Money

money...
*sigh*

i realised recently how much i talk bout it
>.<
and how realli it seems important 2 me i guess...
or not.. ?.?
like how ppl say time is money...
time can sometimes be worth more than money
and with time you can get money..
u could work hard and earn it in time
or win it but all in a matter of time..
but u cant buy time wit money
>.<

i seem 2 waste so much time
and mi parents spend so much of their time 2 get money
and i guess i help 2
but wat 2 do wit so much money..?
u convert such precious time
jus 2 get money
but wat is it worth in tha end?
is that y i keep tryin not 2 spend money...?
i mean i keep talkin bout how little i bought somethin 4
is that y it seems so important 2 me that i save money..?
that its jus time spent converting it 2 money in tha first place..?

its like i wanna get all that time bak..
so i try 2 save money..?
or ...
*sigh*
oh well

time thatz gone cant be retrieved...
yet haunting memories of what was done and wat wznt..
all that could have been changed..
if i had acted differently at that time
and each replay shows a different possibility
a different me..
a different change...
a different ending...
a different everything...
if onli i had done this..
or if onli i hadnt done that..
a variety of wat could have been
yet can no longer be
*sigh*

and then i get flooded with tha empty hollowness...
of great guilt..
like therez no point doin ne thin..
if ure gonna regret it later..
yet i dun think of how by not doin ne thin ill end up regrettin
and i jus seem 2 drift thru time..
second by second..
minute by minute..
hour by hour..
(u prob get tha idea by now)
day by day...
week by week...
yr by yr...
*sigh*

well late
g2g
nite nite
*hugz*