I Feel...?

I feel...?

previously writing a post on emot-icons..
but.. deleted it coz it was only 3 lines long
of which each line is about 3-5 words so yeah
i couldnt remember it anymore

however...
seeing it reminded me of a website my friend showed me.

www.wefeelfine.org

an online study which gathers information from blogs globally
and categorises them into the weather, gender, age group and how they feel at that moment

just reminds you that once again.. you're not alone, no?

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Looking at the title,
i thought. why not finish and publish anyways?
the title pretty much summarises me atm.
sometimes (like right now)
as much as you'd like to express something
just nothing comes
no rambles
no sentences
no words
no sounds
nothing.

and to describe it? even harder.
its like a moving emptiness
but does that make sense?
how could there be movement in the absence of presence?
to waiver and to sway
but to feel just as hollow
the boundaries maybe?

smooth white lines in the darkness
swaying in their enchanted dance
slowly curving and meandering
like the waters of a creek
making their way through
but where are they going?
not up but down...
down down down
as if there is no end
like there is no cut off

so is there another dark screen?
one which blocks my view?
or is it my view that narrows my sight?

its as if i want to peer forwards in time
through the continuum but..
no not now. i dont want to lose my current time
dont go.
not yet.
i havent stopped to take in this moment
why rush? i need this time.
but to the future i'm scared.
don't we all fear the unknown?

i should be doing this
for that i'm sure
i should be studying
but i feel...
i feel..
i feel as tho its too far away to stress over
that it should never come
but every morning
i wake in shock.
trying to figure which day it is
if my day's gone by
if ive missed the chance
ive said before my days bleed in
one goes on to antoher
like flashes in a dream

hmm..
so shall it be back to study?
-Del