social last nite

WB 2 DIA!!! so tired... i got 2 sleep at round 12pm last nite again... =.= jus readin thru pplz blogz... all typed last nite or earlier 2day... all bout tha social... and scar i didnt give mi number 2 3 pplz... -.-" last nite i guezz wz quite fun... maybe next yr.... or next time i could get dia and gar 2 come ova as well... shorter than last yr... but i think it wz fine... i do agree wit mona... there wz a lil dirty dancin.. and there were pplz who all ova each otha... me no comment... got up earli 2 day... went 2 chineze skool... got there l8... ended up bein tha 2nd student 2 arrive... and sat down... for once i had all mi bookz 2getha 4 class... since agez... then pplz started dribblin in2 class... then... 4 tha first time in agez... we had tha full class.... and mazingly we were tha largest class in tha whole skool... that had come 2 day.... li ru did come in 2 say hi... and she did a bitta work... then left... class fini... went 2 return tha tablez... then saw andy... said hi... had lunch... talked 2 andy and raymond 4 a whilst.. lolz he put lina in tha bin... went home... and slept... that wz basically mi day... so borin... as usual... wat else 2 mention??? i dunno... seemz like therez nothin 2 talk bout.... but again... i feel like talkin... y am i alwaiz like thiz??? i realli dunno... oh well... and then i end up repeatin mi self tryin 2 create convesation... and then jus nothin... *sigh* i wonder outta me and mi sista who uses tha net tha most... i mean mi sista spendz tha most time playin habbo... and me i jus chat wen therez pplz 2 talk 2.... yet tha time i'm online most pplz aint... and wen they are... i start gettin told off 4 bein online 4 2 long.... *sigh* nite... *hugz

mathz and chem compz...

daiz ova...
i cant believe tha daiz gone past so quickly...
tha mathz comp and tha chem quiz were okz...
i left all tha last section of tha mathz q blank...
2 lazy 2 work them out...
practically tha whole day otha than tha compz i didnt do ne work at all...
i had 2 music lessonz (voice and harp)..
and then durin english we had a free readin period...
and our s+e period wz taken up by a talk thingy 4 subject choicez...

tha social iz 2 moro...
i still dunno wat 2 wear...
oh well...
i'll choose 2moro nite...
that way i get scar and monaz opinion...

i jus found mi hol pix lolz...
i look so bad in em..!!
oh well...

so late already???
-.-"
talk bout bein distracted...
i started thiz at 7:43 pm and now itz like 10:38
-.-"
oh well...
betta go sleep got choir 2moro..
*hugz*

still term 3

okz...
2daiz down...
still got tha rest of tha term 2 go...
so much due...
pluz examz...
i gotta stopp thinkin bout all these assessmentz...
face em 1 at a time....
but then therez tah mathz comp AND tha chem thingy 2moro....

i dunno y....
wen i noe somethin sometimez i wanna tell tha whole world...
but tha thing iz that once itz out..
i feel so happi bout it...
one less thing 2 keep secret 2 tha pplz round me...
...

i decided 2 copy gar...
but instead of makin meaninz...
i've put in some idiomz and metaphorz...
i've come across that i like...
that way i can maybe improve in english...
oh well...
somthin 2 do at least...
i betta go
nite nite
*hugz

first day of skool... term 3

first day of skool 4 term 3...
now ova...
still got bout 10 weekz 2 go...
pluz tha examz...
*sigh*
and i jus lost mi notez on mi calc again... -.-"
and i've still got mi english journal 2 do...
oh well

hmm...
i dunno y...
theze daiz i feel like talkin...
yet it feelz like therez nothin 2 talk bout...
so wat 2 do?
sigh?
heapza pplz are online...
but then i dunno y i dont wanna talk 2 them...
it sorta feelz like i'm gonna end up botherin them some how...
pluz not realli taht much 2 say i guezz...
*sigh*
evry1z bak in2 tah whole skool mode again...
me on tha otha hand...
mi brain still asleep in mi bed...
i couldnt get up at all thiz mornin...
lina wz standin outside mi room...
screamin her head off b4 i even opened mi eyez...
me big sleepy head i guezz...

talkin bout sleep...
betta go sleepy b4 mi parentz get pissed again...

 

oke...
2moro skool!!!
agh...
but then i luckki i guezz..
most public skoolz started 2day...
i went 2 hps round lunch 2day...
walked round there for a lil while...
so mani memoriez there...
*sigh*
i saw mr sayce and mr lagan...
mr lagan saw me and said 2 me..
who r u and wat r u doin here??
-.-"
funny...
he taught me 4 bout 7 yrz and he couldnt recognise me...
have i changed that much???
and then i saw mr sayce...
but 4m a far away point of view...
I CANT BELIEVE HE'S TEACHIN YR 3s!!!!!
i realli feel sorri 4 tha yr 3s....
and then...
i looked round tha skool...
now so mazingly small...
and evry1z so short!!!
but then i guezz diff perspective...
coz i prob taller than i wz in yr7...
and then i saw tha leaverz jumperz...
they're so GOOD!!
betta than tha 1z i got...
-.-"
ourz wz sorta a leaverz shirt wit long sleevez...
and it wz called a jumper...
oh well...

no equality?
i guess so...
pplz in tha french revolution said stuff bout equality and how they wanted it...
and now i guezz pplz say there iz a lil equality in tha world...
but then would it be possible 2 have an entirely equal world?
wen they talk bout equal do they talk bout a balance of both sidez or  somethin in tha middle and every1 is tha same???
eg. therez tha rich and tha poor...
tha fortunate and tha less fortunate...
iz there meant 2 be a balance on both sidez???
like for every fortunate there iz an unfortunate???
or iz it meant 2 be so???
so tha fortunate are meant 2 extend a helpin hand 2 tha less fortunate???
but then there r those who jus take it 4 granted...
but then iz our livez realli revolved round jus bein either 1 extreme or tha otha?
damn...
i g2g out 2 tha shop...
fini later....

jus got bak 4m shop... so COLD!!! i'm FREEZING!!! agghh... ne waiz... wat did i do 2 day? i guezz i spent most of tha day at tha shop... i got up round 12 noon... went out 2 tha shop... 2 help mi dad wit tha spellin and grammar in tha menu 4 resto... but then mi spellin aint that good ne waiz.. came home round 2pm... helped work out how 2 bind tha menu... continued tha borin process of cleanin mi room a bit... went online round 5pm... and went out 2 help out at tha shop at 6pm... coz mi mum had 2 work at tha resto... coz some employee couldnt come 2 work... -.-" bored 2 death at tha shop.... surrounded by complete silence... coz apparently now daiz 2 play radio in shop u have 2 pay tha broadcaster... -.-" so no radio... no music... jus total silence... and tha occasional customer... -.-" then jus came bak.. and bak online again... how borin iz mi life?? but then i guezz itz betta than a skool day... but then a skool day is varied.... but there iz tha hw due.... -.-" i keep contradicting mi self.... hmm.... so bored i mite as well list tha pplz i noe that saw 2 day... *minh *julian *michael *simon j *some random that i can recognise that went 2 hps once... *pplz in mi family *otha pplz who work at shop and resto who i dont noe that namez of... *customer pplz... hmm.. who else?? ugh.. cant be stuffed ne morez... garz... like scar said.... pplz choose wat 2 say... coz they dont wanna hurt pplz feelinz coz u neva noe whoz gonna read ure blog... itz a realli small world.. word of mouth travelz pretty quickly... and u neva noe who iz readin it... i mean even i choose 2 leave bitz of mi thoughtz out... i try 2 be open bout wat i rite... but some thingz are jus 2 personal 2 have ritten down... and pplz have diff levelz of privacy... some pplz want more.. othaz care less bout it... hmmm.... watty else i feel like sayin??? wat am i doin 2moro? hmm... heapza hw... goin 2 visit hps... gonna hav 2 face mr sayce again... >.< not good.... BUT mi sista say HAVE 2 go so ... *sigh* have 2 go... wat 2 say??? tha more i say tha longer i can stay online... hmmm... i need stuff 2 say... but then some pplz alwaiz have stuff 2 talk bout... i dunno why... and some pplz dont... so strange... but then i wonder if thatz connected 2 tha whole privacy thing... hmm... i jus realised.. tha more pplz ask questionz bout me.. and tha more they persist on askin tha more likely answer.. i wonder why... *think think think* but then wen pplz jus ask... and then they say i dont have 2 answer i'm least likely 2 answer... ne 1 else like that ??? or iz it jus me??? oh well... hmmm... realli hard 2 blog whilst chattin 2 ppl but then if i dont type here mi parentz noe that i've been chattin... ugh... wat 2 say??? i keep sayin ova and ova again tha same thingz... aghh... i guezz thatz prob y mi blog so boring... nothin new realli... i found tha panoramic (bad spelling) foto 4m last yr... pplz look so different... i betta go... nite nite *hugz

Oke...
wat happened 2 day?
umm....
nuffin realli...
i want 2 go shopping!!!!
oh well...
betta not spend money on clothez....
but then mi sista keepz stealin mi new clothez....
wen eva i get new clothez...
she stealz em...
agghhh...

2 daiz till skool....
*sigh*
-shit-
i totalli 4got bout tha hw i wz meant 2 do durin tha holz...
-.-"

hmm...
i got most of mi room cleaned up 2day..
but still got heapz 2 do... -.-"

ugh...
i have nothin 2 talk bout...
y???

hmm...
i spent last nite cryin...
mi dad practicalli screamed at me 4 mi room...
but then mi room is messy i do admit miself...
but ye...
and then tha next mornin mi dad came home early...
and we jus had a nice heart 2 heart...
coz he felt guilty wen he heard 4m mi sista that i had cried...
and now hez bak 2 tha attempt of bribin me 2 clean mi room..
and tha house...
but ye....
i havent talked 2 him in agez...
so i guezz it wz quite good...

aghh... i betta go b4 mi mum scoldz again..

nite nite
*hugz

few daiz 2 end of holz...

llalallalallala...

i wonder wen dia will be bak???

welcome bak 2 susan hmm...

i've had quite a good day despite a few downz....

i went rollerbladin thiz arvo...

and i fell 5 timez...

-.-"

i realli wonder where mi sense of balance iz....

i mean it...

tha first time i tried i fell 3 timez and it wz wet...

but 2 day wz perfectly fine and i fell 5 timez...

-.-"

and on top of tha 5 timez...

i hit smak in2 tha pillar which holdz tha gate up at mi house...

so i got a nice white streak down mi jumper before i left tha house...

-_-"

bad bad...

i realli need 2 learn how 2 break...

everytime i try to even break it doeznt work...

i jus lose wat lil balance i got all 2 getha...

oh well...

need practise...

practise away 4m public view...

i mean realli...

so embarressing...

 

wat else???

agghh...

these daiz have nothin 2 say...

*think think think*

 

hmmm...

i got notha 2 blank smsz...

on top of tha 3 random 1z i got durin tha last week of skool...

i wonder whoz sendin em 2 me..

dey're all 4m tha same number...

oh well...

prob some random who keepz makin mistakez wit tha fone number...

oh well...

 

agghh...

mi fone outta credit already???

 -_-"

 

bout 4 daiz till skool...

:( i dont wanna go bak 2 all that hard work...

but then therez pplz i can see!!!

4daiz 2 catch up wit hw...

and clean mi room...

wat else???

catch up wit music practise... (if i can be bothad)

 

so repeatative....

thatz life i guezz....

i betta go..

nite nite  

hmmm....
i wz cookin lunch 4 lina 2 day...
and i wz jus thinkin...
bout some of tha convoz i've had wit pplz...
in tha last few weekz...
and i thought of how in one particular convo...
i had said 'itz not mi place'
thinkin bout that particular one...
i realised wen i think bout pplz and how i and otha pplz relate 2 each otha....
i sorta think of social rankz and classes...
but i dont mean of it as in how rich they are or how they look...
but how they relate 2 othaz....
sorta like social groupz....
eg. one person is in tha middle of a circle...
and then their closest friend or friendz would be in a ring around them...
and then the next closest few and so and so on...

and one of the more interesting facts is that i seem to put miself on the outer....
i wonder....
could it jus be me being antisocial and deliberately putting miself on the outer?
or would it be me perceiving that i'm less wanted as a friend????
or am i afraid of reaching out and trying to make friends...
and bein afraid of rejection???
or am i jus alwaiz down lookin mi self and jus thinkin that i'm a loser...
and no 1 wanna be mi friend...
hmmm....  *think think think*
oh well...

and then durin tha course..
i realised that pplz do have many sidez...
i mean mi room mate had tha side which she wz wit me...
and then a side wen she wz in a group..
and then a side wen she wz round guyz...

and it realli got me thinkin....
i finalli realised pplz react diff in diff situationz...
diff pplz..
diff placez..
diff moodz...

i mean wen ure round diff pplz of diff agez...
and wen ure round pplz of diff racez....
i mean i dont wanna be racist...
but i realised i do react diff wit auzziez...
to wen i wit aznz...
not sayin that i treat em diff but i seem 2 act diff...
they're all mi friendz but i act diff round each of em...
and then wit tha agez...
i act more immature wen i'm wit tha girlz at tha guidez...
and diff at cadetz and skool...
and then at home...
diff environmentz....

and wen pplz say

'be ureself''

i dont see how it could be....
2 me it seemz there is no single me...
therez liek a combination of me...
me is a collective word for all tha pplz i am...

and then there iz tha side i sometimez want pplz 2 see...
i put on an act and they think wat they see iz me....
but i may be completely opposite....
i guezz itz impossible 2 tell bout pplz....
they may react diff 2 u if u were a diff age..
or maybe diff race...
even if u are tha same person on tha inside...
but then they may not....

*sigh*
i realli think i've got relationship probz....
oh well...
i'll try and change...

but some pplz dont eva change...
but heapza pplz change heapz...
in a time frame of an hour a person may change....
i mean i changed quite a bit ova 10 daiz on JNCO...
i found i got so stressed...
i had increased mi amont of swearin by at least 400%
i mean i wz sayin fuk at least 15 timez a day....
oh well....

and then...
time goez past so quickly....
chancez a lost so quickly...
opportunitiez gone...
some which may neva be available again...
*sigh*

but then again...
some chances come and go....
again and again...
and then one day they no longer r available...

and then..
i started thinkin bout goalz....
i think 4 cadetz....
i'll jus aim 4 cwoff...
i doubt cuo would suit me would it???
then maybe if i had time i could try out for cuo...
but i think shoutin at pplz on tha drill square would be fun!!!
:D
hehe

i guezz...
study medicine first...
if i get a high tee score that iz...
oh well...
MUST STUDY!!!!

aggghh...
so much stuff due in afta holz....
and so much happenin...

but then there r family thingz on as well....

hmmm....
wat happened b4 jnco???
oh ye....
i 4got  2 say....
we had buffer nite on fri...
we watched shrek and shrek 2....
and ate pizza....
tha cuo's bought like 60 pizzaz...
there wz HEAPZ!!!!
i couldnt believe it...
wat else???
o i went rollerbladin...
coz mi dad brought em 4 me on tha last day of term...
wat else????
o...
wen i went 2 go buy em...
i saw laurence watz...
lolz
so much taller!!!
oh well...
pplz i cant believe i'm seein these pplz...
last time i saw em wz in yr 7...
time fliez...
been 3 yrz....

oh well...
betta stop sittin at tha comp...
g2g and unpak mi stuffz...
*hugz
bye

holz...

lalala... holz... nothin 2 do now.... mona said she mite be free this fri... maybe go harbour town and help her find clothes 4 social??? and jus go round lookin at stuffz? maybe i mite find some more clothez as well....   dia wen u comin bak????   wat i did 2 day???? i went rollerbladin 4 tha first time!!!!! i fell on mi arse at least 3 timez tho.... -_-" oh well... but then it started rainin whilst i wz outside... and we were goin down hill... bad bad bad time 2 be outside rollerbladin 4 tha first time.... so slippery...   wat else???? thatz mainly it...   oh i remember.... lolz i wz workin out at tha shop and i saw this guy 4m mi primary skool... i think hiz name wz simon jonkiz or somethink like that... lolz... but i did remember his face... and then wen i asked if that wz all... and he replied... i wz so shocked!!! lolz his voice wz so bloody high....   i mean thiz is gettin weird... bak a few monthz i remember seein a guy 4m mi primary skool... his voice wz so bloody LOW and now thiz guyz voice is bloody HIGH lolz...   i guezz thatz all that happened 2 day.. cant remember ne thin else... oh well.... nite nite *hugz

JNCO recap

JNCO IZ OVA!!!!!!! an i PASSED wit a CREDIT!!!!! YAY!!!! ne waiz... i realli cant believe itz ova... it wz like tha best and worst daiz of mi life... it wz SO much fun!!! i cant believe itz ova.... ::tear:: now i wish it were a bit longer... aggghhhhh yet durin tha course i wanted it 2 finish ASAP but now i want 2 still be there.... *sigh* oh well...   at least i'm happi wit mi credit!!!!! i mean i thought tha higest i'd get wz pass... oh well... and then there is tha fact... that i'm kinda pissed at miself 4 not tryin that hard... i mean if i'd tried i may have gotten a distinction... -_-" i got mi report 2 day and i saw tha score ... and mi CO said... i missed out on distrinction by a bit... -_-"   oh well... nuff bout mi score... bout tha daiz.. hmmm.. i cant believe they passed so quickly... i cant believe i lasted so long wit out tha net... oh well...   tha first day... i went up 2 tha east perth station like mosta tha metro cadetz... then formed up and got on tha bus 2 leave... saw LCDT scott 4m GST... and LCDT Naarstig 4m tha wing parade...   got 2 pearce... got allocated in2 our flightz... i wz in A Flight... pplz in A Flight - LCDT Amis (jazz!!! i miss her!!) LCDT Coccaro LCDT Cook (same flight as dia in gst i think?) LCDT Cvianovic (in mi sqn and on same flight as me in gst...) LCDT Falconer-West LCDT Hewit LCDT Hotz (703 sqn) LCDT Kaps (miss her a lil...) LCDT Naarstig (703 sqn)(miss her)  LCDT Pratten LCDT Ruck (aka dobby) LCDT Scherini LCDT Scott (wz in mi flight 4 gst) (miss her) LCDT Shearman (left for personal reasons) LCDT Skinner LCDT Southhall LCDT Steenstra LCDT Urquhart   ye... and there wz one more... but she wz moved 2 anotha flight coz we had most pplz... at tha start of tha course we had 75 pplz on tha course at tha end we had 69.... oh well... so many pplz left..   ne waiz... we spent tha first day stuffin round wit team building exercises...   then 4 tha next few daiz we spent workin... herez our timetable...   0600 - Get up 0645 - Form up 2 go 2 brekky 0700 - brekky 0815 - 0840 - Daily Parade 0845 - 0925 - Period 1 0930 - 1010 - Period 2 1015 - 1055 - Period 3 1100 - 1145 - Period 4 1245 - Lunch 1330 - 1420 - Period 5 1415 - 1455 - Period 6 1500 - 1540 - Period 7 1545 - 1625 - Period 8 1630 - 1700 - Period 9 1800 - Dinner 1900 - 1940 - Period 10 1945 - 2025 - Period 11 2100 - Block Curfew 2200 - Lights out   but ye.. that wz tha timetable.. 4 our flight we had 2 DIs... CWOFF Walters and CWOFF Collins.... so luckki us.... wat else....   LCDT Scott and one of tha DI fell in love... wat else happend? i got distinction 4 instructional technique ( IT ) !!! LCDT Amis claimed she had no diaphragm.... lolz.... tha highest i kept gettin 4 mi room tidyness wz 5.75 outta 10 >.< oh well...   went shootin on tues... we got 30 roundz.. i mean i wz luckki went first coz tha next detail only got 28 roundz... but ye... mi first time i went shootin.... we shot wit 0.22 calibre riflez... i got a score of 117!!! i'm so proud!!! it wz SO much fun!!!   wat else??? oh... we also had fieldcraft... i jus bearly passed 4 tha fieldcraft prac... i'm so crap at it...   wit mi IT pracz.... mi first lesson wz supposed 2 last 5 minz... i ended up talkin for bout 2 minz 30 secondz... -_-" and then... for mi 8 min lesson... i wz forced 2 stop coz i went up to 10 minz.... and i wznt even finished... so ye.... i didnt get 2 ask questionz 4 taht 1... -_-"   wat else??? oh... we had leadership / team building exercises... in total we did 5 exercises... for 2 of those exercises i wz carried ova ropez and stuffz... y? coz in mi group there 5 pplz... me and 4 guyz... so dia.. that ratio wz accurate.... it iz tru... even on tha course... for every gal there were at least 4 guyz... so ye... cadets iz male dominant... yet a female duxed... go galz!!!! it wz LCDT Radford i think....   OMG... i had grad parade this morning... and everythin wz fine... i wz standin in tha front rank between naarstig and pratten... until i heard this sound.... and i turned mi head 2wardz tha source of tha sound... and saw Hotz freeze up rigid and faint bakwardz... OMG it wz tha worst sight eva.. i got so bloody scared... Naarstig who wz next 2 me broke in2 tearz... and pratten started sorta swayin... naarstig wz walked away 2 calm her down... and pratten wz dragged off tha drill square in case he fainted... and i wz left standin there... i stood in time 2 hear that bannister got 3rd (congratz 2 her!!!) wetton got 2nd.. and then i sorta felt dizzy so i went down on mi knee... and wz taken 2 admin area...   i saw naarstig.. we sat round 4 a while... and went 2 visit hotz... he wz actualli fine... all he had wz some minor injuriez on his thumbz...   wat else? i still cant believe i survived tha course... oh kaps... she got so annoyin.. and not onli her but steenstra i also found a lil annoyin.. both of em 2 me seemed like couldnt stop wingein... i had tha worst time wit kaps... i mean i wanted 2 be nice but sometimes she jus realli got on mi nerves... she was always on about how unpopular she was... and how she couldn't call her mum and step dad... -_-" and once she had called em she wouldnt stop goin on bout her pets... -_-" and how she kept jumping down pplz throatz... and wen pplz did tha same 2 her she'd get all pissed... and say there wz no need 2 jump down her throat... and then she wouldnt stop askin pplz 2 do thingz 4 her... i mean she'd go and ask pplz 2 do her bed... and hold stuff 4 her... and help her wit her jumper.. i mean realli.. i can put on tha jumper by miself... she on tha otha hand needz at least 4 otha femalez 2 help... and she wouldnt stop talkin bout... how this guy onli asked her out 2 get her in2 bed... i mean who carez ne more??? thatz part of her past...   and then some pplz did this head bobbing thing... after she saw it... she spent tha whole course doin it... i mean itz ok 2 do it but it jus got annoyin coz it started makin me dizzy... and then there were that timez wen i wz realli stressed... and she'd come 2 me and ask me 2 do somethin... i mean she even came in wen i wz tryin 2 change 2 ask if i could do her hair.... -_-" i mean cant she do ne thin herself? i understand that some pplz are dependent on their parentz.. so on thiz course ure meant 2 learn 2 adapt to independance... i mean even amis learnt how 2 do her hair.... amis alwaiz had her mum 2 do her hair.. so she asked me 2 do her hair.. then afta that she learnt and worked it out herself... oh well... itz jus some pplz i gues...   i cant remember ne more major eventz... oh well... thatz tha gist of mi last 10 daiz... i gonna go rest now... *hugz bye

IT again...
LAST DAY OF SKOOL!!!
agggghhh!!!!
JNCO...
-_-"
and i'm so sleepy...
we jus had tha author of lookin 4 alabrandi come in and speak 2 us...
i mean it wz interestin but i'm SO tired...
AND SO hungry...
i missed out on breakfast.... -_-"
and i had no dinner last nite..

should i go 2 buffer nite???
i wz meant 2 spend last nite pakkin..
-_-"
2 bad...
didnt even start...
oh well...
that'd mean i have bout 2 hourz 2 pakk wen i get home...
and then go 2 buffer nite if i wanna....
OR stay at home and pak all nite...
and then sleep bit earlier...

hmmm...

end of class..
bye

aghh...
lost mi last post..
and i cant remember wat i rote last time..

hmmm...
distracted 4m pakkin 4 JNCO..
ugh...

oh well...
wat happened 2 day???
hmmm..
had s+e, mathz, health, science and IT

s+e...
well did nothin realli...
wat could i expect???
i got mr oxnam...
mainly spent that time...
teachin jayne how 2 do chem coz she had a chem test comin up...

then had mathz...
-no comment-
and ms bayley made us each answer a q each b4 we were allowed 2 leave class at tha end... -_-"
ended up leavin class late...
lost a bitta mi recess time...

then i had health...
we talked bout sexual and non sexual relationshipz...
-_-"
wit ms hughz...*shrudderz*
and then...
we had 2 make listz...
of tha qualitiez which we'd like our 'perfect partner' 2 have....
and i sorta realised i havent thought bout that much..
i mean wat sorta guy would i end up bein wit???
well..
hmmm..
he'd at least have 2 luv me...
that iz quite obvious...
oh well...
till then...

science wz ok...
and then IT i spent stuffin round...

hmm...
wat else???
oh ye..
next term...
on tha thurz that we come bak..
we have tha mathz comp and tha chem quiz thingy...
which meanz period 1 and 2 are taken up 4 tha mathz comp...
and then period 5 is taken up by tha chem quiz...
which leavez tha 3rd and 4th period...
hmm...
i have voice at 11:30...
which meanz half of english...
DAMN
i hav 2 change tha harp lesson...
that would mean i'd have 2 change 2 either durin english...
and miss tha whole period and a bitta recess...
or miss out on most of s+e...

hmm... hard choice...
lolz

so much stress these daiz...
i mean at least we spent this lunch laughin...
i havent laughed like that in agez...

i mizz year 8 now...
so good bak then...

*sigh*
time realli fliez...

hmm...
every1z offline now...
i betta go sleep 2...
betta go...
nite nite
*hugz

IT

In IT now...
anotha lesson spent sittin round...
i mean i hate this work...
i dunno y but i find it hard and annoyin sometimez 2 try and be creative...
i mean i dunno y i jus realli dislike creativity...
itz as if itz a total competition...
2 competative 4 me...

hmmm... now i'm sorta wonderin y i took IT in tha first place...
i jus sit and waste time..
and i still got half a year of it 2 go..

plz dont rain 2 moro!!!
i realli don wanna have career ed... or french...

damn end of lesson
g2g
bye

had skool 2 day...
all feelin betta..

we had tha learning styles seminar 2day...
it wz so funny...
i guess audience interaction wz tha main key...
tha fact that pplz could participate and sorta understand...

hmmm....
i don wanna remind mi self...
but i have 2 face tha fact that JNCO...
is comin up in a few daiz...
>,<
i dont wanna go...
all alone...
agghh...
no dia wit me....

*sigh*
oh well...
one thing i'll noe..
if i do stuff up tha lecture pplz wont remember it...
coz we'd probly be divided up...
in2 diff flights so i doubt there'd be ne 1 i noe...

i'll prob fail...
oh well...
i could alwaiz repeat...

oh shit...
i still havent packed...
bad bad...
but i realli cant be stuffed...

yesterday i had p.e....
we played soccer and basketball..
and then wen i wz tryin 2 catch tha rebound....
of tha ball 4m tha bakboard..
mi earring got caught on some1z clothes and it killed like hell...

and then 2 day...
wen we had house act...
we played olympia...
there were like 8 olympian playerz 4 basketball...
for our 4 pplz coz stupid troy pplz 4got their uniform...
we had depleted number in our teamz...
whilst we played... olympians switched playerz on and off...
and sometimez they had 5 playerz some timez 4...
but didnt make a differance at all...
we got thrashed...
tha score wz like triple of ourz...
and then mi earring got caught on janez sleeve...
and practically wz ripped outta mi ear...
luckily tha bak gave way and it fell 2 tha ground...
but still i wz in pain...

oh well..
at least i found tha earring again...

wat else happend?
or is gonna happen???

hmm...
house athletics comin up!!!
tho there is like nothing 2 be enthused bout...
coz troy is gonna lose ne waiz...
but realli i cant believe mr lee is makin us march up...
agghhh...
i mean realli...
itz not liek some formal thing...
house athletics is meant 2 be fun!!!
not so formal...
a day off!!!
and plz dont let it rain...
othawise we'll have skool...

SHIT..
still gotta polish mi GP boots...
uh oh...

oh well...
i'll see if i can get out of paradin in em...

wat elsey...
damn..
have hw in tha holz... -_-"

hmm...
tha socialz comin up...
yet i dunno y i bother mentioning it...
itz on tha side thingy ne waiz...

oh well..
i betta go...
or else i'll be stayin up 2 late..
nite nite
*hugz

role reversal

i wonder sometimez...
who iz older me or mi sista...

i mean shez tha 1 that suitz tha whole stereotype of a teenager...
itz like a total role reversal...
i mean linaz alwaiz on tha phone and on tha net..
yet i still get tha lecturez bout all tha usual teenage topix..
weird..

i ended up in tearz again last nite...
:'(
y?
i dunno realli..
it could jus anger and jealousy i guess...
i dunno y...
itz not like i disliek mi parentz..
but i find it so bad these daiz...
restrictionz on everyhin..
and yet mi sistaz tha 1 on tha phone all tha time..
and then therz tha net restrictionz...
i mean apparently i'm not allowed 2 chat on msn ne more...
not that i've stopped..
but still...
i dont talk on tha phone..
i dont sms..
i dont spend that much time out of tha house..
y restrict tha net?!?!?!?!
and wen i talk bout otha pplz...
mi mumz like: y u alwaiz comparin ure self 2 tha otha pplz in ure skool??? y not compare ure self 2 tha less fortunate????
like wen i wz 13 i wz lookin afta tha family coz mi mum had died...
and ure dad wz helpin out at tha age of 7...(blah blah blah)
i mean itz not like i dont respect mi parentz..
itz jus that i want some time 2 talk 2 pplz..
even if itz on tha net...

i mean wen they were that young did they have most of their aftanoonz off??? yez... wat bout me??? me i've got all these thingz on...
they had a choice... they were so bored hey decided 2 help..
me i'm so bz i feel like collapzin and jus sleep on tha floor...

*sigh* and then jus wen mi parentz came home..
they went straight 2 mi sistaz room and all praise her..
and then walkz ova 2 tha connectin door...
and then give me thiz huge lecture bout tha stuff blockin tha way..

tha thing is that tha door in between doenzt have onli mi stuffz...
itz also mi sistaz...
i mean i did try quite hard 2 clean mi room...
whilst mi sista on tha hand half heartedly...
goin online and jus playin whilst cleanin...
yet i get bloody lectured 4 mi effort...
i mean realli sometimez i wonder...
and mi sista jus lovez rubbin it in mi face...
wat iz it???
life at home jus feelz like thiz huge competition 4 mi parentz attention and love....
i wonder....
iz that y i seek so much attention sometimez at skool...
but still..
itz jus not fair...
and mi parentz are so bloody leniant 2wardz her... -_-"

and i've been taught 2 alwaiz be nice 2 her... -_-"
i mean i ALWAIZ have 2 let her have her way...
y wont she grow up????
y cant she stay at home and look afta herself???
y does seh have 2 follow me round?!?!?!?
i mean there are such thingz as babysitterz...
but mi paretnz prob prefer tha cheaper alternative...
plus they have practicalli a spy watchin me...
one who bloody spreadz exaggerated rumorz... -_-"

aggghhh
and i cant do ne thing bout it...
i'm expected 2 be old enough 2 look afta mi self...
and not complain...
and have 2 look afta her...
but if it doeznt go 4 her she callz up mi parentz and compainz...
mi life so hard...
stuk between prob between mi sista and mi mum..
and wen i try 2 be a good sista...
i jus have a hard time....
and wen mi sista doez somthin well itz all praize...
cept wen i get stuffz done itz like who carez?
itz her job...
-_-"
mi sista getz one of those merit certificatez...
and itz a cause 4 celebration.....
me get high d itz like meh....
oh well...
life goez on...

spent mi day cleanin again..
i sorted out all tha clothez...
in total mi mum went thru bout 4 loadz of washin...
so much!!!!

these daiz itz so weird...
itz not like i'm havin immediate mood swingz...
but i sorta go 4m extreme happy as if i'm on a sugar high...
to sad down in tha dumpz...
but itz like on an extended time..
and itz thiz continual cycle...
itz realli gettin 2 me..
i've found that itz mainly wen mi parentz come home...
i go sad 4 all tha lecturez...
but i noe i'm rong...
and yet i dont change coz i wanna talk 2 ppl....
and then i answer bak bout how i wanna talk 2 pplz bout stuffz..
and i get told off...
itz getttin worse and worse...
itz like tha familyz got all thiz tension between us...
and i go on and on...
as if itz not gonna stop...
as if there is no such thing as rest...
all except sleep...
but i dont wanna sleep...
at nite i dont wanna sleep...
i wanna talk 2 pplz..
and in tha mornin i regret it all..
regret stayin up that late...
wishin i could have some more hours of sleep...

oh well...
betta get 2 bed..
nite nite
*hugz

harp recital

ugh...
had tha harp recital 2day...
i guess i did alright...
but then...
i heard tha othaz...
-_-"

i mean they were round tha same level as me...
then..
this asian dude came in..
he wz late...
and he set up hiz harp..
then started playin coz he had 2 leave early..
and then he started playin and i wz like 0.o...
he played so well!!!!
prob he either practise heapz or he learnt 4 agez..
thing is he wz like between tha age of 6-8....
*sigh*
y pplz so talented?!?!?!?!?!
tha onli factor i can think of...
iz that i dont practise that much...
i guess thatz prob y..
but then he played so well!!!!

and then..
next person who played...
i think wz some ccgz guy...
i dunno...
he played..
and i wz..
damn...
how long is that song???
it wz so long and complicated...
and then he played...
beauty and tha beast..
damn it...
y cant i learn fun songz like that...
that have an actual tune i noe (that isnt danny boi)
-_-"

btw...
all tha ppl that played had tha same teacha..
oh well..

hmm...
jus noticed..
i didnt rite bout tha otha container lady incedent...
we were eatin in tha bak of tha resto eatin..
then she bursts in... *shock horror*
and sitz down...
and startz talkin...
how rude is that???
and then..
stopz mi grandma 4m eatin...
turnz her chair aroudn so she can talk 2 her...
mi grandma getz bit pissed coz she cant eat now..
and keepz talkin..
me tryin 2 avoid her saiz i g2g...
and u noe wat she saiz????
she: goin so quickly??? where u goin??
me: home...
she: y not come home wit me??? u'll love it!!!
me: (thinkin in head) WAT THA F***?!?!?!?! AS IF!!!!

i mean realli... -_-"
and guess wat??
it happend tha same day...
that scar and i were talkin bout her in mathz...
i wonder...
did u curse me scar??!??!?!?!?

even if she meanz it as a joke itz gettin realli old now...
and so bloody annoyin....
pluz...
that remindz me..
thiz time last yr...
i dunno if i said thiz..
there wz that china sale thingy..
and mi dad invited her along..
and i had -_-" 2 walk round wit her...
(she wz draggin me along by tha arm)
and one of tha stall ownerz go..
stall owner:is that ure daughter?
she:no.. but soon 2 be...
me:(thinkin) AGGGHHHH let go of me!!! stop makin these thingz up!!!

god...
tha less i see her tha betta

wat elsey i can talk bout????
(oh btw tryin 2 make thiz long as posible...
coz atm bloggin is tha...
onli valid reason i have 2 go on tha net)

i mean realli...
she'z totalli against chattin
oh well..

wat i need 2 do 2moro???
*buy dark purple wool...
*find collared shirtz... make sure enough 4 jnco...
*pak 4 jnco
*study 4 jnco
*fini mi attempt at cleanin room

cant think of ne else...
oh well...
gettin late...
g2g
nite nite

hmm..

bak 4m cadetz

bak 4m cadetz...
seriously...
tha total number of pplz at cadetz is decreasin rapidly...
i mean they even went 2 tha extreme of askin us wat would appeal 2 our age...
so ye...
they realli desperate now...

i mean they need stuffz 2 say 2 appeal 2 pplz...
-_-"

hmmm..
if mrs porter wznt bz...
i would be at tha aquinus college gym atm...
oh well...
2 bad...

wat else???
gl 2 dia for tha rowing!!!

umm...
oh well..
nite nite

hmm...
i RELLI SICK of studyin now..
i gonna quickly type thiz coz i feel like talkin...
mi mum at home...

2 day we had tha mock electionz 2day....
we lost...
i mean it wz practicalli a popularity contest...
every1 practcalli knew that...
itz alwaiz been that way wen teacherz do electionz and stuffz...

i dunno y...
these daiz i feel like talkin ...
yet there is no subject 2 talk bout..
so strange..

nothin comez 2 mind..
there are no topix..
so sometimez tha same convo repeatz again and agian..
*sigh*

well
i g2g
nite nite
*hugz

recess

hmmm...
agez since i posted...

i wz gonna post last nite but i couldnt be stuffed....
itz so BLOODY cold outside...
wat wz up wit tha weather...
it wz forcasted 2 rain...
oh well....
at least i'm not gettin wet...

wat else???
i cant remember watz happend this week..
these daiz i'm jus totalli out of it..
i cant remember a thing...
i totalli 4got 2 day wz thurzday even...
(i thought it wz mon)
-_-"

monaz sittin bside me lookin at those hk actorz and actresses again...
-_-"

JNCO (junior non commition officer course thingy)
[specificalli ritten 4 mona] commin up..
y doez aaron have 2 keep remindin me???
*sigh*
i think i've sorta decided on wat 2 lecture on 4 tha free topic...
i think i'll jus lecture on memory skillz...
i'll jus teach em tha way pplz learn and how 2 do word trainz..
that'll do..
by tha time they've started tha word train 10 minz would be up...
hehehe..
but then...
should i teach em???
if i do then...
hmm...
i mean mi parentz did pay alot 2 send me 2 that memory skillz course...
but then...
itz not like i use it 2 studdy...
but tehn....
itz somethin that i can do... or noe bit of...
or quite well..
otha than that i dunno wat i could teach...
god..
so annoyin..
wehere gonna get a topic????
if i do teach em memory skillz...

(con't at home)
i'll have 2 make up all these word listz and stuffz...
and give em stuff 2 memorise..
damn...
oh well..
it'll do until i think of somethin else..

SHIT
dia...
we got fieldcraft exam 2moro...
since we not goin 2 sleep ova..
shit..
i didnt study..
and now i have 2 study 4 mi mathz...
finish mi notez 4 bio..
and jus check thru mi fieldcraft notez 4 tha exam...
-_-"
and ontop of htat i have choir 2moro..
and i havent learnt mi part yet...
aggghhhh!!!!
oh well..

i think me and scar are gonna be 2 of tha 4pplz
that are gonna move down a class...
damn it...
mi dad gonna be so pissed...
and mi mumz prob gonna find me anotha tutor...
-_-"

oh well..
gotta stop wastin mi onli time left...
i'll try and study..
(i still dunno how 2)
-_-"
oh well..
bye
*hugz