PISS OFF!!!

ok..
this is totally not directed in anyone in general
but i really wanna vent this off..
well actually it is directed at someone..
just an msn contact...
who most likely doesnt read..

FUCKING HELL..
don't you get the fact that i DELETED AND BLOCKED YOU..
i DON'T wanna TALK TO YOU..
i HAVENT spoken to you AT ALL
for like nearing TWO or THREE YEARS..
and yet you add me all over AGAIN
with a DIFF EMAIL
and just say how "offended" you are that i blocked you
and you found out..
whoppiee..
fine i apologised..
and since that conversation..
where i went on a total guilt trip over blocking you...
i havent talked to you in weeks nearing months..
even tho u and i are online all the time...

dont you get the point?
i STILL dont wanna talk to you..
GO AWAY..

dont you get it?
you talk to me
and i choose not to answer the questions
and i truthfully did say that i did not wanna tell you stuff
so seriously stop asking q
i dont want anything to do with you

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ok ok
much much better
i'd like to type a full post
on actual opinions..
but since my parents are home
nite nite
*hugz*

Disgusted . . .

over and over again..
why oh why do i even find shock in it?
i mean HOW MESSED UP CAN SOME PPL GET..

ok there are really sickening ppl in the world..
but some deeds just get WAY to sickening
well ok fine SOME deeds my have a reason behind em
and you have to look at the circumstances
and both sides of the story
but sometimes just the side that is reported
just feels like its enough heard to really convict ppl
or just label them for the monster they could be OR are..

and yes..
from the single sided view of media..
watched the news this evening..
first time ever! well not really...
but first time in a long time..

anyways..
there was this story in the latter part of the news..
so not really one of those major headline things..
but still sickening...
some CARETAKER of a nursing home for the elderly
RAPED yes RAPED (ok being raped is sorta normal is

kk brb...
gotta go watch the odessy
finish later ============

and yes..
i have to get this done..
other wise yet another procrastinated post is added on to the list..
back to the news story..

Caretaker of elderly nursing home + RAPED + ...
several ELDERLY GRANDMAS!! some with a deteriorating mind =

the thought is just sickening..
over a bloody TWO month span this whole thing kept occuring
and guess what?
the elderly ladies were aged 90+
that is just plain FOUL
sexual assault towards these citizens
whom really should be receiving care and respect..
put in a nursing home..
where they're own family would be trustingly believing
their parents were in great hands..
maybe of prof staff?
and this kinda thing happens..

well thats my view...
after the presentation from the media..
but like.. if i saw other reasons..
i may side with the dude..
but really from what i see?
THERE should be ABSOLUTELY NO sympathy for him..
there are no possible reasons i can think of
for these kinds of acts..

being judgemental really..
i dunno whats up..
im actually expressing opinions more often..
or that i just noticed that i DO express my opinion quite a lot..
:S

anyways..
im just guilty over judging some ppl..
and actually either thinking it up..
or actually saying it..
but still
what they CHOOSE to do is their CHOICE..
they will always be bound to judgement FOR their choice
coz if one person doesnt express..
another will surely..

i mean how many ppl observe how many acts?
some go unseen..
some uncommented..
but still
acts will be judged..
and the fact that once observed..
the observer will form a judgement
and views of a person can change so easily
the way that ppl react..

to something new..
to something that may totally
bring down the ideals of a person..
a person's world can just collapse..
but what they choose to do after that..
how they deal can be something admired..
or something that is observed by another in total disgust..

god..
im generalising so much
but this is really my life recently
a whole series of events..
one linked to another in some way
just everything linked
spiralling around...
swirling around in my mind..
whether the action occured near me..
or i heard it second hand..
third hand even..

and what of rumours?
dont we all love them?
god im subject hopping a lot..
no wonder my lit essay had no structure -.-"

ugh well
at least something to talk bout..
or im just rushing
the need to get this done..
i have no idea personally
but somethings just have to be expressed..
sometimes often..
sometimes not at all..
but sooner or later..
what's boiled up inside..
may explode..
and what as seen as calm and collect..
may just be another savage life changing crisis...

and what of our lives?
how some simple single acts..
in a few seconds.. minuets..
hours...
our life takes another sharp turn...
everything which you worked for...
can just totally tumble..
and all those aims..
beautiful dreams and endless skies..
what of them?
nothing but dreams in the end..
when shattered..
the bits of glass..
of which we were looking through.
our lovely vision
gone.. floats away..
out of our grasp
out of our reach..
no longer part..
no longer touchable...

*sigh*
train of thought just derailed..
:(
just went and talked..
and gone now
*sigh*

my dear muse..
where art thou?
and no im not suggesting any particular person..
just a something to say to get me typing again.

and yay it worked :D

...
..
.

or not..
-.-"

*sigh*
or maybe this should be long enough...
for those who've read this far..
congrats:D

wd with the endurance of reading..
or just skimming..

kk
g2g
nite nite
*hugz*

Need to Vent - - -

OK..
long time no postie..
and i really need to talk
well its not like i dont have anyone to talk to
but then again..
im wasting too much time online anyways
mainly on msn..

Oh i LOVE the new access system for the school :D
i mean you can now access ure school drives !!!
i mean HOW COOL?
haha no need to use the comps at school
to get stuff from the S drive and H drive

what's happend last few weeks?
time's drifted by
mainly coz it disappears on msn
but :S
since we've gotten back
we havent done anything together yet
but totally understandable with the whole "study"
but :S

but but buts
its all i ever say -.-"

Ball's coming up
and the places which are manifested with yr 12s
are alive with ball buzz..
ALL ball talk EVERYWHERE
i mean its exciting and all
and even i talk bout it
but when i get home..
everything just dies down
nothing...
jus sudden HUSH...

but then again
go online
and talk to scar bout ball talk if she's on
or just talk to taiwan ppl
:D

a GREAT thanx to all who sent me a bday msg
MUCH appreicated :D

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at least four days later...
yes.. that was day after my bday...
and i felt liek the post was bit incomplete
but i cant remember what i wnated to write anymores
*sigh*

first few assessments for the yr have started..
and once again...
really fallen back into old habits...
not good
><
so im gonna see if i can do a whole time managment thing..
yes ive done so many..
and they never work
and obviously i started one at the start of this term
and well...
it lasted 2 days...
><

so ive got bout half an hour before im gonna go offline
and actually start this thing called "study"

my yr recap and new yrs resolution is still coming
more of on the list of procrastination..
but thats besides the point
ill do it when my pile of hw has diminished
hehe yay im using an extended vocab to my usual talk
or ramble.. whatever it is..

right now im on a total blank of what to say
tho my title is "need to vent"
due to the fact i did need to vent
but my dear bloggies been on a bit of a silence trip
since i havent actually published anything ive ritten

the ball thing is slowly creeping up..
well more of its at the door step
and i just have to make it to the door
and open the door
i just hope its gonna be fun..
after all that non-stressful stress..
if you know what i mean?

what's crappy?
im going white...
my sister keeps going thru my hair when she's bored
and pulls out white hairs..
they're all like half white half black
what's up with me?
either stress..
malnutrition
OR usual.. thinking TOO much

you know how we had those guest speakers..
like on mon..
and some other talks we had to listen into?
i think for something's its just SO true..
but then again that sorta is their job..
or they could just be great entertainers
and feed us a load-a crap..
whatever..

i just went thru the school email today
UMAT is july 26th?
and there's also that GAP thingy..
i think i wanna do it..
but then again..
im not sure..
ah well talk to parents bout it..
but i think they'll be all
"take UMAT and go to uni next yr"
ah well
would be good experience
and the GAP thing is still open to ppl aged 25
but ill still be studying med then if i get into med ><
*sigh*

i guess its just the whole future thing..
its jus so daunting
as well as the fact that all ive always experienced
so far in my life is day in day out of school
everything is school related
i cant see me working day in day out
and not having hw
and not seeing everyone..

on that note
my sister saw some of my primary school friends
at her youth group last fri..
so yea..
interesting..
mite get a lil catch up soon
tho this fri is sorta nite b4 ball
so not sure bout going this fri
maybe sometime later..

*sigh*
i still REALLY miss the ppl i met from taiwan..
for those reading and were in Taiwan..
I MISS YOU ALL!!!

its just not the same
not seeing everyone everyday
as much as there are the fotos..
the surroundings and ppl round are not the same
so even if i do see some other ppl
its not the same..

well..
there goes a whole 26 mins..
*sigh*
no wonder i get no hw done...
time keeps flying away
k im officially going to do my hw..

maybe post some time later
have a good arvo
*hugz*

-Del-

First Week of School... YR 12 !!!

Ok 4 days since school started
not much really that much to comment on
the week just passed by

on the first day it just was a bit weird
with the whole 12 uniform
I LOVE IT!!!
whilst my sister on the first day of yr 8
was like
Lina:they should make the whole school wear that
Del:but it's the yr 12 uniform
Lina:well then make the school wear that one
and the summer dress the yr 12 uniform
-.-"
i so wouldnt have it the other way!

anyways
the reason why it was weird with the 12 uniforms?
not that i was wearing it
but every time i walked into a classroom
seeing all these 12s,
i automatically thought i was still in 11
and was thinking "shit wrong classroom"
walked out
then walked back in a while later
thinking "oops.. i AM a 12"
-.-"

but sorta got used to it now
alotho still a lil abnormal

and so the week past
and it was good to see everyone again
but it seems like theres nearly not enough time to talk
to everyone
or its just me who wants to talk too much
or still used to having ppl to talk to 24/7 thats not my sister

ah well...
um yes to the main point of actually writing this post
was really just to say that i have a bday suggestion :P
for celebration of Dia and my bday..
well actually between me and my mum
and since its just a suggestion PLZ tell me any ideas
or maybe tell me if you wanna change time
coz the real reason for this is just that
i want to just have everyone together
and just spend some time together
it is our last yr and yes we do have heaps of work to do
so tell me if anything clashes with school work

bleh.. whatever..
ok... going weekend wise this is really our times available
Feb 11-12 - Boarder's Closed Weekend
Feb 18-19 - My Cousin's b'day thing and also Chorale Camp and Dia's B'day
Feb 25-26 - Ball and day after ball

Since that's really what's happening for the upcoming w/e
mum and i were thinking
have a sleep over after the ball
and then on the sunday after the ball go watch a movie and eat together
maybe like at sizzler's innaloo and watch memoirs of a geisha?
or any other movie suggestions?
anyways that would prob be the sunday
and getting ure stuff to my house
my mum offered to collect all the bags of clothing
and what other stuff you need
to sleep over after school fri so it'll all be there
at my house when we get there after the ball
and you'd have stuff to change in to etc.

any thoughts?
would like em soon..
esp if you wanna change the date of all this
and suggestions and stuff

well i g2g now
*hugz*

Back...

Yes i am back in Perth..
a whole 2 days ago
and well i was gonna post the day i was back
but i ended up not finishing and deleting the post as usual
yes i will postpone that yr recap/new yrs resolution/ taiwan tour recap
for later
coz im sorta bz atm with the whole organising new yr stuff
since mum isnt at home neither is lina
and my dad's busy working
and since ive been back my room is all a mess all over again
and really im only postin coz of that tagging game
which i have no idea how im gonna answer with.

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The rules/procedures are as follows:
The first player of this game starts with the topic
"five weird habits of yourself,"
and people who get tagged need to write an entry
about their five weird habits as well as state this rule clearly.
In the end, you need to choose the next five people to be tagged
and link to their web journals.
Don't forget to leave a comment in their blog or
journal that says "You are tagged"
(assuming they take comments)
and tell them to read yours.

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1. I have weired-ed mini monologues with myself when im alone

2. I have this mini obssession.. its kinda weird..
can sorta be classeds as obsessive compulsive or whatever
but like when i use cream like body lotion or whatever
if it comes in a tub.. or like those body shop lipglosses
that you get in those mini tub things
when i use it i try to make this like dip thing in the middle
like i try to make a funnel like shape and i HATE it wehn like
you get this random dip coz some one just stuck their finger in it

3. Not really a choice of mine but at times my sister and i are
dressed in clothing either similar in some way... or EXACTLY the SAME

4. Tend to be oblivious about the majority of the stuff
that occurs anywhere int eh vicinity of my life?

5. I tend to randomly want hugs or just hug people coz i feel like it..
(well couldnt be entirely random
or weird-ed but i cbb thinkin up something else)

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Five People:
*Kura
*K
*Bear Bear (Albert/Kevin)
*Dia
*Inge

(Lol. nearly everyone on that list has K in their name
well except dia.. soz.. but ure lil bro is Kevin :P)

well there DONE at LAST
next post..
i promise i'll write :P

RA!

Guys, guess what? (No, its not Christmas again you idiot) ADELLA'S BACK! Now we can i can crash all the parties she goes to!! SCORE!! Yay,

btw HAPPY AUSTRALIA DAY BABES!!!

I'm going to go to sleep now, bye ppls!

hail to delpoleness continued///

yo wassup y'all. ><
I'll start talking normally here. Anyhow I miss Adella like crazy man! (God knows what I'll do to her when I see her, lol =P)

And I await for the 24th......

(btw this was written by scarlet again if you didnt notice)

Last week

Well..
last time on the comps in the uni in taiwan
well unless i can be bothered to walk to the office tomorrow to use the comp
but highly unlikely

i cant believe the tour is over..
well not officially
since we have graduation tomoz
as well as the whole 3 day tour...
tho ronald wont be going since apparently
he's on like NEGATIVE points
lol
tho its sorta not surprising
at least he can go spend time with his relatives
do whatever he likes

god im so gonna miss everyone on this tour
:'(
waaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
well obviously there's the ppl who are from perth
but i see em every w/e practically
except for sam
unless ppl change school or decide not to go anymore

god...
the time given for comp class is like nothing
since like i never seem to be able to finish the posts
before i have to go..
lol it wont be amazing to most ppl
if they see me online everynight wehn i get back :P

i've made friends on this trip
and i know that we've got em on the contact list and all
but i highly doubt we'll keep that much in touch
since as usual ive done the thing
where i stay in a close circle of ppl
so turns out i dont really know that many ppl that well
>.<
*sigh*

Well overall despite the whole schooling
im so gonna miss everyone and all the fun we had
NOOOOOOOOOOOO
not fair
im having a mini graduation thingy
at the start of my last yr in highschool
NOOOOOOOOOO

OMG
its most likely our last yr together
WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
NO WAY

Scar...
HOW COULD YOU ? :P
you were meant to be flooding all you liked...
but oh well
oh btw.. have fun on ure WA science thingy
since i cant go :(
since ive got my 3 day graduation trip for the tour
ah well..
maybe we'll have time after that science thing
to go out..
did we go out before i left?
i dont think so..

hmm... should i get my hair done? :P
nah my parents will kill me
and if it looks bad ill be stuck with it for the ball ><
i still cant get over the fact im in yr 12
aggghhhh

welll g2g
mite write up a full detailed recap
as well as new yrs and last yrs recap when i get back
nite nite
*hugz*

Hail to delpole'ness

Dear Adella,

It pains me very dearly at heart to realise that I have been neglecting my duty of flooding your respectable weblog! Please forgive me, my dearest! Although I shan't flood your weblog, I shall continue to cherish your dear presence when you return from wagga-wagga.

Yours sincerely,


Secretary/Treasurer of the Delpole'ness club
SCARLET NG

week 5

times flown by
test tomorrow >.<
but at least the teacher gave me an easier text
in comparison to doing the test on the whole course
since im in the lower part of A class

im sick >.<
it was an upper respiratory tract infection ><
well according to to the doctor
at this clinic outside the uni
since apparently the doctors in the uni suck
coz apparently all they give you is sleeping pills

g2g
nite nite
*hugz*

week 3 and new yr.. another start

well answering qs first
off the tagboard
since i cbb to tag so many times

gar...
scenery in taiwan
havent really seen that much of it
since i spend most of the time in the uni
and also there is the whole i cbb
to look out the window
in the bus when we go out
since they play movies in the bus
so im just watching them or talking

scar
dun miss speaking canto or eng
since i spend most of my time out of class
speaking canto and eng
since heaps of ppl speak..

yep it was those things which you write your wishes on
so pretty
coz we spent time putting them together
and all..

happy belated xmas everyone
and happy new yr..

i had actually typed up a post before
on tues during computer class
but the post was lost since some1 turned off my comp
so im in the office now typin up

there is never anyone online >.<
well on tues nights that is
and mona.. ure off watching tv :(

so how's everyone?

for xmas..
had an xmas party down here
nothing much..
majority of the ppl were from our tour
and the rest were some random uni students
we had this whole thing where they had ppl teach us to dance
and we got partners by just drawing outta a bag of balloons

the dude i got was some uni student
who was half taiwanese half american
who later on that nite confessed his love for his gf
it was so cute..
like he had this dog with balloons tied on its back

neways

g2g now
since goin to taipei 101 for new yr's eve
nite
*hugz*

lost count of days.. but week 2..

hey..
computer class again
and really nothin much happening cept class
went to some small town on sun
and the rest of the other time i can barely remember
ive been to the small night market nearby...

umm
got bout 4 and half weeks to go..
just cant believe its only been 1 week..
since like ive said its like ive been here for ages

seriously nothing to talk bout..

oh for those who want my number atm
its 0917388954
well thats what it is over here
not sure of its what it really is calling from home..

um..
talkin bout sunday
it was sorta like an excursion
went to a village where we learnt bout its train history
visited a mine/museum thing
looked at some of the scenery
and also launched sky lantern things
like they were mini hot air balloons
but like you write ure wishes on them
and they get sent up...
sorta like wishing on a shooting star

um...
sorta tired these days
well more of the lethargic..
how's everyone doing?
gar.. have fun in nz..
dia in brisbane ? :S
and mona and scar in perth..

ive spent 1 and half hours here
NOTHING to do
you'd think with the reduction
in usage of computers i'd be desparate bout using it
ah well
maybe just not really anyone to talk to

ugh...
so annoying
nothing to talk bout
blah blah
wlkaefwaoe;iawh4tfo;aw4ehweairhgWEA4g

ever bored of my blog?
YESS..
just so repetitive..

hmmm
ne wais
bye
nite nite
*hugz*

Day 3

another day past..
learnt how to play mahjong :P
so far havent really learnt much in the ways useful
ah well..

had the opening ceremony
and also had the intros..
well the official ones
so actually had to stand up and speak
*shrudders*
dun wanna go thru that again
i still really hate public speaking
but then again who doesnt?

Seems like ive been here for ages
but then again
its only the 3rd day
and i dunno
just the whole routine thing
i dunno
maybe i just like routine
everything just takes so long
and like bleh

i dunno i feel like saying something
but it always feels like theres some1
behind me watching..
liek it jus feels so unnatural

i got into the top class btw
Class A :P
go me..

there is like no one online
and i have another hour here
unless i ask for permission to go back to the dorms
but theres nothing to do back there
i wanna play sports
but the gym etc is all taken up by the uni students
some ppl are out playin bball atm
but like id rather not join

me and my room mates were in this class earliest
and since everyone arrived
its just gotten so busy and loud
its just weird
im prob just used to having the whole area to myself

dun really have much to talk bout
the temp round here is ok
cold but not freezing as ppl said it would be
i wonder how my bro is doing in class?
ah well maybe i worry too much

theres such a range in ages of ppl here
i dunno
like theres the youngest as i think is 14
even goes 21+
well i think thats it..

yesterday we had aerobics and yoga
but it was sorta weird since it was in chinese
ah well
same pain tho..
so no difference there
havent really heard from anyone
other than mona who's online every night

ne ways
g2g
nite nite
*hugz*

Hi from taiwan - Day 2

well im in taiwan now obviously
just a quick note to say hi
if you wanna talk..
i'm online every tue night
or at least i should be..

the flight was ok..
nothing really special
but my expectations were
sorta to be like the school boarding house
it's sorta round bout similar
but sorta like below my expectation
i dunno its like..
well main thing is
they dont have irons..
and i dunno
im sorta used to having and iron to use
so it'll just end up being sorta like
either drying the clothes by hang drying
to avoid creases
or spin dry and wear them creased

i dunno
maybe ive just made a
huge deal outta this no iron thing
majority of things is alright
i just had my placement test
and well there will only be 2 classes
which sorta makes it obvious which one ill be in
since ppl either cant speak/understand/read/write/chinese
OR...
they can

umm...
some ppl are just too loud
and the rest are pretty nice
of the food i dun really know since ive only had dinner
i sorta g2g now
nite nite
*hugz*

G'day

G'day folks, I do believe you all recognise who I am. I am the legendary Scarlet wahahahahah. As you all know, Adella is flying to wagga-wagga (aka Taiwan) at precisely 1am; 13 December 05 , and she shall be away from us for a dreary six weeks.

Wahahahahahaha I am the king of delpole's blog!!

fare thee well :D

well goin tomorrow nite..
wishin everyone a happy hols if i dun blog again
and well
maybe scar mite blog..
since she asked to..
and well i sent her an invite..
so might hear from her..

btw scar..
if you do..
plz dont change any of the previous posts..
since i dun get how this add members thing works :S
*hugz*

4 days left...

well 4 days till taiwan
and im not ready
theres so much to do
and such little time
but i really cant be stuffed
i feel all lethargic and stuff..

hmm..
funny eh?
my dad these days is like
"dw as long as you get in UWA"
like trying to lower the pressure and all
but tehn again
he jus gave me this thing a few days ago.
its like a CD for the comp..
and its..
"interactive medical encyclopedia"
hmm..
doesnt matter what course eh?
on the up.
it'll help me for h bio next yr

my sister's graduated yr 7
yr 8 next yr..
scary huh?
i seriously cant imagine seeing her so much
well actually i noe how its like
i mean being in same primary and all
but i think i forgot what its like
and now?
have to adapt all over again
well not that i dun see her at lunch once in a while
but bleh

last few days ive really been on the whole
"emotional rollercoaster"
i mean seriously
ive had HUGE moodswings
esp yesterday
i think i managed to go from happy to crying
and being pissed off
in like 2 mins
and it happened so much

i seriously have NEVER had such huge
difference in emotions
a mean i may be pissed off all day
or jus be happy
but not like huge changes
that happen so frequently
ah well

anyways
thats the update for now
byes..
if i have time
ill try update as much as possible
in taiwan
*hugz*

counsel..

hmm whenever there isnt much to talk bout
and i feel like blogging
its always so hard to start
but there i go
ive started
now i can start going off on my random tangents of nothing-ness

went to ah-gong's house today
for phoebe's full month
well she's now officially 1 month old
doesnt feel like a month ago when i found out
i had another baby cousin
but then again
trying to actualli remember the morning i found out
seems like 2 yrs ago or something
:S

nm much happend
coz we sorta came late as usual...

things were as usual..
all the kids in the living room
whilst the adults were practically shouting at each other
in the kitchen/dining room
and well there was the whole
"you should study *insert uni course* it'll be a good job"
OR
"you should become a *insert some high paying job*"
-.-"
im still worrying bout my subject choices
not bout my future career..
well ok my subject choices should be
directed at some part of my career
but not at a family gathering >.<



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EXAMS has fini
YAY

but now im still stuck with 2 days off..
which im glad of..
and i wanna go out
but i noe its not likely tomorrow
bleh there goes one day

you know..
its realy stressing sometimes
you feel like discussing things
but then again finding the right person
for talkin bout each topic i feel like talkin bout
its jus so annoying
you wanna talk bout something
but then again you want em to understand
some1 who has the similar thing
like if they dont understand
you mite as well be talking to a bloody brick wall
or how bout..
even a bloody pet?

its weird
when your life is divided into all these little worlds
of your own..
little worlds which you are a part of
but then again not every1 you know is in
life would be easy if all of them were a lil connected
but anything stuffs up
and all of htem collapse
but in disconnection
anything happesn to one
you can seek resort in another
hiding may not be the answer
but in the time it takes to heal
somteimes its worth the avoidance

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not in mood for talking..
tho all i can say..
is i duno i just feel so empty
and hollow

nite nite
*hugz*

Wishes...

Well..
as of a few posts ago..
cant remember how long..
but if not
ppl or should of heard me
talkin bout wanting an older brother..

and well in relation to my msn nick atm
[Wishes can come true :P]
well i sorta did get an older brother today :P

its my grandpa's sister's grandson..
so sorta my cous but not exactly
and he's older than me.. by like 1 yr :D
so im happy now :D
it'll sorta be the closest
i can get to havin an older bro i think
and he seems pretty nice
but he dont speak eng
or canto >.<
so the catch is sorta the language barrier
i have to actually use my mando
and he speaks teo chew fluently
and i only understand a few words
of which i can only say
like some swear thing :S

hmm
i love my cousins so much
i guess i am in quite a close knit family thing
but its HUGE
ah well im lucky then :D
VERY lucky that is

you know i was contemplating the other day
like you know how some ppl say
happiness is sorta inversely proportional
to the amount of wealth you have
and i think
its like
ok first thing would be for the hard working ppl
theres the whole no time
coz ure busy trying to get money
and then also
with the next generation
wouldnt that mean
that if spoilt by parents
with all materialistic things they need
its like they always have this wealth to fall back on
therefore they dont really have to worry bout
whether or not they're gonna fail in life
coz it seems like therez always something there
the back up which makes us secure
and would mean that we would put less effort in
in comparison to those who strive to rise out of what they are
to reach something
the goal to attain something that is like hard to attain
means you have to work hard and put heaps of effort in
and if attained it seems more valuable
than if soemthing you gain is simple
like its given
you think it less worthy once you have it

like having a trophy would mean more if
you had worked so hard and competed and actually won it
in comparison to jus buying it from some shop
to be tailor made for you
or like just rigging it so you will win
like through cheating or soemthing
the trophy wouldnt be as valuble in ure own eyes
since it is something that has no memory of hardship behind it

so like
if you have more wealth..
then as a child of parents whom worked hard for the money
and then if the child is love by the parents heaps
and spoilt as much as possible
then if they want something esp materialistic
then they get it..
what would the child learn from that?
they wouldnt do any thing
dont work hard at all
and still get what they want
and then in the end get nowhere
hmm why does this sorta slightly say bout my family?
:P
anyways
like soon the child is gonna be bored
and not interested with material things
there really isnt that much in them
since they prob have something the same
(unless they're totally gullible towards the media and marketing stuff)
and wont need it
what they still turn to
or want would still be simplistic
love, caring, friendship..
just simple things which everyone can enjoy
no matter what context
(yay i used the word "context")
or maybe not.
since there's still some stuff in some countries
that might not be as ideal as everything i see
in the whole slight eurocentric views
:S

which would that be one of the slight downfalls
in each of the dynasties in china?
ok totally offtopic
but like they always fell after some generations
i guess you could say that its just one of the possible factors
like the princes would always have easy
apparently
jus making TOTAL assumptions here
(since im prob out when it comes to asian history)
and then when the duty of actually ruling came
they became so selfcentred and pleasure seeking
since nothing materialistic could seem to satisfy them?
like they would have seen silk all their life
and gold and other what not
so in finding things that would amuse them
they would start to neglect the state
and sooner or later they brought the state down
by the simple neglect and ruling coz ppl
just up-rose and took over..
or won battles and stuff..
:s

you know
i think i would possibly like debating
if i didnt hate public speaking so much
and not the whole possibility of arguing
bout something that is against ure personal belief
like i actually expressed something today
and it felt good

maybe i just love the feeling of feeling smart :P
not that i am is the thing
but who doesnt enjoy feeling superior in comparison to the inferior
but then again with superiority
always comes with some form of responsibility
or expectations of something
UGH

ah well
life aint perfect
but sometimes things do happen

few weeks till taiwan
it just seems so unrealistic
and hopefully ill update as much as possible
tho i doubt it
since i recently realised
we're living in a uni IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE
well not exactly nowhere
but its like rural
>.< which lowers the chances of having net cafe
(apparently)

hmm what else to talk bout?
actually
gonna sleep
have family foto day tomoz.. (my dad's side)
its also pheobe's full month thing :P
that is she's 1 month old now
so nite
*hugz*

Love <3

You know..
ive just realised something else?
i rarely love much..
well ok i LOVE music
and i do LOVE someother things..
or at least i hope i do..

but love is something i dont really express much
like i love my sister and i love my parents
but its seriously something i dont vocalise
fine.
so you dont have to vocalise everything
but then again think of all the tragedies happening today
or at least all the tragedies fed to us by the media
think bout the bombings and stuff
if some1 you loved died..
would you feel bad for not letting them know you loved them
for one last time when you last saw them?
or jus worried the fact that the ppl you love
have suddenly left your lives??

and i noticed
well that is recently
i dont use the word "love" much..
or do i?
(meh something to talk bout in these exam times)

like im fine with saying love
in mando..
i say to my parents
i love them everynite in mando before i go to bed
but i just..
i dont say love in canto.. :S
and i dont say love in english either
like well the fact that the main person
who i can say i love you to in english is my sister
could be a main factor
but it feels weird to say i love somebody
in canto or english
fine i can type out "love"
but then again its something that i dont generally
think about or even discuss..
hmm maybe a few times but hey..
still not a word i use daily
(well if i do..
i dunno maybe i say it unconsciously..
as in without realising it..
not as in i say it whilst im unconsious)

ah well
that was a random ranmble..
for no particluar reason
but i feel like talkin these days
:D
maybe its the fact that the only ppl i talk to
are to ppl i see just like 30 mins before exams each day
followed by 3 hours of silence
then going home
in which the process
im struck quiet since my mum's listening
to her viet news radio in the car
(AND at home)
and drops me off
im home alone
and the only possible source of talk
would be via msn
which btw ppl dont forget my fone fear..
i HATE fones
anyways
besides the point
THERE IS NO ONE TO TALK TO
my sister comes home
and she closes the door to her room
and tells me to get out wen im in there
plus the fact that both my parents and my sister
now have a reason to be asking me why im talking to them
(why aren't you studying at the current moment?
you should be studying not wasting ure time talking to us)

hmm
another example
yesterday:
went out to the bank with mum
met up with dad who was gonna go to ct with mum and maybe me
then dad changes his mind
Dad:NO you should be home studying for exams
Me:but i wanna spend time with you
Dad:we have plenty of time to spend together
you have no time before exams
me: -.-"

ok fine. its jus the ct
and it IS exam time when i should be studying
BUT I WANNA GO OUT
im sick of facing the walls of my room
for christ's sake i have a max attention span
of an hour of fully or half heart-ed-ly studying
before i go read soemthing else

there is no one to talk to
and everytime i turn to talk to someone
either they cant (exam, work, school)
or they tell me to study
UGHHHHHH

*frustrated*

maybe chinese tomorrow will give me some time to talk
WAIT..
its not like i talk to them that much anyways !
-.-"
GRRR

the only ppl i get to talk to
is when i go to the resto
and majority of them speak viet!!!
>.<
i understand but hello
i dun wanna talk viet when i cant talk to anyone else
and most of the time it takes me 10 mins to think up a sentence

*annoyed*

anyways got caught by dad online jus then
so betta go
nite
*hugz*