Lost In The Melody

you know.
as time passes im slowly beginning to
learn to enjoy those buddhist talks
i guess wit the upcoming end to them
its sorta a might as well hear the rest
whilst i have a chance since the ven.
travelled so far to talk her talk

but its also the content of it
(and i think the point i was meant to make
from the other day's ramble
on my anth assign mark was related
to whether its the appearances
that define us
which would be the intro n conc of my essay
or the actual content in the body part of the essay
that the person inside that counts
tho it sorta seems obvious the answer)

but anyways
the content of her talks
really are resonating with me
could also be the fact that i gotta recap it
on sats at the start that makes me pay more attention
but anyways

i guess the main thing i've learnt
is this more angled perspective to things
or at least i had at the time of hearing it
not quite sure if its always applied
if i havent yet gained a whole new perspective i guess
sometimes swapping between views
it just throws your thoughts right outta balance
i guess from thinking one way one moment
to the next
its just the constant change

constant change
mm paradoxal but makes sense
of the consistency of change
and when it stops.
what is there left but the constant?
constants
i like constants
but without the change
how would the constant come to be?
a constant
always there
would it not be taken for granted?
and so a value of it would not be placed
until you realise that change arrived
to yet again take it away
but to have change all the time
fluctuating
there is no certainty
but in the lack of certainty
and predictability
there would be no excitement
no spontaneity

makes me think of music really
you hold a note, or silence
and it goes on
but then it changes
playing on and on and on
not that ive thought of anything
to write about with this
just came to me just then
but bleh

getting late
and im still sick-ish
on the road to recovery
*hugs*
nite nite
-Del