well and i also noticed the nice quote area on this template :P
so yeah
You are a Healer.
About Healers...
You are a rare individual. Idealistic almost to a fault, the Healer is known for his or her selfless and caring nature. Oftentimes a quiet sort, you have a hidden passion for life that no one else can understand. You want to -- and you can -- make such a difference in this world. The question you often find yourself asking is, "Why can't other people see this side of me?" Unfortunately, that's just your nature. Lots of people (who you may resent) go out seeking attention, but you'd rather have it come to you. That doesn't always happen because its just not a perfect world.
People who don't know you might first think "boring" when speaking with you. You know better, though -- even if you are tempted to believe them at times. To those that know better, you can be an incredibly special friend. Seek out these kinds of people and you'll find life to be much richer -- let the others miss out on the hidden treasure that is you.
Throughout your life, you may face an awkward internal fight between good and bad. Your desire to do right is balanced by an equally-powerful need to avoid wrong. Everyone makes bad decisions -- that's just a part of life. But when you do something you know is wrong, that stupid conscience of yours makes you feel terrible. Oh, the horrors of being a Healer.
Possible Careers: Social Worker, College Professor
social worker...
well that seems a possibility but college professor?!?! O.o
lets jus conclude on no and i cant teach?
returning to last time..
or really whatever..
i wonder..
with the whole sperm race thing..
if the proposal actually ended up becoming reality?
you know what?
i dont feel like talking bout that...
well not anymore..
for those who read this following stuff
and from the hinting know of this following stuff
plz dont inform the actual person
i still personally believe that i do have a right to my opinion
and since ive put the password thingy back up
im assuming he wont have a chance to find this out
so do me a favour and dont let him find out
my opinion remains the same
and this is my vent
*sigh*...
why the BLOODY HELL CANT YOU LEAVE ME ALONE
yes i know blah blah and blah
but seriously..
i know you need time..
but what of me!?!?
hello im NOT over it yet..
if you havent bloody realised?
i keep avoiding you..
oh and the fact that i was congratulating cindy on kicking you?
hmm fine my mum's like you should be nice to ppl..
whether you like em or not..
fine but you know i do have my limits
and atm
its at i still cant bloody stand ure fucking presence..
sometimes like ppl say..
if you try expressing any feelings it really can end up
stuffing the whole bloody thing up
some say
"how can you turn back when you've seen the world?"
true...
but in reverse
i find out the truth
and no i dont want anything to do with you
i dont understand it but seriously
you once asked why some ppl cant look past some things
cant turn a blind eye to some things
but seriously
it really depends on each person's principles
each person relates to another in different ways
and for some
really i cant relate in that kinda way
sometimes
when ppl turn things around
it can turn a single person's point of view..
a whole idea of some one's world can turn upside down
well for me
in some things i cant really accept it..
it really is like strange
and its outta my world and concepts
and my ideas
it just cant make sense to me
some of these things i just really cant process
like it just doesnt sink in
and really i feel disgusted..
it just sickens me on such a strange level
the only way i can seem to deal really is to turn away
but what can i do?
wen its something i am forced to face frequently
and i dont want it
i dont want to have to accept anything
i just find this all TOO WRONG
everything you bloody DO annoys me
the air you breath sickens me
dont you get it?
i even was as forward as i wanted to be
i literally said
and have said many times
GO AWAY
and i still remain on the same stance
i cant help it
and its not doing good
oh and the talk?
oh its lovely
you know now how much i agree with that dude we heard of in lit?
something along the lines of
its better that women are not talked of or good or bad?
atm i totally agree
i dont want to HEAR of talk of me
im GO to a girls school'
there's bound to be plenty of bitching around
NO
i dont want to hear more outside of school
i really dont want to hear of ppl
telling me how i should treat a particular single person
coz this person has been talking to others bout the way i treat them
i am a person
i DO have the right to do what i choose
whether or not i conform to the constraints of a bloody bitch
or a player
or a ditz
or a good daddy's lil girl
or any bloody stereotype
i do as i choose
bloody hell
fine its true when i say and do things
i sometimes or even most times dont think of reactions
and really i thank scarlet to for reminding me of somethings that i say outta line
i truely thank her frankness for telling me these things
which is good
but the talk im talking of
is something which is way more diff
i dont want to hear of talk from this person
to another who then later relates it to me
i dont want ANY more guilt over this bloody person
who wont leave me alone
for christ's sake LET GO
oh and the fotos done help much now do they
let go
go away
and stop pix whether or not you take em still
i dont want to have any more run ins with cameras
OR camera fones
the dvd with all the pix sorta
up-ed the not so happy with you
you know what?
im camera paranoid at times now?
fine ive taken to taking pix of myself
but hey..
thats whenever i have random up times
wen i actually do feel comfortable with my own self esteem and body image
really
non consentual pix dont help
oh and camera fones?
dont you just love em?
why is it that every time i tend to have
run ins with fones that have cameras who also take pictures?
damnit
i really really hate them
yes they are a convenient gadget which is good
coz you dont have to bring a camera with you everywhere
but seriously
these things also have their bad side
i cant stand the site of camera fones
teh fact taht ppl using em
can potentially be taking a foto
it just is scary...
oh last note?
LET GO
the more you think about it
less likely you are to let go
oh for those who think im harsh?
think bout it
the fact that i had to be the one who had to START the whole
"face-it-i-don't-like-you-in-that-way" talk
my god
really i am disgusted i even had to go through with it
well
and teh fact that HEY it had to come from me
being FORCED by a teacher to face up to something
which i dont need to deal with
coz it wasnt a prob to me before
and really?
apparently you've had 4 years to get over it?
you said ure trying to let go?
hello i dont SEE any signs..
yes ure around less often
the pictures from before?
they still bug me
that there is that slight chance that he has them
its just way to freaky
its creepy
and its scary
and i dont want want to know
you know you can vent but HELLO?
venting to others who in turn turn around and tell me to stop doing what im doing?
i dont restrict anything you do
i avoid and if you do stuff then fine
i try my best to ignore
bloody hell
dont you get the idea of i at the current moment REALLY HATE YOU!?!?
damnit
anyways..
after the long vent..
and impossible "enter's"
(my enter key is stuffed on the laptop
nite nite
*hugz*
Ps. you know..
i think i could turn this in to a whole sectionalised topic name
QV - Quiz result AND vent :P
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