppl came up 4 congrats and i wz like standing there...:'( and mi mum wz like lets go and like i had 2 keep walking and then we kept walkin past like those ppl but then i couldnt realli talk 2 them coz i had 2 listen 2 mi mum and tha thing wz it wznt that i didnt noe that ppl but then i didnt noe them that well... and it wz like this gap...

i mean i saw... Minh, Aunty Samantha, Mi grandparents(who werent told bout it... but some how found out.. -_-"), Amy, Jason, Felicia, Andy, and OMG Chi Chi (AHHHH!!!)

i mean wit chi chi she wz like hi!!! and i wz like can we go in this direction QUICK!!!!!!! and then she saw me and like pulled me 2wards her son again.... -_-" i repeat y cant he get a life and find himself a gf???? i mean sooner that happens tha happier i'll be... and then she goes "look how tall she's grown... oh ure so talented... will u come home wit me???.... ure hair is so beautiful wat conditioner and shampoo u use???... have u had a hair cut??... (me:no not yet) well next time u get ure hair cut make sure u leave a lock of hair and give it 2 me ok??? (me [thinking]: wat tha hell do u want wit mi hair???)" and then she introduced me 2 her mum -_-" and i'm like hmm.... can i leave??
and so i walked off....

whoa... long post...
well
g2g
nite nite