Emotional Survey..

Hmm.. found this quite appropriate..
Survey I stole off Kura's blog who stole it off Al's blog

EMOTION SURVEY

1. what do you do when you're really mad?
Keep it in usually..
if not.. then vent in some way or the other..
but usually keep it in.. goes away soon enough

2. what's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?
Can't really remember..
tho i think i threw a hissyfit at my sister sometime last yr..
and scared teh shit out of her ^^"

3. ever hurt someone verbally when you're mad?
my sister when i threw that pissed of agro fit?

4. ever hurt someone physically when you're mad?
not anything that caused any extreme bodily harm ^^"
tho really i rarely take things out on ppl..
unless they seriously deserve it..
or im jus prejudiced *cough*

5. do you curse when you're mad?
at times.. not always...

Crying Section

1. last time you cried your heart out?
sometime last yr most likely..

2. ever cried yourself to sleep?
Yeah it happens..

3. ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
Nope.. when i really get that emotional..
usually not really anyone round for a shoulder to cry on..

4. ever cry when you get an injury?
Yeah when i was lil...

5. do certain songs make you cry?
Definately some songs definately evoke V strong emotions..
some songs can make me cry..
but really depends on the memories linked to the song
AND the emotional stability at that time..

Pain Section

1. what's the worst thing you've done to somebody else?
Something that happened recently..
of which some ppl know of..
and seriously im scared..
its such a small thing..
its not entirely my fault but then again..
theres that whole guilt..
where yes i contributed to it..
WHY should i have to care?
i dont understand..
thats the real confusion..
the self-centred side says why should i fucking give a bloody damn...
but then sympathetical side just bloody feels guilt.
that its ALL my fault but its NOT entirely my fault
AGGGHHH BLOODY PROBLEM ISSUE THAT FUCKING BUGS ME
and if you do know bout this issue..
and wanna comment..
plz request just to email me..
and not cast it into the open..
i dont want to go thru explainations over it and dig it all up

2. how depressed can you get?
quite a lot..
put in the right surroundings guilt and being alone
can drive the mind into hard thinkign depression
-.-"
damn..
*must think happy thoughts.. think happy thoughts*

Happy Section
1. are you normally a happy person?
Yeah sure..
a few yrs back..
minus the complaints..
wasnt that long ago ^^"
but genuinely..
i can be happy..
just when i can cast aside the imperfections of life..
and concentrate on the present

2. what can make you happy?
Just being around ppl in general...
well that is..
being round ppl i know well
and just having a general talk is all i need ^^

3. do you wish you were happier?
Well being happier really depends on ure self doesnt it?
so in general..
wishing can come true..
Just have to put in the effort..
so i think you should rephrase the q and be
"do you WANT to be happier?"
yeah i'd like to be..
jus need to out and bout bit more..
and ill be happy as larry..
how ever happy that is :S

4. what about being with your friends makes you happy?
DEFINATLEY !!

Love Section

1. have you ever loved someone so much, that you'd die for them?
Not likely.. not atm at least..
and coming from an attitude that says..
i dun need boyfriends..
highly unlikely

2. what happend to number two! ? ! XD
huh? what type of q is this?

3.have you loved someone so much,it made you cry?
not quite sure bout this q..
doesnt really make sense to me..

4.has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' to you?
Nope...

Hate Section

1. have you ever been on a hate list?
could be.. no idea really..
and i doubt anyone other than elle has admitted to me they HAVE a hate list

2. have you ever hated any one that broke your heart?
Truthfully...
i have liked and possibly loved but no one has broken my heart..
well maybe my sister :P

Self-Esteem Section

1. is your self-esteem extremely low?
not extremely.. but it has its downward dips..

2.do you believe in yourself?
not really.. sorta lacking in the motivation dept..

3.when people say they think you are good looking/pretty, do you deny you are?
i dunno..
really depends who says it..
like i said before..
strangely i can accept such a compliment from an elderly person..
but not from anyone else really..
like ppl my mum's age may say it..
and i just say thanx...
but my peers say it and i totally deny.. :S

4. are you one of those idiots that think they are ugly, dumb, and fat?
no i dun think im TOTALLY ugly dumb and fat..
but im still imperfect..
i still manage to do completely STUPID things..
and i am slightly on the chubby side :P

5. ever wanted to kill yourself cuz you thought you weren't good enough?
how can you ever be good enough for anything?
i mean this world is filled with imperfections..
so why should you ureself be a discount and be utterly perfect???
its impossible..
and seriously
i hate those simple cowards who turn to death..
as a simple outlet..
there are ppl out there dying everyday..
wishing they had just one more day of their life..
where as there many teens jus committing suicide..
not taking a slight thought to the value of their own life..
where later on in their life they could make a change in the world..
and if not..
it would just be brave to go on in consideration of their loved ones..
just to strive on for the sake of their loved ones..

and yeah you can argue they may not have any loved ones
who care for em any more..
but is it still not being a cowardice..
just the fact taht they dotn have anyone who loves them..
arent they still taking a cowardice route..
escaping in the easiest way they think possible?

6.are you happy with who you are?
-no comment- in general..
tho i thank god and my parents for everything i have ^^

who i am..
i really am yet to decide if im happy over..