Weekend at LAST!!!

its FINALLY the w/e
yay!!!

mm my week's gone by pretty crappily
i had both a lit oral and a h bio Common Task on thurs..
on wed nite i was up getting them done
(I could bring in an A4 sheet into my h bio CT)

and then
i woke up at like 5:30 am on thurs to get more done..
sent all the work to school..
and at school... in the morning..
the printers STUFFED UP..
i had a near major stress attack !
but yeah.. in the end they printed out the stuff

my h bio CT turned out ok.. i didnt even use the notes..
-.-" the fact that i woke up early to get em done sorta annoyed me..
i was running on lack of sleep..
then due to other groups taking more time than expected..
me and my partner didnt have to do our lit oral on thurs
SO much relief..
but i had a voice lesson after school..
and was told i was TOTALLY UTTERLY off tune..
and was due to tiredness and stress..
so i was like OMG !!
ah well..
guess tip for singing is no stress and tiredness
so got nowhere for that lesson..

then.. left the lesson..
went in search of my sister..
walked round the whole school
and even up to the boarding house and couldnt find her...
5 mins later i was heaps annoyed
and find her on the total opposite side of the school
with mum -.-"

so i was annoyed.. PLUS i was late for an orthodontal appt..
mm and got in a mini argument with mum over my sister and routine..

but ah well..
its ok now..

tho funnily today..
i was reading blogs..
my mum walks into the room..
and she was like "why arent you doing ure hw?"
i was like "im jus reading ppl's blogs"
and she went off on a tangent..
saying how not to read too much
saying that i could become
part of a suicidal cult from depression and reading self degrading material

so much for my mum's belief in my self esteem!!

hmm i havent talked bout today
since the lit oral was delayed..
i was sure that i had to present it today..
went into class
teacher asked what was wrong..?
coz i was fully stressed..
and i was like " i HATE orals.. im totally scared and can barely deal with em"
then teacher goes off on a patronising role liek she's meant to..
to comfort etc..
cept for me..
all that did was make me tear-y eye-d..
and im not sure if she realised it..
as she talked..
more tears welled up..
so she keeps talking...
then i sorta rudely walked out on her talking..
i HAD to go to the bathroom to wipe away the tears...

my god..
i gone from total stress and near break down..
to literal tears and crying.
talk bout instability/stress and nervous/mental breakdowns..

*sigh*
i went back to class all good..
then teacher who doesnt realise it..
went off AGAIN -.-"
i ended up CRYING ALL over again

my god..
im not sure if she realised she was partly triggering it..
i tried self composure again..
and she put in a few comforting words again..
And tears came again..

which in the end i was feeling really frustrated..
coz i wanted her to stop saying things so that i would stop crying..
cept she didnt get the point..
-.-"
so all the frustration..
i just ended up getting MORE stressed..
and got a blood nose
my day just was CRAPPY...

and these days..
i think i tend to have stress induced blood noses..
there doesnt seem to be any other possible factor other than weather..
i had a blood nose during chem test..
in the MIDDLE of the test..
and then some times when im stressed..
or tensed up.. or over excited.. tho rarely..
mainly occur due to stress..
tho only started this yr really..

ah well..
all i can say is THANK GOD for the weekend !!