EXTREMELY Belated 2005 Recap..

Well since im not really doing much online
mite as well start something im gonna procrastinate over

(Note: this post was started Feb of this yr..
therefore details may be sketchy..
or i may have different views to what i may have had then..
and also parts of this may get choppy as well..
2005 was 2 yrs ago and im finishing it off
so that i can sorta get a double recap in
and obviously to recap 2005 in detail closer to the end..
would be too much effort for me alone..
so on the very last note..
if you wish to pry on what major-ish events occured for me
over the last 2 yrs.. ENJOY!!!)

Post-Typing Note:
As this has taken forever to complete..
it has been cut in half.. the second portion.
which was meant to be a 2006 recap? has been moved
so that this could be published and the 2006 will come later..

2005..
Yr 11..
The Year:

- of the Rooster -
Yes year of the rooster, well yes..
i really dunno what else to comment on that so yeah..

- I first got sunburnt -
SUNBURNT..
I got SUNBURNT, well sorta..
just mainly tanned skin that was red-ish..
then turned peel-y :S
after i spent a whole day at adventure world..
THE FIRST TIME I WENT TO ADVENTURE WORLD... ah well
and it was with my sister's friends.. how sad..
but at least i got to go!! :D


- of Grandpa over in Perth -
Yes he did, and i'm happy
and thankful he care enough to come visit us..
travel SO far.. and endured so much..
well not really.. 2 plane flights aint much
but for the elderly.. i think it was quite a feat..
GO GRANDPA!! :D

- of absolutely NO S+E -
YAY!!!
but which i was recommended for -.-"
and i might have had a better average if i had taken
and would understand more of geog if i did

- of Birthday on Interhouse Swimming Carnival -
somethin diff...
well it was good enough..
that is to my memory :S
but i do remember heaps hot n humid >.< - of Choral Camp -
well um.. hot..
lots of yr 8s n 9s screaming..
and a hilarious quiz night


- of SAVE STEVE CAMPAIGN -
When Eurest came in..
well what had happened from my views was..
we were sitting on a table/bench on great court..
then out of the canteen ran a purple-ish looking man..
then a while later..
the front of the canteen was surrounded by students
it seemed everyone...
just slowly gathered round and soon the whole court was outside the "cafe"
the "purple-ish" man turned out to be steve
whom had just found out he was made reduntant
and that the catering from then on
would be done by an international catering company...
this really struck a nerve with the students..
obviously the shock on some lunch time
when he [Steve] burst out loud..
in the protest against his redundance..
the "save steve" campaign was formed..
and well
it even got into the post..
yeah.. front page ^^ Go MLC :P
with the whole senior school..
esp the senior yrs questioning our principal..
we even had year group on principal talk..
but really the yr of spreading of those lovely lil flyers..
and the posting of one of em on the principal's car..
the final decision was to boycott Eurest when it came in..
but really i think till today..
didnt have much affect..
the canteen's busy all over again anyways..


- of Ki-ya (YAA) -
mm the lovely cases of ours :P
made of lovely satin material..
that we spent HOURS on..
both on discussions in meetings...
and the creation of em..
as well as so many evenings..
trying to desparately sell them..
to advertise em..
to get rid of em in exchange for money..
to break even and get ours and our shareholders money back
as well as gaining something for buying so many shares


- of Orchestra -
got to know how its like to play in one..
thinkin back..
it was an interesting experience..
despite the fact that there were early mornings
and some late arvos
and i had no concept of timing anyways..
its something to have taken in..
playin in a whole orchestra
tho i missed out on the actual farewell tour performance..


- of my Last ANZAC Parade -
sad thing i guess..
the anzac parade is something that ive always enjoyed..
well not really the whole being screamed at..
but i loved drill..
esp much when i actually get everything right..
but then again.. who doesnt??
I miss drill...

- I quit Cadets -
The last few years were filled with fieldcraft
and also flying camps..
something that was always enjoyable..
well other than the actual signing of forms
which always required a witness signiature

And to that.. ive got to add.
the leadership camps were something to have remembered
despite my complaints of never joining the army
after my first fieldcraft camp back in yr 9..
its something that i'll remember
from the 10km walk to the actual obsticle course
i hated the freaking wall tho.. couldnt climb that :(

Quitting Cadets really wasnt a big thing.
it was really coz it was due to excess consecutive AWOL.
but i was away
and couldnt be stuffed going back to actually report them

There were many times enjoyed thru cadets
from the whole training camps in the hols..
which meant i actually lost out on at least half a hol at a time

- of Instrumental Camp -
Something of which was sorta pointless
but important i was there for..
i was going to the music tour coz i played the harp..
there was a harp part in only one
of the songs the orchestra were gonna play
so i wasnt needed most of the time..
but it sorta was important i had more time
to work with the actual orchestra
im a play by ear person..
and well..
its sorta hard to practise with only me
coz there aint no orchestra as well
so its hard to work out where i actually fit in..
in the song and when to play and not to..
i had such large issues actually understanding the conductor
i just didnt get gallo's gestures unless he actually pointed at me..
-.-

- Buddha's B'day -
This year..
i remember having to teach the dance i did the year before
to more ppl so they'd have to dance too
cept in the end it rained..
the stage was too slippery
so no one had to do it..
yet we all got vouchers to go round for stuff :P


- of the family reunion!! -
It was Grandpa's B'day
Family really is an important thing..
even if you have to miss school
and really i dont think the school likes me that much either..
what with the 3 family occasions i had as my reason for
missing out on in the last 3 years..
but this time it reallly was special...
on ONE particular night..
we had the majority of the family
in ONE place at the same time..
Something really hard to actually attain
what with busy lifestyles of many these days
to me i guess a truly memorable occasion
that i'll never forget


- Interhouse Athletics -
The athletics that i think most yr 11s wagged..
i think i twas since it was joined 11/12 events
this year i guess it was really enthused 12s
since so many participated
but what can you say?
its they're last yr after all..



[Yr 11s on Tour]

[My Dear Cell Group]
- of the Music Tour -
A whole 3 weeks with Chewy, Gar, Sarah, Alison and Nellie
and well nearing 93 other students and a number of teachers
off to Europe!!
Switzerland
England
Wales
Austria
Italy
I love Europe i guess..
driving around and in a few hours you're somewhere new..
tho with the 17kg luggage limit to begin with
and then on return 16kg.. that was just a bit too stressful
what with me leaving perth with 17kg in the first place -.-

the limits to the baggage for us was also due
to the fact we were bringing our intsruments with us
which meant that all those kgs in total were distributed..
of which the harp.. in its casing was already 44KG
and it was only celtic too..

hmm imagine a concert one..
tho the beijing and singaporean orchestras had bought their concert harps..
yes we're only a small city school
competing against national youth orchestras
so i guess we did pretty well in the end..
what with both singapore and beijing getting equal first
and us getting "participation"
mite as well slap on a label of "unsatisfactory"

starting off staying at a youth hostel in switzerland..
where i realised on the bus trip to the hostel..
i wondered why the heck the petrol station would not accept
the currency that my dad had exchanged for me
that was intended to be used in switzerland
of which
later on i realised i had my money in SWEDISH Karonas..
he had miss heard and confused switzerland with sweden
oh well.
it was pretty money tho


- Pericision -
Icky job..
but well.. over and done with
dont wanna think about it
was under local anes..
but missed like a day off school coz of it i think it was

- ABODA Performance -
We got an OUTSANDING!!
that's like FIRST
but it was a shared one..
so EQUAL FIRST!!
WOOT!


- 3rd Aunty Visited -
Nothing speccy i guess..
over for like a week or two
and went over to eastern states


- Interschool Athletics -
Del a CHEERLEADER!?
yep it happened..
and.. well it happened twice..
this year as in 2005
and at the swimming 2006
amazing huh?
not really..
next topic

- Moon Cake Fest -
Performance nite
chinese school related? you bet..
this for 2005 they decided to
reenact the story of chang er ben yue
(my chinese/eng pin yin is crap i know)
lucky me..
only had to speak in eng :P
crap bit?
i had to translate it all out myself..
ok in the end i guess. :)
spoke in eng. end of story.

- Vocal Recital -
EVERGREEN!!
yep the song i sung..
not westlife.. but barbra streisand..
and well it was my last vocal recital ever..
im so gonna miss ms auty.
i took voice in yr 12 as well..
but not likely anymore..
she was really nice tho
bought me a pair of earrings as my farewell gift ^^

- Last ever Heather Lamont -
my first "last" of mlc i guess..
my first last heather lamont..

heather lamont is a festival
held by the school to celebrate the arts..
dedicated to a collegian called "Heather Lamont"
who excelled in the arts..
but died tradgically so parents donated money
and well festival named after her
tho don't quote me on that..
the summary's sorta vague...

on the day...
there was a choice of either
trying out for the badminton tournament
or heather lamont..
so i guess the fact i COULDN'T play badminton
meant i wasnt going to enter
and well it WAS the last heather lamont

was a section leader i was..
of arts and craft..
with liz and scar
and i swear
on the night before, the day and the next few weeks
after heather lamont i NEVER wanted to see a card again
i guess im over it now..
but what had happened was since yr 11s were all
revved up to winning their last heather lamont
they said to enter in as many entries as possible
and to try for the less common ones..
such as the arts n crafts devision where few people entered
and one of the easier competitions was "card making"
so nearly EVERYONE in Troy just decided to "make a card"
even i spare tute time..
i swear.. there were the most random cards ever entered.
just for the sake of a single point..
I'M in Troy and i was overwhelmed by the lack of effort
seemed a bit on the despo side for points...
and well judging em??
sorta seemed pretty easy..
what with MANY of them below a viable quality..

- of the rivercruise!! -
Mmm.. not really any piccies from then..
tho an interesting night all the same..
tho i was pretty amazed they played
"rock a by a bear" by the wiggles
due to a reqest O.O
might have been some group thing :S

- of Exams -
First set of actual exams really
and i guess it was something new-ish
althought there were exams in yr 10
it just wasnt the same
like in yr 10 it was clumped up together
cept with two weeks of spread out exams

- Speech Night -
It was the first time that our speech nite
was at the convention centre..
usually held at the concert hall
turned out our booking for it got overrided
so therefore we were kicked out
and left to fend for ourselves
until they found that the convention centre was available
to only suck up all the money needed for the parking of all the parents
anyways..
mass choir again this year
tho lee decided to give it a change
as he's done with quite a number of school things
so instead of the usual latin dark theme songs
it was "Halleluia" and well..
guess what the main word of the song was?
HALLE-F-in-LUIA
basically repeat the word 50 times in different pitches
and there you go you have the song
no not that easy.. and yeah its traditional and all
but BORING
BORING BORING BORING


Taiwan Tour


["Forever A Class"]

- of the Taiwan Tour!! -
Thinking about taiwan..
and to the dear poor souls
who've had to hear me rant about it
ON and ON and ON and ON and ON.
(well you get the point.)
i apologise
but to me i guess it was such a major thing to me
like the experience of 6 weeks away from home
guess you could say it was a "life changing experiences"
and you'd prob hear my endless rants and referrals to it
from the crappiest of the very low emotional
hate directed at some individuals
and some pretty happy times
despite the fact that there were the lows
it really meant something to me
and also living with such great people for 6 weeks
and im amazed there are the few i've still be able to
keep in contact with for the year already
so that's pretty much a BIG thing for me ^^
a major event in my life :)
No words can really express how important you guys are to me
seriously they are really valuable friendships to me
and hearing from anyone one of you just makes me so estatic!
Hopefully can see you guys again soon :)

From the Words of A "Ban" teacher:
Opportunities are for those prepared to take em

Back to event tracking side...
pre plane flight..
we were supposedly meant to meet up with a Samantha
who was meant to accompany us on the flight
somewhere along the way somethign came up as her being 18+
which meant that she was sorta in charge of us
meeting up later on.. found out i was the oldest..
great -.-
i love responsibility :P
with the parents going "look after my kid" -.-
im round their age..
as if i can actually restrict what they do
i aint THAT buff..
sorry cant really manage to restrain a guy

i remember on the plane flight
spending my time insteada actually watching movies..
i spent my time playing either cards..
from stacking them to a varation of 52 pick up :P
to that of learning to play the computerised version of mahjong
which at that time i just clicked randomly to see what happened
then arriving where we spent about half an hour standing around
sorta feeling frantic and
wondering where the people who were meant to pick us up were
because they were no where in sight..
but thank god we managed to meet up ron's cousins
who called em up to find out that they were late coz of some reason :S

with the belief that we were gonna be living in whoop whoop
coz they moved to a different venue due to the fact that the old one
people kept sneaking out at night to go shopping and what not..
(well in the hindsight it sorta was pointless.
didnt stop people from anything)
so we thought we were gonna be sent off somewhere in the country
what with looking out the windows we were pretty surprised..
that hey apparently we were nearing the uni
and WOW there were still buildings
so we werent in whoop whoop in the end
finding out we were ending up in separate dorms
us girls got dropped off first
we wandered up to our room
where finding out even our BEDS were allocated O.o
tho at least we were in the same room
4 bunks per room
with 3 of us girls from the same place
looked like we were gonna have to meet someone new
and get to know how they were

with nothing to do and finding out there was an 18+ girl
who had been there a week earlier than us
we decided to spend some time with her
she showed us around from around the "boarding house"
more of boarding building.. but you know lotsa people
and then sitting there in the food court for dinner..
actually visually fading in and out of what was happening around me
that was pretty scary but moments at that time was pretty surreal
actually time away from sister and the rest of the family.

with the belief that the routine given to us would be really strict
i was amazed that after a few days and weeks
as routine fell in..
and things being cancelled continously
i found that no... this was no boot camp
but a time just enjoy what was happening
i guess with my experiences of cadet promotion camps
i probably likened what my expectations to my past experiences

going back to the dorm we met later that evening
or last room mate
dear K, who i seriously cant believe ive shared so much with
gods girl you are seriously a crazy one..

on the first few days going
i remember particularly one morning
walking into vary cafe as a group..
us room mates
i was pretty surprised to see that there was this guy
strangely running around frantic
asking everyone if they knew how to read the phonetics
whether they used the roman/english letter type
or the taiwanese "b p m f" stuff for the test

what apparently was the supposed 3 hour testing
which had everyone on their nerves
turned out to be a one on one chat with the teachers
to show your level of chinese knowledge
so that it was possible to split the classes

with the large range in chinese ability
they were forced to divide the tour to 3 groups
insteada the intended 2 groups

antoher memorable memory
would be the downfall of the singing teacher
not that i had anything particularly against her
she was trying to teach us to sing jay chou..
alright i guess.
cept the trouble?
her voice was damn annoying
i swear i have never disliked a voice so much
tho i guess i sympathise..
what with 40 people in a class
and of which majority of the people spent their time
either playing cards or talking
all the way for a 3 hour class
but cmon.. 3 hours worth of singing?
as if someone would bother paying attention..
unless you're like me and like singing..
but even i tuned out a bit..
sad to say.. but 3 hours
annoying voice and on top of that
no breaks is sorta a bit much to expect
so in the end she got so hurt
she just quit
to the strange joy of the class :P

participating in the tour
we also had a series of other classes
from that of :
- paper folding/cutting
- taiwanese
(that teacher was SO nice!!)
- hakka
- calligraphy
- kung-fu
- aerobics/yoga
- movie night
(lasted about 1 night coz
everyone fell asleep during the movie)
- field trip outta school grounds
and possibly some others but i cant remember anymore

memory-wise..
i just thought of the ALLEGED B-class teacher rivalry
where apparently the teacher of B-Class was so proud of her class
that the students of A-class swore that she was taking measures
to put our class down..
see, the tour was based on a points system
where later on.. awards were given
and also after a certain number of minus points
you'd appparently not graduate
and the conspiracy going around
was that she was learning
the names to the members of our class
so that she could put demerit points on us

tho the second rumour that went around
was that she wanted to change the ending to our play
that we had made for the end of tour concert
you see their class had theirs together
way before our class
and it was some time after the dress rehersal
on the day of the concert
that apparently she suggested that the ending to our play
was too sad and needed to be changed
and well changing a play script and rehersing it
one hour before the actual performance
which was all in chinese in the first place
sorta seemed impossible
ah well... rumors..

there were many other occurences
but i dont actually wanna voice any of those
related to the darker tone of the tour

some of the more memorable places for shopping tho:P
i swear the uni bookshop had EVERYTHING
funny.. i kept putting it back
and saying i'd shop for supplies before i left
didnt end up happening
but i swear it was stationary heaven
as quite a lotta places are in asian countries

a surprising thing as well
was that i managed to keep in contact with faye
faye was one of the uni students who helped us along
and im surprised we talk actually once in a while
so yeah im happy about that

atm i swear i miss the "family mart"
there still aint an equiv ive found in perth yet
tho if there were..
there's none near my place.. :(
not as convenient as
just racing someone *cough*K*cough* down stairs
lol a whole 8 levels worth of stairs
to get at the last onigiri in the fridge
or the last pocky
or even just to raid the new stock worth of onigiri
i swear.. the poor family mart dude went through a lot
whilst we were there..

speaking of the family mart
great memories are sorta implanted there
from the dares which related to him
just coz he was on the grave yard shift
to the LOVELY msn magnets you could collect!!
omg i swear.. kept going down hoping to spend enough
so i could do a lucky dip for those msn emoticon magnets
*drools* damnit i miss my daily/nightly onigiri and pocky fix

mm and atm im all thought out.. memory wise.
there were so many elements to making it the way it was
tho going on it again would possibly be a whole
nother different experience what with different people
and well would be harder to compare to this one
as ive seen the possibilities in this one
the expectations would be higher
but you guys are the best (yes you too scar) !! :)
probs coz im starting to get distracted by msn..
the stream before was longer coz no one was online
shall leave it at that..

*first time i got tipsy :P
of which i shall not divulge any details at all right here..

Seriously,
2005 was an amazing year of new travels
and oppotunities TAKEN actually taken
and well.. sorta slightly followed through
but you know..
its amazing
*screams*

thanx for the FANTABULOUS year..
that was 2 years ago..
well luv y'all always
*hugs*

-Del

Post # 400

YAY!!
funny.. i keep celebrating "nth" number of posts
or my dear bloggie's bday
but true its a big deal to me ok?!

it means that im slightly committed something enough
that its lasted so long and at the same time
wonder why the heck anyone reads :P

makes me feel loved i guess ^^

Work Antics

you know..
i thought i did this post.
but its no where in sight..
or i deleted it cos it was pointless
or that i couldnt see it

ah well
just strange occurences at work
and well for the past few weeks
i have really no memory of them
when it comes to work
it just happens..
goes by
and that was it
tho since ive decided im gonna get this post done tonight
might as well
despite the fact i didnt have work today

just gotta relive and sift through
the last few days/weeks of my life
to see if there was anything of particular
strangeness or rant-worthy

Story One: Del a Mother!?
Out at the resto
sitting around since i had finished work
but was too lazy to get home
so decided to sit around at the resto.
one of the staff who works nearly every day
brought her kid down coz there was noone to care for him
so he was running amock
so i decided to just like watch over him and such

the resto started to get more and more busy
and having him runn around the dining area
wasnt exacrty that good
what with him actually running around half naked..
yep he was not wearing his shirt coz he refused to wear it :S

got wilder and wilder
and then he took one of the teatowels
ran outside with it and started spinning it around
having enough i went outside to fetch him
and everyone was giving me these really weird looks and glares..
i was thinking "what the hell..?"

anyways..
night goes on
and then one of the guys at the tables decides to pay
i walked past whilst he was paying and he said:
"excuse me, just wondering was that your son?"
O.o
the guy who asked was somewhere in what?
his middle ages to elderly
-.-
MY FREAKING SON?
im not THAT old gosh.. -.-

worst on worst?
yeah possibility.. cept for the fact
that the kid wasnt what? 1or 2 or 3 or 4 years old
the kid was EIGHT years old..
that woulda been me being bout what? TEN when i had him
gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ><

and oh by now probs lots of people have heard this story
so yep.. that was the full complaint over and done with
outta my system at last :)

Story Two: Del on the radio!?!?
End of work.. had to run some last min errands
(hmm why is it at the end of the day things happen?)
probs coz i start waking up at the end of the shift..

anyways
walk to the resto to get a drink
just bout to leave then some customer waves me over

customer: hey you're _____________'s daughter right?
me: um. yeah
customer: Congrats on getting into med!!
customer: I heard you got a pretty good TER
me: :S um sorry but no, i didn't get into med
customer: but you're ____________'s daughter yes?
me: yes. I am.
customer: but then you're TEE would have been really good then?
me: no, it was just average
customer: oh sorry then, so what did you get in?
me: health science
customer: oh really? what does that go to?
me: health realated job?
customer: i'm sure you did really well, after all we heard you did well on the radio
me: Radio?! O.o
customer: yes
me: um. I think you've got some sort of mistake
customer: no that's we heard you really are ____________'s daughter right?
if yes then that's you, and you did well
we heard [insert name of some radio broadcaster ive never heard of]say it on the radio
me: ... ok i gotta go finish of a job.. enjoy dinnner :)

strange i tell you..
tho later on found out from mum
that dad knows some radio broadcaster...
-.-
that would explain alot now that i found out but ok...

Story Three: Um.. no longer existant
cant think of any more stories to add
sorta forgotten a lotta events by now
so yeah
end and publish of post :)
*hugs*
-Del

I Don't Care....

You know?
at the moment? the things i've been thinking about?
i just wonder if i really do care with what's going on?
people say this or that
and then i end up thinking about em later on
i wonder if yeah it actually got to me?
or just the fact that well there's nothing better to do
but sit/stand there and think
about the day/week's worth of conversations and happenings
yep. sometimes i dont have enough conversations to surfice
so end up thinking about the week

in doing that i sorta sort through the rest of my mind
and yet sometimes it just feels as if im going over the same thing
all over again
thinking about well maybe has this come up before?
or just a passing comment someone else had made
but at the same time that the similar comment come up
could it be true?

should i publish this anyways?
dunno..
thinking thinking
more of mind just blanked over msn and forgot bout this huh?

but thinking about whether or not i care bout things
i think back to the days
when i just say i dont care bout things
just the things that go around
would i just be running away from something?
or just the fact that well i basically DIDN'T care
and that was the end of the story
i guess with the changes taht go around for everyone
its just that your thoughts just change
what you didn't care for before
may become something so much more later on

or...
it was just a case of laziness
that i couldnt be bothered
with caring enough to do anything about some things
lol talk about me being vague??

bleh
topic atm = pointless
i lost my point
and i dont have a view anymores at the current moment
so end it here
nite nite
*hugs*

Worlds of Existence

Note: this post is a result of a number
of scattered different writing times
therefore the reference of "world of existence"
or sphere or whatever it is
manages to vary on what it represents
or means and such
so if you dont understand its ok..
coz i havent read this thing from top to bottom before
so i dont even know if it makes sense :)
and also that its something i've thought quite alot bout lately
so really makes it into a multilevel thing possibly?
ah well read however you like if you dare to read
or waste your time :)

Hmm..
and yet again i think i've gained
ANOTHER few multitudes
of draft posts
no i dont write em for just noting.
just that what happens is i never fully get over
finishing what i wanted to say in the first place
it just gets stuck under "drafts"
so yep

and well what with work
you suddenly realise.. why the heck
does there seem to be so much time during work?
and none at home?
ah well i did wanna get outta the house
im not getting paid and that really leads to
me just standing around and doing minimal crap
from reading newspapers to mags
to spending my time cutting up cigarette cartons
so that we recycle the cardboard for pricing of fruit n veges.

you know
thinking over and over
there's this same topic i keep wanting to talk bout
but it spans over so many things
but i think i've finally sorta found a title
to encompass it all..
so that's pretty good
just gotta get it down in words and finished too..

its just that there was once a quote i got
before year 8 from the lady at ALW

Whether you think you can,
whether you think you can't,
You're RIGHT!

the idea of believing in yourself
that if you think that its possible for yourself
anything is within reach
but live the life of a pessimist
nothing may happen
even if its in your wildest dreams
its not attainable

but in the idea of belief and your own thoughts
it turned my thoughts to different people
the fact that whether you believe you ARE right
you think you're right
what you WANT to believe is presented before you
you're most likely to believe it
that you believe it because that's what you want to believe

the supporting evidence whatever it maybe
whether or not is true or not
you'll take it as solid evidence
because it gives you a reason to believe
and what person likes to be wrong?
that what they want to think
could be possibly outside of their own ideals
of their "sphere of existence"

guess that's how misunderstandings
and well arguments arise really
the fact that both people's
lil sphere's of belief clash
the supposed supremecy over the other
that each believe they in their own right
are well..
yeah can say im also a victim of that too :P

what exists around you
you believe right?
you're more aware of what happens to you
you care bout what happens to you
you're blinded by what you know
coz you believe that the world that revolves around you
is the only one that exists?
after all that's what's the most important
in everyone's own interest
your own survival, or the survival of your own
you care for what's around you
its what's the main thing that happens in your life
your world, your small scale existence..
the greatest things that change even if to others
that its on such a small scale
the change in itself can rock your world

and when you just feel as if you wanna let it out
or just wanna share your thoughts
but no matter how you express it
the exact same occrences within one world
just wont equate to the same thing in the next
they say that the whole transcention of expression
through music and such but the degree of
the emotions actually felt through
the actual experience
its seomthing taht everyone knows
from the single slight of
"my parents dont understand what its like"
to the emo ideal of
"you dont know what its like to be me"
you can try to explain
you can bitch
you can write it down
do wahtever you like
but its not the same
what ever happened in the last second of your world
is irretrievable
what you choose to do with the time lost is up to you

but no matter what you do to try to understand
from the hearing point of view
you'll never actually get the exact same sensation
you can sympathise
and have had a similar occurence
but for every single person it'll be different
the different series of events in your lil lifeline
means that you'd be more prepared for somethings
than other things
what you've been exposed to in your own world
shapes your thoughts on things
and from a slight bump of worlds
i just spend my time wondering how the heck
that some people mindlessly doing what they do
and spend my time wondering..
where the hell has the concern for others gone?
or more of the world that we live in
and the fact we face a water shortage
(the lady had it on highest the tap would go
and just stood there whilst the water ran down the sink
whilst she spent her time ripping up bits of paper towel
the reason to later be that she wanted to dry her hands
with ripped up bits of paper towel and to turn it off
using those bits of paper towel..
but she coulda ripped it up and put it on the dry bits of the sink
BEFORE HAND of which yes there WERE dry bits of sink)

funny this
my very very very main point of this
was the very point that wasnt included so far
i guess for me
what it was was a recount of an occurence
which for me was something that i found pretty much
an ignorant comment on the commentator
but still soemthign that i found pretty damn offending
i guess when you dont realise what you're saying
and dont take into the fact that there are situations
surrounding everyone
the baggage of their lil bubble world which they carry
everywhere they go with them
the mental baggage that affects what they do and think
and when the extra stress of the passing of a loved one
that's something that well
its soemthing that you cant really in a passing comment
joke about the reactions of someone to the loss
its something you cant compare
what with different relations between different people
i understood the reasoning behind the comment
for the usual sakes of comfort
in the dealing of grief
but when you first meet someone
should that really be the thing really said from the start?
and something to joke about?
the reactions of any single person to pain??
so really these days
i wonder where the compassion has gone in some

nite..
*hugs*

Mirrors, Reflections, Truthes, Opinions and Aussie Day

Post-post WARNING: VVVVVVV long post
(worst so far)
due to the fact that there's like 2 articles
from the paper that've been included..

For the last few days
i guess the title sorta sums up
what i've been thinking of the last few-ish days
meanwhilst lina's been wondering
why i wont rite in full paras
the multitude of dots tho
if the text started moving
it mite slighly seem like some hypnotic illusion

Illusions..
Don't you love the those mirrors in those amusement parks?
like i the house of mirrors?
yep i know that you know what im talking about
tho cant really say that their illusions..
more of disortions?
but anyways
when you look into a mirror it just reminds me
makes me think of reflections
(mind you this is coming from someone who
rarely looks into mirrors in the standard day
they're sorta more like objects in the house
you walk past and ignore
hmmm.. could be why i look at my reflection
in windows on the street? maybe? :S)
hmm funny that.. ive yet one to publish..

but anyways..
with the curved mirrors everyone knows that you see a distortion
yet when you look into a plain mirror you just think that what
you see is what is really there..
well ok.. it is what with it turing out to be
the upright, unskewered and same size
but its back to front
and well if you angle a mirror over
you see different things instead of your reflection
sorta like those seeing things in those submarines?
im getting more and more lost for words by the day
due to lack of school..
what ever little vocab i had to start with
has totally diminished..

anyways
back to the mirrors..
so what you see reflected.
sorta like when you look back on yourself
you can see different things
when you look and think back and
when the mirrors tilted all you could possibly see
is some totally pessimistic view of what your life has been
or could just be the idealistic view of what you think others see
something that's totally unrealistic
or
you could just be the realistic one
self analysing and
know what you're like and understand yourself pretty well
and the reflection you see is pretty much the same
and yet.. despite that
its horizontally inverted (yay physics! not)
so there are those discrepancies that are there
but its pretty much down pat

when you "reflect" what you see..
everyone has their past
or their features that they dislike
it makes you sqirm or just feel a plain dislike
but its part of what's formed who you are
or more of what you see as yourself
and yet..
over time what you see changes
everyone grows up..
well not exactly..
more of everyone changes all the time
a slight accident and you're reflection
could be completely different
or something arranged to be done
(hehe.. wisdom teethe removal
AND eye thingy in the same hols?!)
events occur and what you see for that moment may change
and visiting the amusement parks?
its a sudden distortion
and you're reflection's entirely twisted and bent
so as you "age" your "reflection" changes
how you see yourself and how you think others see you
but what you see reflecting back one moment that was once there
might not be some time later
just like memories that fade
they either stay or they change to something else

i've said before that there's nothing time can't heal
just that the degree of healing varies
whether physical or the emotional or other..
but sometimes wounds get reopened
and relapses do occur.
and on that i think im totally offtrack
from my intentional first point which relates to reflections

-

in the last few days, what with work and all..
i found the opinions section and the letters to the editor
is pretty interesting..
mind you once again.. we dont usually get newspaper at home
other than the community one of which most of the time
i dont bother opening them anyways
and for why they're interesing?

and well on Aust day..
typing these articles out
sitting here i can stilll hear the shouts of
"Aussie! Aussie! Aussie! Oi! Oi! Oi!"
eminating through my window from the neighbours house
i guess the two articles below from the opinion section
of the West on Tuesday sorta well its slightly relavent..

- Flags are meant to be flown, not worn -
Paul Murray

Flags, like all powerful symbols, can be troublesome. Just look at the swastika. More than 60 years after Hitler there are regular moves within the European Union to ban it. And the last time that push raisted its head, it was met with calls to ban the hammer and sickle as well.

For some reason the Rising Sun flag with the radiating red arms makes me feel uncomfortable. The emblematic nature of a flag can make it a rallying call for a range of passionate issues not overtly described within its borders.

One of the continuing controversies between Greece and the Republic of Macedonia is over the symbol called the Star of Vergina, rediscovered by archeologists in 1977. Both countries claim it as their link to Alexander the Great and his father, King Phillip. So that dispute dates back to 336BC at least.

Our flag is much newer, but it can be just as potent. Many of those who provoked the first incidents in the Cronulla race riots on December 11,2005, were draped in the national flag. They proved the aphorism that patriotism - misplaced - is the last refuge of the scoundrel.

Prime Minister John Howard does not oppose the burning of the national flag as legitimate form of protest, but he was put on the spot about using it as provocative symbol in an exchange with Ellen Fanning on Channel 9's A Current Affair the day after the riots.

Fanning: "Part of what was chilling yesterday was seeing a lot of people in between the violence doing things that you'd see at the cricket, singing 'Aussie, Aussie, Aussie, Oi, Oi, Oi', wrapping themselves in the Australian Flag. What do you say to people who use the Australian Flag in that way?"

Mr Howard: "Look, I would never condemn people for being proud of the Australian flag. I don't care - I would never condemn people for being proud."

Fanning: "What if they've got a beer in one hand and a baseball bat in the other?"

Mr Howard: "Now hang on. What I condemn is loutish behaviour, criminal behaviour, and what should happen, is, the people who committed crimes yesterday should be caught, if possible, and punished."

Fears of a similar outbreak have led the organisers of a Big Day Out concert in Sydney this week to make it known that the flag is unwelcome after a series of racist incidents last year.

"The Australian flag was being used as gang colours," event organiser Ken West said, "It was racism disguised as patriotism and I'm not going to tolerate it." Fresh in his mind also was the clash between young Australians of Serbian and Croatian extraction - some draped in those national flags - clashing at the Australian Open tennis last week.

The bottom line is that flags were not meant to be worn. When a flag is removed froma proper place of respect it becomes open to misuse. It wasn't Pauline Hanson's maiden speech that alerted me to the pernicious nature of her politics. It was when I first saw her wrapped in the flag.

Athletes now regularly drape a flag over themselves for a victory lap. All of this leads to the situation where the flag's power is harnessed for an individual's own purposes.

If we had proper civics education in our schools we might have a chance of teaching people about the correct use of our national symbols. We legislatively protect the name ANZAC from misuse, but there is no such protection for the flag.

Asking that the flag used as it was intended is not un-Australian, but quite the opposite. The Big Day Out concert is not an Australia Day concert. It is not even being held on Australia Day. That said, any suggestion of banning our flag from the public place is provocative and unworkable.

However, politicians and the RSL would do well to start talking about true respect for the flag instead of joining the jingoistic chorus.

- Big Day Out in a True Blue Flap -
Gerard Henderson
Director of The Sydney Institute.

Talk about backing a loser.
The organisers of the Big Day Out concert in Sydney on Thursday were on a hiding to nothing when they indicated that the Australian flag would not be welcome at the Sydney gig but would be welcome when the event travels to other cities (including Perth on February 4).

The reaction was so predictable that it should have been predicted by the Big Day Out team.

John Howard condemned the decision on Sunday and yesterday Opposition Leader Kevin Rudd weighed into the debate by describing it as "political correctness gone mad".

NSW Premier Morris Iemma and Opposition Leader Peter Debnam joined in the chorus.

In recent years there seems to have been a surge of patriotism in Australia, especially among the young. This whould be distinguished from nationalism, which usually has an ideological connotation.

Patriotism essentially involved citizents of a nation feeling good about their society. As such, patriotism is almost always a healthy phenomenon. In Australia it has been associated with both the waving and the wearing of the Australian flag.

It's true that, on occasions, the flag has been associated with acts of intolerance. But these are exceptions since Australia is a remarkably tolerant and accepting society.

The statistics tell the story. In Australia ethnically motivated crime is relatively low and inter-marriage between virtually all groups in our multicultural society is relatively high.

Australia Day has become an occasion when citizens celebrate the nation's success. No doubt, the feel-good factor has been propelled in recent years by the fact that Australia has experienced some 15 years of economic growth and the unemployment rate has more than halved in this process.

In other words, there are plenty of reasons to feel good.

In spite of this, a sense of alienation still prevails in the land. This phenomenon is rarely found among the less well-off groups in the community but abounds within the sections of the financially comfortable intelligentsia - humanities department academics, writers, artists, journalists and so on.

At the moment there is a tendency among sections of the intelligentsia to declare that Australia is intolerant, even racist, society and that Australians are inherently unhappy despite their relative economic wellbeing.

What's more, the suggestion is that Australians are not smart enough to know just how suppressed and unhappy they really are.

If anyone is in any doubt about just how foolish we all are, turn to the month of February in Michael Leunig's 2007 Calendar. There the cartoonist depicts a man on a soapbox smugly proclaiming that "you only need to fool a majority of people for one day every few years - and you've got a democracy!"

The statement is appreciated by the audience, who welcome the pronouncement with the fascist salute. Get it? We're all too foolish to know that we have been manipulated into believing we live in a democracy when, in fact, we reside in some kind of dictatorship.

There are many variations on this theme. Writing in The Age on September 9 last year, playwright Stephen Sewell proclaimed that "it is difficult, contemplating contemporary events, not to despair of the human adventure" and alleged that we have all failed in "the civilising of our own barbarous spirit". Sewell claims that "the real source of hope in any society is the artist" and regrets that artists like him are "being replaced by hacks, drones, spin doctors and media manipulators as the generators and regurgitators of an official culture".

Shame, eh? Even so, the artist still makes a living in the taxpayer-subsidised theatre industry. So life can't be so bad, surely?

A year ago, Wollongong University humanities academic Peter Kell claimed that "an ugly, racist version of Australian nationalism is alive and well" in Sydney and referred to contemporary Australia's "bigoted, intolerant and selfish attitudes" in a nation that has "broken apart". He implied some of these problems might be abated if the Commonwealth Government spent more money on universities and, of course, humanities departments.

In his 2006 Stephen Murray-Smith Lecture, author and journalist Martin Flanagan referred to Australia as a country "afflicted with blindness that needs repair", detected "weird things in our national psyche" and referred to "the awful despair that now lies at the heart of our nation".

In The Guardian last Friday, the leftist journalist John Pilger wrote about the "regression" of Australia's "social democracy into a state of fabricated fear and xenophobia" which should be "an object lesson for all societies claiming to be free".

Novelist Frank Moorhouse presents a much more measured critique of Australia in his essay in the September 2006 issue of teh Griffith Review.

He criticises his colleagues who present "an unwillingness to believe that Australia is seriously threatened by terrorism" and he describes the use of the term fascism as "one of the most carelessly used political expressions in Australia".

Even so, Moorhouse believes that the Commonwealth and State anti-terror laws mean that "the Government will probably have to send some of us to jail" just because he and his fellow artists "speak their minds". An unlikely prediction.

THe fact is, as Sewell knows, the Government is not that interested in what artists say. Rather, it is focused on what real terrorists might do.

Australia Day, once again, is likely to prove the doomsaying members of the intelligentsia wrong. Increasingly January 26 is coming to depict the success of multicultural Australia.

The problem is that some alienated intellectuals continually project their personal unhappiness with Australian society on the overwhelming majority of the citizens who rejoice in their citizenship.

It is likely that Australians will continue to put out more flags irrespective of the Big Day Out.

Interesting huh?
the flag and apparent patriotism..
i guess the main reasons for the compulsion
to put them on the blog
is the fact that it feels relavent to thoughts ive had before
the fact that there's the apparent multiculturalism
and at the same time sometiems slights of the whole racism thing
like you cant reject the whole idea that aust is multicultural
but at the same time you cant say that everyone is entirely accepting
the majority is that everyone is friendly
but there will always be times taht for some reason or the other
and well the other person on the receiving end can take it as they like

on the flag
the thing is that i sort of do agree.
with the title of the first article
"flags should be flown not worn"
not that im against the flag being printed on shirts
but more of the whole flags being tied around shoulders
im not totally AGAINST it..
its tolerable but something that shouldnt really be done
is how i see it i guess

i dunno i just see it as something thats
pretty much disrespectful..
the fact that under that flag many people had died
to serve the country and yet..
the flag is wrapped around the people
and other times
being turned to items of clothing
such as flags sewn together to make tops/skirts/sarongs
and even the aust flag print as a bikini
like a flag printed on a t-shirt is ok
and yeah people are proud bout being aust
that's understandable
i'm proud too
just that i wouldnt actually wear it in such a way

and well the fact that it occurs
i could just push the blame
as one does :P
and just say that people cant see the significance in it
or they do and well just dont feel
the need to respect it the same way in which i do
everyone to their own
but you can also blame on the lack of knowledge
not knowing due to not being taught
it doesnt just represent a country that you live in
it represents all those who've died in war
and the history of the place
values n beliefs.. and im rambling on that..

i guess in a way i can say that i've been lucky
to have actually gotten the chance
to learn what i've learnt
getting a pretty good education to from what i hear
of other students and their memories of primary school
or just that those individuals forgot how primary school was

but
i remember in preprimary..
one of the earliest things i learnt
was the words to the australian anthem
we had a class where every afternoon we learnt one line
repeating it over and over and over and over
and the lines we'd learnt previously
until we'd memorised every line up until where we'd learnt
and then going home everyday
proudly reciting to mum what i'd learnt that day
the new line and what each word had meant
the entire meaning of the anthem
well the first of the five verses that is
and yet
you hear on the radio these days
people wondering what the word "girt" means
or that they dont know the full words
to the first verse of the aust anthem
and yet there's those who run around with the pride
and yet lack of knowledge
im surprised
and its not like the resources arent out there
the fact that ive even seen a BOOK
with pix and all showing the aust anthem
and explainign the meanings of the lines
in the CHILDRENS library
so why dont people know?
they just werent taught in primary school like i did??
so i guess im lucky i know the first two verses now dont i?
and yet..
i wonder how i could be labelled
as someone who doesnt love my home country?
ah well..
just cos i say its boring dont mean i dont love it :D
just isnt that much stuff around to do..

and the flag?
i remember as a primary school student
in year three the first day of school
was that instead of being
introduced to all the ways of the year
we were each handed out a copy of the Australian Flag
and were told to colour it in..
nope no hard work..
just colouring in a flag
i looked at it and recognised it
but i didnt understand they were there fore
and yep
in that afternoon we had the explaination
of what the union jack, the southern cross
and federation star were and meant
and yet im surprised that recently
i was asked by someone a few years younger than me
that means highschool student yeah?
bout how the 5 starts relates to the states and terrortories
AGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
they got the southern cross mixed up with the fed star !!
-.-
*sigh*
how can you not know how the flag works??

anyways...
despite my amazement
i was even more amazed to hear that a friend
was learning which oceans were where again
good thing she was refreshing her memory
but then i realised when i asked her
that she'd never actually learning
DESPITE the fact that
i had to memorise them in primary school
AND you needed to know where they were for
YEAR EIGHT geog
i had to know htem in year FIVE
a GRADUATE from HIGHSCHOOL
didnt know what the oceans were or where they were.
what the HELL is wrong with people's learning?
she claimed to have spent year SEVEN playing with playdough
for science
*sigh*
i had crappy science teacher in year seven
never actually get to do the experiments
but we still had to do the write ups
so what the heck??
is there such a god damned difference
in the primary school standards???

oh and before you say anything
to even out the odds of the possible
private vs. public education clash
its clarified i graduated a public primary school
so why?? why such wide standard differences?
i dont understand that
and it primary school..
you raise the flag
have the roster duty for bell ringing
you have the class camps
you should also have the general basic knowledge
of your country's own anthem and flag
that is if you're proud to be a citizen
not spending the time sewing flags together
to make garments
just for a single event where there's tendency
for people to binge drink.
celebrate yes.. but reasonably please??

of which today (Sat 27th)
found an amusing cartoon in the paper..
couldnt resist ^^



since lina's complaining on the size of my post
and the fact that im typing this is restricting her convo
and use of the keyboard i shall stop

ok
nite nite
*hugs*
-Del

Religious Missonaries..

(Edit: this is an old post from 21st July 2006
wanted to write something..
but didnt have a topic atm..
so picked up the end of this lovely rant and rave
so some of the detail may be out)

you know i'd just love to talk bout my oh so brilliant life
*cough cough*
and bore everyone out there..
so yep
found an alternative to bore you with..
:D
my vent on ...
*drum rolls*

Religious Missionaries

well...
i guess you coulda jsut read from the title..
but anyways..

it was round lunch-time
i was just strolling along..
down my street..
with earfones on ears...
reading the newspaper.. (the local one)
happily making my way to the resto..
and then along came these two guys in suits..
didnt notice em..
till they went and stopped me..
i was like ?.?
one of the guys just starts talkin..
Note: italics = think speak

guy in suit: hi.. im a missionary

me:uhhuh.. and..? hi :D

guy in suit: We'd like it if you'd join us some time

me:um what the? . . .

guy in suit: Here's our card *hands me card and smiles*

me: *looks at card* OH.. ok.. *walks off quickly*

it was the dear blessed mormons..
:S
how did they know i wasnt christian?
i was reading the paper with albie's headphones on
listening to music
does that make me a sinner? :P
that needs to be saved?
i look at the card.
it had a picture of a lovely builidng
with purple background lights
sorta looks like a castle looking thing
it sorta looked like half way between
some glamourised hotel to a castle
with purple lights in the background

hmmm..
do mormons have like special attire and dress regulations?
coz other than that..
how can you pick out a non-mormon...
what if i was christian?
why would i need saving from the same god that they're preaching?
i could've been a non-obvious christian
who isnt wearing a cross..
why would i wanna join?

hmmm.. im slightly on the bias...
or more than slightly

superior-complex?
why is it that some people think they oh so better?
wait.. just do that and it ups your own self esteem..
can be good i guess then.. means less suicides?
probs not..

what if the lives we're living arent the right answer
and yet we're going out there distributing our way of life
when its wrong in the first place

ok im leaving it here
coz i dunno what im saying anymore
and the train of thought keeps getting derailed..
so the actual effort of putting it back on track
repeatedly has just gone.. kaput..
anyways
nite nite
*hugs*

Blood Thirst...

No.. not really
just a sudden rethought bout blood typing and personality links
something that i'd come across a while back
on my flicking thru the net in search for personality tests
and those lovely quiz fillers that always manage to pop up :)
and well..

well, i'm an O, that i know of

Answer 1:

BLOOD TYPE "0"-- Yummy hot
*Sociable
*energetic
*extroverted
*frank
*realist
*showy
*flighty
*generalist
*makes friends easily
*goes with flow and grasps opportunity
*flexible
*quick to start a project or chase an idea
*when prospects are bad are first to bail out
*may have short attention span
*express strong emotions and may quickly take opposite view
*declarations are deep but not always durable
*classic entrepreneur
*movers and shakers
*move from place to place
*express their emotions but can be swayed by other blood types
*has an intrinsic elegance
*sociable
*may be performer
*some good at crime
*adapt to circumstance
*words come easily to them
*not self conscious
*frank reveal inner feelings
*ambitious
*realist
*material is more important than intellectual
*may have problem with detail

Answer 2:

Type O's are outgoing, and very social. They are initiators, although they don't always finish what they start. Creative and popular, they love to be the center of attention and appear very self confident.

Answer 3:

Type O people are innocent in a good sense. They can get away after being impolite due to their innocent looks. They are romantics, and are realistic too. When they tell their future plans, their friends do not take it seriously, but finally they 'make it' with their ability to act. They revel in work and there's hardly anything they can't do with their open eyes and alert brains.

Answer 4:

Type O "Hot"
Advantages:
*confident
*strong-willed
*judgmental
*dedicated
*self-deterministic.

Disadvantages:
*workaholic
*insecure
*emotional
*stubborn
*uncompromising
*cold personality
*over-confident
*self-centered (hmm -.-)

Facts:
Roughly 38% of the world is O negative and 6% O positive.

Traits:
*Sociable
*energetic
*extroverted
*frank
*realist
*showy
*flighty
*generalist
*makes friends easily
*goes with flow
*grasps opportunity
*Quick to start a project or chase an idea
*When prospects are bad, they may be the first to bail out
*May have short attention span
*expresses strong emotions
*May quickly take opposite views that are deep but not always durable
*Classic entrepreneur
*overs and shakers
*move from place to place
*Expresses their emotions but can be swayed by other blood types
*Has an intrinsic elegance.
*Sociable and showy.
*May be good at adapting to circumstances. (i think their key word was "may")
*Words come easily to them.
*Not self conscious and will frankly reveal inner feelings.
*Ambitious, but may have issues with detail.

Summary:
*Positive
*worrier
*active
*strongly purpose oriented
*independent
*risk-takers
*has a dramatic life
*dislikes subordination
*can be self-centered
*is romantic
*expressive and straight
*Very strong sense of purpose
*influenced by peers
*good at organizing activities
*very proud
*Likes to touch and be touched by others.

Del bored? yep *nods*
sorta i guess
more of i found one result
so mite as well look at what other sites say
tho then again..
some of them turned out exactly the same anyways..
Maybe they sourced from the same book? eg. Answer 1 and 4
tho i cant remember the site addy for 1 coz i got that one a while back
but they were diff websites
tho i sourced em for people of different blood types..
but O's most common anyways..
(The pair of recessive alleles!
and well co-dominance is like less likely anyways)
if they were true than that would really limit the personalites
that are around the world
and it would mean its genetic huh?
im just curious at what people would actually type me
if it was to be believed

ah well
c ya
*hugs*
-Del

I'm the best!

Ok, reading just the title, and seeing a slight bit of punctuation, I bet you can already figure whose blogging this time. ITS ME!!

Woot. I'm doing engineering this year. How un-nerdy. And I mean it :D I love math to the core, so YES!

Adella sounds like a mixture of peoples in her past few posts.

• Mona. The hyperactiveness.
• Scarlet. Blogging about nothing much, and not achieving anything in the process either. (sorry honey - Adella; but thats the truth y'all)

I just got home an hour ago or so. My legs hurt. Stood for 12 hours straight. Sigh........what I do for money. lol. But work is fun. Think about it, I get to check out the hot boyfriends of these hell ano and beautifully bombastic chicks. What could get better than that? Eyecandy of both genders! Woot. ( if by now you haven't noticed...there was a slight amount of sarcasm in there...)

Anyhow, since Adello did draw attention to the consistency of my LENGTHY posts, I must standardise all my posts. Therefore, I shall end it HERE.

Pho Addict

damnit..
now that i did write something before..
i wanna continue writing..

UGH.. the resto's been closed so long
and i miss the dear food
but its opening again soon yay!!
cant wait..
could be coz my usual dosage of it is like
min of 4-5 times a week
that's practically = EVERY DINNER
see? point taken..
and during exams..
was like one for every lunch too
and take that times last bout like 5 years
i miss the food!!

hmm hard to really type anything
when you're chatting huh?
its sorta like back to the days when a convo
means that my blog post ends up as like what?
some 3-5 liner?
tho then again i realised most of scar's posts on my blog
are all bout the same length.. talk bout consistency :P

eh..
well its hols.. nothing much on my mind
so cya
nite nite
*hugs*
-Del

Babble.. Babble and more Babble

Mmm.
well guess these days with longer gaps between posts
its coz im writing too much detail
on TOO much that has actually happened
and well with the want of doing year recaps as well
the half of last month has well been dropped as a draft
as well as a double year recap that's been taking me ages

SO..
in the last few days..
nothing's happened much.
other than sleep in.. work.. home. net n SLEEP

work:
in one day i cant believe i managed to go from hyper high
down to bottomless pit low of sleepiness in HALF AN HOUR

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mhm that was about 10 days ago..
and i guess i cant help but continue the trend
that scar once mentioned but WAY late.
which was post after her
but hey my blog... sorta assumed i guess

you'd think after all this time i'd have something to say?
no not really

yep i got my uni offer yesterday
and got my first pref.. yay..

i guess whenever you stop doing something
or just lower the frequency..
it just drops outta routine
not like i have one atm anyways..
but still
actually
just started one.
which is means that i dont have to work full day now
only the arvo shift now since parents have
made lina take the morning shift
so that's a good thing so that i get a bitta a sleep in

i lie.. i lie and i part lie
and i tell truths..
hmm.. versions of truths??

what's on my mind?
well post wise there as been a topic that's been
going round and round and round my head
i started a post for it.
but it just went into the dust bin
maybe some other time
i just sorta dunno how to express it atm
or more of if i started rambling
it'd take ages till i actually decided its done

could also be the reason
why ive avoided blogging these days?
it just seems so much easier to not write
or leave it hanging?
esp since its since i hvae to go out to work later anyways

think i'll just leave this one here.
right where it is..
cya
-Del

Hello, hi, how do you do

There's three happy draft posts sitting in Adella's dashboard, which she has failed to finish any again. Hurahh. heh. Yeh right.

Anyhow, I'm not impressed with the whole "you can now sign into blogger using your gmail account". I avoided moving to the new blogger for as long as I could, but when I wanted to blog in Adella's blog, I had to move. Oh and might I say, yay for tags! (not...)

First round offers in one week exactly! Ohhhh I'm so impatient!

I need a haircut.

Material - a - plenty

hmm so much for the start of my post a few before..
where i said:

i am both outta stuff to say
as well as experiences to experience
as i spend most of my time in the similar enviroment
and yet the running out of material is also
something which was also repeated from sometime before..

the last few weeks have been so busy and enjoyable
i either spend my time thinking about what i could possibly write..
(oh yes im sad..)
or just be out having heaps of fun...
and not realising how fast time is passing
since some days i dont even think at all

30 Nov: Self obsession: CONFIRMED
1 Dec: Gar's Beach B'day Celeb thingy..
1-6 Dec: Albie Over in Perth
3 Dec: Daylight Savings Officially In
7-10 Dec: Hale Sony
12 Dec: Collegian and Leavers Book Collection
13 Dec: Wisdom Teeth Removal
14 Dec: Uncle and Grandpa Arrived
17-19 Dec: James n Ann over
20 Dec: Dinner at James n Ann's
21 Dec: Back to Work

Note: due to the late-ness of the typings of these recounts
there are possible mistakes as well as different view points
to the time when events actually occured

= 30 Nov: Self obsession: CONFIRMED =
yes i have a blog about my life
yes i talk endlessly bout myself
yes i have had a blog post ON my own possible self obsession..
yes i am a cam whore (nat confirmed this)
yes im a possible poser
and all the signs point to ----> YES

oh and guess what i managed to do that same day??
i did as my previous post yonks ago talked bout..
i walked along the street..
and BANG..
i did that cartoon thing..
where some dude stares at this girl whilst walking
and walks into a pole..
cept in my case..
i was staring at my own reflection
*sigh*

oh and managed to actually think up points on..

"how to spot del"
bored? yes i am at work.. :D

= 1 to 6 Dec: Albie Over in Perth =
just like K said..
after the long awaited time albie arrived!
well in perth insteada brissy

- 1 Dec -
the first day... albie arrived at 9pm so nothing to really talk bout

- 2 Dec -
Picked albie up bright n early..
and well late on our account..
went to chinese and well for albie
had a minor issue with food
with meat n temple and all
tho non intentional..
just didnt want 2 plates of sandwiches and cheese platter
to go to waste
tho as nicely intended as an aunty wanted to be bout the issue
i really didnt wanna hear
since it was a mistake of which originally
i wondering if cheese could be eaten there
and didnt realise there was meat there
or the fact that the sandwiches had meat

sadly on that day kura had work
so she couldn come
and a whole bunch of others couldnt either
so me jess lina and albie
went for drinks mainly..
missing out on the happpy hour kareoke
and all i can say is "let it snow!!"
mahjong and snows all the way

stretching a few hours
we went for dinner then
the sushi train buffet
of which afterwards
still being really light
we decided to try out our hand
at the possiblity of getting a room for ktv again
and luckily we did get a room
tho ive got a sneaking suspicion that they charged us
a lil to much time

singing for bout 2 hours n half
i think jess n i once again hogged all the songs
but ah well
ray joined us later in the nite
so really he paid an extra bit for when he wasnt there
ah well
n well
home time really was jess first
then ray n albie me n lina on the train

ray if my memory serves me right
wanted to spar against albie at the train station
-.- no comment AT ALL
tho i think that in itself expresses my opinion
and some random approached us
of which that same random got on the same train as us (minus ray)
and picked a fight with some other dude..
and albie stepped in..
something new of an experience in the end..
sometimes i just feel like a cotton ball child
but then again im not exactly

- 3 Dec: Daylight Savings -
this day totally screwed me up
i got so confused with the times
and since kura was coming to my house some time in the morning
well that woulda meant i sorta had to be up n ready
BEFORE she came..
cept i confused from her last explaination
whether it was 8 and 9 normal time
or 9 and 8 normal time

anyways..
then as albie went off to freo markets with lisa
me kura and lina spent our times roaming the streets
window shopping mainly
and well eating and drinking as well
i seriously think that of all the times i go out
the most money i spend is most likely to be all on food n drinks
coz i swear on this day i managed like 5 snow drinks
and with bout $5 bux each on average
i had spent bout $25 on snow
*sigh*

so in the morning kura got dropped off at my place
and uncle kindly offered us a lift down to claremont
i think its more he'd prefer drop his daughter off
then let del the irresponsible take his daughter on a bus
and then suddenly get lost in the middle of claremont

went for a breaky granita..
tho im not sure if it should be counted as breaky
what with the ice and my with my sick-ish-ness
hmm i just have a tendency for ice related things when im sick

so me lina and kura went off to the city after
in search of xmas prezzies..
or just window shopping in general
and a few errands for me
wandering our way round and round and round the city
till albie jess and ray came

went off to zone 3
where in the end
kura and lina didnt play
and ray got haunted by his "schoolmates"
kura got picked up during hte middle of the game
and then off the three of us went for drinks
which i think in the end we went back to the utopia in the city
where we bumped in to vina

got our dear snows
and went off for some dinner..
and met up with vina again
to which we had to leave her all over again
coz she had to meet up with her mum
so we offed and went for some pool
and jemmy joined in.

played for a bit..
and time for sorta a late dinner

- 4 Dec -
albie started work this day..
and well i think i had supposed work whilst lina had school
but in the end we organised to off to cott beach
well really last min thing
so...
picked up lina from school and brought her beach stuff..
since she didnt pack the nite before..
to find she didnt like th stuff i grabbed
so we had to detour back to the house and be late..
only to find in the end..
that it turned out ok
as albie had the dear task of picking up jess n kura
so that they could come too.
thanx so much albie!
you know..
you've already got the qualifications of a pro chauffeur :P

had quite a fun time at the beach in the evenin..
cept for the fact that we realised that with
such a strong wind.. the sand sorta became a minor sand storm?
oh the pain :(
tho i soon found quite a lotta joy in a game called
"bury raymond alive" :P
and well..
everyone joined in and we made a giant transexual mermaid..
oh the joys of sand sculpturing :P

meaning to get everyone home by 7 or 8..
we ended up leaving the beach round 8 or 9
and being peckish..
piled up into albie's car and off we were shipped to nb
for dinner and icecream

dinner was pretty much dinner
went for korean bbq
of which sadly they ran outta the seaweed :'(
but in the end.
after a few hassles over the actual cooking of the dinner..
food was good
no one got sick
and we had ICECREAM!!!

- 5 Dec -
a day i can remember even less..
tho albie had work..
and me n lina had speech nite

and it was back into the uniform
that i thought i wouldnt EVER wear again..
for the LAST time:
*i wear the school uniform officially as a student
*i sung Per Adua Ad Alta
*had to pray as a group
*had to put up with "refreshments" = crappy cookies
*see everyone else in the uniform
*blend into the sea of green

but i got to proceed thru with the procession
which was a plus
and CONGRATS!! to dear chewy with all her prizes
we all knew that she could do it :D

and well it was the first ever speech nite
that i sat in the audience to watch
after all..
i didnt go in yr 8 and the rest of the yrs
i was in the mass choir

afterwards was the refreshments obviously
and well. it was sorta pix galore to some degree

- 6 Dec -
Albie had finished his work early today
so out he went for movies
meanwhilst i had hale sony training
mainly a pre camp briefing..

since mum had work
she decided to drop me off early
bout half an hour before it started
arriving there early i didnt really have anything to do
well until i came across sarah f.
turns out she was gonna stay the whole camp
she saw me.. n started a whole convo
talked pretty well..
SHE KNEW MY NAME
n well off i sat down to wait for ppl to come
there was ants, liss, beth, nat n yun

starting off with ice breakers
we had those interesting lil get to know you games
n well i got to know a few ppl
and managed to find a primary school friend
in amongst the meeting of everyone
so yeah..
got to see max again
guess im pretty lucky to see so many primary
and secondary school class mates again in the last few weeks

after recess
decided to ask the head person if i could have one night off
and she said yes in the end
coz it was for a wedding that i found out about
the week before
all was going good
i was allowed to go
and well..
somewhere along the lines during lunch time
it managed to travel to sarah fletcher's dear ears
and well..

suddenly she was sorta like
"you could i have a talk with you"
and went and checked my name tag n all..
hmm i wonder.. was it just for appearances sake?
that she didnt know me?
or had temporary amnesia from the morning?

*sigh*
yep i was on the road to guilt trip..
what with the whole
"aren't weddings planned earlier?"
true that.. but i only found out the week before
and i was busy then with work
coz a staff member had suddenly left
"you shoulda informed us so we could replace you"
it was ONE night..
which happened to be "disco night"
they dont need an assistant for that
they have plenty already
and as an afternote i didnt do much
but just stuff round that nite either
and if you were worried bout getting in and out?
duty of care?
my mum was picking me up at 8 and dropping me off in a few hours
the kids are in bed round 8 anyways
and us being around just apparently supplies
excessive stimulus anyways..
did i feel outta the way?
yes i did in the end quite a few times
in a huffle and a puffle
the rest of the training day
was more briefing
and we had to do a CPR course
played a bitta pool...
damn the hale boarding house is pretty nice
what with 3 pool tables??

got home
n albie picked me up
and off we went to supposedly ice skating
but...
ice skating closed
so back we went to cindy's appartment
made spaghetti..
played pictionary..
dear albie bought himself a set in perth
so we played
raymond kept shouting at me :(
damnit..
and its not like he could draw
oh and his highpitched voice ringin around
screaming incomprehensible things
when he was trying to draw didnt help the nerves
so albie lina and jess won a round
then next game was a really close one
where jess lina and raymond were leading
only to be beaten by me n albie
yay!!

nn time passed
we had a lil down time
jus sit n chat

then it was time for albie to go
right after a pillow fight :P
but i accidentally left
the majong decorated back massaging stick thingy
at cindy's place :(
sorry K it was for you..
tho dunno why..
but that's the point
i sadly left it there

ok i think i'll leave the rest till later
or nothing'll ever be published
*hugs*
nite nite

The History of Del

Yes.
i found another thing off friendster bulletins.
but cmon..
there's not gonna be any posts from me for a while..
since im still preoccupied actually typing up a
"last few weeks" recap..
which has already taken me days since i've had so little time
and there's so much to write about..
so here's an aside
and without further ado.
i present:

History Lessons in a Blog Post
Subject of the Day: Del

Were you a planned baby?
no idea..

Were you the first?
Definately..!
well..
unless there's some lonely kid out there
who's been adopted.. or like i dunno..
living on the street??

Who was present at your birth?
beats me.. my mind dont stretch that far

Were your parents married when you were born?
Yep they were

What is your birthdate?
check the sidebar dear.

Part 2: The Family

Are your parents married or divorced?
married.

An only child?
thank god no.

If you have siblings are you oldest,middle,or youngest?
oldest

Which parent to do you get along with the most?
Daddy. I'm daddy's lil angel :P
See the halo above my head?

What do you fight about?
the most random things..
tho i think its me who's just way too picky
and lina who refuses to buy anything
then scabs off me
or the fact that lina says i waste money..
yeah.. guess im a bitta a spend thrift
but mainly over doing things
ooo i know one HOUSE WORK
who's turn it is.. and how much each should do

Do you have step parents?
nope. none. zilch. nada. zip-boing.

Part 3: The Friends

Do you have a best friend?
nope.. im just a sad lil loner..
who is too shy or scared to get close to anyone.
well.. no in that no total definite BEST friend
but my friends? you know who you are :D
*hugs*

What do you like to do when you are together?
whatever there is to be done..
anything's fine with me

Do you share the same interests?
some.. some not..
tho we stick together all the same

Which friend can you tell everything to?
shh.. its a secret!!

Part 4: Your Personality

How high/low is your self esteem on a scale of 1 - 10
its a rollercoaster i think...
it goes up then down.. then up.. then down again
tho atm? hanging just on about a 5-ish

Do you get depressed about things easily?
depends on what the thing is...

Are you happy?
at times.

Do you live life to the fullest?
depends on how you define "fullest"
coz i just think no matter what you do..
you can always think of something that you could've done
that woulda been more fulfilling..

Part 5: Appearance

Are you comfortable with the way you look?
at times.

Describe your hair?
black. straight. bit longer than shoulder length

How do you dress?
um... however i feel?

Part 6: The Past

Were you a strange child?
maybe.

Was there anything in your past that was traumatizing?
Bullying. that's traumatising! *nods*

Part 7: The Future

What is your ambition?
none atm. well actually..
at the current moment..
to get my cousin outta his house before this hols end..
coz ive never been out with him.

Are you scared of growing older?
the sound of being TWENTY seems SO freaking OLD
nah not really..
it comes when it comes.. i dont really mind..
just as long as i dont go from
a sudden --teen to like eighty or somethign like that :)


Do you want to get married?
sometime in the neardistant future..
tho DEF not now

Do you want kids?
probably.. but not anytime soon

If so, How many?
truthfully..no idea

Part 8: The Outdoors

Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?
both.. just depends on what's on and around
winter and out doesnt seem to go together that well for me

Favorite Season?
depends on the place..
and how the season is like in that place..
where i live? mm summer n autumn

Do you like walking in the rain?
nope. COMPLETELY HATE IT.
tho indoors n rain is good..
or.. if it must be rain..
a slight summer shower is ok :)

Part 9: Food

Are you a vegetarian?
not at all. tho i still love veges

What is your favorite food?
chocolate.. and well.. any pasta

What food makes you want to gag?
some sorts of cheese.

What is your favorite dessert?
icecream!!

What is your favorite restaurant?
hmm.. dont really have one ;)

Are you a fussy eater?
yep at times.

Part 10: Relationships and Love

Do you think love is the best feeling in the world?
mmm either love or acceptance
tho they sorta go hand in hand
but you wouldnt feel em and appreciate em as much
unless you've first felt the hurt of hate n rejection

Do you believe in love at first sight?
could always happen.
after all.. pigs fly :P

Part 11: Experiences

What was one of your greatest experiences?
Music tour..Taiwan.. and travelling most of the times..
and yes.. that totals to ONE
i can count.
it goes under "going overseas" or "travelling"

What was one of the worst?
plenty.. i think quite a few could possibly go under "cadets"

have you ever done druggs?
other than caffene and medicinal? no.

Have you ever thought you were going to die?
not that i can remember.

Part 12: Favorites

What is your favorite color?
bleu.

What is your all time favorite TV Show?
no idea.

What is your favorite sport?
no idea. i like most team sports..
tho cant think of a single one..
baddy possibly?

What is your favorite sport (to watch)?
not really into watching sports..
sorta more of a bore to me..
tho the sports i remember ive watched
are either soccer, footy or basketball.

What are your favorite animals?
most.

What is your favorite thing to do?
Live. simple as that.