Jealousy.and Envy.

Yep.
my attempt at a post.
anyways..

"people are changing every single second of their lives..
for everything you do out of the norm you have in a way changed yourself."

that's waht i have for my personal msg on msn..
really..
just a thought i had when i was filling in the quiz before..
im really tired but i wanna type this post up..
its like i havent had any form of like output
or expression of thoughts recently..
need the outage..

um..
well
yeh..

anyone got any ideas bout the stopping or removal of jealousy?

you'd think.
with all the things we in a western society..
and being in the upper working class..
attending an school where the affluent are a plenty..
and having material possessions which round 75% of the world's population
dont even know how to use or know if it exists..
ppl would be content..
but WHY THE HELL..
does the jealousy still bite...?

if its not this..
then its that?
even..
sometimes it occurs within families as well
WHY???

is it really the feeling of inadequacy of oneself?
or just the fact that there is greed lurking in the minds of all?
basic animal instinct to want what others have?
or just the fact that everyone is a harsh judge of themselves?
or just the fact that the world revolves
around every single person..
and they just think that hey..
"if its meant to revolve around me why dont i have that?"

And what of envy..
where is the line of difference
which divides jealousy and envy?

and if its not material jealousy..
then what of relationships and emotions??

why are there mind games..?
the idea that there is a need for cunning.
an animalistic/instinctive push forwards to outwit to outsmart..

god im so god damn tired..
and its only 11:21pm

i dont get why the hell
im so god damn exhausted these days as well -.-

i really wanna write more
and do a total mental dump..
but maybe later i guess..
since seriously
sleep is over coming me..

oh and last note...
THANK GOD school lasts only for half a day tomoz..
it means NO CHEM!!!
yay!! DONT have to deal with my NEW CRAPPY chem teacher..
who cannot teach and drives ppl outta taking the subject..

anyways..
nite nite
*hugs*