commerce

in commerce atm...
got bout 45 minz b4 i have 2 go...
got notha performance... >.<

last nite i had tha mini harp performance... i did SO crap...

i kept stuffin up...

oh well...



but i guezz itd be heapz worse if i stuff up at tha joondalup eisteidford (how eva spell)...

we're up against st stephenz chior mainly... and chorale has pulled out...

i mean thatz good 4 us...

but then... that meanz that we as a skool prob not win 4 that section...
*sigh*

at least i miss out on skool... but then i also miss out on free dress day...

but then if i wz gonna dress up i wouldnt noe wat 2 wear ne waiz...

i hope mi harp teacha wont find out bout me performin as a choir 4 tha eistedford coz...

she wz liek encouragin 4 me 2 perform on tha harp there.. and tha onli reason she gave up...

wz that i told her that mi parentz wouldnt let me go 4 so much competition....

and now i'm goin 2 go sing...

oh well...

durin tha rehersal thiz mornin... it seemed like every single one of her correctionz were aimed at me... oh well... i neva said i wz good at singin... i jus love 2 sing :D



wat else??? oh in mathz jus b4.. i couldnt believe it... ms bayley had her comp on... and had windowz media player on... so i thought she mite play some music... she told us that she'd play some music on tha comp... turned out 2 be HYMNS!!! -.-" i mean realli... i wouldnt have even minded if it were classical music... BUT they were hymnz... tha onez that we sung 4 college sunday!!! but by some otha random vocalist...



hmm...

maybe i'll jus leave earli...

tara jus told tha teacher we leavin in 17 minz...

wat 2 say for bout 15 minz???

lalala...

scar it tha name of tha song i think wz renew mi heart lord...
oh welll mite as well log offnow...
no point in typin ne morez since i cant think of ne thin 2 say...
bye
*hugz

*sigh* me feelin realli sick... i mean durin p.e. i wz liek seein lil white thingyz floatin everywhere... we played modcrosse... and i ran in2 elissa a few timez... kat got hit by tha ball a few timez as well lolz.... and then afta she asked me 2 look at her head 2 see if she wz bleedin... so cute^^ i cant believe itz thurz... itz like tha time iz goin very slowly yet not as slow as i think... sorta fast and slow... oh well... at least i gettin heapza music practise done.... damn i g2g... bye *hugz

life...

thoughtz thoughtz endlezz thouhtz...
sometimez i guezz wen i realli get bored...
endlezz thoughtz jus run thru mi brain..
and it startz wonderin...
or it could jus be lack of sleep...
oh well...
main point...
i can realli get a headache 4m all thiz thinkin... and yet... wen i do type out mi thoughtz... most of tha time mi comp accidentalli closes it stopz respondin...




gar...
wen u said u me 2 rite in para...
did u mean para as in divided up..
or like chunkz of ritin that goez all tha way across tha page...?
oh well...
i do half half...
and pplz who read can decide...




so ye...most of tha time... tha thoughtz i rite down doez get lost... so somtimez it seemz like there iz no point in ritin mi thoughtz... tha effort 2 actualli type it out iz lost... *sigh* yet it'd be easier 2 type out than actualli rite it out in a diary... pluz itz somethin i can do wen i'm at skool and wen i'm bored... i wonder wat mi life'd be like wit out tha net ne morez... prob i'd be bak 2 watchin tv every nite... doin ne thin 2 avoid doin hw... i guezz itz liek a way of escapin tha thoughtz that come across in mi mind.... i mean realli... sometimez i feel so depressed jus sittin and thinkin... thoughtz runnin thru mi mind... but then i realli love jus sittin down and talkin 2 pplz or jus 2 sit and listen 2 pplz... but then i'm realli crap at comfortin pplz wen they sad... all i can do is jus sit and be wit em in their time of sadness i guezz... i wonder if that realli iz enough... *sigh* but then i guezz havin some1 wit u wen ure feelin realli bad iz good... but then itz like they dont understand... *sigh*




oh well.... hmmm... opportunitiez in life come and go... i guezz sometimez if u dont sieze em... they sometimez neva come bak... but then if u realli wanna... but then wen i think bak 2 thingz i wanted 2 do... itz like tha opportunitez have gone... i mean thinkin bout it soon our high skool livez will be ova... most pplz would have achieved somethin... but then wen i think bout wat i've done... itz like there iz nothin... nothin worth rememberin... cept tha happi daiz i had wit friendz... sometimez itz enough but somez reflectin bak itz as if it wznt enough afta all... everythin wz wasted....




i mean sometimez... itz like there iz no point at all... but then sometimez life iz like thiz whole competition... i mean even i mi famili itz liek competition... therez tha educational part.. and then jus parentz who have siblin rivalry and like are comparin children 2 compare raisin skillz... i mean realli... itz like so competitive as if we have 2 strive 2 be tha most favourd child and grandchild... i mean... i even had 2 get up and sing in chinese 4 tha whole family jsu 2 show how betta am i am... i mean i udnerstand if they wanna be proud and all that... but still... itz like therez heapza pressure... 2 be 'perfect...' i mean on mi mumz side itz like pretty eazi... since i am like tha eldest /child daughter of tha onli daughter... so ye... but like on mi dadz side itz like full competative... i mean they've even gone down 2 if they marry well and blah blah blah... i mean on mi mumz side mi couz iz gettin married soon... and like itz actualli quite interestin that shez gettin married tha same as mi mum wz married and i am like tha same age as she wz wen mi mum got married.... ne waiz... like afta her on mi mumz side therez liek only bout 3 more and then itz like 2 me... and every1 will be lookin at me... i mean even like mi lil couzin jessica noticed that... i mean at chineze skool like durin one of tha recesses she siad 2 me... on our side/ mi dadz.. therez liek 2 more and then pplz will be lookin at me 2 get married... i mean itz suddenly a pressure 2 get married.. i mean last time i saw pplz they were askin if i have a bf yet... *sigh* but that wz like sometime last yr or tha yr b4... but then it may not be me on thiz side coz therez still inge and vincent... but on mi mumz side... therez like thiz gap... and itz like jus me only... *sigh* i think i'll think bout thiz sometime later...




wat else...? starz starz starz... me makin paper starz.... sometimez i wonder... destiny... iz there such a thing??? do we need 2 work 2 meet tha destiny ritten 4 us??? or do we jus float along life wit tha destiny leadin us along tha way... or choicez... do choicez affect destiny??? or are our choicez made accordinly 2 wat destiny has ritten out 4 us??? or iz it jus that there iz no such thing as destiny... and our future iz all tha consequencez of our choicez??? *sigh* r these q meant 2 be answered??? or r we put here 2 answer our own questionz... of our dear inquisitive mind....? *sigh* and then... wat bout love??? r u destined 2 be wit a particular person??? or do u jus come across some 1 and then doez wat happen meant 2 happen??? whether they stay 2getha or drift apart... wat bout friendship??? do pplz jus "clik" or do u have 2 actualli develop a trust... as u talk more and get 2 noe eacha otha??? *sigh* life long questionz i guezz... questionz that appear in mi head wen i have nothin 2 do... jus lettin mi mind wonder....
*sigh*

mi time on tha net iz up...
nite nite
*hugz

F*ck... -.- i lost mi post 4 like tha 5th time 2 day.. -.-" i realli havin bad day... maybe i jus cant eva take tha time 2 say wat i thinkin... *sigh* maybe if i remember... i'll rite it out 2moro nite... hopefulli i'll remember... gettin late ne waiz... but i'll start ritin it... if i dotn fini i fini 2 moro nite... actualli realli cant be stuffed ne morez... i'll get mi thoughtz 2 pplz one day... i have a whole life time 4 that... well nite nite *hugz*

Commerce

in commerce...

*sigh*

nothin 2 do...

hmmm our class is gettin ivaded by yr 12z...

oh well...

hmm...

i realli wonder...

should i realli be that truthful on mi blog...

so open...

i mean i could put on a javascript like gar...

but then i'd actualli have 2 go round tellin pplz wat tha word iz 2 get thru and stuffz...

hmmm...

i havent put in tha archivez bak in2 thiz blog...

should i???

but then therez not realli ne point in it...

pplz are actualli doin work now...

maybe i should...

or maybe i jus cant be stuffed...

*sigh*

2 tired i guezz...

i slept at like 11pm last nite...

but then for tha first time...

i'm actualli REALLI sleepy durin tha day...

ususalli by recess i'm fine...

and interestinly i had slept at 11...

which iz 1 hour earlier than tha time i sleep these daiz...

maybe i juss need 2 get heapza rest....

or maybe i slept realli bad last nite...

*sigh*

oh well...

damn...

i have piano/guitar 2 day...

lookz like i wont be gettin 2 sleep afta skool...

-.-

i mean i could jus lie down and fall asleep rite now...

... zzzZz...zzzzzzZzzzzzz...zzzzzzZzzzzzz....zzzzzzzzZzzzzzzzzz
so sleepy...

and there iz like nothin 2 do...

so i jus have 2 sit here and type out wat i'm thinkin atm...

hmmm...

s+e next...

gr8...

get 2 fall asleep listenin 2 econ...

i mean mr o iz a realli nice teacha..

but he doeznt force us 2 hand stuff in..

or ne thing like that...

jus 2 slack...

so all i eva do is jus sit and talk...

or jus fall asleep....

and itz like last period so y not???

i can bearly keep mi eyez open...

hmmm..

wat 2 do afta piano/guitar???

prob 2 dark..

if not maybe i could go and rollerblade...

and gett realli hurt..

coz of mi lack of balance...

but i guezz itz like tha onli way of keepin mi sista entertained...

and stop her 4m annoyin me...

but then if itz liek 2 dark it juz feelz dangerouz...

pluz i doubt i even have a sense of balance so how???

i prob will end up wit heapza injuriez...

i mean tha scar 4m last time haz bearly gone yet...

-.-

now i jus got a patch of linez on tha side of mi leg...

oh well...

or...

wat else could i do???

i noe let mi sista play simz and i could sleep!!!

nah...

i'll prob end up goin online and jus talk 4 a while...

maybe type in thiz blogg 4 a lil while..

and then mi parnetz will come home...

and then i'll ahve 2 sleep ne waiz...

hmmm...

strange..

some of tha blog posts are sided in tha middle...

and some are jus 4m tha left...

i wonder y...

oh well...

damn...

i 4got 2 check tha timez 4 mi music lesson 2 moro...

oh well...

at least i got tha discus thingy sorted out...

i got so freaked out thiz mornin..

tha coach 4 discus came 2 me 2 ask me 2 go see her...

and then it wz bout trainin and y i didnt turn up...

then luckkily i checked my diary and i wont be here 4 tha IGSSA athz carnival...

yay!!

that meanz i dont have 2 compete which meanz no trainin...!!! yay!!!

i still cant believe i got in in tha first place...

21.05 m iznt realli a throw i could do...

musta been a huge mistake....

itz gettin funni...

i remember bak wen i just started postin...

there wz like nothin 2 talk bout...

now i jus rite wat i'm thinkin atm...

b4 i wz alwaiz choosin wat 2 include...

i guezz i wz much more cautious bak then...

oh well....

pplz change...

therez nothin 2 do...

commerce iz so borin...

our orderz have sorta stopped comin in...

oh well...

all we can do iz jus hope 2 sell more 4 small business day...

but thatd mean heapza work...

i mean our whole group sorta slacked off...

all cept lian of course...

*sigh*

y do i sigh so much more theze daiz???
thoughtz???
plauged mind...???

hmmm...

i jus noticed..

wenever i find timez where i sorta feel bad..

i jus usualli talk 2 some1...

or type in thiz blog...

if not i seem2 go and practise mi music...

itz sorta like a form of strezz release...

or sorta like somethin 2 think bout 2 stop me 4m thinkin that much...

time...

a precious resouce which we cannot hold to...

we may wish for it 2 go faster...

or slower...

but it jus goez on at itz own pace...

y?!?!!?!?!?!?

wen i seem 2 have tha worst time..

it jus slowz down 2 tha slowest possible rate...

and wen i'm actualli enjoyin life..

it jus fliez by....

and wen u think bak bout it...

it jus sadenz me 2 think bout all that time that i may have lost...

as if i wasted it....

*sigh*

need somethin else 2 think bout...

itz startin 2 get depressin again...

i wonder....

i realli wonder y life goez on tha way it doez..

wen u wanna spend heapza time wit pplz...

itz seemz limited..

as if there iz no such thing as time...

as if everythin has no purpose...

as if we're jus driftin along...

waitin 4 our ending...

*sigh*

okz...

need new thought soon b4 i drown in depression...

er...

holidaiz..

hmmm..

wat comin up..

tha rs!!!

but then thatz spendin heapza money...

i mean realli....

so much can be spent...

hmmm..

mi parentz were thinkin of havin a stall there thiz yr..

should they???

i guezz if they did i'd be gettin free entrance as alwaiz...

but then i'd be workin..

but then i'd still get 2 go round a lil...

waste...

waste of money...

tha rs iz such a waste of money...

but then we still want 2 go...

and there realli iz no main difference...

4 minz till end of class...

a class i wasted time doin nothin but typin out mi thoughtz...

oh well...

bye

*hugz

new blogskin

okz...
afta agez of edittin...
i've changed tha template/blogskin...
wateva...
itz more condensed...
less spacious...
but then u dont have 2 scroll so far 2 tha rite...
tha old template wz sorta borin me...
even afta all that effort...
2 work out how 2 get tha snow 2 work...
oh well...

ne waiz...
had college sunday 2day...
annoyin day where they decided 2 have a church...
sermon thingy on a sun...
2 make us go 2 skool in uniform...
and giv em money 2 give 2 charity...
2 make it look like tha skoolz realli charitable...
*shakez headz*
i mean how much money doez our skool have???
y not jus use that money???
but no...
our skool iz like a business....
have 2 get profitz outta our parentz....
and waste it on serviettez wit tha skool logo on it...
and random itemz which we dont need...
such as those random balloonz...
and yo-yoz...
i mean who wit a rite mind would want a yoyo...
wit tha skool logo on it...???
ugh...
and wat else do they have???
stupid bookmarkz....
and random pamphletz....
i mean itz a whole marketin thing...
and wat r we???
as studentz we are sorta tha productz that they're marketin...
-.-"
and yet we are bound by their rulez....
and we get nuffin...
no bloody aircon in ne of tha roomz...
otha than tha RC...
-.-"
and there wz tha bloody shirt incedent...
y did mr lee have 2 sign that contract...
4 bout 7yrz worth of that material???
i mean i noe tha yr 12z want their individuality...
y not find some otha privilidge?
i hate tha colour green...
y doez our skool make tha most stupid desicionz???
i mean wznt tha uniform blu b4 then they changed it...
jus 2 suit that green and gold tie???
i mean tha WHOLE uniform jus 4 one tie...
*takez a breath in*

hmmm....
betta talk bout somethin else...
b4 i bore every1...
so we had college sunday...
and it fini round 11:30...
garz dad took us 2 tha ct...
me dia and gar walked round 4 a while...
ate lunch down a tha food hall....
then went shoppin...

me and dia bought similar skirtz 4m sportzgal...
but then mine $10 cheaper...
hehe
mine wz denim and diaz i cant remember...
walked down 2 diva...
were bout 2 buy some earringz...
gar and i stayed in tha store..
and dia went 2 get her jap exchange sistaz...
(cant remember their namez... -.-")
they came bak...
and we sorta walked round....
took em 2 some souvenir placez...
so that they could buy prezziez 4 pplz....

walked round 4 bit longer...
well...
until 5pm...
gar went home...
me and dia and 2 jap exchange pplz went by train...
got bak 2 claremont...
and dia and em walked off somewhere...
and i walked bak 2 hj...
and jus waited 4 mum 2 pick me up...

so ye...
thatz all thatz happend 2day...
at least we all bought at least one thing....

these daiz...
thinkin bout it...
we're actualli startin 2 fit in2 tha stereo type of a typical teenager...
interestin...
but then not entirely fittin....

hmmm...
no 1 2 talk 2...
most tha pplz online are either bz...
or away...
-.-"
wat iz up wit that on a sun nite???
or maybe jus gettin their hw done...
unlike me...
and i dunno...
tha rest of tha otha pplz i dont feel like talkin 2...
no offence if ure readin.....
me jus bein truthful...

i wonder y tha truth hurt sometimez...
i noe itz tha whole thing that u see wat u dont wanna...
but then y dont we wanna noe tha truth???
see tha truth???
y do we wanna hide away in our lil worldz...
thinkin that every thin iz good...
jus as we want...
y cant we as pplz jus accept that there iz bad...
and jus try 2 resolve it instead of igronin it...
but i guezz...
thru ignorance we gain tha bliss...
of jus not noein there iz a bad side...
of our big bad world...

but i guezz...
there iz tha whole balance theory...
where they say there iz a balance...
for good and evil....
and jus lucki thingz and unlucky...
but iz there a balance for everythin???
if thiz wz tru...
would that mean for every good deed done...
and a bad deed may occur????
or every bad deed done a good occurz...???
or doeznt it happen at all???
maybe deedz good or bad occur...
because some1 choosez 2 perform it???
or doez it happen by chance...
or destiny???

and then they also say...
knowledge iz power...
but then...
if thiz iz so...
then would be ignorant and not learnin ne thing....
leave u defenseless and blissful???
or iz it that ignorance iz talkin bout not bein observant???
but then by observin do u not learn???
and by learnin u gain knowledge...
which inturn iz power accordin 2 tha sayin...
so...
wat doez it all mean???
do tha quotez contradict???
or do they all tie in 2getha???
iz there a greater picture we have yet 2 see???

and then i wonder...
do i reveal that much bout mi self in tha way i post???
do i actualli say that much bout me and pplz round me???
god...
i think i startin 2 get a headache...
suddenly so much thinkin...
-.-"

i need 2 think of stuff 2 rite...
i dunno...
but sometimez it feelz like thiz has turned in2 mi diary...
so much easier 2 rite in thiz...
than tha diary i have...
i guezz it goez along wit tha convenience thing...
hmmm...
mi thoughtz so borin 2 read...

oh well...
gettin late..
nite nite
*hugz

okz... havent posted since thurz... thatz mainly coz of tha english story assignment... i wz tryin 2 do but wz distracted by msn... so it took 2 nitez instead of 1... nothin seemz 2 have happend ne waiz.... dia i repeat... if u quit cadetz... our class (prof 2) will be reduced 2 a total of 6... coz there iz no prof 1 class coz tha basic 2 class got held bak... so... therez gonna be thiz huge gap... and even if u not gonna turn up... maybe jus com once in a while insteada quittin...? that betta than quittin.... hmm... wat happend since wed...? no main thingz realli... had skool... went 2 tha parent info nite on thur nite... stayed at tha boardin house b4 that... fri had skool... cadetz... thiz mornin... had chinese skool... went out wit mi parentz... for once since agez... came home... thatz bout all thatz happend 2 me in tha last 3 daiz... *sigh* mi borin life... but then i realli shouldnt complain... i should be happi that i am quite lucky... i do go 2 skool... and i do get wat i want most of tha time... but then i guezz itz jus that whole repeatative thing... 2 much 2 do... maybe i should drop bak on some stuff... oh well... till next yr... nothin more 2 say realli... nite nite... *hugz

====== continuin 4m last post ====== tha bio test wz okz... i fini 20 min b4 every1 else... handed tha test in and looked round... pplz were like on tha 2nd last page or somethin... and then i started worryin that i may have missed a page... or somethin.... so strange... i hope i did okz... social pix up 2day... i havent seen em yet... parrently they pretty bad... oh well... i neva said i wz photogenic... ugh... got mi bank statement... bit bad... oh well... tha interest ratez hav gone up... nothin interestin... lalalalala... wat 2 talk bout??? oh as every1 noez... ms lawson gave out tha warnin bout bloggin... and all... hmm... i wonder would mi blog be threatenin 2 othaz??? i mean am i realli givin out that much info??? oh well... jus gotta be a lil more cautious i guezz... i neva thought bout that... hmmmm... okz... need next subject 2 talk bout... i jus got bak 4m tha ct afta dark tour... a lil diff thiz yr... but tha main topix were tha same... but then i also had nic steele wit us thiz time... y did i totalli 4got that i mite have him take us on tha tour??? oh well... we walked past tha metro... heapza pplz... musta been pete murray concert... wait... okz jus told heapza stuff bout where i am... -.-" so much 4 bein cautious... oh well... damn.. french exam 2moro... -.-" oh well... i'll jus fail that... hmmm... wen we think of thingz... do we think of em bcoz we wanna think bout it??? or iz it coz ure mind jus wonderz... and change from one topic 2 anotha... until... u just think of somethin totalli different... 4m wat i start thinkin of... oh well... could jus be me... ... me in pain... still sufferin 4m that violent basketball game we had yesterday... i mean seriously... how competative??? pplz scratchin... and clawing (scar)... elbowin me in tha face (twice)... ugh... god... and ova wat??? a "friendly" match of basketball... *sigh* i wonder... wit tha ms lawson warnin thing... i wonder which staff member found em... and how long they've been readin... and whoz site they readin... and y not voice their veiwz??? we have a rite 2 noe who readz our blogz.... dont we??? wait... by ms lawson tellin us.. they did voice their veiw.. well... sorta... okz... i take bak wat i say... got voice 2moro... and guezz speaker... -.-" oh well... uh oh.. gettin late... niten nite *hugz

IT

i gotta stop bloggin durin IT...
but itz so borin...
i guezz tha onli reason i took it wz coz mi dad wanted me 2....

2 day i had...
s+e... mathz...health... bio.. and IT...
i had inclass essay 4 s+e...
we were given 1 page (double sided..)
i ended up ritin 5 pagez...
2 much...
it wz on tha electoral process...
i couldnt remember a single thing bout it in tha mornin...
but i thought i knew tha gist...
tha otha pplz in class were complainin bout how they didnt understand....
and guezz wat???
mr O as usual doez tha slack thing he usualli doez...
and goez and explainz it 2 us...
-.-"
wat iz tha point of ritin notez and listenin in class...
and revisin tha nite b4...
wen tha next day tha teacha jus practicalli givez u tha answer...
rite b4 tha essay???
all tha pplz had 2 do wz remember wat he said bout 10 minz ago...
and convert it in2 essay form...
-.-"

then we had mathz...
and yee lian said shez doin that mathz olympiad...
i saw tha examplez of last yrz test q...
OMG...
they so bloody hard...
there iz no way i'm gonna try out 4 that no matter wat mi parentz say...
i mean me stuck in there doin stuff like factorialz wit out a calc...
i guezz i jus 2 dependant on tha calc...

health...
we spent time listenin 2 ms hughez...
blabin on bout tha importance of bein assertive in a sexual relationship...
and then how we had 2 work out which 1 we are...
and how we communicate...
whether we are a passive person, assertive or aggressive...
me thinkz me iz passive...
or am i??
oh well...
wat eva...

i had bio test 4 bio...
end of class i fini later....

okz... doin hw now... and half studyin... so much stuff iz due thiz week... -.-" oh well... i guezz thatz tah life in skool.... we got our subject selection formz 2day... every1z talkin bout which subjectz 2 choose... i still wonderin if i wanna do 3 science and 2 mathz and lit.. if i can bearly cope atm... i wonder wat life will be like next yr... or maybe i'll adjust 2 it... which i highly doubt but then i'd neva noe... or maybe i mite drop a day off in tha afternoonz... time iz flyin by... i keep sayin it ova and ova again... and sometimez it feelz like i wasted most of mi time... and done nothing particularly excitin.. or worthwhile... but then onli bout 1/4 of mi life has passed... seemz like a lot tho... betta get 2 sleep... so much 2 do 2moro... nite nite *hugz

commerce

in commerce....
nothing 2 do...
i wonder sometimez y i even took commerce...
oh well...
getting along slowly....
maybe i should have taken another subject instead...
2 late 2 change now tho...

i'm so tired...
i feel like loggin on 2 msn and findin some 1 2 talk 2...
but then skool blocked out emessenger...
now nothing 2 do...
ms quenel iz eyein me evilly....
i mean she keepz walkin thiz way...
there realli iz nothin 2 do...
or it could be me slackin off agian...

talkin bout slackkin off...
i wz thinkin maybe i should try out wat ms padman said...
and jus try and study hard 4 tha examz...
and see if i can improve heapz in a short amount of time...
but then i doubt i'd be bothad 2...

yee lianz doin her debate....
melissa and joanne have their compz open 2 friendster...
and me..
bloggin...
no 1 can be bothaed ne more...
well...
joannez jus started cuttin up a pom pom...
but mainly commerce iz gettin borin...
i mite as well play gamez...

bye...
*hugz

nm happen at skool 2 day as usual... had s+e.... commerce... harp... science.... english & pe... most classes as borin as usual... played modcross in pe.... sorta a modified version of lacrosse... it wz okz... as hard as i remember it 2 be.... wz playin against elissa... and she stepz on mi foot and i ended up trippin ova... -.-" painful... damn... fini eatin anotha box of chocolatez... i realli gotta watch wat i eat... or soon i'll jus grow fatter and fatter... i dunno y... these daiz i jus cravin 2 eat more and more sweetz... hmm... is there ne otha place 2 get tagboardz 4m??? i mean fooble onli workz half tha time... and tagboard.com i dont exactly like... i'll jus keep lookin i guezz... till then... oh well.. itz late... betta go sleep... nite nite

day of cleanin

got up at 12pm 2day.. spent notha day of cleanin again... nothing much happened... dad tried 2 teach me 2 drive... jus mainly tha basicz.... i talked 2 mi uncle ova msn... talkin bout msn... i sorta dont like tha fact that on msn that u dont talk 2 tha person in person... u dont get 2 hear their voice... unless u have tha mic 4 an audio convo.... but then... i guezz there are some advantagez of talkin 2 pplz wit out facin them... and tha fact u can talk 2 pplz who are ovaseaz.... and everythin u read iz of ure own inference... how u interpret it... it may not come out tha way it wz intended... specialli 4 pplz who are prodominantly audio... itz harder... but then.. wit tha disadvantage of not hearin tha person's voice... unless u have a mic... u can still see them if they have a webcam i guezz... but havin both webcam and audio... that'd practicalli talkin 2 tha person but at home... instead of actualli goin out... are we as pplz slowly closin tha world out??? cant be stuffed goin out wen we can talk 2 pplz at home??? i mean therez also tha phone... but then u cant have a large convo wit heapza pplz... and not wit all pplz at tha same time... and then therez sms... convenience i guess... thatz wat itz all bout i guezz... convenience 4 pplz wit bz livez... communicationz... improvin i guezz... but then somtimez... wit tha new technologiez... i guezz simple pleasurez are lost... i mean personalli i prefer... sittin outside... on tha grass in tha sun and jus chattin wit pplz... or jus sittin in silence... and jus enjoy tha company... or stayin indoorz... and jus sit round a table or ne where... and jus simply talk... or i could jus be a simple person... i guess i jus am that way.... the simpleton that i am.... i actualli had quite a good weekend... come 2 think of it... i mean i got 2 have a nice but short talk 2 mi dad... and got 2 learn how 2 drive witout acceloratin 2 much... and talked quite a lot of pplz... got heapza sleep done... bak 2 chinese skool and tha timetablez pretty good.... talk 2 pplz at chinese skool... tha social wz okz... had mona and scar ova... and got 2 see mi couzinz... compared 2 most weekendz it wz quite good.... i feel pretty content... but i mean i woulda liked 2 have gone out somewhere... i mean mi dad offered 2 take me 2 tha ct... and let me wonder round... maybe watch a movie... but i'm happi i kept mi prioritiez in order... i had hw 2 do.. and i did do most of it... cept 4 tha journal.. -.-" but me happi!!! i guezz life can be fun... as long as i look at it 4m a positive view... like i alwaiz did b4... oh well... gettin late nite nite

social last nite

WB 2 DIA!!! so tired... i got 2 sleep at round 12pm last nite again... =.= jus readin thru pplz blogz... all typed last nite or earlier 2day... all bout tha social... and scar i didnt give mi number 2 3 pplz... -.-" last nite i guezz wz quite fun... maybe next yr.... or next time i could get dia and gar 2 come ova as well... shorter than last yr... but i think it wz fine... i do agree wit mona... there wz a lil dirty dancin.. and there were pplz who all ova each otha... me no comment... got up earli 2 day... went 2 chineze skool... got there l8... ended up bein tha 2nd student 2 arrive... and sat down... for once i had all mi bookz 2getha 4 class... since agez... then pplz started dribblin in2 class... then... 4 tha first time in agez... we had tha full class.... and mazingly we were tha largest class in tha whole skool... that had come 2 day.... li ru did come in 2 say hi... and she did a bitta work... then left... class fini... went 2 return tha tablez... then saw andy... said hi... had lunch... talked 2 andy and raymond 4 a whilst.. lolz he put lina in tha bin... went home... and slept... that wz basically mi day... so borin... as usual... wat else 2 mention??? i dunno... seemz like therez nothin 2 talk bout.... but again... i feel like talkin... y am i alwaiz like thiz??? i realli dunno... oh well... and then i end up repeatin mi self tryin 2 create convesation... and then jus nothin... *sigh* i wonder outta me and mi sista who uses tha net tha most... i mean mi sista spendz tha most time playin habbo... and me i jus chat wen therez pplz 2 talk 2.... yet tha time i'm online most pplz aint... and wen they are... i start gettin told off 4 bein online 4 2 long.... *sigh* nite... *hugz

mathz and chem compz...

daiz ova...
i cant believe tha daiz gone past so quickly...
tha mathz comp and tha chem quiz were okz...
i left all tha last section of tha mathz q blank...
2 lazy 2 work them out...
practically tha whole day otha than tha compz i didnt do ne work at all...
i had 2 music lessonz (voice and harp)..
and then durin english we had a free readin period...
and our s+e period wz taken up by a talk thingy 4 subject choicez...

tha social iz 2 moro...
i still dunno wat 2 wear...
oh well...
i'll choose 2moro nite...
that way i get scar and monaz opinion...

i jus found mi hol pix lolz...
i look so bad in em..!!
oh well...

so late already???
-.-"
talk bout bein distracted...
i started thiz at 7:43 pm and now itz like 10:38
-.-"
oh well...
betta go sleep got choir 2moro..
*hugz*

still term 3

okz...
2daiz down...
still got tha rest of tha term 2 go...
so much due...
pluz examz...
i gotta stopp thinkin bout all these assessmentz...
face em 1 at a time....
but then therez tah mathz comp AND tha chem thingy 2moro....

i dunno y....
wen i noe somethin sometimez i wanna tell tha whole world...
but tha thing iz that once itz out..
i feel so happi bout it...
one less thing 2 keep secret 2 tha pplz round me...
...

i decided 2 copy gar...
but instead of makin meaninz...
i've put in some idiomz and metaphorz...
i've come across that i like...
that way i can maybe improve in english...
oh well...
somthin 2 do at least...
i betta go
nite nite
*hugz

first day of skool... term 3

first day of skool 4 term 3...
now ova...
still got bout 10 weekz 2 go...
pluz tha examz...
*sigh*
and i jus lost mi notez on mi calc again... -.-"
and i've still got mi english journal 2 do...
oh well

hmm...
i dunno y...
theze daiz i feel like talkin...
yet it feelz like therez nothin 2 talk bout...
so wat 2 do?
sigh?
heapza pplz are online...
but then i dunno y i dont wanna talk 2 them...
it sorta feelz like i'm gonna end up botherin them some how...
pluz not realli taht much 2 say i guezz...
*sigh*
evry1z bak in2 tah whole skool mode again...
me on tha otha hand...
mi brain still asleep in mi bed...
i couldnt get up at all thiz mornin...
lina wz standin outside mi room...
screamin her head off b4 i even opened mi eyez...
me big sleepy head i guezz...

talkin bout sleep...
betta go sleepy b4 mi parentz get pissed again...

 

oke...
2moro skool!!!
agh...
but then i luckki i guezz..
most public skoolz started 2day...
i went 2 hps round lunch 2day...
walked round there for a lil while...
so mani memoriez there...
*sigh*
i saw mr sayce and mr lagan...
mr lagan saw me and said 2 me..
who r u and wat r u doin here??
-.-"
funny...
he taught me 4 bout 7 yrz and he couldnt recognise me...
have i changed that much???
and then i saw mr sayce...
but 4m a far away point of view...
I CANT BELIEVE HE'S TEACHIN YR 3s!!!!!
i realli feel sorri 4 tha yr 3s....
and then...
i looked round tha skool...
now so mazingly small...
and evry1z so short!!!
but then i guezz diff perspective...
coz i prob taller than i wz in yr7...
and then i saw tha leaverz jumperz...
they're so GOOD!!
betta than tha 1z i got...
-.-"
ourz wz sorta a leaverz shirt wit long sleevez...
and it wz called a jumper...
oh well...

no equality?
i guess so...
pplz in tha french revolution said stuff bout equality and how they wanted it...
and now i guezz pplz say there iz a lil equality in tha world...
but then would it be possible 2 have an entirely equal world?
wen they talk bout equal do they talk bout a balance of both sidez or  somethin in tha middle and every1 is tha same???
eg. therez tha rich and tha poor...
tha fortunate and tha less fortunate...
iz there meant 2 be a balance on both sidez???
like for every fortunate there iz an unfortunate???
or iz it meant 2 be so???
so tha fortunate are meant 2 extend a helpin hand 2 tha less fortunate???
but then there r those who jus take it 4 granted...
but then iz our livez realli revolved round jus bein either 1 extreme or tha otha?
damn...
i g2g out 2 tha shop...
fini later....

jus got bak 4m shop... so COLD!!! i'm FREEZING!!! agghh... ne waiz... wat did i do 2 day? i guezz i spent most of tha day at tha shop... i got up round 12 noon... went out 2 tha shop... 2 help mi dad wit tha spellin and grammar in tha menu 4 resto... but then mi spellin aint that good ne waiz.. came home round 2pm... helped work out how 2 bind tha menu... continued tha borin process of cleanin mi room a bit... went online round 5pm... and went out 2 help out at tha shop at 6pm... coz mi mum had 2 work at tha resto... coz some employee couldnt come 2 work... -.-" bored 2 death at tha shop.... surrounded by complete silence... coz apparently now daiz 2 play radio in shop u have 2 pay tha broadcaster... -.-" so no radio... no music... jus total silence... and tha occasional customer... -.-" then jus came bak.. and bak online again... how borin iz mi life?? but then i guezz itz betta than a skool day... but then a skool day is varied.... but there iz tha hw due.... -.-" i keep contradicting mi self.... hmm.... so bored i mite as well list tha pplz i noe that saw 2 day... *minh *julian *michael *simon j *some random that i can recognise that went 2 hps once... *pplz in mi family *otha pplz who work at shop and resto who i dont noe that namez of... *customer pplz... hmm.. who else?? ugh.. cant be stuffed ne morez... garz... like scar said.... pplz choose wat 2 say... coz they dont wanna hurt pplz feelinz coz u neva noe whoz gonna read ure blog... itz a realli small world.. word of mouth travelz pretty quickly... and u neva noe who iz readin it... i mean even i choose 2 leave bitz of mi thoughtz out... i try 2 be open bout wat i rite... but some thingz are jus 2 personal 2 have ritten down... and pplz have diff levelz of privacy... some pplz want more.. othaz care less bout it... hmmm.... watty else i feel like sayin??? wat am i doin 2moro? hmm... heapza hw... goin 2 visit hps... gonna hav 2 face mr sayce again... >.< not good.... BUT mi sista say HAVE 2 go so ... *sigh* have 2 go... wat 2 say??? tha more i say tha longer i can stay online... hmmm... i need stuff 2 say... but then some pplz alwaiz have stuff 2 talk bout... i dunno why... and some pplz dont... so strange... but then i wonder if thatz connected 2 tha whole privacy thing... hmm... i jus realised.. tha more pplz ask questionz bout me.. and tha more they persist on askin tha more likely answer.. i wonder why... *think think think* but then wen pplz jus ask... and then they say i dont have 2 answer i'm least likely 2 answer... ne 1 else like that ??? or iz it jus me??? oh well... hmmm... realli hard 2 blog whilst chattin 2 ppl but then if i dont type here mi parentz noe that i've been chattin... ugh... wat 2 say??? i keep sayin ova and ova again tha same thingz... aghh... i guezz thatz prob y mi blog so boring... nothin new realli... i found tha panoramic (bad spelling) foto 4m last yr... pplz look so different... i betta go... nite nite *hugz

Oke...
wat happened 2 day?
umm....
nuffin realli...
i want 2 go shopping!!!!
oh well...
betta not spend money on clothez....
but then mi sista keepz stealin mi new clothez....
wen eva i get new clothez...
she stealz em...
agghhh...

2 daiz till skool....
*sigh*
-shit-
i totalli 4got bout tha hw i wz meant 2 do durin tha holz...
-.-"

hmm...
i got most of mi room cleaned up 2day..
but still got heapz 2 do... -.-"

ugh...
i have nothin 2 talk bout...
y???

hmm...
i spent last nite cryin...
mi dad practicalli screamed at me 4 mi room...
but then mi room is messy i do admit miself...
but ye...
and then tha next mornin mi dad came home early...
and we jus had a nice heart 2 heart...
coz he felt guilty wen he heard 4m mi sista that i had cried...
and now hez bak 2 tha attempt of bribin me 2 clean mi room..
and tha house...
but ye....
i havent talked 2 him in agez...
so i guezz it wz quite good...

aghh... i betta go b4 mi mum scoldz again..

nite nite
*hugz