TALK

GOD i serioulsy need some1 2 talk 2...
i mean ive nearly done everythin..
talked 2 scar..
but she went off coz shez either goin home or doin hw..
every1 else is offline doin hw..
maybe i should be 2 but i cant stand it...

tried studyin but sick of it..

wz gonna talk bout some stuff but since ive finished studyin and its quite late..
next time..
-.-" delayed 3rd time already..
ne waiz
nite nite
*hugz*

suicide...

well as every1 noes...
councilors and some teachaz noe bout blogs now...
and im sorta annoyed at how i took it off
then havin tha skool find some blogs a few daiz afta i took it off...
hope they havent seen mine....

ne waiz...
somethin i didnt mention on mi last post..
on sun...
well i dun think i mentioned it..
wz tha sad news taht trent martins committed suicide...
(AAFC person taht quit last yr)
dunno y he did it tho i noe he hung himself...
it wz such a shock 2 me...

i mean these things u hear of in tha community..
but u dun think it would happen 2 ne 1 u noe of...
its jus so sad..
i mean y would ppl do taht?
they've got their whole lives ahead of em...

and i mean i jus recently found out of anotha person i noe...
(she shall remain unnamed tho dia noes who)
she wz slashing her wrists...
and now apparently shez on 2 drugs...
its jus so scary..
it neva dawned on me that such things happend so close round me..
like tha whole reality of it..
and u think y do ppl do it?
what do they gain..?
wen theyve got their whole lives ahead..
as bad as tha start may seem...

and then 2day i wz at tha petrol station wit mi mum...
and i saw this lady..
and 4m wat i saw she wz disadvantaged...
(she had arms that were onli 1/3 of tha length of an arm of an average person)
not that she had a disability...
jus disadvanataged..
and she wz jus goin about jus like ne normal person...
fillin petrol in2 tank and everyhtin..
and it made me thought...
if this lady could get thru life..
and she looked pretty well off..
like nice car.. nice clothes and everythin...
(tho i shouldnt be judgin ppl by tha way they look)
but she looked like she wz managin thru life fine...
but Y would ppl wanna commit suicide or hurt themselves?
y would they want to cause such damage..?

i mean wouldnt committin tha suicide be takin tah easy way out of pain?
nothin but pure cowardice?
but if u dared 2 face it thru and jus tackled each thing...
and even TALKED 2 ppl more..
but then hey im makin a judgment again on ppl since i dunno wat that pain would be like... but im jus sayin...
like u jus leave ure family there grievin 4 u?

ne waiz..
gettin late
nite nite
*hugz*

quizzez...

4m email..

---------HaVe U eVeR---------
1. Been so drunk you blacked? Nope
2. Missed school coz it was raining? Not yet... tho good idea...
3. Put a body part on fire for amusement: O.O im not that much of a pyromaniac..
4. Been hurt emotionally: yes.. number of times..
5. Kept a secret from everyone: -.-" wat u think?
6. Had an imaginary friend: Lol... i did once.. but onli made her up coz every1 else had 1 and i sorta felt left out coz ppl were all playin wit their imaginary friends..
7.Cried during a Movie: So many ive lost count...
8. Had a crush on a teacher: UM... EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
9. Ever thought an animated character was hot? nope
10.had homosexual fantasies? ? ER how bout NO?
11. Been on stage: YES.. but onli forced in2 it and HATED it
12. Cut your own hair? neva tried... afta all if u stuff up ull have 2 live wit it a while.. betta not risk it..

-------------FaVoUrItEs-------------
13. colour[s]: Blu!!!! tho pink is ok...
16. Day/Night: Both :S like day 4 seein ppl.. but more awake at nite...
17. Summer/Winter: SUMMER!! :D but not wen itz 2 hot...
18. Lace or satin: SATIN!! hate lace...
19. Fave cartoon Character: dun have 1...
20. Fave Food: chocolate... pastas... lollies...
21. Fave Advert: I dont realli watch TV
22. Fave Movie: well mainly 4m tha genre of comedy and/or romance
23. Fave Ice Cream: Vanilla or choc
24. Fave Subject: atm its re and h bio
25. Fave 'normal' Drink(s): Water ^^
26. Fave Person to talk to: I like 2 listen... and i love 2 talk 2 ppl.. but i mean i enjoy discussin diff subjects wit diff ppl... so dun exactly have a "FAVE"

------------Right now--------------
27. Wearing: Pink Spag top & Jeans
28. Hair is: Long and straight and part in tha middle
29. I'm feeling: tired... but wanna talk 2 some1... how come wen therez no1 round i feel like talkin sometimes?
30. Eating: air? no not eatin ne thin..
31. Drinking: Water
32. Thinking about: Skool.. hw... mi sad existance
33. listening to: Naughty Girl - Beyonce :P

----------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------
34. Cried: nope
35. Worn a skirt: skool uniform? more of a dress actualli
36. Met someone new: nope... wait that ladies who did tha soup patrol talk... tho not exactly meet them.. more of they talk i listen...
37. Cleaned your room: Yes.. tho attempt bout as unsuccessful as usual...
38. Done laundry : Yah....
39. Drove a car: Not licensed yet...

--------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN------------------
40. Yourself: sometimes...
41. Your friends: ...? wat u mean by that?
42. Santa Claus: *cries* santa 4got me last yr.. no prezzie... well i dun exactly care so... yah...
43. Tooth Fairy: i got 10 bux wen i wz lil 4m mi parents.... and got mi teeth bak :S so it sorta defeated tha idea of tha tooth fairy story...
44. Destiny/Fate: yah... tho i think it can be affected by what we choose 2 do
45. Angels: Bound 2 be some... i mean on earth i guess u can call em ure friends ^^
46. Ghosts: well we all like 2 believe that our deceased loved ones are alwaiz wit us.. and that they noe wat we're doin... as well as tha ppl we noe... that they go on 2 a next life or realm...
47. UFO : somethin that flies that we dunno wat it is ? :S

friendster bulletin...

1) brand of ur hand phone?
nokia
2) wat'l u do if u see ur gf/bf hugging a girl?
(presumin i have a bf...)ask em watz up and whether or not they value tha relationship we're in coz if not im goin...
3) do you live alone?
no wit parents..
4) hav ur own room?
yah
5) fav pet ?
Annabel ^^
6) 1 thing u cant live w/o?
well THING... um... food...?
7) where do u live?
perth..
8) wat wud u do if sumone tells u he/she likes u?
dunno... neva thought bout it...
9) how are you feelin n0w?
tired... betta sleep soon...
10) where do you hangout?
at home? i guess that is sorta sad... but thatz where i spend most of mi time...
11)what are you good at?
nothing?
12) what is it bout a person you cant stand?
cant think of a person i cant stand atm...
13) what do you want?
a simple happy modest life...?
14) a word that describes you?
me in 1 word? thatz hard... um... apathetic like gar suggested last time??
15) what is ur dream?
2 jus have a good life? nothin that i would regret... tho then again therez things i already regret... *sigh*
16) day/nite?
i liek em both
17) sunset/sunrise?
sunset
18) like a romantic bf/gf?
yes *sigh*
19) what is it about the opposite gender that attracts you?
umm.. next q...?
20) are you an independent person?
not realli...
21)do you like school?
otha than tha studyin bit yes
22) are you stubborn?
i think im passive.. not realli sure
23) believe in God?
sorta...
24)ur favourite sport?
i LOVE most sports ^^ but im REALLI bad at em... -.-"
25) believe in fate?
yes... tho i think that fate can be altered by our actions...
26) get pissed off easily?
on some topics yes....
27) love ur parents?
YES
28) r u a materialistic person?
id like 2 believe taht im not but i prob am...
29) believe in love?
yes but tehn not meant 2 be thinkin bout that now... need 2 study...
even tho im distracted by this...
30) will u get a tattoo?
no dun think ne time soon or eva...
31)smoke?
DEFINATELY NOT
32) club / pub?
neither... i still value mi time at home..
33) wil u forgive ur bf if he cheats on u?
well dun have a bf so dunno if i would... i guess sorta depends on tha person and how i feel at that time...
34)will u expect ur bf to forgive u?
depends on tha matter and type of person...
35) were u on a trip recently?
well america wz quite recent.. tho not THAT recent... but id still call a trip ^^
36)fave country?
Australia... but im bein bit biased...
37) r u impatient?
can be..
39) do u organise parties often
nope not at all... AND im crap at organisin stuff in tha first place...
40)do u hav good friends?
yup ^^ no doubt
41) do u think u r good-looking?
ok.. ne waiz conclusion im not TOTALLI FUGLY or repulsive... tho i wz bak wen i wz younger *shrudderz*
42) do u care about looks?
sometimes... tho i try not 2 judge ppl and i dun realli care bout how ppl look... but i do care if i look like a pain 2 tah eye...
43) do you think that you're a good gf?
um.. neva tried bein 1... so dunno.. and if i did have 1... ask mi bf they'd noe.. not me...
45) do you quarrel with people easily?
depends on tha topic...
46) are you forgiving?
depends on the reason y im annoyed at em... tho ive noticed i get ova somethins surprisinly quickly...
47) do you get hurt easily?
again depends on y... and wat u mean by hurt... as in emotionalli or physicalli.. i do get a lot of injuries and hurt emotionalli..? well depends on how seriously u took somethin and if in a relationship circumstance how much heart u put in..
48) do you prefer gurl wit long/short hair?
umm... wat happened 2 not judgin looks?
49) do u prefer guys wid long/short hair?
ditto bout above... tho sadly i do prefer a guy wit shorter hair than long hair...
50) is ur hair colored?
no jus plain black... tho have some sunstreaks but they're not intentional...
51) are you a romantic partner?
no idea...
52) do you wear a watch??
sometimes.. wen i remember 2 put it on...
53) what kind of clothes do you wear?
...?
54) will you chose love or money?
love ;)
55) do you prefer sleep or eat?
sleep !!!!
56) white or black?
Both.. tho not grey ewwwwww
57) pink or red
pink
58) hate anyone?
try not 2 but some ppl jus plain annoy me...
59) HurT any one?
dun think i have intentionalli... tho i prob have somewhere along tha way of mi life...
60) haTe mosT in Class?
i like most classes.. all cept gnt and ic... hmmm maybe thatz y im failin em...?
61) wHat do yoU think about this?
i wz bored... wat else is there 2 do?

IGSSA

notha week past..
notha w/e worth of sleep ins lost =.=
SO tired..
and apparently mr g want me 2 play in tha orchestra 2moro..
SO doomed
cant play tha piece yet >.<
and dun realli wanna carry a harp round on a mon mornin..
PLUS got physics test 2moro mornin first period..

last week..
had harmony day..
tha assembly wz quite good ^^
i liked watchin it tho tha essays were quite borin..
but good 2 have free dress..
tho i like uniforms coz that way therez less pressure 2 wear somethin nice..
or in fashion...
and there wouldnt be horrible barings of flesh...
but then i still hate our uniforms...
GREEN! ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

IGSSA swimming carnival..
well we all noe we came 2nd...
2 penrhos ...
found out that a girl at mi chinese skool goes 2 st marys...
scar came ova afta skool coz then she wouldnt have 2 stay at skool by her self...
went out 2 vn 4 dinner...
started eatin like 5:15 which wz wen we were meant 2 be at skool..
so called up late..
and said we'd meet up at beatty park
wen we got there it wz jus me scar and bec suinerine (how eva spell)
and teachers came...
teacha student ratio ws 2:1 -.-"
wit mr lee and some otha teachas..
then tah ppl on tha bus came...

sat at tha bak of tha stands..
saw arnina...
lol bak row of azns... funny..
ne waiz i found it unfair how mrs gibson made some of tha yr 11s sit at tha front..
and tha yr8s at tha bak...
i mean WAT THA?
and then we were told that we werent allowed stand up coz ppl cant see...
well then y not put tha yr 8 at tha front...?
then they could see and we could stand up and cheer ^^
well scream in mi case...
and high voice by end of nite...
oh and it went bak 2 normal at 12 that nite...

sat..
early mornin chinese skool...
barely past written test 70%...
then spent tha arvo teachin some ppl how 2 dance "IT"
(its tha name of tha dance btw)
gay dance that i wz forced performed last yr...
and 1 that im forced 2 teach this yr..
and doin a diff dance next week..
but im not gonna be there..
i wonder wat its gonna be like..
hopefully better...
coz have 2 choose 1 of tha 2 for performance...

sat evenin..
dia came ova..
tehn went 2 nellie owen and katies bday party..
spent tha whole nite in tah pool..
played 2 games of table tennis..
and truth or dare...
and truthfully there were some interestin dares...
*wink*
and no i didnt do ne of hta dares..
i prefer truth ^^

and 2day..
woke up early..
went wit mi mum swapmeet marketin AGAIN..
and wit mrs tan again...
this time not much buyin of stuff..
then went 2 lunch at some viet resto in mirrabooka
that 1 of tha ladies that works in tha shop recommended...
i guess tha food wz ok..
tho i got sick of it b4 i wz finished..
like u jus had so much that u dun feel like eatin it ne more..
even tho ure still hungry?
heapza either viet or azn ppl in there...
but majority viet obviously...
and like 1 oz guy wit 2 azn ppl...
and went home afta...

and that wz mi w/e..
nothin interestin..
tbo lots 2 rite bout...
hmmm..

ne waiz late...
and im REALLI SLEEPY
nite nite
*hugz*

long w/e

long w/e..
and every1s either got a good life and is havin fun..
or doin their hw.. so doesnt seem 2 be ne 1 online :(
oh well..
but then that is tha sad thing...
tha fact that im online as per usual...
*sigh*

well had dinner on thur nite..
maxy, sheila, yee lian, gar, dia and kat came
and kat, gar and dia slept ova...
and no mona no pix
got 3 hours sleep..
then went 2 tha ct tha next day..
met up wit scar..
walked round...
spent less than an hour in nb...
i found that i quite like taht new game in timezone billy bowl...
but then im so crap at it..
scar and i played in timezone
whilst kat, gar and dia stood round and watched..
AGAIN

update later..
tired now..
nite nite
*hugz*

past week

yayyyyyyyyyy
i dun have 2 take mi physics text book home no more ^^
ive loaded it on 2 tha comp
and no i didtn scan it in2 tha comp...

ne waiz.. random topic of discussion 2day :

we neva want wat we have?

we neva want wat we have...?
and yet wen we lose it then its value suddenly seems so high...
y do we take so many things 4 granted?
i guess i live in 2 much of a wealthy world..
i remember wen i wz lil..
stuff i wanted wz neva allowed coz we didnt have tha money 4 it..
and then therez tha thing were u alwaiz chase afta wat u dun have..
(wait i feel like ive talked bout this b4...)

and i guess sometimes i jus want some1 hug...
and jus feel like i dun need 2 be rushed 2 do 1 thing or another..
2 forget everythin thatz happenin and get lost in time...
*sigh*
(amd this 1 2... oh dun i love 2 repeat miself...?)

and also its been like a week since i last posted...
highlights - tha whole steve thing...
where he wz made redundant due 2 tha skool makin a contract wit some caterin company..
and so tha skool dun hav 2 run both tha dinin hall and tha canteen...
and then students were protestin..
apparently there wz free cake bein given out 2 ppl on tha recess by him on fri...

my grandpa went home...
well its not a highlight its more like a lowlight (if therez such a word)
but i mean its an event 2 talk bout..
an tha nite b4 he left he sorta gave me this lecture on how i cant date till im 25.. and then i can meet guys..
if i realli like 1 i take him home 2 meet tha parents..
and then i can date em..
and i can onli have 1 or 2 bf
then like wen im 28 i marry em
so.. i guess thats sorta mi love life sorted out..
otha than tha guy...

and tha combined skool disco last nite..
it wz ok..
it wz in tha st hildas underground carpark..
quite nice..
tho i sorta broke my bracelet nooooooooooooo
but i sorta fixed it again afta it wz trampled by ppl
coz there wz 2many ppl

it wz sorta a disco/family event..
like outside tha underground carpark on tha oval they had like bouncy castle
and mad cow (i wan anotha go!!!)
and tha disco thing had like half hour sessions...
and we met scarz st hilda friend who she met on tha bus and engineerin camp..
i think?

i hurt all ova now... x.x
my shoulders hurt.. my neck hurt.. my legs hurt.. my arms dun realli hurt...
but ne waiz point is im SO unfit...
AND i havent done so much movement in AGES...

ive gotten mi IC, chem and physics tests bak..
chem i did pretty well im happy coz i fall in between tah grades of a or b..
but IC and physics i barely scraped a pass >.<
must STUDY

4 cadets ive learnt that not realli enough lecturer's available..
so we're gonna do IT AND SURVIVAL ADVANCED 2getha..
which means ill have 2 lecture >.<
oh well
at least i have tha notes 2 it and it'll be practise 4 SNCO, WOFF skool AND CUO course...
and there aint that many ppl in advanced ne waiz so good good

um...
its sorta gettin late so im gonna go sleep...
afta all ive missed out on 3 w/e's worth of sleep ins =o=
nite nite
*hugz*

week long post

well bak 4m choral camp...
and and bout a week (or 2..?) since i last updated...

well it wz mi bday on tha swimmin carnival...
nothin much..
EXTREMELY hot..
tho thank god no work 2 do..
i substituted 4 eve..
coz dia didnt wanna swim and she wz in tha event..
so i jus participated 2 support her..
and so i came last in tha 50m breastroke...
and then came last in tha noodle relay...
and also i had 4gotten mi towel that day
-.-"
but thankfully 4 mona who lent me herz

then tha rest of tha week sorta past...
and had choral camp..
i guess it wz quite alrite..
there wz jade, kathleen, nithya (yay i think i spelt her name rite 4 once on tha first try !!!) an alison..
well there wz also liz, nelly, bec, sarah, helen and tegan
but they were sorta a group of their own...

jade helen and sarah left early..
and 4 tha first time we actualli got thru 3.8 songs in tha 1 camp..
then apparently u could hear mi voice ovall at tha concert ?.?
and there wz onli 2 sop 1s..

ova tha last 3 or so weeks...
ive grown 2 dislike tha blonde techdesk lady more and more...
(i think ive already told some ppl bout this)
i mean 1 fri aftanoon...
it wz round 4..
and tha RC closes at 4 rite?
well instead of jus tellin us that it wz 4 and that we needed 2 go..
she goes and saiz "dont ne of u have ne homes 2 go bak 2?"
in this haughty tone..
i mean dun need 2 be that harsh..
and then..
there wz this arvo where her son wz doin hw in tha RC...
surrounded by these girls..
and they were jus casualli talkin and then tha lady comes along...
grabs her son by tha neck..
and drags him 2 tha next area...
and he falls off tha chair and she KEEPS draggin him..
i mean how MEAN is that?
oh well
shouldnt talk bout other pplz bzness...

eva felt like uve done somethin rong 2 make some1 angry at u?
i dunno y i feel liek that somtimes...
like some ppl seem pissed off at me..
and i jus cant help but wonder wat did rong..
oh well

and eva felt like sayin somethin 2 some1 but just dunno how 2 start?
or that ppl r talk bout u..?
and yet wen u notice they try 2 change subject?
*sigh*

or i could jus be ova reactin 2 everythin..

hmmm...

im realli gettin worried bout mi sista..
and i seriously dunno wat 2 do bout her..
i mean its either me or she suddenly seems OVA self absorbed and materialistic...
AND obssesses bout teachas???
and LOVES showin off wat she owns..

like she took 50 pix of herself coz she wz "bored" !?!?!??!
hallo she wz sittin in a car...

and she takes camera 2 skool and takes pix of TEACHAS!?!?!?!?
and drew pix of her teacha
and WONT STOP TALKIN bout her teacha
and tells me bout HER teacha this and that...
and took pix of her teachaz PASSPORT pic
AND her teacha repeatedly..

AND she takes pix of her DEODERANT!?!?!?!?!?
and her teddy..

i think its either she loves takin pix or she loves her camera 2 much...
but then she doesnt CARE 4 tha camera..
2 her its like wateva
i guess thats her attitude 2 most of her possessions..
coz like tha fact that she believes that dad will buy her a new 1 if it stuffs up..
and yet ppl wonder y we go thru so many items so quickly?
well mi sista doeznt botha carin and let things drop and fall and throw...
and wen i ask her 2 care 4 things i feel SO long winded...

and again im repeatin mi self -.-"

i guess mi sista is mi fave subject coz ive got so much 2 complain bout her lol

well...
happy cny 2 every1..

>.<
i have 5 hours of chem catch up 2 do..
PLUS GnT >.<
oh well..
break 4 now..

tha otha day wen i went 4 tha cosultation wit tha facial/oral surgeon guy...
i wz sittin in tha waitin room..
and i picked up this magazine..
jus flickin thru..
then came across this REALLI disturbin article..

it wz bout parricide..
(tha murder of a mother father or CLOSE relative)
i mean so scary..
and tha article wz mainly focusing on this case of this azn dude..
he wz 19..
and he had a sista who wz 13 (i think...?)
apparently tha family wz quite wealthy..
and afta all this careful plannin he murderd his parents and sista..
i mean how scary..?

and apparently annualli this happens on an average of 12 times..
which is 1 case per month..
and jus imagine it..
some1 u LIVE with could be plottin URE death..

and accordingly tha ppl dun have ne mental issues..
they jus are realli distanced and detached..
and seem 2 show little feeling..

but this azn son jus murdered them..
and pretended like it wz a surprise 2 him for months b4 ppl found out..
and he wz in full mournin and stuff...

and tha most hauntin thing in tha article is that there wz anotha case..
of some white guy...
he murdered his sista mother and lil bro..
coz tha parents WOULDNT LET HIM DRIVE THA FAMILY CAR!!!!
i mean WAT THA?!?!?!?
could DRIVIN A CAR
be worth MORE than ure family's lives!?!?!?!?!?!?
jus tha thought of it makes mi skin crawl...

uh oh..
gettin late..
g2g
nite nite
*hugz*

first week of skool...

first week of skoolz finished..
have had most of mi subjects..
and am quite happy..
tho it seemz like hterez heapz of hw..
but its not realli that much..
or it could jus be me...
used 2 gettin away witout doin tha hw..

i wonder..
y do ppl ask "did u miss me?"
i mean wat do they wanna noe?
that we ourselves are lackin such a life
that we're missin em and thinkin of em 24/7?
or that we're so head ova heels that we cant think of ne thin but em?
or wat do they mean by tha actual "MISS"?
yet wen i say i DUN miss em..
they either say im heartless or im lyin....
so wat u want?
an actual lie?
or r u so up of ure self
that ure convincin ure self that im lyin 2 u?
oh well...

ne waiz gettin late...
and mi new yrz resolution wz 2 be asleep by 10 everynite
oh well i broke it...
nite nite
*hugz*

day 3 of skool

3rd day of skool now...
tha teachas i got are ok..
tho not completely happi tho i cant complain
coz some ppl didnt get ne thin they wanted...
turns out that scar chewy and i arent in tha same classes...
oh well
so much 4 hopin 4 tha best..

u noe i wz thinkin 2day...
and i thought...
if ms silberstein say therez tha placebo effect (dunno how 2 spell)
where tha person's heart rate speeds up due 2 tha person thinkin bout it...
and gettin excited therefore increasin tha heart rate...
could some1 by that way convince themselves that they liek some 1?
i mean u could get confused...?
between ure heart rate increasin coz u like that person..
or coz u try and NOTICE whether or not ure heart rate increases..
and there by increasin it?
confusin :S

i realised tha otha day wen i went shopping wit mi mum...
wat i wear is realli gettin more daring...
if u noe wat i mean..?
but them again im not tha 1 doin most of tha choosin..
oh well...

i wonder soemtimes...
how can some ppl go on in their lives not affected by tha way otha ppl talk..?
i mean i can take some..
but i mean i have mi limits...
yet some ppl jus go on by..
or they jus turn it in2 some form of compliment...

g2g
nite nite
*hugz*

BAD DAY

addin 2 tha post on wed...
aust day..
i wz gonna rite more but mi dad wz REALLI annoyed

bein patriotic on aust day is all fine..
but do ppl have 2 turn tha NATIONAL FLAG in2 ITEMS OF CLOTHING?
personalli i find it sorta a form of disrespect
i mean it is tha national flag..
it represents australia..
and ppl turn it in2 clothing..
and jus SIT on it...
*shakez head*

i had tha WORST DAY 2day..
well mi sistaz friend wz goin 2 adventure world
wit friends and family of friends..
and invited her and me..
(plus tha fact that mi mum MADE me go
coz she wz scared taht lina would get lost)
not that i didnt wanna go 2 adventure world
ive neva been..
tho goin wit mi sista and her friends
didnt realli make it seem so appealing as it coulda
but i guess im grateful that they invited me

ne waiz...
all wz goin fine..
then i wz swimmin in tha pool wit this lil girl
who wz tha sista of mi sista's friend's brother's friend
ne waiz
we were swimming..
then she came up and headbutted me in tha jaw..
and since it wz so near mi ear i sorta lost part of mi hearing -.-"
and cos of her age and height...
i missed out on ridin most of tha rides..
coz apparently she wz mi responsibility since i wz tha oldest...
-.-"

tho i did end up ridin tha rampage
and wz scared tha hell outta me...
coz i had jus got outta tha pool b4 i wz still drippin wet...
so wen it wz goin...
i wz slippin and fallin outta tha seat..
and then wen i fell forwards i dunno..
maybe i wz 2 heavy or somethin..
tha safety bar thingy moved forward
and it so freaked me out that i wz gonna fall out...

and then round 2 mi sistaz friend got lost...
so spent tha rest of tha time lookin 4 her..
then i wz late 4 work..
but then turned out that she wz waitin 4 us..
coz she thought we were gonna go on that ride..
but in tha end gave up on waitin in tha line..
and didnt noe that she wz waitin 4 us coz
she had said that she wz gonna go on some ride..
-.-"

so i wz late 4 work...
and mi parents werent home..
i had 2 ask mi sistaz friends mum 2 drop me off at mi house
so i could 2 grab mi clothes 4m mi home
and change at tha resto..
and ended up gettin 2 tha resto
in mi bathers hair out and jus a sarong on
-.-"

and not good since andrew wz workin...
im not sure if i rote bout it..
i jus found out that 1 of tha waiters at mi resto
wz discussin wit his cousin
(whos tha bf of 1 of tha shop's employees who i noe
realli well)
how id react if he (tha waiter) grabbed mi ass
-.-"
and then 2day since i went 2 adventure world..
i got this sunburn (4 tha first time)
on mi face..
and apparently it looked like a blush that wouldnt go away
-.-"
plus plus plus is not good...

and then...
afta i had changed..
i worked tha resto...
i SMASHED 3 glasses..
broke 1 tall glass..
took a menu 2 tha kitchen..
instead of sayin "sorry 2nite tha kitchen is bz"
said "sorry 2nite tha kitchen is bitchin"
cut mi finger...
and a load of otha stuff..
tho cbb mentionin..
plus im sorta runnin outta time..
parents say have 2 turn off SOON

ummm...
went out wit mi sista gar dia and kevin yesterday..
soz scar didnt invite u coz we knew ure still grounded...
originalli it wz gonna be jus me and gar..
but then dia finished her bridgin course jus in time
and wz notified on V LATE notice (15 mins b4 movie start)
we watched alfie..
1 of tha most borin movies...
well in mi opinion tho gar mite have found it interestin
due 2 jude law..
there realli wz no plot 2 tha movie...
tho kevin and lina sittin 2 getha wz a highlite enough
lol

then we ate at sizzlers..
kev and lina sat next 2 each otha again
and played in timezone
well more of me lina and kev played..

and then every1 went home..
and me lina and mum went shopping in westfield..
then bak 2 work that evenin 4 me..

sometimes i wonder..
do i take most things in life 2 seriously..?
like i take jokes 2 seriously..
and i take wat ppl say 2 seriously..

ugh..
g2g
maybe continue thinkin aloud later on...
well not exactly aloud but in written form?
nite nite
*hugz*

aust day

aust day 2day..

stayed at home..
no work coz tha resto wz closed...
tho we ended up goin 2 watch tha fire works..
tho mi dad came late coz he had 2 go buy some stuff...

we arrived at 7..
and sat 4 an hour waitin 4 tha fireworks 2 start..
and while i wz sittin there near tha footpath..
this guy walked past im not sure if he wz sober or drunk
but u noe wat he said?
"its australia day NOT chinese"
i mean im jus slightly offended
but if he wz drunk i guess it wz jus ok..
maybe he didnt noe wat he wz talkin bout in tah first place...
tho if he wz sober...
id be a lil annoyed..
but mostly id sorta pity him
i mean if he realli meant it that way..
i realli feel sorry 4 him
that he didnt think
of tha fact that HE himself ISNT australian...
i mean wat do u have 2 be 2 be considered australian..?
otha than bein borne here wat could he say..?
he WZNT an aboriginal so he cant say his family wz here all along..
so he would jus be as australian as i am..
cept a diff country bakground
ignorant git...

ok
feel much betta
um....
nite nite
*hugz*

annoyed...

dunno..
im not excited that i have 2 go bak 2 skool soon
yet its not like im dreading it...
jus numbness if thats how u can sorta explain it
not realli ne feelin bout it

-.-"
SO annoyed atm..
and some ppl arent helpin at all
bad day of work..
and then ppl who r jus curious..
or love 2 use msn 7 and keep usin tha nudge...
so wen im typin stuff in tagboards
or 4 a post i keep gettin interrupted..
and i think its also how some ppl affect me..
or tha point that i cant stay annoyed at ne 1 4 longer than 20 mins...
or its jus me annoyed at me...
or i could jus conclude pms

ne waiz..
2day...
therez a week left till skool
and how easy is it 2 regret stuff?

and i seriously dunno wat 2 do wit mi sister...
jus tha otha day i caught her tellin some random
which suburb we live in -.-"
or maybe im jus bein paranoid..
oh well
i jus keep tellin her and tellin her..
and now i keep feelin like me mum
i even sound like her sometimes >.<

ne waiz
late
nite nite
*hugz*

Money

money...
*sigh*

i realised recently how much i talk bout it
>.<
and how realli it seems important 2 me i guess...
or not.. ?.?
like how ppl say time is money...
time can sometimes be worth more than money
and with time you can get money..
u could work hard and earn it in time
or win it but all in a matter of time..
but u cant buy time wit money
>.<

i seem 2 waste so much time
and mi parents spend so much of their time 2 get money
and i guess i help 2
but wat 2 do wit so much money..?
u convert such precious time
jus 2 get money
but wat is it worth in tha end?
is that y i keep tryin not 2 spend money...?
i mean i keep talkin bout how little i bought somethin 4
is that y it seems so important 2 me that i save money..?
that its jus time spent converting it 2 money in tha first place..?

its like i wanna get all that time bak..
so i try 2 save money..?
or ...
*sigh*
oh well

time thatz gone cant be retrieved...
yet haunting memories of what was done and wat wznt..
all that could have been changed..
if i had acted differently at that time
and each replay shows a different possibility
a different me..
a different change...
a different ending...
a different everything...
if onli i had done this..
or if onli i hadnt done that..
a variety of wat could have been
yet can no longer be
*sigh*

and then i get flooded with tha empty hollowness...
of great guilt..
like therez no point doin ne thin..
if ure gonna regret it later..
yet i dun think of how by not doin ne thin ill end up regrettin
and i jus seem 2 drift thru time..
second by second..
minute by minute..
hour by hour..
(u prob get tha idea by now)
day by day...
week by week...
yr by yr...
*sigh*

well late
g2g
nite nite
*hugz*

y..?

y cant i keep my ... mouth shut?
but then sometimes y cant i tell tha WHOLE truth?
ugh
alwaiz talk in tha rong situations..
maybe i could jus put it as a late new yr's resolution
attempt not 2 speak wen i shouldnt

well last nite wz last nite of freedom..
got work later on..
*sigh*
oh well
but bak 2 talkin 2 more ppl i guess
not that its a bad thing
but then i dun realli like some pplz
plus tha potential of seein some 1 i used 2 noe

well g2g..
finish later

----------------------------------------------
bak 4m resto...

i SERIOUSLY cant teach
ugh..
2 new ppl 2day...
talk bout short of staff atm..
but i guess thatz y we got new ppl in...
seems so awkward..
i mean im used 2 workin wit certain ppl
or i start 2 get used 2 talkin 2 em
but new ppl harder
oh well

i dunno y
i seem 2 jus ignore ppl
wen i first meet em or like not talk much
not more tahn i have 2..
sorta like an uneasiness
i guess its jus easier 2 distance ure self
but then 2 some ppl
i jus meet em and i cant stop talkin
so weird
oh well

nite nite
*hugz*

daiz

well last few days nothin much happening..
well nothin worth ritin bout..
but ill jus rite tha gist..
went 2 sizzler again
but this time wit grandparents..
played at timezone
exchanged tickets 4 a basketball..

and 2day jus went 2 south perth riverside...
me and mi sista rollerbladin
and mi parents ridin..
and then went 2 kings park 4 a ride
then jus a drive round tha ct..

nothin 2 talk bout...
well hope every1z enjoyin their holz
and hope 2 talk 2 u soon

death

*sigh*
wat has this world come 2..?
i mean wit tha whole tsunami incedent..
and then i read in tha paper this arvo..
apparently pplz have gone 2 tah extremes...
stealing jewlery off tha dead corpses...
or cuttin body parts off other ppl 2 get jewelery..

and then dead pplz bodies bein stolen..
so that tha relatives have 2 pay money bak 2 give them a burial..
i mean pplz lost EVERYTHIN in tha disaster..
and now jus 2 give their beloved some nice burial..
they have 2 PAY 2 get tha body bak..!?!?!?

but then y botha ramblin..?
jus read it outta tha paper..
and waste of post realli
and time...

ne waiz
nite nite
*hugz*

well few more hours and new yr..
and i havent realli written in a while...

i spent boxing day evenin lookin at xmas lightin at pplz houses..
then tah next nite i went 2 ms maud's wit mi grandparents 4 a dinner buffet..
tried oysters 4 tha first time...
28th - went 2 garden city 4 shoppin... didnt find a single thing... went 2 sizzlers in innaloo and watched meet the fockers
29th - went wit mi dad to do deliveries to some pizza place in applecross and then ate pizza near tha foreshore somewhere in applecross and rented out movies
30th - went shopping for books with mi piano teacha
(weird huh? well mi mum arranged it) then watched movies at nite
tonite - went 2 cott beach and sat round... ate pizza then went home.. watched movies..

and thats mi last few days and 2nite..
nothin much happenin..
but at least im spendin more time than usual wit mi dad...

g2g
nite nite
*hugz*

yet anotha xmas

merry xmas every1!!

okz its xmas...
and outside it wz 35 degrees 2day..
and it even rained..

well recount on mi xmas 4 this yr...

last nite (xmas eve)
had xmas dinner at mi grandparents house..
wit all tha family..
except some who couldnt come...
we ended up comin 2 and a half hours late...
but at least we arrived b4 ne 1 had left...
which wz good

um..
then we decided 2 go and see some of tha xmas lightin..
tha 1z tha were in tha paper..
ne waiz..
by tha time we got there
(1 of tha randomly picked addresses 4m tha paper)
we were disappointed 2 see they were already off..
(but then it wz 12 am)
and then wen i finalli got 2 sleep..
wz 2 am ...
got woken up at 5:30 am this mornin by mi sista..
(who stayed awake all thru tha nite)
we went 2 tha beach
came home...
had a nice undisturbed sleep again
then went rollerbladin at tha foreshore..
whilst mi parents were ridin bikes..
and then went 2 kings park..
and just had pizza 4 dinner..
all in all it wz nice 2 have a day off..
and time wit tha family...

well i g2g
nite nite
*hugz*

ugh...
jus got bak 4m work...
and i dunno...
in some random mood that is half way between stressed and pissed off...
tho i think afta a while it should disappear...
so this post mainly a pissed off ramble so dun read if u dun wanna noe..

but itz jus work realli i think..
work at tha resto...
tha western pplz who come in and eat...
wen we set tha tables
we give em a fork a spoon and a set of chopsticks and a serviette..
tha fork and spoon are there 4 a reason..
wen they order ne dish but they DUN noe how 2 use chopsticks..
tha fork and spoon are provided 4 em
coz we not expectin em 2 noe how 2 use tha chopsticks...
BUT some pplz jus 2 sure of themselvez..
and decide 2 use chopsticks 2 eat tha rice..
WHICH is served on a PLATE
so they end up gettin tha rice ALL OVER tha table
and fine if u clean it up ureself...
BUT NO most of em jus leave it there
and we do clean up tha dishes and that afta them..
but wit tah rice all ova tha table itz MORE work !!
not that THAT lazy..
BUT it getz annoyin wen tha WHOLE RESTO is bz..
and therez pplz comin in non stop..
and then havin 2 clean up rice and stuff wen pplz are waitin..
itz jus hard 2 do wit all tha pplz...

AND THEN...
therez tha whole thing where pplz..
OUR RESTO is a SMALL area...
we have VERI LITTLE space...
so PLZ MOVE wen we TRY 2 walk past...
WE ARE NOT ALL STICK THIN

AND THEN...
therez tha whole starin thing happenin again..
this time...
it wz afta i lifted anotha 2 chairs...
i mean WAT is rong wit me bein able 2 lift chairs ova mi head..?
tha customers give me lookz as if ive grown 3 heads or somethin -.-"
and then therez all those whispers i hear...

AND THEN...
whilst i wz liftin a chair..
nearli speared chichi wit a chair leg..
she came racing in ...
and she touched mi bak ..
and i got so freaked out that i nearly speared her wit tha chair leg...

and 2 day i saw this guy...
OMFG he wz SO bloody TALL..
i mean i wz wearin heels..
but he HAD 2 be at least 1 metre taller than me..
i swear..
and he wz round mi height wen he sat down
-.-"
iznt it nice 2 be reminded that ure short..?

ugh..
gettin late..
finish ritin later...
nite nite
*hugz*