IT again...
LAST DAY OF SKOOL!!!
agggghhh!!!!
JNCO...
-_-"
and i'm so sleepy...
we jus had tha author of lookin 4 alabrandi come in and speak 2 us...
i mean it wz interestin but i'm SO tired...
AND SO hungry...
i missed out on breakfast.... -_-"
and i had no dinner last nite..

should i go 2 buffer nite???
i wz meant 2 spend last nite pakkin..
-_-"
2 bad...
didnt even start...
oh well...
that'd mean i have bout 2 hourz 2 pakk wen i get home...
and then go 2 buffer nite if i wanna....
OR stay at home and pak all nite...
and then sleep bit earlier...

hmmm...

end of class..
bye

aghh...
lost mi last post..
and i cant remember wat i rote last time..

hmmm...
distracted 4m pakkin 4 JNCO..
ugh...

oh well...
wat happened 2 day???
hmmm..
had s+e, mathz, health, science and IT

s+e...
well did nothin realli...
wat could i expect???
i got mr oxnam...
mainly spent that time...
teachin jayne how 2 do chem coz she had a chem test comin up...

then had mathz...
-no comment-
and ms bayley made us each answer a q each b4 we were allowed 2 leave class at tha end... -_-"
ended up leavin class late...
lost a bitta mi recess time...

then i had health...
we talked bout sexual and non sexual relationshipz...
-_-"
wit ms hughz...*shrudderz*
and then...
we had 2 make listz...
of tha qualitiez which we'd like our 'perfect partner' 2 have....
and i sorta realised i havent thought bout that much..
i mean wat sorta guy would i end up bein wit???
well..
hmmm..
he'd at least have 2 luv me...
that iz quite obvious...
oh well...
till then...

science wz ok...
and then IT i spent stuffin round...

hmm...
wat else???
oh ye..
next term...
on tha thurz that we come bak..
we have tha mathz comp and tha chem quiz thingy...
which meanz period 1 and 2 are taken up 4 tha mathz comp...
and then period 5 is taken up by tha chem quiz...
which leavez tha 3rd and 4th period...
hmm...
i have voice at 11:30...
which meanz half of english...
DAMN
i hav 2 change tha harp lesson...
that would mean i'd have 2 change 2 either durin english...
and miss tha whole period and a bitta recess...
or miss out on most of s+e...

hmm... hard choice...
lolz

so much stress these daiz...
i mean at least we spent this lunch laughin...
i havent laughed like that in agez...

i mizz year 8 now...
so good bak then...

*sigh*
time realli fliez...

hmm...
every1z offline now...
i betta go sleep 2...
betta go...
nite nite
*hugz

IT

In IT now...
anotha lesson spent sittin round...
i mean i hate this work...
i dunno y but i find it hard and annoyin sometimez 2 try and be creative...
i mean i dunno y i jus realli dislike creativity...
itz as if itz a total competition...
2 competative 4 me...

hmmm... now i'm sorta wonderin y i took IT in tha first place...
i jus sit and waste time..
and i still got half a year of it 2 go..

plz dont rain 2 moro!!!
i realli don wanna have career ed... or french...

damn end of lesson
g2g
bye

had skool 2 day...
all feelin betta..

we had tha learning styles seminar 2day...
it wz so funny...
i guess audience interaction wz tha main key...
tha fact that pplz could participate and sorta understand...

hmmm....
i don wanna remind mi self...
but i have 2 face tha fact that JNCO...
is comin up in a few daiz...
>,<
i dont wanna go...
all alone...
agghh...
no dia wit me....

*sigh*
oh well...
one thing i'll noe..
if i do stuff up tha lecture pplz wont remember it...
coz we'd probly be divided up...
in2 diff flights so i doubt there'd be ne 1 i noe...

i'll prob fail...
oh well...
i could alwaiz repeat...

oh shit...
i still havent packed...
bad bad...
but i realli cant be stuffed...

yesterday i had p.e....
we played soccer and basketball..
and then wen i wz tryin 2 catch tha rebound....
of tha ball 4m tha bakboard..
mi earring got caught on some1z clothes and it killed like hell...

and then 2 day...
wen we had house act...
we played olympia...
there were like 8 olympian playerz 4 basketball...
for our 4 pplz coz stupid troy pplz 4got their uniform...
we had depleted number in our teamz...
whilst we played... olympians switched playerz on and off...
and sometimez they had 5 playerz some timez 4...
but didnt make a differance at all...
we got thrashed...
tha score wz like triple of ourz...
and then mi earring got caught on janez sleeve...
and practically wz ripped outta mi ear...
luckily tha bak gave way and it fell 2 tha ground...
but still i wz in pain...

oh well..
at least i found tha earring again...

wat else happend?
or is gonna happen???

hmm...
house athletics comin up!!!
tho there is like nothing 2 be enthused bout...
coz troy is gonna lose ne waiz...
but realli i cant believe mr lee is makin us march up...
agghhh...
i mean realli...
itz not liek some formal thing...
house athletics is meant 2 be fun!!!
not so formal...
a day off!!!
and plz dont let it rain...
othawise we'll have skool...

SHIT..
still gotta polish mi GP boots...
uh oh...

oh well...
i'll see if i can get out of paradin in em...

wat elsey...
damn..
have hw in tha holz... -_-"

hmm...
tha socialz comin up...
yet i dunno y i bother mentioning it...
itz on tha side thingy ne waiz...

oh well..
i betta go...
or else i'll be stayin up 2 late..
nite nite
*hugz

role reversal

i wonder sometimez...
who iz older me or mi sista...

i mean shez tha 1 that suitz tha whole stereotype of a teenager...
itz like a total role reversal...
i mean linaz alwaiz on tha phone and on tha net..
yet i still get tha lecturez bout all tha usual teenage topix..
weird..

i ended up in tearz again last nite...
:'(
y?
i dunno realli..
it could jus anger and jealousy i guess...
i dunno y...
itz not like i disliek mi parentz..
but i find it so bad these daiz...
restrictionz on everyhin..
and yet mi sistaz tha 1 on tha phone all tha time..
and then therz tha net restrictionz...
i mean apparently i'm not allowed 2 chat on msn ne more...
not that i've stopped..
but still...
i dont talk on tha phone..
i dont sms..
i dont spend that much time out of tha house..
y restrict tha net?!?!?!?!
and wen i talk bout otha pplz...
mi mumz like: y u alwaiz comparin ure self 2 tha otha pplz in ure skool??? y not compare ure self 2 tha less fortunate????
like wen i wz 13 i wz lookin afta tha family coz mi mum had died...
and ure dad wz helpin out at tha age of 7...(blah blah blah)
i mean itz not like i dont respect mi parentz..
itz jus that i want some time 2 talk 2 pplz..
even if itz on tha net...

i mean wen they were that young did they have most of their aftanoonz off??? yez... wat bout me??? me i've got all these thingz on...
they had a choice... they were so bored hey decided 2 help..
me i'm so bz i feel like collapzin and jus sleep on tha floor...

*sigh* and then jus wen mi parentz came home..
they went straight 2 mi sistaz room and all praise her..
and then walkz ova 2 tha connectin door...
and then give me thiz huge lecture bout tha stuff blockin tha way..

tha thing is that tha door in between doenzt have onli mi stuffz...
itz also mi sistaz...
i mean i did try quite hard 2 clean mi room...
whilst mi sista on tha hand half heartedly...
goin online and jus playin whilst cleanin...
yet i get bloody lectured 4 mi effort...
i mean realli sometimez i wonder...
and mi sista jus lovez rubbin it in mi face...
wat iz it???
life at home jus feelz like thiz huge competition 4 mi parentz attention and love....
i wonder....
iz that y i seek so much attention sometimez at skool...
but still..
itz jus not fair...
and mi parentz are so bloody leniant 2wardz her... -_-"

and i've been taught 2 alwaiz be nice 2 her... -_-"
i mean i ALWAIZ have 2 let her have her way...
y wont she grow up????
y cant she stay at home and look afta herself???
y does seh have 2 follow me round?!?!?!?
i mean there are such thingz as babysitterz...
but mi paretnz prob prefer tha cheaper alternative...
plus they have practicalli a spy watchin me...
one who bloody spreadz exaggerated rumorz... -_-"

aggghhh
and i cant do ne thing bout it...
i'm expected 2 be old enough 2 look afta mi self...
and not complain...
and have 2 look afta her...
but if it doeznt go 4 her she callz up mi parentz and compainz...
mi life so hard...
stuk between prob between mi sista and mi mum..
and wen i try 2 be a good sista...
i jus have a hard time....
and wen mi sista doez somthin well itz all praize...
cept wen i get stuffz done itz like who carez?
itz her job...
-_-"
mi sista getz one of those merit certificatez...
and itz a cause 4 celebration.....
me get high d itz like meh....
oh well...
life goez on...

spent mi day cleanin again..
i sorted out all tha clothez...
in total mi mum went thru bout 4 loadz of washin...
so much!!!!

these daiz itz so weird...
itz not like i'm havin immediate mood swingz...
but i sorta go 4m extreme happy as if i'm on a sugar high...
to sad down in tha dumpz...
but itz like on an extended time..
and itz thiz continual cycle...
itz realli gettin 2 me..
i've found that itz mainly wen mi parentz come home...
i go sad 4 all tha lecturez...
but i noe i'm rong...
and yet i dont change coz i wanna talk 2 ppl....
and then i answer bak bout how i wanna talk 2 pplz bout stuffz..
and i get told off...
itz getttin worse and worse...
itz like tha familyz got all thiz tension between us...
and i go on and on...
as if itz not gonna stop...
as if there is no such thing as rest...
all except sleep...
but i dont wanna sleep...
at nite i dont wanna sleep...
i wanna talk 2 pplz..
and in tha mornin i regret it all..
regret stayin up that late...
wishin i could have some more hours of sleep...

oh well...
betta get 2 bed..
nite nite
*hugz

harp recital

ugh...
had tha harp recital 2day...
i guess i did alright...
but then...
i heard tha othaz...
-_-"

i mean they were round tha same level as me...
then..
this asian dude came in..
he wz late...
and he set up hiz harp..
then started playin coz he had 2 leave early..
and then he started playin and i wz like 0.o...
he played so well!!!!
prob he either practise heapz or he learnt 4 agez..
thing is he wz like between tha age of 6-8....
*sigh*
y pplz so talented?!?!?!?!?!
tha onli factor i can think of...
iz that i dont practise that much...
i guess thatz prob y..
but then he played so well!!!!

and then..
next person who played...
i think wz some ccgz guy...
i dunno...
he played..
and i wz..
damn...
how long is that song???
it wz so long and complicated...
and then he played...
beauty and tha beast..
damn it...
y cant i learn fun songz like that...
that have an actual tune i noe (that isnt danny boi)
-_-"

btw...
all tha ppl that played had tha same teacha..
oh well..

hmm...
jus noticed..
i didnt rite bout tha otha container lady incedent...
we were eatin in tha bak of tha resto eatin..
then she bursts in... *shock horror*
and sitz down...
and startz talkin...
how rude is that???
and then..
stopz mi grandma 4m eatin...
turnz her chair aroudn so she can talk 2 her...
mi grandma getz bit pissed coz she cant eat now..
and keepz talkin..
me tryin 2 avoid her saiz i g2g...
and u noe wat she saiz????
she: goin so quickly??? where u goin??
me: home...
she: y not come home wit me??? u'll love it!!!
me: (thinkin in head) WAT THA F***?!?!?!?! AS IF!!!!

i mean realli... -_-"
and guess wat??
it happend tha same day...
that scar and i were talkin bout her in mathz...
i wonder...
did u curse me scar??!??!?!?!?

even if she meanz it as a joke itz gettin realli old now...
and so bloody annoyin....
pluz...
that remindz me..
thiz time last yr...
i dunno if i said thiz..
there wz that china sale thingy..
and mi dad invited her along..
and i had -_-" 2 walk round wit her...
(she wz draggin me along by tha arm)
and one of tha stall ownerz go..
stall owner:is that ure daughter?
she:no.. but soon 2 be...
me:(thinkin) AGGGHHHH let go of me!!! stop makin these thingz up!!!

god...
tha less i see her tha betta

wat elsey i can talk bout????
(oh btw tryin 2 make thiz long as posible...
coz atm bloggin is tha...
onli valid reason i have 2 go on tha net)

i mean realli...
she'z totalli against chattin
oh well..

wat i need 2 do 2moro???
*buy dark purple wool...
*find collared shirtz... make sure enough 4 jnco...
*pak 4 jnco
*study 4 jnco
*fini mi attempt at cleanin room

cant think of ne else...
oh well...
gettin late...
g2g
nite nite

hmm..

bak 4m cadetz

bak 4m cadetz...
seriously...
tha total number of pplz at cadetz is decreasin rapidly...
i mean they even went 2 tha extreme of askin us wat would appeal 2 our age...
so ye...
they realli desperate now...

i mean they need stuffz 2 say 2 appeal 2 pplz...
-_-"

hmmm..
if mrs porter wznt bz...
i would be at tha aquinus college gym atm...
oh well...
2 bad...

wat else???
gl 2 dia for tha rowing!!!

umm...
oh well..
nite nite

hmm...
i RELLI SICK of studyin now..
i gonna quickly type thiz coz i feel like talkin...
mi mum at home...

2 day we had tha mock electionz 2day....
we lost...
i mean it wz practicalli a popularity contest...
every1 practcalli knew that...
itz alwaiz been that way wen teacherz do electionz and stuffz...

i dunno y...
these daiz i feel like talkin ...
yet there is no subject 2 talk bout..
so strange..

nothin comez 2 mind..
there are no topix..
so sometimez tha same convo repeatz again and agian..
*sigh*

well
i g2g
nite nite
*hugz

recess

hmmm...
agez since i posted...

i wz gonna post last nite but i couldnt be stuffed....
itz so BLOODY cold outside...
wat wz up wit tha weather...
it wz forcasted 2 rain...
oh well....
at least i'm not gettin wet...

wat else???
i cant remember watz happend this week..
these daiz i'm jus totalli out of it..
i cant remember a thing...
i totalli 4got 2 day wz thurzday even...
(i thought it wz mon)
-_-"

monaz sittin bside me lookin at those hk actorz and actresses again...
-_-"

JNCO (junior non commition officer course thingy)
[specificalli ritten 4 mona] commin up..
y doez aaron have 2 keep remindin me???
*sigh*
i think i've sorta decided on wat 2 lecture on 4 tha free topic...
i think i'll jus lecture on memory skillz...
i'll jus teach em tha way pplz learn and how 2 do word trainz..
that'll do..
by tha time they've started tha word train 10 minz would be up...
hehehe..
but then...
should i teach em???
if i do then...
hmm...
i mean mi parentz did pay alot 2 send me 2 that memory skillz course...
but then...
itz not like i use it 2 studdy...
but tehn....
itz somethin that i can do... or noe bit of...
or quite well..
otha than that i dunno wat i could teach...
god..
so annoyin..
wehere gonna get a topic????
if i do teach em memory skillz...

(con't at home)
i'll have 2 make up all these word listz and stuffz...
and give em stuff 2 memorise..
damn...
oh well..
it'll do until i think of somethin else..

SHIT
dia...
we got fieldcraft exam 2moro...
since we not goin 2 sleep ova..
shit..
i didnt study..
and now i have 2 study 4 mi mathz...
finish mi notez 4 bio..
and jus check thru mi fieldcraft notez 4 tha exam...
-_-"
and ontop of htat i have choir 2moro..
and i havent learnt mi part yet...
aggghhhh!!!!
oh well..

i think me and scar are gonna be 2 of tha 4pplz
that are gonna move down a class...
damn it...
mi dad gonna be so pissed...
and mi mumz prob gonna find me anotha tutor...
-_-"

oh well..
gotta stop wastin mi onli time left...
i'll try and study..
(i still dunno how 2)
-_-"
oh well..
bye
*hugz

fini chinese skoolz 4 tha term 2day...
and got reportz bak...
*sigh*

mi sistaz gigglin and typin at tha same time
at her comp again...
i wonder wat she rote thiz time...
betta not be like last time...
-_-"

i got mi chinese resultz bak...
all a's execpt for 2 b's...
*sigh*
i'm gettin worse...
time wz i used 2 get some a+'s...
oh well..
i did skip some classes...
but then...
i doubt they'd of done that much durin that itme...
oh well..
y do i care?

we had class 1st period...
then spent 2nd period singin...
3rd period we had a mini party...
thanx 2 tha teacher who paid...
and raymond who went and bought tha stuffz...
but then no point ritin it here is it???
oh well..

so ye..
we sat outside..
listenin 2 music and jus eatin junk food...

then aftawardz...
bout 1pm...
mum picked us up.... (1 hour late)
oh well... she bz...
and we went 2 harbour town...
walked round bit...
then went home at 5pm...

interestin tho that we didnt have 2 pay tha parkin fee...
tha parkin pplz gave us these otha ticketz...
and we didnt have 2 pay...
do they usualli do that?
oh well...
life goez on...

i bought anotha bag...
and guess wat colour??
bluuuuuu!!!!

hmm...
wat else happendz?

damn..
g2g sleepz..
nite nite
*hugz

these daiz i think i think bout life 2 much..
some timez life is so bad...

so many thingz happenz...
i mean soon time upz...
and fini high skool...
i mean itz already end of semester 1 ...
so FAST!!!!

and then on top of that...
coz mi parentz so bz..
i have 2 look afta mi sista as well...
i ask her 2 do thingz..
and she jus ignorez..
for me it jus getz realli hard..
i mean mi mum tellz me 2 make sure i look afta her...
and stuffz...
and then i ask her mi self and she ignorez it completely..
and then i ask her again...
and again...
and again..
and by then i'm realli pissed off..
so i end up shoutin...
and she thinks i'm bein mean 2 her on purpose...
-_-"
and then on top of that...
mi mum comez home...
ask me y not ready or wateva...
and then i cant say ne thing...
MI resposibility...
bla bla bla...
and so mi mum start 2 lecture...
and then wen lecture...
i start gettin annoyed...
on tha fact that i have 2 keep tellin mi sista off...
and then i end up shoutin sometimez at mi mum...
or most of tha time...
i end up sighin repeatedly...
and then mi mum startz believin i'm pissed at her..
and startz off on a lecture how i cant be pissed at her..
and mi sista totalli getz forgotten...
no trouble 4 her...
jus me...
y alwaiz me??!?!??!??!?!
and then tha whole family practicalli getz pissed..
so much tension at home...
-_-"

and then somtimez wen i'm out at tha resto...
and this sorta thing happenz..
i get an extra set of lecturez...
-_-"
mi grandma hearz tha lecturez and joinz in...
and wat can i say?
i jus have 2 listen...
listen and say ok...
so much...
i jus cant take it ne morez...
gettin 2 much...

damn..
run outta time 2 fini wat i wanna rite wat i say again...
i gotta stop chattin whist ritin mi posts...
-_-"
nite nite

ugh...
feel so bad...
i jus got bak 4m swimmin at beatty park....
*sigh*
now mi eyez have gone fuzzie..
i can bearly see...
i think there wz 2 much chlorine in tha water....
and plus on top of that mi sinuses are blocked
and i'm developin a headache...
god i feel sick...

omg i've had such a bad day...
i mean i wz practicalli fine until english...
i wz sittin there...
and then got so bored...
i started thinkin bout watz comin up and everythin as well as mi life atm...
then i thought bout how much time i've got...
and then slowly it jus got 2 much 4 me...
i dunno...
i started gettin so stressed...
and then i started hyperventalatin... ?.?
and then there wz like this full on panik attack...
at least i got betta...
but ye..

and then afta skool i practicalli burst in2 tearz...
2 much pressure i guess...
i mean i'm practicalli bz every aftanoon...
and i jus cant be stuffed wit hw ne morez...
coz it jus pile upz...
and i jus want some free time 2 mi self...
jus 2 maybe go outside for a walk or somethin..
itz jus 2 much stuffz goin on at tha same time
and i find that i end up jus practicalli fallin apart..

or it coulda jus been pms...
but i dunno...
itz jus 2 much pressure and expectationz..
no fun at all realli...
but i guess that for once i spoke openly 2 mi mum
since agez...
she 2 bz...
and ye...
afta her many suggestionz of me not eatin properly
or not sleepin rite..
but then...
how could that relate 2 me feelin like there are 2 much expectationz???
oh well..
ne waiz
afta heapza talkin...
finally made a conclusion of quittin tutorin...
YAY!!!!
i mean itz not like i need it that much...
so ye..
have 1 afternoon off now that aint weekend!!!
so happi!!

i wz gonna say happi b'day 2 scar...
but she wz complainin how i wz turnin in2 kat
so... no happi b'day 4 her..

watz happened tha last few daiz..?
doin role play election in class 4 s+e...
and tha votes are gonna be counted by tha electoral commision...
4 mi class i'm in tha national party...

well...
i g2g
mi dad brought pizza home
(damn gettin fatter and fatter every day...)
nite nite
*hugz

hmm...
i typed this realli long post but it accedentalli got deleted..
-_-"
oh well..

damn...
mum..
g2g
nite nite
*hugz

*sigh*
there are so many unanswered questions in tha world...

and yet so few answers....

y is mi sista so different 4m me? and yet so similar?
(damn i talkin bout mi sista again..)
i mean she's SO literate...
she takes thingz so literaly..
do i do that???
hmmm...
but on tha outside we're so similar...
i mean she's catchin up on me...
she's nearly tha same height...
and now there is only 1 SIZE DIFFERENCE between our shoe sizes...
(hmm did i say that last time????)
oh well...

y are pplz either so paranoid, obssessed and/or scared?!?!?!?
i mean mi uncle is obssessed bout cleanliness as well as bein paranoid bout bein robbed and stuff bein stolen... (well.. guess since he is a tour guide he prob had 2 many experience of bein robbed)
scar obssessed bout constipation atm... or so it seemz...
pplz have a word obssessions....
there is fear everywhere...
and there is stress..
and embarressment...
*sigh*
there are all these emotionz round...
everywhere different experiences...
but y?
pplz react differently in each situationz i noe that but y?
would it be part of their personality or would it be affected but past experiencez???
y do certain pplz make certain decisionz?

and wen parentz say itz 4 ure own good sometimez i wonder...
wat good???
are they bein ova protective?
or do they already noe tha possible resultz coz they've experienced it???

but then...
mi parentz jus have recently become paranoid bout tha net...
but then itz not like they use it that much...
could it be they forbid thingz coz they fear it or becoz they judge accordin 2 wat they noe or hear? or experiencez?

?.?

oh well...
some parentz explain...
othaz dont...
different pplz learn and teach in different waiz...
still i wonder...
y is there fear??
are we taught to fear or do we develop it???
y are we against some moralz???
are we taught 2 or do we decide such thingz???
are we different coz we have wat we think as an education which teachez wats 'rite'????
are we that gullible? do we take info that is given 2 us and jus believe it???

i mean in some countriez itz normal 4 violence and 2 kill anmialz etc..
but pplz ova here in our western society are different...
we are against cruety 2 animalz...
do we decide that ourselvez?...
or we are told that...??
there is violence against women also....
yet again...
if tha pplz who commit violence against women were educated against violence against women would they do wat they do now??? would it depend...
but then there is also hypocritz....
preach and dont act...
covered up truth...
nothin is known....

is ne thing permanent?
to us personally i guess there are memoriez...
memoriez of happiness...
but then that eventualli maybe forgotten...
or we may die...
but then wat of structures?
concrete thingz...
do they last?
or do they break down slowly???

wat of love?
would that last?
hmm... i dunno...
but then there are alwaiz obstaclez...
probz...
but would it last?
even if 1 of tha parnerz were dead?
would it continue?
is that perminant??
wat does last forever?
there is a balance i do believe...
would that mean that nothing lasts?
there is the construction and the equal distruction...
beginnin and end...
happiness and sadness...
all opposites...
are there oppositez 4 everythin in tha world? if there are are they equal???

there are upz and downz in life...
but are there timez wen there seemz to only be upz?
wen everything is good???
would that be followed by an equalli long time of bad thingz???
*sigh*

wat would happen wen tha world endz???
would it eva end???
how would it end???
by destruction... caused by humankind???
becoz of our stupidity????
our ignorance???
or a natural disaster????
how would i end???
of old age????
of sickness???
all by miself???
or die wit some1 like in a car crash????

deep thoughtz...
some questionz could be answered some wouldnt...
wz our world created by some super bein???
for in this world wen i dare to look around i see...
delicate patterns of work...
a rose for example...
so pretty..
yet...
has thorns...
smells so sweet...
but still there are the thorns...
painful...

and each other plant and animal...
so unique...
so special and different in their own way...
did some1 plan and design it all???
or was it all a product of evolution???
or maybe both???
were there realli iceagez???
were there actualli dinosaurz???
can science actualli support these theoriez?
wat about chem???
about atomic and valence structures?
all theoriez...
is there a truth out there???
how about another place where there is life???
wat will happen afta our time????

damn...
mi mum callin...
i g2g...
nite nite..
*hugz
(i guess this is the end of this post....)

hmm.. jus got bak 4m cadets...
i'm sorta considerin changin templates again..
but then tha 1 i decided 2 had 2 much blak
in mi opinion so i jus loaded tha pic jus like scar told me 2....
hmmm... got chinese 2moro...
i havent gone in like 3 weeks...
hope they aint angry...
but then i dont realli care...
i'm in tha 'adults' class and there's like 4 pplz...
and we had this class room but since tha numbers have grown in tha otha classes we've been kikd in2 tha meditation room...
-_-"
i mean realli.... there are not tables in there and all we get 2 sitt on is this hard coushion thingy...
no point realli...
mite as well sit and meditate...
but wit those seats there is no bakin so mi bak starts 2 ache...
-_-"
so bad...
oh well....
maybe i'll quit...
but not ne use coz mi mum and dad are gonna find some otha
skool which'll prob be twice as hard.. -_-"
...
hmm..
gettin late..
betta go...
nite nite
*hugz

today...
wat happen???
hmm... had skool...
then paul dillion came in as a guest speaker...
had voice lesson half way thru tha speech..

had guides 2 look afta...
they had international nite so i wz in trad chinese clothes...
2 piece this time... i wz in tah cheng sam last time...

oh well...
mum scoldin..
i g2g
nite nite
*hugz

IT

hmmm...
in IT now...
i should be workin on tha task of makin a website..
but i realli cant be stuffed..
its not like i'm that good...
and then i dont have ne interests in tha topics that wz given...
so i jus decided 2 do it on tha products we're makin 4 commerce...
but then i dont have picz of tha products...
so i'm jus spendin time sittin round in class...
oh well....

hopefulli i'll get picz of them soon...
if i can be stuffed... -_-"
and plus...
every1z doing webpages wit flash and me..
i'm jus sittin here wonderin how tha hell do i work flash...
i mean tha onli thing i noe how 2 do is jus make picz move...
so ye...
i mean tha teacha lookz at tha screen i've got...
and gives suggestions and i jus sit there goin 'wat tha???'
hmm...
enough of mi depressing life in IT...

yesterday...
had S+e and maths in tha morning...
then had recess... and then health... -_-" year... lunch and science and IT...
mi Major Chem Test is 2day...
i'm still wonderin whether or not i wanna do it...
i mean i can do it 2moro..
but then taht would have more time 2 study but then if i got a low mark 4 that that'd mean i'd have 2 spend a late nite up 2 do that assignment 2 hand in...
if i do it 2 day i'd have less time 2 prepare...
but then i'd have more time 2 do tha assignment if i did bad in tha test...
thing is if i do well in tha test i dont have 2 hand in tha assignment at all!!!!
oh well...
i'll prob do it 2day..

*sigh* i mean i look round tha class again and every1z (well mainly every1z)workin on their task and i'm jus sittin here stuffin round...
i worry that i mite not be able 2 hand it in coz i dont have photoshop or flash at home...
oh well..

20 mins till end of class...
-_-"

OMG...
ms samson wz jus standin behind me lookin at tha screenn....
and jus standing there staring...
-_-"
starin at wat i'd done...
a CRAP lil pic of this lil pom pom caterpilla on a pic of a garden... -_-"
and she's like wat does that do???
-_-"

oh well..
betta get some work done....
(if that is possible) or jus pretend again...
bye

s+e

so happi...
jus got mi geography comp bak!!!

in s+e now...
nothin 2 do...
i realli cant believe that i loved skool so much wen i wz lil...
strange thought...
now daiz its jus 2 much work...
oh well...
i may have been a strange child wen i wz lil..
but at least not as strange as mi lil sista..

i have maths next...
oh well...
ccgs vs mlc netball 2 day at lunch...
should i go watch???
i'm not realli sure...

damn... class finish
g2g
bye

skool

hmm...
garz i'm updatin now... happi??
hmm...
sortin thru quotes...
damn...
lost tha quotes on tha old comp.. -_-"
oh well...
now i gotta start collectin otha 1s again...

oh well...
i dunno wat 2 say realli...
nothin realli 2 talk bout...

i had skool 2 day... -_-"
had maths,
then commerce,
harp,
house acts,
french
and english...

practicalli died playin basketball... corinth players were SO competitive!!!
i mean there wz steppin on feet,
elbowing,
scratchin,
kikin,
even 1 trippin (poor bonnie)
but i hope they were accedental...
not intended...
oh well...
i g2g
(mums gettin pissed)
nite nite

youth group las nite and day out

hmm... didnt rite ne thin bout yesterday...
i'll rite bout it now...
i had choir in tha mornin
and then skool
then INSTEAD of cadets...
i stayed wit mi cousins 4 their music lesson
and then walked em 2 tha youth group...
i joined in since i not goin 2 cadets...
ate nachos there as well as icecream 4 dessert
(hmm i realli gwettin fat)

and then wen home...
slept

2day-
got up round 8:30
wen 2 tha shoppin centre place near tha ct...
dunno wat its called..
ne waiz went shoppin 4 bout 2 hours ....
bought a pair of boots (yay yay yay!!!!!!!)
amazingly lina's feet size have shot up!!!!
i mean atm mi shoe size is round between 7-8
and lina fit a size 7 shoe!!!
i mean there is a 4 yr difference..
and she's catchin up...
and then went home 2 let lina get changed...
sent lina 2 her friend's house so they could go watch hp3 at tha ace cinema...

then wen 2 tha movies wit gar, dia and mona...
i arrived earliest (for once)
and then dia...
then we bought tha tickets ( i bought 5)..
then mona arrived...

ate at han's cafe...
garz came...
told me that kat wznt comin...
so we had 1 extra ticket...
so we wondered round findin som1 2 sell it 2...
found this lil asian guy (i think he wz viet)
sold it 2 him...

and whist waitin 4 his dad 2 come and pay
we saw scott and a friend of his...
went in 2 tha cinema...
tried 2 find seats but tha onli ones left were at tha side at tha front..
so sorta an angled view...
scott and friend found where we were and sat next 2 dia...
we watched tha movie...
it wz alrite realli but then at least i read tha book..
it wz bit hard 2 understand...
coz i could jus barely rememeber it...
strangely i started 2 laugh during tha part where tha dementor enters tha carriage harry's sittin in on tha way 2 hogwarts... i wonder how that is funny???
but yes..
i started laughing and garz wz sittin next 2 me wonderin if i wz ok whist on her otha side mona wz bit freaked out... lolz

aftawards wen movie finished...
dia discovered that she'd lost her wallet...
she went bak 2 look but couldnt find it...
so we went 2 timezone 2 play a bit...
came across scott and friend again.. -_-"
played a few games (i played so bad maybe i shouldnt even try next time... that way i'd avoid embarressment)...
mona left first coz her mum wz goin
then garz went then dia and i went 2 tha ticket desk 2 say that she lost her wallet...
and some1 had found it!!!!
so ye..
she got it bak!! how lucky wz that???

ne waiz..
diaz mum sent me home (say thanx again 2 ure mum dia)
walked round vietnosh and spices..
walked between them.. 2 and 4m...
then went home..

and i jus ate pizza...
i realli gotta stop eatin so much junk food...
i mean 2 day i've eaten(outta junk food that is):
1 packet of chips
round bout (in total) 1/2pak of starburst lollies
1/4 of a pizza
1 chocky bar...
i gotta start eatin healthy and exercise!!!
i mean i gained 5kg!!!
oh well...
untill then i'll jus hope..
(but then that'll do nothing...)

well i g2g its gettin late...
nite nite
*hugz