Disappointment...

you know thinkin bout it..
its sad that i had to jump from the last post..
being more of
"yeah the world is a horrid place but look
aren't small things pretty n can light up your life"
to this life can be disappointing..
and really
adding up from last weeks episode of house..
being that over multitudes of disappointments.
in the end you just cease to care..
just as self protection you just dont bother anymore..
(hmm def not a direct quote..
i may have just tweaked it a bit ^^")
anyways..

on either side of disappointments..
its still crappy being in such a situation..
and referring to K's post..
well there wouldnt be the good memories without the bad..
and as albie's said "in a world of happiness how would you know you're happy?"

dishing out the disappointment..
you just dont wanna have to face that person again..
that the fact that you let someone down..
and the blame is on you..
for ppl like me facing it in the end is
something i choose to avoid as much as possible..

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continuing on from last nite..
of which today i realised i missed my harp lesson AGAIN..
great thing to add on as a point of disappointment *sigh*
damnit.. del + hungry = forgetful and not feel good
lovely word equation of mine rite? :P

anyways..
feeling much more on the happy side
in comparison to what i was feeling today..
dunno was on the side of i feel crappy n dont wanna talk to ppl..
n sorta stare evils..
or stand there n watch/listen to ppl's convos
so soz to those who suffered.. namely scar..
my apologies again

on disappointment..
i really cbb any more..
so a disappointing post? :P
bleh im lame i know...
nah..
i sorta more have lost the plot of this post..
coz its sorta been a drag on over like 3 or 4 days now
since i was thinking it a few days back
and well now ive moved on..
tho what my current thought is i dunno
tho ive acheived a bit today in the means of study n hw..
but i wish i sorta started n well consistently did it earlier
and well for those who've noticed..
i sorta havent been online any time before 9 or 10 pm.
which would be due to the fact i cant get home before then
coz i go out to the resto to get hw n study done..
other wise i jus sit n stare at the screen on my desktop..

the performance thingy i had...
turned out to be pretty pointless..
well not pointless..
but a crowd of bout 60 of which 30 were bout primary school kids
with the only sound heard from the singers being 2 kids
shouting a song out into a mic sorta is well..
how will i put it?
EMBARRESSING?!!?!?
tho in a way i sorta think bout it again
and well its better to have more ppl?
then to have a duet..
or triplet..
or quartet..
so im still thankful ^^"
tho now ive got the upcoming performance in bout a month
which is for the moon cake fest..
as nice as it is to be pushed towards these things..
well they dont really look that appealing after mocks
or after study of any kind..

and just thinking bout it its just funny..
that i love singing this much..
and that as a kid i always wanted to sing
yet the opportunities dont really look that appetising..
tho could jus be song choice (school)
and well being forced (c school)
dont really look that appealling

ah well
late
n i was gonna do an early morning again
nite nite
*hugs*