kz..
1/3 typin this
1/3 playin tha commerce game we made and
listenin 2 music at tha same time
-.-"
in debt 4 tha game again..
now itz like up to $95 in debt...
hope it doeznt get as bad as last time wit $565...
oh wellz...

kz..
mi week...
well..
last thur...
cant remember
last fri..
had choir...
then skool ( had 4 substitues 4 tha 5 periodz i had in1 day
-.-" do mi teachaz hate me that much..?)
then cadetz...

then sat..
chinese skool..
mi sista got 2 skip due 2 her wantin 2 avoid tha poem recitin comp and her chinese test...
so she went out 2 wit her friendz...
i had chinese....
wz forced 2 participate in tah poem recitin thingy..
since each class needed 4 representatives and in our class there wz onli 4 pplz there on that day
since our teacha and 3 of tha pplz had exams 4 uni...
i recited tha poem...
and came equal 3rd -.-"
there wz like 1st (some lil 11 yr old girl)
2nd and 3rd there were 3 pplz...

end of class finish later....

.~^*^~.,.~^*^~.,.~^*^~. l8r on at home.~^*^~.,.~^*^~.,.~^*^~.

and then afta chinese...
went 2 tha ct and harbour town wit mi mum...
she wz lookin 4 a new bag...
but couldnt find tha rite 1...
afta bout 3 hourz searchin she found tha perfect 1 in harbour town..
we kept browsin round...
tehn went home..

then wen we got home..
we realised that i must have accidentalli lost it in 1 of tha shopz..
since i wz in charge of holdin tha bagz and everythin else...
so mum wz pissed off at me..

then went bak 2 harbour town on sun..
went bag searchin till we found it again..
spent aht rest of tha day in harbour town...

and then spent tha rest of tha nite doin mi english assignment...
and nothinz realli happend 2day...

>.<
i still cant get ova tha fact that mi mum told me...
that she wouldnt mind wat path or occupation i choose..
as long as im happy...
but thinkin bout it..
it jus makez me think of how i wished she said it earlier..
i mean then i would maybe able 2 make a different decision...
oh wellz...
i mean i grew up bein told that they wanted me 2 be a doctor..
and since i wz round aged 2 or 3 i sorta grew up wit that as mi goal since i wz lil..
well actualli..
it wz more of doin it 2 make mi parentz happi..
and then since thatz wat they wanted 4 me..
id wanted to go 2 that occupation..
but now afta tha otha day..
i dunno wat 2 think..
like should i jus go on wit wat i sorta have half chosen or find somethin else..
it sometimez makez me feel like itz 2 late 2 change..
i dunno y..

regret..
haz ne 1 realli regretted ne thin they've done in their lives so far...?
i mean i spend time thinkin bout wat ive done so far..
and i think bout it and i regrett...
4 not doin somethingz...
4 not seizin tha opportunitiez..
and sometimez i jus regret doin some thingz...
it goez both waiz i guezz...
itz like tha chance of either regret doin somethin outta curiosity..
and then not doin somethingz outta fear..
and sometimez u think bak and there may not be that same opporutinity eva again...
*sigh*
oh wellz..

somethin i found out on sat...
mi mum readz mi sistaz diariez..
which meanz therez a possibility she goez thru mi thingz as well..
tho i have nothin 2 hide thankfully..
mi sista on tha otha hand..
i worry bout her...
and i guezz given tha circumstances..
i understand and it seemz reasonable 4 mi mum 2 read thru mi sistaz diary and look thru her stuff..
coz shez such a closed in person..
i dunno y..
but i feel like therez a total barrier between mi sista and tha rest of tha family..
itz like as if shez alienated herself..
and wen i talk 2 her...
i jus have this realli uncomfortable feelin..
and wen i go in2 her room..
again she closes me out and wen she closes tah door 2 her room..
itz like she closes tha whole family out..
i mean i can also understand how her friendz mite out weigh her family in importance 2 her at this stage...
but there is no reason y she wont talk 2 us bout ne thin of her frienshipz or skool or nethin in general...
oh wellz
hope she get ova it soon
*sigh*

and tha second thing...
mi mum asked me wat tha word "hump" means..
-.-"
and u noe where she read it 4m..?
4m mi sistaz diary...
SERIOUSLY i have no comment..
and then i asked her in return in wat sentence did she read it 4m..
and tha sentence wz " I will HUMP him!"
i mean wat tha?!?!?!?
it makez me wonder wat it wz all bout..
but then i aint gonna go as low as mi sista...
goin thru pplz stuff coz she wz bored..
>.<

i had tha best moment 2day...
i mean it wz afta skool...
and i wz at corylynne...
lyin in tha grassed shady area starin up at tha cloudz..
with a slight breeze...
and it felt like i hadn't a care in tha world..
i jus love those momentz...
i mean just 2 stop ure life and just rest..
and reflect ova watz happend lately...
2 bad not htat many pplz there..
jus felt like talkin 2 some 1 2
>.<
oh wellz

i g2g
nite nite
*hugz*