yet anotha xmas

merry xmas every1!!

okz its xmas...
and outside it wz 35 degrees 2day..
and it even rained..

well recount on mi xmas 4 this yr...

last nite (xmas eve)
had xmas dinner at mi grandparents house..
wit all tha family..
except some who couldnt come...
we ended up comin 2 and a half hours late...
but at least we arrived b4 ne 1 had left...
which wz good

um..
then we decided 2 go and see some of tha xmas lightin..
tha 1z tha were in tha paper..
ne waiz..
by tha time we got there
(1 of tha randomly picked addresses 4m tha paper)
we were disappointed 2 see they were already off..
(but then it wz 12 am)
and then wen i finalli got 2 sleep..
wz 2 am ...
got woken up at 5:30 am this mornin by mi sista..
(who stayed awake all thru tha nite)
we went 2 tha beach
came home...
had a nice undisturbed sleep again
then went rollerbladin at tha foreshore..
whilst mi parents were ridin bikes..
and then went 2 kings park..
and just had pizza 4 dinner..
all in all it wz nice 2 have a day off..
and time wit tha family...

well i g2g
nite nite
*hugz*

ugh...
jus got bak 4m work...
and i dunno...
in some random mood that is half way between stressed and pissed off...
tho i think afta a while it should disappear...
so this post mainly a pissed off ramble so dun read if u dun wanna noe..

but itz jus work realli i think..
work at tha resto...
tha western pplz who come in and eat...
wen we set tha tables
we give em a fork a spoon and a set of chopsticks and a serviette..
tha fork and spoon are there 4 a reason..
wen they order ne dish but they DUN noe how 2 use chopsticks..
tha fork and spoon are provided 4 em
coz we not expectin em 2 noe how 2 use tha chopsticks...
BUT some pplz jus 2 sure of themselvez..
and decide 2 use chopsticks 2 eat tha rice..
WHICH is served on a PLATE
so they end up gettin tha rice ALL OVER tha table
and fine if u clean it up ureself...
BUT NO most of em jus leave it there
and we do clean up tha dishes and that afta them..
but wit tah rice all ova tha table itz MORE work !!
not that THAT lazy..
BUT it getz annoyin wen tha WHOLE RESTO is bz..
and therez pplz comin in non stop..
and then havin 2 clean up rice and stuff wen pplz are waitin..
itz jus hard 2 do wit all tha pplz...

AND THEN...
therez tha whole thing where pplz..
OUR RESTO is a SMALL area...
we have VERI LITTLE space...
so PLZ MOVE wen we TRY 2 walk past...
WE ARE NOT ALL STICK THIN

AND THEN...
therez tha whole starin thing happenin again..
this time...
it wz afta i lifted anotha 2 chairs...
i mean WAT is rong wit me bein able 2 lift chairs ova mi head..?
tha customers give me lookz as if ive grown 3 heads or somethin -.-"
and then therez all those whispers i hear...

AND THEN...
whilst i wz liftin a chair..
nearli speared chichi wit a chair leg..
she came racing in ...
and she touched mi bak ..
and i got so freaked out that i nearly speared her wit tha chair leg...

and 2 day i saw this guy...
OMFG he wz SO bloody TALL..
i mean i wz wearin heels..
but he HAD 2 be at least 1 metre taller than me..
i swear..
and he wz round mi height wen he sat down
-.-"
iznt it nice 2 be reminded that ure short..?

ugh..
gettin late..
finish ritin later...
nite nite
*hugz*

new poem blog

well..
ive made a start on that poem blog thingy that i said id do last nite...
tha bakground of tha template is tha 1 that gar used 4 her dp i think..
and i couldnt realli find ne nice blogskins...
so ill stick wit that 1 4 now..
coz i g2g out 2 work soon...
im not sure if ill onli rite poems in there...
depends on how much time i have...
and also if i find an inspiration 4 a poem
or story or a composition of ne kind...

Oh and wen u go 2 tha site it onli shows tha blog body..
but if u wanna comment i have a tagboard...
but u have 2 click on tha word "tagboard" 2 see it..
and same wit tha word "blog" and "info"
well
g2g

i mite rite more later 2nite if i can think of ne thin 2 rite...
bye
*hugz*

new template

well new template...
not realli enough space in tha side bar thingy
2 put in tha quotes or tha idioms and metaphors thingy...
and i doubt u read em ne waiz...
so..
jus leave em out...
i mite put tha happeninz bak in tho i doubt i need that 2..
jus see if i can be bothad..

um...
2day nothin...
jus work again..
kim didnt come 2 tha resto... dunno y..
um...
i got tha boostrix injection at last..
and i soon realised that i had mi hep b wen i wz lil..
coz i thought i had missed em

and pplz...
seemz like no 1 otha than me iz updatin..
oh wellz...
wat can i say...?
otha than me most of u are either :
(a)ova seaz
(b)2 bz
(c)neva online
(d)cant be bothad...
if u pplz did update tho at least thered b somethin4 me 2 do on tha net which is interestin 2 read...
oh wellz
ure choice wen u update..

wat else 2 talk bout 2 pass time...?
nothin...
coz nothin happenz..
maybe ill jus start a poem blog like mona..
somethin 2 rite bout then..
or attempt 2 i guezz...
ill do that 2moro i think...
or wen eva i have tha time..

ne waiz gettin late
i g2g
nite nite
*hugz*

anotha day has gone...
*sigh*
nothin 2 do...
and linaz bored enough goin round and readin mi blog...
so hi lina if ure readin this...

um...
i found tha minin camp certificate thingy 2day..
and thinkin bak it wz SO long ago >.<

and new yrz approaching...
so wat will tha new yr bring..?
new challenges...
new studies..
MORE studies 2 >.<
MORE work
1 more yr of knowledge..
MORE expectations to fulfill
MORE AND MORE...
>.<
and wit somethings less and less...

*sigh*
i think ill do a yr review later on..
cbb now

>.<
parents annoyed...
g2g
nite nite
*hugz*

ice skatin

went ice skatin 2 day ^^
and for tha first time
NO FALLZ !!!
ah so happi..
i mean it wz somethin 2 do..
but saddenin still coz there wz no 1 there i knew otha than mi sista...
and her friend -.-"
but somethin 2 do outside tha house so fun ^^
altho i wz a total loner >.<

i g2g get ready 2 go out 2 work
maybe rite later
*hugz*

work

well...
a nice day of work 2day...
-.-"
there wz anotha joke bout aaranged marriage...
and then there wz tha randomz on tha street that said hi 2 me...
*rollz eyez*
um...
went shoppin 2 day 4 once...
bought nothin realli...
i bought a dvd of mean girls 4 mi sista as her xmas present...
and since i went out shoppin in a black skirt and spag top..
and wen we got bak home it wz time 4 work i had 2 work like that
-.-"

so hard 2 waitress in a skirt...
hopefulli dun have 2 do that again...

umm.. wat else..?

goin iceskatin 2moro..
wit mi sistaz friendz and mi sista -.-"
oh wellz
somethin 2 do

hmm...
i jus realised tha majority of tha friendz ive met a chinese skoolz ive been 2 r guyz...
or like hta pplz i feel closest 2 are guyz...
well in yr 1-3 i didnt realli noe tha pplz...
and afta that i got 2 noe this guy..
and we spent recesses 2getha..
then i change chinese skool..
then i went 2 tha 1 near dalkeith...
total loner..
then just got 2 noe this guy...
then change skool again..
and then loner 4 AGEZ...
then got 2 noe this girl...
then she left..
then got 2 noe this guy...
and this otha guy..
and then 1 of tha guyz left chinese...
and yah...
thatz tha gist...
of mi life as tha antisocial person at chinese...

i guezz thatz jus tha story of tha evenin...
gettin late and me got a throbbin headache >.<
nite nite
*hugz*

well these daiz still nothin 2 rite bout..
so i dun post that often ne morez...

mi mum rote up a time table 4 us 2 follow..
so life is beginnin 2 seem like skool again
wit time restrictions and tha whole repitition of wat 2 do...
herez tha time table:
(since i dun realli have ne thin 2 talk bout)

9am - get up
10:30am - readin or ritin
12:30pm - lunch
1:30pm - clean up round tha house
3:00pm - rest
4:30pm - aftanoon tea
5pm - go out 4 work
then round 8-10 come home...
then online till tha latest which is 11pm.. and sleep

work is like practicalli tha main event of event of tha day these daiz..
i mean 4 once itz actualli startin 2 get interestin...
like therez more staff that mi dad has employed then there used 2 be...
and so more variety of pplz..
and it wz close 2 more like jus a time 2 meet pplz...
and get 2 noe em...
but then realli ive onli worked wit 3 diff pplz in tha last 3 daiz..
andrew... tha playboi of tha resto...
humphery... tha interlectual whoze mum keepz tellin him hez stupid
and kim... well 4 her shez jus nicknamed "tha bitchy lady" by chewy...
and i mean im startin 2 like kim more than i used 2..
coz b4 she wz alwaiz DEAD serious bout everythin..
but now i guezz wit andrew and humphery workin
there seemz 2 be less tension between tha rest of tha staff...

wit tha work...
nothin realli...
um...
i had a total of $4.70 tip 2 day...
and sadly that wz mi highlite 4 tha day..
so i guezz it shows how bored i am dun it..?

there wz this azn guy at tha resto 2 nite...
and wen he came in they needed anotha chair 4 tha table..
and i couldnt get thru coz tha resto wz packed...
so i lifted tha chair above mi head and carried ova 2 their table...
he jus stared at me and then he asked "do u work out heapz?"
-.-"
i mean seriously...
wat am i ..? some bloody weakling..?
do us girls have 2 work out jus 2 be strong enough lift a bloody chair..
or r we so frail that we have 2 stay at home and jus sew ?!?!??!?!?!?!?!
or im just takin that comment 2 seriously..
also some random azn dude wz eyeballin me again at tha resto 2 day...
*rollz eyez*

and some pplz jus dun get a hint of wen 2 leave...
i mean i wz closin tha doorz and all they did wz stare at me and continued talkin
and then i gave em tha bill..
and they jus kept talkin..
-.-"
oh wellz

well i sorta ran outta stuff 2 talk bout..
and im startin 2 get tired so yah..
nite nite
*hugz*

regret...
wen thoughts wonder...
sometiemz it jus comes across tha things that have happened in tha past...
and sometimes all i can do is regret...
regret 4 things i have done..
and somethins which i which i should have done...
or tried 2 do...
*sigh*

ne waiz..
nothinz happend realli..
this week ive gone 2 tha ct 3 timez..
once wit jus gar..
once wit jus scar..
and once wit gar, kat, chewy, jade and some 1 else... cant reamember >.<
(soz if its u i dun mean 2 4get... jus cant think atm) or maybe that wz jus it...

umm...
jade came 2 mi house b4 tha speech nite..
and we found out that our rest iz in tha TOP 5 take away places in WA !!! ^^
ummm..
wat else..?
nothin realli happend..
got full attendance 4 chinese..
(realli saddenin award realli..
all i got wz this dodgy pen that has this pull out map of taiwan on it)

oh..
g2g
parents callin >.<
nite nite
*hugz*

okz i owe every1 a nice LONG post..
but personalli cant be stuffed ne more these daiz..
dunno y im jus not in tha mood of bloggin recently realli...
but herez a post i rote earlier in tha day...

okz im typin this in notepad atm...
coz im not allowed on tha net..
ne waiz..pplz dun have 2 read this coz itz gonna be a jumble of complaints mainly...
since this is a form of stress realease okz..?

atm in big pissed off mood at mi sista...(again)
maybe itz jus that fact that mi sista getz SO many exeptions...
and tha lack of freedom in mi part..
i mean im stuck wit responsibility 4 her..
and i miself cant go ne where wit out her..
OR
do ne thin wit out her buttin in and wen she findz me doin somethin SHE wantz 2 do it as well..

and i mean wen pplz say every 1 iz special and individual in their own way..
well seems like i have no individuality at ALL
itz like lina jus believes that we're 1 person..
or a set of twins...
EVERYTHING i DO she has 2 do...
EVERYTHING i HAVE she has 2 have...
and wen onli i have that thing...
she'll take it off me wen i dunno and it annoys me that wen i need it i cant find it..
and in a few daiz find it in her room -.-"

see perfect example..
she jus came in and asked wat i wz doin..
i said i wz typin a post in notepad so i could post it later..
and jus then she goez and saiz "im doin that TOO"
agggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i jus wanna scream and throw things..
but no i cant do that coz then mi parents'll think im thowin some temper tantrum 4 no reason...
and then wen i tell em tha whole reason it'll jus end up as some discussion between mi parents later on at nite"oh adela doeznt noe how 2 share things"
or "oh adela wont let her sista learn new things"
HOW DOES COPYING ME ALLOW 4 MI SISTA 2 LEARN!?!?!??!

so
im left wit just silently seething bottled up madness
and i guezz tha onli thing i can do iz rite it out..
but i mean i noe there are otha waiz of stress relievin...
i mean i find it quite soothing jus 2 play tha piano or some instruments..
but then half way thru
mi sista jus comes in and saiz "oh i need 2 practise TOOOOOOOOOOO"
and i say "no coz im practising atm"
and mi sista goez 2 mum (or calls her on tha fone)
and soon i hear mi mumz voice goin
"adela get off the piano and let ure sista practise"or something of that sort...

and then i try just turnin music on and upcept i cant wit out turnin tha comp on..and so lina decides to and turns on tha net and talks 2 her friends..
(she has her own cd player >.<)
and i get told off 4 lettin mi sista go on tha net...
and wit tha ban...
itz drivin me crazy..
coz mi parents are tellin me 2 disable it on her comp so that she doeznt use tha net..
cept wen i do..
she getz pissed at me 4 it..and mi parents get pissed at me if she enable it..
so i get stuck in tha middle of everything...

and ive practicalli been actin mum AND sister 4 mi sista all mi life come 2 think of it..
and itz jus realli gettin 2 me...
i mean like i have 2 be her sista and sorta her mother at tha same time...
and i find as if i cant be silly once in a while..
or jus have fun..
everythin jus seemz like it has 2 be serious...
and not laugh...
maybe thatz y seem 2 treasure tha times that im outta tha house..
itz like as if itz a place where everythin seemz so uptight..
maybe thatz y i have so many sides...
i mean i had a realli nice time yesterday..
like i felt like 4 once i could jus be carefree...
and laugh and have fun afta chinese skool..
and PLUZ mi sista wznt thereand it felt as if there wz a load taken off me..as if i had no job at all..
nothin i had 2 worry bout...

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okz..
afta that nice random ritin...
im feelin much betta...

i feel like a mum -.-"

possession

i past tha audition 2 go 2 tha music tour !!! ^^

jus got bak 4m tha resto...
and i have realised i cant teach...
not that i believed i could in tha first place...
jus that it has been evidently supported now..
well ne waiz..
spent round 3-4 hours in tha ct 2day...
and wen i got home i wz told 2 help out at tha resto 2nite coz therez a new person...
so i wz given tha job of teachin him...
-.-"
it wz okz..
but it felt random tryin 2 teach some1 older than u..
well jus 1 yr older...
he wz 1 of tha employee's son..
so yah..
and his name iz humphery (i dunno y i dun like that name)...
and it felt so awkward...
so i sorta jus didnt say ne thin..
and tha lady (nown 2 chewy as "that bitchy lady")
sorta tried 2 teach him..
and i sorta jus sorta taught by example...
if u can say that...
he jus watch as i did work...
i sorta didnt say much...
so.. i conclude im not a teacher..
i jus sorta lead by example..

and i wz sittin in commerce tha otha day..
playing gamez...
and listenin 2 music..
and a thought sorta hit me...

tha word possession....
do we as humans all strive 4 it...?
i mean we want 2 possess things..
2 own them..
and wen itz in our reach it sorta loses its value...
i dunno y..

and i guess its also tru wit pplz i guess..
like some pplz liek 2 play hard 2 get...
and i guess it sorta seemz 2 raise their "value"...
if u sorta noe wat i mean (i dun seem 2 be makin sense 2 miself -.-")
like u put more effort in..
tha more valueable it seemz...
tho sometiems it realli doeznt seem worht it afta some time has past..
and a new target is set i guezz...

ne waiz....
itz gettin late..
i betta go 2 sleep
nite nite
*hugz*

Happi bday alex !!!
tho i noe he dun read this...
but hey.. it makez me feel good 2 say it ^^
less guilt 4 not gettin him ne thin or sayin ne thin...
tho i dunno how id give it 2 him...

and on tha same note...

Happi bday gar!!!
well 4 2moro that iz...

hmm...
im startin 2 worry bout mi mum and mi daughter motha relationship...
i mean in tha time frame of half an hour...
mi mum and i rose our voices at each otha of a total of 7 timez...
>.<
i mean and that wz at peppermint grove...
and pplz were starin at us -.-"
coz we were shout in at each otha in canto
and apparently accordin 2 lina..
tah guy standin behind me wz laughin
-.-"
watz so funny bout an argument between motha and daughter...?!?!?!?

i guezz life at home is gettin more and more tense...
like there alwaiz seemz 2 be some form of tension..
either between me and mi sista..
or me and mum..
or mum and lina...
or all 3 at tha same time...
thing we can blame it on is hormonal imbalances i guezz....
not good >.<

tired..
gonna go sleep..
nite nite
*hugz*

S+E

cant be bothered searchin bout vietnam again...
but itz due 2day...
>.<
oh wellz...

i have mrs hardy as well...
well maybe she dunno that she has 2 collect it...
coz she said we're supposed 2 be do researchin bout terrorism..!?!??!?!
meh...

and tha lady at tha tech desk refuses 2 give us head fones...
AGAIN
so we playin music out loud...
and mrs hardy wont allow...
so we've found a limit 2 her hearin...
so she cant hear it but we can ^^

i cant get ova tha launch 2day!!!
im so proud
it actualli flew!!!
lolz... coz afta 10 attempts of tryin 2 launch it with no avail...
i thought tha engine wz stuffed like dia said...
but it launched !!!
yay

oh well betta get bak 2 work...
update later 2nite

.~^*^~.,.~^*^~.,.~^*^~. l8r on at home.~^*^~.,.~^*^~.,.~^*^~.

home...
nothin 2 talk bout...
but i guezz have anotha performance 2 practise 4 now
>.<
ummm...
wat else?
spent agez on tha net so cant realli be bothaed 2 think up somehtin 2 rite...

ummm..
dun realli have a topic 2 talk bout..
and no opinion
-.-"
so prob gonna end up as random ramblins...


r we goin out this w/e or not??

if we do...
then wat we gonna do?
since we're gonna spend tue wonderin round tha ct
wat we gonna do this sat...?
or sun?
which 1????
sat or sun!?!?!??!

ne waiz...
gettin late
nite nite
*hugz*

truths...

>.<
i dunno y...
wen i talk 2 pplz...
or wen i try 2 tell em stuff...
2 some pplz i tell tah WHOLE truth..
2 some i tell part truths...
2 some i tell mixed truths wit a lil lie..
and sometimez i jus lie out rite...
*sigh*

but then i sometimez think bout wat ive said 2 diff pplz...

and i feel guilty 4 not tellin everythin...

and tehn later...
wen i wanna clear thingz up...
and tell tha whole truth..
it sometimez endz up like im repeatin mi self...
which i do a lot of tha time
-.-"

well 2day wz a good day i guezz...
dispite tha fact that i had french and wz REALLI tired...
practically a realli easy goin day...
and then had mass choir rehersals afta...
and i wz dizzy and headachey AND had a sore throat afta
>.<

gettin late
nite nite
*hugz*

commerce...

in commerce wit a free period ^^
but dunno wat 2 do..
so make up 4 mi daiz of not ritin wit anotha post..
even tho i bearly have ne thin 2 rite about..
it takes mi mind off things wen i blog sometimez...

>.<
i feel like goin out some where...
ANYWHERE...

.~^*^~.,.~^*^~.,.~^*^~. l8r on at home.~^*^~.,.~^*^~.,.~^*^~.

jus come home afta cadets...
yet again im gonna get outta grad parade ^^
hehe..
i already put in leave so dun have 2 go...
so free next fri afta mass choir rehersal !!!!

there wz a new girl who came 2 cadets 2nite..
funnily enough she bought tha lil doll imitation of a real baby...
u noe those that cry if itz hungry..
and if u abuse em...
and well coz i went on sick...
i helped look afta tha baby..
ure not meant 2 let itz head go bak...
and in total i let his head fall bak 4 timez...
spanked it once unintentionalli...
lolz..
and tha funni thing wz of all nitez..
it had 2 be 2nite..
grad parade practise...
so yah...
we were forced 2 watch...
yet every so often tha silence wz broken by tha babyz wailin..
1 thingz 4 sure...
i aint gonna have a baby 4 AGEZ..
i mean it wz SO much work...
>.<

hmm..
next yr speech nite is on tha same day as tha last day of skool..
i wonder if we get 2 go home early then...?

sleep time...
nite nite
*hugz*

detached

sometimez i wonder...
is it that some pplz closed out 2 me..
or do i miself seem cold and shut pplz out and avoid em..?
i dunno y...
it seemz both waiz sometimez...
i dunno
i jus feel detached...
oh wellz...

dun realli feel like bloggin these daiz...
*hugz*
nite nite

kz..
1/3 typin this
1/3 playin tha commerce game we made and
listenin 2 music at tha same time
-.-"
in debt 4 tha game again..
now itz like up to $95 in debt...
hope it doeznt get as bad as last time wit $565...
oh wellz...

kz..
mi week...
well..
last thur...
cant remember
last fri..
had choir...
then skool ( had 4 substitues 4 tha 5 periodz i had in1 day
-.-" do mi teachaz hate me that much..?)
then cadetz...

then sat..
chinese skool..
mi sista got 2 skip due 2 her wantin 2 avoid tha poem recitin comp and her chinese test...
so she went out 2 wit her friendz...
i had chinese....
wz forced 2 participate in tah poem recitin thingy..
since each class needed 4 representatives and in our class there wz onli 4 pplz there on that day
since our teacha and 3 of tha pplz had exams 4 uni...
i recited tha poem...
and came equal 3rd -.-"
there wz like 1st (some lil 11 yr old girl)
2nd and 3rd there were 3 pplz...

end of class finish later....

.~^*^~.,.~^*^~.,.~^*^~. l8r on at home.~^*^~.,.~^*^~.,.~^*^~.

and then afta chinese...
went 2 tha ct and harbour town wit mi mum...
she wz lookin 4 a new bag...
but couldnt find tha rite 1...
afta bout 3 hourz searchin she found tha perfect 1 in harbour town..
we kept browsin round...
tehn went home..

then wen we got home..
we realised that i must have accidentalli lost it in 1 of tha shopz..
since i wz in charge of holdin tha bagz and everythin else...
so mum wz pissed off at me..

then went bak 2 harbour town on sun..
went bag searchin till we found it again..
spent aht rest of tha day in harbour town...

and then spent tha rest of tha nite doin mi english assignment...
and nothinz realli happend 2day...

>.<
i still cant get ova tha fact that mi mum told me...
that she wouldnt mind wat path or occupation i choose..
as long as im happy...
but thinkin bout it..
it jus makez me think of how i wished she said it earlier..
i mean then i would maybe able 2 make a different decision...
oh wellz...
i mean i grew up bein told that they wanted me 2 be a doctor..
and since i wz round aged 2 or 3 i sorta grew up wit that as mi goal since i wz lil..
well actualli..
it wz more of doin it 2 make mi parentz happi..
and then since thatz wat they wanted 4 me..
id wanted to go 2 that occupation..
but now afta tha otha day..
i dunno wat 2 think..
like should i jus go on wit wat i sorta have half chosen or find somethin else..
it sometimez makez me feel like itz 2 late 2 change..
i dunno y..

regret..
haz ne 1 realli regretted ne thin they've done in their lives so far...?
i mean i spend time thinkin bout wat ive done so far..
and i think bout it and i regrett...
4 not doin somethingz...
4 not seizin tha opportunitiez..
and sometimez i jus regret doin some thingz...
it goez both waiz i guezz...
itz like tha chance of either regret doin somethin outta curiosity..
and then not doin somethingz outta fear..
and sometimez u think bak and there may not be that same opporutinity eva again...
*sigh*
oh wellz..

somethin i found out on sat...
mi mum readz mi sistaz diariez..
which meanz therez a possibility she goez thru mi thingz as well..
tho i have nothin 2 hide thankfully..
mi sista on tha otha hand..
i worry bout her...
and i guezz given tha circumstances..
i understand and it seemz reasonable 4 mi mum 2 read thru mi sistaz diary and look thru her stuff..
coz shez such a closed in person..
i dunno y..
but i feel like therez a total barrier between mi sista and tha rest of tha family..
itz like as if shez alienated herself..
and wen i talk 2 her...
i jus have this realli uncomfortable feelin..
and wen i go in2 her room..
again she closes me out and wen she closes tah door 2 her room..
itz like she closes tha whole family out..
i mean i can also understand how her friendz mite out weigh her family in importance 2 her at this stage...
but there is no reason y she wont talk 2 us bout ne thin of her frienshipz or skool or nethin in general...
oh wellz
hope she get ova it soon
*sigh*

and tha second thing...
mi mum asked me wat tha word "hump" means..
-.-"
and u noe where she read it 4m..?
4m mi sistaz diary...
SERIOUSLY i have no comment..
and then i asked her in return in wat sentence did she read it 4m..
and tha sentence wz " I will HUMP him!"
i mean wat tha?!?!?!?
it makez me wonder wat it wz all bout..
but then i aint gonna go as low as mi sista...
goin thru pplz stuff coz she wz bored..
>.<

i had tha best moment 2day...
i mean it wz afta skool...
and i wz at corylynne...
lyin in tha grassed shady area starin up at tha cloudz..
with a slight breeze...
and it felt like i hadn't a care in tha world..
i jus love those momentz...
i mean just 2 stop ure life and just rest..
and reflect ova watz happend lately...
2 bad not htat many pplz there..
jus felt like talkin 2 some 1 2
>.<
oh wellz

i g2g
nite nite
*hugz*

S+E

in s+e atm...
maybe scar iz rite..
im neva doin tha thing im meant 2 be doin or at tha place im meant 2 be....
i mean seriously...
yet again im listenin 2 music...
and typin away at mi blog instead of actualli researchin "Nam"
i mean i should be a lil interested in tha viet war..
as that iz 1 of tha reasons im actualli here in tha first place...
but i cant be stuffed sortin thru all taht info thatz available on tah net or in bookz...

ugh...
ms fletcher is FULLY supervisin us..
i mean she walkz round and starez and readz watz on each screen...
funnily enough...
wen she wz doin tha roll...
she had me down as away on peer support work...?!?!?!?!?
but im not a peer support leader..
so y...????
oh wellz...

i dunno y some pplz seem 2 annoy me so...
i mean i dun wanna talk bout it or think bout it..
but some pplz DO annoy me...
and itz funny how sometimez i can trust tha strangest pplz...
even if i wouldnt actualli normalli trust them...
wait..
i think i talked bout that a while ago..
cant remember tho..
yet it alwaiz feelz like im repeatin miself all tah time..
and most of tha time itz tru -.-"
soon thiz blog'll be SO borin....
wait...
it already iz...
oh wellz..
some way 4 me jus 2 rite out most of mi thoughtz...

tha teacha iz realli buggin me atm >.<
itz like some random alwaiz tryin 2 find out wat ure doin..
coz i keep seein her at tha corner of mi eye and itz realli freakin me out...

im lookin thru galleriez of pix 4m tha viet war..
itz realli freakin me out..
i mean they had pix of lil boiz out there actin like soldierz..
it scarez me now...
like wat if that wz wat happend 2 1 of mi parentz...???
*shrudderz*
some pix are jus 2 much 2 bear..
i mean realli..
y are there warz...?
is tha consequence of a war realli a worth payin for what tha pplz wanted...???
oh wellz..
itz already ova...

nearly time 4 mathz >.<
i dun wanna do mathz...
i dunno y i dun wanna do ne more skool..
itz like i jus wanna give up on everythin...
just 4get bout education and jus drift along in life

english...

in english

i didnt noe that andrew worked at our resto...!?!?!?!?!?
and he drivez..?
and i alwaiz thought he wz younger than me
-.-"
oh wellz...

ne waiz...
i wz in french b4...
and realised i have 30 cousins and 1 "nephew"
-.-"
how big is mi family...?
and i have no idea how many second couz i have...
*shrudderz*
scarez me that thought realli...
end of class...
maybe type more later

,.-~^*^~-.,.-~^*^~-.,.-~^*^~-. later @ home.-~^*^~-.,.-~^*^~-.,.-~^*^~-.,

-.-"
cant be stuffed thinkin up somethin 2 rite...
i opend this page up like 2 hourz ago..
and went off 2 read....
so ya..
havnet typed ne thin..
ne waiz
nite nite
*hugz*