Deep long meaningless thoughts....

hmm.. already 3rd week of term 2!!!
time pass so quick...

ne waiz Mother's day yesterday...
woke up early for once on a sunday mornin...
helped out at tha shop 2 sell flowers...
no 1 ended up coming 2 buy coz of rain...
all wet and windy outside...
so went home...

then l8r that evening...
helped out at resto...
dia, kev and their mum came 2 eat....
very few customers...
so boring...
nothing 2 do....

so went home later that nite...
and went online....
talked 2 vincent 4 that first time...
he thought i wz some random -_-"...

and went 2 sleep....

so that wz realli all of mother's day... mi dad, mi sista and i bought a cake 4 mi mum... and we ate it 2 getha at tha table that evening... something done 2getha 4 once... i mean our family is like there but not there... sorta here but alwaiz bz...
oh well...

i mean we live in such a materialistic society so i guess its either time spent 2getha or jus work heaps and heaps 2 get money 2 buy stuff... but then love cant realli be bought... i mean these things we buy can bring a lil enjoyment but it doesnt quite compare to quality time spent wit family and friends... all lonelyness surrounded by things... things we want at first then later on jus ends up in some forgotten corner of the house....

yet family, friends and pets are tha main things... the simple part of our life... the part which doesnt want ne thing... jus tha essentials... but now its all technological everything so complicated...

hmmm... or i guess it could be said as progress... but then wat would be more important??? to enhance, improve and progress or jus stay tha same???

but then there is also tha argument of knowledge and opinions... i mean if there wz no progress... no improvement... would there still be rites 4 women and children??? would freedom of speech be in practise??? or would there be a different system of government??? would there be voting and majority rules???

hmm....
and would the ideals we hold be the same or would they be different??? how would our point of view be like??? would the world be more united??? would there be an overall dictator???

hmmm... and if there were a dictator would that be good??? i guess its jus realli depending on their personality... greed and evil or jus genorosity and kindess??? i mean if there were such thing as a nice dictator... or jus a good role model...i mean if there werent so many points of view on something wouldnt we accept wat we're given and told???

and also wat bout celebrities??? do they realli deserve 2 be put up on a pedestool as they r atm??? i mean all they realli do is provide simple entertainment... yet if we had simple lives and were less materialistic would that mean tha celebs would no longer be so high up in tha social classes???

hmm... and then there is education... wat if there was no education system??? wat if we were all to be schooled at home by our parents choice??? hmm... then we'd have lost our rite in education... some would be illiterate... so they would be less aware of the world around them... more ignorant... would that be bad or good??? i mean there would be less pressure 4 gettin high marks 4 exams coz there wouldnt be exams but then people would be less trustworthy of others who may not be qualified in wat they're doing... they do wat they like and there would be no order because they dont care....

agghhh this is realli starting 2 get outta hand... i could go on 4 eva... betta stop now...
getting l8 ne waiz...
well
nite nite

hmm.... jus fnished commerce... spent the whole lesson siiting aaround....
y? coz i didnt have mi commerce stuff....
y? coz i didnt organise it last nite...
y? coz i had a major headache whilst i tried 2 type up tha commerce interview thingy
and guess wat??? it ended up that tha teacher wznt there 2 collect it.... -_-"
aggghhhh.....

hmmm... got house acts next.... wonder wat we gonna do now that tha oval is all wet and stuff....
but then its prob gonna be tha usual basketball, netball and hockey....

had choir this morning and jus b4 i left tha house at 7am

i wz standing outside in tha rain wit tha umbrella and i realised tha beautiful sunrise/lite wz all yellow...
and like tha plants and flowers in tha garden wz so pretty coz like tha green colour and
magenta flowers and tha leaves of the willow tree in mi garden were drooping down...
and the light rain slowly dripping down 4m tha sky made it look like a picture with
pastel colours.... it wz like such a beautiful site....

hmmm.... ppl say wit commitment also comes sacrifice and choice of which 1 is most important....
and like lately i've jus realised i've got 2 make quite a few of those choices...
i mean next weekend 4 cadets, i've got a fieldcraft camp as well as a performance on sunday as well
as at tha guides i volunteer at they got a sleepova.... so i have 2 chose either going 4 tha whole
of tha guide sleepova thingy and then go 2 tha performance... OR go for tha fieldcraft camp and come home
early 2 prepare 4 tha performance....sadly both wayz i still got 2 do tha performance.... y cant i skipp it?!?!?

and then on top of that i can either choose 4m tha french dinner or choose 2 go 2 tha amnesty international
dinner.... hmm... both ways i think i still have 2 pay but then....

g2g belll jus went

grrrrr
stupid skool.... stupid lina....
i mean first y do we have 2 play footy for p.e.????
its not like i dont like it but then y do we have 2 learn how 2 play it???
coz we dont play it 4 interskool or nothing...
and then we were playing and tha stupid ccgs guys jus sat there and watched....
stupid assholes....

and then straight afta pe wen i wz so exhausted i couldnt breathe
mi sista goes up 2 me and says go change
and wen u finish going up 2 ure locker 2 get ure stuff
come down and pick me up.... i said no
and told her 2 go 2 corrylynne

then afta at mi locker she calls me and tells me 2 go down
2 where she wz and come pick her up...
i asked her y i needed 2 do that and she said coz tha
skool had fenced off tha area between tha playground and corry lynne
i said no yet again and hung up on her

i mean wat is rong wit her?????
i mean if i didnt go pick her up she would have 2 walk round tha whole skool
if i did pick her up she would still have 2 walk round tha whole skool....
and tha thing is if i did listen 2 her i would have ended up walkin up and down
tha whole of tha skool 3 times!!!!
oh well....

all i can realli say is i have a brat 4 a sista... altho she looks so cute...

and then i had 2 go take mi sista 2 girl guides and help out....
i ended up shouting mi lungs out....

and guess wat? 2moro morning i have choir.... gr8.....
shouting... cold... earli moring... not good combination 4 choir rehersal.....
i mean it wz bad enough that mi music teacher could hear how off tune i wz 2day.....

oh well... gettin l8
betta go sleep
nite nite

hmmm... in S+e now....
so sad....
i jus lost mi pencilcase which had mi graphics in it :'(
so sad...

i hope who eva has MISTAKENLY taken it either puts it in lost property
or at least find a way of returning it but i doubt it....
hmm... so sad... and there is like nothing 2 do
except sitting around or doing skool work...
but then i can jus sit here and whine bout how sad i am....

wat can i say.... sarah porter and i r tha onli 1s down here
coz mr oxnam is so slak wit his class... i mean what kind of teacher
lets students roam round... but then it is a benefit 2 me coz i cant be
stuffed doing tha work and i mean i have stuff that wz due in last term
that i still havent done... and he still doesnt ask me bout it...



oh well... i'll find something 2 do...

hmm... i added a new link 2 this really sad vampire game
but then wat can u say... its something 2 do wen ure realli bored....

well... gonna continue playing it...
-della

hmm... jus came bak 4m tha ANZAC parade.... i'm so tired, PISSED OFF, hungry and weak 4m tha march and standing in tha bloody heat...

it wz ok in tha morinin then i wz told repeatedly that i had 2 take mi earrings out by all these higher ranks and i had 2 explain 2 them that i got mi ears pierced recently... and then a CPL came up 2 me an screamed at mi face saying that i had 2 take them off and then she replied "i dont care if u got them pierced recently they wont close so take them out" so i ended up taking them out...
the holes ended up closed wen i got home...

the march round tha ct wz ok... cept for tha fact there wz yet again horse shit occasionlally... this year it went 4 tha esplanade 2 Langly park instead of tha otha way round coz of some construction thing...

we then had an hour rest wen every1 hurried 2 go grab a drink... tha water ended up tastin like egg... rotten egg for that matter...

and then it wz tha service... this yr Perth Modern College's Choral sang tha hymns and stuff... and then there were tha rest of tha speeches... someone did end up fainting coz they thought they could last through it and didnt go down on his knee... he fell straight bakwards....

i jus lasted but we got 2 sit down jus afta tha guy fainted but had 2 stand up again for tha last post... then had 2mins of silence then tha rest of tha service i cant realli remember coz i gave up listenin....

then wen it wz finished i called mi dad 2 pick me up and he said 2 wait near tha bell tower... so i went there and then i wz confronted by like these 3 ladies askin me bout whether or not i wz in tha ANZAC march and then these tourists came up and there wz like this whole crowd round me askin bout stuff... but thank god tha tourists' bus came and they had 2 leave.... i wz startin 2 get realli freaked out... at least this time i didnt feel like i wz advertising for some organisation....
like last yr -_-"

well i'm gettin tired...
i'm gonna go 2 sleep 4 alittle while longer...
bye

bout 3 daiz till skool...

during tha last few and next few daiz not many things have happened or are gonna... well compared 2 tha last 2 weeks they are interesting but oh well...
*i got a new guitar
*mum got a new car
*tha chinese skool principal came 2 our house 2 teach us some dance called "It" -_-"
*apparently poo's bak... -_-"
*mi dads doin a full emptying of our house coz he hired one of those gold bin thingz..
*ANZAC march 2 morro morinin...

well its gettin late g2g
nite

hmmm... bout less than a week till the end of tha hols and yet i've done nothing...

jus sleep... eat... watchin tv and movies... clean house
nothing 2 do...

well i'm gonna go find somethin 2 do now...
bye

nothing much has happened realli...

but then i just remebered i didnt rite down mi visit 2 graylands hospital on tha last post....
i went on easter monday...

it wz all strict and stuff... we had 2 make an appointment then got ther 5 mins early and then go thru this like metal detector... and had 2 put all our stuff in this locker thing and then afta that we were lead thru all these security doors which were all opened by this person wit this keycard thing and then we were lead in2 this room with these chairs and cameras all around and a phone on tha wall...

we were told 2 sit down then steven (friend in graylands) came in and we talked... turned out that it wz his 5th time in graylands... tha last time i saw him wz jus before he went to graylands the first time... that wz bout 2 years ago... it wz so weird... i mean he wz all think and freaky looking wit sorta dark rings around his eyes... he seemed like he wz suffering 4m withdrawl.... it wz so sad...

and then other than that nothing i can remember has happened since...

its so wierd i'm sorta surrounded by ppl like mi sista's friends and her cousins yet i'm sorta lonely coz there's sorta an age gap... i mean i'm older than them jus 4 yrs and its a bit annoying.... yet i spend time with my sister and she trys hard 2 be more mature than her own age... i mean some of her friends even call her 'mummy linnie'.... wat can u say bout that???

oh well...
g2g
bye

FINALLY!!!
mi net connection is up again...
also afta that telstra guy left he told me that tha modem wz fried... mi sista fried tha modem coz she use it too much...

its already tha second week of tha holidaiz... :(
i havent done ne thing so far but stay at home, clean tha house, look afta mi cousin and mi sista's friends when they come ova and help out in tha resto weneva they need help...

i skipped tha langly fly - in in the end coz i didnt noe wat time it wz coz there wz no net connection 2 use 2 check up on and then thankfully dia tried but didnt end up finding it...

i got mi ears pierced...

mi first week of tha hols wz alright....
*it started with me gettin up set of something i couldnt remember and i ended up hyperventalating and then mi parents got this huge shock and took me 2 pmh and were all worried and every thing 2 find that there wz nothing rong...
*then the net wz down
*then mi sista invited her friends ova
*then mi cousin came ova for a sleepova and we played table tennis...mi dad joined in later on in tha nite
*rented some movies and watched...
*ears pierced

and i guess thats all thats happend thru half of mi holidaiz...

i saw miriam yesterday... she didnt even recognise me... hmm... i guess its either she cant remeber me or afta 3yrs i've changed alot or even it means that ppl have grown so far apart they forget...
oh well...

well g2g
bye

Well i've jus come bak 4m tha house singing and drama concert...
OMG i cant believe it we WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

B4 they announced it i thought that it would be Athens coz they sung so WELL!!!!!!!!!!!
And from tha adudicators' comments our house wz either gonna get 2nd or 3rd....
but i think that tha main reason we won wz becoz of tha choice of songs... we had a sad slow song and a happy faster paced one... that wz tha main thing that tha adudicators said bout athen's choir... tha choices didnt contrast.... so if they did i realli think they shoulda won... i mean they sung excellently and then there were those realli great actions... they were simple and seemed a bit weird (tragedy) but they were SO effective... and then there wz rome they sung SO well and WITHOUT accompanyment!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i mean that wz amazing!!!!!!!!

Well congratulations 2 all tha ppl that performed yesterday and 2nite!!!!!!!! You were outstanding!!!!!!!!!!!! Congrats 2 Sparta who won tha play 4 tha 3rd year in a row and Congrats 2 Olympia 4 winning mime!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh i feel so happi.... we watched Bridget Jones' Diary when tha otha performances were going on and a managed 2 lose my fone... but luckily it wz found again....

and then everyone left and i wz left jus standing there, reflecting... of the times that had passed... and i thought of yr 8 and then bak 2 primary skool... so strange... how fast time has past and it seems like the world around me has changed yet i havent... jus trapped in the turning of time.... lost...

Yet again there is no one online :(
maybe its coz its 2 late....
oh well...
i guess i'll jus go 2 sleep 2 then
nite nite

hmm... should i change tha template of mi blog as well...?
i've sorta found one i liked but it seems a bit dull and dark 4 me... (its in blak and white)
i'm not sure if i like those 2 colours...
its called friends foreva by dogsunleashed... i mean its SO cute but its in blak and white....
or maybe i could use falling snow
its nice and blue but i dunno... maybe i could find another one or just use one of these....
but then i dunno if i can be stuffed....
well i guess i'll jus have 2 decide later on...

hmmm... no one's online 2 talk 2... so lonely...
oh well...
guess i'll jus have 2 go talk 2 ken ken...
gr8... no repli... he's ignoring me...

and tha onli otha ppl i can c that are online are kathleen and ken ken... oh well dunno wat 2 talk bout even if they do repli...

2moroz tha house singin, mime and drama thingy... good luck 2 all tha houses... i realli doubt it but i hope we get in tha top 3 but i highly doubt it....

well gettin late...
nite nite

Dia - wen u open e-mailz that are apparently 4m 714 or has tha subject 'for all 714 ppl' or ne thing else like that scan tha document b4 downloading it!!!!!!!!!!!!! luckily i skaned some.... i nearly got 5 viruses 4m all those e-mailz!!!!!!!!!!!! and make sure if u realli wanna that u skann it.... coz even tho it saiz its been skanned its lying!!!!!!!!!
so tired...
got up at 8 this morning...
went 2 kings park 4 tha RAAFA memorial...
it wz ok.... onli 8 ppl turned up...
4 of them 4m 714 (including me)...
so i guess heads are gonna roll wen we get bak 2 cadets next time...
but ye... lasted bout an hour... jus standing there at attention...
mi feet started hurtin so much.... oh well...
and then there wz tha realli weird thing...
bak in our sqn... wen they say 'stand easy' it usualli means rest...
but then tha person said 'stand easy' and i sorta started moving like he said rest
and then tha otha ppl weren't then i sorta relised he didnt mean it like 'rest'.... oh well....

later on... wen i got home... i changed then went 2 freo wit mi family....
ended up going 2 this fish shop and bought some 2 marrons and 4 red bellied pawz....

then afta that... went home... had nando's chicken... then dad wen 2 work...
lina hogged tha comp....
i fell a sleep....

nothing interesting afta that....
oh well...

bak 2 skool 4 bout a week 2moro and then holidayz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i kan get mi ears pierced!!!!
well...
getting late...
nite nite

kz every body i'm not trying 2 hypnotise ppl... if u want tha hearts 2 stop click 'stop' tha symbol next to tha refresh one...

ne waiz.... so bz last few daiz/week.... so many tests and assignments due....
well i got bak mi maths test... not happi bout it...onli 66%.... oh well... shoulda studied more....
all mi fault...
but then i loved tha result 4 mi science test!!!!!!!!!!!! i couldnt believe it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i got 7B!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SO happi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but ye...
ne waiz..
had buffer nite 4 cadets.. free dress, watched charlie's angels 2 , and played some games which involved a little bitta drill but it wz quite fun!!!!

then i had chinese this morning... nm.... rote a composition bout miself.... had singing (sounded pathetic).... and then sat round listening 2 sharon talk 2 ppl... such a loner i am...

well... i got tha memorial thingy 2 moro 4 cadets.... well i g2g get ready 2 sleep...
nite

hmmm 4 daiz no post....
nothin happen realli... time jus slowly drift pass and me jus trying 2 handle all tha hw pile up...

most of tha hw is quite boring but interestingly i'm actually bothering 2 do mi chinese hw above all mi otha hw...
well i guess it can be quite interesting... but freaky.... we're doin horoscopes and surprisingly some things are quite accurate bout me... or maybe thats how i picture miself as.... hmmm....

sometimes i wonder how boring and sad mi life is and then wen i saw this little segment of aca (whilst mi grandma wz watching it) bout this guy who's 24 and had his head knocked in and like tha skull bit bashed off and wz waiting 4 medical treatment and had 2 wait for months... well it went something like that and then i though for bout a moment how lucky i am... i have a family who love me and a little sista... who altho is annoying is.... special....
but then there are tha daiz wen i'm jus down in tha dumpz and have that realli awful time... and nothing seems 2 go rite... adn then there are jus tha times wen i'm typing in mi blog and i get all pissed at mi sista coz she's jus standing there reading as if she's marking wat i'm typing and it jus seems like i'm trapped with no freedom of speech coz someone is reading thru and is going 2 edit wat i'm typing in.... *hint, hint go away whilst i'm typing lina*

and the thing is for mi sista is she's unique and unlike other little sisters... stereotypical sista's are jus younger and more naive and jus listen 2 u and ask u stuff wen they dont understand and bug u till u tell them yet i have a sista who seems 2 me like anotha mother or lecturer... she jus seems more mature.... and yet she realli bugs me coz i have another person nagging at me... or maybe its jus me... maybe i'm tha immature one who hasnt grown up.... i realli dunno... but from mi point of view she seems like she strives 2 be the 'perfect' girl/daughter/student... i mean she offers 2 bring stuff in2 class jus coz they are relavent 2 tha subject... eg. she went 2 buy these porcelin dolls coz they were studying the swan river settlement and the dolls looked like the dolls of those times and another eg. wz wen she took a sanitary napkin 4m mi mum coz they were discussing tha health topic in class... realli if u ask me i realli cant believe her... and there is alwaiz tha phrase she uses at tha start of most sentences of wat she sais "mummy said...", "mi teacha said....", "dad said...." and it jus gets SO annoying afta a while.... but then she is mi sista and i love her heaps yet she annoys me so... and she is quite self centred if u ask me... and then that is mi point of view....

and there is tha annoying fact of tha ppl who first see her as thinking that she is SO cute.... yet it maybe me jus sounding realli jealous and rambling on and on bout it...

hmmm....
i guess i sorta ran outta stuff 2 say... but then i've jus found out 1 thing... anonymous u r rite... i do ramble on and whine bout mi sista and mi mum....
well i guess that'll be enough for 2nite or i'll jus be typing 4 eva...
nite nite

hmmm....
nothing 2 do.... maybe i'll try out that stream thought thingy garz keeps doing....

tis 4:40 i'll have 2 go in 10 mins have 2 go look afta all those little kiddies who go 2 guides international nite so i guess they gonna be cookin wat a mess it'll be oops mum has woken up i jus opened mi blog up and tha music wz on and tha speakers were so loud she's woken up hmmm i got heaps a hw coz i've let it pile up again uh oh i got commerce business plan and french thingy 2 do and tha french thingy is already ova due oh well cant be stuffed doing it mi hair is still wet i jus washed it and its sorta drippin everywhere thank god i've got a towel on mi bak so tha water doesnt go every where mi mum is mumbling again coz i'm on tha net but then i've been so bored all mi life wat with all tha work and tutoring/piano i g2g eat b4 i go

byez
and nite nite

hmm...
no one realli blogs that much ne more do they...
oh well... i jus keep ending up looking at mi own blog...

nothing realli 2 talk bout ne morez... again...

mi parents are yet again on tha debate bout whether or not 2 get me a tutor...
personally i'd prefer not 2 get one... coz tha ppl are usualli some random guy who's jus got in2 uni
or some random old guy who has children at uni and he has some gr8 method for maths and science but
tha thing is everytime i've had a tutor so far a) they jus keep blabbering on bout something i dont understand
or b) they get bored of teaching me coz they chose not 2 go ahead of tha syalbus at skool and are waitin 4 tha skool
syllabus 2 hurry up and run outta work sheets for me 2 work on so i jus sit there reviewing things repeatedly....

well... i g2g study for s+e and french tests 4 2moro
nite nite

OMG....
oh well... tha damage has been done....
i realli cant believe this....

plus Dia i'm realli sorri!!!!!!

i totalli forgot bout it.... i added it 2 mi profile last yr but bak then u didnt eva rite in ure blog so i didnt realli care....
dia i think u mite wanna change ure site addy...
coz mine doesnt realli matter coz there is nothing interesting realli on here that way
whoeva this nosey person is cant read wats on ure site... but then this randoms gonna pass it on 2 every one...
oh well... i dont realli have ne secrets on here i dont think that ne one relates 2 ne one he noes ...

btw whoeva u r, these sites were put up as a form of communication between a group of friends when eva tha rest r online.... so plz keep out!!!!!!!!!!

i cant believe this.... if u ask me this has been 1 of tha worst week ends eva...
i had choral camp in tha scorching weather, mi sista and mi mum seemed have gone out shopping wen i wz away on camp so yet again i missed out on going ne where (coz last time they went out i wz on flying camp), and now this...
i realli cant believe this as well as all the stress of tha up coming stress of tests and pile up of hw....
mi sista is screaming at me coz she wants 2 go online... when she could have gone on during tha weekend so far....

and then there are all tha lectures on top of that... i've jus found miself listening 2 another member of mi family whose become a lecturer.... mi grandmother... now i have mi mum, mi sista, mi chinese skool principal AND mi grandmother on mi bak bout being a perfect daughter/student/sister/person etc... i cant believe it.... now she jus starts accusing me of doing stuff... i mean she gave me this lecture and wz telling me 2 hug and kiss mi dad more coz wen i get older i cant coz mi mum will get jealous and suspicious and i wz like... wat tha???? i mean suspicious of wat??? me havin an affair wit mi dad???? thats jus a realli disgusting thought.... and then there wz tha time that she gave me a lecture about working hard and not slacking off when i wz doing mi hw... and then accusing me of having a boyfriend and not concerntrating on mi studies and i'm like.... ummm... i spend 95% of mi time at home, going 2 mrs tans house and going 2 girl guides (excluding skool time).... so that is impossible yet she accuses me....
i realli dunno wat 2 say...

gwad mi sista keeps annoying me... i jus come home about 2 have a shower, walk in2 tha bathroom and she then choses that particular time 2 walk in and ask me how it went... of all that time on tha car not a single word and then ask me in tha bathroom?????

kz now 2 talk bout choral camp...
we were soooooooo off tha schedule!!!!
we arrived half an hour early 2 tha place and we had dinner there and then we had rehearsals for 2 and 1/2 hours instead of just 2 and then tha next day we sang for bout 9 hours and for bout 3 hours 2day... thats a bout 14 and 1/2 hours! and then there wz tha concert and on top of that we had a quiz nite and we also had 2 make up lyrics 2 go with the tune of the brady bunch we came equal second for that... so yea thats bout
it i think of me week end...

life is so dull these daiz....
well i do have heaps of hw to do yet i waste mi time stuffin round on the net...

i should realli be stressing and working hard to gettin higher marks since i'm in yr 10
but i jus dunno y i cant realli be stuffed... i guess its jus mi motivation realli... its nil...

and as usual there is tha whole thing where teachers somehow organise 4 everything 2 be due in tha
same week... all assessments and assignments due... and i've got choral camp just tha weekend before...
gr8!
oh well...

gar i sorta noe wat u mean no one can realli be stuffed bloggin ne more....
but then i didnt realli like it in the start... i just blogged once in a while coz scarlet made me an account...

life goes by so quickly... days pass by then weeks then days... we're nearly through term 1
and before we noe it we'll be in yr 11 startin TEE subjects and slowly we'll drift apart following our own
career choices... for me it'll be medicine... i just hope we can keep in close contact but sometimes we just
become forgotten people in the back of each other's memory of the great skool days...
i mean i dont even talk 2 ne of the friends i had in primary skool ne morez even tho we promised 2 keep in contact...
we jus carried on with our lives as though it wz jus a dream, only a long lifelike dream...

we're just living in a small small world which we ourselves are destroying quickly, moment by moment when ever we abuse availability of the resources available to us as if it were infinite... life is realli 2 short 2 waste yet i'm spending my time here typing and wasting mi time... and yet again i bring up the subject that i myself have no social life... no time off...
just stuk at home, going 2 skool, coming home, going 2 piano/guitar, go and help out at the local girl guides or jus cadets... nothing other than that... jus a revolving cycle... seems like it will never end yet very soon it will....

i spend then the rest of mi weekends staying at home... i want 2 go out yet i have 2 point of going... i end up staying at home... and yet very soon i realli will have no time 2 go ne where... jus alwaiz busy... alwaiz having 2 face up 2 deadlines
where ever i go deadlines from handing in work to returning books to the library or even time up when things will stop...
sooner or later every single person will have 2 face up to at least 1 deadline... whether u enjoyed wat u were doing or not...

sometimes i feel so isolated... so confused... there seems to be no one to turn to... i dont realli noe... it jus feels like there is no one 2 talk to although i'm surrounded by a whole college of ppl... i could even go 2 the councellors if i realli got desparate yet i feel like there is nobody there... i'm all alone... oh well... they're just deep dark thoughts... thoughts within me... thoughts i dont dare think of... yet once in a while they come 2 surface whenever i'm alone jus sitting there with nothing to think about...

oh well... i should stop thinking bout this sort of stuff 4 a while
g2g do mi hw (it gotta happen sooner or later)
bye

yay i got a webcam now!!!!!!!
the thing is its connected 2 mi sista's computer coz mind dont work properly :(
oh well...

i had chinese yesterday and we actually got some work done!
but if u ask me it seemed a bit usless... learn how 2 rite bout our starsigns...
we had singing afta that where we sang remember by S.H.E.

we then bought the webcam and i went bak 2 tha shop
i helped Minh out wit some of tha work...

nothing much happened... except 4 a container lady attack and seeing some ppl

she sorta walked in and complained that while she wz eating food 4m mi resto she spilt it as she wz eating it on the car on tha way of coming 2 tha shop...
and i heard her voice and hid under the counter with mi sista
and i dont noe but there is something wrong with her... she jus decided 2 go round 2 the back of tha counter and found me and mi sista and we were like 'umm... hi we didnt c u coming! soz we were jus getting somethin 4m under the counter' and surprisingly she believed us!
quickly we walked off saying that we needed 2 get something and take it 2 tha resto and began walking out tha front door but then annoyingly her van wz parked outside the shop so she began pulling me 2wards her van and saying 'u gotta go meet mi son' and i'm like "NNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO"
well i said hi and she asked me mi age and i said 15 and her son wz 17 and she's like quite a good match coz he's still single... and i wanted 2 vomit.... there is no way this would work out!
and then she left thank goodness!

Truly the sooner chi chi's son gets a social life and finds himself a girlfriend tha happier i'll be! then i'm being a bit hypocritical since i dont have a social life of mi own....

and then other then them i saw Callum, Sam and Ben Jones....

first it wz sam, i saw him afta chi chi left, (he used 2 go 2 tha same primary skool as me) and said hi and he said hi... nothing much but the onli surprise wz wen he said hi it wz such a deep voice i nearly jumped in surprise it wz SO LOW!!!! very freaky.... i guess thats an example of ppl changing...

then it wz Ben Jones... well i dont noe him that well... he wz in mi sista's class wen she wz still in hps (Hollywood primary skool) and lina and i saw him and his dad and his dad points out 'hey ben isn't that ure good friend alina? " and they both look away... quickly lina runs 2 hide... and he goes off looking at stuff...
then i shout out 'bye lina' in some random direction coz she wz crouching next 2 mi feet in tha lunch bar and he saw me and went lookin in that direction i called 2... lol
thing is alina used 2 have this huge crush over him and has nearly gotten ova it and now she wz like OMG... lol

dia - seems like kevin has a little competition... lol

and afta that i saw callum...

that wz all i think that happened yesterday....

oh well...

yay i jus came bak 4m cadets and now i've been promoted yay!!!!!!!
but then i dont realli noe if i realli wanna be promoted....
but i guess it wz ova due coz it wz meant 2 be last yr....

i guess its jus more resposibilities and expectations...
i realli cant stand those 2 words, i realli dunno y....

and dia i cant believe u missed out on ure own promotion...
oh well it'll happen next week (if they remember)...
and also u missed out on gettin a hat badge... i'm not sure if there are ne left tho...
i wz gonna get one 4 u but they wouldnt let me.... :(

i guess thats all that's happened...

mi life realli is boring and repetitive...

list -
things that i can actualli rite bout:
*promotion
*flying camp
*choral camp (coming up soon)
*singing at tha riverside (coming up later)
*mining camp (coming up later)
*jnco (later if i go)
*horse riding camp (if i get in 2 it)
*flying camp 2 (later if i go)

hmm cant think of ne thing else...
plus its gettin late
nite nite