suicide...

well as every1 noes...
councilors and some teachaz noe bout blogs now...
and im sorta annoyed at how i took it off
then havin tha skool find some blogs a few daiz afta i took it off...
hope they havent seen mine....

ne waiz...
somethin i didnt mention on mi last post..
on sun...
well i dun think i mentioned it..
wz tha sad news taht trent martins committed suicide...
(AAFC person taht quit last yr)
dunno y he did it tho i noe he hung himself...
it wz such a shock 2 me...

i mean these things u hear of in tha community..
but u dun think it would happen 2 ne 1 u noe of...
its jus so sad..
i mean y would ppl do taht?
they've got their whole lives ahead of em...

and i mean i jus recently found out of anotha person i noe...
(she shall remain unnamed tho dia noes who)
she wz slashing her wrists...
and now apparently shez on 2 drugs...
its jus so scary..
it neva dawned on me that such things happend so close round me..
like tha whole reality of it..
and u think y do ppl do it?
what do they gain..?
wen theyve got their whole lives ahead..
as bad as tha start may seem...

and then 2day i wz at tha petrol station wit mi mum...
and i saw this lady..
and 4m wat i saw she wz disadvantaged...
(she had arms that were onli 1/3 of tha length of an arm of an average person)
not that she had a disability...
jus disadvanataged..
and she wz jus goin about jus like ne normal person...
fillin petrol in2 tank and everyhtin..
and it made me thought...
if this lady could get thru life..
and she looked pretty well off..
like nice car.. nice clothes and everythin...
(tho i shouldnt be judgin ppl by tha way they look)
but she looked like she wz managin thru life fine...
but Y would ppl wanna commit suicide or hurt themselves?
y would they want to cause such damage..?

i mean wouldnt committin tha suicide be takin tah easy way out of pain?
nothin but pure cowardice?
but if u dared 2 face it thru and jus tackled each thing...
and even TALKED 2 ppl more..
but then hey im makin a judgment again on ppl since i dunno wat that pain would be like... but im jus sayin...
like u jus leave ure family there grievin 4 u?

ne waiz..
gettin late
nite nite
*hugz*