ugh...
feel so bad...
i jus got bak 4m swimmin at beatty park....
*sigh*
now mi eyez have gone fuzzie..
i can bearly see...
i think there wz 2 much chlorine in tha water....
and plus on top of that mi sinuses are blocked
and i'm developin a headache...
god i feel sick...

omg i've had such a bad day...
i mean i wz practicalli fine until english...
i wz sittin there...
and then got so bored...
i started thinkin bout watz comin up and everythin as well as mi life atm...
then i thought bout how much time i've got...
and then slowly it jus got 2 much 4 me...
i dunno...
i started gettin so stressed...
and then i started hyperventalatin... ?.?
and then there wz like this full on panik attack...
at least i got betta...
but ye..

and then afta skool i practicalli burst in2 tearz...
2 much pressure i guess...
i mean i'm practicalli bz every aftanoon...
and i jus cant be stuffed wit hw ne morez...
coz it jus pile upz...
and i jus want some free time 2 mi self...
jus 2 maybe go outside for a walk or somethin..
itz jus 2 much stuffz goin on at tha same time
and i find that i end up jus practicalli fallin apart..

or it coulda jus been pms...
but i dunno...
itz jus 2 much pressure and expectationz..
no fun at all realli...
but i guess that for once i spoke openly 2 mi mum
since agez...
she 2 bz...
and ye...
afta her many suggestionz of me not eatin properly
or not sleepin rite..
but then...
how could that relate 2 me feelin like there are 2 much expectationz???
oh well..
ne waiz
afta heapza talkin...
finally made a conclusion of quittin tutorin...
YAY!!!!
i mean itz not like i need it that much...
so ye..
have 1 afternoon off now that aint weekend!!!
so happi!!

i wz gonna say happi b'day 2 scar...
but she wz complainin how i wz turnin in2 kat
so... no happi b'day 4 her..

watz happened tha last few daiz..?
doin role play election in class 4 s+e...
and tha votes are gonna be counted by tha electoral commision...
4 mi class i'm in tha national party...

well...
i g2g
mi dad brought pizza home
(damn gettin fatter and fatter every day...)
nite nite
*hugz